I Should Be Dead By Now: The Wild Life and Crazy Times of the NBA's Greatest Rebounder of Modern Times
By Dennis Rodman and Jack Isenhour
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Very insightful. Provides advice to live by no matter who you are or what you've been through. The language and some issues discussed aren't appropriate for all audiences. The messages to be taken away from this book are universal and important. One of the best autobiographies that I've ever read. It's really tell it like it is. It does get repetitive at times as if he was trying to fill up some pages, but overall it was good and worth the time spent to read it.
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I Should Be Dead By Now - Dennis Rodman
PROLOGUE
Chicago, May 23, 2005. It’s 10:45 p.m., and I’m running late— not the first time. The changeover from Dennis into Dennis Rodman
is taking a little longer than usual. It’s a top problem. I’ve got the tails of a solid black, button-front shirt tied off just below my nipples revealing the tattoo of two charging bulls, the ripped stomach, the pierced navel, but it’s still not right.
This top problem had come up about five o’clock after this pretty white girl showed up at our suite at the Allegro Hotel toting a manila grocery bag—a fucking grocery bag—full of sequins, buttons, seamstress supplies, with the job of converting a T-shirt supplied by the event sponsor, a leading rum company, into some kind of Dennis-Rodman-fabulous top. Well the T-shirt hadn’t made it, and somebody got on the phone trying to track it down while the pretty white girl pulled out this stack of hats. I’d asked for a pinstripe. I try the thing on, and it’s sitting on top of my head like a donut perched on a bowling ball. The pretty white girl says something like, You need an extra large.
No shit—most six-foot-eight guys would be wearing your larger sizes. I would have said something, but I was too busy checking out her piercings.
She’s got nose rings, lip rings, earrings, brow rings—silver metal sticking out everywhere. And she’s got multicolored hair that looks like woven cotton candy, and she’s wearing jeans, a T-shirt, a jacket, and a pair of platform shoes in some neon color—seems like it was lime green—that looked like the gold ones I wore with the psychedelic Cleopatra outfit for my New Year’s Eve bash back in 1997. Long story short, this is a girl who would look good on my arm— if I had a taste for pretty white girls.
That’s a joke.
So the pretty white girl is talking, and she says the folks who sent her over said that the rum company
T-shirts were too big— that they would just hang on me.
This came from people who’d been in the same room with Dennis Rodman.
Let me give you an idea just how fucking dumb that is:
We’re riding up to the suite in a packed elevator, and the guy behind me—this six-foot-something reporter who’s following me around—is bitching that my butt is hitting him in the chest. He could just nod and bite a chunk out of my ass. So Dennis Rodman is tall.There’s more. I’ve been lifting weights religiously for about 20 years now, and so Dennis Rodman is also wide.There’s not an extralarge T-shirt on the planet that would be hanging on my ass.
The pretty white girl is going on, something about mesh Tshirts, cut-outs so my tattoos—front, back, arms, and side—will show, and I’m counting the girl’s piercings, trying to figure out who has more, me or her, not that you can ever be sure with your clothes on and your legs crossed. It’s looking like she’s the winner.
Anyway, all this turns out to be a waste of time. The T-shirt never arrives, and I tell the pretty white girl to forget about the mesh shirt. So, left to my own wardrobe devices, it’s now 10:50 p.m. in Chicago; I’m still late, still having a top problem. I stroll into the suite living room and ask Darren—Darren Prince, my friend and agent, the guy who’s going to negotiate my way back in the NBA— how the top looks. Now Darren is a great agent, but when it comes to fashion, he’s just another clueless white guy.
Okay, whatever," he says.
The boy just don’t get it.
Should I wear the shiny shirt?" I ask.
Darren looks stumped. He checks out his watch. It’s his job to get me places on time when he’s not negotiating my way back into the NBA.
Fuck it. I throw the shiny black shirt on over the tied-off black shirt, and we’re out the door.
These days Dennis is content to ride around in your standard full-sized passenger car, but Dennis Rodman
is still riding in style. And tonight not even a limo will cut it. At first, I think the thing is some new model of Bentley or Rolls. But this sleek silver car with copper highlights, which looks like an SUV on steroids, is something called a Maybach, an upscale Mercedes retailing for about $350,000, the driver tells us. The driver is upscale himself. He’s a Harvard graduate—a basketball player no less—who played in the CBA. An Ivy League graduate is driving around Dennis Rodman, a proud dropout from Southeastern Oklahoma State. How fucked up is that?
What I like about the Maybach is it has plenty of legroom, and for a guy who is all legs, that matters. Not that I’ll be getting one any time soon. While I’m doing all right, my days of swapping Bentleys when they get dusty are over—at least for the moment.
So the driver sees a little open road—in downtown Chicago, mind you—and decides to demonstrate the Maybach’s power. He stomps on the car’s zero-to-sixty-in-four-seconds gas, and it feels like falling backwards off the high dive. Damn! I’ll take two.
Minutes later, we pull up to a club called Reserve located in a brick building just across the street from the EL—elevated train.The professional autograph people are at the curb waving shit they want signed, but we bypass them as the security guy leads us around to the side.We’re out of the car and up a set of steep, dimly lit stairs to the back entrance. There’s a five-minute wait while the security people get it together, then the door flies open to a wall of noise.
The place is fucking slammed, people shoulder to shoulder, pushing, shoving, screaming when they spot me. The dance music is ear-splitting. First time I saw a crowd like this, I thought,No way we’re getting through,
but, like always, the security guys surround us—me, my two bodyguards, one of the bodyguard’s girlfriends, her friend, and the reporter bringing up the rear—then make their move. Reaching out with horizontal arms held shoulder high, they keep us in, outsiders out, as we steadily snake our way through the crowd to a small stage where the DJ whips the crowd into a frenzy. Out of nowhere, four dancers appear and fall in line behind me.
The dancers are stenciled from the bikini line to the neck with body paint—some kind of rum-company motif that seems to be different for each girl. They’ve also got fake black tattoos running up and down their arms and legs. Then there’s the pasties. I’m not sure what they’re made of—looks like smoky plastic, just like at the strip club the night before. But if seeing open-air nipples is your thing, better stay out of Chicago.
The DJ shouts something. People scream. I shout something. People scream. The DJ steps aside, I take off my shirt—what top problem?—revealing what a lifetime of weightlifting can do for a skinny freak’s body. People scream.
Folks are always asking me what I did to get this buff body.What kind of steroid cocktail am I using? None.What kind of top secret, super-athlete diet I’m on? None. While I do eat sushi for lunch most every day, the only real diet I’m on is a steady diet of pain. I work out at least an hour a day, six days a week, 52 weeks a year. Who says Dennis Rodman isn’t disciplined?
Back at Reserve, I spin around, showing off the X-rated tattoo that fills up most of my back—a spread-eagled beauty pleasuring herself. People scream. I put my arms around the shoulders of the four dancers—two on each side—who are now toasting me with shot glasses full of the rum company’s latest offering. I wave around a black bottle of the stuff, just like the 19 I autographed that afternoon back at the hotel.The crowd goes wild.
Welcome to Rodman World,
a daylight-to-dawn adult amusement park.
The good folks at a Chicago-based event marketing agency have paid me five figures to help launch the rum company’s newest.
Promotional work,
Darren calls it.
Basically, I show up, let them use my name and picture for advertising, posters, invitations, whatever, and make media appearances. This morning I did two television shows, two radio interviews, and talked to a bunch of newspaper reporters.
Back in the day, corporate America thought I was too unreliable, too flaky for this kind of work.They wouldn’t get near my ass. Now I’m still edgy, off the wall, daring, this, that, but it’s all dressed up, and you can count on me to show up sober and more or less on time. Not that you should be looking for me in the next Disney World campaign. But if your image is a little bit out there, a little bit renegade, Dennis Rodman is your man.
Take GoldenPalace.com, the online gambling casino. I’ve just signed a lucrative, three-year deal with those guys that—among other things—has me running with the bulls in Pamplona, cruising across America in a customized Lamborghini, and hosting something called a wife-carrying competition
in Finland.You call this work? Shit, I should be paying them. The sober, but still edgy Dennis also has a deal with The Upper Deck Company, the world’s largest sports licensing and memorabilia company, as well as with adidas, which you know about. Hard to believe: adidas. I can remember a time when I would have kissed their collective asses just for the free shoes and workout gear.
Meanwhile, back at Reserve, everyone is getting his money’s worth. The crowd, the media, the hype—America’s number-one bad ass is endorsing this rum company’s bad-ass drink. It’s a perfect match.And until Darren negotiates my way back into the NBA, I’ll be paying the tab being Dennis Rodman,
America’s fuck-theworld, number-one bad boy—the man who puts the free
in freedom. Anybody don’t like it, they can kiss my black ass.That’s the rap.
There’ll be a second stop downstairs at Reserve after the security guys do the snake-through-the-crowd routine again, one body guard taking a pretty good two-handed lick from a drunk woman who didn’t like being pushed aside.The guy didn’t even flinch. Soon we move back upstairs and are seated in a roped-off VIP area.
I sit in one corner of a U-shaped sectional sofa. I’m separated from the crowd by a couple of security guards and a coffee table loaded with carafes of rum, ice, glasses, lemons, limes, mixers, whatever. Behind me and to the right, another security guy is sitting on a ledge.There’s room for two visitors to sit beside me—one on the left and one on the right. My people occupy the seats farther down the couch on both sides: the roving reporter, my security guy, two of his women friends, and another security guy.They’ve got me surrounded.
The four dancers show up on the ledge—more of a runway— behind me, still doing their thing. After a while, they turn into little more than writhing wallpaper, and folks are more likely to stare out the plate glass window at a passing elevated train. Meanwhile the video screen behind my head is playing a rum commercial featuring guess who? over and over. Music blaring. A beautiful girl in a short, strapless, black velvet dress is handing out glasses with double shots of the new rum.
Shirt back on and shades in place, I settle in, light up a cigar, and host a continuing round of visitors. The usual. I sign autographs, pose for photographs, chat with the people the security and marketing people let through—friends, strangers, media—I do a T.V. interview. I yap.They yap. Flash bulbs. People in. People out. Girls. Men. Women.Young. Old. No boys. Not everybody makes the cut. Over to my left, sitting on the other side of the reporter, some gorgeous young girl, brunette, stares at me, fucking stares at me, all but drooling, for like half an hour straight—you have to admire the focus— before she gives up and goes on her way.
One of the dancers bends over and shouts, Havin’ a good time?
Oh yeah!" somebody yells above the noise.
Well, I’m sweating my ass off," she says.
From what I can see, that’s a fucking shame. There’s one thing missing from the picture these days. A few years ago, a reporter from The New York Times reported that he saw me down 19 shots in four hours before he stopped counting. Back then I was determined to treat every day like it was New Year’s Eve and the Mardi Gras.You name it—sex, booze, fun—too much was never enough. Since I wasn’t hurting anybody but myself, I figured, No harm, no foul.
No more.
In October 2003, the boozing started getting in the way of some things I wanted to do more than party (I can’t believe that just came out of my mouth).The party animal
had turned into a just plain old animal,
and I was in danger of losing everything if I didn’t rein in the beast.
It all came to a head in—where else—Las Vegas.
CHAPTER ONE
FEAR AND MOANING
IN LAS VEGAS
Ishould be dead—crippled anyway. My brain scrambled. If it’s true that God takes care of drunks and fools,
then he must bend over backwards to take care of drunken fools. It happened in LasVegas, and it came at a very bad time.
Things were falling into place. Following a fling with showbiz, I was finally coming home to mama—the NBA. It hadn’t been easy. After I bailed out of Lost
Angeles in 1999, and Dallas shit-canned my ass in 2000, I had been making a living as an actor and entertainer, partying worldwide for a fee and hosting a series of wild parties for a DVD titled Stripper’s Ball. In my free time, I partied free. Why? Because I could. By this time, I had reworked the old Work hard, play hard
slogan to fit my new lifestyle.Without basketball in my life, it now read, Play hard, then play hard some more.
Not a bad life, but the Dallas thing had left a bad taste in my mouth.
Dallas owner Mark Cuban had hired me to be Bad Boy Rodman—the rock star who would put butts in seats and put the then-pathetic Mavericks on the map. I even agreed to live in Cuban’s guesthouse, so his security guards could keep an eye on me 24/7 (I couldn’t wipe my ass without three guards surrounding the toilet). So how did the guy repay me? After 12 games, less than a month on the job, I was dumped. Why?
Well, maybe it had something to do with the one-game suspension by the league, the two ejections, the DUI, the 4-9 record, or the fact I challenged NBA commissioner David Stern to a fistfight—somebody needs to whip his arrogant white ass.Whatever. So did Cuban call me with the news? No. I found out about my release on ESPN. But Mark has gotten my back in the media over the past few years, saying that bringing Dennis Rodman onto a NBA team has many more positives than negatives.
After that, I soured on the NBA and spent a little over a year fucking around, being Dennis Rodman,
getting paid to have a good time. I knew I’d made it when people first started paying me to party. I mean, I’m partying anyway—why not take the cash? Life was good. But the more I thought about what happened in Dallas, the more pissed I got. I didn’t like the way I went out. I wanted to make my farewell to the NBA on my terms. So when I signed with Darren, my number-one priority was to get back on the court.And on July 18, 2003, I held a news conference in L.A.
The reason why we are here is to formally announce I officially want to come back to the NBA, I told the reporters,
basically to finish my career the way I want to."
I dressed down for the occasion: Reebok baseball cap, shortsleeved gray shirt over a white tee, and jeans. I still had the hoop earrings, shades, nose studs, and lip ring. Like I told them, comeback or no comeback, I’m gonna be Dennis Rodman.
My comeback would give people a little reminder that Dennis Rodman was not only the proud poster boy for the stripper, biker, WrestleMania crowd, but one of the best professional basketball players of all time. I still can’t believe they left me off the list of the 50 greatest NBA players. I mean, John Stockton? Shit. Listen to my stats. Five championships (more than all but 11 other players), seven rebound titles (second only to Wilt), two-time NBA Defensive Player of the Year, seven-time member of NBA defensive first team, and two-time NBA all-star.Telling you this shouldn’t be my job, but who else is going to do it?
Reality Check: You sit around waiting for somebody else to crown you king, you’ll end up a lady in waiting— waiting to take one up the ass.
After dozens of phone calls, months of wrangling, the good news had come in October of 2003. Darren called to say the Denver Nuggets were going to take me on. No long-term contract, no big NBA money—just ten grand a game—but my size-15 foot was in the door.
Not everybody was thrilled. A Denver reporter complained to ESPN about the increased workload. Now you’re on Rodman watch,
he said. Now you have to check the police blotter every morning when you wake up before you go to work.
Whatever … I was psyched—not that the pending deal slowed down my partying. If anything, I cranked it up a notch, figuring what had worked for me during five championship seasons should keep on working with the Denver-fucking-Nuggets, not exactly the NBA elite.
While I was 42 at the time, I felt like I hadn’t lost a step—on the court or in the clubs. So on Sunday, October 19, I was partying at Josh Slocum’s (later Rodman’s
), my restaurant in Newport Beach, California. It was like 3:30 in the morning, and I had been tossing back one Grey Goose and cranberry juice after another followed by shots of Jägermeister chased with Coors Light. (How’s that for product placement?) Now I had been doing this for like eight, nine, 10 hours—who’s counting?—when I got a wild hair up my ass. Let’s go to Vegas!
Soon the Dennis Rodman party mobile—a black Ford 350 XLT club cab pickup truck—pulled out of the Josh Slocum parking lot and headed east on highway 55. On board were driver Mike Diaz and a bodyguard in front, and me sprawled in back sucking down more Coors Light.
A couple of hours down the road; we made what was supposed to be a quick gas stop at this Mobil station just off the main drag in Barstow.Then I was recognized (it might have had something to do with my picture being plastered all over the hood of the truck). Anyway, I got to yapping with this guy and pulled a classic Dennis,
giving him my shoes, a nice pair of white canvas Chuck Taylor All-Stars with red trim. Then I tried to make a deal for the station’s tow truck. I’m always doing stuff like that—take off my shirt and give it to somebody, buying this, buying that. Luckily the tow-truck deal fell through, and we were back on the road with my new favorite group, the country band Rascal Flatts, still blaring on the stereo, the same song playing over and over. Turned out the fucking thing had been stuck on repeat ever since we left Newport Beach. I was too drunk to care, and Mike and the bodyguard were afraid to do anything, having seen me in action when people bitched about me playing country music at my restaurant. It’s basically, If you don’t like it, get out.
So Rascal Flatts it was, for like three straight hours.
We made it to Vegas around 7:00 a.m. and pulled into the far side of the empty parking lot at Treasures Gentleman’s Club and Restaurant—a brand-new, $30-million strip club open 24 hours a day. In the Las Vegas Sun, one of the owners described the place as an upscale nightclub in an elegant, tasteful environment.
Mike woke me up so I could get it together before we made our big entrance. I did what I could with my Levi shorts, oversized T-shirt with a Josh Slocum’s logo, knee-high basketball socks, and black rubber sandals—beachwear—just right for Treasures’elegant, tasteful environment.
We drove around front to valet park. At first glance, the twintowered joint, in what looks like sandstone, reminds you of a mosque or something, but there ain’t nothing for the religious faithful inside. Just tits and ass and a nice USDA choice 16-ounce bonein cowboy ribeye served with garlic mashed potatoes, sautéed vegetables, topped with spicy shoestring fried onions
if you decide to try out the gourmet
restaurant.
When we walked in, the place was all but empty. No customers, no strippers, no bartenders or waitresses, just a couple of guys who seemed like they were really glad to see me.They stalled, giving us a quick tour of the place, as if I’d never been there before. I don’t know if state of the art
is what you’d call it, but, as the man said, Treasures does offer a full range of gentlemen’s services: strippers, booze, and lap dances.Why a strip club? I’ll have to go along with Vegas writer Al Mancini, who allowed as how bare breasts complement just about any leisure activity.
They rounded up a bartender, a waitress, and a couple of strippers, and soon I was back to my steady diet of Grey Goose and cranberry juice, music blaring, girls stripping down to g-strings before getting very friendly with their poles.There might even have been a lap dance or two. After like an hour of this, the girls were bored; I was bored. So I swapped seven $100 bills for 700 ones and treated my new favorite strippers to a Dennis Rodman forte. I took the 700 ones, stepped up on