Four White Horses and a Brass Band: True Confessions from the World of Medicine Shows, Pitchmen, Chumps, Suckers, Fixers, and Shills
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Violet McNeal
Violet was only 16 when she was introduced to opium and the secrets of selling "medicine" from the back of a torch-lit wagon.
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Four White Horses and a Brass Band - Violet McNeal
CHAPTER ONE
MAKING MEDICINE
BEDBUGS DECIDED MY FATE and changed the pattern of my life.
Quite a few things influenced it, of course, before the bedbugs took over. There were the farm, which I hated, and the dark handsome lady from Minneapolis, and the books by Bertha M. Clay¹. But it was rebellion against the biting of the bedbugs in a St. Paul tenement that led me finally to Will, whose brain had been tainted by the devil. The bedbugs and a two-line newspaper want ad opened the door to the fabulous world of medicine shows.
It was a swashbuckling world, peopled by a few geniuses and a great many rascals. It was a world in which the romance of the four corners of the world could be found in the flame of the pitchman’s gasoline torch. The torches are gone, but the names they led to fame are not. Silk Hat Harry, Prince Nanzetta, Brother John, and Hal the Healer are only a few.
I had never encountered a bedbug when in 1904 I took the train from our little town, bound for St. Paul. I was sixteen years old. My parents believed I intended merely to visit a friend during a Fourth of July celebration. I knew when I mounted the high iron steps of the day coach I was never going back.
Taking the trip had meant scrimping for months. We had always been poor, and everyone in our family had to work at home or work out. I refused to do housework. I loathed washing dishes and cleaning rooms, so I had got a job copying documents at the courthouse.
Most of my work, for which I received fifty cents a day on Saturdays and school holidays, was done in the vaults. My boss was a middle-aged man with baggy pants and a scraggly gray mustache. I thought he was loathsome-looking. He had a habit of patting my shoulder or accidentally touching my hands. I could stand that, thinking of the greasy dishes I would have to wash if I quit. But one day in the vault he put his hand against the bosom of my dress. I slapped his face and left.
Hurrying home, I told my father. He called me a liar and said the man was married and wouldn’t do such a thing. It was clear I would have to get another job, so I undertook to mislead my folks and plan my own life. The first move was to write a letter to my friend in St. Paul, asking her to invite me up for the celebration.
At that time I was half child, half woman, and what I longed for most was love and approval. I had not received much attention at home, as my younger sister had diabetes. When company came they always brought presents and exclaimed consolingly over her. I was healthy as a pig and used to stand in the background, longing for someone to notice me.
I used to end my prayers every night with the words, Please, God, make me sick like Sister.
To me she was the luckiest person in the world. She always caught every disease that came along. I didn’t altogether depend on God to make me sick. When my sister came down with the whooping cough I sneaked into her room at night and got her to blow her breath in my face. I tried to catch the chickenpox from her, but I couldn’t even catch a cold.
The only time people noticed me as a child was when I made them cry at prayer meetings. I was honestly religious. I went to church, Sunday school, and Epworth League² meetings. I had a good contralto voice and was always asked to sing Come Unto Me
at revival meetings. I sang it with such feeling that the congregation would begin to weep and come to the altar. I got a kick out of that, as much because it was I, Vi, making them cry as because they were saved. I was quite an exhibitionist. I took music lessons, and my teacher always had me play the duet with her on recital days. No sniveling or forgetting for me. I always performed best before the largest audiences. I believed in heaven and hell, and my life was patterned accordingly.
In those days girls married early. Nearly all of my relatives and friends had married at sixteen; a girl of nineteen was an old maid, and a woman of thirty was an ancient crone. If we were good girls our beaux could go just so far in their petting. Hugging and kissing by the hour were allowed, but just let them go too far and we would remind them we were good girls, and if they didn’t behave we would tell Papa. I firmly believed I must go to heaven a virgin if I died, and to my husband a virgin if I lived. I got on that day coach to St. Paul with fewer fears for my future than I have crossing a highway today.
At home we had three or four books written by Bertha M. Clay, and I read them many times. Invariably the beautiful farm girl was seen by some rich man who fell in love with her virtue and beauty and married her, despite opposition. If she didn’t know her knives and forks, so to speak, he provided the proper instruction. All went well, and they lived happily ever after. The fade-out revealed the grandparents and three or four grandchildren playing happily on the lawn.
I was sure I was beautiful, and I knew I was virtuous. I was going to a town where there must be many rich men, so if I could just eat long enough, one of them was sure to lay his hand and fortune at my feet. In the meantime, I would get a job.
My girlfriend had a job cooking free lunch in the back of a saloon—a fact I hadn’t mentioned to my parents. Also, I had a card in my pocket. It was from a lady, dark and very striking, who had come to our town the previous summer. She stayed at the hotel and talked to the young girls. Before she left she gave me and two other girls a card and told us we could make lots of money in Minneapolis. If we got tired of the old home town, she told us, we were to look her up and we would have a job at once.
The train ride seemed endless. I must have gone to the ice-water tank and into the toilet dozens of times. I combed my hair and tried to make myself look more dreamy-eyed—someone had called me his dreamy-eyed sweetheart once, and I had tried to live up to it from then on. I had some cornstarch in an envelope, and I put a little on my face.
What scared me most on my first glimpse of St. Paul was the number of people, but my friend found me without any trouble. We took my little grip to her home on St. Peter Street. It was the tenement district, but I didn’t know it. She and her parents lived in three tiny rooms, with the bath in the outside hall, but the constricted establishment looked as grand as a mansion.
First of all I had to see the town. We walked miles and miles and looked in all the store windows. It seemed like a fairy world. I saw the different things, but still it didn’t seem possible they could be there. We went home for supper, and my feet hurt. I took off my shoes, and my feet were blistered. Walking on cement wasn’t as easy as walking on board sidewalks. Ada told me her fellow and a friend he was bringing were going to take us to a dance at the amusement park that night. The blisters ceased to matter. I soaked my feet, we primped up, and the men came. To my delight they were dressed in the blue uniforms of the Spanish-American War. I had never seen soldiers in uniform before. I thought they were wonderful, and at the very least must run the whole Army.
We rode out on the streetcar, with the soldiers’ arms resting on the back of the seat and lightly on our shoulders. Even the park entrance was a wonderland to me, with all the electric lights and such sweet music sounding in the air. We had pop and lemonade and played some games, but the merry-go-round was my meat. The only time I had seen one was when a carnival had come to our home town. We got on and rode to celestial music. After two or three rides the others wanted to go, but I didn’t. I could have stayed on that merry-go-round until I died. When we finally got to the dance hall my sore feet were forgotten. We danced until the last car left, and I was certain I had never lived before.
Ada and I went to bed. About two o’clock in the morning I woke up with things crawling and biting all over me. I turned back the covers and saw a multitude of little bugs crawling through the bed. I woke Ada and asked her what they were.
Bedbugs. Don’t pay any attention to them.
She rolled over and went back to sleep.
I tried sleeping on the floor. They followed me. I woke Ada again and asked her if they had them every night. She said yes, it was impossible to get rid of them. Right then and there the bedbugs made my great decision for me. I had to find a job and get out of there.
We got up early the next morning and went down to the saloon where Ada cooked the free lunch in a back room. She explained, but I couldn’t understand how anyone could make money when so much food was given away. The saloonkeeper was a fat and jolly man who teased us about our beaux. Eat all you want, girls,
he invited. My conception of saloonkeepers as villains vanished. To me they were all jolly and gave you lots to eat.
We took the streetcar to Minneapolis to look up the dark lady who had promised me a job. Ada had something else to do, so I inquired and found the address. I was a little surprised to discover it was a theater, but, so far as I was concerned, a theater was a theater, and I supposed it was like the opera house in my home town. I bought a ticket for fifteen cents and went in, expecting to see the lady inside. I sat down in one of the back seats.
A funnily dressed man was talking on the stage, and when he finished a lot of young pretty girls came out. To my horrified eyes they appeared to be naked, except for a little skirt and some little things over their breasts. And of all things, they had hats on, as if they were going someplace. I blushed harder than I ever had in my life, ashamed and humiliated at being in such a terrible place. My mother had told me she had never undressed in front of my father, and my sister and I turned our backs to each other when we undressed for bed. I was ashamed of my naked body, although when I was dressed up in long skirts I was proud if someone told me I had a swell shape.
Frightened and beginning to cry, I hurried to the door of the theater. I was afraid I would be stopped and forced to live a life of shame. No one stopped me or even seemed to notice me. I was scared to death, but I wasn’t ready to quit. I was still determined not to go home but to get a job and become grand and noble and rich.
Ada was mildly scornful. Probably all they had wanted, she said, was to have me dance like the other girls. She said she wished she weren’t so fat and had my chance. We discussed my whole problem, and it was she who decided I must investigate the want ads. I pored over them the next morning. There was only one that seemed to fit me. It read: Wanted, an office girl. One with some knowledge of stenography preferred. Apply at 10 A.M.
The address was an office building on a prominent corner in St. Paul.
The next morning at ten o’clock I was there. I opened the door lettered Remedy Co.
and walked in. A big homely Swedish girl told me to sit down. My heart sank as I looked around. About ten other girls were waiting. It seemed to me they were dressed in the height of fashion. I couldn’t see where I stood a chance. I was dressed in a white lawn shirt-waist and a gray linen skirt with a ruffle around the bottom that came to my feet. My stockings had been knit by my mother, and I had on country shoes. My petticoat was made of flour sacks, and my most intimate piece of underwear had XXX’s across the seat. We could boil out the Pillsbury’s Best,
but the XXX’s were there to stay.
Thinking of my sleepless nights with the bedbugs made me decide to wait. A little later a small dark man came in. He didn’t look like any man I had ever seen before. He had black hair and hazel eyes and was smooth-shaven. He had beautiful white delicate hands. He wasn’t built strong like the country men and boys I had known, but still he looked to me as if he could do more things than anyone I had ever known. He wore a blue-and-white-checkered velvet vest and gray-striped trousers and a long-tailed coat and a diamond as big as a hazelnut in a blue tie. He was the most gorgeous man I had ever met. He gave a quick look around at us all. He pointed to me and said:
Young lady, come in here.
I followed him into a small office.
Are you looking for a job?
Yes, sir.
Where do you live?
I told him I had just come from Iowa and was stopping with a friend.
The wages are five dollars a week to start,
he said.
I told him I was satisfied. He went to the door and told the other girls to go, that he had hired me. He talked to me a few minutes longer, and then told me to come back at ten o’clock the next morning. I didn’t walk out; I rolled out on a pink cloud. I had a job with a handsome boss who wore beautiful clothes. The diamond in his tie might as well have been a piece of glass; it didn’t indicate a thing. But that checkered vest meant riches and grandeur.
Before ten o’clock the next morning I was hanging around the hall outside the office. When I went in, the Swedish girl knocked on a door and my boss came in. He took me into another room furnished like a parlor, except that at one side was a broad couch. There were two pillows on the couch, and in the middle of it was a lovely black wooden tray. On the tray was a copper lamp with a round globe, not very tall, that shone dimly. Beside the lamp was a black sponge on a dish, a needle which resembled a knitting needle, and some unfamiliar tools and little boxes.
I noticed, in an offhand way, that my boss’s face was peculiarly pale. In my eyes he was an old man, about forty; but, oddly enough, that made no difference whatever. Something about him completely absorbed me. He was short, no more than five feet five inches tall, and weighed about a hundred and thirty-five pounds. Not only his jaw, which was the most solid and determined imaginable, but also some indefinable quality about him expressed exceptional power. His voice was low and compelling. It was a melodious, pipe-organ sort of voice. When you heard it you wanted to believe it and do what it told you to do.
Young lady, can you be trusted?
he asked.
I assured him I could be.
I am a famous doctor,
he said, and listening to him was like being in church. I have made a wonderful discovery which will cure consumption. Others are trying to steal this discovery, so you must never let anyone in this room or speak to them of it. I am going to let you help me manufacture the medicine.
I had never been so proud in my life. My heart swelled as if it would burst. I could hardly breathe. It seemed almost like a fairy tale that a great doctor would trust me with his secret. At that moment my blind, unreasoning adoration for Will began. I would have died to defend him or his secret. I promised him I would never disclose it.
Thank you, my child,
he said, and the touch of his voice was like the delicate stroke of fingers on my forehead.
He lay down beside the tray on the couch and told me to lie down across from him. He took up the long needle and dipped it into one of the little boxes which contained what looked like black molasses. He cooked the needle’s tip over the lamp for a time, shaping the black substance into a small pill. Then he picked up a slender ivory tube about two feet long. Screwed into the tube about a third of the way from one end was what resembled a dirty dark doorknob. He stuck the pill over a little hole in the doorknob and started to inhale and blow out smoke. Then he showed me how to do it.
After the first three or four puffs I began to get dizzy. The smoke got down into my lungs. I choked and coughed. He watched me with fatherly concern. I was afraid that, asked to do the simplest thing in the world, I was failing and that he would discharge me.
Are you all right?
he asked.
Yes,
I said. I like it.
I went into another fit of coughing. My stomach began to reel. The smoke didn’t smell like the smoke from my father’s pipe or the smoke from our kitchen stove or the smoke from fires we had built to clean up debris in the yard. There was a sweetish taste to it.
Perhaps you had better stop for this time,
he said.
I don’t want to stop,
I said. I took one more puff. The walls of the room began spinning. I laid the pipe down. His face looked like two faces mixed up together.
Never mind,
he said. That’s the way it is at first. You’ll get used to it.
I put my head on the pillow and fought to keep my stomach from turning inside out. He smoked again for a time and then unscrewed the doorknob, picked up another tool, and scraped some dry stuff out of the bowl. He put this in a box, saying: This is the medicine. It’s worth five hundred dollars a pound, so be very careful of it.
My duties seemed to consist entirely of making this medicine with him and answering a few personal letters. Gradually I got over being sick when I smoked. I began to look forward to it. No matter how tired I was, I always felt rested after we had smoked a little while. Things I had been worrying about didn’t seem important. I felt there was nothing in the world I couldn’t do if I chose to get up off the couch and do it. I felt completely satisfied and flooded with quiet happiness.
Two or three days after I went to work the doctor told me I must have some new clothes. He would select them, he told me, and I could pay him back out of my wages. When we walked into a department store my new life began. It became a combination of Alice in Wonderland, Cinderella, and a huge Christmas tree with all the presents marked Vi.
And the man I was working for represented Santa Claus, God, and the Count of Monte Cristo rolled into one.
He took me first to the corset department and asked for a Lily of France corset. Never before or since has anything given me the feeling of grandeur that corset did. At the time I was wearing a funny makeshift thing which had been washed so many times the horn buttons had turned a deep yellow. The doctor told the saleslady to fit me with corset, underwear, and silk stockings. When it came to undressing in front of her I balked, but she said I would have to be fitted. After she had got the garments on my squirming body she produced a silk underskirt that made a noise like kicking tissue paper when I walked. I was torn between admiring myself in the mirror and walking so as to get the most noise out of my underskirt.
When the bill came and the doctor started to pay it I was dreadfully upset.
It’s more than I can ever pay you back,
I said miserably.
My child,
he said, you’re such a help to me I’m going to raise your wages.
I was easily persuaded to keep the clothes. It seemed to me I had never met anyone so good and kind. He never tried to put his hands on me, and he called me his child
or his dear child.
He never asked me to stay in the office evenings, but the night of the clothes-buying expedition he invited me to go to a circus with him. It was my first circus and represented all the glories of the world combined. I shivered with terror when the animals growled at their trainers; the people on the flying trapeze were angels floating in the air.
A day or so later the doctor took Anna, the Swedish office girl, and me to dinner at one of the best restaurants in St. Paul. Never having been in such a place before, I was confused and bashful. He ordered, and the waiter brought me half a broiled chicken, French-fried potatoes, salad, and peas. I sat there, not touching a thing, but looking longingly at it.
Aren’t you hungry?
he asked at last.
Yes,
I said. But what piece of chicken can I have?
In the most kindly way imaginable he explained it was all for me. Reassured, I devoured everything in sight. Quantity was what I wanted in those days, where food was concerned. I was always hungry.
That first week I always felt important, too. All I did was lie on the couch and smoke the funny pipe with the doctor. We took turns smoking, and I was supremely proud to be helping him. He talked to me and asked what I thought about marriage, love, the Bible, and other subjects. He was the first person who had ever been interested in my opinions; it was a delight to present my views and be listened to with such respect. I loved him for so many things. He was as glamorous to me as a movie star would be to a country boy. He was always clean-shaven, and his hair had a nice smell. His fingers were slender and deft. The country boys I had kept company with had hard callused hands, and they always smelled of sweat or the stables. Even to a girl who took her weekly bath in a wooden washtub they were offensive.
That week the doctor paid me ten dollars and gravely took back two dollars as the first installment on my clothes. He also asked me to go out to Lake Como with him on Sunday. I would have crawled miles on my hands and knees if it had meant being with him. We rented a boat and rowed slowly around the lake. I trailed my hand in the water, and he sang to me. The water made his soft rich voice even more thrilling. I silently thanked God for being so good to me.
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