Rest and Be Thankful
By Emma Glass
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'Haunting yet beautifully written. I couldn't put it down. A masterpiece' POPPY DELEVINGNE
Laura is a nurse in a paediatric unit. On long shifts she cares for sick babies, carefully handling their exquisitely breakable bodies.
Laura needs a rest. When she sleeps, she dreams of drowning; when she wakes, she can't remember getting home. And there is a strange figure dancing in the corner of her vision, with a message, or a warning.
'Blends gnawing tension and surging tenderness ... Glass's battlefield prose calls to mind the literature of the trenches. This, though, is a trauma-generating war on death and despair fought for us in every city, every day' i paper
'Touching, devastating, almost absurdly pertinent ... What, Glass asks, do we expect from our caregivers, and how do we repay them for the burdens we lay on them?' Times Literary Supplement
'The ward scenes, with their crystalline descriptions of the vertiginous business of care, exquisitely beat out the ceaseless rhythms of life on a hospital front line' Metro
'Thrusts the reader into the pulse-raising fear, frenzy and relief of work in a paediatric intensive-care unit ... A battlefield atmosphere arises from Glass's prose as she recounts the time-stopping teamwork that aims to preserve tiny, fragile lives' Economist
Emma Glass
Emma Glass was born in Wales in 1987 and is now based in London, where she writes and works as a children's nurse. Her debut novel Peach was published by Bloomsbury in 2018, has been translated into seven languages and was long-listed for the International Dylan Thomas Prize. Her second novel Rest and Be Thankful will be published by Bloomsbury in 2020. @Emmas_Window
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5well pictures of every scene that deliver sadness. Please everyone read this!!!
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A hauntingly original tale – I am deeply impressed by the talent of this author, Emma Glass. The story is told from the first person point of view, yet the style is so different from the usual book as Glass is masterful at describing things as you would experience them, as your brain tries to process what’s happening, rather than simply telling you the conclusion of what actually occurs.
*Thank you to Emma Glass, Bloomsbury USA, and NetGalley for providing a free Advance Reader Copy of the novel in exchange for this honest review.*
This novel is as close as you will ever come to experiencing what it’s like to be a night-shift nurse in a ward for critically ill children, unless you actually are one. The late nights, the exhaustion, the hands so cracked from repeated washings that they practically bleed. Laura is exhausted, with barely the energy to get home each day to sleep, try to remember to eat, and to get up the next night to do it all over again. You find yourself wondering how she keeps going, but her dedication to her job and the babies she’s helping to save keep her going, even as she is on the verge of collapse and certain hallucinations.
A moving novel, and one I’m so glad I got to experience. I’m rating it at four starts for “I really liked it” to recognize that I was supremely struck by the styling of this story, while at the same time I found the narrative a bit hard to follow in some moments, and the ending left me quite shocked – 1) That the book was over; and 2) in the choice to end the story the way it did.
I highly recommend the novel, however, especially if someone you know and/or love is in the medical field. It’s so easy to overlook their historically overlong shifts and lack of ability for self-care in the face of helping their patients.
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#NetGalley - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Very poetic and haunting story, but a little too ephemeral.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5My first Emma Glass. I found her use of language masterful and mesmerising, almost every sentence drew a visceral reaction. It's a winding, warbling, drowning in words and emotions. You can't help but be caught in in Laura's world.
However, the other worldly visions are not explored or explained so sit raw and gaping ooze in the landscape of the story. And I definitely didn't like the ending of it means what I think t means, hence only 3 stars. A little too macabre at times for my taste. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Delightfully Gothic, queasy, compact novel that has a really tactile sense of immediacy to the writing- admirable conciseness of detail
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Rest and Be Thankful - Emma Glass
Glass
Where You End, I Begin
The door is swinging, heavy, thumping against the wall. Each thump marks a person entering, marks a person exiting, marks the solid purposeful movements of the people in the room. Marks our collective breath in, breath out, we breathe together. Held too long. We hold and wait for the beat to return. The door thumps against the wall too hard this time, someone looks up and says no no, there are too many people in here now, please go. The ones that are left look around the room at each other. We all have the same eyes, the same chapped lips and wet brows. We are all different shades of blue.
The door is closed but the thumping continues, a steady dull pumping sound, and every now and then a puff of air a puff of air and the thumping continues. The sound is hollow. The sound is bone pounding on soft bone, a flat heart, lungs filled with oxygen from a tank, oxygen soon to spill and fill the belly and the pumping will be harder and my arms are aching already. My feet are off the floor, I am kneeling next to the little one. I am over her body with my weight. I am the thumping sound. My fingers are interlocked, the heel of my hand is red and sore, my hands and arms are drained white, two long fixed posts pounding. I am counting. Am I counting out loud or am I counting in my head? I feel the bed creak as more weight is added. Someone is moving close to me with a tray of needles, I see the corners of white paper towels unfolding, draping over the little legs. I move my eyes off the chest, there are faces all around me, distorted, crooked with concentration. These are the faces of people I don’t know very well, but they are the faces of people I trust.
There are tools everywhere. Tools for fixing the broken. I think of my father with his toolbox rattling. Opening, nails and screws rolling across the workbench. A wrench for this. A screwdriver. Holding still. And then the all-important squirt of oil. We must oil it or it will squeak and stick. He reaches up for a rag hanging on a metal hook and wipes his big hands, brown from working outside, cracked and dry from endless wet weather. I marvel at the big blue bulging veins. We could do with one of those now. A big vein. Or we will have to drill into bone to get fluid inside. Hands run up the limp limbs. There is nothing here, there is nothing here. There is nothing on the other side. The hands travel down the legs. They examine the feet but the feet are cold. The veins are thin and buried deep in the cold, like saplings under snow.
I close my eyes to drown out the sound of the drill. The leg vibrates as the needle goes in and then it pops and then it stops. I hear someone say ‘Jesus’ and I wonder if it was me.
Lines are connected. Fluid is injected. I am told by the nurse in the darkest blue to keep going, to keep pace. Time stretches, rolling out clumsily like cling film, air holes, splits, wrinkles. We will be told of the smooth, controlled management of the situation. But I will remember the breaths missed, the shaking hands, the wrong-size tube, the dropped vials, the spilt fluid, the people, all the people aimlessly standing and staring and shitting themselves.
I turn my head to the window and see her mother. She has one hand covering her eyes, no, not covering, clawing at her eyes, one arm pressed against the glass. She is bent in half, barely standing. A nurse is behind her, one hand on her shoulder, another arm ready to catch her. A position we have all been taught. We are all taught to brace. I look back down at my threaded fingers. Locked in. Pain rages up my arms and across my shoulders. I keep going. Each compression means everything.
And this could all mean nothing.
The darkest blue asks me to pause. The world stops. I watch her face as she comes close to me, she reaches for the little arm, she presses deeply for a pulse. The determination on her face is years deep, cracked like unloved concrete. She steps back and nods, she touches my aching shoulder and says, ‘You’ll sleep well tonight.’
I Dream of Darkness
The ceiling is collapsing. Shards of plaster strike the bed. Chipped paint flakes and falls. Falls like snowflakes. Snow and cold. Coldness and wetness, but no water. Through the small hole, through the slits and cracks, I see stars.
I push through the rubble and crumble of ceiling and stretch my arms to the sky, reach up and rip the hole wide open. Reaching, I realise I can touch the sky. I float through the ceiling and I am close. Endless night. Deep blue. Colder as I float closer. Ice runs through my airways, my breath is a silver cloud. I press my palms against the surface and feel the coldness of the night. It sticks deep in my bones. Brittle ice, bitter cold. My shuddering skeleton rattles against the thick sheet of frozen sky. Dense and dark. The stars have disappeared.
I push against the solid sky to propel myself away from the impenetrable cold. My hands are blue and numb. I think I might fall. The cold has turned my core to concrete, I think I will drop like a stone, but I sink slowly, slowly down. The sky spreads out beneath me and is all around. Thick midnight ink. Sinking slowly. Thick ink but then thinner and thin and then I realise I can swim. I swim strangely through the deep blue, my arms and legs convulsing until the ice melts away from my muscles.
I swim through different shades of dark. Blue, black, dark blue, darker black. I follow the little specks of light that fleck from the glittering frost forming on my fingertips. The moon shines somewhere. I feel water ripple between my fingers as I move forwards. Cold water surrounds me. I’m in a lake. The lake has frozen over. I am trapped in darkness, treading the bitter water. I have been swimming forever. Tiredness tries to take me down to the bottom of the lake, to lie down and sleep on the soft bed of silken black reeds. They billow beautifully, dancing with the gentle current. My heavy eyelids weigh me down as I drift closer to the darkness. To sleep, just for a moment, to rest. My limbs are seized by cold and fatigue. I drift closer down to the reed bed, steady as a plank, ready to close my eyes and sleep the rest of my life, the soft sounds of the rippling reeds and water swooshing, soothing me to peaceful sleep. Then, I see.
At first, a figure, a faceless form, a shadow settled in silt. Reeds have grown over, woven and bound the body. A body. Draped in black, a black dress swelling, skirts surging. As I drift closer, I see her face, her features drawn and shaded softly in graphite pencil, smudged across her papery skin. Close, almost close enough to touch her. I lift my arm of lead and frost-bound fingers to touch her luminous cheek.
Her eyes flick open. The hushing gushing sounds of the sucking water stop. All noise and colour drain away. In the pitch black her face shines sickly white, picked out by a shard of moonlight. She slowly opens her mouth, a black hole, wide.
‘WAKE UP.’
The words gurgle loudly from her mouth, her mouth opens wider and wider until her jaw falls away, her face falls away, blackness remains. Her words rise in silver bubbles. I look down into the darkness as the reeds reach out to tangle around my toes and tug me down into nothingness. I kick and flail with dead-weight limbs through the freezing water, trying to propel myself to the surface, her words making waves, rushing behind me through the water, lifting me up.
My head hits the ice. I slam my fists against it until my skin is bruised and bleeding. I taste metal in my mouth. There is no shift or drift in the ice. It caps the lake tightly. No air. No breathing. Screaming, until my lungs lock and stop. I don’t want to die in the dark. Don’t want to drown. What happens if you die in a dream? The water in my lungs weighs me down. Nothing in me but cold water and darkness. Nothing to fight with, nothing to fight for. All lights out. Just hush and shushing water. Soothing. And soon to be silent. A soft way to end.