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The Water Thief
The Water Thief
The Water Thief
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The Water Thief

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From the award-winning author of Ishmael’s Oranges comes a searing novel with a profound moral conflict at its heart.

When a heart attack kills his father, young architect Nick abandons his comfortable London life to volunteer abroad for a year – a last chance to prove himself, and atone for old sins.

But in a remote village on the edge of the Sahara, dangerous currents soon engulf him: a simmering family conflict, hidden violence and dangerous fanaticism. An illicit attraction to his host’s lonely wife soon threatens both of their worlds. But when a deadly drought descends it brings an irrevocable choice: should he take matters into his own hands? Or let fate run its course? His decision has life-changing consequences for them all.
LanguageEnglish
Release dateJul 26, 2018
ISBN9781786073952
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Claire Hajaj

Claire Hajaj has spent her life building bridges between two worlds, sharing both Palestinian and Jewish heritage. Her childhood was split between the deserts of the Middle East and the gardens of rural England. She has lived on four continents and worked for the United Nations in war zones from Burma to Baghdad. A former journalist for the BBC World Service, Claire’s writing has also appeared in Time Out London and the London Literary Review, as well as political institutions dedicated to peace. She has an M.A. in Classical and English Literature from Oxford University.

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  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
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    At the heart of this fascinating novel is a moral dilemma: is a right ever justified by a wrong? The newly-engaged Nicholas is still filled with guilt over the accidental death years before of a dear friend, in which Nicholas had played an unwitting part. As an atonement, he volunteers to spend a year helping to build a children's hospital in an unnamed third-world African country, under the rule of an evil man called simply "The Governor." Nicholas is an architect. Living in a poor village brings home the effects of a severe drought on the inhabitants. The Governor has water trucked in. The people still have to pay for it. Nicholas finds the existence of an nearby aquifer, from plans many years old, and decides on his own, to have a well drilled, to bring water to the people. His act of compassion brings consequences. This story will stay with me a long time. I am still thinking about the situation and its moral quandary. The characters were well drawn and sympathetic. Well-written, the novel made this setting come alive for me.Highly recommended.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    A deeply moving story of despair, hope, and love.. A very well written novel that stays with you. I hope there will be a second book or more to this story.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Nick’s father has died and it has caused him to take a hard look at his life. He’s living in London, works as an engineer and is engaged to the lovely Kate. Yet he decides to leave that safe life and go off to a poor village in Africa to help build a children’s hospital. He hopes to absolve his long-time guilt over an incident involving a childhood friend. He stays at the home of Dr. Ahmed, his wife Margaret, and their children JoJo and Nagode. There he’s faced with a moral dilemma. The people are dying from a lack of water. The Governor is charging exorbitant fees for water delivery. Nick learns that there is a solution to the village’s problem – a water well can be dug. But the Governor won’t consider it. Nick so desperately wants to help these people that he makes a decision that will impact all.This book completely tore my heart open and made me take a hard look at my own life. I so admired Nick’s determination to help these people. He wants to do the right thing and truly doesn’t understand why those in power wouldn’t feel the same. He’s so torn by his love for Margaret and his respect for her husband. And JoJo, this young boy on the edge of manhood who longs to become an engineer like Nick, absolutely broke my heart. The author does an amazing job of bringing JoJo alive and detailing his descent into hopelessness. The characters in this book will long live in my heart and memory. This is one of the most thought-provoking, soul searching books I’ve ever read.This is a masterpiece of a novel, exquisitely written, intense and profound, a book that should be required reading for all. It should be given every prestigious award for literary excellence. I most highly recommend it. This book was given to me by the publicist in return for an honest review.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Thank you Oneworld Publications for the free advanced reader copy. My review is completely my own.There is an expectation when we do good deeds and help others that we will see the benefit and receive their gratitude, but Nick learns (as those in helping professions already know) that sometimes your good intentions make things much worse.The Water Thief was definitely an interesting story about human nature, greed, and the ends people will go to in order to maintain power. I enjoyed each character's struggles and perspectives. While none of them were unexpected, they were realistic, which was fine because I wasn't expecting a thriller. The style was also interesting as it flipped between a third-person perspective of Nicholas and the first-person narrative of JoJo.I do have to admit that it took me longer than normal to finish this one. While the writing was good and the plot engaging, I didn't feel myself compelled to keep reading. It is uncommon for me to find it difficult to pick up a book, but I did with this one.There was also one little piece that bothered me and that was that the location of the village where Nicholas goes is left very vague. All that is said is that it is somewhere in the African desert. No specific country is even mentioned which reminded me too much of the fact that many people in America think that Africa itself is just one big country.Overall, though, I did enjoy the book. It was enlightening to the struggles of living in the desert with no access to water. It was definitely worth the read!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This review is for the English edition:Nick is a thirtysomething professional in England after his father's death he decides to take a one-year sabbatical to volunteer his professional expertise as an architect on a construction project in Africa. Nick is recently engaged in isn't really sure where his life is headed. Upon his arrival in the town in an unnamed African nation, he starts to see how different life is from when he grew up with and knows back home.The construction work that he is managing moves slowly and it is marked by many of the features of the developing world: foreign expertise, low-skilled local labor (and its challenges), leadership corruption and misguided ambition. As if that weren't enough Nick also feels challenged faces challenges with the family who is hosting him in their home. Despite having a fiancée back home, he starts an affair with his host’s wife.As the months progress, a drought grows in the country, and everyone must buy fresh water from the governor's monopoly water supply company. There is no well or other sources of water, so without the water trucks, there is no water for irrigation cleaning cooking or drinking. The governor claims benevolence by selling water but makes a tidy profit on the backs of the villagers with no choice.The author paints a rather bleak, although sadly realistic, picture of how close to the edge of survival millions of people live in the developing world. There seems to be some foreign money as well as some well-intentioned people genuinely trying to help get harsh it is a lack of resources and fundamentally the selfishness of human nature that keeps people stuck where they are.Nick desperately wants to address the water shortage by drilling the well in the village. When he can't get funding by request decides to ‘borrow’ from the hospital’s construction fund do it.As he starts the drilling project, everything starts to fall apart – his work is relationships the stability of the village – everything. Told in rather straightforward prose with occasional color descriptions – the story also changes from third person to first person narration of the preadolescent son of Nick's host family – showing his person effective as he also comes of age in the story.It feels like you're almost in the story feeling the heat in the sun beating down on the dry dusty air bakes in the hot winds of the African Sahel.It's hard to stay where this leaves the reader – hopeful or helpless; relieved or agitated; happy or sad. By capturing the complexity nuance and challenges of life in developing Africa, the author does an important service to the people of that continent. She shows how the conspiracy of geography, weather, religion Western influence, and corruption have constrained and restrain the people of Africa for years and reflects on the missed opportunity of the future without some kind of radical change in one or more of these elements. That is not to say that this change is easier likely – in fact, even the degree of possibility of change is subject to debate.Anyone who is interested in Africa or the complexities of life in the developing world would enjoy this book while a may not quite rise to the level of moral fiction it certainly is a worthwhile and valuable read.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I received this book through Librarything Early Review Member Giveaway for an honest review. This is my own thoughts about the book. This book was very good and interesting. The main character, Nicholas was a great and strong character. The book was about the water crisis in Africa. This book opened my eyes.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I received this book as part of the Early Reviewers program. This is the story of Nicholas who travels to Africa following the death of his father, leaving his fiancé behind, in the hope of building a children’s hospital and to try and find himself. Once there he becomes immersed in a land and culture so very different where water is one of the most important aspects of life. As he begins to develop a plan to bring water to the village, he has to make decisions that will affect not only his life but the lives of those he has come to care about. What an amazing story told with such intensity that it will leave the reader breathless and racing to finish to the end. Reader beware, this story will stick with you well after you have read the last page and appreciate life.

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The Water Thief - Claire Hajaj

There are three great rivers with which sinners purify themselves in this world: a river of sincere repentance; a river of good deeds that drowns the sins that surround it; and a river of great calamities that expiate sins . . . So swim . . . and have patience.

Ibn Qayyim al-Jawziyya, Madārij al-Sālikin (Stages of the Wayfarer)

Contents

Prologue

Dry Season

October

November

December

New Year’s Eve

January

February

March

April

The Fires

The Rains

Epilogue

Acknowledgements

Two men are taking Nicholas away. I see them through the police-car window. One takes his shoulder, one his arm. They swallow his skin, like mouths.

Nagodeallah, she fears them. She wriggles and cries on my knees. She grows heavy as a goat. Goggo says I hold Nagode too tight. She says: ‘Eh, boy, let her loose. Let her cry like she should.’ But Goggo knows nothing. Her mouth has no teeth. All she does is cry for us and lick the water from her gums. But Nagodeallah is mine now. So I squeeze her. I say shush, like Mama would.

Nicholas has not seen us yet. He looks back, towards the runway. At the end is the aeroplane, waiting. Big, like a beast. Like the horse from Mama’s stories, the white horse with wings. A knight’s horse for Nicholas, to fly away from us.

Those men have angry faces. I know it. Because I am angry too. They tell me that in the special lessons. They ask me to draw everything that happened. But I could only draw the well. Your well, Nicholas. The one you stole like Robin Hood, that you said would save us all. I drew how it was when I looked down inside it – big, and black. These men are big and white.

I hear one man speak. He says Nicholas is lucky. He says it like this: ‘You don’t know how lucky you are, mate.’ Mate. Nicholas uses this word too. It means ‘my friend’.

But these men are not his friends. They have locked his hands together. And his face is white, white as the spirits. When he came to us, he was pink. Mama, she used to laugh at him. But the fires burned him away. They burned us all away and left only bones.

When the policewoman came to tell us about Nicholas, Goggo said: ‘Praise Allah. Good riddance.’ She has not forgiven him. She wants blood in her mouth not tears. Sometimes, I see the blood in my dreams. I see them, Mama, Nagode and Adeya and the others, and their cheeks are running red.

It was Adeya who made me come. The police lady said: ‘He asks for you, JoJo, every day. Will you not see him?’

Goggo spat. But Adeya, she came to stand by me. She grew so tall, as tall as Mama. After the fires I told her: ‘You can come to live with us, like you are our sister. And I will care for you the same as Nagode.’ And Adeya, she said: ‘Yes, JoJo. But when we are grown, remember that I am not your sister.’

So I said yes to the policewoman, for Adeya. The word in my mouth was no but yes came rolling past my teeth. So the police car fetched us at first light. It had electric windows. I wound them down, so the wind could feel Nagode’s hair.

Now the policewoman stands by my window, waiting. The car door is closed. And I am afraid to open it. Doors are tests, Baba said. We choose to pass or stay. I do not know if the right way is through or back. But I am a man now. So I must choose.

I lift my hand and open the door. Nagode holds me as we climb into the light. The policewoman steps back. And then Nicholas, he sees me.

He says: ‘JoJo.’

I want to say: No way, Nicholas. No, mate. We have nothing for you, Nagode and me. We came only to see you go.

But my throat hurts and the words are stuck in it. My arms shake, and I cannot hold Nagode. I give her to the police lady. One day, my arms will be stronger. One day, Nagode will speak. On that day, I will tell her our stories. I will tell her about Mama and Baba. I will tell her about you, Nicholas, and The Boys, about the fires and the well. When we are grown, we will still remember. That is what I have to say to you, Nicholas. We will remember.

Will you remember, too? When they take you from here, will you think of us, and the things we did together? Like when we built our castle. It was great, that castle. Strong, with a moat, and towers, and the flag Mama made for it. You taught me how to make it strong. Each wall pushes and pulls against the others, you said. If even the smallest falls, then all become weaker. But together they are balanced. This is how the building finds its strength.

I want to tell you, Nicholas, that I understand this now. I do not need your lessons any more. I go to a good school. I am the best student. Each night I sit with Adeya and we study your language of numbers. Adeya, she says the numbers speak to us. Like the spirits, Nicholas. Sometimes the spirits speak to me still. They push and pull me inside. It hurts and I cry when Adeya cannot see. But I, too, will become strong one day.

‘Please,’ you say. ‘Please.’ And now I am crying. Because I am not ready for you to go. I do not forgive you yet, Nicholas. I have important things to tell you.

But now there is no time, they are pulling you away from us. So it must be my turn, Nicholas, it must be me who saves us. I will stop these men with their strong hands. Because we promised, Nicholas. We promised we would stay together.

I open my mouth to call you. But the words are stones and my heart is deep water. The police lady pulls my shoulder back as I put my hand out to you, and I pull forward with all my strength.

And then I feel it, the balance inside. I can speak your name. And you look around one more time; you are turning from the big men and the jet plane back to us.

Do we see each other, you and me? Do you see my hand, and what I have there? Because I know, Nicholas. I know what I must do. I know how to finish it.

Dry Season

The airport terminal doors swung open; Nick stepped through tempered glass into blinding daylight. Two porters reached for his suitcase as he passed through, palms sand-dry, their eyes dark with need.

He rested his back against cool brick, breathing in the afternoon’s ragged clamour. The porters had moved on, drawn away by richer opportunities, their skinny forms swallowed in a heated blur of bodies. A woman brushed past him on the narrow pavement, shoulders swelling from a tight jungle-green dress, matching fabric crowning her temples, arms opened wide like a carnivorous flower. She squealed as she reached into the melée of expectant faces and trundling baggage, pulling someone into a strong embrace – a mother perhaps, or a sister. Nick watched, transfixed by their joy, the fierce press of skin against skin, the careless flow of tears.

Ahead, the airport road curved away from him. Cars flowed along it bumper-to-bumper, a slow-moving river under a bottomless sky. Exhaust fumes circled lazily over nameless trees, their dark flowers collapsing onto the roadside.

Purple cloudbanks curled and deepened on the horizon, over jammed clusters of houses, red-roofed and low. The city centre was just visible beyond them, a blurred shimmer of glass and steel reflecting the coming storm. The sky seemed to grow as Nick looked up, becoming vaster and heavier. Waves of wet heat pulsed downwards, soaking through his shirt. He felt his skin rejoicing, drinking them in, as if quenching a lifetime of thirst.

Nine hours earlier, he’d been cushioned by the soft ascent from Heathrow, the sky racing soundlessly from grey to blue. It was the longest trip he’d ever taken, and when they’d first burst through the clouds into the bright void above it had taken Nick’s breath away, filling him with awe. Here at last was the feeling he’d been hoping for: an old chain finally snapping, clear air opening between his past and future.

The jolt of touchdown had woken him from sleep, catapulting him into an altogether different world. They had lowered steps onto the runway and he’d walked out, dazed under the curdling sky, through the confident jostle of bodies at the baggage carousel and out through customs into this new daylight, with its miasma of car fumes, cigarettes, perfume and sweat. Loud smiles and bright voices overshadowed him on every side. What are you doing here? they seemed to demand. He had no easy answer to give, even to himself; it made him feel young, insignificant, and above all not ready.

He closed his eyes, shaky, suddenly grateful for the wall at his back, sensing people rushing by on their way to the taxi ranks. He felt the sky’s heat spreading inside him, the dense closeness of rain overhead, probably sweeping in from warm ocean waters just beyond the city. Their rhythm pounded in his temples, green waves beating onto a wide, white shore. But then a tiny, cooling thought blew into him: he knew that ocean. He’d watched it countless times as a small boy, four thousand miles away on its northerly edge, under a sky grey as marbles, digging clams out of the sand between stinging rocks, the cold a blue knife raking bare feet. Somehow even then, before he was old enough to imagine what lay beyond the horizon, or that there could be a beyond, the hidden arc between that moment and this one had started to form.

The memory steadied his breathing. A sign, he thought – a turning point in the story, a straight road glimpsed through the haze. His excitement woke again, a warm rush. Look out of the window at exactly noon, he’d told Kate, at their goodbye. I’ll be waving right above you, au revoir at thirty-five thousand feet. Her face had been pale in the flicker of the departure board, one fist outlined against the blue wool of her pocket. Like Superman, she’d replied with a strained smile, as his lips touched the almond-scented skin of her cheek.

That kiss lingered in his mouth; the taste of guilt. When he’d first confessed his plan to her, her laughter had been sympathetic, the compassion of the sane for the deluded. But under the departure board, her hand had clutched his arm in a last, anxious appeal. It’s not too late, you know.

Too late for what? he’d asked gently, torn between admiration for her determined composure, self-reproach for the hurt it concealed and desperation to be gone. He’d felt her fingers pressing through his shirt, as if she could penetrate his skin to reach the many doubts still lurking beneath. The curtain of dark hair he’d parted on their first night together a year ago, falling shining and straight across her face, was swept up tight into a ponytail, betraying a tremble of mouth and chin. Her engagement ring winked up at him like a third eye. To change your mind, she’d replied. To stay here with me, where you belong.

‘Nicholas? Hey! Pardon – you’re Nicholas?’

Nick opened his eyes into a present full of warm light. A hand was reaching out to him; he followed it up to a stranger’s face, vaguely familiar from a grainy snapshot in his deployment folder. Steel-rimmed glasses beneath an anxiously receding hairline, the forehead a worn pink over watery eyes. Pale lashes blinked rapidly against the glare, like a burrowing creature’s. Nick had a sudden memory of moles ripping through his mother’s lawn, their pointed noses testing the air as she sat motionless by her easel.

‘Jean-Philippe?’

‘J.P., please. Welcome! At last. No problems with the visa? They can be devils, you know.’ He glanced sideways at Nick. ‘But look at you! You’re not like I imagined. No offence.’

Nick laughed. ‘None taken. It’s Nick, by the way.’

J.P. dragged the suitcase through the melée of waiting taxis. Bodies buffeted Nick, warm and bright with sweat. His senses were jumbled: corn roasting on a roadside stall filled his mouth with the taste of mellow gold; the air was smoky green at the back of his throat – with something else, darkly sweet, like sewage.

They reached a brown sedan among the chaos of double-parked cars, exhausts belching fumes. Behind the dust-smeared windscreen a crucifix dangled off coloured beads – strings of chocolate, grass, gold and blood.

‘I mean, you’re younger than I thought,’ J.P. said as he opened the boot, hoisting Nick’s suitcase inside. ‘Twenty-seven? Twenty-eight?’

‘Thirty.’

‘They usually send them older. The mid-career crisis, you know. Ha!’

The car’s seats were stripped bare, metal bones shining through. Nick cranked down the window to let in the sluggish air. Small children wandered through the traffic, clutching packs of gum and rotting baskets piled with fruit and flies. Most scattered at the blare of car horns. But some pressed in, thin fists hammering on the glass.

J.P. started the engine. ‘But anyway, here you are.’ Buildings loomed ahead, black-streaked and crumbling. ‘Young blood.’ Music crackled to life from the radio cassette player – a full-throated wail over sax and drums that pulsed through Nick like wingbeats. J.P.’s hands tapped its rhythm on the wheel. ‘Femi – you like him? He’s a god round here, so say yes if they ask. It’s his latest. Mind Your Own Business. Good advice for our nice new nineties, no? Personally I prefer Ali Farka Touré. The greatest blues man on earth – but from a few borders north of here. Oh, they’ll tell you: this is all West Africa, borders are just colonial importations, like French and English – and they have a point, mind you. But when it comes to music, football – the important things in life – the patriotism here is crazier than Europe. So I keep my opinions to myself.’

The lyrics were English, Nick could tell – and yet he couldn’t quite catch their meaning as they slipped past, sucked through the window into the whirlwind of street noise: the cry of hawkers over a boom-box’s tinny pulse, long-tailed birds piping from a passing tree, the dark rumbling sky overhead. He took a deep breath, conscious of J.P.’s briskly tapping thumbs, of the importance of first impressions. Don’t look so overwhelmed, idiot. This has to work out.

‘I don’t know much about music, I’m afraid,’ he replied, taking refuge in honesty. ‘Catholic mother – I was brought up on hymns.’

‘No Geldof? No Live Aid? I thought that was a basic requirement for you British.’

‘I missed the Live Aid thing. Too busy studying for the second stage of my architecture qualification. My girlfriend loves U2, if that qualifies?’

‘U2, my god. They grow up on hymns here, too. In the south, anyway. Not in the north, where you’ll be. There, it’s mostly allahu akbar. Well, by the time you go home, you’ll know what to sing where. And what do you think of this warm welcome you’re getting? Femi . . . all this sunshine. Nice for the swimming pool. But not so nice for the farmers.’ Sweat pooled on the Frenchman’s temples. ‘The rains failed.’

Nick’s hotel, booked for one night before his journey north, was fronted in mottled colonial brick. Black birds squatted on its casements around a central swimming pool. J.P. went across to the bar, to negotiate with the waitress for a drink.

Nick waited for him by the water. Red flowers fell from overhanging trees onto the listless surface. He watched, hypnotised, as the water swallowed them, petal by petal. His pale reflection swam between them. Such a sad little fellow, his mother used to say. That was in the early days, when her arms would still wrap around him, baptising him in warmth. He caught the ghost scent of paint on her hand as she stroked his hair. Don’t give the boy these ridiculous ideas, Mary, his father would tell her, back turned to them as he worked on patient records, his disdain cold as a knife. For a moment Nick imagined a grey figure materialising beneath the water’s cloudy surface, before he wiped his hands over his eyes.

J.P. came back with two cold beers and Nick’s recruitment papers. He flicked through them with a whistle. ‘You did a lot already, eh? Engineer, architect?’

‘Structural engineer.’ His voice sounded thin in the heavy air. The beer was malty, with a metallic aftertaste. ‘My firm built public spaces and infrastructure in London.’

‘That’s great. Working for the Iron Lady. Vive le capitalisme! Lots of money for that, I bet. Happy mama, happy papa, happy wife.’

‘Fiancée. And my father wasn’t so happy.’ Talking of him felt bold, like an exorcism. ‘He wanted me to be a doctor, like him.’

‘Even more money.’

‘Not in his practice. He was a local GP, a country doctor.’ Now Nick regretted the conversation. The subject was still too sharp – a splinter buried deep.

‘So you give it all up to come here?’ J.P. raised his eyebrows. ‘Is the fiancée a pain in the ass?’

Nick laughed despite himself. ‘It’s just a sabbatical. A year, that’s it. Then I head back home.’

He remembered saying the same thing to the recruitment panel, after all the exams and application essays. We need to know you can last the year, they’d said. That you’re not going to drop out because you’re too lonely, or it’s too hot, or the sky is too strange and you can’t sleep.

And he’d given them his too-plausible assurances – the same ones he’d served to Kate, as she stood frozen in their kitchen, a cork pulled halfway out of the bottle of Saint-Émilion. I want to do something meaningful, he’d said. Before I settle down – before we start our whole life together. It was meant to reassure, but he felt the unsayable truth hovering just beneath – that he could feel that life solidifying around him, trapping him into one of a billion diligent, purposeless existences that faded in the living.

He’d taken Kate’s hand, her engagement ring cold and solid between them as she tried to pull him back to her. But everything’s already organized – I ordered stationery for the invites – we’ve started writing our vows. The argument had run on into the small hours, exhausting them both. She knew he was afraid, she’d said; a lifetime is a lifetime after all, and she was scared too – but running away to another continent was no solution. He’d countered that he wasn’t running away but preparing himself; he’d be back in just a few months, ready to make good on every promise, more able to be the man she wanted him to be. Finally, she’d asked, bewildered: Is this all because of your father? She’d thought that his father’s death had filled him with the helium of wild ideas, that he risked floating off unless she could pull him back to their safe, defined spaces; evening meals and weekend escapes, the wedding plans taking shape with colour schemes and honeymoon brochures.

A treacherous voice in his head had whispered: maybe she’s right. Maybe this is just fear – the coward all over again, afraid to step up when it counts. It had all happened so fast – a race from first kiss to engagement in a year, a proposal coming straight after his father’s funeral. She’d been an object of desire in his office for months before he’d dared to ask her out – an icon of self-assurance and faultless lines, deftly presenting communication strategies to senior management, her hair a dark banner sweeping down her back. You’re a natural persuader, he’d told her. You make people want to do what you tell them. It was the clumsiest pick-up line.

She’d absorbed his compliment with a wry shrug. That’s what everyone thinks about women in PR. Other people have talent, we just talk. I should put it on my business card. Communi-Kate.

He’d felt for her then. Compli-Kate. They’d laughed – and again later on, during a dim evening in the flush of alcohol, Nick feeling a voyeur’s thrill as she unbuttoned her professional confidence, exposing the hidden fears beneath. She could never smile at a man without wondering if he’d one day resent her for not sleeping with him. She despised herself for playing on her looks, but her face looked so awful without make-up – like a mannequin without its paint. Her mother had been a QC; Kate worried her own life was trivial by comparison. She wanted too much from people, so maybe she was doomed to be alone. They’d been so tantalising, those half glimpses of weakness, like sensing deeper currents under a lake’s still surface. And then at a spring party, in the middle of some forgotten conversation, his awareness had drifted slowly from light office jokes to the pale ridge of goose bumps pricking the flawless white of her arms, her silk camisole too thin, clinging to the stubborn swell of stomach that gym sessions couldn’t flatten. As she’d turned her face up to him, the wine was still sharp on her breath, lips pale and cool as a swan’s wing. Later she would claim he’d kissed her first – but he remembered nothing except that taste of wine and almonds, the mix of thrill and alarm.

If his father hadn’t had a heart attack, the old man would probably have sat grudgingly at the back of Kate’s family’s Anglican church watching his only child take his wedding vows, disdain spreading in a poisonous wave over the muted Christ pinned up behind the vicar, the neat peony bouquets, their two corporate incomes and aspirational house hunting. This flight across continents would have taken the two of them on their honeymoon.

But the telephone call had come six months ago. And when Kate found Nick frozen in their hallway, the receiver humming a flat dial tone in his hand, they’d both felt the tremble of a hidden rudder, a subtle shift of course. I know you weren’t exactly close, she’d said as he walked dry-eyed from the synagogue. Even so, you’re handling it well.

But in the night watches he’d quietly filled in applications for volunteer work abroad, listening to Kate’s even breathing. She claimed never to remember her dreams, but he could imagine them. They’d flickered through his mind as he wrote: happy dreams – dappled sunlight on an ivory dress, kites soaring over parkland, small wellington boots outside a townhouse, family holidays in the Alps. His own dreams could not be shared with anyone: a playground filled with screams and shattered glass, his father’s half-moon spectacles staring him down, the pale wash of his mother’s landscapes on silent, sunny walls.

‘Well,’ J.P. said, ‘you did the training so I won’t bore you with everything again. This project will be easy for you, perfect. The north is tough and the governor is a piece of work. But Dr Ahmed is a great host. Ten years working together and never a problem. His place is just outside the Town – but you’ll see it’s better that way. Our consultant, Eric, will be your liaison. He has a team of locals, but not one who can reach the same total twice.’

J.P.’s beer was already gone. He shouted to the bar for another. ‘I went to university too. I could have been a lawyer. But then I followed a girl, the usual story.’ The second round of beers came, one for Nick, as well. ‘The main thing I learned here is not to try too hard. Many things can’t be helped. Many people, too.’

Nick smiled. He’d heard the same thing countless times, at farewell dinners over glasses of chilled wine.

‘That’s a great recruiting line,’ he teased. ‘Sign up, it’s hard and hopeless!’ A worthy life should be hard work, his father used to say. He’d been fond of quoting what he liked to call the only sensible part of the Talmud: no man should rely on shortcuts and miracles.

J.P. shrugged. ‘Perhaps for your British charities. So Victorian. And the Americans are worse, by the way. Quakers and Evangelicals. Too many rules, too many virtues. Just be a human being, Nick, that’s my advice. Someone who can keep a spreadsheet and knows how to build a hospital.’

Nick offered to buy their third round, peeling dollar bills out of his wallet as he headed to the bar. The waitress serving drinks had woven her hair into a maze of braids, her orange T-shirt pulled tight across a dark slash of cleavage. Her eyes were young and wary as she took his money, pulling two beers from the refrigerator and handing him change from a wad in her jeans.

After a quick mental tally, Nick said quietly to her: ‘Twenty dollars.’

Her face was blank in incomprehension. ‘Twenty dollars,’ he repeated. ‘I gave you twenty dollars.’

‘You gave me ten.’

‘No,’ he said. ‘I gave you twenty, you gave me change for ten.’

She waved her finger at him, mouth set in a stubborn pout, her head turned deliberately away.

‘Hey.’ Alarm turned to annoyance. ‘Please give me my money.’

J.P. wandered over.

‘What’s the problem?’

‘Nothing. She didn’t give me enough change.’ He dumped his notes on the bar.

J.P. poked them. ‘Give the man his money,’ he said to the girl. She looked at the floor and shook her head, wordless.

A man in a hectic floral shirt came over. ‘Can I help you?’ His voice was a pleasant baritone. Nick saw the girl’s head come up like a fallow deer’s, fear surfacing.

‘I’m so sorry, sir,’ the manager said, once J.P. had explained. He turned to the girl and spoke softly. Tears came to her eyes. ‘He gave me ten.’ Her voice was very quiet. She looked sideways at Nick, in shame or appeal. Patches of sweat were visible under her arms.

Frustration wilted in a sudden rush of doubt. He pulled out his wallet; the notes stared blankly back at him. The humidity was oppressive. Nick’s chest hitched as he breathed, panic twining around it like prickly shoots.

‘It doesn’t matter.’ He reached out to touch the manager’s sleeve. ‘It may have been my mistake.’

‘These beers are on the house,’ the big man said.

Nick took them. ‘I’m sorry,’ he told the girl. She didn’t respond, her eyes falling to the notes as J.P. scooped them off the bar top. Reluctant to leave, Nick followed J.P. towards the table.

‘Will she be OK?’ He was fighting the urge to run back, to halt the unknown dance of consequences.

J.P. shrugged. ‘They’ll sort it out themselves. These things happen all the time. You did right, don’t worry.’

They agreed to meet again the next morning, to see Nick off. When they left the table, he looked around for the waitress. The bar was deserted except for the hum of the refrigerator, his empty beer bottle still standing on the warm counter.

That night, under the hiss of the air-conditioning, he dreamed once again of Madi. They were sitting together as they’d always done, after school on his mother’s kissing gate at the end of the garden. How did you find me here? he asked, panic rising inside him, his mouth still fizzing from swigs of Dr Pepper as the older boy looked up at him, a sad smile on his face. I’m always here. Blood brother. Then Madi jumped down, running ahead towards the hotel swimming pool, thin arms flung out like jackdaw wings. Please! Nick wanted to scream. I’m sorry! But the words flew out of his mouth in silence. And Madi was laughing as he tumbled in to the dark water, as the red flowers pulled him under and he vanished into black.

The long drive north began at dawn. Somewhere beyond the capital’s outskirts Nick realised they’d crossed an invisible boundary between living world and desert. Lush greens faded to gold, the rolling fields flattened into plains of yellow earth. The land became vast and encircling, cast out to a remote horizon, pathless and bright with a parched sweetness that moved him. It was like sailing alone into unchartered seas.

Nine bone-shaking hours later, a single jacaranda tree broke the landscape’s pale palette. Red-tipped buds were pushing through dark branches, ready to burst into brilliant bloom.

The tree marked the end of the northward ride; their car swung off the highway onto a smaller road. The village appeared over a rise, swift as a mirage. The road narrowed towards a central square where a mosque lofted its white minaret. Beyond that, the road disintegrated into a sand track leading around low houses of coloured stone. Market stalls and mud-brick houses were scattered unevenly beyond these, closer to the lowering sun.

The car swung west, trundling over dirt. Families strolled home in the late afternoon. The men wore pants and shirts, or light robes of peach and blue. Some bore the black-checked keffiyeh he’d only seen in news reports from the Middle East. The women’s heads were wrapped in vivid scarves, dark orange and sherbet-pink. Dust rose as the car passed by, blurring them into a weary haze. One old woman sat on her porch, rolls of skin clinging to a shrinking, orange-wreathed frame. She leaned forward, baleful eyes following Nick around the final bend.

Dr Ahmed’s clinic stood at the edge of the village, behind a low wall enclosing a garden. Yellow fronds of flowering sennas climbed over whitewashed brick. A trellised gate marked the house’s boundary. Inside, a path framed by sprouting vegetables led up to a wooden porch. Its neatness was dwarfed by the wild sweep of the desert beyond. Something about the scene struck Nick as poignant, an out-of-place sense of familiarity.

The driver sounded his horn. Nick climbed out of the car, limbs aching. Earthy smells filled the air – soil, smoke and somewhere the deep rot of decomposition.

A man came striding down the garden path. ‘My dear fellow!’ he called, his faded jacket swinging from an angular frame, a slight limp in his gait. His hair curled grey at the temples like an aging scarecrow’s. All his vitality had been sucked into the smile beaming from under half-moon spectacles.

He took Nick’s hand and pumped it. Nick was taken aback; this was not the conservative village healer he’d been expecting. For him it’s not just the money, J.P. had said. He’s a good guy; he likes to have us around.

‘You must be Dr Ahmed,’ said Nick.

The old man’s face creased in delight. ‘And you must be Nicholas! Come in, come in! What a long journey you’ve had, my goodness. How can we refresh you? Some tea? My wife has already put on the kettle.’

The living room was small and dingy, dominated by a vast grandfather clock. It shone from its corner, rich walnut and gilding topped by a white-faced procession of roman numerals. Its elegance was slightly marred by a gaping side panel – exposing melancholy cogs and a still pendulum. A large wooden box lay open at its feet, filled with odd tools.

Dr Ahmed laughed at Nick’s expression. ‘Yes, I’m afraid I’m a terrible tinkerer.’ He ducked under the low doorway as they entered the kitchen.

A young woman stood at the sink peeling vegetables, head bent and hair knotted behind her. Light from the window framed a long neck and slender shoulders.

‘Margaret, my dear. Here is our guest.’

She did not turn immediately. When she did look up, the movement was quick, almost reluctant. Her skin was lighter than Dr Ahmed’s with sharp planes and pale hollows under her eyes. Something in her expression disconcerted him, an echo of his mother’s

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