All the Wandering Light
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The second in a sweeping and action-packed fantasy duology loosely inspired by the early climbers of Mount Everest—perfect for fans of Tamora Pierce and Kristin Cashore.
After the terrifying events on Mount Raksha, the witches have returned, and River has betrayed Kamzin to regain his dark powers. The witches’ next step: march on the Three Cities and take over the Empire—led by River’s brother, Esha.
If Kamzin is to save Azmiri and prevent the destruction of the Empire, she must find a star that fell in the Ash Mountains to the north. Fallen stars have immense power, and if Kamzin and Lusha can find the star, they can use its magic to protect their homeland. To get there, Kamzin has allied with Azar-at, the dangerous and deceptive fire demon, who can grant her great power—in exchange for pieces of her soul. But River wants the star too, and as their paths collide in dangerous and unexpected ways, Kamzin must wrestle with both her guilt and her conflicted feelings for the person who betrayed her.
Facing dark magic, a perilous journey, and a standoff against the witches, can Kamzin, Lusha, and Tem find the star and save their Empire?
Heather Fawcett
Heather Fawcett is also the author of the middle grade novels The School Between Winter and Fairyland, The Language of Ghosts, and Ember and the Ice Dragons as well as the young adult Even the Darkest Stars series. She has a master’s degree in English literature and has worked as an archaeologist, photographer, technical writer, and backstage assistant for a Shakespearean theater festival. She lives on Vancouver Island, Canada. Heather can be found online at heatherfawcettbooks.com.
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All the Wandering Light - Heather Fawcett
Part I
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One
I WAS LOST.
The wind lashed my face with snow lifted from the mountainside. Drawing breath was difficult, seeing my way near impossible. I forced myself to put one foot in front of the other, to replace my hood when the gusts blew it back, though I noticed little difference in warmth. I noticed little of anything. Even the wind’s claws against my face, carrying ice so sharp my fingers came away spotted with red, had faded from my awareness.
Another step. Another.
Behind me, Azar-at was silent. At times, the wind and blown snow seemed to dissolve the fire demon’s tenuous, wolflike form, and all I could see were eyes the color of fired coals gleaming through the swirl of white. Even when I didn’t look, though, I knew it was there. Azar-at’s presence was a weight that dragged behind me like a heavy cloak.
Biter croaked in my ear. Lusha’s raven familiar was nestled in the crook of my neck, the weather making flight impossible. Clouds swirled around us, spilling snowflakes the size of coins. Despair washed over me. When I had left Raksha’s summit, the wind had been rising, and I was too exhausted to make it down the rock wall I had scaled before. It had seemed possible to descend the precipitous slopes to the east, then traverse back to the plateau where I had left Tem, Lusha, and Mara two days ago.
Possible. Now that I was actually descending, I was discovering how little resemblance possible
bore to advisable.
Narrowing my eyes against the howling wind, I drove my ax into the mountain again, focusing on what mattered most: Lusha and Tem.
Their names, repeated in my mind, were the fire that kept me going, though every muscle screamed at me to stop, to give in to the hungry pull of the earth below. Were my sister and my best friend all right?
I pictured Tem, pale and haggard. He had been badly injured in the avalanche that almost swept him and Mara off the mountain. Lusha could barely walk after breaking her ankle on the Ngadi face, a treacherous wall of ice. Neither of them would last long in this environment. If I didn’t make it back—
I shook myself. I couldn’t dwell on ifs. I had to focus on finding Lusha and Tem, and after that, figuring out how to save Azmiri from the witches’ inevitable attack on the Empire. As the closest settlement to the witches’ lands, Azmiri was vulnerable.
But what could I do? I hadn’t been able to stop River from lifting the binding spell at the summit of Raksha, and restoring the witches’ powers—how was I going to protect my village from an army of creatures who could take any form they chose, and control the darkness itself? I couldn’t begin to answer that, but it didn’t matter. First, I would get us off the mountain. Then I would come up with a plan.
It’s all right,
I said. My throat was raw from the cold, and I barely recognized my own voice. We just have to keep going.
I wasn’t sure if was talking to Biter or myself.
The raven croaked again, a low sound like the purr of a cat. He was exhausted too—there was no shelter on this side of the mountain, no ledges to rest upon. Twilight was falling. I had been descending since morning.
Occasionally, the wind dropped and the snow cleared, revealing a glimpse of the vastness before me. Each time, I choked back a sob. It wasn’t because I was thousands of feet in the sky, clinging to a slope so steep that one wrong step would send me tumbling into the clouds. It was because the view never changed. I could have been standing where I was an hour ago. How was I going to find my way back to the others?
Which brought me, again, to Azar-at.
I glanced over my shoulder, locating the glowing eyes in a heartbeat. I knew the fire demon was still there. I looked because part of me hoped it wasn’t.
When I had made my contract with Azar-at, I had been desperate. My body was bruised and battered from the ascent to the summit, and the thin air made it difficult to think straight. Azar-at’s power seemed like the only way I could get myself off Raksha, let alone help anyone else. Yet I had discovered that, impossibly, I had scraps of strength left. I hadn’t used the fire demon’s magic yet—or paid its inevitable price.
Biter let out a cry. He launched himself into the air, leaving behind a small patch of warmth on my neck.
Biter!
I tried to grab at his tail feathers. The raven flew a few yards down the mountain, settling into a hollow I could barely see.
After an interminable time, I reached the narrow shelter. It was only a few feet high, curved like a halved egg. It looked as if a chunk of the mountain had loosened and fallen away—recently, if the thin layer of snow was any indication. I was too exhausted to consider the danger—I tucked myself into that tiny pocket of space within the vastness of snow and sky, and something inside me wilted. I removed my pack and dropped my head onto my knees.
Azar-at crouched above me, the strange furnace of its body singeing the snow. It dripped down the rock, freezing in icicles like jagged teeth.
Why do you struggle, Kamzin? its voice murmured in my thoughts. Friends need you. They wait for you, worrying. You should not let friends worry.
I’ll find them.
Not for the first time, I wished I could shield my mind from the creature’s sinuous voice.
Fast is the wind over the mountain, Azar-at said. Faster still could you reach friends if you use your magic.
It isn’t my magic,
I snapped. It’s yours. I will borrow it when I have no other choice—and only then. Don’t you remember what I said?
I remember.
Then don’t ask me again.
I couldn’t use Azar-at’s magic without giving the fire demon part of my soul. That was the only currency it would accept.
We are friends now, Azar-at said. I will do anything you want.
I suppressed a shudder. Biter nipped at the flap on my pack, and I shooed him away. I carefully tucked the pack into a crevice in the rock where the snow wouldn’t settle on it. I knew that the small creature inside could no longer feel the cold, but I couldn’t bear the thought of Ragtooth’s body being swallowed by the snow, becoming a frozen feature of the mountainside. Loyal to the end, my familiar had challenged Azar-at on the summit, and Azar-at—who had then been bound to River—had broken him. I felt fury at River rear up again, followed by grief that ached in my bones.
No tears came. I had none left.
I didn’t realize I had fallen asleep until I opened my eyes and found that the night was still. I blinked, uncomprehending, shaking off the snow that covered me.
The blue-black sky hung before me like a vast, unraveled scroll. Countless stars flickered, forming constellations both familiar and strange. And across them streaked something I had never seen before.
Thousands of shooting stars. So close to where I sat, in that pocket of sky, that I felt I could touch them, and so bright my eyes watered.
Azar-at,
I whispered, equal parts fearful and awed, what is this?
The fire demon—crouched above me in the shadows—shook itself. Little drops of melted snow speckled my chuba.
It is River, Azar-at said.
Terrified, I shrank back as if the stars would burn me. They streaked across the sky in fiery bursts, tinged with red and yellow and blue. It was as if the night was tearing itself apart. I half expected the sky to give a shudder and fall to the earth in shards, revealing some strange otherworld hidden behind it.
River?
During that long day, I had beaten back all thoughts of him, my fury subsumed by the simple need to survive. He had lied to me, betrayed me, and left me. He was not the person he had pretended to be—the emperor’s favorite, his trusted advisor. Or, rather—even worse—he was those things, and he was also a witch who had been working against the Empire from the very beginning. He had stood at the summit of Raksha, in the witches’ abandoned city, and unleashed their powers. Even the sound of his name seemed to settle in my chest like a small, cold weight. What do you mean?
They tell stories, Azar-at said. River made an end. An end and a beginning.
Stories,
I murmured. The stars told stories, certainly, for those—like Lusha, or Yonden—skilled enough to read them. What had my sister once said about star showers like this? That they were rare, so rare the last one had faded from living memory. And that they marked significant events. Turning points in the course of history.
I watched the sky. In spite of myself, I was awed. River had done this—altered the fabric of the world. But he hadn’t acted alone.
I bit my lip so hard I tasted blood. I had helped him, guided him to Raksha. And everything that happened as a result would be my fault. If I couldn’t warn Azmiri of what was coming, if I couldn’t get back to the village before the witches attacked—
Biter,
I said, wincing as I shifted position, we may not have another chance like this.
The raven, who had returned to the crook between my neck and shoulder, croaked sleepily. He shook his wind-ruffled feathers and took flight, winking past the burning trails of the stars. But though the gusts had lessened, they never completely abandoned this exposed crag. After being beaten back against the mountainside twice, Biter flapped back to the shelter, landing inelegantly with wings askew.
That’s all right,
I said, even as dread unspooled within me. We’ll take it slow. At least we can see now.
I forced myself to my feet. The pain in my ankle had dulled, but I knew it was just because everything was dulled, and that this was a dangerous thing. I leaned against the snow-caked mountain for a moment, then I drew on my pack and began descending again. The burning sky provided enough illumination to make out the shape of the mountainside.
I stabbed my ax into the ice, using it as an anchor as I craned to look in all directions. This couldn’t be right. I had been bearing west all day, and by now, I should be close to the rocky plain where River and I had evaded the ghosts. And yet I could see only snowy slopes, impossibly sheer. I would have to turn back and find another route down.
I punched at the snow. How could this have happened? My sense of direction was normally unerring. As I contemplated my worsening prospects, Biter called out a warning, sharp in my ear.
I turned. To my right, the terrain rose to form a treacherous cornice, wreathed in mist. My breath caught in my throat.
A figure perched on the cornice, silhouetted against the blaze of shooting stars. He was tall and slender, clad in an expensively woven chuba tugged by the wind. His hood was up, and I couldn’t see his face. It didn’t matter. I would have known that chuba anywhere.
River?
I croaked.
The figure’s head tilted. Even his stance was River’s—one foot propped carelessly against the lip of the snow as if nothing but solid ground was beyond it; elbows bent over hands thrust into pockets. Graceful and nonchalant, and equally unknowable, a shadow in the night.
How could he be here? When I had last seen him, he had been descending the mountain faster than any human could move.
Fury rose again, dwarfing the surge of hope that had risen, unbidden, at the sight of him. After all that River had done, he would dare return here? And for what purpose—to gloat? I crept toward him, raising my second ax. But before I could get any farther, he took a single step forward and plunged into the abyss.
River!
I cried.
A moment of mad scrambling brought me to the cornice. The ice groaned ominously beneath my weight. To my astonishment, there were no footprints in the snow. And there was no sign of River. The mountain fell away in a sheer drop of perhaps a hundred feet, and at the bottom was—
I gasped.
The exposed rock of the mountainside curved down to a shallow plateau, and a mound of rock where a cave had collapsed. The very cave where River had trapped the dead explorer Mingma and the other ghosts, what felt like weeks ago.
I hadn’t been traveling in the wrong direction after all. I just hadn’t gone far enough.
I sank onto the snow, weakened by relief. To think that I had almost turned around, when I was only a few hours from Lusha and Tem! Biter, catching my excitement, flapped in a circle around my head. The wind tossed him against my pack, which gave a shudder.
And then another shudder.
My heart leaped into my throat. I wrenched the pack from my shoulders, fumbling with the flap with half-frozen hands. I reached inside, my fingers grasping at soft—and surprisingly warm—fur. There came a quiet whine.
I eased Ragtooth out of the pack and tucked him inside my chuba. My vision dissolved as tears streamed down my face.
I thought you were gone.
One of the tears caught on his whisker and hung there like dew. I’m sorry.
The fox stirred. One eye was sealed shut from the swelling and dried blood. His back was bent at an odd angle, his limbs stiff and cold. I held a finger in front of his face, and he gave it a weary lick.
I cradled him to my chest. Ragtooth made a sound deep in his throat and burrowed his head into my chuba.
I knew that I should say something, but the words didn’t come. Ragtooth had been at my side since before I could remember, his uncanny presence a constant in my life, through my mother’s death and my father’s absences. His green eyes gleaming in the dark had comforted me as a child afraid of monsters. And after all our time together, this would be how it ended—in this cold and barren place, far from home.
Silent as falling snow, Azar-at settled beside me.
No help for death, it said. No use for tears. Tears will not bring back friends.
He’s hurt.
It was stupid to deny what was happening. But still there was a part of me that refused to accept it. He isn’t—
I stopped. Slowly, I turned to face Azar-at. Can you heal him?
I? I do not interfere in human business. But you could, Kamzin.
I stared. The creature gazed back at me, its eyes as unfathomable as the stars, or the darkness between them. I turned back to Ragtooth. His chest rose and fell, rattling with each breath. But still he managed the faintest of growls.
Don’t start,
I snapped, dashing my tears away. I don’t care if you think it’s a good idea. It’s my decision.
Losing Ragtooth had felt like a wound that would never heal clean. If there was even the smallest chance that I could save him, I would take it, no matter the cost.
I turned back to Azar-at. All right.
The creature almost seemed surprised. Almost—it was eternally hard to read its emotions, if it even possessed them. Are you prepared?
Nausea rose in my throat. Never mind that. Are you sure this is possible?
Yes.
Then do it. Quickly.
I leaned back, bracing myself for pain worse than I had ever felt. I pictured Ragtooth opening his eyes, alive, healthy. But the fire demon merely sat there, motionless. The seconds slid past.
Well?
I said. Is there—?
Ragtooth let out a ferocious growl. He leaped to the ground, and suddenly there was no trace of injury anywhere on his body—even his fur seemed healthier, gleaming faintly in the starlight. He growled again, his gaze fixed on Azar-at.
My cry of delight was cut short by a force that knocked me onto my back. To call it pain would be a mistake, for this was something beyond pain, a searing heat that bloomed in my chest and radiated through every inch of me. And with that agony was a strange sense of something being torn from me so quickly I couldn’t place what it was, leaving behind a haunted feeling, as if I had awoken from a nightmare that evaded memory.
Then it was gone, and my weariness returned tenfold. Shakily, I sat up. I didn’t feel any different—at least, I didn’t think I did. Was this what River had experienced each time he used Azar-at to cast a spell? How could he have borne it so many times?
Ragtooth nipped me. With a shaky laugh, I wrapped him in my arms and buried my face in his soft fur. He struggled, but only halfheartedly. Azar-at watched us. The fire demon’s gaze burned, but its expression was the same—frozen in a wolf’s grin, tongue lolling.
Ragtooth, no,
I cried as the fox writhed out of my grip and scuttled close to Azar-at, growling and snapping. I knew all too well what had happened the last time he challenged the fire demon.
No need to fear, Kamzin, Azar-at said. I would not hurt friends.
I shook my head. I didn’t have time to make sense of Azar-at’s loyalties, which seemed to shift as easily as the smoke off a campfire. I gathered Ragtooth back into my arms, risking a kiss on his furry snout. A star soared past the mountain, so close I heard the air crackle, with a smaller one trailing in its wake.
Lusha. Tem. The stars seemed to blaze even brighter, echoing my determination. I would find them, and then—somehow—I would find a way to stop what I had helped River unleash. I settled Ragtooth around my shoulders and lowered myself over the edge.
Two
River
HE SOARED ABOVE the earth, an owl silhouetted against the stars as they arched and burned. He tried to race them, and when he tired of that he flew to the ground, owl dissolving into leopard. He tried on a dozen different animals in quick succession—hawk, dragon, tahr—reveling in the magic. The binding spell had been cast long before he was born, and his powers were new—everything felt new. He tried transforming into shadow, folding himself into the darkness as witches were said to do in stories, but either the stories were exaggerated or it was a skill that required practice. He eventually gave up the effort.
As the night deepened, River assumed his familiar, human form at the edge of a stream shining with ice and crowded with glacial boulders. He threw himself onto the ground, exhausted but jubilant. The emperor’s spell was broken, and he had the powers that should have been his from birth. He no longer had to rely on secondhand magic from Azar-at. As he gazed into the sky, he felt that even it was too small to contain him.
As if echoing his mood, shooting stars painted the night with fire. The sky was so bright it could have been lit by three moons. No doubt there was some mystical reason for it—something dull and prophetic, as those things often were.
He had descended the tallest mountain in the world, then covered fifty miles of ground in a single day. The Arya Mountains were still visible to the west, their sharp, snowy peaks faded to dusky gray. Raksha loomed over the rest like a dark threat. As he traveled, he had the sense that the mountain was watching with an odd combination of menace and regret. He shrugged off the feeling.
While witches could assume the shape of almost any animal they chose, the stories said that most used only one regularly: their secondskin. Changing shape was tiring, particularly when it involved taking the form of an animal you felt no affinity with. Yet he didn’t feel tired, and all the shapes he tried felt easy and natural, though he perhaps preferred the leopard he had first chosen, with its sleek grace and deathly silent paws.
The land before him was familiar, though the trees were sparse, nothing like the heart of the Nightwood, the witches’ forest. A hint of smoke hung in the air, another taste of home. At his current pace, he would be there within a day.
He held out a hand and let the shadows play over the water, creating ripples and waves. For more than three years, home had been a patch of grass in the wilderness, the oilcloth of a tent flapping in the wind, the howl of wolves. Or it had been the ridiculous spectacle of the emperor’s court, where even the spoons were inlaid with jade and you could die of boredom were it not such a commonplace sensation that one grew inoculated. There had been no River Shara—he had invented him. But there was something appealing in that—in becoming a person he had created, rather than one constrained by things he had never chosen.
Now that their powers were restored, he supposed that the witches would attack the Empire. Or would Esha, his brother, wait for a more opportune moment, perhaps when the emperor was distracted by a barbarian invasion?
It doesn’t matter.
River didn’t care about the Empire. He didn’t care about revenge, which had always struck him as a wasteful concept. His years as an explorer had taught him how fine the line was between life and death, for the powerful and powerless alike, and he had no intention of wasting time constructing elaborate plots to wreck the Empire. His thoughts had been occupied by one thing: breaking the spell. Now it was done, he would not stay in the Nightwood for long—he would not stay in any place for long. He would leave the Empire behind, and go wherever he liked.
He had always wondered what strange lands lay east of the Nightwood. Or perhaps he would travel south, all the way to the great lake that the stories said was made of liquid salt and stretched to the edge of the world.
The shadows had begun to drift. He lifted his hand, and they darted back to him. It was surprising how easily the darkness responded to his command. He focused, and the shadows swirled together, spinning like a dancer over the water. Shapes rose from the darkness. A fish. A rhododendron bloom. A palace on a hilltop. His eldest brother, Sky, his grim face caught in one of his rare smiles.
The shadows spun faster. Sky, Esha, and Thorn—each of his older brothers was ruthlessness personified, a knife edge in the night. He had only missed one—Sky, the eldest, quieter and more deliberate than the others. To most, that deliberation only added to his fearsomeness, for he had been a large, imposing man, given to deadly flashes of temper. There had only been one person who was spared that temper, and that was his youngest brother. But Sky was dead—he had taken his own life soon after their mother had.
River pictured his brother’s brow furrowing as he recounted the story of his years at the emperor’s court, Sky balancing his chin on his hand as he did when lost in thought. River would have told him about the banquets, the impossible luxury juxtaposed with the harrowing expeditions to distant lands. His mood darkened.
He glanced over his shoulder. What do you think . . .
No fire demon gazed back at him. The place where Azar-at would have sat, tongue lolling and coal eyes glittering, was empty. He had left Azar-at behind, as he had left Kamzin and the rest of his expedition.
He was suddenly very aware of the expanse of land around him, the whisper of the icy stream. River dashed his hand through the shadow, shattering the shapes he had summoned. He lay down, expecting sleep to find him quickly.
A steep, snowy slope, and the pull of the earth far below. His hand clenched on his ax as it bit into the mountain, his fingers aching with cold. Before him loomed the col that joined Raksha to its neighboring peak, sharp against the starry sky. He took a deep breath and raised the ax again—
He bolted upright.
He glanced down at his hands, half-convinced he would find his ax. But they were empty, and he had abandoned the ax, along with most of his other possessions, in the cave below the summit of Raksha.
He was uneasy. The dream had been strangely vivid—so vivid he could still feel the chill wind against his face. He had left Raksha behind. But Kamzin hadn’t. Was that why his thoughts had strayed there?
When he had reached the summit of Raksha, he could taste the magic in the air. He had known he was close to breaking the binding spell that had weighed on him like a chain of iron since the day of his birth.
He felt a stab of something like anger, but colder, more fundamental. Kamzin had nearly succeeded in stopping him. A human girl with no magic whatsoever, just an impossible stubbornness. He wouldn’t have harmed her, yet she had looked him in the eye, her gaze cold as an avenging spirit, and sent him to what should have been his death.
Through the anger came a strange pang of longing. He pushed Kamzin from his mind. Thinking of her brought about an uncomfortable tangle of emotion, and he didn’t have the patience to sort through it.
A flash of motion from the corner of his eye. A fox scuttled out from beneath a boulder and paused in the starlight. Green eyes gleamed as the creature turned to look at him, head cocked playfully.
River froze.
Every sense told him that the fox was Kamzin’s familiar. But it was impossible. There was no way it could have followed him from Raksha. He dashed the sleep from his eyes, and when he opened them, the fox was gone.
First he was imagining himself back on Raksha, and now he was seeing Kamzin’s fox. Next he would be imagining Kamzin herself lurking in the shadows, her large eyes, framed by their dark lashes, narrowed with fury—the way she had looked when she tried to kill him.
His urge to linger on that quiet bank had vanished. Now he wanted to move, to watch the miles dissolve beneath him. He changed back into an owl and launched himself into the air, silent as a ghost.
Three
THE CAVE WAS quiet and still, shadowed in the early morning light. Nothing stirred on the snowy plain, and I saw no footprints. Given the wind last night, I told myself, that wasn’t unexpected.
Stay back,
I ordered Azar-at. Remember—
You wish to keep secrets from friends, the creature said. I remember.
I stopped short. That’s not—
I understand secrets, Kamzin.
I bet you do,
I muttered. Azar-at crouched behind a drift of snow, tail wagging. I left it there and headed for the cave. Ragtooth trotted at my side, light enough to tread atop the snow. I wished that Biter was still with me, but the raven had soared off somewhere as soon as the winds had died, and hadn’t returned.
No smoke rose from the cave. Surely that was to be expected too, given their low supply of firewood.
Lusha?
I called. Tem?
Silence.
My pace quickened. Despite my weariness, I was almost running. Ragtooth reached the cave first, peering inside with a plaintive sound. I was right behind him.
The cave was empty.
Strewn across the floor were the ashes of the fire, scattered by the wind. An empty satchel lay on its side, dusted with a fine layer of snow. The cave looked as if it had been abandoned months ago.
I backed out, panic rising in my throat. The blushing sky, still streaked with shooting stars, seemed oppressive, as did the mountain. It was all too vast, too silent.
Tem! Lusha!
I yelled. My voice didn’t echo—the wind carried it off, dead, as soon as it left my mouth. I was almost too exhausted to shout. Mara!
Find Lusha and Tem. The words had been an endless refrain as I descended the mountain. They now took on a mocking quality. Find Lusha and Tem. Save Azmiri.
Ragtooth had his snout to the ground, sniffing around the mouth of the cave. I saw myself and River finding it, staggering inside after an exhausting day. We had talked for hours that night, until I drifted asleep, feeling warm and safe. And then, after Lusha’s expedition followed ours, and River abandoned us all, my sister and I had sat here holding a statue of our mother, an explorer many times braver than me.
That brought me back to my senses. If something terrible had happened to Lusha and Tem, why would they have taken the trouble to gather up their belongings?
Kamzin?
I whirled.
Behind me was a thin figure, his chuba torn and stained with blood, his normally smooth, chin-length hair a dark tangle. Yet he stood upright, and his cheeks were flushed from exercise. His eyes, as they met mine, were filled with an undiluted joy that almost stopped my heart.
I was in his arms before either of us could draw another breath. The dragon perched on Tem’s shoulder gave a chirrup of alarm and leaped into the air. Tem’s shoulders shook, and I realized he was laughing. I began to laugh too, a wild sound that took my breath away and made me fear I would never stop.
We drew apart. I could barely believe my own eyes. When I had last seen Tem, he couldn’t lift his head, let alone walk. Yet apart from the weight he’d lost and the shadows under his eyes, he seemed almost well.
I thought—
we both began at the same instant. I laughed, but the humor had died from his eyes.
You look . . .
He stopped, and I felt a shiver of alarm. Did he know about Azar-at? If so, how? Could he somehow see the missing piece of my soul, like a hole in a piece of cloth?
You look like you’ve been through something,
he finished. He touched my face, and I was surprised by the whisper of pain it brought. Of course—the driving hail last night had cut me, and I was covered in bruises.
I eased back slightly. Lusha?
She’s fine,
he assured