Fugitive Colors: A Novel
By Lisa Barr
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Stolen art, love, lust, deception, and revenge paint the pages of veteran journalist Lisa Barr’s debut novel, Fugitive Colors, an un-put-down-able page-turner. Booklist calls the WWII era novel, "Masterfully conceived and crafted, Barr’s dazzling debut novel has it all: passion and jealousy, intrigue and danger." Fugitive Colors asks the reader: How far would you go for your passion? Would you kill for it? Steal for it? Or go to any length to protect it?
Hitler’s War begins with the ruthless destruction of the avant-garde, but there is one young painter who refuses to let this happen. An accidental spy, Julian Klein, an idealistic American artist, leaves his religious upbringing for the artistic freedom of Paris in the early 1930s. Once he arrives in the City of Light,” he meets a young German artist, Felix von Bredow, whose larger-than-life personality overshadows his inferior artistic ability, and the handsome and gifted artist Rene Levi, whose colossal talent will later serve to destroy him. The trio quickly becomes best friends, inseparable, until two women get in the waythe immensely talented artist Adrienne, Rene’s girlfriend with whom Julian secretly falls in love, and the stunning artist’s model Charlotte, a prostitute-cum-muse, who manages to bring great men to their knees.
Artistic and romantic jealousies abound, as the characters play out their passions against the backdrop of the Nazis' rise to power. Felix returns to Berlin, where his father, a blue-blooded Nazi, is instrumental in creating the master plan to destroy Germany’s modern artists, and seeks his son’s help. Bolstered by vengeance, Felix will lure his friends to Germany, an ill-fated move, which will forever change their lives. Twists and turns, destruction and obsession, loss and hope will keep you up at night, as you journey from Chicago to Paris, Berlin to New York. With passionate strokes of captivating prose, Barr proves that while paintings have a canvas, passion has a facethat once exposed, the haunting images will linger . . . long after you have closed the book.
The Hollywood Film Festival awarded Fugitive Colors first prize for Best Unpublished Manuscript” (Opus Magnum Discovery Award).
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Lisa Barr
Lisa Barr is the New York Times bestselling author of Woman on Fire, The Unbreakables, and the award-winning historical thriller Fugitive Colors. She has served as an editor for The Jerusalem Post, managing editor of Today's Chicago Woman and Moment magazine, and as an editor and reporter for the Chicago Sun-Times. She has appeared on Good Morning America and Today for her work as an author, journalist, and blogger. Actress Sharon Stone is set to produce and star in the film adaptation of Woman on Fire.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Being a Jew in Germany at the beginning of Hitler’s reign was not a good plan. Being Jewish and an Expressionistic painter was much, much worse. Julian Klein has stayed in Paris learning to specify his art. He is very good but also very innocent in many ways. He makes close friends in Felix Von Bredow a child of the Reich with no artistic talent whatsoever; Rene and Adrienne – lovers and quite talented and Charlotte the model who everyone lusted after.Before Julian hit Paris he was Yakov Klein, Hasidic Jew who stole art books from the library and drew in secret as it was against the laws of the Torah to depict art. He sold bundles of socks on a street corner and dreamed of things he shouldn’t. Then, he was caught drawing and Yakov ceased to exist.This book is full of tears, stories of hate and cruelty and is absolutely one of the best I’ve read this year. Ms Barr has done such an great job of putting together her cast so that they go through the pages effortlessly; flying from Paris to the hatred of Germany where Felix and Rene fall in love with the same woman; to Dachau to the final chapters. For a first novel this is such a compelling book that I had to read it over in some places to be sure I had it correct. It isn’t funny but it is a special story to be savored even if it makes you uncomfortable.Lisa Barr’s debut novel, FUGITIVE COLORS, which won first prize at the Hollywood Film Festival for “Best Unpublished Manuscript” (Opus Magnum Awards), is a suspenseful tale of an artist’s revenge after World War II. Julian Klein, a young American artist, leaves behind his religious upbringing for the artistic freedom of Paris in the 1930s, only to find himself trapped inside a world in which a paintbrush is far more lethal than a gun. An artist-cum-unlikely spy, Julian is forced to contend with jealous inferior artists who attempt to destroy those with true talent. Love, Friendship, Betrayal and Passion painted in FUGITIVE COLORS are never black and white. Like an abstract painting, Julian’s turbulent journey is emotionally charged as he tries to save his friends and rescue some of the most important pieces of Modern Art – including his own.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Fugitive Colors is a story about art, painters, love, revenge and redemption. The story takes place just prior to WWII and is about a group of painters that live and paint in Paris. An American, Julian Klein is the main character of the story. An idealistic young man who left America and his family because he did not want to conform to his father's rules. His father is a cruel man and does not understand Julian's desire to paint. Felix Von Bredow is a painter who is not as talented as Julian and Renee Levi, the third friend and fellow painter. Enter two women, Adrienne, Renee's girlfriend and Charlotte, the artists model. The mixture of these people is volatile to say the least, but it makes a great story. Time evolves and enter the Nazi's who are persecuting Jewish painters and confiscating their artwork. This story takes place over a long period of timeI know nothing about art or artist's but I found this book fascinating. There a lot of Holocaust books written lately but this one is in a class by itself, character driven and a believable story line that could very well have happened. the Hitler and his Nazis were cruel and inhuman people and it is always heartbreaking to read about the atrocities committed against a race of people. I thoroughly enjoyed this book, the writing is very descriptive and enables the reader to almost be there. I love historical fiction and this time frame is especially interesting. I would highly recommend this book. I loved it!
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Fugitive Colors. Lisa Barr. 2013. I knew that Hitler and his crew hated modern art and destroyed as much as they could as they were taking art they liked from museums, castles, and people, especially the Jews in each country they invaded. This is a fictionalize account of some young artists and their mentors in Paris and several cities in Germany during this nightmare. A young naïve American Jewish artist meets three young artists on his first day in Paris. The plot revolves around these four painters as they study painting techniques and paint. Of course all three of the boys fall in love with the girl! The plot is somewhat far-fetched: one of painters is the son of an important German family, and another is the son of an important art dealer in Paris. It is suspenseful, and I think the facts concerning what the Nazis did to destroy the art and artists they consider decadent is true. This is an easy way to learn history. Those who are upset by sex and violence should skip this one.
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Fugitive Colors - Lisa Barr
Prologue
CHICAGO, 1926
Yakov Klein slowly ran his finger over the cover of the art book he was about to steal from the library, as a burglar would a precious jewel just snatched from a glass case. Pressing the book to his face, he inhaled the familiar dusty scent of his latest prize: Gustav Klimt. It was a delicious moment, but one he would have to savor later, in the secrecy of his bedroom once the lights were out and his parents were sleeping. Right now, he had to get out of the library without getting caught.
Shoving the thick book inside his overcoat, Yakov quickly made a beeline from the art collection toward the exit, one floor down, and across the long vaulted hallway. The linoleum floor squeaked loudly as he neared the sole librarian bent over a bottom shelve next to a pile of just-returned books. He paused briefly and stared at the librarian’s large buttocks straining too tightly against the cheap material of her royal blue skirt. If only he could paint her like that—compromised, determined to get the book alphabetized and in its place—but he kept walking. Thirty-two more steps until he was safely out the door.
From the corner of his eye, Yakov saw a little girl, no more than five, holding her mother’s hand and watching him. He knew what she saw—what everyone saw when they looked at him—the long black wool coat, the tall black silk hat that was still too big, and the payis—long sidelocks—that Jewish custom had required him to grow his whole life. It was a uniform borne of a different century. Yakov, son of Benjamin, raised as an Orthodox Jew, wore some version of the same clothing every day—black and white, a wardrobe devoid of color or change—and he hated it.
That’s why he stole the art book. If truth were told, that was why he had been stealing art books since the week after his bar mitzvah, nine months earlier. He desperately needed color. This desire was apparent at age seven when he discovered his mother’s special pale pink lipstick stashed in the skinny wooden drawer in the nightstand by her bed. It was the same color as the covering for the challah on the Sabbath table. It was also the same color as the fancy napkins his mother put out on Rosh Hashanah. Yakov took the lipstick. He knew it was wrong, but he had to have it. Pink, he thought with excitement, was also the color of the forbidden pig—that un-kosher swine his father always ranted on about.
Yakov thought a lot about pigs, perhaps because he wasn’t supposed to think about them. At first he felt guilty as he began to draw, but once the lipstick met the paper he could not stop until he was finished. Holding the paper to the light, Yakov felt an indescribable thrill—the plump curly-tailed treif animal was now his. He hid the drawing inside his bedroom closet. And it was on that day that he discovered the joy of art, and when the lying began.
In time, Yakov became more sophisticated in his art. Using a pencil, he drew everything around him from memory: his mother, his father, books, food, Shabbos candles—everything he’d see would soon find its way onto paper and then into the secret box hidden in his closet. No one knew. Just him and God. And that was more than enough.
One day, after Yakov’s father left early for the synagogue, his mother came into his bedroom, closed the door, and gestured Yakov to join her on the bed. They faced each other in silence, the kind of stern cross-armed quiet that meant he’d done something wrong. He waited.
Yakov, I know.
She knew.
Yakov, ten years old, was his mother’s only child, in a world where only children simply did not exist, unless there were problems. And there were definitely problems. Yakov would hear his mother cry at night through his bedroom wall, telling his father that she was half a woman because she could not have more children. She would go on about her sister Channa with six kids and pregnant with the seventh, and why was it God’s way that she should only have one? And all the babies she lost before and after Yakov. Five, she would cry, five. At dinner, Yakov would see the disappointment unveiled in his father’s eyes when he’d look at his wife across the table, and then Yakov would see his mother’s fallen face. But right now, his mother, angry and sad with five dead pregnancies, knew.
Are you going to tell him, Mama?
Yakov asked quietly. He was not scared of his father, just terrified of losing his collection of artwork.
No,
she whispered, gently wiping away a wisp of light brown hair from his forehead. Her green eyes welled up. Yakov thought, if only he could draw her like that: the loose hair falling out of her bun, her head tilted just so, her beautiful wet green eyes that were the same color as the sofa.
I’m afraid for you, Yakov.
Don’t be,
he said, sitting up straight, knowing she hated when he slouched. I’m not afraid.
But your father . . . and the rabbi. It is forbidden. The drawings. You need to study your Torah.
His mother’s tone was stern but her gaze was milky and far away. You are too young to understand. But passion, dreams of something else, something better—can destroy.
Silent, slow-moving tears began to fall lightly against her cheeks.
Are you still talking about me, Mama? Yakov wanted to ask, but knew better. Instead, he reached for his mother’s trembling hand and held it tightly, protectively, inside his own.
I won’t tell him,
she promised through her tears. But you must stop. You must . . .
Her voice trailed away.
That day, his art and his lies became hers; an umbilical cord of shared but necessary silence.
What Yakov’s mother did not know was that the pencil and paper were not enough. Yakov knew that only he could answer the voice nagging deep inside him: More.
More began with stolen crayons and paints from a nearby hardware store. More led Yakov to the Chicago Public Library, with its treasure trove of art books on painters, paintings, technique, and even lessons. He could not just borrow those books. That would leave a record. His father would somehow find out. At first Yakov thought that one book on Michelangelo would be enough, but it simply whet his appetite. Soon, one book became two; two became five; five turned into ten. Today’s book marked eighteen—the most significant of all biblical numbers, he thought. Eighteen was chai—life.
These books give me life. Surely God understands, Yakov rationalized as he closed the heavy library door behind him.
Holding the book close to his chest, he ran the eight blocks from the library to the cheder—the dank, windowless classroom where he studied six days a week with the rabbi and other boys from his community. If only the rabbi could know that Yakov cared nothing about Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob—except to paint them. If only he could paint the sacrifice of Isaac in Abraham’s hands. If only he could paint the beautiful Rachel with her long, thick, black hair and those full breasts that tempted Jacob, making him work seven years, day and night, like an ox, just to know
her. How many times did Yakov paint that scene in his head at night, or daydream in the classroom while the rabbi droned on? If only he could paint all of his favorite biblical stories, but it was as forbidden as worshiping the Golden Calf. The images were allowed only in his head, and in his heart. His hands were bound and restrained. Painting was breathing, and Yakov was suffocating. But one day, he knew, things would be different.
Yakov told no one about the art books. He had friends, boys he grew up with, but none could be trusted not to tell the rabbi that he broke the Eighth Commandment eighteen times. Nineteen, if you counted the pig. He patted the treasured book inside his coat as he nervously opened the classroom door, knowing before he crossed the threshold exactly what was waiting for him.
Yakov Klein, you are late again!
the rabbi shouted when he entered the room, six minutes after the other boys.
I’m sorry.
Yakov kept his gaze glued to the scratched-up wood floor.
You’re always sorry.
I’m really not sorry,
Yakov muttered under his breath.
What?
Nothing.
As Yakov walked over to his desk, a leg stuck out into the aisle and tripped him on purpose. Yakov went flying, and so did Gustav Klimt. The boys laughed until they saw the rabbi bend over and pick up the stolen book, then there was dead silence. Yakov Klein, the class troublemaker, was in big trouble.
What is this?
the rabbi demanded, his eyes blazing as he held up the book. And where did you get it?
Yakov knew better than to speak.
Answer me!
Yakov stared up at the rabbi, who was tugging angrily on his long, scraggly beard, waiting. He stole a glance at the boys around him, who were half worried for him and half thinking, better him than me.
It’s a book,
he said slowly.
Don’t tell me what I already see. Tell me what I don’t.
Yakov paused, long enough to muster his courage. It’s a book about art.
It doesn’t belong here!
The rabbi wagged an angry finger, the same angry finger he used whether he was discussing Commentary or Torah or doling out discipline. That finger was loaded.
Eyeing the finger, Yakov whispered, I don’t belong here, Rabbi.
Don’t belong here?
mocked the rabbi who was nearing eighty or ninety—no one knew for sure. He opened and quickly slammed shut the book on Klimt, the loud clap echoing throughout the musty room. His dark eyes behind thick glasses blazed as he wagged that finger in double-time. Barely fourteen years old. You think you know about life, but you know nothing.
Yakov quickly glanced at the other boys, his friends. No one said a word. He saw the terror in their eyes, but suddenly, strangely, he felt none inside his own body. He took a few steps forward and stood defiantly before the rabbi. "I will show you something about life."
The rabbi’s eyes widened with disbelief at his insolent student. But there was something else in those black eyes that Yakov saw immediately, which the rabbi could not conceal: curiosity. The rabbi, a teacher, a father of eight and grandfather of thirty, was only a man after all.
Yakov did not wait for a response. He quickly reached inside his desk and took out the piece of paper that he had been hiding for several months. He handed it to the rabbi. This, I drew for you.
The rabbi took the paper and held it with both hands, first at arm’s length and then up into the light. Slowly, he brought the drawing close to his face. It was a picture of the rabbi, alone, praying in his study. His large white tallis—a hand-woven shawl with thick black stripes—was draped like a cape over his shoulders, his tefillin—phylacteries—were wrapped tightly around his forehead and arm. His heavy-hooded eyes bulged not with the wrath of a dissatisfied teacher but with the joy of Morning Prayer. It was an intense, intimate moment that Yakov had captured.
The rabbi tore his gaze away from the image and stared at Yakov. Known as a man who could scold like a snake and reduce a boy to tears with a mere glare, the rabbi was, for the first time, speechless, that finger hanging limply at his side. There was well over a minyan of witnesses as the rabbi stood in silent awe of his worst student’s God-given talent.
That look was all Yakov needed to confirm what he already knew: He was chosen.
GREEN
Great art picks up where nature ends.
—Marc Chagall
Chapter One
PARIS, 1932
Julian stepped off the train platform at Gare de Lyon and onto the cobblestone street. Clutching his suitcase, portfolio, and new identity, he drew in a deep, satisfied breath.
I’m here, finally.
Sharp fumes from passing cars and garbage rot were certainly not what he expected. Somehow, the air in Paris should be savory, sweet, musky, or wine-scented, not ripe with urban odors. As Julian waited for a taxicab, a stylish young woman with long auburn curls walked toward him with an airy bounce, quickly making him forget the stench. Her dress was clingy and floral. Blooming red roses gripped her curvaceous body like a silk glove. Julian smiled at her. She paused, and he knew what she saw: the white even teeth and boyish dimples—a smile that could sell anything, his mother used to say. But this girl wasn’t buying. She rolled her eyes, giggling, and kept walking. Julian realized he had a large baguette crumb hanging off of his lip. He heard her still laughing as she crossed the street.
Where to?
The driver leaned out of the Renault window, speaking without even looking at him.
Julian knew he should go to the university to get situated. His first class started tomorrow, but the day was still young. He hesitated, but only for a few seconds. Why not?
Where do the artists hang out?
he asked in broken French. He understood the language much better than he could speak it.
The Left Bank,
the driver said gruffly. Get in.
Café de Flore at the corner of boulevard Saint Germain and rue Saint-Benoît was crowded. The outdoor seating area was packed with young people drinking, talking, and smoking shoulder to shoulder. No one seemed to mind the sardine-like arrangement. On the contrary, Julian noted, as he approached the restaurant, they appeared to revel in it.
When he entered the two-story café, he was struck by the expensive décor filled with large mirrors, mahogany furniture, and candy-apple red-cushioned seats lining the walls. Julian was used to cheap crummy diners with scattered old newspapers left behind on the seats and cracks on the walls that no one bothered to fix. This place, in comparison, was immaculate, and probably too pricey. He patted his coat and felt the comforting thickness of the wad of money concealed inside a sewn-in pocket. He must have checked the pocket a thousand times on his long journey to Paris. This money was all he had to get by. He had to pace himself. He was hungry, but a cup of coffee and bread would have to do.
He scanned the room. Tiny round tables were brimming with young people. He saw dozens of large portfolios leaning against chair legs. Artists. Julian’s heart beat fast. So this was it. Paris—home of Picasso, Braque, Chagall, Monet, Manet, Renoir, Cézanne—every artist who mattered. And now me. It seemed only yesterday that he had left his parents’ home in Chicago for New York. Left? Julian shook his head at the innocence of that word—more like ran for his life.
As he stood near the door waiting for a table, Julian tried not to think about the past, but no matter how hard he pushed away those thoughts, they continued to haunt him. Don’t go there, he warned himself. Not now, not today.
Instead, he focused on the pretty brunette sitting alone at a table in the center of the room. She caught his eye and smiled. He guessed she was his age, around twenty, perhaps a few years older. He smiled back. The girl laughed and lit a cigarette. Her exhale was long and seductive; the smoke, a smooth, thick line in front of her face. As the smoke cleared, she leaned back and assessed him daringly. Was that an invitation? Julian wondered if he should join her, when suddenly two men pushed past him and walked over to her table.
Damn. The girl stood and kissed them both warmly. Who were they? While she was talking, Julian took the opportunity to get a better look at her. She was medium height, very slim with small curves, like a teenager. He studied the way her hands moved as she spoke, animated like a conductor, and how her long dark ponytail swished behind her as she laughed at something one of those guys said to her. Her lips were full and sensual, slightly duck-like with gleaming white teeth that lit up her whole face. Julian had known women in New York—mostly artists’ models—who were, perhaps, more blatantly beautiful, yet none exuded the instant vibrancy of this girl. Her presence seemed to fill the room.
If only she would sit still, Julian thought, then he could paint her—first in his head, and later, on canvas.
"Monsieur, your table is ready." The waiter tapped his arm, interrupting his thoughts. He led Julian to a table near the girl. He felt self-conscious as his shabby suitcase bumped several people along the way. Everyone seemed to be watching him. From the corner of his eye, he could see her eyes on him too.
Hey—just get off the boat?
one of the two guys sitting at her table called out in harsh-sounding French. Julian turned around.
Leave him alone, Felix,
the girl scolded. Then Julian heard her whisper, Besides, he’s quite attractive.
Just having a little fun, Adrienne,
the guy she called Felix said. And for the record, he’s not as good looking as I am.
Her name is Adrienne. It fits.
"You mean not as good looking as you think you are." She squeezed Felix’s arm affectionately. A friendly squeeze, Julian noted. He was certain that Felix was not her boyfriend. Must be the other one then. Julian sat back in his chair, stretched his legs, watching the trio from the corner of his eye. And, she thinks I’m attractive.
Let’s settle this, Adrienne.
Felix turned to his friend. René, who is better looking? Me, or the guy with the suitcase?
René laughed. Von Bredow, you never change. Always competing. Hate to say it, but Bag Boy wins hands down.
Bastard.
Truth hurts.
Felix leaned forward. So do lies.
Adrienne laughed hard, and then their conversation quickly changed from Julian’s looks to politics. Julian readjusted his chair to get a better view. He could not help but stare at René, whose hair was thick with jet-black waves that nearly reached his shoulders. His blackish eyes were deep-set, and his strong, straight nose flared slightly at the end like a Greek warrior’s. He was pretty, like a prince in a fairy tale. As René spoke, he lightly stroked Adrienne’s upper arm. Definitely the boyfriend. Julian knew he could not compete.
So, where are you from?
Felix called out, catching Julian staring at them. America, right?
Julian felt his cheeks heat up. Conversations seemed to have stopped.
New York,
Julian answered quietly.
Long way from home,
Felix announced loud enough for his attentive audience. Get lost?
He was exactly the kind of guy Julian hated—the loudmouth who demanded constant attention.
I’m an artist,
Julian mumbled, not sure why he even bothered to answer.
The spectators at the surrounding tables burst out in allied laughter. Julian cringed, wishing he could disappear. But the waiter brought his coffee and he was stuck.
An artist?
Felix arched a thick black eyebrow. "A true artist drinks wine in the afternoon and coffee after midnight. You call yourself an artist?"
Julian’s fists curled tightly. Ignore him. He sipped his coffee and focused on the street-side window in front of him, but he could still hear Felix going at it, enjoying himself at Julian’s expense.
Leave him alone already, Felix. You never know when to stop.
It was Adrienne rushing to Julian’s defense.
Felix, who clearly did not like to be ignored, responded by getting up and walking over to Julian’s table. I didn’t mean to offend you,
he said, his breath reeking of wine. I’m just having some fun. Look, we don’t bite. We’re artists too.
He extended his hand, but Julian pretended not to notice. Felix Von Bredow.
Julian Klein.
He stood and assessed Felix, who was taller than him, but less muscular. His hair, black and slicked back, set off a wide forehead and large eyes that were a startling shade of blue. His pockmarked cheeks marred what might have been a perfect face.
Have a drink with us.
Felix gestured toward his table.
Julian met Adrienne’s sparkling almond gaze. She smiled warmly, and he felt himself blush.
I can guarantee we’ll insult you,
Felix added wryly, but we won’t bore you.
Julian wanted to tell Felix to go to hell, but Felix had already grabbed Julian’s bag without waiting for an answer.
"Garçon, another, Felix shouted out in French, lifting a just-finished bottle of Beaujolais high overhead. He then raised his still-full glass and said in German,
A toast to the tortured memory of my father. May Baron Wilhelm Von Bredow forever rest in peace, and remain far away from me."
But your father is alive and well,
Adrienne objected in English, for Julian’s benefit.
There you go again.
Felix playfully kissed her cheek. Trying to ruin my day.
Julian glanced at his watch in shock. It felt like minutes since he’d sat down with them, but he had been drinking for almost three hours. The traffic outside was dying down, and the bustling afternoon had transformed into a lethargic dusk. He was tired from traveling and lightheaded from listening to his new friends switch languages as easily as they changed their drinks.
So, how do you know French and German so well?
Felix asked Julian, as he downed his glass and opened yet another bottle of wine. Europeans converse easily in at least three languages, but most Americans I meet can barely speak one.
Very funny.
Julian deemed Felix an asshole but figured he’d never see him again after today. I had a neighbor who was French,
he explained. And a cousin by marriage who was German. But if I were you, I wouldn’t brag about your English.
Adrienne laughed and punched Felix’s arm. No wonder René and I are the only friends you have left.
Not true,
Felix countered, nudging Julian. I now have him too.
Adrienne rolled her eyes and leaned forward. Her blouse opened slightly and Julian forced himself to look away. We’ve been talking nonstop. Tell us more about you, Julian.
For the first time since Julian had joined their table, Felix actually stopped talking and gave Julian the floor. The three of them were silent and waiting. Julian was not prepared to talk about himself, but knew he had to give them something. He skipped the part about Chicago and instead told them how he had lived briefly with his cousin Sammy in Brooklyn while taking art classes at night. During the day, while Sammy ran his bootlegging business, Julian spent time with his cousin’s German-born wife Gertrude, who modeled for him as he painted her, cooked for him, and taught him the language. Julian omitted telling them how Gertrude had tried to seduce him one afternoon and that he quickly packed up his belongings and left Sammy’s home that night. Instead, Julian told his new friends that he needed a change and moved into a ramshackle apartment in Manhattan with five other young artists whom he had met in his classes. By day, Julian painted houses to make money. On those nights he did not have art classes, he painted on the street with his new friends, mostly portraits and landscapes of local tourist attractions, particularly tacky renderings of Yankee Stadium and the Statue of Liberty.
Julian quickly understood that while his subjects were uninspiring, his work sold faster than any other artist’s paintings on the street. He heard the same comments again and again. You are better than this, Julian. A natural. Go to Paris, that’s where the real artists are.
An elderly French woman who lived in his apartment building encouraged Julian to send his sketches to her brother, an instructor at the École des Beaux-Arts, to get an opinion of his work. When Julian received an invitation to attend the famous Parisian art school, he knew that what they had said about him on the street must be true. He happily painted the French woman’s portrait in exchange for French lessons.
Six months later, after he had saved up enough money for travel expenses, Julian returned to his cousin’s home, asking Sammy if he could borrow money to move to Paris to study. He showed Sammy the letter from the École des Beaux-Arts and promised him a return with interest on the investment.
Sammy brought Julian into his office and opened up the safe, which was filled with more money than Julian had ever seen. He handed Julian several stacks of bills and a bottle of whiskey, and hugged him tightly. He then looked his cousin squarely in the eye and said, I trust you, Julian. If it’s what you really want, then go to Paris and paint, but when you become the next Picasso, don’t forget your cousin Sammy.
Felix listened to Julian’s story as he finished off the last of the wine. A bootlegger, huh? My kind of guy. The École des Beaux-Arts part—not impressed.
He glanced at Adrienne and René, then lifted the almost emptied bottle of Beaujolais to get the waiter’s attention. Julian had never seen anyone drink so much, and so fast.
Go easy, Felix,
René warned him, giving the approaching waiter a no-more signal. He turned to Julian. Don’t get Felix started on the Beaux-Arts, or we will be here all night.
You think I’m drunk, René? You have no faith in my true calling.
Felix grabbed René’s half-full glass of wine and finished it, slamming down the glass against the table. But you’re right. Let’s get out of here. I say we paint. My creative juices are flowing. Let’s go now before I piss it all out.
He draped his arm around René’s shoulders. My place this time. Why don’t you join us, Julian? You have nothing better to do.
Julian knew he should get to the art school to settle in. I’ve really got to go,
he said reluctantly. Classes begin tomorrow, and I can barely see straight.
"The goal here is to not see straight. Felix wiped his wine-drenched mouth with his sleeve.
I almost forgot. École des Beaux-Arts’s students need all of their energy to stomach heavy doses of academic rubbish."
René and Adrienne exchanged knowing glances. Here we go,
René said, rolling his eyes.
Julian turned to Adrienne. What’s his problem with the École des Beaux-Arts?
You have to understand, we were all once students there,
she explained. We’re dropouts.
That place is a death warrant for artists.
Felix leaned in close to Julian. His breath was sour. A bunch of cookie-cutter instructors out to destroy any independent creative thinking.
René nodded vigorously, and Julian noticed how his black hair had a deep blue sheen under the glow of the overhead light. A couple of years ago we all left the school together for Léon Dubois’s studio,
René explained. Way back, Dubois taught at the Beaux-Arts. He was considered one of their star painters until he declared himself to be independent of the Establishment.
Julian listened as René described how their mentor had been fed up with the school’s stringent rules and had decided to break free. As René spoke, Julian gazed at his hands, which were slim-tipped and delicately carved. They did not seem to match the rest of René, who was powerfully built, like an athlete.
Adrienne lit another cigarette and blew smoke over Julian’s shoulder, interrupting his thoughts. Dubois challenged the powers-that-be by joining up with the German Expressionists and flaunting it,
she said. The stream of her breath felt warm near Julian’s mouth, and he inhaled it guiltily.
It was a slap in the school’s face,
she continued. The French hate the Expressionists because their technique is considered formless, excessive, and wild—totally unsophisticated.
But brilliant,
René added, as he lightly stroked her shoulder again. She looked up at him, and they both smiled intimately, as though they would rather be in bed than at the café. Julian felt an unexpected pang of jealousy.
Yes, the Expressionists are brilliant, German, and barbaric—like me.
Felix laughed heartily, joined by the others. He stood. He was done talking, done drinking. He threw money down on the table and pulled Julian up alongside him. Tomorrow, you will be stuck in a classroom, my friend. But tonight, you’re coming with us, and we will show you what you will never get at the École des Beaux-Arts.
Chapter Two
The group left the boulevard Saint Germain and headed toward the rue Mazarine to drop off Adrienne, who claimed she was too tired to paint. As they passed several bookstores and art galleries, Julian caught the inebriated group’s reflection in the succession of sepia-tinted glass panels. Paint? he thought. We can barely stand.
They stumbled along chipped cobblestones, and Julian concentrated hard to keep one foot in front of the other, balancing his body with his bag and portfolio. Julian stopped moving when he spotted a group of vendors gathering across the street with their wooden carts filled with leftovers from the day—bread, fruit, and vegetables. A full-bearded young man stepped away from his cart and seemed to be looking directly at Julian. He was wearing a long black jacket, white shirt, and tall black silk hat. Julian rubbed his eyes. Here it is. Can’t get away.
Julian tried to walk forward and ignore the man, but then he saw the small, black prayer book in the man’s hand, and he froze. Squeezing his eyes shut, Julian remembered the feel of that book; the rough texture of the worn-in binder, the yellowing pages crammed with thousands of tiny black Hebrew letters—words that were pounded into his head, day after day for eighteen hellish years.
Do you know that guy, Julian? He seems to know you.
Felix pointed across the street at the man facing them. That’s not your cousin Sammy, is it?
Felix, enough,
Adrienne reprimanded him, glancing at Julian.
But Felix kept going. "See, what I don’t understand is fine, be Jewish, but not that Jewish."
Julian’s face turned red. He should leave now.
Ignore Felix. He drank way too much,
Adrienne said in a way that Julian could tell she was used to apologizing on Felix’s behalf.
Be Jewish, but not that Jewish.
Felix’s words weighed heavily on Julian’s mind, and he knew that no matter how hard he tried to get away from being that Jewish, he could never escape. Not in Chicago, not in New York, and not here in Paris. There would always be reminders of Yakov Klein, the part of himself that was dead, but not buried.
The afternoon heat in Chicago was particularly brutal that day. Yakov had been standing by his father’s rickety wooden cart in the Maxwell Street market since dawn. He felt weary, sweaty, and bored, as usual. I hate my life, he thought. He glanced around at the dull cast of characters who showed up every day at the outdoor market, selling the same goods, wearing the same black and white clothing. Nothing ever changes. I hate that most of all.
It was too hot and muggy to be stuck wearing the same black wool overcoat and matching trousers. How he wished he could break free from the confining layers and wear a short-sleeved shirt and light khaki pants like those boys who attended the nearby college. But he was trapped, in these clothes, in this damn market, in this life.
Glancing down at his cart, Yakov stared with contempt at the bottomless pit of men’s black socks that never seemed to diminish, no matter how many pairs he sold. He knew he should be soliciting potential customers, but instead he remained silent, gazing at the tall woman nearby who had just arrived in the market. She was new. A potato peddler. She saw Yakov watching her and turned away self-consciously. Yakov took a few steps closer. Now she was interesting.
He studied the back of the woman’s head, imagining the look and feel of her hair beneath the confines of her faded yellow scarf. He envisaged the flowing blond locks, the same flaxen color as the wisps that rose delicately along the slim line of her exposed neck, but his gaze was forbidden by the laws of the Torah. The woman, he knew by the ring on her finger and the two kids tugging at her skirt, was married.
Yakov forced himself to look away, but could not stop himself from imagining the woman at night, shedding her soiled clothes, flinging them to the floor. Her long fingers would unknot the scarf, undo the bobby pins, and shake out her hair. She would walk toward her tub. A breast, a thigh, the swell of buttocks froze in Yakov’s mind like a still life. But at almost nineteen years old, he had never seen a woman naked, only in pictures.
Excuse me—you—I said how much for a bundle?
The man’s voice was intrusive. And for a moment Yakov forgot where he was. He glared at the customer. How much for men’s black socks? Who cared? He wished he could ignore the man and leave the market for good, but his cart overflowed with the nearly two hundred pairs of socks that his mother had spent all night rolling. He kept hearing his father’s bullying voice: You can forget about dinner, Yakov, if you don’t sell the socks.
For you, eighteen cents,
Yakov mustered, barely looking at the customer.
The man threw down the socks and stomped off.
Yakov knew he was supposed to follow the customer and offer fifteen cents. The man would counter with ten. A deal would be struck at thirteen. But Yakov let the man walk.
Instead, he stole another glance at the woman. She was moving about now. Through her drab dress, he could see the bouncing silhouette of her full breasts. She was not young, at least ten years older than he was. She was not beautiful either. Her eyes were closely spaced, her nose was too narrow, and her lips curved into a natural frown. Yet, it was the way she held herself, proud and haughty, as though she were a princess and not a peddler.
The woman began shouting at potential customers; her voice was shrill and slightly irritating as she tried to sell her grayish-looking potatoes. Yakov wished she would be quiet. He just wanted to look at her, to focus on the subtle curve of her neck. He could practically feel the smooth flesh as though it were silk rubbing against his fingertips. And so many colors at once—white, peach, gold with flecks of rose. He squeezed his hands into tight fists to prevent himself from reaching out to touch the moistness of her skin as the sun danced over it.
Someone was tugging at the back of his coat, demanding two bundles of socks for twenty cents. The same guy again. Yakov dismissed him with a sharp flick of his wrist. Couldn’t the man see that he had