Alligator Creek
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On a foggy spring morning in 1862, Sarah Browning watches a train leave Lake City, Florida, heading northeast and full of Confederate soldiers. On board is her husband, Alex, crowded into a boxcar with fellow recruits and imagining the terrors awaiting him in Manassas, Gettysburg, Olustee, and the Wilderness. With Alex on the battlefield, Sarah uses her wit and Christian faith to sustain her family through innumerable hardships, made all the more threatening without comfort from her husband. Alone to face these challenges, Sarah makes the most dramatic decision of her life . . .
Based on a true family story, Alligator Creek presents strong characters who survived the hardship of the American Civil War through love, sacrifice, and endurance.
“Guttry’s fast-paced historical novel Alligator Creek is based on the story of her great-great-grandmother during and after the Civil War . . . a real page-turner.”—The Eagle
“'Lottie Guttry’s account of her ancestors’ lives during and after the Civil War is a spellbinding narrative that is written with such care and attention to details of the era that the readers will feel as though they are paging through a diary from that time period.”—Pat McAlhany, Lake City-Columbia County Historical Museum, Inc.
“This compelling novel is the product of impressive research.”—Sean McMahon, PhD, Professor of History, Florida Gateway College
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Alligator Creek - Lottie Guttry
1
You have opened the gates of Hell, from which shall flow the curse of the damned to sink you to perdition.
John E. Call
Former Florida governor,
when told that his state had
seceded from the Union
Lake City, Florida: April 1862
Five-year-old Tommy found a heavy stick and propped it like a rifle on his shoulder. He marched forward and back between wooden benches in front of a bandstand decorated with Confederate flags, his lips tightened in grim imitation of military decorum.
The governor interrupted his speech and pointed to the boy. That lad’s a bit young to serve, but he’s sure got the right spirit.
From her seat next to her husband Alex, Sarah Browning watched the marching child with troubled eyes. She hated her young son’s war games. Impeded by advanced pregnancy and a baby in her arms, she leaned toward her son. Tommy! Come sit down now.
With her free hand, she patted the space beside her.
Her son’s mimicry of a Confederate soldier filled her mind with recurring terror. War fever’s smitten our men with insanity. Lured by adventure and opportunities for heroism, they turned from their jobs, homes, and families. Even though cattlemen like Alex were exempted from service, she feared he might enlist. Sarah closed her eyes and sent up a short prayer: Please, God, don’t let my husband change his mind and decide to join.
More than ever, she feared Alex would feel compelled to join the army today, the day Lake City welcomed its hometown infantry company on a well-deserved furlough from their first assignment in Tampa Bay. More than two hundred people had gathered at the town square. Preparations began over a week ago when word came that the soldiers were marching home. The women cooked while the men constructed a bandstand and sawed pine planks to set on barrels to serve as tables. The celebration included a brass band, dignitaries’ speeches, and a picnic on the grounds provided by the Ladies’ Society of the Methodist Church. Applause at the end of the governor’s speech startled Sarah.
A minister stepped forward, an open Bible in his hand. Brothers and sisters, I know you’re proud that these brave men have set themselves apart from the selfish stay-at-homes who make gods of their property and profit. These soldiers haven’t remained neutral but have placed their honor on the line in the manner of our Savior. Did Jesus live a life of ease while others perished?
He adjusted his thick glasses and opened a bookmarked page in the Bible. The second chapter in Joel tells us, ‘I will drive the northern army far from you, pushing it into a parched and barren land, with its front columns going into the eastern sea.’ Have no fear, my friends; the Lord is on our side.
Sarah wondered how long it had taken the minister to find that scripture. She felt certain the Old Testament prophet had never anticipated this war.
The preacher scanned the crowd. Our courageous men will be comforted to know that everyone here will be praying for a swift Southern conquest.
He fixed his gaze on slaves near wagons parked behind the benches. That includes you bondsmen back there. Raise your hands as a promise you will pray each day for a Confederate victory. Come on now; show your support.
Sarah looked toward the family wagon where their servants Industrious and Hannah stood. They exchanged glances with other slaves nearby. Tentatively, one hand raised, then another. Soon all the slaves had raised their hands, but their hard faces belied their assent.
As the minister stepped from the podium, Tommy aimed his stick down the aisle. Pow! Pow! Gotcha, you bluecoat devil!
He stopped short when his father bounced him onto his lap. When are the soldiers coming, Daddy?
He dropped the stick.
Alex gave Tommy a squeeze. Not long, son. They’ll march in by the time you count to one hundred.
I can’t count that far.
Then count to twenty. Do it five times.
He grinned and tousled his son’s blond hair.
OK, Daddy. One, two, three, four . . .
Sarah studied Alex’s handsome profile. She followed the line of his thin nose, which he considered too long, to his dimpled cheeks and ever-smiling full lips. Although he was twenty-eight, many people took him to be younger than twenty. He’d kept his boyish looks—smooth skin, wavy dark-brown hair, guileless gray eyes. His joy of life had attracted her since the first day they met. She smiled as Alex tugged at the stiff collar of his white linen shirt, cuffs buttoned at the wrists above work-worn hands. He preferred faded overalls to the frock coat and vest she’d persuaded him to wear.
Drum beats and the trumpet tune of Dixie
increased in volume until the audience, now on their feet, clapped in rhythm as they sang—
Then, I wish I was in Dixie! Hooray! Hooray!
In Dixie Land I’ll take my stand, to live and die in Dixie;
Away, away, away down south in Dixie!
Shivering, Sarah remained seated.
Tommy pointed past her shoulder. They’re here, Mommy; the soldiers are here!
Gray-coated men marched double-file between rows of benches toward the stage, sunlight glinting from their muskets and rifles. Under her breath, she counted as they passed, Two, four . . . twenty, twenty-two . . . one-hundred-ten.
She’d heard rumors that the company would soon be fighting. She wondered how many would be dead before the year ended. A knot swelled in Sarah’s throat when she noticed Alex staring with fascination at the soldiers.
A colonel, a lieutenant, and twenty enlisted men marched to the stage, their boots thundering against the platform’s wooden boards. The soldiers formed two rows behind the speaker, the remaining men surrounding both sides of the bandstand at attention, their eyes focused above the heads of the audience. Boys, Sarah thought. Boys and men playing like boys, looking like so many toy soldiers. Why is it that only the women can see death hanging over them?
The company commander stepped forward. His words echoed insistent themes of the day: dangers of invasion, the optimism of the gallant Confederate troops, a plea for more able-bodied men between seventeen and fifty. We’ll win out against the Yankee aggressors. We’ll show General McClellan and Abe Lincoln how we can fight!
The soldiers broke from attention and shouted a shrill rebel yell. The crowd echoed their shouts.
Relatives of the returning soldiers swarmed forward. Mothers embraced sons; fathers encircled their boys’ shoulders. Little brothers and sisters wrapped their short arms around the soldiers’ waists. A young wife held her husband and wept tears of joy.
Alex and Tommy rushed toward the infantrymen in the center of the crowd. Sarah stood and hefted the baby onto her hip. Looking down at her body, round as a bread bowl under her dress, she knew people would disapprove of her appearing in public so near the time of her confinement. She’d convinced Alex that avoiding social occasions during pregnancy would have incarcerated her for most of the past four years. Hannah, Sarah’s servant, held out her arms for little Lula, whose face creased into a wide smile. Hannah placed her wide brown hands around the baby’s chest and then shifted her into the crook of her arm.
Thanks, Hannah.
Sarah stretched her back to relieve the strain of her pregnancy and lumbered toward the food tables, where a mixture of scents filled the air and teased her appetite—apple pies, baked hams, sweet potatoes, fried chicken. The minister strolled by, examining the food.
Good morning, Reverend.
Startled, the preacher gazed at Sarah’s face. She noticed he avoided even a glance at her ample belly. You’re looking quite well, Mrs. Browning.
Discomfort about her condition evident, he focused on the table before them.
She smiled. Thank you.
She knew he expected her to compliment his dreadful speech, but she just couldn’t do it. She felt relieved when he turned to greet another of his parishioners.
Margaret Browning, the wife of Alex’s older brother Jacob, stood behind the food table assisting a group of women. When Sarah approached, Margaret and the women stared at her belly. Sarah braced herself.
Oh my,
one said to Sarah, are you quite sure you should be out in this heat?
The weather at my house is no cooler, Addie, and I prefer to be here with Alex and my family.
Emma pushed her spectacles against the bridge of her nose. I’m sure your lying-in cannot be far off,
she said, her voice high-pitched and grating. You know we want to be there to assist.
We wouldn’t miss it for all the world,
Pearl said.
The prospect of their attendance at her birthing depressed Sarah, but she lifted her chin and put on a cheery smile without giving the least hint of when the baby might come.
Nearby, a group of soldiers discussed the Union blockade of Florida’s ports. They’re trying to strangle us, but by God, we’ll be doing the choking from now on!
Sarah shook her head. War fever! Since Hannah was caring for the baby, Sarah fetched a quilt from their wagon and spread it on the grass. She looked back to see her husband returning with Tommy, followed by Jacob.
Jacob’s uniform jacket was unbuttoned, his tanned face glowing. He took both of Sarah’s hands in his. How about a sisterly kiss?
Sarah held his cheeks between her hands and planted a kiss on his forehead. She looked behind Jacob to see his wife.
Margaret scowled. Sometimes I think he loves you better than he does me. No sooner had he seen me than he started asking about you.
Alex jostled Jacob’s shoulder. You’re looking good, brother. I think the army agrees with you.
Doesn’t he look handsome in his uniform?
Margaret said with a wide smile. I’m so proud of him for serving in this glorious campaign.
Sarah rolled her eyes. I pray every day that Alex won’t become a part of this war.
Surely you wouldn’t want him to look like a coward.
Margaret folded her arms and glared.
Surely I’d prefer him looking like a coward rather than a corpse.
Jacob flicked nervous glances at each of the women, then pointed to the chevrons on his sleeve. Look here, Alex, would you believe I made corporal?
Alex laughed, Congratulations, brother.
Margaret returned to her duties at the food tables.
Tommy pulled on Jacob’s pants leg. Uncle Jake, can I wear your hat? Please.
Jake pushed the soft-billed hat on Tommy’s head. Tommy puffed his chest and circled the adults until Sarah stepped into his path.
It’s time for you to sit down and be quiet for a while, young man. We’ll be eating soon.
She swept the hat from his head and returned it to her brother-in-law. Go help yourself to some food. We’ve been cooking three days for you boys. Don’t disappoint us.
Alex touched her shoulder. Just sit yourself down, Sarah. I’ll get Tommy’s plate and one for you.
An irresistible grin spread across his face. I’ll be back soon. It wouldn’t be safe to leave a beautiful woman like you alone for long.
Sarah took pride in her dark blue eyes and golden-blonde hair, neatly parted down the center and pulled back into a tidy bun at the base of her neck under her bonnet. She laughed and patted her protruding belly. Even with this?
More to love, my sweet.
A few minutes later, Alex returned with three plates balanced precariously on his hands. He set his on the quilt and gave one to Sarah. Tommy took his plate and sat down with a plate of drumsticks, biscuits, and thick gravy. Jacob had stacked several layers of food on his plate, topped with sliced ham, fried chicken, cornbread, cabbage cooked with bacon, and wedges of various pies.
This sure beats the grub we’ve been eating,
Jacob said. He sat on a corner of the quilt next to Sarah.
Sarah arranged her plate on her lap. I heard the army was leaving Tampa Bay.
We had to pull out of there,
Jacob said. Mostly it was boring guard duty anyhow. Every day we just sat in the sweltering sun and reported every move the Yanks made.
He beamed. Pretty soon we’ll get some real action.
Do you know where they’ll send you?
Alex asked.
We think we’ll be joining up with the troops in Virginia. That’s where the real war is. All the officers say so.
Sarah stared at Jacob, not able to understand his enthusiasm for something so grim. I worry about this war. So many more people live up north. Their army would have to be larger.
She frowned. How can we win against so much power?
Everyone knows that one Confederate equals ten Yankees.
Jacob grinned and puffed out his chest. Fighting to protect your home fills you up with a strong spirit.
Alex smiled. I remember how old Stonewall Jackson and his men beat the heck out of them last summer at Bull Run.
And we’ll beat ‘em again,
Jacob said.
Sarah picked at her food. Your talk is scaring me to death.
They’re telling us how to run our lives.
Jacob emphasized his point with a cleaned-off drumstick. If we don’t fight ‘em, they’ll take over the South, force us to serve them like slaves, humiliate us, degrade our women . . .
Sarah laid down her fork and faced him squarely. Jacob Browning, that is pure hogwash! I’ve heard it at church. I’ve heard it on the square. I’ve read it in the papers.
Her voice rose. You men chose this grand and glorious cause, leaving your women to do your work and take the responsibility of providing for the children you gave us. For what? To risk getting yourselves killed by a Yankee bullet?
Everyone stared at her.
Hush now, Sarah,
Alex said. Don’t get yourself riled up.
He looked at Sarah’s plate. You haven’t eaten anything.
I’m not hungry, Alex. Don’t fuss at me. I’ve got things to say.
But you need to eat for the baby.
He stood.
She let her plate fall to the ground. After four pregnancies, I don’t intend to starve myself, but right now I’d like to finish this conversation.
Sarah watched Alex’s expression change and felt a surge of remorse for her unintended reference to the child they’d lost three years before.
Alex looked down at her, his eyes intense. Sarah Ann . . .
Help me up, Alex. This baby has me nailed to the ground.
She grabbed his extended hands and stood.
He continued staring at her with a pained expression.
Thank the Lord . . .
She began hiccupping . . . You’re ex—empt—
She couldn’t continue to talk as the violent hiccups convulsed her body.
Jacob stood. I’ll get you some water.
Tommy came up behind her and grabbed her waist. Boo! Mama! I’ll scare ‘em out of you.
Hold your breath,
Alex advised.
Jacob returned and held out the water glass. If you drink it upside down, it’ll stop your hiccups.
In her condition, I don’t think she can put herself in an upside-down position.
Alex patted Sarah’s back. Just hold your breath, honey, and drink it down.
Sarah held her breath and swallowed. Soon her hiccups subsided.
Alex took her face between his hands. My sweet Sarah, always the peacemaker. This war is bigger than you are. You can’t stop it. That’s our army’s job.
Our army?
At that moment Hannah approached with a squalling Lula. She don’t want no more milk, Miss Sarah. I don’t know what’s ailin’ her.
Sarah held out her arms to Lula. She wants her mama to hold her.
Sarah jiggled the baby gently and hummed a song. Sniffling, Lula laid her head against her mother’s shoulder.
Margaret approached the group again and laughed. Sarah, you’re amazing.
She turned to her husband. Look at her with a lock of hair slipping from under her bonnet, freckles dotting her face, looking like a young girl. She’s just . . . amazing.
Sarah looked away. She never knew how to take Margaret’s comments.
Alex put his arm around Sarah’s shoulder. You’ve no argument with me, Margaret.
How ever will you manage with three little ones after Alex leaves?
Margaret said.
A shuddering horror shot through Sarah’s body. She stared from Alex to Margaret and back to Alex. What’s this about Alex leaving?
Wide-eyed, Margaret stuttered, I . . . I felt sure you two had discussed it. Jacob said he was certain Alex would enlist.
So Margaret is only surmising. She doesn’t know for sure. Sarah took a deep breath, trying to calm herself. She adjusted Lula in her arms. I think we should head for home, Alex.
All right. You wait for me by the wagon with Lula. I’ll see that everyone else gets home.
He turned to Margaret and Jacob. Would you two like a ride?
Margaret nodded toward the tables, now covered with half-empty platters. I promised to stay and help clean up. Jacob, you go on ahead. I know you and Alex need to talk.
Sarah felt her heart pulse against her rib cage. She wondered whether Jacob had been assigned to convince Alex to enlist. She’d never feel safe from the recruiters until the soldiers’ furloughs ended. Rocking the baby on her shoulder, she walked toward the wagon, where Industrious and Hannah helped Alex round up the horses and load Sarah’s dishes from the serving tables.
The men took seats beside Industrious in the front of the wagon while Sarah sat behind them on feather pillows Alex had stacked to soften the rough ride to and from town. Hannah sat in the back holding Lula. Standing behind the front seat, Tommy hovered near Jacob, fascinated with his scabbard and knife.
While the wagon bumped along the road to Jacob’s house at the edge of town, Sarah placed her hands on her abdomen to feel the baby kick against her fingers. Hearing the garbled voices of the men’s conversation, she leaned closer. A few words sifted through the sound of the thumping wagon: Duty.
Service.
Glory.
Honor.
Hogwash! She substituted her own words—death, violence, injuries, widows.
The wagon halted and Jacob turned to face her. So long, Sarah. You take good care of yourself, hear!
Come over for supper while you’re home,
Sarah said. She offered the invitation with reluctance.
Just say when.
Jacob jumped off the wagon seat and trotted down the dirt road toward his home.
As they left town, the road narrowed, curved northeast, and followed Alligator Creek for two miles. They stopped to open the gate. The AC cattle brand painted on a board above the entrance identified the Brownings’ farm, named for the stream. Before they reached the barn, their dog Hank, an amiable cur that loved herding cattle, raced across the pasture and greeted the family with vigorous barks. The wagon stopped just past the barn, and while Industrious cared for the horses, Sarah and Hannah carried empty dishes into the kitchen beyond the main house. Benny, a skinny gray tomcat, rubbed his fur against Sarah’s leg. Betsy, a tricolor, trailed close behind.
Alex shook his arm. Shoo, cats! No leftovers tonight. Go catch a rat.
That night, after the children had been tucked in, Sarah and Alex sat in the front porch swing. From there they watched the sun setting across the west pasture and the shallow stream meandering through the middle of the fields. The tails of long-horned cattle swished at flies as they drank from the creek, their red and brown spots blending into the white as the evening darkened.
On the horizon, a mauve thread of clouds covered the setting sun, their edges illuminated with golden-red light. A light breeze chilled Sarah’s shoulders through the tent-shaped nightgown she now wore. She’d sewn it from some thin, pink fabric, the perfect material to make clothes later for Lula and the new baby if it happened to be a girl. Maybe we should go in. I feel cold.
It seems plenty warm to me.
She began to shiver.
Alex put his arm around her shoulder. Let’s not go in yet. We need to talk.
As much as she’d like to convince him to stay home, she wanted to avoid confrontation for a few more minutes, to enjoy their closeness a bit longer, to pretend their normal life would continue as it always had. Look Alex, Agothos is out.
Sarah smiled at the dark form of a twelve-foot alligator lying immobile on the opposite bank of the stream. The first spring after they bought the farm, she and Alex saw the old alligator, estimated by his size to be about sixty years old. Each year he’d show up after winter hibernation in his burrow. She loved the Greek myths she’d read in school and called him Agothos—the guardian spirit of families.
I’m gonna have to shoot that old ‘gator one of these days,
Alex said. It would be the devil to pay if he killed one of my calves or, God forbid, one of the children.
You’ve got a fence for the calves and a gate on our side of the bridge. Leave him alone, Alex. He’s been here a long time and never bothered us. Besides, I’ve grown fond of him.
She sometimes thought of Agothos as her personal protector.
You’re a strange one, Sarah.
He patted her hand, and they sat silently watching the closing of the day.
In a whoosh of wings, a great blue heron, also a frequent visitor, landed near the alligator, its neck crooked in anticipation of spearing a fish with its sharp beak. Sarah had named the heron Phoenix and knew full well the bird would someday fly away to another place.
Alex cleared his throat. On the way home, Jacob told me a little about army life.
He’s pushing you to join, isn’t he?
Sarah gripped the arm of the swing.
Alex shrugged. No more than any of the others.
She clamped onto his arm. Don’t go, Alex. You’re already twenty-eight. We have two children and one on the way. Claim your exemption as a cattleman.
He squeezed her hand. Don’t worry so much, sweetheart. I haven’t said I’d enlist.
Sarah looked into his eyes, glistening in the setting sun. He wants to go. He feels the call. I can see it in his face. I can almost smell it on his breath. You could hire a substitute. If we sold a couple of cows, we could pay someone to fight in your place.
Alex pulled her close and held her across his lap in his arms as though she were a child. Only conscripts hire substitutes. If I join, I’ll volunteer.
He smoothed her hair she’d unpinned earlier. It’s not because I don’t love you.
She swallowed. I don’t think I could bear losing you. If you love me, you’ll stay here to be with me next month when Sallie or Johnny is born. You’ll teach Tommy how to be a godly man. You’ll repair the fences, harvest the crops next fall. I need you, Alex.
He held her close and caressed her back beneath the shoulder blade, but even his familiar touch failed to comfort her.
Her eyes misted. Right now she wanted to crawl inside his stubborn head and turn his thoughts. She reached for his hand and pressed his fingers against her belly. Please think hard about what’s most important to you. I know you love us. Tell me you’ll stay here.
His shoulders jerked, but he didn’t answer.
She faced him straight on. Ever since we bought Alligator Creek, you’ve been looking for an excuse to leave this farm. How can you even consider leaving me here with all this responsibility?
He pulled his hand back. You’ve got it wrong, Sarah. I’d never leave my family except for duty. How can I face myself as a man if I look cowardly in the eyes of my friends? I’d be marked for all my life as a man unwilling to fight for my beliefs. I’m doing this for you and for Tommy, for Lula and our new baby. What kind of life will we have here unless we fight to defend ourselves? I truly believe the Yankees will come here and take away all the freedom we have.
She glared into his gray eyes. Be honest with yourself for once, Alex. No excuses. You’re abandoning us. How in heaven’s name will I run this farm by myself?
I wrote to Dad and Frances. Since his brother lives nearby, Dad’s agreed to leave his farm in Walter’s care and move in with you. Then he could go back to Georgia when the war’s over. Dad knows everything about farming, and Frances can help you around the house.
She gasped. Now the air felt scalding hot. You’ve already asked them without discussing any of this with me?
She knew it took weeks to get mail from Georgia. He’s been planning this for a long time.
Alex hung his head. I’m sorry. I wanted to get everything in order before I told you.
She felt anger welling up inside her and threatening to overflow. How can he even think of going off to war? When the battle began in 1861, Alex stayed busy raising cotton and cattle, never joining a volunteer regiment or the state militia that guarded the vulnerable seacoast. Why now? Perspiration beaded on her upper lip.
Alex shook his head. I’ve got to do it.
He took Sarah’s face in his hands. I’ve got my honor. If Jacob and all my friends are going, I should, too. It’s not forever. Bull Run proved the blue bellies don’t have enough fight in them to keep it up for long.
Sarah pulled away from the familiar scent of his skin. You’re all misjudging the northerners’ strength. Any fool knows they’ve got more railroads, more factories, more money, more troops.
Where do you get all that?
Not everyone thinks the way you and Jacob do. I’ve heard men talking down at the store. Ruby and Ellen agree with me. Many of us are against this war.
Against the war or against your men going to it?
He didn’t wait for an answer. Such talk isn’t patriotic. You don’t want folks to think you’re a Union sympathizer. Even though there’s plenty of them in Jacksonville, they’re not welcome in Lake City.
His face hardened with determination. The war won’t last long. I’ll be back by Christmas—maybe even before.
Alex put his arm around her. You’ll manage fine, just like your mother did when your father died.
She stiffened in response to his touch. She wasn’t so sure about being able to manage the place. Living a pampered childhood, the only child of elderly parents, she’d suffered after their early deaths. I’m worried sick thinking about those Yankees shooting at you. I love you, Alex—more than my own life. What would I do if I lost you?
Tears of anger streamed down her cheeks. She saw through his transparent clichés of honor and duty. She knew there was more to his leaving. She remembered when he’d left on a cattle drive the week before Tommy was born and was gone two months. He told her the roundup would bring thousands of dollars when they sold the animals. The money they needed for debts never materialized. When Alex got a yen to leave, like a migrating sandhill crane, he flew away. She couldn’t stop him any more than she could stop the wind. Is there anything I can say that would convince you to stay home?
Alex didn’t answer but stood and went indoors. Sarah felt the dog’s cold nose pressing against her ankle. She scratched Hank between the ears, and he ambled away. She pushed her toes against the wooden planks on the porch floor. The swing made a clicking noise as it rocked like a clock’s pendulum. Worries about her future surfaced in rhythm with the swing’s rocking. She had her answer. Alex had already decided to leave. He might be killed. She thought about each of the children—Tommy, Lula, and her unborn baby. Now she’d have enormous responsibilities—supervising the slaves, tending fields, caring for a herd of fifty cattle, harvesting crops, managing money, dealing with the enemy if Florida were invaded, plus all the household duties and looking after the children. She stopped the swing and shut off the crushing flow of concerns. She opened the front door and walked down the long hallway. As she climbed the stairs to her bedroom, she prayed, Sweet Lord, you alone know the end of the dark path before me. I can hardly see the next turn in the road. Guide me; protect me so that I may protect my little ones. I ask you to watch over my Alex. You are my only help and refuge, Lord.
Later, Sarah lay on her side on the feather mattress and tried to find a comfortable sleeping position. Moonlight poured through the lacy curtains covering her bedroom windows. She listened to Alex’s heavy breathing and to a soft growl of thunder like distant cannons firing. The storm blew closer, and thunder rolled in a violent crescendo. Rain pinged against the tin roof. Lightning flashed, illuminated the room, and reflected from the mirror of her dressing table in a surreal scene that disappeared into near blackness in an instant. A small shadow approached.
Mommy, I’m scared.
Tommy crawled into the bed between her and Alex.
She rubbed the damp curls on his forehead. Mommy’s here, Tommy. Don’t be afraid.
He stiffened when thunder crashed in a loud boom. She held him closely in