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Soiled Clothes - Sunil Gangopadhyay
Dutta
1
Amotor car is approaching the house at a fairly good speed. Normally, this area is shunned by vehicles. At this hour of the night, one can hardly hear the sound of cycle-rikshaws. Now surprisingly, it seems as if, storming down the path, crashing through the bushes and demolishing the flower plants, a car is heading towards the house. Standing near the window, Mandira can see the advancing headlights.
Her table is placed beside the latticed window. Though the net covering the window is capable of barring worms and insects, yet unfortunately for Mandira, it does not keep the mosquitoes away. However, she is glad that at least it fortifies the house well against frogs. When she had first arrived in this village, the monsoons had just set in, and then she had often seen frogs squatting on the floor and wriggling through. Instinctively she abhors these apparently harmless creatures as they remind her of the macabre shadows of snakes.
A few scattered trees are visible through the window. A little distance away, lies a pond. Occasionally, the moon shines in its water. Last month, at midnight, Mandira was startled by the sound of something heavy falling from a height into the pond. Later, having realised that it was only a palm fruit which had fallen from one of the three palmyra trees that silhouetted the banks of the pond, she felt ashamed of her timidity.
A frog squatting on the floor of her living room, or the sound of a palm fruit splashing into the deep water of a tank—such mundane experiences are unprecedented for her. They often unsettle her. Does this mean that life still has some surprises in store for her? These unexpected surprises and fears make her body and mind lively, vivacious.
Indeed, life ceases to be worth living in the absence of these sensations.
On the opposite side of the pond, stands a well-built but dilapidated house, that was perhaps built by its owner with many expectations, but now lies deserted; even the legal heirs of the house do not visit any more. The ground floor is occupied by a local family but the upper floor is left high and dry, to be reigned supreme by weeds and unwanted plants. Cracks have appeared on the walls as the mighty roots of a peepal tree are forcing their way through. The surroundings have become a den for scavengers. Sometimes at the dead of night, weird noises, resembling the cry of a baby, shake up the neighbourhood.
Known as Lahiri Villa, this forgotten building is up for sale. A few prospective buyers have already shown interest. Rumour is that a certain Marwari entrepreneur is thinking of setting up a plant here for manufacturing phials and small bottles.
Has anyone come to inspect Lahiri Villa at this hour? wonders Mandira.
The small timepiece on the study table shows the time—a quarter to ten. The room where Mandira lives has no other furniture besides a small table, a chair and a bed. A white bedsheet is spread on the bed and a light blue- coloured mosquito net is rigged up on it. A few important books are stored in a cane basket under the bedstead. Mandira does not like to keep the books on the bare floor as they might absorb the damp from the floor. Nor does she like to make the room cluttered and congested by bringing in almirahs and bookshelves.
From the highway, an almost mile-long, semi-concrete road runs up to Battala. From there five narrow avenues deviate into five different directions like the five fingers of a hand. Hence, at this labyrinthine crossroads, wayfarers new to this place, often get confused.
Like the people of this village, Mandira also tries to make it a habit to go to bed early at night, but in vain. How can she? After all, she cannot forsake her habit of reading till late into the night! With much self-determination, at least, she has been able to cut down her quota of cigarettes—from forty to a bare minimum of three. And that too not in public. A herculian task indeed! She smokes her last cigarette at eleven p.m. While reading at night the urge to inhale the blessed puff becomes so strong that at an interval of every five minutes she feels as if a sitarist is harping on the strings to remind her constantly of the cherished moment. The car must have lost its way, there’s no doubt about it, thinks Mandira. Having been familiar with automobiles of various types, she has the expertise to recognise the brand, make or type of the car from the very sound of its engine. Yet in this remote village, the sound of a car at this obscure hour, drowning the drone of crickets, is most ill- becoming and incongruous.
The car stops near her house. The headlights are switched off. The door of the car opens and then slams shut with a bang. At least more than one person alight from the car and engage in a conversation among themselves. Meanwhile, the sound of the car engine has attracted a few folks from the neighbourhood who flock around it. The news of the proposed new factory at Lahiri Villa has caused tremendous excitement amongst the villagers who are speculating on the job opportunities that would open up for the local youths.
‘So Lahiri Villa has finally been sold out!’ Mandira mutters to herself. It is an old-fashioned mansion with two life-sized lions sculpted in concrete (one of them being headless). Such a dilapidated old building matches well with an obscure landscape like this, she thinks; but if a factory comes up in its place, the village will undergo a sea-change.
‘Didi, some visitors have come to meet you,’ says Shanti peering through the door. Shanti is in her teens, fifteen or sixteen years old, though she herself doesn’t know her age. Her young body hasn’t yet started its journey towards womanhood. Though thinly built and tall, she has a handsome face and an unkempt natural beauty. Her complexion resembles the colour of the silt left behind on the sandbank immediately after the tide. Because of her large eyes, she bears an expression of awestruck wonder about this mundane world.
‘To meet me?’ asks Mandira in amazement.
With her head lowered, Shanti replies, ‘Yes, they are mentioning your name.’
Rising up from her bed, she adjusts the pallu of the blue sari, wipes off the perspiration on her face with a tissue paper and, wearing her pair of rubber sandals, comes out on the veranda. Jasmine and China rose shrubs, in full bloom, line both sides of the front courtyard. There has been a mild shower in the evening. The fragrance of hashnuhana is still lingering in the air. In spite of being a moonlit night, the moon lies hidden behind thin layers of clouds.
As the courtyard is small, the car is parked outside the fences surrounding the courtyard. A few men, standing near the car, are talking amongst themselves. Right at the centre of the courtyard is standing a man.
‘Who’s there?’ asks Mandira. The man remains quiet. Taking the lantern from Shanti’s hand, Mandira holds it aloft and stands on the edge of the porch. A middle-aged, well-built man, with slightly grey hair around the temples, clad in a grey suit with the necktie loosened, stands staring at Mandira. The man’s eyes appear to be drowsy.
His face bears a blank expression, as though sculptured. His hands are folded crosswise on his chest in Swami Vivekananda’s posture.
Mandira stands dumbstruck for a while.
A classic scene indeed! A man and a woman keep gazing at each other, spellbound. They are meeting each other today after as long as twenty-seven years. Well, they met twice for a brief spell in those twenty-seven years but that was immaterial. The duration of their separation is twenty-seven years, but it seems to be a millennium now.
Mandira breaks the ice, by addressing him in a normal tone, ‘Biman!’
The man’s voice, like that of a thespian, trembles, ‘Mani are you really ... in this faraway, remote place!’
He is clearly in an intoxicated state. Which is why he sounds so emotional. His glazed eyes, his slightly dramatic manner of speech, though genuine, are nevertheless the result of an excitement induced by a hangover.
‘Who gave you my address? It must be Prabir!’ she exclaims.
The man immediately retorts in a hurt tone, ‘Why? Am I not welcome here? Have I done anything wrong by coming here ... Should I leave at once?’
Mandira steps down from the veranda and clasping Biman’s hand, says warmly, ‘You’re most welcome. Please do come inside.’
Biman takes away his hand and enfolding Mandira, presses his cheek against hers. He breaks into tears like a child. ‘Mani, my dear Mani ... you’ve been staying here for the last two months, yet I didn’t know. Why, Mani, why?’
His cry seems to be a heart-rending lament.
At a little distance, the other person is standing quietly in the dark. From a tree an owl cries out in a melancholy note. Mandira is still holding the lantern. She may be singed by the way Biman is holding her.
Biman’s arrival is unexpected. Yet she shouldn’t have told him that. He has been hurt, so he is repeatedly saying the same things in a weeping voice.
Mandira knows that there is no point in arguing with a drunkard. In a mollycoddling tone, patting his back, she says, ‘No, of course it isn’t like that. I can never think of avoiding you, can I? Come along inside, Biman. I’ve a lot of things to tell you.’
A small crowd has in the meanwhile gathered around the fence. Releasing herself from Biman’s arms, she casts a glance at them while calling out, ‘Prabir, do come in.’
Prabir, tall and slim, below forty, is clad in a batik print shirt. He is Mandira’s cousin. Two days back she had a chance meeting with Prabir at Bagdi Market, Calcutta, where she had gone to buy some toiletries. Initially, Prabir could not believe that it was really Mandira, shopping, all by herself, at Bagdi market.
Evidently Prabir is suffering from a sense of guilt for accompanying Biman to his sister’s house without prior notice.
‘Biman da insisted on coming. You had asked me not to inform our relatives, but I suppose telling Biman da about you was alright?’
Though there are some chairs on the veranda, Mandira leads them into the room as a curious crowd is still standing on the compound. She instructs Shanti to tell the crowd, waiting inquisitively out there, that the visitors are her guests: her brother and his friend.
By this time a light drizzle has turned into a heavy downpour. Rain drops are pattering heavily on the tin shed and sounding like an orchestra.
Mandira offers them two chairs. Biman has in the meanwhile relaxed a bit and the early signs of agitation are gone. Wiping his face with a handkerchief reveals a different countenance: a man with a strong personality, affluent and immensely successful in life.
The flashlight on Mandira’s study table has made the room partially bright.
Seeing her, standing with a lantern in her hand, Biman at first casts a searching glance all over the room and then says, ‘So you’re staying here! Will you live here for good?’
‘What makes you say so? Do you think it’s not worth living here? This twelve by eighteen feet room is spacious enough, isn’t it?’ asks Mandira.
‘But it’s too hot, you don’t have fans here,’ says Biman.
‘Yes, I’ll arrange for fans. I’m going to have an electric connection soon. Right now, I hope you won’t have much trouble since it has been raining for a couple of days.’
‘But it’s too sultry and humid.’
‘You may be feeling very uncomfortable but I don’t,’ says Mandira with an impish smile.
That makes Biman rather angry. He shouts, ‘But tell me, why must you be living in this godforsaken village, that too under tin sheds? Why!’
Mandira, with that same smile lingering on her lips, says, ‘In English the answer to your question is just a ‘because’, in French parce que and in Bengali emni. Some personal questions have no answers, Biman.’
‘Mani di has left England bag and baggage. She has even sold her house there ... am I correct Mandira di?’ asks Prabir.
Mandira, evading this question, asks, ‘You’ve come at this late hour of the night; have you two had any dinner?’ Biman replies brusquely, ‘You don’t have to worry about our dinner. We’ve got plenty of chapattis and also some cooked meat. Prabir, fetch them from the car.’ ‘Not now. It’s still raining,’ says Prabir. Lighting a cigarette, Biman brings out a bottle of whisky from his coat’s pocket and says, ‘Help me with a glass. So who else lives with you here?’
‘That little girl Shanti lives with me. By the way, I request you not to drink here.’
‘Why not?’ asks Biman in a sudden outburst of rage. ‘Am I sitting in a temple? Have you set up some kind of a religious institution, that I can’t drink here?’
‘Oh no. It’s just that we happen to be in the heart of a village and the folks here are unaccustomed to it,’ Mandira says very politely.
‘Do you think they don’t drink? Spurious liquor dens have sprouted up at every nook and corner. I don’t care a damn about them. I’ll have my drinks here. If you don’t give me a glass, I’ll drink neat from the bottle.’
‘Biman da has already drained a bottle down his throat while travelling in the car,’ adds Prabir.
‘So what?’ says Biman, haughtily, ‘I can stand more than twenty pegs.’
‘Then don’t drink it raw. Wait. I’m giving you a glass and water.’
Every night Shanti unfailingly keeps a jug of water and a glass under Mandira’s bed. She gives that glass and water to Biman.
‘Prabir is a teetotaller. Won’t you give me company though, Mandira? Fetch two glasses. I hope you have not given up drinking and become a sanyasini!’
‘But when did I ever drink? Occasionally, I had a few pegs of wine.’
‘Come on, Mandira, I had seen you drinking at Dr Sen’s party at Belsize Park in err ... 1982,’ Biman says, frowning hard.
‘No, not in 1982, that was in March 1983,’ rectifies Mandira. ‘I remember having a glimpse of you there. That day I had tasted champagne. Hard drinks like whisky have never been my cup of tea.’
Biman pours whisky in one glass only. After a loud sip, he says, ‘I was visiting a doctor’s surgery at Harley Street ... I met Dr Sen accidentally. He is a distant relative from my in-laws’ side. He had invited me to the party. Had I known you were coming there, I wouldn’t have gone to the party. I understood you were avoiding me there because your husband was with you—am I right? So, I never tried to look you up, never tried to intrude ...’
‘My husband would be too busy talking to other people at those parties. He wouldn’t have time to bother about me. That day I was ...’ saying this much Mandira breaks off. She feels it is redundant to give an explanation for an incident that occurred so long ago; though Biman is waiting, curious.
He is still staring at her.
‘By the way, when did you start from Calcutta?’ asks Mandira, cleverly changing the topic. ‘What about your return journey tonight? I’m afraid you’ll be very late.’
‘That means you want to get rid of us as soon as possible ... am I right, Mani?’ asks Biman.
‘Chhordi, I don’t drive. It’s Biman da who drove all the way from Calcutta. So, it’s risky for him to drive back this late at night. We should halt at your place tonight.’
‘Here? How can you?’ asks Mandira, unnerved. ‘There’s only one room.’
‘I’ll sleep inside the car,’ suggests Prabir.
Casting a glance at the blue mosquito net, Biman says, ‘Are you sure that you’ve divorced your husband? Divorce or separation?’
‘Divorce’ says Prabir, ‘I heard that before. But I didn’t know that you had left Europe for good.’
‘But I still don’t understand you, Mani. You may have been forced to leave England, but that doesn’t mean that you have to live in a remote village like this one,’ rebuffs Biman, concern lurking in his voice. ‘Have you taken it for granted that you have no friend or relation in India? Can’t Calcutta provide you shelter?’
‘Who will be kind enough to give me shelter?’ smiles Mandira. ‘I’ve become quite old, after all. My husband has deserted me. I’m not wealthy. So I’ll be looked upon as a burden by all.’
Mandira is exaggerating. Like the setting sun, her youth is beginning to wane, but for this very reason she now looks more lustrous. The signs of ageing are yet to leave their impression on her body. When she stares unmindfully, three creases appear on her forehead. Her skin is taut and her hair is still black. She has never been a paragon of beauty, but she’s good-looking and when she talks, she becomes more attractive.
Her husband had not abandoned her. But, surprising her friends in London, one fine morning, she herself took the decision of leaving him and staying alone; practically for no real reason; in everybody’s eyes it was for no rhyme or reason.
Mandira’s husband, Thomas Brockway was the nephew of Feinner Brockway, the famous MP from the Labour Party, who was once a genuine supporter of India. Mandira had gone to England to pursue further studies in political studies and got involved with an ultra-socialist group of students there. Thomas Brockway or Tom was the leader of that group. It was love at first sight for Tom. He took Mandira for granted, never waiting for her to reciprocate, as if rejection from her side was quite out of the question. He somewhat forced her to accompany him on his frequent political tours across the country— Cambridge, Sheffield, Liverpool, meetings at London School of Economics, etc., and put up at the same hotels sharing twin rooms. On one occasion, Tom had wanted to sleep with Mandira, but she, feeling embarrassed, had declined with entreaties. At this, standing on the bed, Tom had declaimed, ‘Oh, despite being a socialist, you’re a Hindu, after all; you do not agree to that thing before marriage. But comrade, that very thing is essential for our bodies and minds. Therefore tomorrow we’ll be wedded. First thing in the morning ... After that you’ll cease to be a Hindu, I, a Christian. We’ll be atheists.’
Mandira couldn’t seek her parents’ consent. Nor did she personally intimate Biman about her decision. Later, her parents couldn’t accept the marriage. So she decided to sever all ties with India instead. In the last twenty-six years she had been to India twice. On one visit she didn’t even visit Calcutta, but had gone back from Delhi itself. Meanwhile, she had had two children—both of them were quite grown up now. Her husband had been elected to the parliament twice. She also had been working as a copy editor in a well-known publication house.
In spite of all this, after twenty-six years of marriage, she sought separation from Tom. After the divorce she could have stayed back comfortably in London. She was solvent enough to support herself. Her son, residing in the United States, had already volunteered to help her financially. But she couldn’t adjust herself to that alien land. She left England for good.
Actually, she was confused—some seminal questions about the very nature of life had suddenly cropped up in her mind. During the early stages of her youth, life seemed to be full of potential. After their marriage she and Tom used to daydream about political revolutions. They believed that in the near future, socialism would be the new world order and that they would take part in those revolutions. The students’ movement of 1968 in France made them fancy that it was going to spell the fall of the French government and pave the path for the second French revolution. They believed that it would certainly make quite an impact on the politics of England and that Tom and Mandira would lead the rebels here.
But nothing as such happened. Grandiloquence, without armed movement, never brings about a change in the political system of a country. Tom, an advocate of extremism, gradually leaned towards the parliamentary form of democracy. He had occupied a very important position in the Labour Party. The Conservative Party under Margaret Thatcher had been enjoying majority in the British Parliament for some consecutive terms. But how long? A day must come when the Iron Lady would have to quit. Then the Labour Party would be in power enabling Tom a ministerial position. By this time, he had already secured a berth in the shadow cabinet.
After her marriage, apart from severing ties with her parents, Mandira somewhat detached herself from the local Bengali community as well, barring a handful of close college friends. She was conscious of her post- marital status. Her husband was an aristocratic British citizen, her children were also British. So, it was quite obvious that she’d mingle with the British socialites. She couldn’t change her complexion but she was happy that her children were white. Initially, she had to face some awkward situations because of her brown skin, but she never minded that.
With Tom, Mandira had often been invited to parties in the British elite society where she happened to be the only non-white member. A lady, clad in a sari, would warrant special attention there. Misbehaviour with her there was out of the question—rather she was treated with superfluous British courtesy; as though she was a princess. Everyone present there would wait upon her every word and gesture; if she even raised her hand a little, a great many people would rush to ask her, ‘May I help you?’ Nevertheless, Mandira was not sure about their attitude towards her. Under the surface of pseudo- courtesy, she could sense an air of hypocrisy. For instance, the clumsy chuckle of some ladies or the abrupt and uneasy silence for a few moments, if she happened to intrude into their bonhomie, didn’t escape her attention. She knew this distance would not wither away so easily. This was not due to the