Soulswift
By Megan Bannen
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A dark, epic fantasy about a girl who must rethink everything she believes after she is betrayed and hunted by the religion that raised her—from Megan Bannen, author of The Bird and the Blade. Perfect for fans of The Winner’s Curse and The Girl of Fire and Thorns.
Gelya is a Vessel, a girl who channels the word of the One True God through song. Cloistered with the other Vessels of her faith, she believes—as all Ovinists do—that a saint imprisoned Elath the Great Demon centuries ago, saving humanity from earthly temptation.
When Gelya stumbles into a deadly cover-up by the Ovinists’ military, she reluctantly teams up with Tavik, an enemy soldier, to survive. Tavik believes that Elath is actually a mother goddess who must be set free, but while he succeeds in opening Her prison, he inadvertently turns Gelya into Elath’s unwilling human vessel.
Now the church that raised Gelya considers her a threat. In a race against the clock, she and Tavik must find a way to exorcise Elath’s presence from her body. But will this release stop the countdown to the end of the world, or will it be the cause of the earth’s destruction?
And as Tavik and Gelya grow closer, another question lingers between them: What will become of Gelya?
Megan Bannen
Megan Bannen is a librarian and the author of The Bird and the Blade. In her spare time, she collects graduate degrees from Kansas colleges and universities. She lives in the Kansas City area with her husband, their two sons, and a few too many pets with literary names. She can be found online at www.meganbannen.com.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Solid world building with a very good historical/mythic backstory and a sharp, gritty beginning. You know from the moment Tavik appears, that he's a lot more than a filthy prisoner. Watching he and Gelya verbally parry before realizing how much of a bond has grown between them is satisfying as is the journey they undertake and how certain players are so deceptive. I had to re-read the ending in order to get full understanding of the story. All in all a very fulfilling read.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This book wrecked me, broke me apart and then put me back together and left me like whoa and with a major book hangover. I’m sitting here like what do I do after that, how do I go back to normal life after that... I knew this book would wreck me and be a major emotional rollercoaster with parts that would hit me right there and take my breath away but I still was not prepared for it.
It’s so achingly beautiful, brilliant and well written and so deep and so much I don’t know how to put all my thoughts into words. If you haven’t read this, you should and be prepared with tissues and being an emotional wreck.
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Soulswift - Megan Bannen
Prologue: The Dead Forest
Ten Years Ago
The trees grew at impossible angles from the limestone escarpment, and brittle rock crunched underfoot. The sound forcefully reminded Goodson Anskar of the day he half ran, half skidded across the broken floor tiles of the monastery’s chapel—the ominous crush and scattering of marble beneath his feet—before he peered down into the Vault of Mount Djall and found it empty.
That emptiness reached inside him now, two years later—two years of research and guesswork, convincing himself his hunch was right. He had arrived in Hedenskia with two thousand knights. Now only he and Brother Marton remained, trudging through the Dead Forest, taking turns carrying the precious child they had never expected to find among the heathens.
The Goodson’s back ached, so he set the girl down beside a gnarled tree to stretch. In that moment, a crack rent the air like a whip. The bark split down the middle, and from within the tree came two skeletal hands pushing apart the chasm. There was an answering crack in Anskar’s chest, a paternal feeling so ferocious it nearly brought him to his knees. He lunged, grasping the child by her cloak and yanking her behind him. Her body soared through the air like a bird as the monster oozed from the tree.
A telleg.
It attacked Brother Marton first, scraping a thick gash across the knight’s throat before biting into his shoulder with savage teeth. Anskar drew his sword as the creature sprang at him with unnatural speed, and he sliced it in half, exposing the spine within its bloodless gray flesh. When he was certain it was dead, he rushed to Marton, only to find his friend’s eyes staring blankly toward heaven.
Fighting the urge to weep, the Goodson glared down at the telleg that had killed the last of his men. On the monster’s chest was a mark that resembled the Hand of the Father, the same emblem stitched across his own tunic. This was surely a sign from the One True God, a symbol of Anskar’s failure and disgrace.
Silent as a fawn, the girl came to stand beside him, taking his big hand in her small one. She gazed up at him with innocent eyes, and his heart lurched. Her soft presence was like his favorite verse from The Song of Saint Ovin, the one that always brought him comfort:
When the berries of the gelya tree turn red,
Then you will know that I have called you home.
Squeezing the girl’s hand, Anskar reminded himself that his name meant spear in Aurian. Now, more than ever, the Father required that he be sharp to protect this child, the Vessel of the One True God.
Casting aside his despair, he crouched before her, and because he did not know her name, he gave her a new one. Poor little Gelya. Come. I shall carry you now.
Then he scooped her into his strong arms and carried her through a forest full of monsters and night.
I.
The Vessel
One
As Daughter Andra plops a scoop of thick oatmeal into my bowl, I recall the last conversation I had with Zofia before she left for the Monastery of Saint Helios:
Have you met the new Daughter yet? There are three girls your age here now, and it might be nice for you to have friends other than a thirty-year-old woman and the Goodson.
Those girls look at me like I’m going to bite them.
Then be your lovely self, Gelya, and show them that you don’t bite.
Well, Zofia is about to get her wish. With the other Vessels treating me like a nuisance and the rest of the Daughters avoiding me like the plague, I’m lonely enough in her absence to follow her suggestion. Girding myself, I walk past the Vessels’ table and head straight for the only other teenage girls in the refectory.
Vessels are Daughters who were chosen by the Grace Tree of Saint Vinnica to sing the Father’s Word for the faithful, while the other Daughters of the convent are simply women who’ve chosen to dedicate their lives to the One True God. These girls may not be Vessels like I am, but they are young women, and I’m a young woman, and surely that counts for something, especially in a convent full of old ladies. Not that I have anything against old ladies. It’s just that I’m not one.
I try to remember the girls’ names as I cross the room. Lucia? Lucretia? Something like that. And Trudi. I think. And . . . and that other girl. Most Daughters, unlike Vessels, don’t enter the convent until they’re at least sixteen. That means each one of these girls has a home to remember, a wider world they’ve seen that I haven’t—at least not that I remember clearly. I was only five or six years old when the Father chose me. I watch them stiffen, then stiffen a bit more, then turn into a set of petrified wooden boards as I get closer. By the time I reach their table, I think I’d rather hide under it than pull up a chair, but there’s no going back now. I almost ask, May I sit here?
but then it occurs to me that they could say no, and that would be mortifying. Instead, I opt for Is this seat taken?
because it clearly isn’t, and lying is a sin.
No?
Probably Trudi answers doubtfully, her blue eyes wide in her round pink face. Lucia or Lucretia and That Other Girl gape at her in panic.
My hands are shaking so badly that my teacup vibrates on its saucer, and my orange nearly rolls off the tray. So,
I chirp as I sit, my voice two octaves higher than normal and five times louder than necessary. What do you study at the convent?
Um,
gulps That Other Girl, her brown eyes darting between her friends. She has the fine bones of someone from southwest Rosvania or northwest Tovnia, the sort of person who makes me feel extra enormous. She stares at me like she might vomit from terror. Because I’m not just a Vessel. I’m also Hedenski, a girl from the most brutal and uncivilized place on earth, a land where people worship a tree goddess—a tree, for the love of the Father—and that makes me terrifying twice over. But honestly, I’ve lived at the convent so long that I don’t remember anything about Hedenskia. It’s not like I murder people, and to my knowledge, I’ve never carried a battle-axe. Can’t they see that?
Well,
says Lucia or Lucretia, adding a third word to the girls’ collective lexicon, which is promising. With her dark hair and olive complexion, I’d guess she comes from south of the Koz Mountains, and I feel a pang of sympathy for her, living so far from a home she must miss. I may not remember where I came from, but I do remember mourning its loss.
Probably Trudi finally gives me a complete sentence. I’m studying herbalism so that I may serve the Father by treating the sick.
Her accent is thickly Degmari, and since my Degmari is pretty good, I figure that speaking to her in her native language would be a friendly thing to do. That is interesting,
I say a little too enthusiastically. I recently translated a book on medicinal herbs from Middle Tovnian to Rosvanian. I was surprised to learn how useful goldenseal is.
By now, I notice that Probably Trudi appears to be shrinking in on herself and on the verge of tears, yet my mouth runs on a few seconds longer as if it has a life of its own. And . . . and . . . chamomile as well.
Um, yes,
she sniffs in Rosvanian, dabbing at her eyes with her napkin.
Did I say something wrong?
I ask, feeling even more gigantic than usual. And then I realize my blunder. Many people on the continent think of the Degmari as backwater yokels, probably because of the archipelago’s proximity to Hedenskia, and here I am, a Hedenski, pointing out the girl’s embarrassing origins in front of her friends, who are now looking at me like I’ve sprouted fangs when I was trying to be kind. I wish the floor would open up beneath me, but since that’s not going to happen, I escape before I can make things any worse.
Well, nice talking with you.
I lurch to my feet, and this time the orange rolls off my tray and bounces on the floor. I pick it up, clear my tray, and exit the refectory without having eaten a bite. I’ll be sure to tell Zofia I told you so
when she returns, but the humiliating pang of my failure pulverizes whatever smug triumph I might have felt.
An hour later, at Ovinsday services, I rise from my kneeler at the front of the Cathedral of Saint Vinnica, ascend the steps of the dais, and stand at the lectern. Pilgrims from all over the world fill the wooden pews in hushed wonder, waiting for me to begin the sacrament as they stare at the huge mosaic behind me. Saint Ovin stands in the center, plunging his sword into the heart of Elath, the snakelike demon at his feet. His daughter, Vinnica, stands to his right, clutching a chalice to her heart, her mouth yawning wide as the Great Demon’s immortal spirit enters her body. To Ovin’s left stands his second daughter, Saint Lanya, writing down The Song of Saint Ovin with the blue soulswift feather in her hand.
The Daughters of the convent kneel below me, their faces turned up in expectation, their shorn heads reflecting light in shades of blue and red as the sun presses through the stained-glass windows. The sacristy behind the altar once housed hundreds of Vessels in prayer. Now only twenty-three of us fill in the kneelers at the front like teeth in a beggar’s gap-toothed smile, and almost all those who remain are old women. No girl has been chosen since me, ten years ago, which means the day might come when I look out over the Daughters to find myself the only Vessel left, really and truly alone in the world.
My stomach growls into the silence, as empty as I feel. I stare down at one of my least favorite passages from The Songs, the part where the Knights of the Order of Saint Ovin deliver the Father’s punishment upon the ancient Kantari, the heathens who insisted—and insist to this day—that Elath the Great Demon is their mother goddess.
I press my fingertips to the embossed Sanctus text, and the Father’s Word takes hold of me, cold and invasive. May the Father forgive me for loathing it, this sensation that something other than myself is pouring into me and using me for its own purpose—His own purpose—however divine it may be.
You’re saving souls, Gelya, I remind myself, and I dutifully sing the verse as it comes to me through the sensitive skin of my fingertips.
Set the city of Nogarra alight, and I shall be the bellows of the flame.
Let the flesh burn away into ash from the bone.
Let the bone wither into dust in the unforgiving fires of the Father.
I shall melt down my enemies and make them anew
in the love of the One True God.
I tamp down the effects of my gift as I sing, lessening the way my voice makes my listeners feel the searing heat of the flames and hear the shrieking of helpless children. The Father’s wrath always plants a seed of unease in my gut. It seems impossibly harsh that children should suffer simply because their parents followed the wrong faith. Aren’t they human, too? Aren’t they also the Father’s creation? As I slog my way through the verse, unbidden words string themselves together in my mind, forming a question of the unquestionable: How can a Father who punishes His children with such cruelty be considered good?
I tamp that down, too.
Once the fires have obliterated every Elath-worshiping man, woman, and child in Nogarra, once the city crumbles to a wasteland of ash, my body sags with fatigue, and a sheen of perspiration beads uncomfortably on my upper lip and forehead. I close the holy book, clomp gracelessly down the dais steps, and drop to my kneeler beside Daughter Ina, the intimidating Vessel Zofia left in charge in her absence. Whenever Ina sings, her gift lifts her listeners’ souls toward heaven, while the dark brown skin of her perfectly shorn head remains miraculously sweat-free, as if Sanctus were effortless for her. She inclines her head toward me and whispers, That was weak.
I glance over my shoulder at the girls from breakfast. That Other Girl whose name I don’t know and probably never will shudders when her brown eyes meet mine. I face forward again and mutter, I’d say it was adequate.
After services, I go to the scriptorium with the other Vessels and settle myself beside a window that looks out on the courtyard gardens. Beyond the latticework, daylight paints the fat pears in the orchard a honeyed gold. I allow myself one last, wistful glance before I get to work, pressing my fingers to the embossed pages of The Songs of the Saints. The Father’s Word fills me with a cold, thick pressure that heaves upward against the back of my throat and tightens my flesh. Pushing aside my discomfort, I grasp my pen and translate the Sanctus song into Kantari.
I’m the only Vessel at the convent who specializes in Kantari, and since there are more and more Kantari converts to the faith every day, it seems like all I do anymore is translate The Songs for them. Or, at least, for the ones who can read.
While the Kantari do worship the Father, most of them still cling to the old belief that Elath the Great Demon is a goddess. They even call Her their Mother.
They’re the reason the Order of Saint Ovin exists, the knights who guard Elath’s prison against the Kantari who keep trying to set Her free. If Elath is ever released, the world will end, so the other Vessels can sneer at my translations with that I-just-sucked-on-a-lemon face all they like; my work is literally saving the world one soul at a time.
At least I think it is.
Today’s translation from The Song of Saint Lanya explains the central tenet of Ovinism: Hundreds of years ago, Saint Ovin slew Elath the Great Demon with the sword given him by the One True God, a weapon called the Hand of the Father. As the demon’s body died, Ovin trapped Her spirit inside his daughter, Vinnica, the only girl pure enough to contain such evil. He then sealed the demon inside the Vault of Mount Djall, thereby saving mankind’s immortal soul from earthly suffering.
As the Sanctus text wears out my body, my gaze drifts once more to the view beyond the window. I find little joy in being trapped indoors when the world outside is green and alive. The scriptorium walls press in on me, and the stuffy air makes it difficult to breathe. I feel as though I might burst. The next thing I know, I’m on my feet, bonking my head on a low-hanging lamp as I dash for the courtyard door.
Where do you think you’re going?
Daughter Ina calls at my back, but I shut the door against her protests and take a deep breath of fresh air. I don’t know how I’ll get caught up on my work, but the scent of hay drying in the fields beyond the convent walls is enough reward to make me push away any misgivings. Can’t a Vessel of the One True God enjoy His creation from time to time?
The pea gravel between the raised beds of the potager garden crunches pleasingly beneath my feet as I make my way to the ancient statue of Saint Vinnica. It stands in the shade of the Grace Tree, whose seedpods open in the hands of the Vessels chosen by the One True God. The tree is dying, and has been dying since long before I came to the convent. No one knows why. It’s another reminder of my loneliness, of the possibility that the Vessels of the Father are dying out right alongside it. And who will sing the Father’s Word then?
The statue beneath the Grace Tree is a weathered version of Vinnica, less severe than the other icons of the convent, the idea of the saint rather than the painful reality of her. I tend to come here when I’m feeling rudderless or lonely or both, which is more and more often these days, especially with Zofia gone and no one to talk to in her absence. While the other Daughters and even the laity wax rhapsodic about the way the Father fills them with love and understanding, the sad truth is that the One True God is silent when I pray to Him.
My stomach aches with a terrible word that wriggles in my guts, making itself known whether I like it or not: doubt. I can’t unthink it, and I can’t pretend that I haven’t thought it before and won’t think it again. My doubt is why I stand before Saint Vinnica’s statue now. When I speak to her here in the garden, it feels as if someone is listening to me, so I send up a little prayer, a wish that the Father spoke to me rather than through me, some reassurance that he is the loving Father I have been taught to believe He is. I close my eyes and lift my face to the sun and listen to a swallow chirp in the Grace Tree. By the time I open my eyes once more, I feel calmer, comforted.
As I gaze at the statue, I wonder how anyone could identify it as Vinnica. She’s usually associated with either snakes, which represent Elath the Great Demon, or a chalice, a symbol of her body, which she sacrificed for the world, but if there were ever snakes or a chalice carved into the stone, they’ve long since faded with time and age.
I crouch down to push aside the tall sorrel leaves that obscure the saint’s legs and feet and find that the statue rests on a limestone block with faint Sanctus symbols carved into the stone. When I press my fingertips to the inscription, one word—one distinct feeling—jumps out at me: hand. But there’s more to it than that. Wrapped within the word are other ideas, other meanings. This hand is warm to the touch. It reaches for mine, but it also holds away things that would harm me. It feels oddly personal, and makes me long for something I don’t have the words or understanding to name.
It’s not surprising to find Sanctus carved into a statue’s base, but I’ve never felt a text as strong as this one. My fingertips drift across the stone, hungry for more. It’s mostly gibberish until I come across a few lines that are crystal clear:
Sing, faithful, of beloved Vinnica,
Prison and prisoner,
And pity her,
The eternal Vessel,
The heart of the Father’s sorrow.
I take my hand away, puzzled. Why would the Father be sorrowful when Vinnica’s sacrifice allowed Ovin to imprison Elath the Great Demon? My curiosity piqued, I sneak back into the scriptorium to fetch a sheet of parchment and a piece of charcoal. Then I stop by the garden shed to scrounge up one of the wire brushes we use to scour terra-cotta pots before replanting. I work up a sweat, scraping off the moss and lichen encrusting the statue’s base until I have enough cleared off to take a decent rubbing.
After all that, the results are disappointing. Sanctus is a slippery language on a good day, but I’ve never encountered a text this incomprehensible. I can’t even find the one passage I was able to read moments ago. Growling with irritation, I fold the parchment into fourths and stuff it into my pocket. I’m about to go back inside when a series of high-pitched notes dances through the air. A bird circles above me before it comes to perch on the statue’s shoulder.
Blue wings. Gold breast. A black band on each side of her face delineated by a white stripe above and below. Long wings and scissored tail tapering out of sight behind the statue. She’s a soulswift, a Vessel who has transcended her body to become a bird who carries the souls of the faithful to heaven. She cocks her head and releases a trilling more beautiful than any other sound on earth, proof of eternal life beside the Father in heaven.
This is what I will become when I die. Has the Father answered my doubt with this reminder of my duty on earth? Cowed, I grope for some sense of His presence in my heart, but a hollow ache is my only answer.
At last the soulswift takes flight, circles twice, then soars off beyond the convent walls, taking her heartbreakingly beautiful call with her.
Two
Well after dinner and twenty bells, the scriptorium is empty except for me, the lone Vessel who is staggeringly behind in her work.
I wonder what normal girls are doing in Varos da Vinnica, the town outside the convent. Knitting and gossiping with other women beside a fire? Telling stories that have nothing to do with burning cities or the end of the world? Whatever it is, I’m sure it’s more fun than translating Saint Wenslas’s apocalyptic visions into Kantari. It would be nice to find out what being normal feels like, if only for a day or two.
I rub my bleary eyes with ink-stained knuckles and get back to work, copying out verses that detail what will happen should the faithful fail to contain Elath the Great Demon in her earthly prison at Mount Djall.
Your forests shall become deserts.
Your seas shall become salt and sand.
Your fields shall drown in the punishing floods of the Father.
Your winters shall yawn across months, then years,
Until there is nothing left but death and death.
Most scholars believe Saint Wenslas’s visions are metaphorical rather than literal, but most scholars have never set foot in the Dead Forest, the place where the souls of the sinful go when they die, where they are transformed into telleg, the monsters that haunt the earth for eternity.
Sweat glazes my shorn head and slicks my armpits. As I shift my leg to unstick the back of my thigh from my stool, I hear the rustling of parchment in my pocket. Welcoming a distraction from my troubling thoughts, I let my hand find its way to my pocket and pull out the rubbing of the strange inscription. I spread it out on the table and touch a random spot. This time the power of the Sanctus text is much stronger, grabbing hold of me, gluing me firmly to the page, filling me with one distinct word: mother.
Not just any mother. My mother.
I can’t see her face, but I sense her in the room, close by. She hums a tune as I doze off in a bed of furs, the comforting scent of woodsmoke and burned sage surrounding me like a blanket. The physicality of her—the realness of her body—sends a pang of longing shooting through my chest, as fresh as the day the Goodson first brought me to the convent. I rip my hand away so fast I nearly topple over.
Gelya?
I let out a bleat of surprise and leap to my feet, smacking my head against the lamp for the second time today, and I find Zofia standing before me. I’m so relieved to see her that I wrap her up in a fierce hug, her steady presence calming the turbulence of my thoughts.
I’ve missed you, too,
she laughs as she untangles herself. The flicker of the lamp’s light dances across her face, and I can’t help but think—not for the first time—that someone as lovely and smart as Zofia shouldn’t be hidden from the world behind stone walls. She’s from Auria, like the Goodson, and with her graceful height and gray eyes, she could be his niece. When she sings The Songs of the Saints for the pilgrims who come to the cathedral, her gift permeates the Sanctus text with excruciating beauty, piercing her listeners’ hearts with the glory of the One True God. She’s everything I wish I could be.
I think you’ve grown another inch since I’ve been gone,
she tells me.
Holy Father, I hope not. I’m going to start knocking into the ceiling beams soon.
But Zofia’s eyes have already found the rubbing on my desk, and she frowns. What are you working on?
I touch the new sore spot on my head, suddenly nervous. It’s nothing.
Zofia crosses her arms over her chest and levels me with a no-nonsense stare. She may be my best friend, but she’s also my older sister and mother and mentor, all rolled into one imposing package. "That’s funny. Your ‘nothing’ looks remarkably like something that is completely unrelated to The Songs of the Saints."
I hate it when she does this. She’s been Sacrist—the director of the convent—for about a year now, ever since Sacrist Larka died. Now I never know whether she’s going to be Zofia, my one and only friend, or Zofia, my boss.
Come on. I didn’t do anything wrong, and I promise I’ll get my translation finished by tomorrow.
As the words tumble out of my mouth, Zofia picks up the parchment, brushes it with her fingertips, and gasps. Gelya, what is this?
I don’t know.
Her eyes flash. Where did you get it?
I found it,
I tell her, wondering just how much trouble I’m in. It’s the inscription on the base of the statue of Saint Vinnica in the garden. Did you know it was there?
She turns her attention back to the parchment, and her voice is hushed when she answers, No, I didn’t.
Really? So I found something— Ow!
She grabs me by the arm and drags me into the dark library stacks, casing the room like a thief to make sure we’re alone. Have you shown this to anyone?
she whispers, flapping the parchment at me. Anxiety thickens in my stomach as she stares me down with an intensity that sharpens her eyes to pinpoints.
No.
For the Father’s sake, keep your voice down,
she hisses, looking over her shoulder as if someone might jump out from behind a bookshelf at any moment. I need you to think. Did anyone else see this? Anyone at all?
I already told you, no,
I whisper.
You’re sure?
Yes, I’m sure. Zofia, what’s wrong?
Good. That’s good.
She folds my rubbing and puts it in her own pocket.
But—
Zofia holds up one authoritative finger, silhouetted by what little light from the scriptorium lamp shines into the library. She is no longer Zofia-My-Friend. She is Sacrist-Zofia-of-the-Convent-of-Saint-Vinnica. "Don’t tell anyone what you found. No one. Not even Goodson Anskar. Especially not Goodson Anskar. Is that clear?"
The anxiety in my gut grows heavier. Why?
Is that clear, Daughter Gelya?
Daughter Gelya. As if she hadn’t held my hand and told me Aurian bedtime stories when I was still a little girl scared of thunderstorms. My lips thin, but who am I to defy the Sacrist of Saint Vinnica? Fine,
I agree tightly, but there’s a part of me that wants to snatch the parchment out of Zofia’s pocket. The urge to touch it, to feel its meaning again, burns inside me.
For the first time in years, I want my mother.
Two days pass before I get the chance to return to the convent garden, but when I pull back the sorrel leaves covering the statue’s base, I find that someone has chiseled the Sanctus symbols off the limestone block beneath Saint Vinnica’s feet. I gape at the grooves and gouges in the rock, certain that Zofia would never go to such lengths to hide anything from me, and equally certain that she must be responsible for this.
What in the name of the Father did I find?
I wonder aloud, but no one answers me, not even Saint Vinnica’s steady presence in the garden. Before this moment, it didn’t occur to me that I should be afraid of what I discovered. But now, as I stare at the erasure of a song, my instinct tells me there are things in this world I may be better off not knowing.
Three
It’s been nearly a month since Zofia took the rubbing from me, but every time I try to get a private word with her, she finds an excuse to slip away. Which is why I’m shocked when she sits down beside me at dinner one night.
Oh, did you decide to join us this evening?
I ask with a mouthful of broccoli and irony, and she gives me a weary sigh in response. After several minutes of eating in silence, I finally soften, leaning toward her to murmur, You haven’t been yourself since you came back from Saint Helios. What’s wrong? Is it the . . . thing I found?
Zofia eyes me sharply, but we’re interrupted by a serving girl, who races into the refectory, bobs a curtsy, and thrusts a letter into Zofia’s hand. Knights of the Order of Saint Ovin delivered this not five minutes ago, Sacrist,
says the girl as she bobs another curtsy and scurries back the way she came. The missive is sealed with the emblem of the Holy See of the Ovinist Church pressed into violet wax. I don’t know if Zofia has ever received a direct message from His Holiness, but she certainly hasn’t received one in the middle of dinner. She breaks the heavy seal, and as her eyes dart back and forth across the looping script, her hold tightens, wrinkling the vellum.
What is it?
I ask, worried by her reaction. In answer, she squeezes my hand, then rises to her feet, holding herself erect before the Daughters of the convent.
I’ve just received a message from His Holiness, the See. The Kantari army has crossed north of the Koz Mountains. As of this report, they have made it to Debrochen in Tovnia.
Cries of alarm fill the room, and my own heart freezes in my chest. The Kantari have never brought their war north of the Koz. Their focus has always been on defending their borders and, from time to time, trying to breach the walls of the Monastery of Saint Ovin to free Elath—their Mother
—from the Vault of Mount Djall. The fact that an army of murderous Kantari soldiers is only a few hundred miles away makes my veins ice over. Could the Kantari make it all the way to Rosvania? To the convent, even?
Zofia holds up her hand, silencing the Daughters’ alarm before she continues. The Tovnian army is holding them at bay, but Tovnia has requested a Grand Summit here at Saint Vinnica to discuss their concerns with the other Ovinist nations. The Holy See has granted the request. The date has been set for three weeks from today. I’m placing Daughter Ina in charge of arranging accommodations for the ambassadors. I will personally oversee preparations for the summit. I’ll keep you all informed as I learn more.
With that, she sits, flapping her napkin onto her lap as if she hadn’t just delivered the most staggering news in decades or, possibly, centuries.
There hasn’t been a summit at Saint Vinnica in years, and there hasn’t been a Grand Summit in my lifetime,
Daughter Ina sputters. How many men are we expecting?
Ambassadors from every Ovinist kingdom—possibly princes—and their retinues, although they’ll need to be warned that space is limited within the parlertorium. I wouldn’t be surprised to see at least one representative from the Empire of Yil, as well. And the Holy See is sending the Archbishop of Rosvania to facilitate. So thirty men, give or take?
Zofia looks up from her dinner. All kingdoms but Kantar and Hedenskia will be represented.
Of course the heathens won’t be there,
says Ina, spitting the word heathens the way you might say roach or louse.
What exactly is a Grand Summit?
I ask Zofia. Is it different from a regular summit?
"Most summits deal with border disputes between kingdoms or provinces, tariffs, that kind of thing, and there are usually only a handful of men involved. A Grand Summit calls together representatives from all the kingdoms of our faith to make a decision regarding the best interests of the Ovinist Church as a whole. In this case, I imagine the ambassadors will want to decide as a group how to act against the Kantari threat to the north, but that’s not our concern. Our only purpose at a summit is to serve the Father by translating the words of men." Zofia scans the entire table, making eye contact with each Vessel in turn as she speaks, lingering last and longest on me.
The next three weeks are a blur of scrubbing, polishing, mopping, and waxing as the ambassadors trickle in from all over the Ovinist world.
On the morning of the summit, as I walk the west wing to fill the lamps with oil, I find myself passing a narrow closet—one of my favorite hiding places