Shadow of Death: A Laura Nelson Thriller
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Nominated Best First Novel, International Thriller Writers
This is a world you would never want to enter . . . or forget
Pull a trigger and everything changes. Medical student Laura Nelson had just finished examining her first patient when she is forced to make a split-second decision that will alter the course of her life—forever.
One life will end, and one life will never be the same. But keeping her dreadful secret will be one of the toughest challenges Laura will ever face. With a persistent and perceptive detective hot on her trail and a host of eerie incidents suggesting that maybe her secret isn't really a secret, Laura is drawn into an unseemly web of peril, deceit, and treachery and is forced to risk both her freedom and her sanity.
Will her deadly secret come to light, or must she live forever in the shadow of death?
Set amidst the upheaval and smoldering chaos of the Detroit riots of 1967, Shadow of Death is a haunting tale of unrest, fear, and consequences. Hailed as a stunning debut novel, Shadow of Death provides a spine-chilling glimpse of what lurks in the shadows.
Perfect for fans of Tess Gerritsen and Kathy Reichs
While all of the novels in the Laura Nelson Series stand on their own and can be read in any order, the publication sequence is:
Shadow of Death
Twisted Justice
Weapon of Choice
After the Fall
Patricia Gussin
Best-selling author Patricia Gussin is a physician who grew up in Grand Rapids, Michigan, practiced in Philadelphia, and now lives on Longboat Key, Florida. She is also the author of Shadow of Death, Thriller Award nominee for “Best First Novel”, Twisted Justice, The Test, and And Then There Was One. She and her husband, Robert Gussin, are the authors of What’s Next…For You?
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Laura is a medical student, who, despite the fact that her husband would rather that she stay home and raise their children, works hard each day in the classroom as well as in the hospital when she is seeing patients. After she is raped and forced to defend herself with deadly force, she fights to keep the events of that evening a secret, even as she learns how close her family is to that of her assailant.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I rated this book 4 stars because it was truelly an incredible book!!!! This book was about a young doctor from Detroit and she lives in a bad neighborhood and there has been a lot of murders lately and unfortuantly for her she happens to be in the middle of one when she least expects it. This book is truelly a book of true love......the doctor had just gone through a lot of stuff lately and something major happened in her life and she didn't want to tell her husband because she was afraid of what he was going to think so she kept it a secret and in the end it ended up hurting everyone around her and killing the one she loved the most. It is very interesting reading a book like that because when I read that I think about how nice my town is and its really scaring comparing it to the town/ neighborhood where she lived. And the scary part is it could really happen........there are gangs everywhere now and days and its unfortunate for you if you pick just the right neighborhood with bad people. So I am very thankful for living in my neighborhood because it is peacefull and I don't have to go to bed at night and worry about murders and gangs trying to kill my family. This book is a real page turner and it goes right to your hurt when you read this. I suggest that you read this and find out what happens, it truelly is an amazing book!!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I admit, from the first page this book had me completely hooked. The premise of story, such a controversial time in history, has always fascinated me, and this was no exception. I love medical dramas, being in the medical field myself, so this was right up my alley. The story started out strong, and the tension never stopped building, not even up to the last pages. That being said, though, there were definitely some jarring errors I noticed within this novel.
First, the drama that is involved right at the beginning of the book between Laura and Johnny seemed a little...rushed, a little brushed off. I understand it was written within a rush of riotous scenes, but still. The casualness in which her husband brushed off their lack of love life bothered me a little too. I know for one my husband would at least find it suspicious.
The book, though, hit quite a few things right on the head as far as accuracy goes, especially the affair and the failed relationships between the human doctors. From what I have seen, it's all too common for that to happen in the medical world. The action was intense, and the story kept me clinging to the pages until I got to the last page. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Debut novel taking place around the 1967 riots in Detroit.. Chaos is unleased and the lives of people who should never have met begin to collide with deadly force.
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Shadow of Death - Patricia Gussin
23
PROLOGUE
DETROIT, JUNE 1971
Emotionally drained, too numb for more tears, the young woman sagged in the battered lawn chair, the lone piece of furniture except for the crib positioned diagonally across the room. The lingering dusk of early June threw darkening shadows, but the woman made no move to turn on the bare overhead light. Cradling her head in her hands, she sat slumped, still wearing the black crepe dress that she’d worn to the services. She’d known it was too short, the scooped neck cut too low for a funeral, but there had been no time to shop for bereavement apparel.
The woman was alone, but for the baby sound asleep in the portable crib. Through the open screen door, the lone voice of a mother calling her children intruded into the silence as she faced her reality: death, a death she’d never be able to reconcile as long as she lived. The cloying scent of the flowers, banks of them, arranged in a sweeping semi-circle around the coffin still permeated her nostrils, making every breath a sickening throb. No matter how tightly she squeezed her eyes shut, she could see him lying in front of her, close enough to touch. If only his chest were to rise up and down with each respiration as in peaceful sleep. Eyes closed quite naturally. Hair combed just so. Navy blue pin-stripe suit, cut and pressed to perfection. White shirt, midnight blue patterned tie. But the plastic sheen on his face and lips pressed too close together, penetrated through her grief, forcing her to face reality.
How had it come to this, she asked herself over and over? Cowardice and selfish deceptions? Now it was too late. Tomorrow she would leave this place forever.
The baby whimpered, and the woman slowly lifted her head. With a heavy heart, she rose to go to her child. Please, God, protect this innocent child. Don’t let my baby pay the price for my mistakes.
PART ONE
CHAPTER ONE
SEPTEMBER 1967, FOUR YEARS EARLIER, DETROIT
Laura Nelson let out a long breath, clutched her black bag, and headed toward the men’s surgical ward. She didn’t know that walking into that room would impact her life forever.
I’m so nervous,
she whispered to her fellow med student, Susan Reynolds.
They are why we’re here. Right? Real live patients.
With a thumbs up, Susan crossed the hall to her assigned ward.
Laura and Susan were first year students at University Medical School and best friends. So far all their courses had been in the classroom or labs: anatomy, physiology, biochemistry, histology. But today they were in City Hospital to do a history and physical examination on their very first patient.
Laura was apprehensive, but also very excited. Until today, she had stepped inside a hospital only twice, for the birth of her two children — cheery semi-private rooms, happy memories. Now she stared into the men’s ward at City Hospital, aghast at the medieval scene. Narrow cots lined all four walls and patients were crammed so close together they practically touched. A disinfectant odor mixed with foul human smells twisted her stomach. Groans, droning equipment, clanking bed rails, made her wonder how she’d be able to concentrate on her list of questions.
Squinting to locate her patient among a sea of mostly black faces, she realized that all eyes were on her as one of the patients let out a whistle. She blushed self-consciously. Ignore them, she said to herself. Holding her head high, Laura moved to the foot of bed 5 where her eyes settled on an emaciated young male with grayish dark skin. Distracted by a hissing noise coming from a machine connected to a hole in the boy’s neck, she stood for a moment, gaping at it. The respirator synchronized the rise and fall of the chest with the wheezy sound. Other than that, her patient’s body was perfectly still. Was he unconscious or just sleeping?
Unzipping her instrument bag, she considered how she’d proceed if her patient was unconscious. Her instructions were to take a complete medical history, to examine the patient, and report back for a de-brief session in one hour. As she reached to awaken the boy, a plump woman, slumped in the metal chair by the head of the bed, stirred.
Excuse me, Ma’am.
The woman jerked awake, her rough hands flying to straighten her navy polyester skirt. She looked up at Laura, one hand covering her throat.
I’m Laura Nelson, one of the student doctors here.
Laura reached for the notes in the pocket of her white coat. Are you with this patient? Anthony Diggs?
Yes. He’s my baby.
What is his medical problem?
Laura asked, staring at a bulky dressing on the left side of the boy’s head. "They shot him. In the head.
The police. The riots. They say he was looting, but there’s no way he would do that. The woman’s voice dwindled.
Look what they did to him." The mother leaned over and placed a worn hand gently on her son’s cheek.
Laura hesitated a moment and swallowed. What happened then?
Your people tried to take out the bullet,
the mother responded, shaking her head back and forth. Brain surgery. Major brain surgery. Isn’t that on his chart?
Laura glanced at the chart at the end of the bed, four inches of nearly illegible notes bulging out of the cardboard binder. She was only here to practice taking a history and to do a physical examination. She wasn’t supposed to read the chart. Of course,
she improvised, rather than trying to explain that she was a mere first year student, that she hadn’t yet touched her first patient.
Anthony is a good boy,
the woman whispered, rocking forward. He’s going off to college next month, Michigan State University.
Laura had to lean forward to hear the woman over the din of the other patients. As she did, she felt a tug at the hem of her white coat. Turning, she gasped as a scrawny man in the next bed looked her up and down with beady, lecherous eyes and a grin exposing broken teeth. Both of his legs and one arm were shackled to the bed. A prisoner! Come work on me, pretty lady,
he sneered.
Not knowing what to do, Laura ignored him, turning back to her patient’s mother. I’m sorry, Mrs. Diggs,
she said. What were you saying?
Diggs was my maiden name. I’m Lucy Jones,
the woman corrected. Anthony graduated from Cass Prep with a scholarship. Now they say he will never wake up.
The woman looked at her with pleading brown eyes. Can’t you help him?
Laura, forgetting that she should act like a doctor, stood at the patient’s side and stroked the woman’s rough hand, not daring to think of anything this horrible ever happening to her boys. Then she glanced across to the other two medical students assigned to the ward. Both male, both looking very competent, strategically moving stethoscopes across their patients’ chests. Regaining her composure, she reached into her black bag and pulled out her instruments.
Why does his throat get clogged up?
Lucy asked softly. The nurses are always trying to fix it.
I don’t really know, I’m only a medical student,
Laura said. I have to ask you more questions, then examine your son.
On her way from the medical school to the hospital, Laura had imagined a normal
patient, whatever that was. Not the thin chest, the bony ribs, the gurgling sounds that filled her stethoscope as she tried to hear the heartbeat. No way could she have imagined so many tubes coming out of one body: one connecting the crusted hole in his throat to the respirator; one in his nose draining greenish stomach juices; an intravenous line in his left wrist; another tube dripping amber liquid into his right arm. Laura gawked at the tube coming out of his penis, draining rusty-orange urine. According to her notes, she was supposed to check the whole body, but she decided against turning the body over. However, she did notice beet-red sores invading his dark brown skin, oozing pus onto the loose gauze dressing on his buttocks. That must be the putrid smell that almost made her gag. Get used to it, she thought, as she performed the series of tests she’d scribbled on a cheat sheet she’d stuffed into her lab coat pocket.
When she was done, she hastily covered Anthony’s body with the white sheet and light blanket. It was after five o’clock. She was due back in the surgical conference room. After packing up her otoscope, stethoscope, reflex hammer, and jotting down a few notes, she opened the curtain and turned to the boy’s mother.
Thank you Mrs. Jones,
she said, impulsively leaning over to give the poor woman a parting hug, murmuring words she hoped were reassuring.
But Doctor, tell me—
Laura left the bedside without further comment, unable to offer any hope, mentally rehearsing what she’d report about this patient. Chief Complaint: Gunshot wound to the head.
History of Present Illness: She had nothing more from the mother, but the patient was obviously in a coma; that’s all she could tell without reading the chart, which they were not supposed to do.
Review of Systems: What could she say? It wasn’t like she could ask the patient?
Past Medical History: No health problems; didn’t smoke; didn’t use drugs or alcohol.
Family History: Diabetes on the mother’s side; mother knew nothing of the boy’s biological father’s medical history.
Social History: One half-brother; four half-sisters; mother widowed, employed, but worried about hospital bills.
How to present all this in a clear, succinct way? This was Laura’s focus as she exited the ward, scanning her notes. She hadn’t seen the young man barging toward her until he brushed so close that she dropped her notebook. She jerked to avoid him, noticing his muscular build, such a contrast to her unfortunate patient, and his skin was several shades lighter. He was dressed all in black, including a baseball cap that obscured his face.
How rude, Laura thought. Or maybe it was her fault for blocking the entrance. Whatever, she had to concentrate on her report.
She took a couple of steps forward into the hall before coming to an abrupt halt when she heard shouting behind her.
Mama, what you doin’ talkin’ to that yellow-hair bitch?
The voice was menacing, rising above the clamor.
With a start she realized that the yellow-hair bitch
must be her. She’d been the only woman with blonde hair on the ward. So what was his problem? Could he be the half-brother Mrs. Jones reported in the family history?
Curious now, she inched back to the doorway of the ward. Sure enough, the angry kid hovered over Mrs. Jones, shaking a finger in her face. Told you ’bout the one fucked up Anthony in the ’mergency room!
What was that all about? She’d never been in an emergency room. That wouldn’t be until her third year of med school.
Johnny, quiet down. Please.
She strained to hear the woman’s response.
What was that bitch doin’ here?
he shouted as Laura turned to go.
Stop it, Johnny. You’re shouting. They’ll throw you out of here.
Who was she?
he demanded.
She’s just a student doctor, honey. I could tell she was trying to help.
What more could she overhear? Nothing, she decided. She’d be late if she didn’t get going.
A few minutes past six Laura Nelson left the surgical conference room with Susan. Neither noticed the stocky young man lurking in the corridor by the stairwell.
I got an alcoholic with massive esophageal bleeding,
Susan explained. Sure wish I could go to the library to look up cirrhosis of the liver, but Dad’s picking me up. I told him to meet me in front of the hospital rather than the basic science building where we usually go out.
Anxious to tell Susan about her patient, Laura walked with her to the hospital exit. I’d love to research head injuries,
she commiserated, but I need to get home to the kids.
She missed her children, even more, after the time spent with the poor Diggs boy’s mother. Before school had begun, Laura promised herself that her highest priority, whenever possible, would be to spend the hour before bedtime with her own boys, three-year-old Mikey and three-month-old Kevin. Tonight, she needed that hour with them. Yet she had to present her patient case in the morning too.
Worried about this conflict so inherent in her career choice, she said good night to Susan, waving as she got into a dark blue sedan under the glare of spotlights. Rather than turning back to leave by the basic science building where the school provided escorts to the student parking lot, Laura decided on an alternate route, directly out the main hospital exit, cutting through the doctor’s parking lot, and walking the two blocks to her car.
Facing the block of deserted, burned-out tenements, she took a deep breath. Yes, she could still smell the smoldering ash. Or was it her imagination? The fires no longer burned, but there was a curfew. Detroit, still a tinderbox of hostility and tangible fear. With an involuntary shudder, Laura sped up her pace and tried to ignore the shifting shadows that seemed to follow her. She thought of her parents, how shocked they’d be if they knew what this neighborhood was like. Then there was Steve, her husband, who knew full well and who’d insisted that she carry a gun, which she did, but only to placate him. Where Steve grew up in northern Michigan, guns and knives and hunting were second nature.
Just one more block,
she whispered aloud, slowing a bit to avoid the debris littering the sidewalk. Thankful there were no passing cars. Thankful that there was enough light. Anxious to get home to her kids. Anxious to tackle her patient report for tomorrow.
Suddenly she lurched. Her neck snapped backward, jerking her head. A violent, painful jerk. Then she saw the glint of steel in the grayness of threatening rain as a switchblade snapped open just inches from her throat. She tried to scream. Only small, muffled sounds came out as a strong hand clamped over her mouth.
Too stunned to react, Laura felt herself being dragged through a rubble-strewn lot. The powerful hand sealed her mouth and the other arm wrapped around her body, restraining both of her arms. Where was the knife? She didn’t know.
A mugging. Just take my purse,
she tried to scream, but the man’s grip tightened, choking off her breath. Frantic, she tried to kick, but only stumbled as her assailant pulled her more deeply into the shadows of the burned-out buildings.
She closed her eyes for a second, hoping against hope that this was a nightmare. She opened them when she hit hard on what looked to be the foundation of an abandoned house. She could see crumbling concrete strewn with broken bottles and patches of dirt. Landing on her side, she scrambled to all fours, but the hand on her mouth did not relent. The ground beneath her was jagged and pieces of broken glass cut into her legs. She tried to crawl, but one muscular arm flipped her over and pinned her down on her back. The other clamped even more tightly against her mouth. She tried to bite the big hand, but the pressure intensified and she couldn’t breathe. Take my purse,
she screamed silently. Take my purse and leave me alone!
Trying to get some leverage, she groped at the uneven ground with her feet, but her assailant had dropped to his knees and dug an elbow into her chest, spreading her legs with his other hand. He shoved up her skirt and ripped off her pantyhose, shredding them.
I’m being raped!
screamed through Laura’s mind the instant she felt a strong hand against her thighs. No, this couldn’t be happening to her! This was not a mugging. He was not interested in her purse. He was going to rape her. For the first time Laura realized he was making sounds. Hisses, grunts and some words. Fuck.
Pay.
Brother.
They made no sense. She knew she should pay attention, but he was digging his fingers into her abdomen, groping for her white cotton panties. She flailed and twisted, but he yanked them down past her knees in one effortless move. Then he lowered himself onto her. His face so close to hers that she could feel each guttural breath. His bulk crushed her chest, making it hard to breathe. For the first time, she looked at his eyes, recoiling at what she saw: brown saucers, smoldering with hate.
Pinned to the hard ground, helpless against this man’s immense strength, barely able to breathe, she urged herself to think, but how could she as he pushed his body onto hers? He kept spewing obscenities, more focused now. The words fuck
and kill
and cut your throat
interspersed between incomprehensible grunts.
Kill
? He was going to kill her? She had to get away! Repeatedly, she tried to scream, but the hand crushed her lips and nose. His other hand worked his pants down and he thrust his stiff penis between her thighs.
Her struggle seemed useless, but she wouldn’t surrender. She thought of her husband, her children. Was she going to die right here? Her purse strap, wound around her right shoulder, impaired any motion on that side. Pulling her left hand free, she reached up and ripped off her attacker’s baseball cap. She tried to tear at his hair, but the head was shaved smooth. She tried to scratch at his eyes, but her nails were filed too short to make an impact. He managed to pin her arm. Something lumpy was digging into her back and she realized that the bump underneath her must be her purse. Desperate now, she felt like an animal, a trapped animal with the powerful instinct of survival taking hold.
He groaned as he shoved his penis inside her back and forth. The cadence of crude obscenities assaulted her. Fuck you, bitch doctors. Slit your fuckin’ throats.
Laura realized with horror that her attacker was acting out of hate, not lust. Hate so deep that he wanted to hurt her as much as he could. What was next? Death? Was he going to kill her with that knife? Her heart beat so fast that she thought it would explode in her chest. She had two small children. She wasn’t ready to die!
Then the threats stopped, replaced by repulsive grunts. Strangely, the brief lull in the verbal assault allowed Laura time to concentrate despite the thrusting crescendo inside of her. Again she closed her eyes tightly, opening them when he uttered a hideous, incomprehensible howl as if it came from the center of his soul. It was this terrifying, murderous sound that convinced Laura that he was really going to kill her.
She knew that her only hope was to attract attention, but his hand still silenced her. She couldn’t free her right arm far enough to pry his hand off her mouth, her purse strap was in the way. How much longer did she have to live?
And then she remembered. Oh God, could she reach it fast enough? He had just exploded inside her. Already, she could feel his erection begin to subside as his body shifted slightly to her left, just enough to allow her to tug the purse from under her. Tensing her body to stop the violent trembling, Laura slipped her right hand into that special compartment of her purse. She found it. Cold and metallic.
Laura felt his body relax and the bulk of his weight collapsed against her, but he kept his hand clamped over her mouth. Hardly able to breathe, she knew she’d have to make her move before she either passed out or he slit her throat. At the instant that she felt her assailant’s weight begin to ease off to her right side, Laura lifted the small revolver. Gripping it tightly, she withdrew it from her purse, and in a single motion she put it against the side of his smooth head and pulled the trigger. The noise of the shot was deafening.
There was a jolting motion and a sharp, burning odor. His heavy frame stiffened. Then it fell against her, pinning her left arm. With all her might, she squirmed out from under him and rolled him completely off of her onto the rubble. There was a momentary quiver and then he lay still, slumped in a fetal position, legs curled. All she could do was lay beside him, panting from her efforts, afraid that her heart would explode, too scared to even look at the dark form next to her.
How long they lay side by side, she didn’t know. But at some point she realized that it was getting dark. She felt a drop of rain. She couldn’t just lay here next to him. Was he actually dead? Had she killed him? Just the thought that she might have killed him, made her heart stop. But he was going to kill her, cut her throat, isn’t that what he said? She could hardly remember. And why hadn’t someone come? Someone must have heard the gunshot?
Finally, she realized that she had to look at him. What if he was alive? She should go for help. She’d shot him for God’s sake! Slowly rolling to her left, Laura saw it: the jagged hole in her assailant’s head. The coppery taste in her own mouth made her gag as she stared at the congealed blood on the ground under the horrible head wound. Laura dragged herself up onto her knees. In the dusk, under storm clouds, it was difficult to tell how much blood pooled on the dark ground. He was dead, wasn’t he? Vomit filled her throat, but she swallowed it down, forcing herself to tear her gaze from the body and to look around. Chest heaving, she gasped for breath, eyes hot with tears, ears still ringing from the gunshot.
All she could see were shadows of burned-out buildings. Nothing moving. Another drop of rain reminded her that she had to do something. Her eyes moved back to the crumpled form. A plain black T-shirt covered the upper body; black pants were bunched around his thighs. She looked again at his shaved head; the bullet hole was getting harder to make out and the dust behind her contact lenses made her squeeze her eyes shut. She couldn’t bring herself to look at his face.
Had this really happened? The cuts on her legs, and the pulsating pain in her abdomen told her this was reality, not some horrible dream. Using one hand to steady herself, Laura tried to stand up. The ground felt wet and slimy beneath her. Then her stomach turned. Wrenching back her hand, she fell back to her knees. It wasn’t raining that hard. She had planted her hand in bits of blood and brain. The horror struck her so profoundly, that she doubled over on her hands and knees and wretched.
Having no idea what she was going to do, Laura wiped her hand on her frayed pantyhose. Then she forced herself to her feet. Still wobbly, she stared at the body. She hadn’t touched it, but she knew that it was lifeless, dead. Whimpering, she smoothed her skirt over her naked lower body and waited. Gunshots and firebombs were common in this neighborhood, but she was so close to the hospital someone should come soon. She heard the shrill wail of an approaching ambulance, a sense of relief flooding through her. But then it screeched to a halt nearby, probably at the emergency room entrance. She waited, hugging herself as clouds darkened the sky.
A few more sprinkles. Nobody came. She kept staring at the boy’s body. Bizarre, terrifying words coursed through her: rape; murder. This could not have happened. She’d have to report it to the police. Endure the humiliation of a rape examination. Or, she glanced at the dead body, would they arrest her? Would she go to jail? For murder? The gun was unregistered, illegal. No, her mind screamed. I can’t go to jail. My children, they’re my life! With a shudder she realized that she still held the gun. It felt heinous in her hand and she started to put it down in the dirt, but hesitated. She couldn’t just leave it, so she picked up her purse, deposited the weapon inside, and zipped it shut.
Laura gulped the humid air and tried to clear her head. A few more deep breaths and no more whimpering. She wondered if this could look like just one more random killing. She wished that it was, wished that she had just stumbled upon it. If she just got out of here right now, would all of this just go away? Maybe Steve would never have to find out. He was already conflicted about her being in med school in the first place.
She’d met Steve her first day on campus at the University of Michigan. She a naïve freshmen, he a second year journalism major. They were married one year later. He’d switched majors and now had a Master’s Degree in Social Work and a job in inner city Detroit, where they’d moved so she could enroll in the medical school there. Now they had two kids. If Steve found out she’d been raped, she didn’t know what he’d do or think. He was idealistic, self-righteous. Would he think that she was tainted? Would he blame her? Must not find out; must not find out,
kept repeating itself in her mind as she stooped to pick up her panties and ruined pantyhose. She stuffed them in her purse. Then she inched away until she felt the concrete of the sidewalk. She felt a few more drops. A storm was coming. There was no one in sight.
CHAPTER TWO
Snake pulled the car over to the curb as Lucy Jones walked out through the heavy gray door of the hospital. He leaned over to the passenger window and called to her. Mrs. Jones? I’m lookin’ to pick up Johnny. He in there?
No, Ray,
she said, taking out a tissue and dabbing her eyes. My boy left a while ago. He’s supposed to be home with the girls while I go to work.
Hope Anthony’s doin’ better, Mrs. Jones,
Snake called after her. He hated when the old folks called him Ray.
Where the fuck is Johnny?
he asked aloud as soon as Lucy walked away. They had plans tonight, the brothers from the Alexandrine neighborhood. Not real brothers, but closer. Five of them, four now with Anthony down. Lonnie Greenwood, three or four years older than the others, back from Nam with a bullet in the leg, still limping, growing an Afro. Willie Allen, a pudgy seventeen-year-old, who followed the others like a puppy dog. And he and Johnny, the ones gonna bust out of this shit hole. Gonna become famous. Johnny with his music. Him with his painting. Just like Diego Rivera who painted on the wall of the big art museum on Woodward. Snake figured he would be a famous painter too. Make a ton of money doing it. Just like Rivera.
Snake drove Lonnie’s beat-up old Mustang in circles around the hospital to avoid the cops that hung around the doors. He’d borrowed the car, originally maroon but now mostly rusted, to take his mother, Leona, to rehab. Her back had gone out on her again, and social services was threatening to take away her benefits if she missed another physical therapy session. How the hell did they think she was gonna get there anyway? Hardly able to walk, no money for a bus, and no car. After dropping her off, Snake headed over to the hospital to pick up Johnny like they planned. Then they’d swing back to the neighborhood and get Lonnie and Willie for the night. He had to give it to Johnny, so good about checkin’ in on Anthony every day. Somethin’ must be wrong tonight since he was so late comin’ out. It’d kill Johnny if that boy died — they’d been so tight. Johnny, nineteen, the same age as Snake, one year older than Anthony. So different, but real brothers lookin’ out for each other. As smart as Anthony was, Johnny had always been the big brother — even though they’d had different fathers — fathers they had never seen.
Now Anthony was lying in that hospital and Snake knew that Johnny blamed himself and it was breakin’ him up. No way Anthony woulda come out that night if Johnny hadn’t dragged him out into the looting and sniping.
Fuckin’ city’s on fire!
Johnny’d yelled that second night of the riot as he dumped his bag onto Anthony’s bed, two toaster ovens, a transistor radio, a pile of screwdrivers, and a half-dozen flashlights. All the loot you can carry. Crash in, take the shit, torch, and run. Like nothin’ you’ve ever seen! It’s our turn, man! Come on, let’s get goin’!
People getting shot out there,
Anthony told him.
I tell you, the cops ain’t doin’ nothin’, just standin’ back,
Johnny argued. Only shootin’ goin’ on is us snipin’ at the pigs. What’s the matter with you?
Cops’ll shoot back. You guys are fools if you think they won’t.
Hey, there’s plenty stores burstin’ with school clothes, Mr. College.
Johnny knew his brother was desperate to look sharp when he stepped onto campus. Knew he didn’t want to step out into the alien, preppy world lookin’ like a welfare case. I can show you where to get ’em. Man, I can get ’em for you.
Anthony shook his head. You’re into too much shit already,
he’d said. Now cool it, the girls are asleep.
Snake saw Johnny grab Anthony by the shoulder, using his strength to persuade him. Anthony, slim, his skin much darker, his hair neatly trimmed like a black poster model. Johnny, stocky, muscular, his head shaved, just like Snake’s to make them look mean, rebellious.
This a day like no other day in the history of the world, man. Don’t you get that yet? It’s time to shop for free. Let’s go, the brothers are waitin’ on us.
Like Johnny knew he would, Anthony gave in and followed them out into the night. Snake could still feel the weight of the sawed-off shotgun he’d lifted earlier that night and carried wrapped in a rag.
What happened next Snake could see like it was on the big screen. Five of them — him, Johnny, Lonnie, Willie, and Anthony, heading up Alexandrine toward the fiery skies. Swaggering, ignoring the cop cars and fire equipment scattered along the route. Darting in and out of the shadows, cops everywhere, the occasional fire of a sniper’s bullet, all blended into an excitement beyond Snake’s belief.
The gang turned onto West Grand Boulevard where the streets were jammed with all kinds of people, white and black, men and women, old and young. They were carrying televisions and lamps and boxes and bags full of who knew what. As the group made their way along, entire streets were on fire. Smoke clogged the air and made them cough and wheeze. Cops and guards in uniforms, packing all kind of weapons, from M-2 rifles to short barrel shotguns, swarmed the streets, but they were standing down and just letting the folks loot and burn.
"Remember, just like we seen them other guys do