Molecricket
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Molecricket - Nick May
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Man born of woman is of few days and full of trouble. Our farm, which spanned a great stretch of County Road 1 northwest to Indian River, was in disarray, and I reckoned since it was tended to by men, it must have also shared his fate. My fate. One I had grown slowly more accustomed to since my blighted day of birth, twelve years before. All my friends were born in war; made to greet an earth that moaned and groaned and grit its teeth. We were all just waiting around to see which way God was going to take us—whether it be by famine or by sword—while in the meantime, we worshipped him.
We were probably doing something closer to playing God than worshipping him when my older brother, Aaron, and I went on that killing spree. But in our defense, we were also trying to protect ourselves from what those creatures would inevitably become. Aaron said those caterpillars were going to turn into mole crickets right fast if we didn’t kill them quick. He said the fields would be in for the hell beating of a lifetime before long. Now, I wasn’t too keen on the evolutions of insects and what turned into what as much as he was. Aaron had gone to Miss Melba’s science class at the Indian River School about once a week since he turned eleven or twelve, and I figured he had come to know as much as she did by then. Regardless, I had seen the hell a mole cricket could wreak on a field left undefended, and it wasn’t pretty.
We reasoned that if we didn’t get those caterpillars slaughtered before Easter, the horses weren’t going to have shit to eat or make for the rest of springtime. We would have to move them to the hay reserves before school let out. We would be out of luck before Thanksgiving, and the horses would be dead by Christmas. Aaron and I thus decided to fashion up a handsome mess of leaf boats; a dang armada of right fine ships to carry the slaughtered carcasses of those caterpillars down the ditch that ran along County Road 1. Hell of a somber sight that was, but we had to do it. Then before you knew it, there we were, sitting on top of dead leaves on top of sand however many weeks after we had done the deed, and there wasn’t a single horse or head of bovine left in the entire county (save for on our farm). Everywhere we went, it was like Aaron and I had called down the plagues of the Exodus on Indian River, by the way folks looked at us. No one had ever seen anything like what happened. For every caterpillar we killed, damned if there weren’t ten mole crickets that popped up in its place, and all I heard from all those angered souls in all those cold sweat dreams was Thanks for nothin’, Moses Cotton ...
Of course, it wasn’t a thing at all if not the rash attempt of a couple boys to flex their misguided belief in their own situational omnipotence, but God is not mocked, and we worshipped him with all the more sincerity after that.
A wicked people, destined for wicked tidin’s,
Pastor Obis would say, slamming his great ape hand down on his Word like a brimstone gavel calling a case in the courts of Hell. He was more than intent on the reason for our plight being the sinful indulgences of someone (or everyone), without ever implicating his own parish. That warm blanket of ignorance cast over our family and others during those regular encounters was enough to keep suspicions elsewhere. I even warmed up to it myself sometimes and felt glorious and treacherous all at once. Anonymity was a pitched tent on a perilous slope. Aaron didn’t seem to care much either way. He thought Obis was horse shit.
Aaron’s god was the god of indifference. His pastor and parish—brooding solitude. He wasn’t devoid of his own pleasures, though. And he paid real dear for them from time to time. Aaron would go run off at night every now and again for a bit of fun with his cohorts (the few of them that were too young to die in the jungle), and they would get to wandering up the road, drinking and throwing dice. Well, he would get his fill of that and come back just before the sun would come up, drunker than hell and smelling like a latrine. Momma would be waiting real patient for him right there on the porch. She would have been sitting there since the witching hour, intent on reaching that euphoric rage, induced by the look on his face when he would come stumbling up the red clay drive to see her sitting there in the moonlight like a black banshee queen. It always started with a beating. It ended in fable.
I never heard as much as a peep from Aaron about what occurred after Momma would drag him off—both of them pissed as snakes—into the woods of the back pasture. I only knew as far as I could imagine about what went on out there, but thanks to Momma’s own bit of ongoing ghastly folklore, there wasn’t anything too hard to believe. One story she told on occasion still creeped the bejesus out of me. There was a narrow corridor, strewn in length with pine needles, and ages deep. It started in the young tree line at the base of the back pasture and drove a darkening spike, straight and true, all the way into the planted trees of the mill lands and beyond. To a place where eyes could no longer tell its integrity but could assume it must carry on that way for years into some other realm or untouched civilization.
Neither of us was man enough to go and venture too far down it after learning where Momma claimed it led. Momma had employed this device early on, saying a man lived deep in the woods at the end of the path; a man of terrible power who would judge our sins and hand out punishment with ruthless and unbiased appointment. Aaron would return from those late nights and early mornings looking red as a dog’s dick and far too docile. I would eye him down and he would pretend not to see me. He would never tell me where they had gone to, but I had my bets.
Far as The Man in the Woods, I had hoped he was just a metaphor for penitence. Maybe he was something like Daddy’s gargoyle; this old chewed up monster doll that looked like he would fit right nice way up a mile high on one of those Nazi churches across the sea. Daddy kept it sitting eye-level on the front pasture gatepost to remind the brothers and sisters to close up the fence behind them. It worked, and so did The Man in the Woods, but my brother was born bent on subversion, so it didn’t much matter how authentic Aaron thought (or knew) he was. If The Man in the Woods was real, Aaron had met Him.
When Aaron and I were lucky enough to stray our minds from those proper nightmare yarns that Momma liked to spin, we were farming. That was most recently representative for making preparations to put a roof on the new barn, the front end of which was catty-cornered to our tin-roofed house, and faced south to County Road 1. Our house shared the same view facing west as the road cut a diagonal border between our farm and ten or so other houses tip-toeing into Indian River, bringing our front pasture to a sharp point all those acres out. Though the great and mighty structure of the new barn was without a cover, Daddy hadn’t been reluctant to fill it prematurely with the remaining horses of those who were in good standing with their debts. Truth be told, Aaron and I figured he was just anxious to make good use of the space. I liked to imagine the man, Noah, acting in a similar way with his creatures years before his vessel was completed, shuffling about, aiming desperately to position rhinos and penguins inside unfinished stall spaces with only one or two sides, just to get a picture of how it should look. Sometimes, if I squinted my eyes tight as I could while still leaving enough space to see, I could almost picture we were building an ark of our own out there in front of the house.
The walls of the barn itself had been raised some years before. I was five or so, which seemed to be long enough ago to turn those once freshly hewn and cured pine panels to a neglected shade of sun-sapped gray. It was an image, when held against the multicolor, striped canvas backdrop of the old barn just to its right and rear, that testified of its own adventitiously spurned youth. The old barn had gone its entire lifespan without the requisite manual labor of an applied tin roof. For some reason, the austerity of the ancient edifice was broken only by a stretched canvas roof with ranks of faded color. I had inquired of Daddy why it looked so queer and he swore not to know, claiming it was there since before him, but it was most certainly the reason he, alas, decided to build the new one. Now a good half-decade older, that pale, roofless structure of the new barn had—by overzealous adoption—become the town square of our farm, and by extension, the center of Indian River itself.
On any given day, one could easily expect to find an array of miscellaneous townsfolk milling about the property, doing business they might just as well perform elsewhere, but instead preferred to do on the farm. All manner of enterprise would present itself; from trading produce, buying and selling horses, land and automotive parts, borrowing Daddy’s tools to repair a saddle or sharing outside gossip with the brothers and sisters (who never seemed to complain, given their exclusive lack of social intercourse).
Marlin’s taken to fillin’ his store with more of them bewitched sundries, the way he did durin’ the drought.
Prophet’s name! That man’s draggin’ us all to hell!
Potions and demonic heirlooms. Filth!
There would be an audible hum and buzz of conversation amongst the unfinished barn and lands as early as six in the morning, when familiar trucks would come gargling up the red clay drive past the main gate, which was always left open and, as a result, had become permanently overgrown with foliage and weathered to an end that made its extended arm an indefinite fixture, welcoming patrons both warmly and hospitably for all time.
At least once a month, a couple of poor souls would come traversing through the gate to perform a type of rather non-conventional trade; a trade of spirit. We were nothing close to Catholic, but Pastor Obis (who had moved onto the farm ten years ago with his daughter, Sarah, after becoming a widow man), seemed to do a great deal of pardoning people of their various transgressions. They would come across the threshold of that unlikely parsonage just the same as any other sad patron in need of maintenance or good news or companionship, while unknowingly seeking absolution. And they often found it at Obis’ camp, just beyond the faded rainbow of the old barn, where he and his sweet daughter originally dwelt alone.
Over the years, those souls would stumble onto the farm, sometimes having heard a preacher lived there; sometimes knowing nothing at all. They would descend on that place—always in twos—as haplessly as downy flake, innocently devoid of any knowledge of their own depravity. But in as oft an instance as any actual flakes or shake of snow had ever befallen that farm since the beginning of the world (which was never since I’d had eyes to see it), and in as common a case as any of that cold manna had ever seen fit to stick to our afflicted piece of earth, so was the number of those compelled to stay.
The Lord had seen fit to bring us eight, not including Daddy, Momma, Aaron or me. I wasn’t privy to know exactly what it was that stayed their interest in our farm, or our God, but, according to Obis, Daddy and Momma, they were our brothers and sisters, and we weren’t to treat them any different. I hadn’t ever expressed it to anyone at all, but it always puzzled me a spell that Daddy’s natural disposition hadn’t ever quite matched his implicit standard of benevolence. In damn near all other realms of his life and practices, to the utmost of his being, every bit of his person painted him a man of little patience, especially with the likes of beggars and heathens. Yet for all his pedantic inclinations, there could be found within him—in the most unexpected of all times—an unabashed charity for such people.
Most recently it had been Mattie and Kenzie. They were kin to each other; twin brother and sister in their twenty-somethings. They had come to the farm, flaming red-haired orphans with a propensity for labor. Despite their apparent differences, it was right hard to tell them apart from a good ways off. They were both hearty creatures, and one was definitely weightier than the next, but you couldn’t ever quite tell which. They were often more reserved than the rest of the brothers and sisters but commanded a startling efficiency between the two of ‘em.
Just prior to that had come Ms. Dottie and Walter. Both of which were somewhere between eighty-five and ninety, if I had to wager. They weren’t at all kin to one another but were both elderly and arrived in tandem, which sometimes gave the impression that they were either relative or nuptial. The truth was, however, that they weren’t even friends. Dottie, a seasoned but cold woman, often spent untold hours sitting beside the dinner table in our house with Momma and whoever, spinning bitter words about Walter and claiming him to be a fool. On top of that, she never missed a chance to say how loose Sarah Obis was, neither.
Just look at the way she parades that harlot’s body of hers in front of the men; with her breasts proud and her legs unfurled. By the Prophet, it’s a wonder they don’t use her to hold train cars together on the River Line,
she would say while doing a crossword, looking mild as ever and twice as sweet with her blue hats, her Sunday dresses, and her powder-soft wrinkles.
Walter might have been the complete and polar contradiction of the woman and her assertions of him. A thin, bald man and hard of hearing, he spent the better part of his days outdoors, patiently moving his seat in mid-sentence to be as close to Pastor Obis as possible. He was given to desperate attempts at holding conversations despite his near deafness. His words came loudly from a collapsed and toothless void that opened and closed furiously behind a thick curtain of coarse white hair, which, with every stuttered word, would rise and fall like the pistons of a speeding automobile.
Before them, it was Mamie. The only one to arrive on her own, Ms. Mamie was rounding forty-five in a fashion that made her look twenty years more. She was a robust woman and her hair was characteristic of a plain blonde Palomino tail, ponied in the back with a kerchief tied above, the way one might describe a Mennonite or someone from Amish country. She had devout faith in two things; God and Momma. She never left Momma’s side since the start of her impressively static residency there on our farm. It reminded me of myself and how I had become with Aaron. Maybe that’s why Mamie had always seen fit to curb my behavior before Momma ever could; cause she knew we were near about the same in emotional constitution, and because she knew Momma.
Second to come along were the cousins, Bill and Silas. They were discovered one night while having a spit just down the road. Daddy had heard cussing and carrying on so loud it woke him from sleep, which was a dang champion accomplishment. At first he suspected it might be Aaron. When it turned out to be the thick-built, fuzzy-headed, near-midget Bill and his younger, taller, and more awkwardly handsome cousin, Silas, Daddy attempted everything he could to get them to quit it. Turned out they were arguing about where to look for work. They were supposedly the sole supporters of their laid up set of mutual grandparents. Anyways, Daddy saw fit to bring them on the farm just to get them to quit hollering and carrying on. I often wondered if Bill and Silas weren’t just a couple confidence men who got lucky on us with a well-rehearsed act. Didn’t much matter to Daddy. He didn’t pay them shit, and they were strong as a team of pissed oxen. They never spoke once more about their grandparents though.
The first to come and make their home amongst us, as I previously said, were Pastor and Sarah Obis. Pastor, who was easy half a hundred if he was five, was of course, a devout Wesleyan creature, mild in manner with a stern disposition and the large but well-manicured body of a right portly man. His black hair, which levied the sides of his prominent bald head, was wet-combed at the start of each day, and his glasses, two yellowed circles perched low on his nose bridge, were more decorative than serving in any practical way. A widowed man, he had known Daddy since boyhood.
His daughter, Sarah, was often saved for last in conversation, just as a sweet drink is savored slowly after hard labor and a good meal. She was the capstone of every man’s daily toil. The rising steam from warm earth after heavy rain. She was never a day over eighteen, dark-complected and handsome in the face. Her body, horselike; long and muscular. Her chocolate mane fell from her head and poured over her square shoulders in every direction. Her breasts stood suspended and round, newly filled, in young skin—like clouds collecting rain but not yet pouring. They were immense, nearly ripened; desperate to be picked but still green and likely sour. She spoke not with her mouth, but with her eyes; black and green, like oil on the surface of dark water. All any man knew of her was desire, for none had breached the embattled walls of her truest soul. None dared approach the citadel of her father, lest they be killed with arrows.
The truth was, just as a woman under siege will eventually break, so a man’s full retreat can often fail to thwart the advance of many lines. In the case of Aaron and Sarah Obis, I had witnessed the unthinkable on a daily basis. Aaron didn’t give a whore’s wages about girls then. I would watch how the two of them interacted with one another. She would come up on him as he worked and tap him real kind on the shoulder. He would barely turn enough to signal he wasn’t interested, then she would march off into the pasture embarrassed as hell. And rightly so. Sarah Obis wasn’t used to hearing no
from men; especially ones that were younger than she. Boy, was she sweet on him, though. Even still.
As soon as Bill and Silas showed up, Pastor Obis had asked Daddy for his blessing to build a habitation on our land for others who might also come wandering. The modest camp he had previously prepared for himself and Sarah wasn’t anything but a fancy lean-to set amidst several clothes lines and a small fire. It was an embarrassing establishment, even for farmers, and it wouldn’t fit anyone else comfortably. So in yet another of Daddy’s unforeseen spells of philanthropy, he agreed and even offered to help. Together they fashioned up something at the top of the back pasture that looked like a hanger for midget planes. That was where they all lived together; the brothers and sisters. It was a simple accommodation, from what I had seen of the inside. There weren’t any real walls save for the two half moons at the front and rear, and a third wall that fell lazily across them in a half-orbital fashion. It was a long building with rows and rows of bunk beds and a simple floor made from shipping pallets. Daddy had procured the design from the Army or Navy or whatever branch he had been a part of. Apparently he had stayed in something like one before his discharge. As for the building, we had just taken to calling it the bunker
.
Our own dwelling was nothing, save for an off-grade, ranch-style wooden structure boasting one level, a half-collapsed roof, and no shade given from nearby trees to protect it or us from the sun’s spite (it did at least have four square walls). Daddy had thought more than once about having it bricked, especially after coastal storms paid hell to its framework, leaving it leaning two or three inches further over each time. But he never did more than talk about his intentions. To this day, a stranger might find himself wandering along County Road 1 and spy our ransacked house from beyond the gate, taking note of its unwavering proclivity for the ground and feel the sudden conviction, as any man should, to rush up and brace the cornerstone with all the might in his back, meaning to valiantly save the lives of those inside.
I reckon Daddy figured since the whole world was in shambles, there wasn’t anybody who was gonna hold him accountable for fixing up his own ill-fated patch of it. I supposed he rationalized it every time he caught a crumpled picture of those Nazi towns way across the sea, all blowed to hell from a war twenty years old. He figured the world was intent on rebuilding faraway lands and starting new wars; not tending to Gulf towns or ending old ones. War wasn’t something that touched us a great deal, so the folks of Indian River liked to imagine it was something one could simply elect to ignore. Our family, however, feared war itself would engender the revelation of our own foolishness someday by taking Aaron as fuel for its prodigious engine, so I watched him like a hot stove when I wasn’t in his pocket.
Prophet’s name, ain’t you got no fuggin’ friends?
he would ask me sometimes. And I would do my best to leave him be, especially after cursing me so audaciously. I knew enough to figure boys his age occasionally needed to be left to their thoughts; to contemplate darker things like work and women and war.
Momma didn’t agree with conscription, but Daddy always said work was work and dead was dead no matter how you use one to get to the other. In my opinion, Uncle Sam was the same kind of being as The Man in the Woods or the gate gargoyle (as far as the question of his existence went). Aaron played on indifference, acting as if he would move out as fast as a herd of Turks in a cloud of camel shit if he had to, but he hadn’t ever tried to enlist early, neither. Not as far as I known. In a time when Indian River boys were lying about their age to go and shoot Japs (or whatever they were) around the far side of the world, Aaron and I were the only ones looking at pictures of cars and women and drinking peanut RC at Marlin’s store. That is until they shut the farm up; until they cut the cross high up on the barn’s forehead.
Aaron and I had come back up the road one night to find the gate pushed closed and locked up right nice with chains and Schlages. At first, and for damn near twenty minutes after, the sheer look of it all put us in a heightened state of confusion and unrest. The gate hadn’t ever been closed. It was a strange happening that heralded the coming or going of an age, and we were rendered mentally and physically incapable of reckoning the gate’s foreign posture or what it meant. Neither one of us had ever seen an image so dark and forlorn. From the outside it appeared as if our tribe had closed up shop and took to the road like circus folk. In an odd way (and almost with a refusal to simply climb over), we waited for a sign from God on how to approach or address such a mercurial event. We were hopelessly lost for procedure.
It had gotten a good bit darker then when Aaron finally decided we had best climb over for fear of one thing: if our assumption was wrong about Momma and Daddy and the brothers and sisters up and leaving town to join Barnum and Bailey, Momma would be right pissed a closed gate kept our asses out of those dinner chairs, so we moved. First thing either of us noticed upon scaling the farm’s new battlements was the tip of the sword on the ground near the inside of the gate. Truth be told, it wasn’t a real sword, but a trick the light from the barn played on the yard. It was cast by a familiar shape that had been fresh cut out of the new barn’s face way up near the roof that wasn’t there yet. A cross, no doubt near the same size of the one used to hang the Christ all those moons ago, had been carefully sawed out of those gray and unpainted slats. And a single illuminated work light shone through. It wasn’t an image either of us would rightly soon forget. A neat circle of blonde pine dust covered the ground lightly inside the barn door, like a colossal carpenter bee had come and made his home high in the eaves. In the midst of the dust, leaning against the unfinished seal, stood the remnant, its arms outstretched like a man awaiting embrace, but without indulgence.
We stood stone-still where we had landed, observing that plot that seemed so alien to us then. The residual light from the barn cast a diminutive cone of perception over our narrow corner of the world as if to subtly remind us or allude to the truth that there lay much more beyond its yellowed reaches. But at that moment, we did not believe. The glow was only enough to convince us that our world had shrunk to the size of our front yard and the red clay drive, alone. All else were the black walls of eternity. It seemed to us that if God were to have turned on all of heaven’s lights at once to reveal our relationship to the whole of Earth and Indian River, there would have been nothing but this mere sliver of our farm, floating fragmented and alone, in a galaxy of nothingness where Aaron and I had suddenly become a lot bigger, or a lot smaller. Night was full then. I looked over at Aaron for solace; for warmth, but all I remember of his face was that last bit of guiltless inquisition before we learned all the things we wished we had never known.
2
As soon as we neared the house close enough to realize all was accounted for, Aaron’s face lit up, and he insisted we go in guns out like we were pissed as fire. He reasoned it would catch Daddy and Momma off guard, thus inciting our immediate forgiveness. I protested mildly but then almost immediately gave in. Aaron oversold from the first word and let out several strings of accusatory statements, standing posed in the doorway after having forced his way in. To aid Aaron, I growled once in mock frustration (for want of a better expression) as Momma and Daddy turned about to pause, shocked with faces frozen in a wild stupor. Momma’s immediate reaction was to aim and slap Aaron where his sharp cheek met his stony neck. Aaron damn near hit the floor. Then she threatened us both with the woods (which was a virgin proposal for me). Soon as Daddy saw Momma had command of the situation, he turned around in his chair and went back to eating quietly.
We made haste to our seats after that and were shoveling tomatoes and rice into our heads with fluid dexterity before Daddy finally spoke up.
No more hittin’ the road after tonight. We’re stayin’ put,
he said after one bite and before the next, like he would never speak on it again. He had paused to say it, with his spoon suspended half-mass between his bowl and his mouth. His eyes were glued on Momma’s twin glazed ceramic goose salt and pepper shakers. Each bird was unpainted, and each held a scroll across its breast; one said blue
and the other, ribbon.
I didn’t know what in hell it meant, and I guess Daddy didn’t either, as he locked onto them each night with even more intensity than the last, helpless to pull away as he ate and ate, often until his plate were clean or Momma took it upon realizing he had raised three or four empty spoons to his dried mouth.
Aaron and I hadn’t moved a finger since he spoke. Instead, we turned to Momma with blank stares as if to elicit confirmation that times were truly as different as we had gathered. Without seeing us, she sat down across from Daddy and responded to our apparent confusion, knowing Daddy wouldn’t.
Those outside our gate are afraid,
she said plainly. The plague has stripped this town of its vocations.
She took a single bite then set down her spoon and wiped her hand—front and back—on her apron. This land is closed to the wretched ...
Momma took a drink of water and went on eating tomatoes. And that was that. Daddy had geese in his wide eyes. Aaron and I settled slowly back into our bowls which appeared to be devoid of all former color, taste and warmth when held against the last thirty seconds of speech that had occurred across that narrow, wooden plane. Oh yes, times were different indeed.
Thankfully for Momma and Daddy, there was a knock or two on the door as the thickness at the table had become straightways unbreathable.
That’ll be Virgil,
Momma offered without looking up from her bites. Virgil was Pastor Obis’ Christian name, and I only ever heard Momma and Daddy call him by it privately. He usually returned the favor by calling them Joe and Maya, which always felt wrong to me. Momma wiped her mouth and made for the stockpot on the stove which was set aside each night for the brothers and sisters. Daddy pushed back his chair and walked to the door with a spoon still in one hand, half re-tucking his shirt with the other. He opened and braced the door, which swung outward. It was the one tweak Daddy had made to our home in my twelve years that was anything close to a precautionary improvement. Someone in Indian River had become exhausted by coastal storms with hundred mile an hour winds blowing their doors in and had the bright idea to reverse the hardware, which everyone in those parts seemed to adopt. It was cheaper than bricking the house, which appealed to Daddy, but it had still yet to be tested, given that we hadn’t had a proper storm since its installation. He seemed to be pleased with it, though Momma went on and on about how wrong it felt to enter a house like you enter a wardrobe.
I watched Pastor Obis’ broad figure spill into the door like a thick caramel bubbling through a pie lattice. It was only after he had entered fully, and gave his apologies for being just late enough to disrupt dinner, that I noticed he had with him a guest. Daddy’s spoon went back in his mouth as he closed the door behind and studied the stranger, unabashed. Aaron and I noticeably snapped to attention like dogs.
Joe, Maya, this is Peter Langford.
Pastor Obis poured to the side and revealed a young, clean-shaven negro man, near pygmy in stature and wearing two pieces with the third about his shoulder. Mr. Langford arrived earlier this evenin’.
Pastor Obis smiled.
As the short man removed his houndstooth fedora, he spoke with such warmth and civil candor that the very walls of our house retched with nervous disagreement.
Wonderful,
he started, racking his hat and coat on his left arm and extending the other to Daddy for a shake. So very pleased and delighted to finally meet all of you.
Daddy took damn near thrice as long to oblige as the short man had taken to offer his small hand. Finally, after a dang age, and with much palpable hesitation, Daddy grasped the short man with his leather paw, and that quick-formed, clandestine ball of tightly-bound tension exploded simultaneously with almost audible declaration. Daddy withdrew the spoon again and clenched it low with his free hand.
Have you waited long to?
Momma asked with thinly veneered derision as she relinquished the stockpot to Pastor Obis.
Pardon?
The short man smiled greatly with his white teeth bearing a stark contrast to his midnight skin.
Have you waited long to meet us?
Momma clarified. The short man delayed a brief second before his clean, Yank tone found words again.
In my travels, I’m always happy to come into a home full of welcoming faces. And I heard more and more of your family the closer I neared Indian River.
Oh?
Momma asked.
"People say your