Driving with Cats: Ours for a Short Time
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Catherine Holm
Catherine Holm is the author of the short story collection My Heart Is a Mountain and the memoir Driving With Cats: Ours For A Short Time. As Ann Catanzaro, she writes cat fantasy fiction. She is a freelance writer and editor, a yoga instructor, and lives in Cook, Minnesota, with her husband, several cats, and a dog.
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Contents
Driving with Cats: Ours for a Short Time
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Contents
Introduction
Note for Readers
Cat Family Tree
Act I: Jamie—The Beginning of the End
The Contents of My Cat Junk Drawer
Beans Don’t Wait, Basil Doesn’t Wait, Cats Don’t Wait
Cleo—Beginning to Drive
You know your cats are delighted you’re home from traveling when …
Nicknames
Tips for Driving with Cats
Tigger—Running in Circles
Tips for the Caregiver
Why Care About Cats?
Unconditional Love
Seeing Divinity in the Eyes of a Dog (or Cat)
Jamie Comes to Our House
Let Your Cat Help You Stay in the Moment
A Day at the Cat Farm
Moving with Cats
City Cat, Country Cat
Act II: Jamie—Driving into the Unknown
Surrendering Control
Guilt Serves No Purpose
Ours for a Short Time
Target’s Drive Home
Cats Live in the Moment
Patience and Persistence, Berry Picking, and Working with Cats
Dane Lodge—du Nord Teaches Me
Glass Half Full? Ask Your Cat!
The Solstice Cat
When Cats Come in from the Cold
Milo—A Shooting Star
Courage
It’s All Good
I Love You
Is Universal
The Courtship of Karma and the Courtship of Two Day
Scream Like a Cat
Contentment
Attachment
Adaptability
Kali’s Story
Noticing the Less Noticed
Watching, Wanting, Waiting
The Reluctant Mouser
Mukunda and Jamie
Old Stories, New Stories
Act III: Jamie—The Long Stretch to the End of the Road
Aftermath
Why Do We Have These Animals?
Wilderness Healing
Letting Go
Why I Grieve So Hard
Thoughts About the End of Life
Stretching
Our Calling
Epilogue
Introduction
I am defined by my cats.
In an earlier stage of life, I may have been ashamed to admit this, but no more! This is one of the benefits of growing older. We care less what people think. That’s a good thing, and quite freeing.
My cats have become a huge part of my life and yes, they have come to define me. Though I didn’t realize it until a few years ago, it is no accident my first name contains the syllable Cat.
I have started going by Cat,
which I prefer to Catherine.
How have my cats come to define me? I have had cats since 1989, when I adopted two Humane Society refugees to celebrate breaking up with an alcoholic boyfriend. (He was a nice guy with a lot of problems.) Adopting these cats represented a life milestone—I honored my new freedom.
A year later I met Chris, the man I would marry. Chris has been a big part of my life with cats, and I think the cats have defined him as well. Never believe a person who says they don’t like cats. A cat can and often will break into and enter the most doubtful heart.
My cats teach me daily lessons about joy, lightening up, having a sense of humor, patience, beauty, and loss. By the time I met my husband, I had already lost one of the original two cats that I adopted to celebrate my short life as a single person. But I could never guess at the cats that would follow. During the twenty-two years we’ve been together, we’ve had twelve cats and four dogs. Six cats and one dog are alive today. I do the best to give these animal companions wonderful, interesting lives, and they in turn make my life wonderful and interesting.
During the twenty-two years I’ve been with my husband and have shared our home with cats and dogs, our address has changed five times. The most dramatic move was from address number three (a small house in St. Paul, Minnesota) to address number four (a trailer in remote northern Minnesota). The cats gamely went along with the plan, and helped me with this life-changing adjustment. They were with me in a lonely new place as I went through severe culture shock in getting used to a remote rural area.
We’ve been at address number five now for seventeen years in the same remote rural area and we may or may not be here for good. The house is one story with no basement, and small by U.S. standards (800 square feet). I was raised with a compulsive ethic of cleanliness so I do my best to keep the house as clean as possible, even with several indoor cats. I’ve never had the courage to let the cats roam outside. There are plenty of predators here in the woods that would snap up a cat in no time.
Every morning, without fail, I clean four litter boxes. You should, the literature says, have a box for each cat. However, in our one-story log house, I only have room for four boxes. One box goes in the bathroom, three go behind the propane heater. I hope no one notices them too much.
Every morning and every evening I mix medicines for the cats. I probably go above and beyond what many people would do for their cats, and I have been doing it for years. They get immune-boosting supplements, liver support in one case for worrisome lab values, and anti-cancer holistic support for my young black cat who seems determined to grow lumps. If the lumps can grow, maybe they can just as easily dissolve away. That is my hope.
I have also spent many hours driving with cats. The drives are usually intense. I am being selfish; the drives are intense for me, not necessarily for the cats.
The cats are any color, any size or age. Tiny, fat, orange, tabby, silver, brown, white; long or short haired; eighteen years, ten years, two months. The cat may be squalling or may be a good, silent rider. We may be heading for a vet checkup, or to diagnose some worrisome development, or taking the most dreaded ride of all—euthanasia. These car rides are burned into my memory. Seared into my mind is a four-hour freeway ride to the cities with my black cat Target for risky surgery. Or a two-hour drive through snowstorms to an emergency vet with my streetsmart orange Milo. I live in the country and my favorite vets are either one hour away, or four hours away. The shorter drive is a two-lane highway through remote boreal forest. The four-hour drive is all freeway, and ends with the intense heat generated by the concrete of a large city. I’ve spent a lot of time driving with cats.
Sometimes the lessons are bitter and sweet. How to let go. How to be strong. How to serve. How to stay in the moment. How to love—with a depth I didn’t know possible.
Losing my cats has been harder for me than losing the few people in my life to date. What does this say about me—that I love cats better than people? I don’t think so. But perhaps cats unlock a piece of me that most people don’t. I would like to be as unlocked with people as I am with cats. Maybe time is the requirement—perhaps in another thirty years I will grieve with the intensity for humans that I do for cats. I don’t expect others to understand this—I only know that it is true. I grew up in a family where expressive love was not the norm. We were encouraged to be independent and get out on our own. I still carry the benefits and the snags of this upbringing—I don’t play too well in groups and I have a hard time trusting.
But my cats I can trust. They give their love freely. When I am with cats, I interact with them in the same way that many people act around babies. I want to hold them, and I feel love warming my heart and spilling out into the world. I think it is safe to say cats have taught me how to love.
Most people in my life know of my enthusiasm for cats. These folks have begun to think of me as some kind of cat expert. They ask me how to deal with cat behavior issues. They wonder about various treatments. I am not a vet. They ask me to communicate with their cats.
I do not want that responsibility. I prefer, instead, to think of it this way: We all have the answers, we and our animals. There is intense and lovely communication that can go on between us, if we are open to it. There are no wrong answers. Our animals do not judge. Perhaps this is why the human/animal-companion bond can be so intense and rewarding. Perhaps this is why our animal family members can feel like life preservers in a world that seems like it might drown us, or at least toss us around. The constant love from my animal companions and the lessons they bring to my life has caused me to write this book.
Life is a journey; relationships are a journey. Driving is a literal journey from point A to point B. Relationships and life aren’t always so direct or easy to traverse. Whether I am literally driving with my cats, or navigating some of the most courageous and loving and heartbreaking territory of my life with my cats, I am in awe of what they teach me. Many of you have deep and complex relationships with your animal companions as well, and I hope reading about my journeys with my cats will help you or touch your heart.
Rama (back) and Chester (front). (Photo courtesy of the author.)
Note for Readers
This book is framed with the story of my cat Jamie—the beginning, middle, and end of his life. In between the story of Jamie, I have interspersed my stories of other cats, my own story, and my thoughts on what animal companions can teach us.
Dogs have a special, growing place in my heart as well. (Thanks to the special and current dog teachers in my life: Corona, GusGus, and Walli!) This book focuses on cats simply because that’s where I’ve had the most experience and time. I believe animal companions of any species are a huge blessing in our lives—they have surely enriched mine.
Tigger, one of my first cats. (Courtesy of Deborah Sussex Photography.)
Cat Family Tree
(in order of adoption into our household)
Leo: gray and white short-haired female, adopted 1989, died 1989.
Tigger: white-and-cream-colored long-haired female, adopted 1989, died 1999.
Jamie: orange medium-haired tabby male, adopted 1991, died 2011.
Milo: orange short-haired tabby male, adopted 1992, died 2007.
Karma: silver-and-brown short-haired Siamese and tabby female, rescued 1997.
Kali: black, brown, and white short-haired tabby female, adopted 1999.
Target: black short-haired male, adopted 2001, died 2007.
Rama: black short-haired male, adopted 2007.
Chester: orange short-haired tabby male, adopted 2007.
Kieran: white short-haired male (domestic with white-and-black Van pattern), rescued 2008.
Karma. (Courtesy of Deborah Sussex Photography.)
Act I: Jamie—The Beginning of the End
I watch my cats like a mother watches her children. When something is off, I notice immediately. So when I started noticing that Jamie, my twenty-year-old orange cat, was suddenly not eating, I was worried.
It was spring in northern Minnesota, a happy time. The snow was gone. Outdoor projects could be addressed for the house and our land. We were getting ready to put plant starts in the ground. My husband and I were outside all the time, an arrangement I loved. We’d already been into the Boundary Waters Canoe Area Wilderness once, in late April, because the ice had come off the lakes so early. Bad things were not supposed to happen in the spring. We don’t expect them. But then, are we ever prepared for bad times?
Chris, look at this,
I called out to my husband. Our house was small with an open design. We could see everybody and everything, inside.
We watched Jamie. He was interested in food, and obviously hungry. He put his nose up to the dry kibble in a bowl, but he wouldn’t take a bite. He pawed at the brown pellets, spilling them out of the bowl and onto the floor. Jamie had never been a fussy eater. He pawed at the water bowl, too. That’d always been his trick, but now, he was also not drinking the water.
You expect trouble with an older cat. Yet, unrealistically, I had forgotten that trouble could happen. This long-haired orange cat was strangely hardy for a cat who came from a pet store (and by association, probably came from a kitten mill). Jamie had a will of steel and it was my suspicion he’d lived so long because of that will. I needed him, I wanted him, to harness his willpower now.
I phoned the vet and that feeling that I’d come to know—when something was off with my cats—came back. It was a feeling of dread, like going down a dark chute into an abyss on the other side. I got an appointment for the next day—a one-hour drive one way to a town on the edge of the wilderness.
To the non-local eye, most of the region we live in looks like wilderness. As I drove, I forgot to be glad it was spring and that I wouldn’t have to worry about icy roads, always a huge stressor. I was only worried about Jamie, and feared what the vet visit would uncover.
Jamie had some major hurdles in his life, but he was a tough cat and blazed through some pretty hairy situations. Chris and I adopted him shortly after we started living together. Early onset kidney disease was discovered when Jamie was about ten years old. We managed for many years with herbal supplements. When Jamie was sixteen, he was still jumping with ease from the kitchen counters to the catwalk
—the tops of the kitchen cabinets. (I have never been able to train my cats to stay off counters.) When Jamie was eighteen, he got a herpes infection in an eye, and needed to have the eye removed. Any anesthesia and surgery is very risky for such an old cat—they may not wake up. But during the eye surgery, the vet tech told me Jamie’s heart never stopped beating and never wavered. It was one strong, steady sustained beat. I like to think Jamie’s success through these risky surgeries and procedures had to do with his immensely strong will. Jamie always got what he wanted. Very little slowed him down.
The Contents of My Cat Junk Drawer
My cat junk drawer includes:
Six cat toothbrushes. I had grand plans to brush each cat’s teeth daily, but have so far failed to make it a regular practice.
One tube of cat toothpaste (yes, this is different from human toothpaste).
A large broken flashlight (unrelated to cats).
Several jingly balls (I only have the kind with hard exteriors where the cat cannot get at the jingle bell inside).
A few stuffed mouse toys. I try to