Autobiography of My Hungers
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Bill Whitehead Award for Lifetime Literary Achievement, Publishing Triangle
“Told in a series of revealing vignettes and poems, González’s Autobiography of my Hungers turns moments of need and want into revelations of truth and self-awareness, creating the portrait of an artist that is complex if not entirely complete.”—El Paso Times
“Through his provocative vignettes, González communicates a lifetime of struggle for affirmation and self-acceptance.”—Make/Shift
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Autobiography of My Hungers - Rigoberto González
leaving the motherland ,
mother leaving me
duty
for the households without washing machines, the place to do the laundry by hand in Zacapu, Michoacán, was at La Zarcita, the lake on the other side of town. My father carried the basket of clothes on his shoulder; my mother held my hand as we made the journey to the concrete washboards. We were still only three in that family, but my mother was pregnant.
Since this was women’s work, my father took me to the part of the lake where young people swam. I squatted at the edge, making the surface of the water ripple with the tip of a twig. I forgot all about my father standing at a distance, he too lost in thought as he looked at my mother kneeling at the washboard, a white mass of suds expanding around her. They were in their early twenties, chained to domestic responsibilities and anxious about money. But I didn’t know this yet. I only knew that they were all mine.
An empty bag of laundry detergent floated in front of me, its plastic body bloated with air, so I snagged it with the twig. One more game: I tried to fill it with water. But when I leaned forward I fell into the lake. My father and the sound of the women washing disappeared.
When my father pulled me out, I was too stunned to cry or complain as I stood naked in the sun, my shirt, shorts, and socks splayed out on rock. I had seen this sight the night before: a tinier version of my clothing stretched across my mother’s lap, which was too crowded to sit on. I prayed my father, shaking his head at my stupidity, didn’t make the wish I had made last night: for the clothes never to be filled with flesh.
piedrita
I find my little brother’s baby sweater in the bottom drawer and something
compels me to try it on though even my little brother has long
outgrown it.
His shoes look like odd tiny cubes so I don’t even bother.
But his pacifier, plucked right out of his mouth, fits
into my mouth just perfectly. Now, how to climb into the crib.
How to squeeze
his plump body through the narrow wooden bars.
potato
the apples of the earth,
they’re called in France, and in Spain, patatas
; but in the Spanish-speaking Americas we call them papas,
from the Quechua, and they always sit at the center of the table, silent witnesses to the meals that we have or don’t have in our crowded homes.
When I was a child I marveled at the versatility of this vegetable, how it was like a stone but could not break glass, how it was like an apple or a pear but without the sweetness, how it could calm our appetite but could not do away with hunger, which always came back, looking for its empty chair in our dining room.
Yet the potato was always with us, our angel from the ground, our missing piece to the cavity of the hand, the mouth, and the stomach.
I woke up in the middle of the night with a pain in my belly and I stepped off my bed with a mission: I would wake my mother and ask her to fry me a potato—only the sound of the skillet, only the smell of the oil, would comfort me. No, we were not going to starve, despite what Abuelo had said the week before.
As I made my way through the living room, I caught sight of the basket of potatoes on the table: each tiny head asleep and plump with meat. It was like sneaking into the chicken coop and finding the chicks huddled against the hen. But here there was no hen. We had eaten her. How foolish, I thought. We will never again have eggs.
zacapu
in Purépecha, the town’s name means rock,
though we have been chipping away at it for generations, flattening the landscape and replacing the boulders with brick.
The Purépecha are my paternal grandmother’s people. Short and dark, like many of us, they come down from the mountains to sell chapatas and nopales. They do not please the bank tellers when they walk through the doors in dusty sandals and rebozos cradling crying