Kismet 2: Some Things You Will Never Understand
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It seems the thrill of playing with fate still remains. The lessons she should have learned from past mistakes mean nothing when her absent mother walks back into her life after 30 years, ready to rekindle a relationship that never existed. How long can Savannah expect to go on without fate coming back to haunt her? Will she ever realize that the apple didn’t fall far from the tree? The game she thinks she’s uniquely playing with life has an author of the same bloodline.
Kismet 2: Some Things You Will Never Understand picks up where the emotional rollercoaster ride of Kismet left off, except with more conflict and drama. Readers will feel an adrenaline rush from the erotic loops and free-falling drops of a bumpy romance like no other. Buckle up and hold on tight for this literary ride. Is it Karma or Kismet? You be the judge.
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Kismet 2 - Raynesha Pittman
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Prologue
I broke my ass to get a job at that depressing hospital to tend to Savannah’s crazy ass, and the only words she let come out of her mouth were, So, what made you decide to bring your ass back, Mama?
She didn’t waste her facial muscles on a fake smile. Nah, that would have been too generous of her, and I quickly learned generosity was missing from her character. It wouldn’t have killed her to have given me a weak embrace, or even a Thank you, Mama, for rushing back to be by my side during my time of need.
Or a peck on my cheek, but I guess that would have been expecting too much from her.
Her attitude and that raggedy-ass mouth confirmed that little heffa was my daughter without a doubt. That sass was a gift she had inherited from me, and she knew how to use it well without my help. I can’t lie; it was sort of funny to hear her talk shit seeing that she could barely say Mama when I left, and truthfully, I would have been in her ass too if the shoe were on the other foot. Knowing me, I probably would have punched her in the face and then called the police, saying she hit me.
I convinced myself to believe that everything would work out in my favor, and she’d welcome me back with open arms, but that’s not what happened. Savannah didn’t have a problem with bringing me back to the reality that I wasn’t shit for leaving, and I couldn’t blame her. It’s not like I was returning from deployment or had awakened from a coma and finally remembered who I was after twenty-nine years. I wasn’t expecting a hero’s welcoming with flowers and a welcome home sign. Why would I when my grown ass decided to walk out on her and her brother, Memphis, almost thirty years ago? I left because I wanted to and made sure not to take any of the baggage I accumulated from playing wife and mommy without looking back. I was so fucked up back then that I didn’t even think to send a Thinking of you
card or add them to my Christmas card mailing list. Yeah, that was cold-blooded.
Some might read this and call me foolish for ranting about my daughter’s reaction, but I am not a damn fool. I wasn’t looking for a happy reunion. I only hoped for a little respect, that’s all, and she didn’t have any to give.
Savannah doesn’t know where I’ve been or what I’ve been through while she’s been singing the songs of a motherless child while tormenting others, and, if she did, she wouldn’t have understood it anyway. You see, she thought the little shit that happened between her, Dre, the baby, and them other fools in California was something. Ha! That was prekindergarten playtime compared to the shit I’ve been through over the years, and if she’d let me in, I’d share some of my big-girl stories with her.
When I tell you I’ve been through some shit and am still standing to tell it, that’s only the surface of it. I’m a letterman jacket-wearing member of the high school graduating class of 1974, baby, and dick got me that jacket, not playing sports. I fucked to get who I wanted and what I wanted and didn’t feel any shame about it because I was numb to everything around me. I was in high school during the good weed-smoking and cocaine-experimenting years. You know, before weed had 420 chemicals and cocaine was cut with other shit to make it stretch. I smoked a joint or two with a little taste of cocaine in it, but everyone in those days did, and if they tell you they didn’t, you can tell them that Peaches said they’re a motherfucking liar, or pay me to keep them secrets to myself. It was the ’70s, baby, and we would party all night and get high.
This generation is the same way, but willing to experiment with more methods of getting high than we were. Instead of doing enough to get high, these fools are running around doing anything to get higher. Sniffing paint, taking anxiety medications. I even hear they found a way to get high from letting parasites suck on their bodies. It’s some crazy motherfuckas being born these days. Don’t get me wrong; we were crazy too but only crazy enough to experiment with the shit the government had already given us to use. However, that’s another story that I don’t have enough proof to tell, and I enjoy my freedom.
The point I’m trying to make is life was taken seriously back then. I became a woman during the sink-or-swim days, and drowning wasn’t an option. I’ve had to do a lot of shit that I’m not proud of just to ensure I’d still be here today. Even though my decisions broke my mother’s heart and disgraced my father’s name, I’m still here standing strong.
I didn’t return after all this time because loneliness or old age was kicking in like I’m sure one of them ignorant assholes is thinking. Being alone is the way I liked it. That meant no baggage or emotional ties holding me back. I came back for one reason alone, and that was because Dre asked me to. I don’t know his background story, but that man is a true bloodhound. How he tracked my scent, I’ll never know, but he was so sure that I was what Savannah needed for her rehabilitation. I heard him out, and I agreed to give it a try for reasons I don’t wish to share, but I can assure you, there isn’t one good feeling attached to it after spending time with her.
Being honest, I never thought Savannah’s witty ass would discover who I was without me sharing that information first. I asked Dre to allow me time to get to know my daughter before revealing my identity. He agreed; however, Savannah’s ass is smart. I won’t discredit her college education, but what I’m yearning to know is how good is she when it comes to detecting bullshit? That’s what I want to know because bullshit is my native tongue. Bullshit-ology is the subject I studied after high school, and I’m proud to say that I’ve obtained a doctorate in it.
It kills me to say this, but you win, Savannah, my beautiful, cutthroat daughter. I’m ready to answer your question. You asked me why I decided to come back. Well, here’s my answer. Take this as my cover letter that’s attached to my résumé that goes along with the application I’m putting in for the position of being your mama and a grandmother to your beautiful baby girl, Sade. I’m going to give you a glance at my mental diary, an inside peek at my shit, and it does stink! There will be no candy-coating or making shit sound better than what it really is or what it really was. I just hope the new, reformed you can handle the information you asked for, ’cause, damn it, you are going to get it!
If, after you get the answers you’ve been waiting for two point nine decades and decide not to let me back into your life, remember, there is a price to pay for every decision we make, and I’m the loan shark that’s coming to collect. In other words, don’t let your mouth write a check that your ass can’t cash because I’ll enjoy levying everything you got.
Please don’t forget, it’s my blood flowing through your veins. With that being said, know that what makes us happy can also make us sad. The same things we pride ourselves on may be the same things that cause our failure. You will learn soon, baby girl, that the apple didn’t fall far from the tree, and there isn’t a way to change from who we are, not even for a good man. You might as well tell Dre that I apologize because the puppy he’s fallen in love with is bred from a true bitch, and if I don’t get my way, I’m going to sink my teeth into your life and tear some shit up. Call it tough love!
Chapter One
Miss Me with It
Ain’t that about a bitch—the ho that donated her egg only to abandon me thinks I’m supposed to care that she has hurt sweltering in the bottom of her eyelids and etched across her sorry ass. This estranged mother of mine was back from who knows where, after all these years, and acts like I’m supposed to give God the glory for finally having her by my side. Bitch, why? Can someone please tell me when, what, who, why, and where in the hell people are doing that at because I didn’t get that notice, nor do I want it!
Hell nah, I wasn’t going to jump for joy that she was in my face and not under a missing person ad on the back of a milk carton—not after twenty-nine years of her being a missing-in-action mother, I wasn’t. She could miss me with that shit. Even if she felt moved to cry until bags of water formed under her eyes, she could drown in them for all I cared. I wouldn’t play lifeguard.
I told myself if she were ever to come back, no matter what her reason was for her leaving, I’d ball up my fist and knock the spit out of her mouth as she tried to explain. You know, get in a sucker punch when she least expected it that would rock her world. Now that she’s sitting in my face, within arm’s reach, I don’t feel the need to because the clown-ass bitch was pathetic.
For years I spent my nights dreaming of the day we’d meet, and those dreams had finally come true. I won’t play saint. I did get the urge to ball my fist when she introduced herself and knock her ass out cold before she could complete the sentence. After wanting to for so long, it was mandatory that I caused her some type of physical pain to match my feelings of growing up motherless, but those feelings must have temporarily been put on hold because of the kindness she showed me and my daughter, Sade. Her kindness not only bought her time to talk with me, but it also caused me short-term amnesia. When she asked me what my plans were after beating cancer, I couldn’t wait to tell her. I was under the impression that I was chitchatting with a cool-ass nurse that’s dealt with some shit.
I’m going to raise my daughter and my future stepson and give this family thing a real shot. It’s never been in me to be somebody’s wife or someone’s mother. I lived for me, and that didn’t work. So, I’m going to try something new and live for them.
I was feeling like every woman, whatever that meant, and that my words were truly a lioness’s roar. I saw something strange when I looked into her pathetic eyes. It was weakness and, since I disliked weak people, it forced me to pay attention to the weak shit I knew she was about to say.
That’s right, baby, take care of your family. It won’t work if the woman is weak and selfish. You got to put what you want to the side and get what is best for you all. You’re young, so it’s not too late to get back in them babies’ lives the way you should be. Once you leave them, a lot of times, you don’t get to come back, even when you beg to.
And I finally saw the truth.
It was like a light switch being turned on the way my amnesia went away, and the truth shined bright. Everything around me began to get clearer than it had been before. Hurt and anger from everything that happened in my life that I had decided to let go came speeding back. And, at first, I still didn’t know why, but, the longer I sat there staring at her, the clearer it became. I could see her dimples, the same dimples my daughter had, for the first time out of all her visits, and she said her name was Peaches because of her love for peach cobbler. Something about the way she said my favorite dessert made my stomach growl, and that’s what gave her ass away. I couldn’t believe that I was face-to-face with the sorry, two-legged dog that birthed me, and she had the nerve to give me a pep talk that she thought was good advice that included a lie about her begging to come back.
The bitch never begged me to come back, I thought, and Memphis had never mentioned anything to me about meeting her, so I had to ask, What made you decide to bring your ass back, Mama?
I’ve asked her that same question twice in the last ten minutes and haven’t received a response yet. She just grinned with those deep dimples of hers and stared at the ceiling like it would reveal the answer. There had to be something else wrong with me that the CAT scan didn’t find because I don’t know why the doctors aren’t removing my foot from her ass, but what I do know is she isn’t leaving this hospital room without telling me what made her decide to come back now!
I still don’t hear shit, and I know your mouth works. You run that motherfucka well. That’s how I knew who you were. Answer me!
Until now, she didn’t have a problem with running off at the damn mouth. I couldn’t pay her ass to shut up, but all of a sudden, she decided to turn mute. I don’t know who she thought she was dealing with, and I didn’t care. She had another ten seconds to answer my question before I jumped out of this hospital bed and gave her a reason to wish that she hadn’t returned. I don’t give a damn about her egg donation.
Trisha, Peaches, whichever you go by, I asked you a question. Or do I have to wait another three decades for the fucking answer? I didn’t ask or beg for you to come back, so what in the hell are you doing here, and most importantly, why?
I was still weak from the combination of medicines they had me on and sore from the waist down from surgery. It didn’t take a degree in pharmacology to know cancer medications and pain medicine didn’t mix, no matter what those doctors and their research said. However, even in my weakest moment, she had me feeling tough, and if she didn’t answer to my liking, I’d show her just how tough I was. The fucked-up part about it is that I knew her response would confirm, without a doubt, she was my mother. I had a feeling it would sound like something I would say with a lot more heat and wisdom behind it. That woman, or lack thereof, standing in front of me, returned the eye contact as her mouth opened.
Who in the fuck do you think you talking to, Savannah? You must be smelling your own shit and think you can say whatever it is you want to me; is that it? Let me tell you something, little girl, I’m going to answer your smart-ass question, but for me to do so, I’m going to need a teaspoon worth of respect from you. Not as your mother; that will come with time, I’m sure of it.
That woman was going straight to hell. Her devilish smile was nothing more than a boarding pass for her one-way trip. If I were spiritual, I would have prayed before she continued.
And only my close friends and makeshift family call me Peaches; you can call me Trisha since we don’t know each other. You don’t have to ask me again, smart-ass. I see you’re not ready to treat me like I’m your mother.
I smacked my lips as loud as I could and mumbled, Bitch, please!
at her words, but that didn’t stop her. She picked up right where she left off.
I will repeat that just in case you didn’t hear me over that stank-ass ego of yours! We don’t know each other, so we need to respect each other like we are two strangers meeting for the first time in the streets. Am I overstood? Because understanding ain’t never been good enough for me.
I liked her style already. Straight to the point and demanding, but she seemed to have forgotten she was on my time now.
"Yes, we have an understanding, Trisha, only if you remember my name is Savannah, not little girl, and surely not your little girl. I don’t have, want, or need any mothers in my life, stranger. This little make-your-wrongs-right session you have going on will work at my pace, so, don’t get comfortable with running the show. I’m the star in this drama, and having a costar ain’t never been good enough for me!"
We rolled our eyes at each other simultaneously, as if we planned it. Daytime soap operas’ hospital scenes didn’t have shit on what we were acting out in this room. If I weren’t a star in all of this, I’d love to be a nosy-ass fly on the wall to witness it.
Trisha leaned back in her gray, run-down hospital chair, turned her stare up to the ceiling where there was nothing besides the track lights that ran parallel in their dirty, off-white casting, and shook her head. I hated to have to admit, but she was beautiful. Everything on her face was proportioned to perfection, from the deep curves of her lips, the depth of her dimples, to the Asian-like slants of her dark brown eyes. My father was in his sixties; there was no way I was going to believe she shared his age. She didn’t look a day older than forty, especially not with her long, jet-black hair pushed back into a ponytail. Neither wrinkles nor stress lines had yet to touch her light brown face. Her skin tone resembled slightly darkened caramel shined with a bronze glow that reminded me of that first week of summer tint most women received from the sun. The scent that radiated from her skin was welcoming and relaxing. It wasn’t harsh on the nose like older women’s perfumes tended to be. There was something about her smell that reminded me of freshly baked sugar cookies, hot out of the oven. The alluring scent filled my body with warmth and comfort, causing my mouth to shut, and allowing my nose to do all my breathing.
To sum Trisha up, she looked like a childless woman with no cares in the world. Even her Coke-bottle shape that seeped through her white and pink scrubs gave me more reason to protest her age. Her small, ringless hands and average-sized feet gave the impression that she had never worked a day of manual labor in her life. Checking out the flawless woman who sat in front of me pissed me off even more.
Any day now,
I said, so she could snap out of whatever it was she was thinking about. The sooner she answered my question meant the sooner she could get out of my face. If my imperfection caused her to leave me as a child, why would she allow it to be the reason she came back? I needed to know.
Savannah, I’m sure Dwight has given you his side of the story. All I ask is that you listen to mine. I wanted to come back and tried many times, but your father, he just wouldn’t let me, honey.
Oh no, she didn’t, I thought. If she thought she was going to put any blame on my daddy in that fake-ass, loving mother voice she was trying to use, she had another think coming. I sat up as tall as I could for a woman who just had a hysterectomy earlier that day and said, "You need to tell your story without shifting any blame on my daddy, or you can get your shit and leave like you normally do. I want to hear your side, without your fingers pointing at anyone because, at the end of the day, you’re the one who did all the wrong, so cut the shit, Trisha. I speak and comprehend bullshit fluently. Now, am I overstood?"
She had the nerve to give me a crooked smile before she said, I had to see who I was dealing with. Forgive me.
"Trisha, I’m not that bitch, nor is this the time you’d want to test me. You can go ahead and answer the question or get the fuck out. How’s that for showing you some respect? Talk or walk!"
She began laughing like the shit was funny. Oowee, if looks could kill, I’d be cremated. You’re more like me than I thought. I guess I was wrong, and you can handle the truth given to you straight. After hearing about all the crazy shit you did in California, you just might understand it too.
Her laugh, which had gradually changed into a smile, turned into a shame-on-you type of head nod. She eased back into her chair to get comfortable once again.
This was a game to her. I wanted to call her a bitch badly and tell her to get the fuck out of my face for attempting to lie to me after all these years, but I bit my tongue to show respect to the mother I didn’t know. I couldn’t believe she nodded her head in shame at me without hearing my side of what happened in California, and why did I care that she had? Who was she in the first place to judge me for my act of revenge on my childhood enemies anyway? In a way, the drama that unfolded in California was all her fault, if you think about it. I was made fun of for being boyish and had to move away from California after high school to get away from hearing my name in a sentence with the words dyke
or lesbian.
I smoked two ounces of weed a week, some weeks, even more, to help deal with the torment I went through growing up motherless.
My father and uncles tried their best to make me as ladylike as possible, but a man can’t teach a girl how to become a woman. That’s what a mother is there for, but I wasn’t lucky enough to have guidance from my mother. She ran out on the one responsibility she owed me, and it shows in everything I do. Just look at me, now engaged to a college-educated drug dealer named Andre, who I only knew for a week before he went to jail. I’m sure if I had a mama around, she would have taught me better than to settle for this shit.
Dre, as he preferred to be called, was a one-night stand that went all the way wrong. I don’t do serious relationships, but I fucked up and got pregnant by him after that one-night stand turned into five days of amazing, backbreaking, leg-shaking, and knee-knocking sex.
I do have to give Dre his props; that man knows his way around a woman’s body with no map or GPS needed. I have never been one of those women who instantly fall in love with a man just because I’ve slept with him and the dick was superb. Sex was nothing more to me than a way to release built-up energy like exercise. If it took more than one machine to exercise my entire body at the gym, it would take more than one