Specter
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Stranger Things with a ghostly twist! This gripping, genre-bending debut is a book not to miss.
Horror aficionado Lanie Adams should be thrilled when two eighties-era ghosts materialize in her bedroom. Yet after a fainting incident unbecoming of a horror nerd, she would rather her haunting just go away—the ghosts' waterlogged voices and ice-cold auras are more terrifying than any movie. Enlisting the help of Ryan, an entirely-too-cute stoner, she makes it her mission to put the spirits stalking her to rest.
Some sleuthing reveals that their sleepy Connecticut town is host to a shadowy, decades-old conspiracy. If Lanie wants to say a final goodbye to her ghosts, she'll need to keep digging. But it's important to tread carefully. The culprit is still in town—and they'll stop at nothing to keep the truth buried.
Perfect for fans of Stranger Things! With strong characters who are easy to root for, this stunning, multilayered debut will keep you holding your breath till the very last page.
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Specter - Katie Jane Gallagher
Chapter 1
It turned out all the books and movies had gotten ghosts dead wrong. Still, I knew what I was dealing with from that very first glimpse. Just like you can tell a cat from a dog, some instinct thrummed through me, real deep and low in my gut, and I knew . The dead aren’t the living, and it was the dead I saw that day.
Day, not night—see? Granted it was October, but the way early bit of October, too early for even me to be getting excited about America’s best holiday. Plus it was sunny, plus it was a Tuesday. If the days of the week were people, Tuesday would be bumbling, adorable, and absolutely average—perhaps the younger cousin of trendy and aloof Thursday. Nothing notable is supposed to happen on Tuesdays, let alone anything supernatural.
I was in bed, wrapped up burrito-style in my blankets, shivering from a fever and halfway to miserable—only halfway because it was just about the time Mrs. Morrie would be handing out the math test I was supposed to be taking. It’s funny how things work out; the night before I’d considered faking sick to dodge the test, and now here I was, sick for real.
I was just sinking into a nap when the door creaked open, followed by the light pad of footsteps. I snaked an arm out from under the warmth of my comforter, my hand meeting soft fur.
Hey, Mustard,
I croaked. The virus hadn’t spared my throat. I patted the bed, and my golden retriever jumped up and began snuffling my face, all whiskers and dog breath.
Gross!
And as I pushed him away, I saw a flash of blue-tinged skin in the corner of the room.
That was the next thing that wasn’t right. It—she—had none of the silvery translucence from the stories. In fact, she wasn’t see-through at all, her figure cast in slow-moving blue shadows, like the sun making mottled patterns on the seafloor.
There was a ghost in my room—a ghost my age, her hair a big mess of feathery curls straight out of an eighties movie, her clinging black leotard and jeans vintage to match. And she was looking right at me.
I jerked back, yelping as my head collided with the headboard. The ghost’s eyes widened. In my peripheral vision, Mustard was making circles at the end of the bed, preparing for his thrice-daily nap. Didn’t he notice? Weren’t dogs supposed to have a sixth sense for the paranormal? They could predict earthquakes and sniff out cancer, after all. In the movies, dogs always gave early warnings about evil spirits…
And that’s why all the smarter ghosts in those same movies always found some sinister way to get rid of the dog. I scrambled forward and gathered Mustard up into an unhappy, squirming ball, then tried to leap out of bed, only to get caught in the blanket. I tumbled to the ground, and Mustard wriggled free from my arms. Shooting me a wounded look, he trotted from the room.
The bed skirt was blocking my view of the ghost. I sucked in a steadying breath and willed myself to get up. Surely she’d be gone when I stood up again, going for the jump-scare-then-leave kind of haunting. What a great story this would make, narrated by upturned flashlight around a clichéd campfire. I was lying sick in bed, then…
I pushed up from the floor with a groan.
Fuck!
There she was, blue and muted, though she stood directly in the sunlight beaming through the window. A vague, familiar feeling quivered at the back of my mind…
The ghost was tracking me with her eyes. After a long, silent moment, her lips twitched up into some horrid semblance of a smile. She took a step forward.
M-Mom?!
But my call was useless reflex only; she’d deemed my fever just low enough to go into work for a few hours, rather than shuttling me to the doctor. I was alone in the house—well, no one else alive was in the house.
You’re hallucinating. Call Mom so she can take you to the hospital. For that must be it—my fever had climbed too high. Yet the ghost looked so real, and I couldn’t help but scan my room for something, anything, to use to fight back. I didn’t keep my room stocked with weaponry, so I settled for the bedside table lamp, yanking the cord from the wall and clutching it baseball bat-style.
Time for the first and likely final showdown between Lanie Adams and Ghost Girl.
But she took another step forward—her sneakers were also some retro style, I noticed—and icy fear rooted me in place. Just a hallucination—a hallucination of a ghost who shops at Goodwill. I drew together my fleeing scraps of courage and poked the lamp toward Ghost Girl’s stomach.
It passed straight through, without even a ripple at the edges. I lurched back, gripping the lamp to my chest like a safety blanket. Not real,
I whispered, and the ghost frowned at me, as if to say, I beg to differ.
What do you want?
I managed. My voice was a trembling wreck. Didn’t ghosts usually have some sort of purpose, some wrong to be righted or atrocity to be avenged? She opened her mouth to answer…
The words erupted as a garbled stream of syllables.
Fine, she could have the room; I was willing to vacate. I threw down the lamp and vaulted over the bed, hurtling towards the door—
—Where I leaped straight through another bluish ghost, this one a teenage boy standing right on the threshold.
That was when my hopes that this was all just a hallucination evaporated away. Have you ever taken a bath in a ghost? Suffice it to say that the experience is not pleasant—an aching kind of cold that seeps to the bone in the space of a heartbeat, banishing all memories of warmth.
But I didn’t have to endure it for long. White sparks clouded my vision, then the world wavered and contracted to a pinhole.
Chapter 2
Lanie? Oh my God, hon, what are you doing down there?
Down where? I opened my eyes, and my mom’s worried face swam into view. There was a crick in my neck from sleeping without a pillow…
It all came back in a horror-soaked rush: Mustard, ghost, lamp, sneakers. And then a second ghost. I shot upwards, and my mom gasped.
Are you all right? Why—?
I was, uh, feeling better, so I started playing with Mustard on the ground. But then I felt sleepy so…
The lie fell neatly into place, out of my mouth before I could reconsider. Something long dormant, more feeling than memory, brushed softly against the edges of my mind once more. What was it? My brain felt sluggish from being passed out on the floor for God knows how long…
My mom was squinting at me. Right. Well, I’m glad you’re feeling better, but let’s just take your temperature.
Okay…
I rubbed at my eyes, trying to get rid of the brain fog. You’re home early? How was the meeting?
Her lips twisted. The artist wasn’t a good fit, so we wrapped it up quick. Figured I’d come home and keep you company. Dad’ll be home at the regular time.
I got slowly to my feet as she went to grab the thermometer. My muscles were stiff, but the cold-hot fever tingles were gone. Maybe the stress had burned the sickness away, my body deciding there were more important things to worry about than some 24-hour virus.
My shoulders tensed as I peeked into the bedroom—empty, as far as I could tell. But that really didn’t mean much; the ghosts could be in hiding.
That was, after all, what made ghosts so deliciously terrifying: the rules were that there were no rules. They could hang around, bat-like, in a high corner of the room, or fold up into the dark pocket between your hair and the nape of your neck. They could flutter around behind you, whispering in your ear, then dance away the instant you turned to look. I’d never counted on developing a fear of monsters under the bed at sixteen, but here I was.
My mom came back with the thermometer in hand. I popped it in my mouth, and she gave a satisfied nod when it beeped a moment later. 98.6. That’s good. You feeling hungry? Soup, maybe?
I nodded, my eyes flicking once more towards my bedroom. A nervous energy pulsed just beneath my skin. How was I supposed to sleep in there tonight?
I’ll just take a shower first,
I told her. A shadow of that penetrating cold remained, like my blood had turned to ice water.
In the shower, I left the curtain half open, just in case my new blue friends decided to invade the bathroom. Not that I’d be able to do anything about it if they did; I just didn’t want to be surprised by one of them popping through the curtain. Call me a bit of a horror snob—I’ve always held that jump scares are a cheating way to scare people, and I wasn’t prepared to suffer them in my real life.
Even with the open curtain, it had never felt so good to get clean. A grimy, dried layer of sweat coated my body from the fever—plus I’d charged headlong through the second ghost, and that had to dirty you up in some way, right? I squirted more body wash onto my loofah, then attacked my skin until it was lobster-red.
I only shut the shower off when the hot water started flagging. Chest tight, I wrapped myself in a towel. My feet felt rooted to the bath mat, unwilling to make the journey down the hall to my bedroom—the scene of the crime.
But I could hear my mom downstairs in the kitchen; I couldn’t stay in here forever. Giving myself a silent countdown, I went on three, darting back into my bedroom and tugging on the first clothes I could lay hands on—dark jeans, amethyst Overlook Hotel T-shirt. Then I was out the door as quickly as I’d come and down the stairs, heart hammering, every inch of me screaming away away away.
Must be feeling better,
my mom said, oblivious, as I entered the kitchen. She brought two steaming bowls of tomato soup over to the table. Sounded like a stampeding elephant coming down those stairs.
Mmm,
I said vaguely. Sitting down, I curled my hands around the bowl, letting the warmth radiate through my palms, trying to banish the feeling of jumping through the boy ghost. I hadn’t gotten a good look at him—just a blurry, blue male figure.
Beside me, my mom kept her eyes glued to her tablet as she ate her soup, scrolling through prospective artist portfolios for our family’s gallery. Flick—a set of stormy seascapes rendered in oils, the waters roiling and foamy. Flick—a series of whale photographs, the framing zoomed-in tight. Through the photographer’s lens, the whales were gargantuan, grotesque—almost Cthulhu-ish. My kind of art.
Those ones are nice,
I said.
She nodded. We actually have a meeting set up with the photographer in a couple weeks. But he’s becoming a bigger deal lately, so I’m not sure if he’ll want to sign with a little gallery in Connecticut.
She scrolled on to the next artist’s portfolio, and I swirled my spoon through the soup. How best to poke at the topic without letting on that I was seeing things?
So,
I started, we have this project in history. We, um, have to research someone who used to live in Enville. Like an old mayor or someone.
My mom shut her tablet off, suddenly all ears. A group project?
I pressed my lips together, suppressing a sigh.
No, it’s individual. Anyway, I was thinking about doing someone who used to live in our house. Do you know anything about the people who owned it before us?
She sipped her soup, thinking. I’m afraid not. We bought it in ‘89, but I couldn’t even tell you the name of the previous owners. They were a middle-aged couple, that I do remember. Moved down south somewhere, I think.
Did they have kids?
They may have mentioned a daughter…? I don’t think we met her, though.
She paused. You know, the deed would have their names. But we’d have to go to the bank and get it out of the safe deposit box, and the schedule’s tight with all these prospective meetings. But if you really need…
I waved my hands. Don’t worry about it, I’ll find it online.
Surely some magical website could spit out the information I needed. Now to the real question. I guess what I was really wondering was… did anyone ever die in this house?
She set her spoon down with a clink, her eyebrows meeting in a frown. You know, maybe you should give those horror movies a rest. What kind of question is that?
Well, think about it. Say you’re living in England—chances are somebody passed away in your house, since everything’s so old there.
She fixed me with a dry look. "Yes, but we’re not in England."
Enville’s pretty old, though, as far as U.S. towns go—right? Wasn’t the house built in the twenties? So all I’m saying is that maybe someone actually died here. Don’t realtors have to tell you that? I thought I read that somewhere.
She shook her head at me slowly, looking at me like another piece of art—one that was a little too experimental and definitely too morbid for her tastes. My mom was kind, caring, compassionate, really all the Mother’s Day adjectives, but her tastes ran pretty vanilla. Not sure about the realtor thing,
she said, but I never heard anything like that about our house. You can always ask Dad about it, I guess. You’re really set on this?
I just have a hunch it’s exactly what Mr. DeBraav’s looking for.
Well, he’s the history teacher, not me,
she said, her eyes still a bit disapproving. How about if you ask him if there’s a way to find that out?
Yeah, all right.
Damn it. I’d been looking for easy answers, not an extracurricular history project.
* * *
In school the next day, I took a few extra moments at the end of history class to straighten my books and papers. When the last student finally slipped out the door, I cleared my throat, and Mr. DeBraav looked up from his class notes and smiled.
What’s up, Lanie? Question?
Yeah, not on class, though. I was just hoping for a little advice.
He motioned for me to go ahead, and I dove in with my questions, leaving aside the ghost stuff, of course. How do I figure out who used to live in my house? Is there a way to tell if someone died in the house? I wasn’t worried about his reaction, since Mr. DeBraav never glossed over history’s vilest moments. The classes detailing the Rape of Nanking or the Nazi medical experiments had made more than a few of the class’s wimpier students get up and take a break, their faces pale and queasy, but not me.
As I spoke, I could already see that I’d struck gold; his eyes had lit up behind his glasses. So I wondered if you had any suggestions,
I ended.
Well, sure,
he said. Have you tried a séance?
I blanched, and he chuckled. Kidding. Anyway, in terms of whether anyone died in the house, I’ve never heard of a reliable service to check that. But interviews with the previous homeowner would likely turn up some answers. You’ve probably already searched your address online?
I nodded. I didn’t find much.
My house was number 3 at the very end of Ferngrove Lane, a winding road that dove straight into the heart of Enville’s sprawling forest. But a whole slew of Ferngrove Lanes peppered the United States, and most of the search results were just housing price estimates. So I’d tried a few more imaginative searches, all some hopeful combination of "3 Ferngrove Lane Enville Connecticut murder teenage girl boy eighties serial killer death suicide homicide." An hour of searching had yielded nothing, save for a worrying browser history. Hopefully the FBI wouldn’t put me on some list—possible future psychos of New England, perhaps.
Mr. DeBraav was tapping a finger to his chin, thinking. I’d start with the house deed or tax assessment records. Those would list the previous homeowner.
How do I find those documents?
The county keeps some tax records online, actually.
I pulled out my math notebook—mostly blank, due to my long-standing feud with algebra—and jotted down some notes. And what if I wanted to find the names of the family members of the homeowner? They wouldn’t be listed, right?
The ghosts had looked my age, definitely no older than seventeen or eighteen—far too young to be buying houses.
Right. Lanie, it sounds like you’re interested in someone specific?
He was too smart for his own good—time to lay on the bullshit. "I also thought of making it a multi-generational, family history thing. How did these people end up in Enville, and where are they and their children now? Like The Joy Luck Club, sort of." We were reading it in English.
He rocked back on his heels. Ambitious! Well, your first order of business should be to find the name of the previous homeowner. Then I’d try to contact them on social media and go from there.
This was something I could work with. I might not actually know my so-called friends on social, but I could use Facebook as well as anyone else. Thanks, I’ll do that.
Of course. Let me know if you need any more help. And by the way, try getting some more sleep. Bit too much yawning in class today.
If only he knew. I’d woken up every half hour last night and fumbled for my phone flashlight, shining the light into the corners of the room, up at the ceiling, down toward the sides of my bed, searching for blue…
* * *
Next period was study hall, which I begged out of to go to the library to work on my invented history project. It felt comforting to be surrounded by books as I began a deep dive into online tax records. Surely I wasn’t alone; one of these thousands of authors had to have experienced an honest-to-God haunting.
Mr. DeBraav’s advice was spot on. It took a bit of poking around on the county’s website, but soon I was scrawling down more notes: my house’s parcel ID, the date and reference number of the 1989 sale, the full zip-code. There was even a blueprint of the house, which disappointingly lacked any indication of hidden passageways or boarded-up rooms. It would have been too easy, of course, for my house’s spirits to be emanating from desiccated corpses squirreled away in the walls.
My real triumph was discovering that the so-called grantor
meant seller
in non-legalese. I had my name: Holt, Edgar F.
My imagination spiraled in a thousand directions as I scoured the Internet for Edgar Holt. Why had he and his wife moved away—something innocuous like a job offer or an early retirement to Florida? Or maybe some more sinister reason—a house that wouldn’t stop haunting them? Or perhaps something yet more fantastical… I sank into fantasies of Mr. and Mrs. Holt teaming up as joint serial killers, a grizzly police detective just close enough to discovering the truth to necessitate a speedy departure.
Yet I could already tell I’d have a tough time finding the answer. I was running into the same issue I’d had Googling my street: there were pages and pages of Edgar Holts. In the end I rattled off a quick message to the top contenders. Hopefully the Edgar Holt I was seeking checked his Facebook.
That done, I took a field trip to the library’s paranormal and occult section. It was decidedly lacking. Most of the books were as hokey as you’d expect: crimson title fonts leaking blood droplets, cover illustrations akin to B-grade eighties horror flicks. The spooky aficionado in me reveled in this stuff, but I needed something more serious.
Then I caught sight of a gray-green canvas volume at the end of the shelf. I wrinkled my nose as I pulled it out; the spine had a light coating of dust.
Ghosts and Monsters from Around the World: A Compendium. A quick flip through revealed detailed descriptions of such creatures as the jiangshi, some sort of Chinese zombie-vampire mash-up, and the cihuateteo, Aztec mythology’s ghosts of women who died in childbirth.
Well, maybe the author had seen fit to include my blue-skinned ghosts, or at least some distant cousin. I walked back to my table and started skimming.
The real question bugging me was, why now? I’d lived at my house my whole life—ample time for the ghosts to reveal themselves. It didn’t make any sense…
Hey!
The whisper-shout came from a guy with a mop of mouse-brown curls seated at the next table over. He was lanky, legs sprawling so that he seemed to take up the whole table, even though there were three empty seats. His T-shirt featured a cartoon ruby-encrusted sword; the gold text underneath read Proud Warrior of Viningal.
I eyed him coolly over Ghosts and Monsters. I had nothing against gamers, but Viningal
sounded like a venereal disease. What’s up?
Just wondering—is that for some elective?
He jerked his chin at my book. Looks way better than this shit.
He held up a copy of Dracula. From the corner of my eye, I saw the grandmotherly librarian on the other side of the room shoot us both a dirty look, though I couldn’t tell if it was for the whispering or the swearing or the dissing of Bram Stoker’s seminal work.
"What’s wrong with Dracula?" I whispered back.
I mean, the first bit was decent, but the second half’s killing me. The only scary thing about it is I might die of boredom.
"You’re reading that in English?"
"Yeah, the Intro to Horror elective with Mrs. Naples. I’m more a math guy, so I wanted to get away from Shakespeare and Fitzgerald—thought we’d talk about modern stuff like Resident Evil or whatever. But everything we’re studying is super old…"
Wow. How had I never heard of this class? I always just went with whatever humdrum English offering my guidance counselor recommended for college.
Well, it’s not for a class,
I said with a nod at Ghosts and Monsters. I’m just doing some, ah, personal research.
‘Personal research?’
he repeated, but didn’t press me when I stayed quiet. Anyway, I’m Ryan.
Lanie.
Huh, interesting name.
Short for Melanie.
Cool, cool. Well, I’d better get back to this. I have a paper due next week.
He scowled at the snarling face of the eponymous villain on the cover, fangs in full, pointy glory, before flipping open to a dog-eared page in the middle.
I spent the rest of the period speed-reading through the first half of Ghosts and Monsters. None of the creatures so far matched my blue ghosts, though I held out hope for the latter part of the book. All I needed was some scrap of a detail to point me in the right direction.
* * *
I stared down at the blank sheet of paper on the desk. Last class of the day, and my English teacher was out sick, but it didn’t mean she hadn’t mustered the strength to assign us two in-class pages to write about a formative event in our lives, à la The Joy Luck Club. Normally this kind of thing might be sort of fun, but I was so tired from my sleepless night that all creativity had fled my body.
I eyed the clock—forty-eight minutes to go—then fiddled with my pencil, smacking the eraser on the paper with a satisfying thump.
What. To. Write.
And then, as my brain floated away towards meditative boredom, I felt that tug of memory once more.
A waiting room. Seated next to my mom, I’m watching a TV playing a Disney movie when an older woman emerges from somewhere to usher me away—just me. My mom stays behind, watching me go, and I feel our growing distance like a physical ache.
The woman brings me to a different room—soft music in the background, pastel colors. She motions me to sit in a chair, and I do so, squirming under her gaze. The room’s a bit too warm, and I’m wearing shorts, the backs of my thighs sticking to the seat…
Some sort of doctor’s office—and a hazy feeling intertwined with the memory, like an aftertaste concealed by other flavors.
Blue. Revulsion. Fear.
Chapter 3
You all right?
I’d let out a gasp, and the girl at the desk next to me—Emma? Emily?—was eyeing me warily. I shook my head at her, my tongue dry, then rose from my seat and walked over to the sub on shaky legs.
C-can I go to the nurse?
I