Cody
By Keith Hale
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By turns funny, romantic, erotic, and sad, this evocative novel brilliantly recreates the landscape of late adolescence, when friendships seem eternal and loves reincarnate. Unique in coming of age fiction, Cody won praise from reviewers and readers worldwide. "Keith Hale has given his novel characters with tenderness, wit, and humanity. You should rush to purchase this book." - Bay Area Reporter
"Don’t overlook Keith Hale’s Clicking Beat on the Brink of Nada. Hale commands much of J.R. Ackerley’s honesty, intimacy, and ease of style. Real warmth." - Jonathan Williams ..........
"Cody is a must." - RFD ..........
"Poetically evokes the pathos of early friendships and the frailty of adolescent dreams." - The Advocate ..........
"Top of the heap of gay fiction." - Gay Community News
Keith Hale
Keith Hale grew up in central Arkansas and Waco, Texas. He received his bachelor’s degree from the University of Texas at Austin. Following a five-year career as a journalist in Austin, Amsterdam, and Little Rock, Hale earned a Ph.D. in literature from Purdue and took a position teaching British and Philippine literature at the University of Guam. Hale writes both fiction and scholarly works including his groundbreaking novel Clicking Beat on the Brink of Nada (Cody), first published in the Netherlands, and Friends and Apostles, his edition of Rupert Brooke's letters published by Yale University Press, London.
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Cody - Keith Hale
Cody
A novel by
Keith Hale
Revised edition
Copyright © 1983, 1987, 2018, 2022 by Keith Hale
Published as Clicking Beat on the Brink of Nada 1983 by Spartacus, Amsterdam.
Revised North American edition published as Cody 1987 by Alyson, Boston.
Mass-market edition published as Cody 1994 by Alyson, Boston.
Published as Clicking Beat on the Brink of Nada 2007 by Booksurge, Charleston.
Newly revised edition published as Clicking Beat on the Brink of Nada 2018 then republished as Cody 2022 by Watersgreen House.
All rights reserved. International copyright secured.
6. x 9
(15.596 x 23.393 cm)
Black & White on Cream paper
BISAC: Fiction / Literary / Gay / Coming of Age
BISAC: Fiction / Gay / Classics
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From the reviews:
A haunting vision of young friendship shattered by an outrageously cruel world. The novel aches with adolescent first loves. It is tender, funny, and true.
- William S. Burroughs
Commands much of J.R. Ackerley’s honesty, intimacy, and ease of style. Real warmth.
- Jonathan Williams, Musings
A sense of life, the search for identity, intellectual militancy, the ambiguity of human relationships, unsatisfied desire, and weakness in facing existence are just some of the facets of life that the author evokes with precision.
- Livres (Brussels)
Cody is a must.
- RFD (Asheville, NC)
Top of the heap of gay fiction.
- Gay Community News (Boston)
Poetically evokes the pathos of early friendships and the frailty of adolescent dreams.
- The Advocate
The author has given his novel characters with tenderness, wit, and humanity. You should rush to purchase this book—a remarkable novel that deserves wide readership.
- Bay Area Reporter (San Francisco)
The message transcends common reality. … The author charts the victory of substance over appearance, of eternal truths over transient physical relationships. His characters give off warmth and forthrightness in equal portions.
- This Week in Texas (Houston)
One of the best of its generation, this novel is beautifully written, exciting (and sexy), and full of incident and charm. Even minor characters are treated with Dickensian relish.
- Gay Star (Belfast)
A novel about individualism, the right to be whatever you want to be. … This book should be read by kids and adults alike … A gay teen coming out classic.
- Lambda Rising Book Report (D.C.)
A triumphant portrait of adolescent love.
- Just Out (Portland)
The real triumph of the novel is its portraits of adolescent love. This reviewer can think of no recent novel that has done it better… A very considerable achievement.
- English Language Book Review (Amsterdam)
This book is about being gay, and being straight, and a teenager, in Little Rock, Arkansas, but it is about so much more that it defies definition. … It contains exquisite poetry, beautiful prose, very little sex, and lots of love. … I recommend this book without hesitation.
- SAFE teen (London, Ontario)
I urge everyone to get a copy of this book.
- Arkansas Advisor
The realistic loves of young people and the moving plot keep the reader interested throughout the novel.
- Tulsa Week
Evokes the pain, strong emotions, and exclusiveness of adolescence. It deserves a broad audience.
- Voice of Youth Advocates (Virginia Beach)
Packs a powerful punch in its darkly realistic portrayal of adolescent sexuality; it will leave you shaken in its honest examination of the evolution… of friendship. Don’t miss this one.
- TLN (Eugene, OR)
This story evolves into a quietly poignant and painful portrait of young love and loss with surprisingly little pretension.
- OUT! (Pittsburgh)
Literate and sad, delightfully sassy in several early chapters, and may leave you wishing you could put your arms around the characters and assure them everything will work out. … If you cry easily, you may want to read it alone.
- Torch (Ft. Wayne, IN)
What takes this novel above the pack is its unique combination of teenage angst, political controversy, and male/male love.
- The Weekly News (Miami)
What the book does so well is to portray the way teenagers look at the world they are about to face. … There is even salvation in a series of events near the end that offer a life-long memory to be cherished despite the pain.
- Edge (Los Angeles)
The author’s willingness to grapple with the large question of what it is to be young, gay, and loving is the promise of this book.
- Mara Leveritt, Arkansas Times
Acknowledgments
My appreciation to Jose Porcioncula, Dave Corbett, Jimmy Dewayne Smith, Daniel Atha, William S. Burroughs, Joan Dennis, Gerritjan Deunk, Scott Eaton, James Grauerholz, Wallace Hamilton, Luke Hartwell, Alban Jouet, Christian Alexis López, Rob Lowe, George Martins, Daniel Puckett, James Allen Rideout, Phillip Wade, and Jonathan Williams.
Additional appreciation for the following permissions:
All Things Must Pass
by George Harrison. Copyright © 1969 by Harrisongs, Ltd. All rights reserved. Reprinted by permission. International copyright secured.
The Renegade
from Exile and the Kingdom by Albert Camus, translated by Justin O’Brien. Copyright © 1958 by Alfred A. Knopf, Inc.
Some of the poetry at the end of this book was first published in RFD and Off the Rocks.
Cody
Chapter One
I was staring at the boy who sat diagonally in front of me, about five feet away. Ms. Kraemer was lecturing about the Cold War, causes and effects, and around the room students were half-listening in case they were called on, but mostly daydreaming, for this was the first day Little Rock had been without rain in more than a week, and the sky had turned a wonderful, swimming blue.
Since Little Rock only recently had become my home, I had been going to this school not quite two weeks. But being new boy
was a role with which I was familiar, having attended half a dozen schools in half a dozen towns during the past eleven years. Still, it was a role that always made me uncomfortable, especially when it came to making friends.
For three days I had stared, discreetly from the corners of my eyes, at a certain boy in class, but I had not gathered the courage to speak to him. The boy looked good, seemed cheerful, and showed remarkable intelligence when answering or posing questions in class. He frequently challenged the teacher on points of historical interpretation and often presented the best argument. There was also some primal attraction to him that I couldn’t explain; I just felt like I should know him. Unfortunately, he seemed oblivious to my presence, which made me apprehensive about approaching him.
Ms. Kraemer was discussing the elections Russia promised to hold in Eastern Europe after World War II—elections that were far from democratic and in some cases never held at all. I was listening. History had fascinated me throughout my school years.
The sudden realization that I was being stared back at jarred me into averting my eyes. But I had been caught, and now the boy was looking back every few minutes, smiling once or twice, but more often eyeing me with a mixture of curiosity and suspicion. Ms. Kraemer noticed he was being distracted and asked him crossly exactly what he thought of the Russians.
Cody—for that was his name—was not often caught off guard. With just the slightest hesitation, he answered in a clear, earnest voice, I hear they once spoke well of our revolution.
Amid scattered laughter, Ms. Kraemer pondered his answer, ignoring the impudence. You mean the American Revolution, I presume?
Cody said he did, then explained his answer. I believe that during the Cold War they respected our revolution as a great example of the proletariat rising to break the chains that enslaved them, but they felt we went wrong by adopting the capitalist model and allowing a class system to keep us enslaved.
Several students objected loudly to Cody’s statement, some of them defending capitalism, others simply protesting that Americans are not slaves. For the first time in this class I offered my own comments, suggesting the Russians might have done better to criticize their own revolution since it too had gone wrong in the eyes of many when Stalin wrenched power from Trotsky and his followers.
My statement restored order immediately, as those who had objected to Cody’s remarks assumed I was defending capitalism and had put Cody in his place. This was not the case. Cody gave me another look, with a bigger smile than before, and said he agreed, leaving the class puzzled and grumbling. Ms. Kraemer decided to drop the topic, hurrying the class into the Berlin crisis so she could give us her prepared homework assignment before the bell rang: If you were John F. Kennedy, what would you have done?
Indeed, what?
I was disappointed to see Cody hurry from the room with another student when the bell rang for lunch. Although I had hoped he was not so popular that I would have a difficult time meeting him, I expected he was plenty popular. He was too self-assured, too handsome, too witty, too intelligent, too charming, too damn everything good. The only thing missing from a wish list, perhaps, was money, which I could not have cared less about.
I assumed Cody was about my age—seventeen. Of medium height, he was well built to the point of being somewhat muscular, with broad shoulders and slim torso. His face was as smooth as a child’s, but something about his cheekbone and jaw gave him an aura of underlying toughness. Cody’s eyes were a soulful blue, and his hair was a shade of blond I had never seen before, a golden yellow that was almost a bit orangish, but not quite. Cut in layers, it hung over his collar and sometimes over his eyes, flopping up and down in lively, radiant strands when he walked. As for clothes, Cody came to school almost every day wearing a flannel shirt, heavily-worn jeans, and tattered running shoes, but the effect was not one of poverty but of someone as close to the earth as a person can get without dying, natural to the point of intimidation—at least for me. I wanted to look the same.
It was raining again by the end of the day, a thunderstorm having appeared from out of the west. I pulled my windbreaker close around my neck and with a finger freed that section of my hair trapped between neck and jacket. The sky continued to darken, with streetlights beginning to buzz themselves aglow. The rain coming down through their nascent, glimmering light gave me a calm feeling of presence. The city was strikingly deserted, and I jaywalked with ease across streets I presumed were normally congested with traffic. This kind of city life was new to me, and I liked it. How could I have known that downtown Little Rock could look so beautiful in the rain?
I had lived in Arkansas most of my life, just not in Little Rock. My mom was a newly-minted Ph.D., and after earning her doctorate at the University of Arkansas in Fayetteville, she had accepted an offer to teach economic theory at the University of Arkansas at Little Rock.
I had begun looking for a job as soon as school was dismissed at 3:30, setting out on this quest without much planning, and attaining nothing more than frustration. Every place I tried I got the same answer: either they weren’t hiring or they wanted someone with experience. One store manager told me he wanted to hire a woman. I just looked at him and left. I was feeling what all young souls must feel when they attempt to enter the job market, wondering how I would ever find work if all the jobs required experience I didn’t possess. Now, standing in the light, steady rain, I had quite by accident come upon the Arkansas State Employment Service. I quickly walked inside, fearing the office would soon be closing, and was pleased to find the office, like the streets, pretty much deserted.
The receptionist provided a form to fill out, said I should perform this task quickly, and instructed me to wait for an interview. All this in one breath and without so much as a glance from the papers over which she was huddled. She could have been a recording, but I imagine she knew this, and I doubt that it bothered her.
The form was easy enough to complete until I got to the section that provided a mere three spaces for listing the half-dozen schools I had attended. I could only remember the addresses of three, in any case, so I listed those and invented three sets of dates attended
to total eleven years. My heart sank as I saw that the next section asked for my addresses for the last ten years, and again the form provided only three spaces. Totally inadequate, the spaces and I—my mind went as blank as the forms. Staring evaporatively at the antiquated furnace in the corner of the room, I heard my name called. The receptionist still did not look up at me but gave adequate directions to the proper cubicle.
Sitting behind a desk was a girl not much older than me whom I proceeded to study with a mixture of curiosity and awe. There was something about the way she was dressed, in a manner rather dashing, almost daring, that I liked. She was in the middle of a conversation with an older woman when I entered her space, and she seemed to be ending a joke.
And then the Mother Superior said, `You smell like stale camel piss.’ The little sister went to wash up. When she returned, she asked, `Do I smell like camel piss now?’ And the Mother Superior said, `Yes. But at least it’s fresh.’
The older woman did not laugh.
That is horrible,
she said flatly, dropping a stack of papers on the desk with a thud to prove her sincerity. The young woman tapped a pencil against her desk four times, contemplating, as the older woman left, then shrugged. Only then did she seem to notice me.
Who are you? What are you staring at?
she asked. Although the questions themselves were distressing, the tone in which she asked them was not especially unpleasant. While it may seem impossible to ask a complete stranger those questions and yet still convey some sense of liking the person, she managed, somehow, to pull that off.
Uh, nothing. I mean you. No, my name’s Mat--
You’re wet.
I recognized the line from a well-known cult film, but I could not tell if this girl was trying to be funny or serious. She had said the words like an accusation, just like in the film. I recalled that the proper response was, Yes, it’s raining,
so that’s what I said.
The girl smiled.
"I adore that film," she said. I would realize later in life, after I had seen Cabaret, that in that moment she had switched from Riff Raff to Sally Bowles.
She instructed me to sit down, but don’t lean back.
Then, seeing the form in my hand, she added, Give me those.
I surrendered the document only to have it immediately flung back at me. "This is not complete."
No, um, I’m sorry.
She had the pencil in her mouth, studying me. She was quite attractive. Her personality had taken me as much by surprise as her appearance. It was almost…fun. In fact, I found myself waiting with antici--pation for whatever she would say next. She seemed quite content to make me wait, even though closing time was fast approaching. The pause gave me a chance to regain my composure. I scanned the desk, hoping to find a nameplate buried somewhere beneath the rubble. I was in luck, spotting a triangular wooden prism with a golden plate on one side and green putt-putt golf felt on the underside, partially visible.
Her name was Sarah Turner. I had expected something more exotic.
Sarah offered me her pencil, pointed end first. I accepted it. The eraser was wet from having been in her mouth, an intimacy that pleased me, as did the teeth marks scarring the wood.
A nervous habit,
she said apologetically. You might finish these forms now.
Sarah had things to do before closing, so she did them while I labored over the forms, once again fudging dates when there was not enough space provided for total disclosure. We finished our chores at more or less the same time, and Sarah looked over my application.
What type of job are you looking for?
she asked.
I wondered if she meant it to sound that way.
I don’t know, really,
I said.
Sarah studied me again then handed me the papers. The woman by the window reads palms,
she said. Why don’t you give her a try?
I glanced at the woman indicated. No.
Look here!
I exclaimed, flustered. I came for assistance with finding a job, and all you’ve given me is, is…attitude.
We stared for a moment at one another.
Sarah pulled herself up even straighter in her swivel chair.
I will try to set up some interviews,
she said, although in your case it may be difficult. You have no experience, and I’m no wizard. So don’t go putting me on some pedestal thinking I can work a miracle for you. I’m only human.
Only extraterrestrials feel it necessary to tell everyone they’re human,
I said.
Sarah didn’t laugh, only glanced at me.
And you’re already on a pedal stool,
I added.
A silence, then Sarah laughed. We both did.
Oh, yes, I am!
Sarah said, doing a three-sixty in her chair. Facing me again, she smiled, said she would try to set up some interviews, and asked when would be a good time to reach me by phone.
After school.
Very well. Give me two or three days. Meanwhile, try to stay dry.
Sarah dug through a drawer, produced a rubber stamp, and began hammering away at the form. I watched as several sections of my handwriting were obliterated by the ink. Well, she had to read the blasted thing, not me.
I got up to go. She did nothing to detain me.
Goodbye,
I said.
Goodbye,
she repeated, then added, Thanks for all the fish.
I had no idea what she was talking about.
In the rain again, I could not put the strange creature out of my mind. It was crazy to think I actually liked this alien, yet I had been sorry to leave, and for what other reason?
I looked up past the skyscrapers. The sky was even blacker than before, and the rain was falling harder and looked even more intense through the light from the street lamps, now fully aglow. I loved these dark skies and wet streets and was even curiously attracted to a dark, wet, young man who eyed me uncertainly as we both dashed between cars to cross a street. By the time I reached my car the rain was coming down in sheets. Beautiful,
I said, sitting in my car. Fantastic,
I said, barreling into the rush-hour traffic. Sarah,
I said, plowing through an intersection filling with water.
I spent the next afternoon in downtown Little Rock once again, checking out leads from the local paper. Maybe Sarah would find me a job. Maybe she wouldn’t. I had to keep trying to find one myself. That’s just me.
One ad read, "EARN $1000-$3000 A MONTH. MUST BE ABLE TO TALK AND WALK." It seemed like very minimal qualifications, especially to be in all caps. I expected it involved soliciting door-to-door and didn’t bother with it.
I filled out several applications based on the newspaper leads but didn’t think any looked promising. Still, one had to apply to have a shot. One never knew when one might luck into a supervisor who preferred someone inexperienced who might more easily be trained to do something a certain way.
Back at my car, with the day’s ads exhausted, I wondered what to do next. Despite the outrageous price of fuel, it was almost a relief to discover my tank was near empty. For the moment it would give me a sense of direction, of barely-affordable purpose.
I had been tempted on several occasions that week to stop at a station near my house but had no excuse for doing so until today. What had tempted me was…Cody,