The White Field
By Douglas Cole
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A journey of will caught by unseen forces. When the dream takes over, the ride gets wilder.
The White Field is a fast-paced journey of a man, Tom, fresh out of prison and trying desperately to rebuild his life. But he is caught by mysterious, unseen forces beyond his knowledge or control. After his release from prison, he is dropped back into the world in the wastelands of the city. In the menial work afforded the underclass, he begins his new life among characters at the edges of society, dwellers of the netherworld such as Raphael, a former cop from Mexicali singing Spanish arias in the mists of the industrial night among drug addicts and crooked cops; Tony, a stoner scholar with an encyclopedic knowledge of history based solely on the intricate study of rock and roll; and Larry, the bloated, abusive manager trapped as much as his workers in a world of tedium and repetition and machines. Think, The Three Stooges on acid. Unable to reconnect with what’s left of his family, Tom embarks on a criminal path more harrowing than the one that led him to prison in the first place. Lured in by the nefarious, Thane, he slips into a plan that will leave him with no way back. And with no place left in this world to go but prison, he makes one last run for freedom. Will he escape?
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The White Field - Douglas Cole
The White Field
DOUGLAS COLE
Relax. Read. Repeat
THE WHITE FIELD
By Douglas Cole
Published by TouchPoint Press
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Praise for The White Field
"There’s a realism and a spiritualism here that summons John Updike’s classic Rabbit, Run. Rarely will a reader find the grittiness and beauty intertwined so compellingly."
—Mark Spencer, Winner of the Faulkner Award for the novel, The Omaha Prize for the novel, The Bradshaw Book Award, and author of several books including Ghost Walking and Trespassers
"If you enjoy Le Carre and Hemingway, Douglas Cole’s novel, The White Field, will engage your mind and your heart. Here is writing that carries the awake reader into new terrain and taps on the soul for this journey into the self."
—Jeff Kamen, Award winning journalist and documentary producer for NPR, NBC, CBS, ABC, and author of Warrior Pups
"The White Field is a rabid yet tender odyssey into the oscillating abyss of an ex-convict degenerating into redemption. Cole writes with haunting splendor, illuminating the dreams of the doomed."
—Matthew Dexter, author of The Ritalin Orgy
"With his debut novel, The White Field, Douglas Cole delivers a taut, well-paced thrill ride rife with keenly observed lyricism, a startling and refreshing addition to the literary world of misfits: gripping, thoughtful, and unquestionably alive."
—Sara Lippmann, Author of Doll Palace, Dock Street Press
Author Douglas Cole’s breakneck prose places us squarely in the hectic mind of a man influenced from all sides, seeking a life free from fear. The result is a stunning narrative that is simultaneously frightening and familiar.
—Kerri Farrell Foley, Managing Editor Crack The Spine.
Douglas Cole’s writing is lyrical jazz, shifting effortlessly between smooth syncopation and frantic riffs with practiced perfection.
—David LaBounty, Managing Editor, Blue Cubicle Press
"The White Field is a blend of classic archetype with breathtaking prose. Douglas Cole beautifully sculpts noir themes, gripping characters, and vivid imagery in a story that glues you to the pages.
—Amy Kisner, Editor Lit Literature
With a poet’s ear, Douglas Cole records the pulse of a work-a-day life’s tedium and, cogently, that of his narrator who dares to escape it.
—Dennis Must, author of Hush Now Don’t Explain and The World’s Smallest Bible plus three short story collections: Going Dark, Oh, Don’t Ask Why, and Banjo Grease.
"Here’s a rarity. Few accomplished poets have crossed the Rubicon into major literary fiction with such confidence. This is a novel whose feet are in the Beats and its head in transcendence. It’s a genre-stripper. Cole, like Joyce, is as much an innovator as Daedalus. The White Field - alternately bewitching and terrifying - is a clear coup: the ultimate existential thriller."
—Michael Feeney Callan, author of novels such as The Woman and the Rabbit, Lovers and Dancers, poetry books, Fifty Fingers and An Argument for Sin, as well as critically acclaimed biographies on Robert Redford, Sean Connery, Anthony Hopkins, Richard Harris, and Julie Christie.
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Portions of this work appeared in the following publications: Airgonaut, Alternating Current, Bitter Oleander, Bluestem Magazine, Best New Writing Anthology (Hopewell Publications), Clackamas Review, Contrary Magazine, Counterclock, Crack the Spine, Dimeshow Review, Edge, Eclectica, The Forge, Ginosko, Iconoclast, Lit Literature, Litbreak, Longshot Island, Owen Wister Review, Solstice Magazine, Sou’wester, Torrid Literature, Unreal, The Wayfarer, Wellington Street Review, Wilderness House, The Wisconsin Review; and a Blue Cubicle Press limited edition novella called Ghost.
Suppose this prisoner could not turn back but was instead dragged forcibly up the steep and rough passage to the mouth of the cave and released only after he had been brought into the sunlight. The impact of the radiance of the sun upon his eyes would be so painful that he would be unable to see any of the things that he was now told were real. It would take some time before his eyes became accustomed to the world outside the cave.
—Plato
Where shall wisdom be found? And where is the place of understanding? Man knoweth not the price thereof; neither is it found in the land of the living.
—Book of Job
I Awake
II I Hear the Sound of a Whip Cracking
III Leaving the Dream
I
Awake
I
walked into the sun. It seared the road and the rooftops, intense, blinding. I went up Eighty-Eighth Street through the homes and the old elms with their heavy summer growth and darkness along their limbs, light strobing through the shadows. I knew someone might recognize me. They might even call the police. But I couldn’t resist. I was free, now. Nobody could touch me.
Only those who cared, and by now there were none, would have known my release date. My wife may have known. At one time, I imagined her writing it on a wall calendar, marking off each day leading up to it with a big, black X. But I knew I’d fallen far from her thoughts.
I couldn’t be sure of my children, though. They were so young when I went in they could have forgotten all about me. My wife had remarried. Very likely, they called her new husband daddy. Very likely, they thought he was. Events had erased me. After all, I’d made no contact. And while I had no idea what my wife might have told them, unless she’d changed in ways I couldn’t foresee, I knew she’d tell them the truth if they asked and say nothing if they didn’t. At worst, they believed I was dead.
And that life seemed like something unreal. There were no traces of it around here. But my sense of time was way off. From counting, literally, minutes as they passed, I went into a vast timeless trance-zone where whole years vanished. In the midst of this, I reemerged from time to time to peer into my little cell of life with seconds hanging like drops of water on a window ledge and refusing to fall. But now, walking this street, I was the last person anyone around here was expecting to see.
So, as I went up Eighty-Eighth to the old house, I had this strange feeling that I was invisible. In the dusk light, I saw the windows of the houses blazing. Commuters on their way home shot by and curved around the meridians in the intersections, their faces steel traps that snapped and flashed mirror eyes and grim lips and frenzy, frenzy for home, motion so fast they blurred into tracer ribbons. And the sun only cloaked me that much more. Even my shadow was a rail.
And I heard it, that high tension ping, like my own past ringing from the driveway and those days when I was a kid, too, playing into evening as our faces disappeared in the darkness with only the square of the backboard above and the black sphere of the ball and the heat and breath of the other players around me. Then I saw them, three boys playing basketball in the driveway. One was a tall gangly kid with long black hair and ripped jeans and a T-shirt with the word ENEMY printed on it. Another kid stood beside him, but the light made it hard to see his features. Then, the ball landed on the rim, bounced up, arced over to the other side of the rim, hung there suspended in the net for a moment and then dropped through. The third boy stood back from his shot with his hands on his hips, breathing hard, turning his head slowly as I saw, I swear, my own face there in front of me. With a brow of concentration like a hawk’s predatory gaze, he looked at me as our eyes locked for an eternal moment that I thought carried some recognition, but the moment changed before I could read it. Then, I was passing on, and my son returned to his game.
I
was on time for my first day of work. First job as a free man. Larry Paterson, the shop owner, was a bloated hungry ghost with a greasy brown beard and a puffed up, sweaty face. Even in this heat, he wore an enormous flannel shirt tarped over his frame and spotted with sweat. When I came in, he looked at me like I was another part of the machinery, another guy he had hired out of prison. I followed him back through the shop. Timecards here,
he said, pointing at an old timeclock on the wall with a rack of punch cards. When he spoke it was like he was out of breath. Fill your name out on one. You get paid every Friday.
The little shop office he occupied looked like the spot where the whirlwind dumped the leftovers, moldering papers and brown boxes and one steel desk in the middle and a filing cabinet tilting with drawers half open, some of them empty. He had a calendar on one wall with a picture of a balloon-breasted woman in a yellow bikini lying back with sexual vibrato over the seat of a motorcycle. The trash can overflowed with twine and packaging and soda cans. The desk was covered with stained invoice sheets, pens, envelopes, a clipboard and a phone, a half cup of cold coffee, and old fast food burger wrappers with hard glistening corners of cheese. There was a strong smell of metal filings. Otherwise, the room had a bare, almost temporary look, though it also seemed like this was the place where Larry spent most of his time, a little prison of his own. I stood there as he scanned my information.
You’re on temporary for now,
he said. Trial basis. Three weeks in, if you make it that long, we’ll talk. I’m going to start you off with paint prepping. You ever use a phosphorous gun?
Nope.
Doesn’t take a brain surgeon. Go out to the shop and ask Raphael to show you what to do. He’s in the painting bay.
He looked down and pushed around some papers. But something about his actions looked like an act. When was he going to say, just kidding? And I wondered if he was going to tell me something else or ask me any questions. I wanted to ask him if he had told any of the other workers that I’d been in prison, but I decided that wasn’t such a good idea. They probably didn’t know. And if they did, most likely they didn’t care.
Anything else?
I asked. I had this floating disbelief that anything, even this, could be so simple. I still felt unreal, and I wanted to avoid making any mistakes. I felt I should double check everything, just to make sure. I wanted to be certain there was nothing else I was supposed to do.
No. Go to work.
I hesitated. Which one is Raphael?
He’s the big guy, painter, Mexican. You can’t miss him.
The shop was a shabby little building, a double Quonset hut like a tin can cut in half lengthwise with the two halves laid side by side and a hole cut in the middle to pass through from one side to the other. At the ends of the tin cans were tall sliding wooden doors with slats so far apart you could put your arm through, and on the curved sides of the huts were darkly sooted windows so obscured by filth no light came through. On this side of the shop were two painting bays and two large kilns that looked like missile silos with wheel-lock doors and steam blurred temperature gauges. They swelled and radiated a ring of infernal heat. The painting bays were medieval, paint splattered, scrimmed-in structures with protruding hooks from which hung the various parts to be painted: what looked like fuselage plates and wing blades, but I had no idea what they were. Spray guns and metal tongs hung down from the ceiling on swivel arms, and two painters stood in their bays, paint mist swirling around them as they swept their spray guns over the hanging parts. They wore goggles and overalls and were covered with a Jackson Pollack blast of colors. The taller one, who had to be Raphael, was about seven feet tall. I waited, watching as he swiped the gun back and forth, laying down white stripes of enamel onto a wedge of gray steel.
I raised my hand like a kid in school, and he stopped and shoved his paint gun into a rack on the wall and lifted his mask. I was surprised to see a wide, friendly smile as he nodded and said, Yeah? Wha’s up?
I’m starting here,
I said. Larry told me to ask you about the phosphorous gun.
Clean-up, huh?
I guess.
Raphael Ephastus,
he said. And he extended a hand the size of a bear claw. I took hold of it. It felt like he could pulp-crush my hand if he wanted to. I’d seen guys like him in prison, so big nobody bothers them. But I detected a genuine kindness behind the large-handed grip. I still had cobweb thoughts to get rid of.
Tom,
I said.
Tom? Good. Welcome to...
He looked around, smiled, then shrugged, and said, Wanna smoke?
Sure,
I said, even though I was a little anxious to get started. Trial basis. I still felt like eyes were watching me.
I followed him to the doorway and out into the gravel lot, and he handed me a cigarette, put one between his lips, lit his then mine.
Thanks,
I said.
No problema,
and he rolled his head from side to side, making it snap with a ripple that sounded like a string of wet firecrackers going off. I can use a break. I didn’t sleep last night.
Yeah?
I asked. I’d lost the art of casual conversation, and it wasn’t really my habit to ask questions. It’s time now, I thought, so I said, Why’s that?
I’ve been working another job, too, you know? And sometimes when I get home, I just can’t sleep.
What’s your other job?
Painting.
Full-time?
Yeah.
You have two full-time jobs?
I do. The other one is a nightshift at another shop.
Jesus!
Wife and kids, you know? Life costs.
And he took a deep breath, a smoke, gave his big head another roll and said, Come on.
I followed him back in and through the opening to the other side of the shop. He stopped for a moment and took a drink from a water cooler. That side was filled mostly with racks of drying parts and wide metal tables. One other guy was working alone at one of the tables, hunched over and sitting on a high stool, doing something with boxes full of little metal plates. Hey, Tony,
Raphael said. This a new guy name Tom.
I nodded to Tony. He lifted one hand without looking up and then went back to his work.
We went through the tables and out through another set of sliding wooden doors, and I followed him across the gravel lot over to the spot where I would be working. A huge rusted drum with a pump attached to it stood there in the corner of the lot. A hose came out of the pump, and on the end of the hose was a long-barreled spray gun with a trigger handle. Raphael flipped on the pump, and an engine thrummed, the hose went taut, and phosphorous steam leached, hissing snake-like from the coupling on the gun. Next to the gun was a mountain of large aluminum crates. Raphael threw down his cigarette, grabbed a crate, lifted it like it was nothing more than a cardboard box, set it on a wooden pallet, and began spraying it with the phosphorous gun. He sprayed it inside, sprayed it outside, flipped it over, hit every surface. When he had finished, he set it down, turned to me and said, See that?
Yep.
Tha’s what you do.
I think I got it.
Do all these crates, okay, and stack them next to the side of the shop there to dry. You keep them off the ground, though, you know, on those pallets. They have to be clean, no dirt on them anywhere, so we can paint them. If you finish today, let me know. I’ll set you on something else. You got it?
I got it.
Tha’s good.
He picked up his cigarette, looked up at the sun, shook his head, grinning. As he went past me, he slapped me on the shoulder and said with a little chuckle, Good luck, amigo.
Thanks.
He went back into the shop, and I stood there looking at my mountain of work and smiled. I was alone, completely alone out there, with no eyes on me at all. And it was a beautiful feeling, that no one was watching me. It was freedom. I still felt the pressure of phantom walls, even in the open yard outside the shop, but I also felt free. I was hyper-aware of space. When I breathed, I breathed the whole sky.
The sun was only three fingers high, but already it was blazing hot. I went over to the gun, grabbed the barrel, and the moment I picked it up I felt a sharp, hot stab of pain. I dropped it. I knew I’d made a bad mistake. I looked down and saw a white burn welt filling up over my palm. Then it began to hurt. This was not good, but I wasn’t going to go in and say anything about it. It was my own fault. I would just have to power through.
I had to maneuver the crates using my forearm to lift them, which wasn’t easy. I avoided any contact with my palm. When my palm did touch anything, it sent a bright pain shooting up my arm. The blister throbbed sickly. I had to spray left-handed. That wasn’t easy, either. And little by little, the day got hotter as the sun rose higher and I sprayed box after box. Each one weighed about eighty-five pounds, and the more I sprayed, the more soaked I became in that hot, phosphorous steam. I could even taste it. My shirt hung so heavy with sweat I finally took it off. But after a while I felt my skin burning, so I put my shirt back on. I sprayed the crates and lined them up against the shop, and I nearly had a whole row done by the time the sun hit its zenith. But a tower of boxes remained.
It was noon, and it was hotter than hell. My eyes and mouth were burning. I stopped and looked around for a space of shade to sit and smoke a cigarette. But there was no shade, so I sat down on one of the crates, lit a cigarette, and stared out over the gravel lot. Across the street were dirty little white houses with bars on their windows. The street was lined with shrunken oaks. And off across the field to the south, the airport buzzed with the flicker of planes taking off and landing in the amber air.
I worked all afternoon on that tower of crates and was nowhere near done by the end of the day. I was soaked, burned, exhausted. I punched out with my new timecard, half dead, and shuffled out with the rest of the workers. Dust rose up in the parking lot and the alleyway as the cars pulled out. I got into my car and lit another cigarette. I looked down at my open palm and saw the popped blister of pulpy, burned flesh. So this is it then, I thought. Well, so be it. I started my car and drove one-handed into the whiteout of the road.
B
ack at my studio apartment, I opened a cold beer and drank it down, the whole bottle, in one gulp. I opened another and sat by the kitchen window. My eyes ached and my hand pulsed with pain, wrapped now in a homemade bandage. I tried to ignore it, to let it be. But it kept up a nice, insistent throbbing, trying to keep my attention on it. The last of the sunlight was coming through the thin row of trees behind the apartment building. Sparrows hopped around on the branches, sending up quick puffs of dust as they shook the leaves. Sometimes they stopped and looked in at me.
My little furnished studio apartment was not much bigger than a prison cell. It felt like something out of centuries past, with a Murphy bed that folded down out of a wall closet and a tan couch with consumption-saturated cloth and a low back, a wooden chair with green cushions crushed in by years of flop house sitters, a coffee table with a surface full of cup rings and cigarette burns, a green Formica kitchen table and a small gas stove that looked like a miniature Cadillac. I even had a nice walk-in bathroom with a door that closed and a window that opened by turning a crank arm, though the window ledge was rotting out. But