Wardens of Eternity
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Magic and magical creatures. Immortal gods and goddesses. History and mythology. Strap in for this action-packed YA novel that that takes place over the days leading up to World War II, when Ziva must rely on her wit and magic to outmaneuver Nazis and ancient Egyptian gods to prevent global destruction.
Ziva has one memory of her parents, made the day they abandoned her on the streets of New York City when she was three years old. They left her with only a memory and a promise that she had a great and terrible destiny.
Fifteen years later, Ziva discovers that destiny includes powers that she doesn’t understand and can barely control. Her magic attracts vicious, otherworldly monsters, and eventually compatriots to help her fight them. Sayer and Nasira know the secrets Ziva doesn’t; that Ziva is descended from Egyptian royalty and in possession of ancient magic passed down from the time of the gods. They promise to teach Ziva to control her magic and to give her the family she’s always yearned for.
But trouble is brewing in the world around them; darkness is descending on Hitler’s Germany, threatening World War II. As the last heir of a revered Egyptian queen, Ziva is the only one with the power to prevent another costly global conflict. As Ziva navigates her newfound abilities and makes a connection with Anubis and other Egyptian gods, the Nazis are hunting for the ultimate weapon, and Ziva has caught their interest.
Wardens of Eternity
- Is written by Courtney Moulton, author of the acclaimed Angelfire series
- Is an action-packed page-turner that blends history, mythology, and magic
- Is a clean teen historical fantasy; perfect for fans of Rick Riordan and Kiersten White
Courtney Allison Moulton
Courtney Moulton was born in Texas and grew up in Michigan, where she spent a lifetime studying ancient civilizations and writing about magic and monsters. Her debut novel Angelfire was published when she was just 24 years old.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Ziva Ellison has been on her own for most of her life and never truly understood where she fits in New York society. When powers attract monsters—and people with the answers she needs—she embarks on an adventure she could not have anticipated, one full of Egyptian mythology and World War II drama, secrets and betrayal and even a bit of romance."I’d always been so afraid that receiving someone’s pity and sympathy would make me feel weak and sorry for myself. I’d been so wrong. This was compassion, and it made me feel like I wasn’t alone anymore."Courtney Allison Moulton’s Wardens of Eternity has an incredible premise, a few great twists, and an ending that left me wanting more. While I felt a touch confused at times, I still enjoyed my time with this YA historical fantasy, and if you are a reader of the genre, I bet you could, too.I received a complimentary copy of this book and the opportunity to provide an honest review. I was not required to write a positive review, and all the opinions I have expressed are my own.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Good working in of Egyptian culture and mythology and the story of how Ziva came to be abandoned on the streets of New York and what happens when her power appears is a good hook. Overall, I liked the story, but there were two things that jumped out at my editor eye, One was the mention of jets when they landed in Cairo. That was in 1939, a year or so before that might have happened. The other was the implication that their motorcycles ran on diesel, something that didn't happen for many years. Nit picky, maybe, but distracting to me. I also felt the emotionality at the end was a bit labile and made the end feel rushed. Despite these criticisms, I like the story.
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Wardens of Eternity - Courtney Allison Moulton
CHAPTER
1
NEW YORK CITY, 1939
The only memory I had of my parents was also the last time I saw them. I’d replayed the scene over and over in my head if only to understand why they’d done it.
My mother had clutched me to her chest as she ran through the crowded street, darting between people and automobiles, her footsteps and ragged breaths lost among shouting voices and beeping horns. I’d watched the world zoom by from beneath the blanket she had wrapped me in.
We had slowed, and she’d set me down beside a vegetable cart. I’d been small, perhaps three or four years old, I wasn’t sure. I’d looked up at her, wondering when we would go home, because I’d wanted lunch. Mama’s dark, round, deep-set eyes had been wide, the same dark eyes I gazed into when I saw my reflection now. Her long, gently sloping nose had met full lips forming a defined cupid’s bow. The honey-and-olive skin of her cheeks had been flushed and damp. Had it been raining, or had she been crying? I would never know.
We’ll play a game, Ziva,
she’d told me, her voice high and soft, its calmness betrayed by the wildness in her gaze. Wait here and don’t move until Baba and I come find you. Do you understand?
I’d nodded. Games were fun. Lunch could wait.
Mama’s dense bounty of dark curls, the midday sun setting their reddish-gold highlights on fire, fell around me like a protective curtain. Sometimes, now, I wondered if her hair ever got curlier on misty, humid days like mine maddeningly did.
She’d kissed the top of my head, drawn a long, deep breath, and stood. She had cast one last glance over her shoulder and vanished into the crowd.
They’d abandoned me, like so many of the city’s children had been, whose parents couldn’t feed them. A single memory and my real name were all I had of my parents and my history. I had long been on my own—sixteen years now. Lots of the girls who worked with me at the textile company were alone and scarcely scraping by.
If anything, New York was a city of survivors.
I bit the inside of my cheek to pull my thoughts back to the present. My laced shoes tapped the cracked pavement and the frayed hem of my skirt swung above my ankles. My blouse stuck to my back beneath my coat and smelled sour with sweat and thread dye. The air was thick and carried a muddy, damp odor from an earlier rain. This route was lonely after dark, but it was my quickest way home.
A figure emerged from the shadows, grabbed my arm, and yanked me out of the streetlight’s reach. My back thudded into the brick wall of a building. I found my balance and felt my fingertips heat and spark on instinct. When I looked up, I saw a white woman in dirty clothes, her brown hair chopped below her ears. She had a knife in one hand.
Hand it over,
she ordered. Whatever you got. Hand it over.
Her voice was calmer than most thieves’—she’d been at this a while. But today was payday and I knew well to keep my wits about me, watching for whoever might be hungry for the measly few bucks I’d worked for all week. There was no way I’d let anyone take it from me. She wasn’t the first who’d tried.
No,
I told her.
The woman waved the knife close to my face. Metal glinted. I stepped away from her. She snarled and leapt at me, grabbing my wrist with her free hand. Her fingers dove into my pocket and I swung a fist in protest, but she darted out of my reach.
Give it back!
I shouted, and my fingertips burned. I clenched my fists, and sparks bit into my palms. Leave me alone.
She examined the limp scrap of fabric she’d stolen—the only contents of that pocket—in the sickly glow of the streetlamp. She muttered a curse and tossed the scrap. It fell to the damp ground and I lunged for it and patted off the dirt before stuffing it back where it belonged.
She shot at me while I was on the ground, knife poised high. I threw up my hand, palm out, and the thief screamed when my power slammed into her, wrenching her up off her feet and into the air. Her limbs flailed wildly, and she landed on her back with a crack in the middle of the street. She writhed for a few moments, mouth opening and closing, her voice lost when the wind was knocked from her.
I hadn’t meant to hit her so hard. Honestly, I hadn’t.
I stood slowly and marched toward her with a smooth gait. Although I tried to appear indifferent, I hoped she was all right. But I had to appear ruthless to people like this, people who were as hungry and desperate to survive as me.
Standing above her, I watched her expression turn from panicked to fearful as she found her air. She rolled over with a groan and pushed herself shakily to her feet. She retrieved her fallen knife and raised it to me again, the entire length of her arm trembling.
What was that?
she rasped. What did you do?
Move along,
I told her, my tone frigid. Or you’ll end up a lot worse.
She crept away, step by step. Why do you work all day in a hot factory when you have power like that? You can take what you need.
I said nothing as I went on my way.
You and I would make a great team!
the woman shouted at my back.
I wasn’t a team kind of girl.
As I continued on my way, another movement in the darkness triggered my attention. If too many people saw my power, there would be problems. I maintained my pace but kept watch in that area. My nerve endings screamed with alarm. The feeling was all too familiar for me. I was hunted by predators all the time.
When I saw the shadow again, I froze. This was no mugger or street urchin. The body was long and moved like a cat, but it was the size of a lion or tiger I’d seen at the zoo. It lifted its head and I could make out the silhouette of enormous, coiled horns.
My heart hammering, I squeezed my eyes shut, certain I’d imagined this shadow. I opened my eyes again and it was gone.
I ran.
Extra! Extra!
A teenage newsboy carrying a stack of papers shouted his headlines from the corner of an intersection. Blackouts in Prague continue as the Reich marches toward Poland!
I couldn’t afford to buy a paper, so I slowed my pace, hoping the newsboy would say more. Last week, I’d heard the Czech people were now forced by the Reich to carry documents declaring they weren’t Roma or Jewish. The only shops open now were the ones hanging signs in their windows proclaiming they were Aryan-owned. Europe was halfway across the world, but Americans seemed so afraid of what was happening—what could happen again. The end of the Great War hadn’t been all that long ago; the sharp blade of that memory still lingered in the hearts of many.
I hurried toward a regular payday stop for me—a bakery close to home. Before I spotted the awning above the heads of passersby, I could smell the baked goods. My mouth watered as I inhaled deeply, imagining the taste of warm muffins, bagels, and baguettes. All day I’d managed not to think about how I hadn’t eaten since the night before. Now my hunger was a ruthless force kicking around my empty insides.
Ducking behind the stoop of a launderer, I unbelted my skirt and reached inside the band to the secret pocket I’d sewn there. I deftly unbuttoned the flap and felt around for my money. After taking what I needed, I stuffed the rest of the cash back into its hiding place.
Before I entered, I needed to make myself appear a little more alive and less like the walking dead. I pinched both my cheeks and gave them a few sharp slaps to add some color to my blanched complexion. Then I emerged onto the sidewalk and crossed the street to the bakery. A bell jingled when I opened the door and stepped inside. The air was dry and warm and thick with the heady scents of bread and the sweet icing of pastries. The man behind the counter cast me a smile as he placed rolls from a tray onto the shelf beneath the counter.
Miss Ellison,
he said with a tip of his white cap. How are we this evening?
Just fine, Lou, and yourself?
I asked.
Hoping to sell what I have left before I close up for the night.
I moved along the counter, my eyes wide and feasting on what my tongue couldn’t taste: rich angel cake, chewy raisin tarts, creamy strawberry shortcake, crisp chocolate chip cookies, and dainty custard-filled cupcakes. Once, I’d spent everything I had on a plate of shortcake. It was heaven. I’d managed to make it last for three days, eating a scoop at a time, and it had left me four days without any food at all.
It’d been worth it.
Lou stepped out from behind the counter to wipe the display glass with a rag. I saved a half-price day-old loaf for you.
That’s swell, thanks,
I told him. I’m really grateful. How about that job too?
He sighed and frowned at me. I couldn’t pay you.
I flashed him a bright, lively smile. I’d take food instead.
Then who would pay your rent?
he asked soberly.
Reality had a sharp bite. Well, let me know if a spot opens up.
You bet, kid,
he replied, his voice a little sad.
I walked toward the day-old rack and a dark thought came back to me. "Why do you work all day in a hot factory when you have power like that?"
I paused, my gaze lingering on the row of bread loaves. How easy it would’ve been to push my power at one and knock it into my hand without anyone seeing. Lou would probably sell a loaf cheaper than half-price if it fell onto the floor.
My heart pounded, and my stomach tightened with hunger and nerves. Shadows seemed to creep around my vision, tunneling my mind, leaving only the bread in focus.
You can take what you need.
But I liked Lou. He always made sure he had something to sell me. Times were tough for him too. I didn’t want to stoop to the same level as the thief. I wasn’t terrible enough to hurt someone else for what I wanted.
My teeth clenched until they squeaked and hurt. Before I could let myself think any longer about having extra food this week, I grabbed a day-old loaf from the rack, paid for it, and was out the door with a brief good-bye.
CHAPTER
2
As far as tenements went, the one I lived in wasn’t the worst I’d seen. The city had tried to fix up a lot of the immigrant housing, but this one seemed to have been missed so far. I climbed the stoop, carefully avoiding the man who’d slept on the bottom step for the past two nights and walked in the front door. Once safely inside, I pulled out all the rest of my money to count out what I owed my landlord.
The narrow entry was taken up mostly by the staircase, which circled four floors high. The hallway runner beneath my feet was dirty and tattered, and the faded floral wallpaper was torn in streaks and around corners. This might have been a fine house in the days of carriages and bowler hats, but that was a long-forgotten dream now. If I looked closely enough, I could see the hallway runners were spun with gold thread, reminding me of Rumpelstiltskin.
I felt a hollow pang of loneliness in my middle. I wound up at an orphanage where a woman named Jean worked and she would read fairy tales to us from moldering old books. Thinking of her made me miss her and I resolved to visit her tomorrow after work. Jean was likely the best thing to ever happen to me. She’d even taught a few of us how to read, a skill I’d cherish the rest of my life. Reading opened infinite doors to infinite worlds.
Rose Ellison!
Ziva. My name is Ziva.
The voice came from the first room on the right, which always had its door open, so our landlord, Mr. Boyle, could spot us as we came in.
Yes, sir?
I replied with a cringe. Nearly everyone called me Rose Ellison, the name the State gave me when it took me in. The name my parents gave me, Ziva, didn’t sound American.
It didn’t sound white.
This world had rejected my real name, rejected who I was. I would always remember my name, and now it was all I had.
Mr. Boyle appeared in the doorframe, his suspenders loose and the top few buttons of his white shirt open. A patchy, five o’clock shadow stained his jib and jaw. He had a long nose, a sallow olive skin tone, a messy mop of black hair on top of his head, and watery, even blacker eyes.
Rent’s due,
he said flatly, his hands on his hips. He snorted, catching a gob of mucus in his throat and swallowing.
I know,
I replied, sorting through the folded bills I’d already taken from my secret purse. When I handed half of it over, he counted greedily and gave me a pointed frown.
You owe me twenty.
I could hardly understand him through his thick Irish accent. But I don’t have twenty.
He snatched the rest of the cash in my hand. This’ll do.
Wait!
I tried to follow him, but he’d turned and slammed his door shut in my face, making me jump back.
Good night, Miss Ellison,
he called from the other side, his voice muffled and dismissive.
I could bang on his door, demand my money back, but I owed him more than he’d swiped.
You can take what you need.
And I needed my money.
My power could break open that locked door without a doubt. I’d seen it do worse—because I couldn’t control it. There was a terrible certainty I could do more damage than I intended. Mr. Boyle could be hurt. His apartment could be destroyed. This building could be damaged. It could fall. More people could be hurt.
I stood still, taking long, deep breaths and counting backward to quell the sparks at my fingertips. They dissipated after a few moments and I forced myself up the stairs to my room. Each step was harder and more exhausting to take than the last. When I reached the top, it was by sheer will that I made it to my door. I found my key in my secret purse and entered.
The room I rented was just that—a room. The toilet was down the hall and the building across the street had a women’s bath house. I was lucky to have my own stove and sink. A small cot sat against the far wall beneath the window, so I could admire the stars as I tried to sleep. The window was quite large and arched; the curtain only covered the bottom half of the glass for my privacy. There had been a few nights this past winter when I’d pulled down that curtain to use as an extra blanket on my bed.
I set the bagged loaf of bread on the stove and tore off a hunk to devour. The first bite was always the worst; when it hit the bottom of your empty stomach, it did things to your body. You cramped, felt sick, and your throat was so tight and dry you thought you might choke. Then the hunger erupted, filling you past your limit like an overflowing sink, and you remembered exactly how long it had been since you last ate. I tried to eat small amounts often rather than big meals sparingly, if only to avoid this discomfort. But hunger was a blinding force and you believed with all your heart you won’t care how heavy the food feels in your stomach. But you do. Very quickly you do.
I wrapped the bag tightly back around the bread; I’d need this to last a week. Stale bread I didn’t mind, but I hated to waste the moldy bits.
The rickety clock on the wall clacked on the hour and started to chime. Nine in the evening. Horror stuck me like a bullet. I scrambled out into the hallway, my shoes sliding, just in time to watch Nonna Tessio disappear into the toilet, newspaper in hand. My eyes squeezed closed in defeat; I knew well the old woman liked to take her privy time after supper. I’d missed my chance for hours. No fool in New York would use the toilet after Nonna Tessio.
Dragging my feet, I returned to my room. I hoped I could hold it. Hunger, on top of everything that happened tonight, had distracted me. After collecting my needle and thread from the nightstand drawer, I pulled out the scrap of fabric from my pocket. It was only a few inches wide and long, which meant I’d add a few more inches to my quilt. I stitched it to the end of my chaotic patchwork job, hoping the quilt would be long enough to cover my toes come winter.
I unpinned my hat from my hair, changed into my bedclothes, and folded my skirt and blouse for tomorrow since they could go a few more days before washing. The bed frame creaked in the quiet as I climbed in. On the nightstand, the lamp’s bare bulb flickered more like a candle flame due to the frayed wire. Soon it would die altogether.
I lay my head against my lumpy pillow and gazed at the stars out my window. They were faint with the carnival glow of the city lights fighting their shine, but they were still there. I was faint and fighting, but I was still here as well.
And lonely. So lonely.
On cold nights I longed for more than just a friend, but boys didn’t like my coiled, curly hair, and they’d told me so. They liked girls with shiny, smooth hair they could run their fingers through. My hair wasn’t pretty to them. I wasn’t pretty enough to bring home to their mothers.
I wasn’t pretty enough at the orphanage when I was little, either, not that any good folks ever came to adopt any of us anyway. But adults fawned over the other children, and every compliment to their straight, fair hair and creamy white skin felt like one of a thousand cuts to me. I didn’t know how many cuts it would take to bleed me out.
Nobody had ever told me I was ugly. Yet, the way they had never told me I was beautiful or precious or desirable made me feel like I was none of those things. The way people pointed out that my hair wasn’t straight like the other children’s made me want to look like them. The way they always told me what I wasn’t made me feel not good enough.
In my heart, I knew how unfair my own feelings about my appearance were to me. Punishing myself because I was different wouldn’t change what I looked like. It had taken me a long, long time to understand how people had always treated me—and to find peace with how I looked. This journey brewed an obsession in me to learn who I was and where I came from.
In America, people saw skin color before gender or economic status. People noticed my brown skin and that’s where they stopped looking. Nobody cared about who I was on the inside. After the Great War, so many people around the world lost everything and everyone. Like my parents must have, they sought new lives and fresh starts here, in a country whose people had always been defined as white or black. Americans didn’t know what to do with the lot of us lost somewhere in the middle. Eventually, they lumped us all together as not white. Not like them. Not belonging. Not to be trusted.
Sometimes when I thought of my parents, I grew angry at them and myself. Perhaps my abilities had made them abandon me. Perhaps they’d been afraid of me. Perhaps I’d hurt them too.
Whoever I was, I was special. And wherever I came from, I was meant for something more than this meager life. New York wasn’t home. I didn’t know where my parents were from, or where I had been born. I had no identity and place I belonged. I wasn’t from anywhere.
I turned off the lamp, ignoring the snap and crackle of electricity, and I wrestled my thoughts to grasp sleep.
I left the factory the next day with an aching body and raw fingertips from the machinery. I’d scrubbed off the blood, but my cuts continued to sting. The thought of going home and eating a few bites of bread made me miserable. There were still a few coins in my secret pocket and I wanted to feel a full belly. A good dinner and a visit with Jean would be the perfect way to end my day.
I wandered in the direction of Bryant Park, unable to shake the hot, persistent feeling of eyes on my back. The paranoia of being watched was intrusive and unnerving. A face through the crowd drew my attention, a young woman who was nearly my mirror reflection. I halted, causing someone to bump into me, but I ignored their grumbled curse.
The woman vanished behind a taller person, and my heart quickened with alarm. I had to get a better look at her, to prove to myself she hadn’t been a vision. Never had I seen anyone who looked so much like me and a wildness stirred within me. I pushed through the crowd, hoping to catch sight of her again—and I did.
Her skin was golden brown like mine and her long tangle of curls was nearly as dark and threaded with streaks the color of desert rock. Her clothing was military style with heavy black boots, black narrow men’s combat pants, and a matching long jacket fastened by several belts over her torso. She looked positively scandalous for a woman. She moved quickly and caught up to a similarly dressed young man with windswept shoulder-length hair. I tried to maneuver myself closer to them to better see their faces.
I lost my visual again and I scrambled for signs of them. Nothing. My shoulders sagged, and all the air and excitement rushed from me, replaced by cold disappointment.
From a food vendor at the park’s perimeter, I purchased two apples and a boiled sausage. I carried my feast to the New York Public Library and chose a partially hidden spot on the stone steps to eat. I didn’t need anyone swiping my apples or a cop telling me to park it someplace else.
When I finished, I took a few sweeping strides to one of the magnificent marble lions of the library. They stood sentry on the steps of the north and south entrances. Though I’m not sure what compelled me, each time I visited, I touched a paw. Sometimes, when I was in a rush, my fingers barely brushed the cold stone. Other days, when times were harder than usual, I’d clasp both my small hands around the lion’s great paw as tightly as my strength allowed. There was something about the power depicted in their muscular bodies, their serene, resolute gazes, and their heads raised high, that gave me courage. They’d been the guardians of the world’s knowledge and literature for longer than I’d been alive, and I imagined they’d still be here long after I’d gone. I learned their names years ago, but I gave them names of my own. That somehow made them feel like they were mine. They were like the gods of old who became servants to whomever learned their secret names. If I told anyone else what I named them, the lions’ strength would be lost to me.
The golden glow of the library’s marble interior warmed me to my bones. Even on a busy evening, with every last footstep, breath, and voice of patrons echoing off the high ceiling, this was the most elegant place in my world. Some nights, as I lay in bed, I closed my eyes and pictured myself standing in this beautiful hall rather than my dingy room at the boarding house.
I didn’t have a lot of time before closing, so I hurried. The woman, Jean, who’d taught me how to read at the orphanage, had only volunteered there. She was a librarian’s aid a few times a week and I got to visit her sometimes.
Jean was often stationed in the reference room, returning books to their spots on shelves and assisting visitors. I found her at the top of a rolling ladder with a stack of volumes balanced in the bend of her arm as she shelved them.
Good evening,
I called to her.
She looked down and around for me and smiled when she spotted me. Well, hello, Ziva! I missed you last night.
My blood warmed. She was one of the few who called me by my real name, even after others had corrected her in that pointlessly cruel way of theirs. You did? Does that mean my book finally came back?
She nodded and shimmied down the ladder surprisingly deft with all those books in one hand. She placed them on the bottom shelf, rose, and beckoned to me.
I saved it for you, so it wouldn’t disappear again,
she said with an edge to her fun Metropolitan accent. There’s been a lot of interest in the subject since that bigwig archaeologist came to town.
She led me into a back room, which served as office space for several other aids working this department. The air was stale and musty, likely from all the stacks of old books and lack of open windows, and the desks were covered with piles of documents and writing