Reboot: Leadership and the Art of Growing Up
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One of the start-up world’s most in-demand executive coaches—hailed as the “CEO Whisperer” (Gimlet Media)—reveals why radical self-inquiry is critical to professional success and healthy relationships in all realms of life.
Jerry Colonna helps start-up CEOs make peace with their demons, the psychological habits and behavioral patterns that have helped them to succeed—molding them into highly accomplished individuals—yet have been detrimental to their relationships and ultimate well-being. Now, this venture capitalist turned executive coach shares his unusual yet highly effective blend of Buddhism, Jungian therapy, and entrepreneurial straight talk to help leaders overcome their own psychological traumas. Reboot is a journey of radical self-inquiry, helping you to reset your life by sorting through the emotional baggage that is holding you back professionally, and even more important, in your relationships.
Jerry has taught CEOs and their top teams to realize their potential by using the raw material of their lives to find meaning, to build healthy interpersonal bonds, and to become more compassionate and bold leaders. In Reboot, he inspires everyone to hold themselves responsible for their choices and for the possibility of truly achieving their dreams.
Work does not have to destroy us. Work can be the way in which we achieve our fullest self, Jerry firmly believes. What we need, sometimes, is a chance to reset our goals and to reconnect with our deepest selves and with each other. Reboot moves and empowers us to begin this journey.
Jerry Colonna
Jerry Colonna is the CEO and cofounder of the executive coaching firm Reboot.io. A highly sought-after coach and speaker, he is also the author of Reboot: Leadership and the Art of Growing Up. For more than twenty years, he has used his experiences as a CEO, investor, journalist, college professor, and, lastly, coach to help people lead with humanity, resilience, and equanimity. He is astounded by the fact that he lives on a farm outside of Boulder, near the foothills of the Rockies and far from the streets of Brooklyn where he was born and raised. He is the father of three amazing humans, each of whom cares deeply about the love, safety, and belonging of others.
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Reboot - Jerry Colonna
Dedication
To Sam, Emma, and Michael: May you always feel loved, safe, and that you belong. This is for you.
To Dr. Avivah Sayres: You were right; I did have it in me.
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Contents
Foreword by Sharon Salzberg
Dedication of the Merit
Introduction: Elevating Darkness
Chapter 1: Passing GO
Chapter 2: The Crucible and the Warrior
Chapter 3: Standing Still in Empty Time
Chapter 4: Remembering Who You Are
Chapter 5: The Immense Sky of the Irrational Other
Chapter 6: Handprints on the Canyon Wall
Chapter 7: Loving the Crow
Chapter 8: Heartbreak, Resilience, and the Path to Equanimity
Chapter 9: Leadership and the Art of Growing Up
Afterword: A Light Heart Lives Long
Author’s Note
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Endorsements
Copyright
About the Publisher
Foreword
I first met Jerry at a dinner party hosted by a mutual friend, Jeff Walker. It was the kind of dinner party at which a single topic was put to the entire group for discussion. That night each of us was asked to describe a meaningful encounter with contemplative practice.
We listened quietly as the rotation went around the table. Jerry was up before me, and when he spoke, he referred to a very difficult period in his life, one in which a book called Faith, which I had written, was among the resources that had helped him. The word faith, as I had used it, did not mean belief or doctrine or dogma—I saw faith as being about connection—but our ability to connect to often hidden sources of strength within us, and our ability to connect to a picture of life bigger than just the immediate circumstances we see before us.
By the time Jerry finished speaking, he was crying, and I was crying, too. It has always meant a lot to me when someone appreciates Faith. Faith had been a difficult book for me to write. It was the story of my own faith journey, and it demanded revelations of my deepest heart values, descriptions of my traumatic childhood, memories of my most significant moments of despair, and a vulnerability about things I somehow never found myself talking about ordinarily. My guide throughout that experience had been a quotation from the writer Dorothy Allison: Write the story that you were always afraid to tell. I swear to you that there is magic in it, and if you show yourself naked for me, I’ll be naked for you. It will be our covenant.
Or, as a writer friend of mine urged me one stuck day, Just tell the truth.
Jerry and I became good friends, and I was honored when he asked me to write this foreword. As soon as I began reading Reboot: Leadership and the Art of Growing Up, I saw his authenticity, compassion, and almost eerie acuteness of perception leap right off the page. I realized, He really did tell the truth.
That’s what makes this book a generous and important offering.
Imbuing leadership with depth, resolve, congruency, and resilience—as Jerry describes in the following pages—inevitably involves discovering the adult within us: the capacity to face fears, to care about ourselves and others in a rare and potent balance, to be radically honest, to inquire within, and to listen to others. We discover that adult capacity, in all its poignancy and tenderness, and we bring it into the light of day, and we nurture it and help it to grow.
For most of us, that capacity is often hidden in the shadows, and not just hidden, but intricately entangled with our persistent yet often hidden feelings of unworthiness, our certainty of defeat, our fragmentation, our sense of isolation and emptiness, and our sense of overwhelm coupled with our conviction that we can never rest. Jerry’s gift is in helping us navigate that landscape—to lean into that shadowy world and capture the treasures held there, all the while learning to be both strong and kind to ourselves and to others.
If the book you are writing is asking honesty and clear discernment of the reader, offering a path to a fulfilling and true and liberating life change, then you can’t write from a supercilious perch or make yourself immune to self-revelation or imply that you have never struggled or had any difficulty perfectly manifesting the qualities you are talking about. You could try, of course, but it would show. What shows in contrast, in Jerry’s book, is his own stripping away of armor or defensiveness or obfuscation. I could sense the validity in the comment one of Jerry’s friends had made to him: Writing this book is gonna kick your butt.
I bet it did. Actually, I saw it did.
That’s the beauty of determining if you are really going to speak from the heart: no imparting knowledge from on high, no separation from the many dilemmas and yearnings for success and even anguish of your audience. It’s a powerful book, and a truly useful one, because Jerry kept that covenant. He got naked. He told the truth.
When Jerry first asked me to write the foreword, I was honored but uncertain. I asked, Why not a mogul, a famous business success?
He replied that this wasn’t an ordinary business book—it reconfigures notions of success itself and ideas of who we are and what would make us happy. It teaches us how, above all things, to be real. The journey laid out is a path to equanimity, or peace, which is priceless. The book is genuinely a transmission, heart to heart.
—Sharon Salzberg
Dedication of the Merit
May all beings enjoy happiness and the root of happiness.
May we be free from suffering and the root of suffering.
May we not be separated from the great happiness devoid of suffering.
May we dwell in the great equanimity free from passion, aggression, and prejudice.
—A Buddhist prayer to cultivate the four immeasurables: Lovingkindness, Compassion, Empathy, and Equanimity
Introduction: Elevating Darkness
I didn’t set out to write a book about growing up. But, as those who’ve attempted to get their thoughts down on paper know, the true nature of the book revealed itself after I’d begun the excavations behind a simple question: What do I believe to be true about work, leadership, and how we may live our lives?
The simplicity of the answer startled me: I believe that better humans make better leaders. I further believe that the process of learning to lead well can help us become better humans. By growing to meet the demands of the call to leadership, we’re presented with the chance to finally, fully, grow up.
Such revealed wisdom is often better than discovered wisdom. It’s best, I suspect, because it comes from our lived experiences and the intrinsic and inherent depths of our being. Moreover, such a revelation is better because it transforms us; it is a process that can come about only from learning to be still, learning to listen.
Standing still and powering down allow us to start anew and, if you will, reboot our core operating and belief systems. Standing still and listening deeply to our heart as well as to the hearts around us are the necessary first steps toward moving past merely, numbly, surviving our lives. As poet Terry Tempest Williams advises, we learn, then, to speak and comprehend words of wounding without having these words become the landscape where [we] dwell.
With such comprehending, we elevate the darkness of our lives, lead from the realm of the stars, and continue growing up.
I had a sense that this was true at the very first planning meeting for the book. Hollis Heimbouch, my editor (friend and teacher), and Jim Levine, my agent (friend and teacher), and I sat at a conference table in Jim’s office to plot out the book. Earlier, Jim had shown me around his office, including a small room filled with Muppet-like puppets. Glancing quickly at the collection, one caught my attention. Is that you?
I asked Jim. He laughed and said, somewhat shyly and with pride, Yeah. That’s me.
Back at the table, we sat together. My heart raced. I squirmed uncomfortably while sweating. We talked about the books on leadership that we admired. We spoke of writers who’d moved each of us. Jim spoke of the things I’d written, the questions I’d asked people to consider. I love your simple, powerful questions, like ‘What is work?’
he said. I was pleased but still nervous. My eyes darted between the two of them.
Hollis had a hand on a large stack of papers; my work, old blog posts, and an interview or two. I love the way you provoke people. You get them to think differently.
As I looked from one to the other and back again, an insight struck me: Wait. You don’t want me to write a book of advice about the five things every entrepreneur should know about leadership?
Then—and this will surprise no one who really knows me—I burst into tears.
Oh, no,
said a surprised Hollis while looking to Jim. "Not at all. We want you to do your book." They wanted me to write the book I was supposed to write—my book.
My initial relief was quickly replaced by terror: I understood immediately that the excavations necessary to make sense of these intertwined and interdependent truths—that leadership requires an authentic and vulnerable dive into the wrecks of our lives—would force me to grow in ways I hadn’t bargained for. After I started writing and began experiencing all sorts of uncomfortable memories and revelations, a dear friend warned, Writing this book is gonna kick your butt.
So it went and so it still goes.
The personal challenge didn’t stem from coming to grips with writing well about the how of leadership. The challenge stemmed from the demand I’d placed on myself to show up fully, bravely, and to look inward without looking away. While it is true that to lead with depth, resolve, congruency, and resilience you must have the faith to look inward, it is equally true that to speak of such things without being willing to reveal your own actualization, your own journey to adulthood, would be hollow and empty. Hollow and empty would not suffice.
Turning the pursuit of purpose, mission, and leadership into the means to discover the adult lurking within us requires that we show up with radical authenticity. That we
includes me. To live up to the belief that the pursuit of leadership requires a pursuit of growing up, we must be willing to work with that which arises in the pursuit. This includes that which arises whether we take our seat as a CEO, an author, or simply as ourselves, as we were born. I wouldn’t ask you to do something that I am not willing to attempt myself.
Perhaps my touch hasn’t been as light, deft, and skillful as I would have liked. Perhaps in my rush to share and grow, there’s a weightiness to my words that I didn’t consciously intend or wouldn’t have chosen. Perhaps you’d prefer that I told you how to do the job rather than ask you why you’d like to do the job in the first place. Perhaps, then, I frustrate you. If so, forgive me. Sometimes, as my daughter Emma once observed, I ask the questions you’d rather not answer. Sometimes, though, my wish to elevate the darkness to the realm of the stars gets the better of me.
The Formula
As often happens, I hit upon the insight I needed when I wasn’t searching for it. A few years back I was pacing the room, thinking about the talk I was about to give. There were thirty people in stiff, uncomfortable chairs. As usual, my T-shirt was mildly sweaty. As usual, I was shoeless—discalced. I was struggling to explain coaching, struggling to explain why it was that, to help people lead well, I was pushing to help them know themselves better.
They were leaders, each of them. Some came from established organizations and were in the middle of their careers. Some were new to the demands of organizational leadership. All of them were struggling. All of them were there, in effect, for coaching.
With enthusiastic excitement and a touch of frustration, I grabbed some dry-erase markers and pulled a whiteboard to the front of the room. It’s like this . . . ,
I shared as I began sketching in my indecipherable scrawl, everyone is always looking for the ‘how’ to do things.
And I wrote, Practical Skills.
But, really, they need to understand the ‘why’ of what they do, and ultimately, who they are,
I continued, racing across the board, scrawling out, Radical Self-inquiry.
And when they do that, when they look in places they’ve avoided, they often get stuck,
I continued. "They get scared. They get lost in their fears and in old patterns of self-loathing. So, mired in their self-criticism, they think they’re the only one who hasn’t a fucking clue as to what they are doing or how to live.
Worse,
I continued, they’re too damned afraid to admit that they’re making shit up. And they stay stuck in these lonely leadership bubbles, spinning. Scared. Lonely. Afraid of being found out.
My words hung in the air. I could feel their bodies tensing with fear. I knew they were holding their breath.
But then someone is brave enough to go first. Some brave soul admits that she feels in trouble. And the tribe around her lets out their breath.
The folks in the room, first-time CEOs, each of them, let out a collective breath. I wrote, Sharing the experience with friends and peers
on the whiteboard and, as I wrote, I said, and suddenly people realize they’re not alone. And, even more, that if we’re all feeling this way, then maybe, just maybe, the feelings may be true, but the facts may be inaccurate.
I turned back to the audience, pausing to let my words sink in: You are not alone.
A few folks begin to tear up. I turned to the board and sketched in plus signs between the statements, drew an equals sign underneath, as if I were creating a fraction, a mathematical formula. Under the line I wrote, Enhanced leadership plus greater resiliency.
I then drew thick red lines under the word resiliency. While I care about you being better leaders,
I said, "I care more about you being able to survive. I want you to not make yourselves sick. I want you to be happy, to see your families, even to have families, to lay your head down on the pillow at night and rest in the belief that you are okay, that the world is okay, that all whom you love and care about are okay, and that even if things don’t go as planned, you’ll still be okay.
I want you to not end up wondering if the world would be better off without you. I want you to have peace of mind.
Resiliency, I stressed, is an antecedent to equanimity.
Practical skills,
I explained, are the things that everyone believes necessary to succeed as leaders.
They are the skills that describe the how of the job—the incredibly important, necessary, skills needed to grow and build organizations: How do you hire someone? How do you fire someone? How do you scale a team? How do you raise the capital to launch a business?
Discussing and encouraging people to share what they are going through often takes a little practice. I’ve got a well-earned reputation for making people cry and, in a sense, I helped found an executive coaching company, Reboot, to help folks do just that: to share what’s really going on. Whether it’s in individual sessions with a coach or at one of our boot camps
—multi-day immersive experiences that folks have come to call Reboots
—I and my colleagues explain that the secret to getting people to cry is simply to ask them to feel. Or, more specifically, ask them to slow down enough to notice how they are feeling. My radical, surprising, unprecedented question that always does the trick is quite simple; I ask, How are you?
But then I follow it up with, "No. Really . . . how are you? Not, I emphasize, the bullshit, throwaway line we toss at each other without thinking, the
I’m fine. How are you? that passes for empathetic inquiry and honest conversation. I ask a genuinely curious,
How are you?" in a way that allows people to honestly inquire within and, equally important, share the response with others who have allowed themselves to be equally open.
Start with a genuine ‘How are you,’
I tell folks, and then move on to describing the things—practical and existential—that are troubling you.
Share with folks and, equally important, stay open and listen to their answers as well. Then simply notice how the isolation and overwhelm shift, even a tiny bit.
But the most challenging piece of the formula—indeed, the most important—is the notion of radically inquiring within. I define it as the process by which self-deception becomes so skillfully and compassionately exposed that no mask can hide us anymore. The notion is to recognize that, if things are not okay, if you’re struggling, you stop pretending and allow yourself to get help. Even more, it’s the process by which you work hard to know yourself—your strengths, your struggles, your true intentions, your true motivations, the characteristics of the character known as you.
The you behind the masks, the stories, the protective but no longer useful belief systems that have been presented for so long as the you
that you would like everyone to see.
Invariably such inquiry involves getting to know, as the poet Adrienne Rich says, not the story of the wreck but the wreck itself.
With help, patience, courage, and guidance, we explore the wreck and retrieve the treasure. Knowing how to survive and understanding what it takes to thrive are skills that come from our childhood. Take any random group of entrepreneurs, for example, and do a quick unscientific survey by asking them to raise their hands if they grew up in an environment where at least one parent had disappeared or left or was never present. Most hands will shoot up. Early promotion into adulthood is often painful and equally often a sign of an early promotion into leadership. Probe a bit further and you may find that leaders who have built their company may have unconsciously stacked the team with other folks who experienced such early promotion.
Radically inquiring within allows us to step back and see the patterns of our lives not as random acts of a willful or even vengeful god but as forces that shape who we are. It’s this understanding that will make us not only better leaders but better, happier, more resilient people.
Not Practical but Useful
In writing this book, my goal is to provide an experience that allows you to do your work. I want you to experience being challenged to grow, to think about the structures of your life. Reading the book should feel like a coaching session or a boot camp, a time to step away from habitual and long-held patterns, using tools of inquiry that tap into your unconscious mind, unmask you, and that can enhance your sense of community, which is essential to healing. A well-asked question creates a sense of well-being even as it disrupts the story making that has protected us for so long.
As you read this book, I’d like you to hold these questions in your heart:
How did my relationship to money first get formed and how does it influence the way I work as an adult? What was the belief system around money and work that I grew up with? (Chapter 1.)
How can I lead with the dignity, courage, and grace that are my birthright? How can