The Winter Sister
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Sixteen years ago, Sylvie’s sister, Persephone, never came home. Out late with the boyfriend she was forbidden to see, Persephone was missing for three days before her body was found—and years later, her murder is still unsolved.
In the present day, Sylvie returns home to care for her estranged mother, Annie, as she undergoes treatment for cancer. Prone to unexplained “Dark Days” even before Persephone’s death, Annie’s once-close bond with Sylvie dissolved in the weeks after their loss, making for an uncomfortable reunion all these years later. Adding to the discomfort, Persephone’s former boyfriend is now a nurse at the cancer center where Annie is being treated. Sylvie has always believed Ben was responsible for the murder—but she carries her own guilt about that night, guilt that traps her in the past while the world goes on around her.
As she navigates the complicated relationship with her mother, Sylvie begins to uncover the secrets that fill their house—and what really happened the night Persephone died.
The Winter Sister is a “bewitching” (Kirkus Reviews) portrayal of the complex bond between sisters, between mothers and daughters alike, and “will captivate you from suspenseful start to surprising finish” (Kathleen Barber, author of Are You Sleeping).
Megan Collins
Megan Collins is the author of Cross My Heart, Thicker Than Water, The Family Plot, Behind the Red Door, and The Winter Sister. She taught creative writing for many years at both the high school and college level and is the managing editor of 3Elements Literary Review. She lives in Connecticut, where she obsesses over dogs, miniatures, and cake.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Winter Sister by Megan Collins due 2-5-2019 Touchstone/ Simon & Schuster 4.5 / 5.0Sixteen years ago in Spring Hill, Connecticut, young Persephone went missing for 3 days, and once her body was recovered, it became a murder case that was never settled or closed.Slyvie, Persephone's sister, a tattoo artist in Rhode Island, returns to Spring Hill to care for her mother while undergoing chemo therapy for cancer.Absorbing and suspenseful, I immediately felt an interest in the characters and was drawn into Persephone's murder, Sylvies secrets and past and their mother, Annie's dysfunctional lifestyle and cancer. It felt as if I was reading about people I knew, with brilliant twists and surprises that kept the story fresh and the momentum fast. Complicated, obsessive and totally accessible, this is a story of secrets, consequences and a study of how each of use respond and react to tragedy.Great story, looking forward to more from Megan Collins.Thanks to Touchstone and Megan Collins for this e-book ARC for review.#NetGalley #TheWinterSister
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I haven't been this engrossed by a book in a while. This book follows Sylvie as she goes back to care for her cancer stricken mother. Going back to her hometown will dredge up guilt regarding her sister's unsolved murder.From start to finish I was interested in this. I just had to know what happened to Persephone. Not only do you get to find out just what happened to Persephone but you also find out other secrets. Thanks to Netgalley and the publisher for the galley.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Sixteen years ago, Sylvie’s sister, Persephone, never came home. Out too late with the boyfriend she was forbidden to see, Persephone was missing for three days before her body was found. Her murder remained unsolved.In the present day, Sylvie has returned home to care for her estranged mother, Annie, who is going through cancer treatment. Their close bond disappeared in the weeks after Persephone’s death. Taking her mother to the hospital for treatment, Sylvie finds that Ben, Persephone’s boyfriend is now a nurse at the hospital. Sylvie has always thought that Ben was responsible for her sister’s death, but she has her own guilt about that night as well that keeps her from moving forward from this tragic past. As Sylvie starts to work around the complicated relationship with her mother, she starts to uncover secrets that still fill her old house and what really happened that night. Once you get into this book, you will continue to turn the pages until the end. Very well done!
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5It’s been sixteen years since her sister Persephone was murdered. Sylvie has created herself a new life, far away from home, but now she has to return to her hometown and confront her seriously ill mother. It doesn’t take long until all that happened that winter night comes back to her, especially when she meets Ben, her sister’s boyfriend, her sister’s murderer. Yet, Ben insists in his innocence. But can she trust him? And what about her mother who always refused to tell the girls who their respective fathers are and who also refused to talk about that night. Is it time now to open Pandora’s box and let the truth out? Megan Collins’ debut is at the first glance a typical murder case: an 18-year-old girl is strangled and the murderer has been running free for sixteen years. However, at the second glance, it is much more a story about family relationships, about secrets and about love and trust. The small family of three females lived on secrets and lies, had they ever been open and honest with each other, the death of one daughter could have been prevented. Yet, that’s how human beings are, sometimes they lack the necessary courage to do what is right and thus risk to lose all they love.The novel is well-created, even though at a certain point it is quite obvious how all the dots are linked, I found it full of suspense. Telling the story through Sylvie’s eyes gives you a certain bias at the beginning, but the missing pieces and gaps add to the thrill and the big questions marks Sylvie herself feels can also be experienced by the reader. Collins’ biggest strength is certainly the creation of the characters who all act convincingly and appear quite authentic. I am looking forward to read more from the author.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/53.5-3.75 StarsA thriller that's part coming-of-age story and part family tragedy. This novel reveals the plot one clue at a time like peeling back the layers of an onion. Interesting character dynamics, solid writing and pace for a debut author, although the ending could be better. It's definitely a page turner and I will look for other works by the author in the future.Net Galley Feedback
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/516 years ago, Sylvie's sister was found strangled and has been haunted by her death since. With her mother diagnosed with cancer she has to go back home to take care of her. Being home only reminds her of Persephone's unsolved murder. Who killed her? It had to be the last person who saw here alive, her boyfriend, Ben. How could they just let him get away with it?This book kept my attention, but geez was Sylvie annoying. Can't we get a Mystery/Thriller with a reliable and very capable and confident narrator? I thought things were over explained and this book was longer than it needed to be. It didn't blow my socks off but if you're looking for a quick read then I'd say give it a shot.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Winter SisterByMegan CollinsWhat it's all about...Sylvie and her sister Persephone have secrets...secrets that they keep from their dark and often depressed mother. The secrets involve a boy that Annie...the mom...doesn’t want Persephone to see but that Persephone cannot stay away from. When Persephone is found murdered...Sylvie’s life is forever changed. My thoughts after reading this book...This book was a tad questionable for me from the beginning. I didn’t like Annie. Sylvie was a mess and only Annie’s sister Jill kept this family together. Jill even stepped in as Jill’s guardian and helped her get through high school and college. But as I read deeper and deeper into this book...I understood the characters much more. I still didn’t like them but I at least understood them. What I loved best...Sylvie stays away from her mom for years but has to come home when her mom has cancer. Annie remains gruff and mean and there are far too many secrets about Persephone and about Annie, too. Sylvie always believed that Ben...her sister’s boyfriend...was responsible for her sister’s murder...so running into him was not anything she planned. In fact running into him was her unraveling...until the real truth was revealed. What potential readers might want to know...This book is about secrets that have been kept for far too long. It wasn’t a happy joyful book but rather an exploration of how some people deal with relationships and deep debilitating pain . Readers who appreciate this kind of book should enjoy this one. I received this book from the publisher through NetGalley and Edelweiss. It was my choice to read and review it.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Obsessive love and major dysfunction. Sylvie returns home after an absence of sixteen tears to take care of her mother who has cancer. When she was a pre teen her older sister disappeared and was found murdered. Sylvie has always believed the boyfriend Persophone snuck out to meet was her murderer. The case never solved, Sylvie finds herself once again on the trail of a killer.Family secrets abound here, and the pace and constant revelations keep the pages turning. A good story about the repercussions of an obsessive love, and the grief that swallows when a child is gone. The ending however, I found both rushed and implausible.ARC from Netgalley.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I received an ARC of this book from the publishers in exchange for an honest review. This did not affect my opinion of the book or my review itself.Sylvie's sister was murdered sixteen years ago, and the murderer has never been brought to justice. Forced to return to her hometown by her estranged mother's cancer diagnosis, Sylvie finds herself brought back into contact with her sister's ex-boyfriend, who she always believed guilty of the crime. But Sylvie is dealing with guilt of her own, and her presence begins to bring out dangerous secrets from the past.Sylvie is a very compelling character you can't help but feel for, and Collins explores her family dynamics and drama in a very realistic and sometimes heartbreaking way. This book feels real, like it could be a real case I was reading articles about.The mystery is very suspenseful, and I did not guess who the murderer was at all. I love when a book can surprise me like that.I did call one of the major twists about halfway through, which did lessen the surprise and suspense somewhat, though it did not lessen my enjoyment of the book.I would recommend this book. It's compelling, well-written, and the mystery is mixed really well with an exploration of the dynamics of troubled and broken families.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Persephone dies. Her mother sinks into despair and forgets that she has another daughter. The surviving daughter, Sylvie, returns home years later to take care of her dying mother. Her sister's murder has never been solved, and Sylvie is determined to bring her killer to justice. I was annoyed by Sylvie a few times because she kept changing her mind on her she was so sure was her sister's killer. But the ending twisted so much that I was truly surprised.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A pretty good thriller - not very deep so an easy travel read. This would have been better with a little more character development - there was a lot there, but it wasn't fully vetted out.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A little slow in parts but good story line.
Book preview
The Winter Sister - Megan Collins
1
When they found my sister’s body, the flyers we’d hung around town were still crisp against the telephone poles. The search party still had land to scour; the batteries in their flashlights still held a charge. Persephone had been missing for less than seventy-two hours when a jogger caught a glimpse of her red coat through the snow, but by then, my mother had already become a stranger to me.
On the first morning of my sister’s disappearance, Mom locked herself in her bedroom. I stayed in my room, too—my and Persephone’s room—but I left the door ajar. For a long time, I watched the plows push through the foot of snow that had fallen overnight, and I kept imagining I saw Persephone out there, her fingers tapping on the window that fogged with my breath, and my hand opening it. Opening it every time.
The hours of that day were punctuated by my mother’s sobs. In fourteen years of being her daughter, I’d never heard such a thing. Even on the fifteenth of every month—what Persephone, rolling her eyes, called Mom’s Dark Day
—there was only silence behind her bedroom door. Whenever she emerged the next morning, her eyelids were always swollen, but I had never actually heard her pain. But on this day, the first day, she cried so hard and so loud that I could swear I saw my paintbrushes quiver in their cup on my desk.
It wasn’t until years later that I wondered why my mother didn’t try to be strong for me, tell me that Persephone was just being Persephone and that she’d be home before we knew it. What did she know right then? What does a mother feel in her bones when her daughter stops breathing?
Aunt Jill came over with my cousin, Missy, at five o’clock that first day. The roads were clear enough by then, though the snow banks were as tall as our mailbox. Jill tried for fifteen minutes to reach her younger sister. She leaned her forehead against Mom’s bedroom door and softly begged her to open up. When that didn’t work, and the sobs continued, she plucked a bobby pin from Missy’s bun and picked at the lock until the pin snapped between her fingers. For Christ’s sake, Annie,
she said. Then she ushered my cousin and me to the kitchen where she splayed out Missy’s issues of Seventeen and told us to sit tight while she called the police from my room.
Mom had already contacted the cops early that morning, her sentences sharp and shrill as she berated them for saying they’d make a note of it
and that she should call back later if Persephone hadn’t come home. Then she’d hung up with a long, tearful moan, and that’s when she went to her room and shut the door. Even as the hours passed and daylight turned to dusk, she never did call them back. She stayed locked away, sobbing, the phone undisturbed on its hook.
Now, I could hear Jill spelling Persephone’s name as she told the police that her niece had been missing for an entire day. But was she really missing? I’d seen her ride off with Ben the night before, just as the first flakes fell, and although I hated him more than I hated stiff paintbrushes or the loneliness of Mom’s Dark Days, I hoped she was with him still—angry at me, maybe, but okay just the same.
Tell them to check with her boyfriend,
I told my aunt, stepping into the room. My voice startled her.
Hold on a moment,
Jill told the police. What boyfriend, Sylvie?
This was the second way in twenty-four hours that I betrayed my sister.
Ben was a secret—our secret, Persephone loved to remind me. The way he drove down our street and parked his car a couple houses down was a secret. The way Persephone opened the window in our room and straddled the sill until one foot touched the ground was a secret. And here were some more: how I’d keep the window open, just enough for her to slip her fingers under and pull it up when she returned; how, on many of those nights, I’d wake hours later to the cold shock of her snapping back my sheets. Sylvie, she’d whisper, her voice hoarse in the darkness. I need you. And then began the biggest secret of all.
Ben Emory,
I told my aunt. The mayor’s son. He graduated last year, and Persephone’s been seeing him. But Mom doesn’t know.
Jill frowned, the skin between her eyebrows wrinkling. Why not?
We’re not allowed to date. But Persephone sneaks out all the time to see him anyway. She left with him last night, about ten thirty.
Jill’s eyes widened. Sylvie,
she said. Why didn’t you . . .
But then she shook her head, leaving the question unfinished, and put the phone back up to her ear. She was last seen with Ben Emory,
she said.
My pulse pounded as I walked back to the kitchen table, where Missy was braiding her hair to match a bright, glossy photo in one of the magazines. She was sixteen, the age smack-dab between Persephone and me, but she was carrying on as if this were a slumber party.
Why didn’t you? Jill had asked, and it was a reasonable question. Why didn’t I tell my mother about Ben the second I jolted awake that morning, the stillness of the house alerting me to Persephone’s continued absence? I’d like to believe I was trying to protect Persephone’s secret—our secret—but the truth, I know, is that I was trying to protect myself.
A little while later, Jill hurried into the kitchen to ask me for the names of Persephone’s friends.
Ben,
I said.
I called over there already. I had to leave a message because no one picked up. Who else?
I shrugged, and then mentioned some girls I’d once seen Persephone with in the library as they worked on a project for school. Jill retreated back to my room, and I listened through the thin walls as, call after call, she reached a dead end: Oh, they’re not really friends? Okay, well thank you anyway. Let me give you my number just in case she . . .
When she ran out of people to contact, Jill insisted we try to sleep—me in my bed, Missy in Persephone’s, Jill on the lumpy couch in the living room. For a while that night, I kept myself awake, listening for the tap of Persephone’s fingers on the window. All I ever heard, though, were Missy’s kitten-like snores in my sister’s bed, and the sound of Persephone’s watch, ticking on somewhere in the room like a promise.
• • •
On the morning of the second day, I waited for Mom outside her door, sitting like a puppy that had been shut out. Normally, she was able to soothe me in ways that nothing else, not even painting, could. Her hand on my forehead was a cool washcloth, her voice a lullaby. We often played a game where she pretended to plant a garden on my face, using her fingers to show me where the roses would go (on my cheek) or where the lilies would be (on my forehead). You’re blooming,
she’d say, and then she’d pretend to pick some of the flowers. I’ve got three roses, two hydrangea bunches, and a stem of baby’s breath. How much will that cost me?
She’d pinch her fingers together as if holding a tiny bouquet. It’ll cost you one hug,
I’d say, and then we’d hold each other tightly, laughing at how ridiculous we were, how happy.
But when her door finally creaked open, her eyes were so swollen they looked as if they’d been punched. Her cheeks seemed to sag, and she was still wearing the bathrobe she’d had on the morning before when I told her that Persephone was gone.
She looked at me on the floor but didn’t kneel down beside me or put her hand on my head. It was almost as if she knew what I had done, and hated me for it.
Did she . . .
were the only words she uttered, and I felt how deeply I was failing her when I shook my head.
The doorbell rang just then, and Mom ran down the hall to the front door as Jill rounded the corner from the living room. They opened it together without a word, and I craned my neck to see between them. Missy was still asleep in my sister’s bed, and I couldn’t wait to tell Persephone that. It was so weird,
I would say. "She just kept sleeping as if it was a vacation or something. I mean, you’re missing, right? But she’s just snoring away in there." I could hear our laughter, even as I watched the police enter the house.
Two officers, a man and a woman, stood in the cramped entryway of our small two-bedroom ranch. They wiped their feet on the doormat, their hands on their belts like they were about to start line dancing.
Are you Ms. O’Leary?
the male officer asked Mom.
Yes,
she said huskily. Yes, that’s me.
And I’m Jill Foster.
Jill stepped forward. I’m the one who called last night.
I’m Detective Falley,
the female officer said, and this is my partner, Detective Parker.
She gestured to the man beside her, who was looking beyond us as if already trying to find clues within the walls of our house. I wanted to let you know, first of all, that we followed up on what you reported to our desk sergeant, and we spoke to Ben Emory.
Mom stumbled backward a little. What’s he got to do with this?
We understand,
Detective Falley said, that he’s the last person your daughter was seen with.
Mom spun around to look at me, and her eyes seemed grayer than usual, clouded by the horror gathering on her face. I looked at my feet, wiggling my big toe through the hole in my sock.
Did you know about this?
she asked me.
I swallowed. Yes,
I said. I saw her leave with him. She . . .
I paused, unsure of how far to go in my betrayal. Then I looked up, keeping my eyes on the detectives, neither of whom could have been more than thirty-five. Parker even had a small patch of zits around his nose.
She sneaks out of the house a lot to see him,
I said. He’s her boyfriend. They’ve been doing this for months.
Any color left on my mother’s face disappeared. Her skin became as gray as her eyes, as gray as the cold light from the cloudy sky outside. Boyfriend?
she asked, her voice quivering.
This is Sylvie,
Aunt Jill said to the detectives, gesturing toward me. She’s my niece. Persephone’s sister.
Falley nodded. Ben says he doesn’t know where she is. Says they were driving around, got into a fight, and she demanded to be let out of the car so she could walk home. He says he let her off on Weston Road and then waited out the storm at his friend’s house overnight. We checked with the friend’s mother and she confirmed that Ben arrived around eleven p.m. and stayed until ten or so the next morning.
Then where is she?
I asked. And why would she want to walk home when it was snowing? Ben’s lying! He has to know where she is.
The detectives looked at me. Aunt Jill looked at me. But Mom just stared into nothing.
He says she was very adamant about leaving the car,
Falley said. Says she was opening the door and seemed ready to jump out if he didn’t stop. According to him, he pulled over to try to calm her down, but then she got out and wouldn’t get back inside. Says he got mad himself and finally drove off.
What were they fighting about?
Jill asked.
Sounds like typical relationship drama,
Falley said. He says she got angry when he snapped at her about something. It escalated from there.
I shook my head. The only part of Ben’s story I believed was that he’d gotten mad at her. I had seen plenty of evidence of his anger; I knew he was dangerous, but I also knew that Persephone never shied away from danger.
We’re going to question him more about the fight,
Parker finally chimed in. His voice was deeper than I expected, and this comforted me. I didn’t know my father—my mother had always told me I’d been the product of a one-night stand, or a one-night miracle,
as she liked to say—but I always imagined that when he spoke, his voice was strong and unwavering, the way that Parker’s was now.
We drove around Weston Road, where Mr. Emory said he let her off, but we haven’t found anything yet,
he continued. Please understand, though—we’re doing everything we can to locate your daughter.
He said this directly to Mom, who was leaning into the coatrack. She looked so fragile that the jackets and scarves tossed over the hooks seemed strong enough to bear her weight. We’re going to talk to the people who were operating the snowplows that night, see if they saw anyone walking around. In the meantime—can you think of anywhere she might have gone? Friends’ houses? Places nearby that she frequents?
He pulled a small notepad out of his back pocket and clicked the top of a pen.
I looked at Mom, waiting to see if she’d answer, but her eyes were still locked on some distant air.
I . . . there’s . . .
I tried. Then I cleared my throat as Parker turned his attention to me. Well, my aunt and cousin live just over in Hanover. But . . . they’re here, so she’s obviously not with them. Um, there’s also . . .
But there wasn’t also.
I don’t know,
I said. The only person she really hangs out with anymore is Ben.
That’s when the coatrack crashed to the floor. It landed across the entryway like a fallen tree, separating the detectives from my mother, Aunt Jill, and me. We all jumped backward. All except Mom, that is—because she’d pushed it over.
Next came the little yellow table where we dumped our mail and keys when we walked in the door. With one quick shove, it clattered to the floor, and Mom reached for one of the legs, snapping it off as if it were nothing more than a twig. We were all stunned, even the detectives, and it wasn’t until Mom swung the table leg against the entryway mirror that Parker stepped over the coatrack and grabbed her arms. Mom struggled against him, her bathrobe opening, revealing the stained T-shirt she wore underneath, and when he tightened his grip, she screamed.
Annie!
Aunt Jill cried. What are you doing? Calm down!
This only made her scream louder, her face reddening like a newborn’s, and she kicked and twisted until Parker’s hands loosened just long enough for her to escape. She jumped over the coatrack and ran down the hall. We turned the corner as her bedroom door slammed shut, Missy standing in the hall with wide sleep-filled eyes.
Mom?
she said to my aunt. What happened? Is Persephone back?
Any answer Jill might have given was lost in the sounds coming from Mom’s room. Furniture crashed. Throaty growls gave way to high-pitched screams. I recognized the squeak of her mattress as she—what? Pummeled her fists against it? Detective Parker marched forward and tried the knob. When the door wouldn’t open, he looked back at us. Falley,
he said, and his partner nodded, steering me into the living room.
Does your mother do this a lot?
she asked. She bent over slightly, staring into my eyes. Has she thrown things and gotten angry like this before?
I could hear Jill’s voice pleading from down the hall—Annie, please, open up. We’ll find her, I know we will
—and I knew that Falley was waiting for me to say something, but I’d already forgotten what she’d asked. Who was that woman inside my mother’s room? What rabid animal was making those noises?
Sylvie,
Falley said. It’s Sylvie, right?
I nodded slowly.
Have you ever known your mother to hurt your sister—physically?
Um,
I said, she . . . what did you say?
Annie, please. Open the door and let me be here for you.
Ms. O’Leary, would you mind opening the door for a moment?
I said, have you ever known your mother to hurt your sister? Did she maybe hit her one time? Push her?
I later learned that Falley was breaking protocol by asking me these questions—not because she felt that the situation was too urgent for all the red tape of recording devices and child psychologists, but because she was, in fact, a young detective. She’d only been promoted to that title six months before, and when she put her hands on my shoulders that day, they were shaking.
Sylvie,
she said, do you understand what I’m asking you?
Something about my mother. Something about somebody hurting my sister.
No one thought to look at my hands. But even if they’d noticed the splotches of blue and gray on my fingers, or the flashes of red near my nails, they wouldn’t have connected it to Persephone walking toward Ben’s car and not coming back. They wouldn’t have seen it as evidence of a terrible crime. But Sylvie, she’d whispered the night before she disappeared, I need you.
• • •
As usual, I hadn’t heard her return. I’d only woken to the feeling of my sheets and comforter being ripped off my body. No,
I groaned, trying to roll toward the wall.
Yes,
Persephone said, grabbing my arms and shaking me. There’s not much this time. Come on, you have to do this for me.
I opened my eyes to find my mother staring at me. That’s what it seemed like, anyway, the two looked so similar—their large gray eyes, their blonde hair, their chins that came to a delicate point beneath their mouths. I knew that my sister and I had two different fathers, but with my brown hair and brown eyes and paler-than-pale complexion, it always surprised me how little I resembled the rest of my family.
Persephone leaned over and swung her head so that her hair tickled my face.
I can do this all night,
she said. She moved even closer to me, still swishing her hair around, but now the gold necklace she always wore fell forward, and the tip of the starfish pendant grazed my lips.
Okay, fine,
I conceded, pushing her hair, her necklace, away. Show me.
Persephone turned on my bedside lamp and lifted the side of her shirt. There’s this one,
she said, pointing to a fresh bruise the size of a quarter just beneath her rib cage. But Mom won’t see that one.
She let her shirt fall back down and then showed me the inside of her right wrist. There were two more bruises rising toward the surface of her skin. It’s just these ones really.
I swore I knew the size of Ben’s fingertips better than I knew my own. I sighed as I reached beneath my desk for the bucket of acrylic paints Mom had bought me for Christmas two months earlier. Grabbing some brushes and a Styrofoam palette, I sat back down beside my sister. Then I took her arm in my hand and turned it this way and that, assessing my canvas.
I worked in silence. I squirted Midnight Blue onto my palette and mixed it with Eggshell, not bothering to ask Persephone why she stayed with him. As I painted a moon over the first of the bruises, then crossed it with red-tinged waves that covered the other, I didn’t remind her that I thought love should be painless, that it shouldn’t be sneaking in and out of windows, or blood vessels bursting. We’d already had those conversations before, and they all ended the same way: You don’t understand. You don’t know him. It’s not what you think.
Okay,
I told Persephone, lifting my brush from her skin. I’m done.
She smiled approvingly at the moonscape, and I rubbed at the colors that had bled onto my hands. There were always traces of my work on my own skin in the morning, and though my mother often commented on what I’d done to Persephone, praising me for the beautiful little tattoos
I’d given her, she never seemed to notice the tattoos I’d given myself, the paint that screamed on my knuckles and fingers. When Persephone showered each day, she was careful to keep her concealed bruises away from the water. When I showered, I scrubbed and scrubbed.
• • •
Sylvie.
Detective Falley squeezed my shoulder gently. Are you okay?
The screaming had stopped. The hammering and crashing of furniture had stopped. Now, all I could hear from down the hall was the faint sound of paper being ripped, over and over, ssshhhhk, ssshhhhk, ssshhhhk. What could she be tearing in there? Photographs? Letters? Secrets? Later that day, when Mom finally left her room to use the bathroom, I crept across the hallway to find that it was a calendar she’d been destroying. Scraps of months lay scattered across the carpet like seeds in a garden, and among all those fragmented squares of dates, every fifteenth was circled in red.
I’m really sorry about this, Detective,
Aunt Jill was saying to Parker as they walked into the living room, where Falley still bent toward me with concerned eyes. I don’t know what to say.
Missy followed them. She was wearing one of Persephone’s T-shirts, which snapped I DON’T CARE.
I hadn’t seen her take it from our dresser the night before or I would have offered her some of my own clothes to wear. Missy shuffled in slippers—Persephone’s slippers—toward the couch.
Are you able to stay here for a while?
Detective Parker asked Jill. With the family?
He shifted his eyes toward me.
Of course,
Jill said. The girls have tomorrow off for Presidents’ Day. I’m a teacher’s aide—over at the middle school in Hanover?—so I’m off, too. We can be here, no problem.
Good,
Parker said. Now, do you have a recent picture of Persephone we can take with us?
Yes!
Jill said. I actually took out the photo albums first thing this morning. I was thinking of making some flyers to hang around town.
She walked into the kitchen, which was open to the living room, and flipped through one of the faux-leather books on the table. "It would just feel better to actively do something, you know?"
She pulled my sister’s senior portrait, taken earlier that school year, from its plastic sheath. In the photo, a painted bruise peeked out from Persephone’s neckline, a shadow to anyone who didn’t know, but to me, a focal point.
So should I put the police station’s number on the flyers,
Jill asked, or have people call us directly?
Parker reached into his pocket and handed Jill a card in exchange for the picture. Thank you,
he said. You can put that info on the signs. Though I should warn you that, with things like this, we get a lot of false information. Ninety-five percent of the calls that come in are useless.
Well, that still leaves five percent,
Jill replied.
Ssshhhhk, ssshhhhk, ssshhhhk. In my mother’s room, paper kept ripping.
Clearing his throat, Parker rubbed his hand over the light brown stubble on his face. Just a couple more things,
he said, shifting his gaze toward me. Is it okay if I ask you some questions, Sylvie, before we go?
I looked to my aunt.
Go ahead, Sylvie,
she said. It’s okay.
I shrugged. Yeah, that’s fine.
Parker looked down at his notepad and clicked the top of his pen. Your aunt reported that you saw your sister drive off with Ben Emory at about ten thirty the night before last. Is that correct?
Yes.
And how did she seem just before she left? Was she angry, for example? Sad? Excited to see her boyfriend?
I imagined what the expression on her face must have been as she looked at me through the window Friday night, her breath making ghosts on the glass as she called my name. She must have looked angry, annoyed. She must have looked ready to kill me.
I don’t know,
I told Parker. I guess she was . . . neutral.
He made a note on his pad. Okay. Now, you also mentioned that she snuck out a lot to see him. Why is that?
Everyone stared at me, the two detectives standing closest, my aunt and cousin on opposite ends of the room. So much seemed to hang on what I had to say, but how could a fourteen-year-old girl be expected to know what needed knowing?
She’s not allowed to date,
I said. Neither of us are. But I’m—I wouldn’t date yet anyway.
So your mother had no idea that your sister has been seeing Mr. Emory?
Well,
I started, "she didn’t know she was still seeing him."
Go on,
Parker prompted.
My mom came home from the diner one night—she’s a waitress; I don’t know if that matters—and she found Persephone with Ben. They were just watching TV, I think, but it was the first time she’d ever brought a guy home, and my mom got upset. Persephone had broken the rule.
From there, after Ben had slinked out the front door, the two of them erupted at each other, Mom yelling at Persephone for her blatant disrespect
and Persephone screaming right back about Mom treating us like babies.
At one point, Persephone knocked over a lamp with her wild gesticulations, and they both stared at it on the floor for a moment. Then Persephone tore off its flimsy shade and threw it across the room, where it whizzed by Mom’s face and toppled some picture frames.
Since then,
I told Detective Parker, Persephone’s always just snuck out to see him.
How well do you know him?
Falley jumped in.
I barely know him at all. He graduated last year, so I’ve never even gone to the same school as him.
And Persephone’s a senior this year, correct?
Parker asked.
Yes,
Jill and I said in unison.
Falley took a step toward me. The reason I asked, Sylvie,
she said, is because when we first got here, you seemed pretty sure that Ben had something to do with your sister being missing. Why is that?
I—what?
Has he ever hurt your sister before, or done anything that would put her at risk?
I . . .
I looked around the room. Four sets of eyes were latched onto me. Like I said, I don’t really know him.
That wasn’t the question,
Parker said.
Why was I being interrogated? And where was the hot, bald light I’d seen on TV shows, the one that would shine on my face and sweat out all my secrets? At least then I wouldn’t have a choice if I betrayed Persephone. As it was, though, the living room was cool and gray. The faces of the detectives remained serious, but kind enough.
Aunt Jill came to put her arm around my shoulder protectively. I leaned into her, grateful for the save, but then she whispered in my ear, It’s okay, Sylvie. Just tell the detectives whatever you know.
We’re sisters, Sylvie, Persephone would always say. And that’s sacred. So I know your promise to keep this a secret isn’t just words. It means something to you. Just like you mean something to me, and just like I hope—I really, really hope—I mean something to you.
Of course you do, I’d say.
Then prove it.
I don’t know if he ever hurt her.
I looked at Falley and Parker, at Aunt Jill. I even looked at Missy, who sat with her chin resting on the palm of her hand. They were all listening to me, somehow sure that I had the right answers. He just has to know where she is. She was with him that night.
Ssshhhhk, ssshhhhk, ssshhhhk.
Falley glanced back toward the hallway, listening to the muted sounds of my mother’s rage. She looked at her partner before speaking.
Sylvie,
she began, when your mother’s acted like this in the past, did she—
My mother’s never acted like this,
I interrupted. She’s never had a daughter who’s been missing before.
Silence spread through the room like a gas. Even the sound of paper paused, and I imagined it was because Mom had heard me defend her. I could almost feel the soft approval of her fingers stroking my cheek.
The detectives shared a glance, Falley tilting her head at Parker, her eyes asking a question I couldn’t read. Then Parker nodded, closing his notebook and clicking his pen one more time.
Thank you,
Parker said. You have our information. Please feel free to call us anytime.
He slipped his notepad into his pocket and headed toward the front door. Falley stayed behind a moment to put her hand on my shoulder. You’re being really brave,
she said gently. We’ll find your sister. Don’t worry.
Aunt Jill walked toward the entryway to see them out, and I sank into the couch cushions, which were still blanketed with Jill’s makeshift bed.
This is crazy,
Missy said, the expression on her face one of slow understanding, as if she was just beginning to comprehend how serious the situation was.
Down the hall, behind my mother’s door, the sound of shredding paper started up again.
2
That afternoon, we posted more than fifty flyers. Persephone’s face smirked at us beneath a black, bulky MISSING
as we worked our way through the center of town and neighboring streets. By the time we stapled the final sign to a telephone pole outside the post office, our fingers felt raw, even through our gloves.
When we got home, Jill pushed mugs of hot chocolate into our hands and encouraged us to thaw out
in front of the TV. Missy put on a rerun of The Real World, which I watched without seeing, but at six o’clock on the dot, I changed it to the local news in case they mentioned Persephone.
As it turned out, my sister’s disappearance was the lead story.
The town of Spring Hill is in search of a missing high school student today,
the anchor said. Persephone O’Leary, eighteen, was last seen leaving her house on Friday night with her boyfriend, Ben Emory, the son of Spring Hill mayor and prominent land developer William Emory. Since then, police have been questioning neighbors and residents, including O’Leary’s boyfriend, who, police say, dropped her off on Weston Road around eleven p.m. on Friday night.
That’s bad reporting,
I said to Missy. "Saying ‘police say’ makes it sound like it’s a fact that Ben dropped her off. But it’s not a fact—it’s Ben’s story. And why didn’t anyone talk to us about this?"
Missy shrugged. Maybe they tried,
she said, while we were out. Maybe your mom didn’t answer.
The thought of that chilled me, despite the steam rising from my mug. Could Mom have locked herself away so thoroughly that not even the ringing phone or doorbell could reach her? After we had gotten home, she finally let Aunt Jill into her bedroom, and although I couldn’t hear what they were saying to each other, it made me feel better to remember that they were in that room together.
On the TV, the news anchor continued to speak over a video of people dressed in heavy coats and scarves, trudging in