Cottonmouths: A Novel
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From a compelling new voice in LGBTQ and Southern fiction, a gripping tale of crime and desire amid small-town America’s meth epidemic.
This was Drear’s Bluff. Nothing bad happened here. People didn’t disappear.
College was supposed to be an escape for Emily Skinner. But after failing out of school, she's left with no choice but to return to her small Arkansas hometown, a place run on gossip and good Christian values.
She's not alone. Emily's former best friend—and childhood crush—Jody Monroe is back with a baby. Emily can't resist the opportunity to reconnect, despite the uncomfortable way things ended between them and her mom's disapproval of their friendship. When Emily stumbles upon a meth lab on Jody's property, she realizes just how far they’ve both fallen.
Emily intends to keep her distance from Jody, but when she's kicked out of her house with no money and nowhere to go, a paying job as Jody's live-in babysitter is hard to pass up. As they grow closer, Emily glimpses a future for the first time since coming home. She dismisses her worries; after all, Jody is a single mom. The meth lab is a means to an end. And besides, for Emily, Jody is the real drug.
But when Jody's business partner goes missing, and the lies begin to pile up, Emily will learn just how far Jody is willing to go to save her own skin—and how much Emily herself has risked for the love of someone who may never truly love her back.
Echoing the work of authors like Daniel Woodrell and Sarah Waters, Cottonmouths is an unflinching story about the ways in which the past pulls us back . . . despite our best efforts to leave it behind.
Kelly J. Ford
Kelly J. Ford is the author of Real Bad Things and the award-winning Cottonmouths, a novel of “impressive depths of character and setting” according to the Los Angeles Review, which named it one of its Best Books of 2017. An Arkansas native, Kelly writes crime fiction set in the Ozarks and the Arkansas River Valley.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Real Rating: 4.9* of five, rounded up because why be a dickHow in the Christing HELL did I not ever post my review here?!?I RECEIVED A DRC FROM THE PUBLISHER VIA EDELWEISS+. THANK YOU.My Review: You probably went to Sunday school. Your mama and daddy taught you about Right and Wrong and never the twain shall meet and you either rolled your eyes and agreed to shut them up or absorbed it with every spongy fiber of your kid-soul. Most likely some of both.But that "moral grounding" does el zippo to prepare you for end-stage capitalism's vampirous demands.It sure as Hell didn't prepare li'l Emily.Where she was headed, the cast iron skillet had been seasoned before she was born.Her mom would cook the beans, potatoes, and cornbread the way her own mother had taught her. Dad would recite the Lord’s Prayer because it required no thought. And Emily would stare at her plate of food and let it go cold while pondering the headset and the cash register and the brown and blue uniform in her back seat, whose fibers still held its last tenant’s stench of fryer grease and body odor—items for a life she had not expected to return to when she left for college, for a job that would not have been offered to her at all had she not removed the name of the state university from her resume—though two years hardly called for its inclusion.Now you name me a worse feeling than being forced, as an adult, to go to the place you're used to calling Home when it's about as much home as that deep-fat fryer you're smellin' right now.For a Lesbian sister in a christian-values community, this is WORSE than being in so much debt that you can never dig yourself out, right? Hold my beer, says Author Kelly, I am about to make this fryin' pan seem nuclear powered:Watching her walk away, Emily felt as dirty as if she’d been watching porn. The craving came on like a fever, as if a coal had been stoked within and blurred the edges of reasonable thought. Rather than push it away, she sat on the floor and let the desire consume her.–and–Then an ache no bigger than a marble pulsed inside Emily, an ache born in the woods across the creek. An ache that beat on inside her, steady, steadier, growing until her whole body shook.–but–That was the worst of it, to be accused but denied the pleasure of what everyone thought.That is how Emily responds to the sight of Jody, her long-ago never-was one-that-got-away. Everyone...yeah. Lots of Everyone in Drear's Bluff (isn't that a superb distillation of Home, fellow former Southerners?), and man are they a bunch of self-righteous goobers. Nothing new there...that's how most people are. That's how so many can't help but be, given their lack of moral fiber to resist group-think.Emily's true self, her inner self, is under siege at home, and she's got to get out...Jody, the woman who revs up her nights this decade-plus, has a solution: Come watch my baby for me! Live here, I'll give you some cash, and you're out of the house. Remember that frying pan?“This is like the worst stereotype of the South come to life. All you need is a Confederate flag over the fucking door.”–and–All those wasted moments of guilt and shame and feeling downright wrong about what she’d done in the bed the night Jody left.–and–No matter how tempting the offer, she knew that half a life was no life at all.It's never, ever the same, not after leaving or coming back; the world's moved on, so have your feelings, so has the person you once had the feelings for. You're in for it, though, while the ride lasts; you're not going to get off until the merry-go-round's slung you onto the bouncy-castle at 55mph and you've gone sailing through the air but there's a landing coming...one you don't have any way to cushion, or even prepare for....Lovers would come and go. Maybe there’d be one who would be unafraid and teach Emily how to be brave, brave enough to wake up next to her, to walk hand in hand. Someone with whom she’d have a nice life, without trouble and with love. But in the twilight hours of her life, when her body and memory failed, this above all others would be the buoy she would cling to, the memory she would repeat and repeat until the darkness ripped her away. Because this moment, so small, the smallest, had seared her heart.I wish I'd been able to full-five-star the read; the thing that kept me from doing it was a certain soap-opera quality that, while I didn't hate it (I used to watch All My Children, FFS, I'm not immune to the appeal!), I found...wearing. I wanted something that rose above it more often than something planted squarely in it, and that little niggle took the luster off just enough to be noticeable.
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Cottonmouths - Kelly J. Ford
CHAPTER ONE
FROM BEHIND, THE WOMAN STANDING with a guy next to the Love’s Truck Stop air pump looked like any other woman: long hair, too skinny, big purse, big sunglasses. But when the woman turned and smiled, Emily’s chest tightened and her insides tingled in a forgotten but familiar way. Rumors of Jody’s return had come as whispers around town, but until now Emily had lacked proof.
A warm breeze blew petroleum fumes and cigarette smoke into her face while she sought further confirmation of who she’d seen. Gas spilled onto her hand. Startled, she released the trigger on the pump and swiped her hand across her jeans. She sheltered her eyes from the sun to scan the parking lot. But the woman and the guy were gone.
Back on the highway, Emily tried to keep her mind as empty and barren as the farmland that rolled by. When that didn’t work, she turned up the radio and hit scan, unable to settle on the station offerings from the nearest town—country or Christian or the same four pop songs on repeat interspersed with commercials for pawn shops and car lots. Midway through the miles she punched the radio off and tried to tell herself that her new fast food job and her time at home were temporary, though she’d been back a month already.
She hadn’t meant to apply for the job. She’d talked to the woman at the temp agency like her mom had suggested. The woman had responded the way Emily had expected: sorry, but they didn’t have anything for someone with her lack of professional experience. Best try fast food, the woman had said. The woman’s coworker had lifted her eyes, and Emily had detected smugness in her smile. Angry and wallowing in self-pity, she had asked for and filled out a job application during her value meal lunch at a restaurant she’d spotted on the way home. She hadn’t expected the manager to offer her a job—on the same day that she applied, after a rushed interview whose only purpose seemed to be to ensure she wasn’t a criminal.
She had accepted. There was no choice.
Soon, though, she lied to the empty passenger seat, she’d get a call for a job she really wanted or some other professional job she didn’t really care for, but at least it would be a real job, something that could make a dent in student loan and credit card accounts that sat on the brink of default and whose balances kept her up at night. That sounded good until the CDs and candle holders and assorted junk drawer contents in the last moving box she couldn’t bring herself to remove from her car rattled in the back seat. If she took that last moving box inside her parents’ house, she feared she’d never leave Drear’s Bluff.
The dream of next week dissolved into the hot, stale air that surrounded her. She had sold her couch, her bed, her pots and pans. There was no need for those things now. Where she was headed, the cast iron skillet had been seasoned before she was born.
Her mom would cook the beans, potatoes, and cornbread the way her own mother had taught her. Dad would recite the Lord’s Prayer because it required no thought. And Emily would stare at her plate of food and let it go cold while pondering the headset and the cash register and the brown and blue uniform in her back seat, whose fibers still held its last tenant’s stench of fryer grease and body odor—items for a life she had not expected to return to when she left for college, for a job that would not have been offered to her at all had she not removed the name of the state university from her resume—though two years hardly called for its inclusion.
Two years in, after failing to meet the grade requirements to keep her partial scholarship and other financial aid, she’d quit. Six months after quitting, she’d gotten a call from her mom asking why they had received a student loan bill in the mail when she wasn’t supposed to graduate for at least two more years. Now, here she was. Back with debt for a degree she hadn’t earned.
As the road came into sight—the one that led to her childhood home, and her parents, and their accompanying disappointment in her—she drove past it, beyond the mile markers, in a direction she had not driven in years, led on by a thought formed in the parking lot of the truck stop with no idea what she would find once she got there.
Drear’s Bluff’s main drag looked like every other small town. There were the necessities: a post office, a floral shop for homecomings and Valentine’s Days and birthdays and graduations, and the feed store. Here, the men were men and women were women. Roles were handed out and passed down like the matriarchs’ afghan quilts, biscuit recipes, and stories.
She slowed the car when she came to the Quik-a-Way gas station-slash-everything mart and roadside diner. Every Sunday for as long as the Quik-a-Way had been around, the old men sat at the counter, sipped their hot coffee, and waited for their wives to finish gossiping. They never tired of talk about the good old days, when the farms were theirs alone, no corporate middlemen to answer to, no undue rules and regulations. All the farmers, including Emily’s dad, would pull on their green John Deere hats and disappear behind storms of dirt that trailed their tractors. They prided themselves on eating their Cream of Wheat and tightening their belts and working hard like everyone in Drear’s Bluff had been taught. Folks liked to slap their knees and joke that there were only two classes of people in Drear’s Bluff: poor and dirt-poor. The poor weren’t really poor. They just liked to say they were. The dirt-poor were still dirt-poor but they liked to think they weren’t. And most of the working fields, the ones that paid for supper, were good and gone.
Out of habit, she spied the parking lot for familiar vehicles. She didn’t recognize any of them. These cars belonged to the current crop of seniors and juniors who were there to grab a burger or a Mountain Dew before they headed off to evening shifts at restaurants and stores in towns bigger than Drear’s Bluff. They didn’t know now, but in a year or two these kids might appreciate the simplicity and comfort of having somewhere to go every day that required no input, no guilt. You went to school. You ate lunch. You went home.
Once she left the highway and the outskirts of Drear’s Bluff behind, the smooth asphalt shifted to a rumble. She cursed the potholes in the dirt road, unearthed by thunderstorms and hardened into craters that destroyed tires. The branches hung low and thick with dust kicked up from what little traffic barreled down the dead-end red clay road. The dust drifted into the car, coating the dashboard and causing her to sneeze. The soaring grain silos of Johnston’s farm came into view. Along with their farm, they kept a stable of horses that they sometimes rode in the Old Fort Days Rodeo Parade. The horses dotted the horizon. As she’d done as a child, Emily adjusted her gaze so that the sky and grass looked connected by the barbed wire fence with a Frankenstein stitch, so that a horse looked like it’d been caught on the metal thorn. She navigated her car farther into the deep recesses of woods, past roads without markers and faded NO HUNTING signs riddled with buckshot, past the entrance to Lee Creek, where countless teenagers had indulged in their first drink, smoke, kiss, and heartbreak.
Two pale, skinny, and shirtless teenage boys walked along the side, near a dry ditch. One of the boys held a shotgun. The other, a red plastic gas can. Their ATV had probably run out of gas while they were out in the woods shooting songbirds for sport. Emily slowed the car when she passed them. She lifted an index finger off the steering wheel for a one-finger wave. Two sets of dead eyes stared back at her, like the boys had been beat on a few too many times. They returned the gesture and disappeared in the car’s cloud of dust.
Her nerves pricked as she drew closer to that familiar plot of land. She came to the end of the road and paused at the faded black mailbox and the metal farm gate that stood wide open. Knots that had begun to cramp her gut told her to turn around, best to let some things lie, but a stronger current of curiosity and what ifs overtook her and she made the turn. Trees in desperate need of a trim scraped the sides of the car until she came to the clearing. Her heart drummed at the sight of the trees, the dirt drive that snaked up the hill, the chicken house, the uncut grass—all recognizable but unfamiliar.
She would have put the car in reverse and driven ten miles back to the highway, beyond the high school and the Quik-a-Way, back home, back from the past, shaking her head at the notions that had occupied her mind since she left the truck stop—but there was a witness. She leaned against the long metal panes of the chicken house and let a cigarette burn down in one hand while she gnawed on a fingernail of the other like it was sugar cane. Jody Monroe.
Adrenaline thrummed through Emily. She swallowed hard, tried to ease her mouth for speech. The rumors were true.
Jody stubbed the tip of her cigarette against the chicken house wall and flicked the butt to the ground. She unwound herself one appendage at a time, first dropping one arm, then the other, to drift over to where Emily had stopped the car. Any trace of Jody’s mom in her looks had been masked by her unknown father’s far more pervasive DNA, leaving Jody with an ever-present uncertainty of her origins and no way for her to answer that persistent question: Where are you from?
While her mom was straight out of a country boy’s wet dream with her smooth, sandy blonde locks and plunging, sunbaked cleavage dressed to attract eyes like fruit flies to a rotting apple, Jody looked like she’d stepped out of a ’90s photo shoot with ink-black, bed-head hair and heavy-lidded eyes. Tall for a girl. Skinny. Pure heroin chic.
Jody crouched down and propped her hands on the car’s windowsill. Her worn black T-shirt swooped low. Her chest and cheeks had grown even sharper since high school, unlike Emily’s, which were pasty except for the occasional sun splotch, with a strong affinity for shelving baby fat.
Thanks to the always-faulty A/C in her car, the rush of wind from the rolled-down windows had tornadoed Emily’s hair. She smoothed it and pushed a strand of hair away from her face, conscious of the shirt and pants she’d worn for the failed temp agency interview, which did little to hide curves that would have been appreciated in a different era.
Jody’s eyes didn’t jump to the next distraction the way they had when she was younger. She surveyed Emily and said, You smell like fries.
The semi-sweet, burnt-coffee smell of weed hung in the air, followed by the stench of ammonia and rotten eggs from the chicken house, delivered to their noses by an uptick in the wind.
Emily cleared her throat and positioned her shaking hands under her legs. You smell like high school.
Jody’s mouth broke into a smile. What the hell are you doing back in Drear’s Bluff?
Emily had avoided church and inevitable versions of this question all month, even though she knew her mom told people that she was just taking a break for a semester. Emily hoped that they would forget the excuse when the semester ended and she was still there. She had left town a success—an acceptance to college!—and she had come back a failure. None of them wanted to broadcast that.
I could ask the same of you,
Emily said.
Jody swung her hand out. Won the redneck lotto. Didn’t you hear?
She had not heard. In the years she’d been away, Emily had received unsolicited texts full of gossip from her mom along with questions about her grades and whether she’d gained any more weight, followed by complaints about how long it’d been since she’d come home. Her mom had sent one text about Jody. A rumor about her being pregnant. Emily remembered reading that text during the Principles of Biology class she was trying but failing to pass. She remembered how she had cried and the looks from the guy who sat on her right. She remembered her surprise at those tears and how she had blamed them on stress from homework and classes. She had asked for more information about the rumor. But that was all her mom had heard. Nothing more. Nothing to let her know if the rumor was fact. Nothing about where Jody lived now.
Emily had come here with Jody when they were younger but she couldn’t remember it looking like this. Rust rained down the metal siding of the chicken house to the right. She could just see the roof of the mobile home that sat at the top of the hill. Gutted cars and discarded farm parts had been piled here and there. The property lacked a spread of trees to cover some of the depression. Other than one big maple in the front, there was nothing to recommend the place as fit for living. She did remember how Jody’s grandma had watched Emily like she might try to steal one of her porcelain Precious Moments figurines or a chipped coffee cup from Dogpatch USA. Every other sentence from Jody’s grandpa included the words switch
and kill.
Jody stood and stretched. Grandpa got sick, and Mom sure as hell wasn’t gonna come back to Drear’s Bluff to take care of him. That left me. He passed about a year after Grandma.
I’m sorry.
Thanks. He was old, though. And ornery.
She planted her hands on her hips and raised her eyebrows. So college, huh? I heard you went.
She whistled and grinned. I knew you’d make something of yourself. You join one of them sororities?
Emily wondered who had shared that bit of information. But word got around town whether you liked it or not. What do you think?
Nah. I guess it ain’t your style. Though I bet you would get on just fine with them girls. I hear they like to experiment,
she said and winked.
Emily used to warm at such veiled references. At the rumors that flew around school about her and Jody just because they lived together for a handful of months when Jody’s mom wasn’t up to the challenge of mothering. Nothing had ever happened. Nothing but a close encounter in the woods across the creek. Her first kiss. Jody high on pot and the idea of leaving Drear’s Bluff, which she did a month later. The moment shocking, quick, unforgettable, but not destined to happen again. They’d gone home and never spoken of it, though the moment reverberated within Emily still.
That was the worst of it, to be accused but denied the pleasure of what everyone thought.
Well, I hear you don’t even need to be in a sorority to experiment,
Emily said. Sometimes, all it takes is a little pot.
That’s fair.
Jody laughed, but Emily doubted she got the reference. You get lost on your way home? What are you doing all the way out here?
Jody lived in the last house on a dead end in the woods. If you ended up in Jody’s drive, you meant to be there. No lie would suffice. I thought I saw you today, out at the Love’s on I-40. I had time to kill.
She checked her watch like it was no special thing to drive so far out of her way to see if an old friend happened to have returned.
Jody scratched her nose and kicked the dirt. Must’ve been someone else. I been here all day.
Something at the top of the hill distracted Jody. I’d invite you up,
she said, followed by a long pause. Not really your crowd, though. I know how much you hate parties.
I used to. People change.
That’s what they say. I have my doubts.
Jody tilted her head. You didn’t really say why you’re here.
Emily had toyed with various lies the whole ride over. I don’t want to go home,
Emily said.
Jody chewed on a nail again, looking every bit like she was going to serve up some excuse and send Emily on her way. Well, you’ve come to the right place, then.
Jody pulled the handle on her door and opened it.
Emily stepped out. Before she knew what was happening, Jody wrapped her in a full embrace. Emily stiffened out of habit in Jody’s presence, arms at her side. The scent of honeysuckle in Jody’s hair sent her back to a time when Jody had teased the nectar out on its string and held it up for Emily to taste. She turned her head and let her nose graze the space behind Jody’s ear. An ache bloomed in Emily from distant to present and settled in a spot below her stomach, casting nets to every nerve. She breathed in and held on until Jody made the first move toward release. Then, she let go as if ready as well.
Jody started up the hill and shouted out behind her. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
Underneath those words, Jody warned of something else. If Emily let her mind wander, she would remember. Instead, she locked her car and ran to catch up.
Behind the trailer, flames gathered in a funnel and spit sparks into the air while a handful of people stood around, their faces darkened by the shade of trees in the dying daylight. Emily half dreaded and half hoped that these shadows belonged to old high school classmates. Dread at the prospect that her life had taken a detour but ended up right back where she started, where they were. As for hope, she could continue the lie that she was in Drear’s Bluff temporarily, boost her self-esteem by comparing her life to theirs, which she imagined included single-wide trailers, jobs at chicken plants in Fort Smith, babies with saggy britches and diaper rash.
They didn’t disappoint. Most of the partygoers were already drunk or stoned. They looked like the type of kids who hung out in the dugouts before school, smoking and drinking whiskey out of Mountain Dew bottles. People who looked twenty years older than they were, the breakouts on their faces the primary marker of their youth. People who’d never set foot outside state lines.
She only recognized one of them.
Troy Barnett stood with a trio of girls who couldn’t get enough of whatever lies he was telling them.
When Jody came to live with Emily and her parents, Emily had split her babysitting duties with her. Their only charge had been Troy, though he’d hardly needed a babysitter at his age. But Marjorie didn’t like leaving him home alone while she worked at the Quik-a-Way. He’d scream if Emily tried to get him to behave, but he did whatever Jody asked.
Emily had last seen him when she’d come home for her mom’s birthday the previous October. Somehow Marjorie had convinced him to come along as well. She and Emily’s mom had gossiped about people the same way they had since grade school. Meanwhile, Emily had slumped on the couch, glazing over at the local news on the muted TV as Troy had gone on and on to Emily’s dad—who humored him—about how many touchdowns he’d made, how many scouts were interested in him, and how many girls he’d banged. Her dad had unmuted the TV after that last bit of info.
By the end of that same month, Emily’s mom had texted her with news about Troy’s knee injury. By December, his subsequent addiction to pain pills. And by February, his withdrawal from high school a few months shy of graduation. One minute, Troy was the most valued football player in school. The next, a washed-up dropout. Football injuries and unplanned pregnancies had killed the dreams of Drear’s Bluff’s youth for years.
What’s he doing here?
Emily asked.
Who?
Jody looked in the direction of Emily’s stare. Oh. He comes around.
Jody knocked the metal leg of a guy’s chair with her foot. Move over.
The guy playfully smacked Jody on the leg before moving over to make room. Jody dropped a lawn chair to the ground and motioned Emily toward it.
Jody and I let him hang around when his mom’s on a tear,
the guy offered.
Jody and I. Like surrogate parents. Jody cut her eyes at the guy but declined to elaborate. Emily drew her gaze from his face to his feet. He was the sort of man who would appeal to someone like Jody, what with his manly build, tan skin, and dust-covered jeans—like he’d been out herding cattle or fighting in the dirt outside a bar. He wore an irritating almost-beard that showed a lack of commitment. One side of his mouth had a lump from where he sucked on a wad of chew. Jody was just like her mom. They had a history of wanting the wrongest man they could find.
The guy tugged the bill down on his sun-faded baseball cap and glanced at Emily. The eyes and mouth and nose fit the features of a brown-haired 2A football star who’d been a few grades ahead of her in high school. A name came to her: August Ward. He’d been a hometown hero back in the day, on account of a touchdown that almost got them to state. Almost. Troy had been last year’s version of him, and this year there would be another version of Troy.
August reached around to the cooler behind him and held out a can of Milwaukee’s Best. Cold water dripped onto her pants and created a dark spot. She reached for the beer, and he pulled it away, holding it close to his chest, lips screwed up into a grin. You’re legal, right?
She yanked the can out of his hand and glanced at Troy. Like that matters.
The fizz tickled her hand when she popped the tab and half-drained it while it was still ice cold and she could stand the taste.
Jody wandered over to a makeshift table fashioned out of two sawhorses and a plank of plywood and covered with empty bottles and balled-up napkins. She increased the volume on an old gray boom box, and thrash metal drowned out the buzzing of bugs in the thicket nearby. Jody swayed her hips and head like she had when they’d stayed up late and danced in their PJs before Jody left town. Pop moves set to metal. August drank in the sight of Jody and all the curves of her body like she was a cold beer, a look Emily thought must have easily landed him the hearts of women like Jody.
The beer hit her bloodstream, removing the already tenuous filter she had on her tongue. Are you and Jody dating?
He pursed his lips to keep from smiling and refused to answer. He leaned forward, elbows on knees.
She sucked down her beer quicker than she knew she ought to, urged on by the need to know who these people were to Jody and by how little she knew about Jody’s life now. She lived with us for a while.
I know,
he said. After her mom had her accident.
Emily had thought she and her parents were the only ones who knew how Jody had found Connie on the floor, vomit in her hair and on her face. How she’d called Sheriff Jenkins, thinking her mom had died and not knowing who else to call or what to do. How Emily had felt when Connie had brought Jody to the house, how Jody walked right past her and quietly shut the door to her new room as Connie cried and thanked Emily’s mom before taking off for parts unknown. Her heart broke a little knowing that Jody had seen that. Emily couldn’t imagine being in a similar situation with her mom, who would never puke. It was unladylike.
All that shared history and knowledge—and she knew nothing of this man who sat next to her.
Funny,
she said. I never heard her mention you.
Is that any way to treat a guy who lets you drink his beer?
She returned his smile out of spite and gulped down the last of the can, though her stomach had begun to complain about the volume of liquid and the speed with which it had been