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Dear Thomas,
I know you're angry. It's true, I was sent to expose your mentor as a fraud illusionist, and instead I have put your secret in jeopardy. I fear I have even put your life in jeopardy. For that I can only beg your forgiveness. I've fallen for you. You know I have. And I never wanted to create a rift between us, but if it means protecting you from those who wish you dead—I'll do it. I'll do anything to keep you safe, whatever the sacrifice. Please forgive me for all I've done and what I'm about to do next. I promise, it's one magic trick no one will ever see coming.
Love,
Saverio
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Illusions - Madeline J. Reynolds
Table of Contents
Copyright
Dedication
PART ONE
THOMAS
SAVERIO
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PART TWO
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PART THREE
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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To Eddie, who showed me that magic is not
simply fictional (just like the cab driver said).
PART ONE
The Trick & the Trickster
THOMAS
October 03, 1898
Twelve days. Twelve. Less than two weeks’ time and Neville Wighton the Great will premiere his grand illusion for the city of London. It is his chance to cement his legacy. All he needs is for me to wait in the wings as I do my part.
October 04, 1898
Neville and I had our first proper rehearsal today.
It went about as miserably as I assumed it would.
The wild-eyed magician kept nagging and complaining, saying that I looked foolish—which I am certain I did—and suggesting I was unfit for the stage. Ha! I could have told him that. In fact, I am certain that I have, at various points throughout this apprenticeship.
I never had any desire to work for an illusionist.
Where I should be is at Oxford, studying literature and writing my poems. But my parents have insisted. Given my particular gifts talents, they feel it is the safest route.
As it is, it seems the only writing I will get to do is in here. Hence I have started keeping this journal. I have attempted to write some new poems between rehearsals, but the grueling schedule of a magician is not conducive to creativity—nor is consistently being insulted by one’s mentor.
We are allowed access to the West London Theatre’s auditorium only after normal service hours due to a performance of Twelfth Night that is currently running up until the weekend prior to our opening.
Having never performed on a proper stage, I kept bumping into Neville and standing in the wrong place—how was I to know which direction was meant by upstage
or downstage
? When he would call out stage right!
I was never quite sure if he meant my right or his own. Needless to say, I had the same troubles with stage left.
But all these other blunders were rather trivial. The real atrocity was the final act: the headlining trick sure to astound our crowds.
Before making any attempt at it, he at least did me the courtesy of running through the mechanics of it all, step by step. He told me how he wanted it to look, where in the theatre he should appear once it was complete, even how I was to pose and smile during the moment of revelation.
I used this discussion as one last attempt at convincing him that a properly trained assistant should really be the one to share the stage with him. Not only would such an assistant be much more appealing to the eye than my scrawny frame, but it would also keep the greatly unwanted attention off myself.
He is convinced I need to be right by his side, seeing everything as he sees it, for the trick to go smoothly.
And then he did it. He leaped from the stage and out over the rows of chairs where the audience would soon be sitting.
I made an honest effort. But concentration was difficult at best, and my reaction was far too slow, causing Neville to fall onto the row of chairs below. His limbs were draped into awkward, unnatural positions, as though he were a marionette doll rather than a living, breathing man made up of bones and muscles and flesh.
As I stood watching him groan in agony, I was certain that he had broken at least some of those bones. But after pulling himself up, he claimed to still be in one piece.
When his eyes found me, he screamed insults and profanities, reminding me he’d seen me perform an identical feat just yesterday in his studio.
Sir,
I said. Performing this trick on a small vase and performing it on a human being are two vastly different—
He glared at me. "If you tarnish my good name by letting such a mistake happen on opening night, I will tarnish your reputation. You will never receive work again. Not as a magician’s apprentice. Not as a street sweeper."
He was focused on the mistake, but what he truly did not like was my defying him.
I hope my reaction did not betray how unaffected I was by this threat of his.
I feel dreadful for what I am about to write, but being that this journal is meant for no eyes but my own…I shall confess, part of me wished that his bones truly had broken after his fall. It is terrible for me to wish injury upon the man, truly. But my dread in anticipation of this performance far outweighs any guilt plaguing my dark thoughts.
Mother and Father have retired to their bedroom for the night, so I shall get in some more practice. I was contemplating using a vase as my subject once again, but with the risk of having it fall to the floor and shatter, it would be best to use a small candle.
There are two scenarios:
One, I fail like I did in rehearsal today and make a fool of Neville.
Or two, even worse…I succeed.
I have to at least try to get this down. There is no reasoning with the man, and surely, if my secret does not kill me, he will.
SAVERIO
October 05, 1898
West London, would that you were as inviting to me as you are to everyone else. Yet here I am. Uprooted once again to a new city, with new streets to explore, new theatres to perform in, and a sea of new faces.
It comes with the territory. From growing up in the brothel, to doing menial labor as a stagehand, to being named apprentice to Paolo il Magnifico, I take one grueling step after another to finally improve my station.
Paolo thinks I am merely his assistant. He says I should be grateful for the opportunity. One day, he says, he will show me his tricks. His secrets. And then I, too, can be a magician. If I just wait.
But I am tired of waiting. All my life I’ve been waiting. I might only be nineteen, but I am meant for great things. I know it.
Until then, I follow Paolo, acting as his shadow, learning and doing all that I can. The constant travel means I am always alone, which is probably for the best. It’s simple: no friends means not having to say goodbye once it is time to make our way to the next theatre in the next city.
I suppose I consider Isabella a friend of sorts. As Paolo’s assistant, she is the only other familiar face I see on a consistent basis. But knowing Paolo, that likely won’t last much longer. He has achieved the amount of fame that he has by being strategic, not generous. His sharp eyes are always looking for a younger, prettier face—much like my own. Ah, but all jokes aside, it really is a shame. Isabella and I were just starting to get along.
It is for the best. A true magician can open up to no one. But I won’t always be alone, will I? Not truly. Just like Paolo, once I am a magician, the crowd will sustain me. Their amazement, their adoration. For the time being, I find my companionship with different bedfellows.
I offer a kiss, my bed, my body. And then, for my own trick, I disappear.
…
As our carriage rolled along the cobblestone streets of London town, I scanned the crowds for prospects to contain my loneliness. Things did not look too promising, though. London’s inhabitants seem about as chipper as the gray skies that hang over the city. And for some reason, they cover themselves from head to toe. No worry. I always do enjoy a challenge.
But as we continued onward, Paolo abruptly ordered our driver to stop. We came to West London for a reason, and it seemed he’d found it.
He exited the carriage, and Isabella gave me a knowing look—a wordless request to follow, so I did.
We had stopped in front of some square. A large column was plastered with local advertisements and notifications from businesses looking for laborers. And there was Paolo, staring at a poster. And from his glare, I could tell he wanted to rip the paper away and let it fall to the mud-caked street below.
Neville Wighton the Great. The whole reason we came here. We were originally supposed to perform in Munich, but while we were renting an apartment in Prague, I’d discovered a flyer for this Neville Wighton the Great,
making the same claims as that very poster. I had moved to throw the flyer away, but Paolo had ripped it from my hands and screamed, Don’t touch it!
What is odd is I’d heard scarce little of Wighton before coming across the flyer. Any professionally working illusionist makes near-identical claims about their own performances.
A trick never before seen!
The greatest illusion on this earth!
Magic that will make you believe!
Paolo is never really one to notice or care, especially when it comes to performers who are so far beneath him. Yet this one commands every ounce of his being.
I was finally able to pry him away and usher him back into our carriage. Now we are settling comfortably into our rooms.
Why was my mentor in such a state? The advertisements make it seem that it will be a performance like most others. All I really know of the man is that he is older, so, as a veteran of the stage, he likely will not stoop to anything so simple as mere card tricks. Through the use of mirrors, cabinets with secret compartments, trapdoors leading underneath the stage, and a young woman with tantalizing good looks and a provocative, most likely sequined, costume (much like our Isabella), the man will entertain, confound, and possibly even amaze the simple folk who hand over their money in the hopes of seeing something that they cannot explain.
Still, this is not unlike many other illusionists performing all around the world. There is a man over in the States who refers to himself as The Alchemist who has his assistant collect simple copper pennies from volunteers in his audience and he then appears to turn the coins into gold before returning them to the delighted audience members.
There will always be competition, there will always be new illusions being tested and even perfected, there will always be some new (or in this case, old) face that captures an audience’s eyes and hearts. I see no reason to spy on a performance that undoubtedly employs many of the same tricks or elements that Paolo currently utilizes himself.
I tried convincing my mentor of this to calm him.
I have to see his trick,
was all he said back to me.
He did not say he needed to see the performance as a whole but his trick. One singular trick. It is only now that I am remembering how the notice had advertised that Mr. Wighton will be performing a feat unlike any seen before.
I attempted to feed his ego various lines about how any tricks that the Englishman would perform could never hold a candle to Paolo’s powers of prestidigitation. But once again, my mentor only had one response.
"I have to see his trick. For months now that stale old fopdoddle has been hinting at how this will be the performance to change his career and thus his fortune. A little late in life for that…"
My eyebrow shot up as I looked to my mumbling mentor. He was staring at the ground, talking more to himself than me, and only when our eyes connected did he seem to remember that I was even in the room.
He did not speak on the subject for the rest of the night, and I was left to wonder. Months? I had not realized Neville Wighton was someone Paolo had even cared to follow, let alone that he has apparently been corresponding with the man.
Paolo has been anything but an open book, a fact I accepted long ago. But it seems there are far more unread chapters in his story than I had originally suspected, and more characters who are integral to the plot.
THOMAS
October 09, 1898
Something happened today. Something wonderful, and terrible, and exciting, and confusing…o what does it matter? I am likely making more of it than actually exists.
And yet for something that will assuredly come to nothing…my heart—it was beating as fast as it does the only other time it beats that fast is when my gift is making itself known, coursing through my veins like electrical currents.
This morning, Neville sent me off on errands in preparation for the opening performance, which is now only six days away. Specifically, I was to run to the tailor’s shop to pick up his vest, tailcoat, and cloak that were made special for the performance.
Surely that was something I could not mess up…but of course, I found a way.
As promised, the pieces were magnificent. The tailcoat was sleek and cut in a modern style. The vest was black, lined with a midnight-blue satin, as was the cloak, which was also embroidered with a gold thread that twinkled as it caught the light, as though it were fashioned after the night sky.
Honestly, I was astonished. The idea that a man with an appearance as unruly and unkempt as Neville Wighton would have a mind for fashion was lost on me. What with his brown hair sprouting from his head in every which direction and graying in such a nonuniform manner, it looked as though his head were simply doused in ash. Not to mention his sharp, birdlike features, which are only hardened further by the scowl permanently fixed to his face.
There is certainly something to be said about a man who takes such special care when it comes to showmanship, and I suppose it was shallow of me to just assume that such details of a performance were of no significance to him.
With his costume in hand, I hurried out of the shop. I took a shortcut back to Neville’s studio, and just as I was cutting through Manchester Square, I tripped over my own feet. Everything seemed to happen slower then, moment by moment. The gorgeous night-sky cloak was the first to float to the ground, and I followed, landing atop it.
I groaned into the lapel of the tailcoat, not ready to pull myself up and inspect the damage, when the sound of laughter pierced through the air. When I did finally look up, a pair of girls, probably not much older than myself, hung on either arm of a young man whom I’d never seen around this part of town before.
He was beautiful. Not just handsome—I’ve seen plenty of handsome men. But this young man, he was…striking. The way his dark curls hung loosely over even darker eyes had me at a loss for words. My stomach roiled in the strangest way. Not an unpleasant feeling—not at all. Just strange…confusing…unexpected. And yet, it was also welcome—as if something wonderful could happen at any moment just as long as he stayed near.
The girls he was with were giggling, but he seemed more contemplative than amused. He stepped forward and crouched down in front of me, then he picked up a part of the cloak and pinched it between his forefinger and thumb as he inspected it.
A cigarette hung from the side of his lips, and with him standing so close, a cloud of smoke created a veil between us. I did not know how to react, so I just lay there, frozen, letting the scent of the tobacco mixed with a hint of lavender oil filter through my senses.
He finally took his eyes off Neville’s ruined ensemble, stood, and reached out an arm to help me up. At that, my heart was near stopping altogether. I pulled myself up quickly, hoping that if my movements were swift, the beautiful stranger wouldn’t notice just how much I was trembling.
What is your name?
he asked once I was up on my feet.
O his voice! A thick accent coated his words, and each syllable danced around my ears, sweet and melodic, as though he were singing rather than merely speaking. There I go again, as if I were sitting down to write another one of my poems rather than scribbling about the goings-on of my day in a journal.
Thomas,
I forced out in what was only incrementally louder than a whisper.
Thomas,
he repeated. It sounded so…right, when he said it.
He looked back down at Neville’s soiled suit and cloak, and he smirked, the cigarette never faltering for a second. That is quite the outfit.
His eyes met mine once again. "I’m sure it looks bello… No, no. Fetching? This is the word you Englishmen use, yes? I’m sure it looks fetching on you—or it would have, anyway."
A surge of warmth shot through my face. Personally, I preferred the term "bello. Embarrassed, I was quick to admit that the clothing did not belong to me but to my master—which I then quickly switched to
mentor." That word still didn’t feel right when describing Neville, because that would imply he’s actually taught me something. But still, master makes it seem too much like I am his slave, rather than the young man who is about to either make or break his entire career.
He asked me who my mentor was and what sort of apprentice I am. I explained that I was working for Neville Wighton the Great.
Though it sounded foolish coming out of my mouth, those dark eyes of his widened.
Oh, I do love magic,
he said. Always so confounding. Do a trick for us, won’t you?
His female companions were quick to agree, urging me to do an impromptu performance, right in the square.
I mumbled something about how I couldn’t possibly and that I did not have the proper materials. I am not even entirely sure what I said and how much of it consisted of actual words, but it worked, for they relented. The boy shot me one last thoughtful smile, shrugged, then walked off, the girls trotting eagerly behind.
It is only now as I sit here that I am lamenting and cursing myself for being such a fool. He asked for my name and yet I never bothered to ask for his. Now he remains a nameless stranger, one I will likely never see again.
All I wish to do is to continue writing about him for the rest of the day, but I must be off. I promised Amelia I would accompany her to lunch—more specifically, Mother made me promise after our last two meetings were arranged by her. Both Mother and Father think it improper, since it gives the appearance that she is the one courting me and not the other way around.
I shall do my best to be decent company, but my mind is still in Manchester Square.
…
Lunch with Amelia was fine. That is how all activities are with her. Just…fine.
Amelia Ashdown is a lovely girl, to be certain. I have never once denied that. But after my encounter with the handsome stranger, I know what it is to truly admire someone’s features rather than simply appreciate them, as I do with Amelia. Amelia’s beauty, while apparent, has never made me desire to be close to her. Today, with that boy, I felt the urge to be close enough that if I were to reach out, my fingers could trace his cheekbone down to his sharp jaw. As he walked away, an odd, immediate sense of loneliness rushed through me.
Oh what does it matter, anyway? It is not as if I could do anything about these strange feelings. Even if I had thought to ask him for his name, even if I knew exactly where in the city to find him at this very moment, saints. Even if I were able to muster up the courage—everyone says it is a sin. Each one of my thoughts about him more sinful than the next. I mean…just look at what happened to Wilde. I am already an other
—something to be feared. The last thing I need is another secret. Another reason for the people of London to want to persecute me.
But is it so naive of me to want the type of passion I so often read about? Is it foolish to want a love that is so wholly consuming it causes me to ache? Fate is cruel that way, showing you exactly what you want even when it cannot be yours.
Passion or no, I shall continue to court Amelia, taking her out for tea and to lunches, for that is what is expected of me and what is proper.
SAVERIO
October 09, 1898
Something marvelous happened today.
I went against my own rule and put a name to one of the faces I met today. Thomas. It was in some square that I spotted him, just across town, near a café where I had successfully charmed two girls—sisters, if you can believe it. These Londoners are not as repressed as I figured. We were making our way to somewhere a little more private when a blur of ash-blond curls, pale skin, and elegant eyes fell toward the earth in an excitable fashion.
Even in his state, he was pleasant looking: slender, big gray eyes framed by those bouncing curls. He was clearly younger, though, even if only by a couple of years, and therefore not quite my type. I would have simply kept moving were it not for the articles of clothing he had dropped around him.
At first glance, they would have seemed like a simple black vest, tailcoat, and cloak, but the cloak and vest were each lined with a dark-blue fabric that had been embroidered with gold thread in such a way that the pattern looked like the night sky. No ordinary boy would be in possession of garments such as these.
And so I reached out a helping hand.
As it happens, the boy is also an apprentice a magician’s apprentice. And he works for none other than Neville Wighton the Great.
It was a grand coincidence, surely. But could it be anything more than that? The more I have been thinking on it, the more I am certain: this is no mere coincidence; this is an opportunity.
You see, I have been waiting an eternity for Paolo to reveal his secrets to me. But I might now be able to claim something of my own, something Paolo wants so much that he will finally stop teasing me.
Paolo shifted our entire tour just so he could come witness this one illusion that Neville is claiming to be unlike anything the world has ever seen.
There is more to Paolo’s curiosity than he is letting on—he knows something that we do not. But if it is true, and this illusion is unlike any performed before it, then how easy it would be to unlock its mystery with the aid of a certain magician’s apprentice.
I could very easily have Thomas in the palm of my hand. From the look in his eager, shining eyes, and from the way he could barely form his words when I asked for something as simple as his name, it was clear I mesmerized him. It was sweet. And convenient for me. Just another coincidence working in my favor.
I’ve never actually used such methods to get what I want. Sharing my bed has only ever been a temporary cure for lingering loneliness. But as someone who considers himself a student in the intimate arts, would it not be appropriate to put what I have learned so far to good use? And I can think of no better use than positioning myself for greatness. Then many will adore me—and permanently, rather than by a single temporary bedfellow who is gone come morning light.
This plotting is likely all for nothing anyway. Perhaps Wighton’s great trick is one that has already been done many different times with many different iterations. Paolo may simply be overreacting. All the same, I shall keep my eyes on this Thomas—keep him close, in case Paolo’s hunch is all too real and this illusion is a prize just waiting to be won.
And even if Paolo is not wrong about this mysterious trick, what if I am wrong about the boy’s feelings? It was only one chance encounter, after all. There was something in the way he stared, the way he fumbled for words (when he was even able to string some together). I have always considered myself a decent judge when it comes to the attraction, or lack thereof, of others. But what if the nervousness he was exhibiting was simply how he interacts with any new person he meets?
This is silly; of course it was attraction. It had to be. I am simply getting in my own head. I never usually analyze signals so closely, but then again, I suppose none of my other conquests ever really had any stakes. I’ve never had to worry much about whether or not the interest was reciprocated. Good Lord, is this what normal people go through with courtship? How can anyone stand such feelings of anxiety and insecurity on a consistent basis?
Ah, well. If he is indeed enamored with me, then the task will be an easy one. If he is not, well, then it will simply require more effort on my end. It will not be the first time I’ve built something from nothing.
I do feel a bit of remorse for what I may do. Then again, I did not set the rules; I am merely a player in the game.
All’s fair in love and magic.
THOMAS
October 11, 1898
Mr. Wighton’s temper is something I have grown accustomed to while apprenticing for him over the past month. Why, after showing him the damage done to his specialty garments, I thought he would damage his vocal cords permanently. Screaming I can handle. Insults I can handle. Even the constant degradation—I have taken it all in stride. It was not until today that his abuse switched from verbal to physical.
Though he may be reckless, Neville is not an unintelligent man. Getting splayed across a row of chairs once was enough to change his methods when it came to practicing our grand finale. Rather than leaping out over the audience, he has been simply leaping stage left—a concept I am still struggling with. After five failed attempts, I was expecting his usual chorus of name-calling as he searched for new and creative ways to describe my uselessness, but he was silent. Dead silent.
Without even looking at me, he moved offstage to where