I'll Find You
By Nancy Bush
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Only killing stops the pain . . .
Callie Cantrell has only fragmented memories of the car accident that killed her husband and son. One year later, she's still trying to start over, yet she can't shake her unease. Especially when former LA cop West Laughlin barges into her life, searching for his young nephew. At first he thinks Callie's lying about who she is and what she knows. But soon it's clear that Callie and West are linked by a killer who has bent others to his twisted will. The worst night of Callie's life was just the beginning of his vengeance. And when her turn comes again there will be no escape . . .
Praise for Nancy Bush and her novels
“Nancy Bush always delivers edge-of-your-seat suspense!” —Lisa Jackson, New York Times bestselling author
“Engrossing . . . twists you won't see coming!” —Karen Rose, New York Times bestselling author
“Pulse-pounding . . . Readers will tear through the pages.” —Publishers Weekly
“An imaginative mystery that will beguile the reader . . . an electrifying thriller.” —Mysterious Reviews
Nancy Bush
NANCY BUSH is the New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of Bad Things,Jealousy,Dangerous Behavior,The Killing Game, You Don’t Know Me,Nowhere Safe,Nowhere to Hide,Nowhere to Run,Hush, Blind Spot, Unseen, as well as Wicked Ways, Something Wicked,Wicked Game, and Wicked Lies, in the Colony series co-written with her sister, bestselling author Lisa Jackson. She is also the co-author of Sinister and Ominous, written with Lisa Jackson and New York Times bestselling author Rosalind Noonan. Nancy lives with her family in the Pacific Northwest. Readers can visit her website at www.nancybush.net.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I'll Find You by Nancy Bush is a perfect summer read. Callie Cantrell is staying on the island of Martinique to recover from the loss of her husband and son in a car accident. But was it an accident? Then West Laughlin mistakes her for his brother's widow, Teresa. Teresa is part of a group led by "The Messiah" who con money from men. The more Callie learns, the more their lives become entangled. Callie has even become attached to Teresa's young son. Then the other woman is found dead. Who killed her...and why? Romance is blooming amid the danger is getting closer. Nancy Bush, as usual, keeps the reader caught up in the world she has created.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This book piqued my interest right from the beginning. Andre, the self-proclaimed Messiah, has his handmaidens carry out jobs for him scamming men for money and even killing. We do not know why, but he alludes to a long term aim which he doesn't want his handmaidens to know about. Terese, his favourite handmaiden, has killed twice that we know about, recently forcing a car off the road and killing her lover and his son.
Callie Cantrell is spending time on Martinique, where she spent her Honeymoon, trying to get herself together after her husband and son died in a car accident. She meets a young boy named Tucker and they begin a relationship of sorts, Callie using Tucker to help her heal, Tucker needing a substitute mother as his is an absent parent who lets him run wild. She has big gaps in her memory from just before the accident.
West Laughlin accosts her in an alley accusing her of being someone called Teresa and being involved in his brother's death. How are Andre, Callie and West linked? How is the little boy Tucker involved? He is a lovely character, so full of life.
It's exciting with lots of twists. Just when you think one thing might happen, something else does. The ending is quite a surprise and I was not able to figure it out until the last few pages. A very good story that was a quick read due to wanting to find out what happens next. If you have read any of Nancy Bush's other books, this is a stand alone thriller you will not be disappointed in.
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I'll Find You - Nancy Bush
Behavior
Prologue
Dark. Hot. Driving faster than she should but she had to keep up with their car. She’d made an unforgivable mistake—a calculated risk, really; several of them, if the truth were known—and it had come back to bite her in the ass. But she’d been new to the game then. Hadn’t known what she wanted, other than him. Couldn’t be blamed for that. Couldn’t . . .
A chill stole into her heart as she pressed her toe to the accelerator. Her hands were slick on the wheel. Carefully she wiped them, one at a time, on her jeans. Had to concentrate. Had to get this right. Already it was a problem that there were two heads in the car in front of her, not one, but too damn bad.
Her mind wavered. Cast back to that night when she’d become his again. The feel of the chain he’d draped around her neck, the weight of the ankh cross. The pressure of the links as he twisted it until her skin pinched and her breath lay trapped in her throat.
Who am I?
he whispered.
The Messiah.
Who are you?
Your handmaiden. I love you. I’ve always loved you.
Liar.
I just lost my way for a while, but I’m back.
Will you obey me?
I’ll do anything you ask.
Almost anything.
You’ve left things very messy.
I know. I’ll clean up everything.
Almost everything.
He relaxed the chain ever so slowly, then drew back and touched the cross around his own neck. This, too, was part of the ever-changing rituals he expected them to all participate in. The gold ankh shimmered dully in the light and she stared at it hard, promising herself that she would do everything he wanted of her. Almost everything.
Now the black Mercedes ahead of her had reached Mulholland Drive. She knew where they were heading. She knew where the turn would be, where the road pushed out around the cliff, where the rail was no barrier at all. Dead Man’s Curve. Maybe not called that, exactly, but close enough.
Her vehicle was a ten-year-old Ford Explorer. Brownish. Stolen. He’d given it to her for this express purpose. All she had to do was follow through.
But it wasn’t supposed to be two heads. Worry gnawed at her brain. Someone who wasn’t supposed to be targeted would die tonight because of her. She’d killed before and had even enjoyed it a little—maybe more than a little if the asshole truly deserved it—but she had never murdered an innocent. But then who was to say the other person was innocent?
Her mouth was Sahara dry. Her heart beat hard and slow, thumping in her ears with the precision of a metronome. Deafening her. She felt like she was floating.
They were traveling fast. Too fast. If she wasn’t careful she could lose control of her own vehicle. It was almost as if the people ahead of her knew the danger creeping up on them. Did they? Could they?
She focused on the driver, knew that he liked speed and risk, loved to push himself. She could see the second head—the woman’s—turn as she flashed at him in anger. She clearly didn’t feel the same way, but her quarry’s response was to accelerate even more.
A grim smile touched her lips. Carefully, she pressed her toe down farther and the SUV jumped forward. Did he know they were being followed? She doubted it. He was a narcissistic fool, believed himself infallible. She’d known that from the first time she met him in the dim light of the bar, the way his gaze had caressed her. She’d known just how to play him.
But now she had to time this right. Had to move up closer. They were almost there. The curve was coming up.
She glanced around anxiously. If a car approached in the opposite lane at the point of impact she would be lost. Likely to go over the edge herself. Her SUV gained on the Mercedes as she pushed it to reckless speed. The woman passenger looked back in fear as she bore down on them, her face white, her mouth opening in a scream.
And then her Explorer was on them. Deliberately she clipped the rear of their car, aiming for the back end of the driver’s side.
Bam! The Mercedes whipped around as if spun by a hand on a roulette wheel, then slewed sideways. The man overcorrected and the car swung back, shimmying as it hit the rail. It went airborne so fast that even she gasped in surprise. She felt a moment’s jubilation until she saw the third head lift from the backseat. A small head.
What? What!
The boy was in the car? NO! NO!
Oh, God. Oh, God. NO! He wasn’t supposed to be with them!
It felt like the Mercedes hung in the air forever. She was screaming herself as it smashed into the ground with a sickening crunch. Her own vehicle was shuddering and rotating. She wrestled the SUV around, the world spinning. She barely managed to stop its dizzying turn and straighten it out. Keep it, too, from sailing over the edge as it charged forward. Distantly, she felt her arms aching from the effort. But the boy. The boy . . .
Her Explorer flew around the next corner, hung on to the road. No traffic. A miracle. She stood on the brakes, shuddering violently to a stop. Pulled off at the first place she could, a small strip of dirt on the side of the road.
No . . . no . . .
She had to go back. Had to. It was dangerous. Foolhardly. Suicidal. Undoubtedly someone—there were houses there, nestled into the cliffside far below—had seen the vehicle launch over the edge, heard it as it smashed downward. But the boy.
She ran back to the site of the crash. An eerie calmness held. There was no evidence of the accident from up here apart from the missing chunk of rail that looked like it could have given way weeks, months, years earlier.
Heart in her throat, she scrambled over the edge and down the cliff. It wasn’t easy. It wasn’t safe. Her hands were ripped and bloodied by the bushes and limbs as her sneakers slid in the dried, loose dirt. She approached the car cautiously. The Mercedes lay on its side, wheels spinning, headlights aimed at a distant land far below and the snake of glittering headlights in the valley. The vehicle had been caught by a stump and scraggly line of twisted trees. All that had saved it from tumbling down the cliff. Lucky, she thought with a swept-in breath. Maybe still alive.
She saw the boy first. Lying still. Quiet. His booster seat flung to one side. Her heart sank at his body, limp and motionless. Tears filled her eyes as she ran to him. She searched for a pulse and found none. A cry wrenched from her soul. It wasn’t supposed to happen this way! Glancing up, she focused on the car. The woman was tangled up, flopped like a marionette, slung up inside the passenger seat belt, which had restrained her, the airbag crushed up against her.
And the man. The reason she’d been sent on this quest. To right the wrong she’d done to Andre . . . The Messiah, she reminded herself, though she had trouble remembering the name he liked to be called in front of the other handmaidens, was resentful of it.
Her quarry was on the ground a few feet from the boy, lying on his back. His eyes were open, reflecting a strip of moonlight. He focused on her and her blood ran cold. Alive.
They looked at each other and he lifted up a hand, as if he planned to reach for her. Martinique,
he said.
Her heart thudded hard in her chest. She remembered clinking her mai tai to his, the sight of the roll of bills he pulled from his pocket, the feel of him inside her while he moaned and thrashed above her and she thought of all the beautiful things she’d dreamed that his money could buy her.
With a last inhaled breath and then a slow expelling of air, he died.
She looked away from him and back to the boy.
I did this. I did this....
No, he did this, she told herself. Andre. The Messiah, she thought with hot fury. It was his fault.
And he’ll do it to your boy, too, she thought.
Her son.
One of the very messy things she’d left behind.
Headlights flashed up above on the road. Quickly, she pocketed his cell phone, which had incongruously landed above his head, then she carefully picked her way farther down the hillside and along the side of the cliff. Little by little, she inched down the steep incline to one of the backyards of several houses far below Mulholland, one that was completely dark. Briefly she thought about possible fingerprints on the steering wheel. She should have worn gloves. She hadn’t really believed she would go through with it.
Too late now.
By the time she’d worked her way onto the lower road she could hear the police sirens. It took her another two hours, mostly ducking out of sight, before she came to a place she could hail a taxi far from the crash site. Then was driven to a bus stop a few miles from the house she shared with Andre and the fucking handmaidens. She walked those last miles, but it wouldn’t hurt for the cabbie to think she was waiting for a bus.
She entered with her key through the front door, dusty, scratched and soul-sick, and immediately realized they were all in the ceremony room. That meant they’d be wearing their white robes. She had truly loved Andre once. Back when they were a reckless team of two, making their way from chump to chump. But things had changed. Andre had changed, become The Messiah.
She wanted to spit and had to contain her emotions. Still, the rituals of being a handmaiden made her grind her teeth and furthered her resolve to run away with her boy.
Could she do it? Could she make the break? Was it the right time?
Naomi, the biggest and baddest of the handmaidens, her dusty blond hair in cornrows, her ’tude that of a street kid though Teresa had heard she’d come straight from the middle class, caught sight of her before she could sneak to her room. Naomi pointed at her even while the others were chanting and undoubtedly holding hands in a semicircle, making sure everyone knew she’d returned. Sometimes Andre would select one of them for a sex act while he was under the spell of his own beliefs, laying the joyous one down on the mats, letting them all watch. Her lip curled at the thought but she nodded to Naomi and hurried to strip naked and then slip the white robe over her head. By the time she was at the ceremony room and had taken her designated spot to Naomi’s right, her facial expressions were under control, though she could feel an uncontrollable quiver in her thighs and running down her legs. Fear. If she left and he came to find her . . . what would he do to her? What would he do to her boy?
You,
Andre said in a worshipful tone, curling a finger at her to come join him. He had that dazed, rapturous look on his face that caused the other handmaidens to begin chanting louder.
I can’t, she thought. Then, a sterner voice within her own self said, You will.
Andre gathered up the hem of her robe and pulled the garment over her head, then stripped off his own. He lay her down on the mat and covered her body with his own, and as the handmaidens’ voices reached a crescendo and Andre roughly slid inside her, she closed her eyes and reminded herself that she had loved him once . . . that this was just another test she must endure to keep up the charade . . . that all she had to do was play along and ignore the rapturous madness in his eyes . . . that nothing was as important as saving her son.
PART I
Chapter One
Callie Cantrell slid open the door to her balcony and immediately felt the sweltering humidity of Martinique. She’d grown accustomed to it these past months, though when she’d first arrived on the Caribbean island she’d been limp, exhausted, and certain she would never become acclimated.
Or maybe that was just because she was mentally and physically spent. Numb. Lost. She’d lived in Los Angeles for most of her adult life and normally would have been able to handle the change in temperature, but ever since Sean’s death nothing was normal.
One year ago. A little over, now.
Leaning her forearms on the wrought-iron railing, she purposely pushed those dark and anxious thoughts aside, like she’d done nearly every moment since she’d decided she wanted to try to get better, to try to live again. Dwelling on his death was dangerous to her. She hadn’t needed a therapist to tell her that, but she’d needed one to bring her back from the edge, to help her begin the journey into the next phase of her life, to convince her she still had a life.
It had taken a month in a hospital and then continual sessions with Dr. Rasmussen to get her to start eating again, get her out of the house she’d shared with her husband and son, get her to accept that this was her new reality. She hadn’t truly been suicidal, though they’d thought she was. She’d simply been too destroyed to function in any positive capacity. Depression. Survivor’s guilt. Abject misery. Yep, she had them all. When she’d finally gotten up the gumption to take charge of her life, she’d told the Cantrell family lawyer that she was going to the island of Martinique for an indefinite stay. He’d objected. It was too soon. She was too fragile. What would he tell Derek and Diane, Jonathan’s grasping brother and sister? When was she coming back?
Now she gazed over the rooftops of the apartments and tenements on the hill below her, looking beyond the telltale signs of humanity toward the crystalline waters of Fort-de-France Bay. She should really appreciate its beauty more than she did, although she did recognize that the slow pace, French language, and sense of being in a different world were helping her slowly come back.
Callie! Callie!
Looking below, down the crooked cobblestone alley that led to the road, she saw a little boy, no more than five years old, racing around the corner waving his dust-grimed arm frantically.
Callie grinned and waved back. Tucker, the only other resident of the area she knew who spoke her language, was heading in her direction full tilt. What are you doing up so early?
Callie called, leaning over the rail.
I come to see you.
He flashed her a huge smile and scampered up the cracked concrete steps to the apartment house’s front door.
Callie walked back inside and wondered, not for the first time, how Tucker could have so much freedom. It was barely six
A.M
., for Pete’s sake, and the child ran loose among Martinique’s narrow streets and alleys until way after dark. Callie rarely saw Tucker with an adult, and she’d only met his mother once. Aimee Thomas had regarded Callie with suspicion and had ordered in French—Martinique’s native tongue—for Tucker to leave the room. She then explained in broken English to Callie that she was Tucker’s mother and that she had tried very hard to keep him in line but it was difficult. She didn’t mention Tucker’s father, and Callie couldn’t tell if there even was one.
Callie had privately felt Aimee was just making excuses for being so lax, but since she hadn’t wanted to alienate herself from her she kept her opinions to herself. Tucker was too important to Callie for her to object too strongly. In fact, Callie realized, Tucker was the reason she was still here, almost a month after her initial date of departure. Was he a replacement for the son she’d lost? Almost assuredly, but in that she didn’t give a damn. If she wanted to lavish all her love and attention on the boy, what the hell was wrong with that? And Tucker’s innocence and unbridled enthusiasm were a tonic she eagerly drank. She was slowly, ever so slowly, getting better.
Tucker impatiently rattled her apartment door and Callie hollered, Hold on. I’m coming.
Hurry! I brung you something.
That’s ‘brought,’ Tucker, and no, I will not accept any more gifts. You’ve got to take this one back,
Callie said sternly, glancing toward her bedroom and the bracelet on her dresser as she made her way to the front door.
She slipped the chain off the lock and opened the door. Tucker, like the bundle of pure energy he was, hurled himself inside and held out his hand triumphantly. See?
he demanded.
Cupped between his palms was a tiny, bluish-tinted starfish.
Ahhh . . .
Callie put the starfish in her own palm, examining it critically as she looped an arm around Tucker’s thin shoulders. You’ve been beachcombing.
Yesterday. And I goes today, too.
You’re going today?
Tucker bobbed his dark head. His eyes were a fine, clear blue and they stood out dramatically against his dark hair and skin. Callie had grown used to the way he mangled his verbs; in fact, it was amazing he spoke English as well as he did, considering his mother was so poor at it. Or at least that’s what she wanted Callie to believe.
I go to the pier and waits around.
Tucker glanced over his shoulder as if he expected someone to materialize in the open doorway. He moved still closer to Callie. "I have to go first with Maman, though."
Tucker’s dislike of doing anything with his mother was another piece of a growing puzzle. It’s none of your affair, she reminded herself, but she hugged Tucker extra hard. Well, I have to go out this morning too,
she said, straightening. I’m going grocery shopping and I promise to bring you back something from the bakery.
Chocolate?
You bet.
You bet,
he repeated, grinning.
She laughed, surprising herself. When was the last time she’d done that?
Take me with you,
he said suddenly, begging her with those beautiful eyes.
Callie had to fight herself from buckling under. You are a heartbreaker,
she scolded him lightly. But your mom’s waiting for you and I’ve got a million and one things to do that you’d think would be no fun. Now,
she added briskly, before he could put forth another protest and weaken her resolve, let’s talk about that other gift you gave me. The one I have to give back.
She strode into her bedroom and picked up the unusual silver bracelet with its rings of purple stones—They couldn’t be amethysts, could they?—that Tucker had bestowed upon her. Callie had been bowled over by the gift and done her best to refuse it. From all accounts Tucker lived in near squalor, and when he’d unceremoniously dropped the bracelet in her lap one afternoon, Callie had done a classic double take. She was certainly no expert, but . . . even if it was a fake, it was an expensive one. It must belong to his mother. She’d tried to refuse but Tucker had been adamant, his eyes filling with unshed tears at her insistence that she couldn’t accept it. Sick at heart that she’d hurt his feelings, Callie had said she would keep the bracelet for a few days. Those few days had passed and now she was anxious to give it back.
She stretched out her arm to him, the bracelet hanging from her fingers. It’s beautiful and I love it, but it’s too expensive of a gift.
She wondered again how he’d ever come to possess it, then decided she was probably better off not knowing.
You don’t wear it,
he said, hurt.
I can’t. It’s too precious. I think you should . . . give it back to your mother.
It mine!
he said swiftly, almost angrily. You wear it.
Callie stared at him in consternation. Something wasn’t quite right, but she couldn’t figure out what it was.
I’ll wear it today,
Callie said, as a means to pacify him, but only if you promise to take it back later. Deal?
She passed the bracelet to her left hand and stuck out her right.
Normally Tucker jumped at her Americanisms, soaking them up and adding them to his vocabulary. But now Tucker just stood in injured silence, his gaze on the floor. Callie squatted down to his level and lifted his chin. If I could, I would wear your gift every day. Believe me. But sometimes adults can’t accept certain gifts. It just wouldn’t be right. What would your mother think if she knew you gave me this bracelet?
It mine,
Tucker insisted again, but doubt had crept into his tone.
If I put it on now, promise me you’ll let me give it back later.
She waggled the fingers of her right hand and he reluctantly reached out and shook it.
Deal,
he mumbled.
Good. Then I’ll put it on right now.
Callie ran the bracelet up her left arm and gave Tucker a quick kiss on the top of his head. Now scoot home before we get in hot water with Aimee.
She put her palms on his shoulders and turned him in the direction of the door, but he twisted his neck around. Hot water?
he asked.
Just another expression. It means ‘big trouble’—the kind that neither of us wants.
Hot water,
he repeated, turning fully around again to face her, his expression lightening.
You just love those idioms,
she said, laughter in her voice. I think—
she began, when he suddenly threw his arms around her waist and pressed his face into her stomach, his thin body tense with emotion. They stood in silence for a moment and Callie felt her heart beat painfully in her chest. She had to leave very soon, she realized, or it would be impossible to. It nearly was already. She thought of Sean and for a terrible moment couldn’t picture his face. All she could see was Tucker and it stopped the breath in her throat.
Tucker ended the embrace a moment later. He was quick to display affection but also quick to sense when he needed to pull back. With a wave and slight smile he headed out the door, the clattering of his footsteps down the wooden stairs sounding more like an army than just one small boy.
Let me walk you home!
she called after him.
But it was already too late to catch up with him. Curbing her natural instinct to mother him, Callie pulled herself together and let him go. This was his accepted way of life. He would be on his own again—alone—soon enough anyway. It was crazy, but it was out of her hands.
She inhaled deeply, then let out a slow breath. Tucker belonged to Aimee and not to her. He was an endearing boy, but she was nothing other than a friend to him. This was a transitory relationship, one that had certainly done its magic in bringing her back to the land of the living, but she couldn’t build on it.
Though Callie understood perfectly why she found Tucker so attractive, she was less sure of why he had been drawn to her. She was just another tourist in a city overflowing with them, and though she had purposely moved from her hotel, stretching her meager French vocabulary to rent this apartment on the hill above Fort-de-France, that was the only remarkable aspect about her.
Grabbing up the plastic beach bag she used as a carryall, she stepped onto the third-floor landing, locked the door, then headed down the stairs and out to the narrow, cobblestone street lined with tall, whitewashed buildings that meandered down the hill.
She planned to go to the open market and buy some produce, maybe a bouquet of flowers. Ever since the accident, she’d felt like she was in a colorless world and subconsciously the part of herself that had been buried so long but was determined to survive gravitated to bright hues.
As she walked along she felt a shiver shimmy down her spine, as if someone were spying on her. Immediately she looked behind herself but the street was empty.
Something’s wrong, she told herself, then just as deliberately shoved the thought aside, one she kept having no matter what she seemed to do. Of course something was wrong. Her whole world had been upended and torn apart. That was it. That was all. That was enough.
Yet . . .
From the moment she’d first woken up in the hospital, bleary and confused, she’d felt there was something she was missing. Something she’d forgotten or had almost known, and she kept experiencing a kind of déjà vu in odd moments. When she was reading the overhead menu at a coffee shop. When she was pulling money from her wallet. Each time she fought the emotional wrench of saying good-bye to Tucker and then turning her thoughts to her own life.
She had no memory of the accident itself, a common occurrence she’d been told, but she could remember the sense of anxiety and uneasiness that had plagued her for weeks prior to the accident. Was it because Jonathan had turned so mean-spirited and reckless? Was it her fear that he was keeping something from her? Or was it because of this something she’d known and then forgotten, something that felt like it was teasing just outside her consciousness? A sense that if she fell into a half dream it might well to the surface and she might be able to reach out and grab it?
Now, as she reached the open market, she shook her head, like she had so many times before. The harder she tried to nab it, the farther it seemed to recede from her grasp.
Someday, she told herself, fighting back the building frustration, but her mind wouldn’t quit traveling down that twisted path. She’d been told their car plunged off a cliff as they were driving on Mulholland. No one knew quite how it had happened but Callie, even though she couldn’t fully remember, simply blamed Jonathan for driving too fast. He was always driving too fast. And yes, she’d heard that there was another car abandoned at the scene. A stolen car with a broken headlight and smashed right, front fender. The theory was the two cars had been racing. She’d adamantly refused to believe Jonathan would have raced someone with both Sean and her in the car, but then, how much had she really known about the man she’d married?
She’d also been told she was lucky to be alive. Maybe . . . but she’d wished, more than once, that she had died with Sean. Those months afterward, the excruciating minutes that ticked by so slowly while she recovered from broken ribs and lacerations along her right arm and torso, had been long and hard. And then the month in the mental ward . . .
Jonathan’s sister and brother, Diane and Derek Cantrell, had taken care of the funeral arrangements. Callie, who barely knew them, vaguely registered their hostility, thinking they blamed her for their brother’s death. Later, she’d come to realize that they blamed her for inheriting the Cantrell family fortune. Later still, she discovered that fortune was about a tenth what it had once been, that Jonathan had practically run the company into the ground. She’d been thinking of taking a trip to Martinique, to the island where she and Jonathan honeymooned and Sean was conceived, a vague plan that had roots in the fact that she wanted to just run away. With Diane and Derek’s increasingly hostile attitude after they examined Jonathan’s financial records and realized the money just wasn’t there, Callie had taken off. She had kept her own checking account and she used funds she’d saved on her own.
She told William Lister, a man she’d felt she could trust even though he was the Cantrell family attorney, that she was leaving on a trip. She didn’t tell him where. He advised her against it; there were a dozen legal matters to attend to, to which Callie told him that Diane and Derek could have everything, save what she had in her own account. She didn’t care. She just needed to leave.
Derek caught up with her before she took off and tried to wheedle out of her where she was going. He intimated that she was stealing their inheritance, which pissed her off no end. She didn’t give a damn about the money, or him, or anyone. She’d lost the only person who was important to her. Derek also implied that Jonathan had bought her jewels and designer clothes and other lavish gifts. That’s where he felt the money had gone, and he wanted those gifts returned.
To that Callie said, Bite me.
She didn’t have the money or the mythical gifts. She took off for Martinique and left her cell phone behind so they couldn’t reach her. She was sick of the lot of them. In the end she’d called Lister a time or two, mostly to let him know she was still alive and okay and to keep him from sending the hounds after her.
Callie sensed there was a lot she didn’t know about her husband, but she wasn’t even certain she wanted to know what it was. Maybe that was why her mind shied away from whatever it was she couldn’t grasp. Whatever the case, she’d spent the last month finishing the recovery that had started within the walls of Del Amo Hospital. She wasn’t her old self; that person had died an unlamented death somewhere along the way. She was someone new, someone stronger. Someone who planned to make much better choices from here on out.
He watched the young woman with the red-tinged, blond hair weave through the open market and held his breath, a surge of hot fury licking through his veins. He’d been accused of being cold and heartless by women before, maybe he had been with them, but right now he was churning with rage, his insides hot lava.
His eyes followed her as she picked up several mangos and a papaya and then moved on to examine an array of tropical flowers. He saw her fingers reach out and gently touch a blood red anthurium and fought back the urge to grab her hard and shake her until something fell loose.
Not yet, he told himself. Not here.
He traced her movements as she made her purchases, then slipped in behind her as she walked away, her carryall laden with fresh fruit and vegetables, the nodding heads of birds of paradise and tiger lilies almost like a beckoning hand. He followed carefully behind her and realized she was heading toward the bay.
The early-morning stillness of Fort-de-France Bay seeped seductively into Callie’s consciousness. Her senses were lulled, attuned only to the heat, the silence, and most of all the view, as she stood on the pier and watched the ferryboat load visitors for the thirty-minute voyage from Fort-de-France to Pointe du Bout, the tourist resort on the other side of the bay.
Her carryall was loaded with groceries, and she had only one stop left to make: the bakery. But she couldn’t find the energy to move. Stretching her bare arms skyward, she felt the sun soak deep into her skin. Smiling, she squinted against the blinding dazzle of light on the water.
An inflatable boat at the end of another pier was being stowed with provisions, and Callie watched the two men doing the loading without really seeing them. Her thoughts were far away. That same elusive memory was teasing at the back of her mind. She ignored it, unwilling to frustrate herself with being incapable of grasping it, and kept her gaze on the small rubber launch as it roared to life and pulled away from the shore. Her line of sight took in a trim white and royal-blue sailboat anchored in the bay. Small waves from the wake of other boats slapped against the sailboat’s gleaming hull, and a man on deck moved to the rope ladder near the stern, leaning down to help load provisions from the approaching inflatable raft.
Callie’s scalp prickled and she looked around. A man and woman were walking along the dock, arm in arm, and a female jogger with a long-limbed reddish dog trotting beside her swept off to her right. A deeply tanned man about a quarter-mile down the shore held a pair of binoculars to his eyes, the binoculars trained on that same sailboat. She glanced back to the sailboat herself and didn’t see the same binoculars sweep the shore, pass by her once, then casually pass by her again.
Callie closed her eyes and inhaled the heady, salt-laden air. Hearing the launch rev to life once more, she slowly lifted her lids and watched the rubber craft motor back to the pier, a frothy wake fanning out behind it. To her surprise one of the men looked up, saw her, and began to wave frantically.
She glanced around. She was the only person in sight. Did she know this man? She didn’t think so. He had a grizzled beard and bulky build, and even from a distance she could see how dirty his clothes were. Then he put his hands to his lips and threw her an expansive kiss, arms spread wide, his mouth split by a wide grin.
She smiled back. Of course the man was a stranger. A Frenchman. She’d just been the recipient of his romantic enthusiasm.
She lifted her hand and waved a bit self-consciously. Tucker’s bracelet caught the sunlight and threw bright, lavender pinpoints of light in an arc around her. The man in the launch waved again and then the small boat reached the pier and the two men began hauling on more provisions.
Callie looked at her watch. It was time to get moving if she planned to do anything more than hang around the piers. Turning away from the bay, she walked back toward the center of the city.
Feeling something on the back of her neck, she glanced behind herself, her heart suddenly galloping. But it was the same scene. Nothing had changed except the jogger and dog had disappeared around the curve of the pier. The man who’d been watching the sailboat was tucking his binoculars into their case and turning the other way.
Fort-de-France was a