Woman@Heart: Essays on Life, Love, Laughter and Tears
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Women are an unstoppable force, united by sticky note to-do lists, soccer schedules, and occasional spa pedicures. We share laughter and sorrows, taking comfort in each other’s strengths and commonality of experiences. Woman@Heart is a celebration of that sisterhood.
Originally published as columns in thirty regional magazines, these heartfelt, whimsical essays are mirrors every woman peers into and frequently recognizes herself. Each piece shares the unpredictable, meaningful – and often comical – adventures of one gal’s journey as a daughter, a wife, a mother, a sister, a friend.
In these slices of life, you’ll find a sisterly common ground; a witty safe place to laugh at our circumstantial camaraderie and be inspired by the female spirit.
Claire Yezbak Fadden
When she’s not playing with her granddaughter, Pennsylvania native Claire Yezbak Fadden is writing contemporary women’s fiction. Her books feature strong women who overcome life’s challenges, always putting their families first. Claire loves butterflies, ladybugs and holds a special affinity for carousel horses – quite possibly the result of watching “Mary Poppins” 13 times as a young girl.Claire cheers on the San Diego State Aztecs, her alma mater, when she’s not writing. She is also a big fan of the Pittsburgh Pirates, Steelers and Penguins. The mother of three, she lives in Orange County, California with her husband, Nick and two spoiled dogs, Bandit and Jersey Girl. Claire’s work as an award-winning journalist, humor columnist and editor has appeared in 100 publications across the United States, Canada and Australia.Follow Claire @claireflaire, email her at [email protected] or visit her at clairefadden.com.
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Woman@Heart - Claire Yezbak Fadden
THE FAMILY FRONT
Get the Picture
Spring Cleaning
The Best of Buddies
The Leader of the Pack
Branches on the Family Tree
Adventure in the Great Outdoors
What I’ll Do on My Summer Vacation
Brothers, Sisters, and Other Hazards of Growing Up
It’s Why You Play the Game That Counts
The Refrigerator Door
Mom’s Pool Hall: Friends Welcome. Cars Prohibited.
The Nearness of Neighbors
A Girl, Four Guys, & Football
MOTHERHOOD MOMENTS
Music to My Ears
Mom! You’re Embarrassing Me!
Look, Son, No Hands
Dad’s A Catch!
Color Coded
Bumping Into the Message
Lines of Communication
Mom, Put Your Oxygen Mask On First
Caution: Mom At Work
Look, Mom, Nine Cavities!
MOM = Made of Money
Have Kids. Gotta Travel.
Memo From a Team Mom
For the Love of Leftovers
Mother U R the GR8ST
Motherhood’s Lesson Plan
A Mother’s Malady
Bloopers, Blunders, and Other Memorable Moments from the Motherhood Hall of Shame
Momisms: A Mother’s Words of Advice
WOMAN WISE
Write That Down
Reeling in the Deals
A New Wrinkle
What’s Your Rush?
Friendships Across the Ages
Friendless on Facebook
Stuck on Sticky Notes
That’s a Twist!
More Payne, More Gain
Walk It Off
Hey, What’s Your Name?
New & Improved! My World of Simple Pleasures
BIWM: Before I Was Mom
Shamrocks of Success
My Done List
Balancing the Scales
LOVE, ROMANCE & MARRIAGE
How My Garden Grows
It’s A Date
Chick Flicks
The Lingo of Love
Make Mine Diamonds
It’s Got to be a Guy Thing
A Wedding, A Parade, A Family Affair
SCHOOL DAYS
Everything I Needed to Know I Learned from my Sons’ Kindergarten Teacher
Project Help
The Most Wonderful Time of the Year
The Last Field Trip
What’s In Your Lunch Bag?
1000 Things to Teach Them Before They Graduate
CELEBRATIONS
Birthdays on the Bubble
Birthdays from One to Ninety-Two
Merry Birthday. Happy Christmas.
Writing on Eggshells
A Pillowcase of Costumes
Thinking Thankful
Sitting at the Big Table
Messing with Tradition
Tilting the Tree (and other slanted celebrations)
From the Kitchen of…
Piecing Things Together
Cookies for Conversation
Believing in Make-Believe
Whose Home for the Holidays?
A Boy, A Box, and Packing Peanuts
A Simpler, Kinder Christmas
What A Bargain
THE FAMILY FRONT
Get the Picture
Under a crisp, sunny summer sky, serious faces study programs, debate odds and circle sure winners in the racing form. There were a few minutes to post as my family mills around, each one with an ink pen at the ready. It’s our annual Uncle George Day at the horse races. This group of about twenty is focused on how to parlay two dollars into two hundred. Everyone, that is, except me. My winning ticket involves capturing this moment with one snap of my digital camera.
Corralling chickens is easier.
Hours earlier, we set up lawn chairs and spread blankets on the trackside apron in preparation for a picnic of sandwiches, fruit, and chips. Gathered alongside my husband Nick and my sons Shawn, Jake, and Seth are sisters, brothers, uncles, aunts, nieces, nephews, cousins and longtime friends. None are interested in the future importance of photos chronicling our outing to where the turf meets the surf. More attention is paid to an oversized bag of kettle corn propped against the cooler.
Nonetheless, I remain undaunted and perhaps a tad annoying. It’s not every day this group, spread over hundreds of miles, is together. Hoping to placate me—and have a chance to get their bets in before the windows close—people slowly shifted into frame. A few even smiled. I smiled back as I take the picture.
Oh, don’t move,
I said. And the voice of any one of my sons replied, We’ve got to take two.
With the images safely stored on my flash drive, everyone moved to their original places. The sound of a trumpet played in the distance. A few scurried to the betting windows, seemingly mesmerized by names like Briarpatch Betty, Countyourwinnings and Pappaspepper. The younger kids scampered toward the metal fence surrounding the track and watched the horses and their jockeys trot to the starting gate. I breathed a sigh. Another family memory captured for eternity.
My gang hasn’t realized it yet, but someday these random snapshots converted to digital data will become family treasures. We moms know. That’s why many of us assumed the role of family photographer/historian, with the same seamless leadership and commitment we exhibited as family party planner, nutritionist, and chauffeur. And this usually means we’re not in the picture—at least most of the time. That’s a small price to pay in exchange for the satisfaction of having the images of those we love preserved on a sheet of photo paper, tucked into a family album or captured on a computer slide show.
I wasn’t always a fan of digital photography. I mistrusted anything I couldn’t drop off at the drugstore for developing. It took nearly a year after receiving a digital camera from my husband for Christmas before I traded in my insecure attachment of film rolls for the convenience, efficiency, and quality of a digicam. I fell in love with knowing instantaneously whether the photo was good or not. No more waiting days or weeks to find out I had blinked, someone had looked away, or one of my sons (or their pals) had photo-bombed the picture.
Later that day, while everyone else gathered around the dining room table recapping their winners and losers, I snuck off to my computer to download the candid shots snapped in between races. I lingered a moment and after a few mouse clicks, I opened a digital slide show of other family events.
One son’s first day at kindergarten, their grandmother’s 80th birthday, the sweet smile of a new bride. It doesn’t matter where the pictures are stored—in an album, on a hard drive or at a photo-sharing site. Or whether my face is in the group smiling from the image. I’m part of the moment and the emotion that only a photo can preserve.
I smiled as the images glided past, reminding me of forgotten occasions. Like the Saturday morning I had awoken everyone early for a family portrait. The professional photographer insisted the light at the beach was best before the clouds vanished, sometime around seven a.m. Complaints and protests—mostly Nick’s—echoed in my ears.
Why are we up earlier than the sun?
he asked, as he and our sons trudged barefoot through the sand to reach a seawall.
Wearing rolled-up jeans and white T-shirts, our fivesome posed casually, while the photographer captured our smiles forever. It’s a great portrait.
And this time, I’m in the picture.
Spring Cleaning
Somewhere in the Laguna Mountains, the frost is melting. The anticipated warmth will bring a bumper crop of bunnies, chicks, and baby deer. My daffodil bulbs were in the ground and I’m awaiting their buttery yellow blooms in the next couple weeks. Soon butterflies and ladybugs will skitter through my backyard. I felt invigorated at the prospect of new beginnings, fresh starts, clean slates. I marvel at the outdoors, ready to burst with new life.
For me, though, it’s the crowded indoors—specifically my cabinets, closets, and storage shelves—that are busting out all over. I feared that one more windbreaker, jacket, or muffler hooked onto my entryway coat rack will topple it over like a poorly played Jenga game. The hall closet’s sagging wardrobe pole was a hoodie away from snapping, and there was nowhere to wedge another forgotten golf club, baseball mitt, or shin guard into the under-the-staircase closet.
With five people living under one roof, lots of can’t-live-without possessions seeped into our home over the years, found a cozy nook, and made themselves comfortable. Hardly noticing new belongings had arrived, I just scooted, squeezed, and crammed a bit more into our finite space. It wasn’t until I knocked over a glass trying to put my Best Mom coffee mug back in the cupboard that I realized even a Dixie cup wouldn’t fit on the shelf. To open up space, I toyed briefly with relocating some of my dishes to the pantry, but there wasn’t any room in there either.
I admired women who seamlessly kept clutter to a minimum. With their family’s blessing and support, they implemented organizational plans, strategies, and charts. They wouldn’t be making a guest appearance on a TV show about hoarders. In my campaign to be counted among them, last year I adopted a policy: New One In-Old One Out. Now, every time I added a blouse or dress to my stash, I eagerly donated a gently worn one to the local women’s shelter or charity.
I was always on the hunt for other stuff to recycle, too. If I could repurpose one extraneous thing a day, by the end of the year, I will have reclaimed area currently occupied by 365 dust catchers, neglected toys, and underused garments. I kept a carton in the corner of my garage to corral donations. At the moment it held a couple cell phone cases, a deep fryer, four plastic baseball cap bowls and two pairs of sneakers.
I’m about forty-seven items behind schedule.
Obviously, I’m not the one who’s afraid to remove stuff. It’s my family who can’t let go. And when you’re outnumbered four to one (counting my husband Nick), it’s nearly impossible to streamline. I’ve pleaded, cajoled, and threatened my fab four in the hopes of igniting their urge to purge, all to no avail. They liked cramming more into their closets and dresser drawers. It’s gotten so bad that my laundry baskets now doubled as portable chifforobes.
I haven’t given up, though. Recently, I introduced my own clutter-clearing idea: the S.T.U. Clothing Exchange Program. To qualify for new Socks, T-shirts and Underwear, the owner must relinquish a threadbare, hole-y one of similar design. No turning in your brother’s soccer shorts, or Dad’s baseball shirt for credit toward a new pair of boxers.
I’ve been tempted—when they aren’t looking—to toss out some of their excess, but I stink at stealth operations. So yesterday, in the spirit of spring cleaning, I confronted them in their rooms—Salvation Army donation bag clutched in hand—and began filling it, forcing Nick and my sons Jake and Seth to defend what they truly wanted to keep and to sacrifice the stuff they’d forgotten they had.
My oldest son Shawn has moved out of the family home. A lot of his belongings have not. Boxes of mementos, trophies, and other memorabilia too precious for him to discard (or take with him) lived on in my closet shelves, bookcases, and corners of the garage.
I understood Shawn’s attachment, though. I hung on to stuff I might never use again, like a dog-eared copy of The Poky Little Puppy, or the orange-colored cotton apron my mom sewed in her junior-high home ec class. Baby teeth, grade-school award programs, all-star jackets, and a wedding dress were safely tucked inside my hope chest.
Clearly, I’m onboard with protecting cherished bits and pieces of the past. It’s the unmatched soccer socks, outgrown sweatpants and soda can koozies I wanted relocated to new digs. Well, maybe next year.
The Best of Buddies
My family was standing near the avocado trees in a corner of our back yard. There was whispered conversation, muffled sniffles. Lots of eyes stared at the ground. Occasionally, a finger moved to wipe away tears as they trailed down a cheek. Nick stood off to the side holding a shovel.
It’s not the first time this solemn-faced group had gathered like this. The seven of us (including family friends Lisa and Rachel) stood in this same spot two years ago to say good-bye to Max, our soccer-ball-chasing terrier-spaniel mix. He’d joined our family sixteen years ago after my oldest son Shawn and then-toddler Seth picked him out as a surprise for their brother Jake’s seventh birthday. My sons fell in love after watching this four-legged black fur ball toss a soccer ball in the air with his nose, then chase after it.
Today it’s Seth’s turn to say good-bye to Baylor, his childhood pet of nine years. Although he loved Max, when Seth was ten, he mounted a campaign for a dog of his own. He argued a strong case, too, relying heavily on Max’s obsession to escape the confines of our home. Next to eating snails, plotting backyard breakouts was Max’s favorite pastime.
He’s here all day by himself,
Seth said, playing the loneliness angle. Max wouldn’t try to get out of the backyard if he had a buddy.
To seal the deal, Seth pledged to feed, scoop, and walk his future pet.
So, seven years later, we returned from the animal shelter with a playmate for Max—a five-year-old beagle mix. There were many pets to choose from, but one stood out from the pack. As Seth approached, Baylor introduced himself by standing on his back legs and using his front ones, he hugged this potential owner-to-be around the waist. When Seth hugged back, I knew he was hooked.
In truth, so was I.
Our caramel-colored dog came equipped with chocolate brown eyes, a tire-tread-marked broken tail (that we had docked) and a bit of emotional baggage. He was skittish, submissive, and in the beginning, sat with his back against a wall so nothing—or no one—could sneak up from behind. Instead of chasing a kicked soccer ball, Baylor would run to get out of the way. He was a lover, not a sportsman.
On lazy afternoons, he’d lay his head on your lap, waiting for a rubdown. If you stopped too soon, Baylor nuzzled your hand as if to say, Continue, please.
Max stopped burrowing for an exit and the pair became best friends. At fifteen years old (that’s 105 for you and me), it was time for Baylor to join Max in doggie heaven.
In the coolness of a Saturday morning, we waited for Seth who stood in the middle of the semi-circle, head tilted down, clutching a paving stone. Fighting to keep his composure, he read the words he chose:
Baylor. A big buddy with an even bigger heart.
Seth used his fingers to wipe the plaque clean and then knelt down to lay the stone on the freshly turned soil. Inches away, another marker reads: Max. A wise friend and the best buddy.
With the short ceremony over, the group turned around to see a duo of curious onlookers—Bandit and Jersey Girl, our newest pet members. About a year ago, we discovered Bandit, a rat terrier, at the same animal shelter as her two predecessors. Jersey Girl, a comical mixture of Yorkie and Chinese-crested powderpuff, was adopted from a local rescue group a few months later.
Not to be outdone by the memory of the senior boy dogs, these young girls swaggered as they survey the grounds once ruled by Max and Baylor. I wondered how their personalities and peculiarities would unfold. So far, neither has demonstrated an aptitude for soccer or eating snails, but they were fans of snack time, a good belly rub, and snarling at the mail carrier.
Dog tags jingled as Bandit and Jersey Girl romped around the yard, chasing after a bee or a butterfly. I closed my eyes and imagined that it was Max or Baylor barking at the sound of the neighbor’s lawnmower.
In between keeping the water bowls full and the leashes ready for a walk, I learned a lot about commitment, trust, and love from a pair of pooches. Max and Baylor would be pleased that all those years of education wouldn’t go to waste.
The Leader of the Pack
I stood in our backyard holding the chewed wires of what had been our automatic sprinkler system. Looking up at me was Bandit, our excited, twelve-pound rat terrier. Her docked tail wagging to beat the band, she was ready to chase a tennis ball or anything else I cared to throw her way. Her soulful eyes seemed to say: What? What’s the problem?
She didn’t know how much trouble she (and I) were about to be in with my husband Nick.
This wasn’t the first time our newly adopted pet had left her (teeth) mark on something of value. Bandit had only been a member of the family for a few weeks and already the damage was piling up. My son Seth’s football jersey, the buttons on Nick’s dress shirt and my pink cashmere slippers were the most recent casualties. We were learning fast that this eighteen-month-old pup secretly possessed a three-foot vertical leap. Nothing was safe.
At first, I was a nonbeliever. Clueless in the ways of this hunting breed, I thought that our possessions were secure if stored a couple feet off the floor. Goes to show how wrong a girl could be.
Proof positive came when Seth yelled to me from inside the garage. He’d just found Bandit curled atop his clean and neatly folded clothes, snoozing comfortably in the laundry basket on our pool table. She’d also nibbled the table’s corners, but we haven’t told Nick yet.
I hadn’t been naïve enough to think that being Mom to Shawn, Jake, and Seth wouldn’t include taking care of a pet or two. I knew I’d help with feeding, scooping, emptying, walking, and cleaning. But I never dreamed I’d be challenged like this.
Starting when Shawn was about four, we have loved dogs Buttons, Ozzie and Harriet, Butterscotch and Hopscotch, and cats Boots and Stripey. Our family menagerie included a series of hamsters known as Hamstie I, Hamstie II, and Shawn Claude von Hamstie; parakeets Larry, Phoenix, and Cheetah; and aquarium dwellers Wet and Feisty the Fish. None of these critters gave me any trouble—save a couple hamster breakouts, an occasional accident on the carpet, and a bird that didn’t want to go back into her cage.
For the past ten years, our current pooches Max and Baylor have shared love, companionship, and an occasional dead opossum with us. We’ve watched their muzzles slowly turn gray and their lively gait slow to a saunter. Maybe that’s why I thought it was a good idea to mix in a younger four-legged member to our household. Nick took a little more convincing.
I first spotted Bandit among row after row of animal faces