Brand New Spacesuit
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John Gallaher
John Gallaher’s most recent poetry collection, In A Landscape was published by BOA Editions in 2014. He is also the author, together with G.C. Waldrep, of Your Father on the Train of Ghosts (BOA, 2011), which was written in collaboration almost completely through email. His poetry collection, The Little Book of Guesses (Four Way Books, 2007), was the recipient of the Levis Poetry Prize. Gallaher is currently the co-editor of The Laurel Review and The Akron Series in Contemporary Poetics, and is an assistant professor of English at Northwest Missouri State. He lives in Maryville, MO.
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Brand New Spacesuit - John Gallaher
THE NEW FORMALITY
You approach the world from a great distance. "If I should
love you more, you are to say,
then I shall love you more."
Such things are elemental, like how the failures of a country
are to be repeated, because there’s a center to things.
Approach the backyard as if the backyard were a sudden
appearance. Approach the car as if you were one half
of a medallion broken in antiquity by a mystical king
to stop some great, evil power, and you’re forever now in search
of your missing twin. "A car should never have this power
over one, you are to say,
then I shall love it more." The road
is a kicked up veil of fallen leaves, and this incantation
you’re in, where you’re driving, and your thoughts unspool
beneath you. There are these two ideas, that one grows
through nurture and that one grows through strife.
They’re in identical boxes on a shelf in your garage.
Say you’re thinking, "There are no things here but in the ideas
of things," wanting to bring back the 20th century
from a hole in the yard. You’re a king of things. "Bring back
that time when my child was six," you ask the road
ahead of you, driveway after driveway. For love,
there are things you must say. The stripe in the road glistens.
It rises in front of you, floating in perfect orange, the best orange
you’ve ever seen, an orange that says, "You’ll never see
orange this orange again. This will be the definition of orange
that will continually rise before you and behind you
down the road. Unbroken." I will love you more.
AND THE MOON ON ITS STEM WILL STEAL YOU AWAY
That’s a good one, the idea of the moon having a stem and somehow
stealing you, whoever you are, kind of like Persephone or Orpheus,
portrayed or alluded to in countless forms of art and popular culture
including poetry, film, opera, music, and painting. And it kind of fits
my mood this morning, something vaguely cartoonish and devoid
of real gravitas, but still, a kind of realism, even so. And the area
around is the void, outer space, nothing, because explaining things
is never as interesting as wanting them, the desire to know, set against
a backdrop of black velvet and rhinestones. Let’s say that you wake up
one day and realize you don’t remember anything that happened
yesterday. Maybe for five minutes or so. And for those five minutes
you’re thinking, as I was thinking this morning, that this is it. Car keys.
The word for when you really want something and work for it.
Your dog’s name. There are not enough blank pages for all this
forgetting, like debris falling back to earth, you and yours hiding
in the underbrush with hopes of your own, of rescue or escape.
When you don’t remember why you’re hiding in the underbrush,
you’ve been hiding in the underbrush forever. This whole other
existence leaps forward in possibility. And then the five minutes
are up, and it’s oh yeah, eggs, Saturday. Some day that was.
A chemist once told me luminol was her favorite color. It glows
a beautiful greenish-blue when it comes into contact with blood
by reacting to the iron in hemoglobin, looking a bit like the sky
this morning. It’s a kind of truth of blue, that uncovers, that
remembers. It’s used by investigators to detect blood at crime scenes
where no blood is visible. That’s what I need, the beautiful blue
morning of remembering, as there are so many things to forget,
to lose, and in so many different ways. But even so, one can be wrong
about the past, and deduce from error, but still be right about
the future or the present. And when you don’t remember what day
it is, happy birthday. Despite all our best efforts, there’s a wolf
on the horizon making a movie of your approach, and it’s
a shipwreck playing across me as I’m pouring sugar into my cup.
PLUTO ELEGY
I have also lost much. I’m your summer boy, I would have said.
I believe in a lot of things, I would have said. The movie of my life,
for instance. The one we always talk about, the one with Kevin Bacon
and Audrey Hepburn playing the guardians of Hell. We proposed it
as Elegy for the Next President, and the blink comparator slides
came back with forms of building something within which we can place
ourselves. Everything’s always new in this way. The writer of Ecclesiastes
proved it with a camel and a cigarette. We were thinking of Canada
again, and people on balconies doing cocaine. It was their summer
movie. They could see the orbit of Uranus pulled in several directions,
from priests to killers, to all the slivers of soap I should have saved
and maybe carved into a sculpture of a Glock 19 and then covered
in black shoe polish to help in my daring escape. This palace we all want
to step from. The clouds are soft and the stars reach out to be held.
But don’t we all. It’s just another climbing wall where what goes on there
can’t hear you, going from a god to Mickey Mouse’s dog, which seems
small candles now, just a little joke on the fate of gods. You’ve got
to keep the faith, friend. Say the dog is the dog, the new dog, and the dog
is a footrest. Say the dog is three ships whose argument of perihelion
liberates around 90 degrees. We’ll let it slide into the white translucent
Yankee style we picture ourselves tracing that makes us feel better
for where we’ve been and what we’ve done. We’ll say the dog falls
from moon to moon covered in summer. It’s our summer dog. Maybe
that’s what we were talking about anyway with each other in that crowded
bar when we couldn’t hear ourselves. A: Would you like a drink?
B:
Think about what?
And so on, with the bouncers working the door,
long bored with weather and vomit, tugging away at the frayed end
of the 20th century. And then everything is red ropes. Like Pluto,
just some ghost you walk through unaware, a cold patch. And you’ve
no explanation why you feel so happy, free once again to mingle,
suddenly the largest thing you don’t need, that you’ll never need.
WHY DESSERT IS MORE MEMORABLE THAN DINNER
At what age is it when we realize we know much about diminished
things? I want it to be a real age. A real answer. And I don’t want it
to be diminished things,
either. I want a list. I don’t want it to be
different for everyone.
As the news makes a meaning, the landscape
makes a meaning, this moment, and this life, all the thises there are,
a unity of experience that forms a layer of solace over the truth
of diminished things, is a way to say I’ve passed through the veil.
But it keeps not happening. It’s veils all the way down. "Just
remember, Duckies, the ineffable says,
everybody gets in rows."
And that’s supposed to be a version of an answer, saying we
have this common experience, misery’s company, but for most of us
it’s just company, a world of company, where I/we want more stories
of going to the supermarket, buying something, then going home
unmolested. Stories with beginnings, middles, and ends, where nothing
inevitable happens, nothing irrevocable. I want to call it "hope
for the future," a glorious hopefulness of orthodontist appointments,
soccer practice (4:15–5:30 Tuesdays and Thursdays), the promises
solid things bring. And I want color, bright, impossible color.
Jolly Rancher Green, Jolly Rancher Red, because color is happiness.
It’s first day,
steeping in it, knowing it, the first one to open
the package, the brand new smell of getting to the future a bit ahead
of everyone else, because when else is it, that any of us is at our most
something. I spend a lot of time asking that. I’d sit with each one of you
and ask, and have follow-up questions. I’m sure I’d have follow-up
questions, as for each glorious hopefulness
contender, each best,
happiest, there’s some fundamental thing that hasn’t figured in yet,
or has figured in differently than we thought, where we miscounted
the monthly car sales or the milk order, all of which goes into the mix
of phrases like "I didn’t know it then, but that was the best time
in my life." So if you were back there again, you’d need to bring
all the rest of your life with you, and if you did that, you’d drown,
or it would seem bland, unremarkable. And I’d hate to see
that happen to the most hopeful time in my life, when we
were at our best, standing in the full sun on the back porch.
STEP FIVE Is TO MAKE YOUR OWN HAPPY LIST
And then there are those days (Look! The sun still rises!)
where you have this feeling you want to love something,
or you want to say or do something positive, but you can’t think
of anything, so that the moment is lost in this search
for the what. The spirit is willing but the subject has failed
to show up. There’s this go fish
quality to wandering,
but only if one is in the open mood, where whatever one
happens upon next is OK. There are many ways to make sense.
This morning, I’m remembering fondly the days browsing
card catalogues, as I imagine the landfills they now inhabit,
because browsing’s a kind of happiness, finding out new things,
purposeful stumbling. How many books are there with Elvis
in the title? 740,934 in our database. The solidity
of the card catalogue, oh happy furniture, proof of our need
for proof. To cultivate happiness, one must remember six things
while browsing, I’ve read. And I’m sure it’s going to be
the sort of thing you can print off or clip out, maybe crochet
into inspirational framed art for the refrigerator and send
to the randomness