Good Eggs: A Novel
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When a home aide arrives to assist a rambunctious family at a crossroads, simmering tensions boil over in this “witty, exuberant debut” (People) that is an “absolute delight from start to finish” (Sarah Haywood, New York Times bestselling author)—perfect for fans of Where’d You Go, Bernadette and Evvie Drake Starts Over.
When Kevin Gogarty’s eighty-three-year-old mother is caught shoplifting yet again, he has no choice but to hire a caretaker to keep an eye on her. Kevin, recently unemployed, is already at his wits’ end tending to a full house while his wife travels to exotic locales for work, leaving him solo with his sulky, misbehaved teenaged daughter. Into the Gogarty fray steps Sylvia, the upbeat home aide, who appears at first to be their saving grace—until she catapults the Gogarty clan into their greatest crisis yet.
“Bracing, hilarious, warm” (Judy Blundell, New York Times bestselling author), Good Eggs is an irresistibly charming study in self-determination; the notion that it’s never too late to start living; and the unique redemption that family, despite its maddening flaws, can offer.
Rebecca Hardiman
Rebecca Hardiman is a former magazine editor who lives in New Jersey with her husband and three children. Good Eggs is her first novel.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5What fun!
The characters and language were quite enjoyable, as was the plot (mostly). But when provided with characters you’d like to know, who cares if the storyline has some weak spots? That’s not unusual in those with entertaining stories. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I adore Irish humor and families that are essentially loving but nonetheless messy. The characters are all quirky and weird which made the book totally charming for me. And the audiobook narrators bring the words to exuberant life. Literary fiction it is not but this prickly yet heart-warming story is a joy to listen to and read.
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5Upon reflection, I'm not sure why I didn't DNF this book. The characters were not fully formed and in some cases were more like stock clichés. The blurb made it out like this was going to be a quirky story of an old woman who shoplifted and said kooky things...and while it started out like that it quickly devolved into D.R.A.MA. And that is not what I had thought I was signing up for...which is when I should have just shut the book and moved on. #youliveyoulearnAlso, the ending made ZERO sense and was like a slap in the face saying, "You get NO payoff after reading this entire thing. MWAHAHAHAHA."
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Sorry, not for me. Text unable to provoke engagement or with interest in the characters and I regretfully set this one aside. Instead of caring for them, I found them overly contrived (Millie) or exceedingly dull (Kevin) and could not buy their "reality.Tolstoy had something else in mind when he wrote his first sentence to "Anna Karenina." So did I.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A creative novel filled with a bevy of unique characters. The two principle ones are Millie, an elderly woman who is accused by her son of having dementia and Aideen, her teenaged granddaughter who feels like she is the least favored member of the family and is sent to a boarding school. Eventually the two hook up and bond to find independence from those who want to "kill their buzz". This is a rally fun book.
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5I did not enjoy this book. I am not sure why. Maybe the characters. Some of the situations were just off.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5An entertaining story set in Ireland about the antics of three generations of the dysfunctional Gogarty family. It’s humorous with some wonderful well drawn characters. Aideen is my favourite, the rebellious and troubled teenage daughter of the house. My other favourite is the grandmother, Millie, who is larger than life and draws attention to the trials and tribulations of the elderly. In fact, the whole family are ‘good eggs’ as suggested by the title. It’s very much a romp, a farce even. It had me laughing out loud at times, although I did think it got a little far fetched towards the end. A fun, lighthearted and enjoyable debut. A great pick me up in these uncertain times.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It's such a treat to read the first chapter in a book - and know you're going to love every page that follows. Such is the case with Rebecca Hardiman's debut novel Good Eggs.A good egg: a kind person, someone you're fond of. Of course there is the flip side....a bad egg: a disappointing or unpleasant person, a corrupt or unreliable person, a rogue. (And I remember my own Gran using this phrase!)The good eggs in this books are the seven members of the Gogarty family. The book is told from three points of view (and three generations) - octogenarian Gran Millie, her son Kevin and his daughter Aideen. The bad egg? Well, I won't say as I don't want to spoil the story for you.Oh my gosh, I adored Millie! We meet her as she is shoplifting a greeting card that she doesn't even need. She's feisty, optimistic, loves her family - but is dreadfully lonely. And the first signs of dementia are there. Kevin's solution? Bring in a carer who can help as well as keep an eye on her. Kevin himself has lost his job and is now looks after his four children as his wife travels for work. I must admit, I didn't like Kevin at all in the beginning, but as the book went on I warmed up to him. His solution? Hmm, you can guess right? He is definitely having a middle age crisis. And then there's Aideen. She's the one who doesn't conform like her three siblings and her temper gets her in trouble quite often. Kevin's solution? Boarding school.Uh huh, lots that could wrong here for sure. And it does - in spades. But there's so much that is right as well - this is a family who love and care for each other. They just seemed have to lost their way a bit. The journey to finding their way again makes for a rollicking read. I loved the ridiculousness of some of the plot - most of that is down to Millie. I did laugh out loud more than once. Millie reading a racy novel in a senior's home was priceless. There are some serious turns as well for all three of the main characters. The one that happens to Millie made me quite angry as it's something that happens often. (Sorry, I'm being deliberately obtuse as I don't want to spoil the tale for you)You just can't help but be behind the Gogartys - especially Millie, with Aideen being a close second. The Gogartys are a bit cracked, but are pretty good eggs. And their story was a light-hearted, entertaining read that let me escape. I'll be watching for Hardiman's next novel.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Fifty year old Kevin Gogarty and his wife Grace have been married for twenty years and have four children. Their eldest, Gerard, has recently left home to go to university, Ciaran, their youngest, is a sweet, good-natured boy, still at primary school and between the two boys are the constantly warring sixteen-year-old twins, Aideen and Nuala. Nuala has the looks, is full of confidence and well-behaved, whilst Aideen feels plain by comparison, struggles with her self-esteem and feels both undervalued and misunderstood; as a consequence she has become moody and rebellious. Having recently lost his long-term job as a reporter for a celebrity-gossip magazine, Kevin is now struggling to find a new one, partly because of his age but also because as he’s not kept up to date with the latest developments in digital publishing, he’s at a disadvantage compared with younger, better qualified applicants … and, what’s more, he’s come to realise that hasn’t even heard of many of the current celebrities he’d be expected to write about! So for now he’s a stay-at-home dad, stressed by the demands of family life and often feeling resentful because he thinks that Grace’s well-paid, high-profile job, which requires her to work long hours, with frequent business trips away, means that she has no idea of the problems he is having to juggle with on a daily basis.Looking for a new job, acting as a ‘referee’ between his daughters and coping with Aideen’s surly moods and challenging behaviour would be stressful enough, but his eighty three year old mother’s behaviour is becoming increasingly problematic. Millie is now a widow, still living independently in the family home but, for a variety of reasons, Kevin thinks she is in need of care: her reckless driving has led to a number of minor accidents, she’s becoming increasingly forgetful and has taken to regularly shop-lifting from the local family-owned store. The latest episode has led the owner, in desperation, to call the police and Kevin is summoned to the police station to discuss what should happen next. As his mother has steadfastly refused to consider moving into a care home, his ultimatum to her is that she must now accept the support of a home carer or the police will press charges. He engages the services of Sylvia, a young American woman whose cheerful, helpful and friendly personality soon overcomes Millie’s initial resistance.Feeling at his wits end with Aideen’s behaviour, he decides that she needs to be separated from her sister if she is to improve her grades during her final two years at school and fulfil her academic potential. His solution for her is to send her to a prestigious private school as a weekly boarder. Surely with these two pressing problems solved he can now expect his life to become less fraught, enabling him to concentrate on finding a new job? However, nothing goes according to plan as Aideen, full of resentment at being sent away, pals up with equally angry and rebellious Brigid and gets into even more trouble at school; Sylvie isn’t quite the saviour she had at first appeared to be and Kevin’s own reckless behaviour creates a whole new set of problems which threaten to derail any hope of family peace and unity.Told from the alternating perspectives of Kevin, Millie and Aideen, this story explored the gradually ‘spiralling-out-of-control’ dynamics of the Gogarty family, where even minor problems tended to be blown out of all proportion and the characters’ behaviour and interactions often took on a farce-like quality. Sometimes their behaviour was so over-wrought that, rather than finding it humorous, I found it irritating and I’m sure this was one of the reasons that there were times when I found it hard to remain engaged with the unfolding story. However, I think that a couple of other factors also played their part. I found most of the characters far too stereotypical, to the extent that they became so caricature-like that I found I was losing sight of the real-life human beings whose stories I was following. Also, the pacing of the storytelling felt very uneven, with the first three-quarters feeling rather slow, whilst the final quarter proceeded at what felt like breakneck speed. I thought this was a shame because I think it contained some of the funniest and most moving scenes – even if they were often quite ludicrously over-the-top! I realise that everything I’ve written so far makes it sound as though I didn’t find anything to enjoy in Rebecca Hardiman’s debut novel and that’s not the case. What I appreciated most was that running through this light-hearted story are some serious, poignant and thought-provoking themes, including coping with bereavement after the death of a long-term partner, the loneliness of aging, fear of dementia and the loss of independence, the stresses faced by the ‘sandwich-generation’, mid-life crises, infidelity, the angst of the teenage years, sibling rivalry and, ultimately, the strength of loving family bonds. I also enjoyed the relationship which was forged between Millie and Aideen, based on their shared anger and resentment about being ‘sent away’ – Millie threatened with being sent to a care home, and Aideen banished to boarding school. The direction their ultimate rebellion took might have stretched my credulity but not my ability to empathise with the sentiments which influenced their decision – much better to be willing to take risks in life than to give in to apathy! Although I found the humour which ran through the narrative gently amusing rather than the ‘laugh-out-loud’ variety I’d been expecting, and hoping for, I appreciated the way in which the author’s prose contained some razor-sharp observations, frequently creating scenes which were instantly very ‘visual’. I can easily imagine this story being successfully adapted for either the small or the large screen. With my thanks to Readers First and the publisher for a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Sometimes you find yourself drawn to certain characters and that's my experience with the Gogarty family. I can't say I loved them, nor do I hate them, but I instantly felt invested enough to want to see what was going on in their lives. Perhaps I just needed to be reminded that each family has good, bad, ugly, and crazy moments and well, we are all just trying to get by, aren't we?Kevin Gogarty is dealing with a few problems. He's unemployed, his 80 something year old mother, Millie, has been caught shoplifting again and will need supervision, and his teenage daughter, Aideen, is struggling and might need to transfer to a boarding school. The story is basically a snapshot of their lives at the moment and will bounce back and forth between Kevin, Millie, and Aideen's perspectives.So right off the bat I will say Kevin is not exactly a likeable character and I was more interested in Millie and Aideen. After some thought though, I do think his role as husband, father, and son centered the story. You don't have to share much in common with a character to find them realistic.If you are looking for a story with a little bit of heart mixed with some shenanigans, this book is a decent pick.Thank you to Atria Books for providing me with an advance digital copy! All thoughts expressed are my honest opinion.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The Gogarty Family is a mess and it is not a laughing matter. Living in Dun Laoghaire on the Irish coast, Millie, the octogenarian matriarch is out of control, smashing up her Renault, shoplifting, distracted and lonely. A few miles away in Dalkey a pretty seaside village, her married son Kevin is out of work, and the carer of his four children. Grace, the mother is the breadwinner, not around much and not a very effective parent. Gerard the oldest child is out of the house and managing nicely. His teenage twin daughters Nuala and Aideen are at each other’s throats and wow, I would have thrown in the towel long ago. They are horrible to each other and maybe just horrible in general. The youngest, Ciaran, by all appearances is a lovely little guy.So, what’s wrong here? Teenagers acting up and out, constantly in trouble. Senior dumping and abuse. Mid-life crisis described in excruciating detail. The “f” bomb used constantly with the rejoinder that “it is an Irish thing.” Wrong and wrong again and so unnecessary. The hateful, destructive, mean and nasty acts perpetrated on fairly innocent victims are off-putting and again unnecessary. Other than the vision of an 80 year old woman climbing in and out of a bathroom window the humor was lost on me.Thank you NetGalley and Simon & Schuster for a copy. The opinions expressed in this review are mine.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5There are indeed a few “good eggs” in Rebecca Hardiman’s debut novel Good Eggs, but the truly good ones are not easily identifiable at first glance. Some of the “eggs” are better than others, some are not as good as they first seem to be, and others turn out to be a whole lot better than we thought they were. And, Dublin’s Gogarty family fills almost a whole carton of “eggs” all by itself.Kevin Gogarty, father of twin teenaged daughters, a younger daughter, and a small son, has found himself relegated to the role of house-husband in recent months. His wife has necessarily taken on a more time-consuming job in order to support the family at least until Kevin manages to find a new job for himself. It doesn’t help, however, that all of Kevin’s experience is in a dying industry whose job-base is rapidly shrinking. In the meantime, Kevin is doing a passable job as house-husband while rather halfheartedly looking for a job and keeping tabs on his 82-year-old mother. Kevin’s world, though, is about to get interesting. Millie, his mother, seems greatly to be enjoying some of the freedoms that come with advanced age: speaking her mind, dressing comfortably at all times, eating whatever she wants to eat at all hours of the day and night, and — in her mind, at least — even a little bit of recreational shoplifting. It’s that last bit that gives Kevin the opportunity to finally insist that his mother accept a home-visiting caretaker into her life, a development that Millie sees as placing her giant step closer to the nursing home life she so dreads. In the meantime, Aideen, one of Kevin’s twins, has become so rebellious and unhappy with her life, that Kevin and his wife decide to send her away to boarding school. Now, Kevin thinks, life will settle down into the calm routine he needs if he is to get on seriously with his job search. Let’s just say that Kevin could not have been more wrong about that if he had tried. Bottom Line: Good Eggs is a very funny novel with a heart. At times, the humor is almost slapstick in nature, but the reader is always aware that Millie Gogarty is really just an old woman trying to make the most of what time she has left. She is a memorable character, one with whom many readers will easily identify as they prepare (and hope) to age with a bang rather than with a whimper themselves. It is impossible not to cheer on Millie and Aideen as they enjoy together the adventure of their lifetimes. This one is fun. Review Copy provided by Publisher - Novel to be published in March 2021
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Thanks to Simon and Schuster and Netgalley for the free dARC in exchange for an honest review.In present-day Dublin, Kevin, a father of four, is between jobs and becoming desperate. His elderly mother, Millie, and his teenaged daughter, Aideen, are both breaking bad at the same time. Kevin's wife, Grace, has vanished into her work. Clashing with all three, and suffering a midlife crisis, Kevin must find his feet for the sake of the whole large, dysfunctional Gogarty clan.Millie goes to extraordinary lengths to maintain her independence despite being unable to take care of herself and unable to curb her shoplifting habit. Aideen snoops on Kevin's computer and finds out that he's been shopping for a boarding school for her. She is envious of her pretty twin sister Nuala and is as lost, confused, and enraged as a teenage girl can be. Kevin's answers to both the Millie Problem and the Aideen Problem backfire spectacularly and Grandmother Millie joins forces with granddaughter Aileen to take matters into their own hands. When it comes to sticking it to the Man (Kevin, in this case) two heads are better than one, even (especially) if the heads are several decades apart in age. "Good Eggs" is a spry and hilarious novel. Hardiman's writing is clever and inventive. Except for Millie, the characters are not terribly engaging, but the reader can't help but hope that the mad but devoted Gogartys will come right side up at the end. If you like a wild family adventure, sit down to laugh with the Gogartys, Millie especially.
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Good Eggs - Rebecca Hardiman
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Three-quarters of the way to the newsagent’s, a trek she will come to deeply regret, Millie Gogarty realizes she’s been barreling along in second gear, oblivious to the guttural grinding from the bowels of her Renault. She shifts. Her mind, it’s true, is altogether on other things: the bits and bobs for tea with Kevin, a new paperback, perhaps, for the Big Trip, her defunct telly. During a rerun of The Golden Girls last night, the ladies had been mistaken for mature prostitutes when the screen went blank (silly, the Americans, overdone, but never dull). After bashing the TV—a few sturdy blows optimistically delivered to both sides in the hopes of a second coming—she’d retreated to her dead Peter’s old sick room where she’s taken to sleeping ever since a befuddling lamp explosion had permanently spooked her from the second floor. Here, Millie had fumbled among ancient woolen blankets for her battery-operated radio and eventually settled down, the trusty Philips wedged snugly between a naked pillow and her good ear, humanity streaming forth. Her unease slowly dispelled, not unlike the effect of a five-o’clock sherry when the wind of the sea howls round her house postapocalyptically. Even the grimmer broadcasts—recession, corruption, lashing rain—can have an oddly cheering effect: somewhere, things are happening to some people.
Now a BMW jolts into her peripheral vision, swerves sharply away—has she meandered?—and the driver honks brutally at Millie, who gives a merry wave in return. When she stops at a traffic light, the two cars now parallel, Millie winds down her window and indicates for her fellow driver to do likewise. His sleek sheet of glass descends presidentially.
Sorry!
she calls out. I’ve had a frozen shoulder ever since the accident!
Though her injury and her dodgy driving bear no connection, Millie feels some explanation is due. She flaps her right elbow, chicken wing style, into the chilled air. It still gets quite sore.
Millie offers the man, his face a confused fog, a trio of friendly, muffled toots of the horn and motors on past.
Before heading to the shop, Millie had phoned her son—technically, Kevin is her stepson, though she shuns all things technical and, more to the point, he’s been her boy and she his mum since his age was still measured in mere months. Millie began by relaying the tale of the unholy television debacle.
Blanche had checked the girls into a hookers’ hotel without realizing,
Millie explains, and the police—
I’m just bringing the kids to school, Mum.
Would you ever come down and take a look? I can’t bear to have no telly.
Did you check the batteries?
It doesn’t run on batteries. It’s a television.
"The remote batteries."
Aha,
says Millie. Well now how would I…
Let me ring you in two ticks.
Or you can take a look when you come for supper?
Sorry?
Remember? It’ll be your last chance, you know. I leave Saturday.
Fully aware.
I may never come back.
Now you’re just teasing me.
And bring one of the children. Bring all of the children! I’ve got lamb chops and roasties.
She had, in fact, neither. A quick inspection of the cabinet, during which she held the phone aloft, blanking briefly that her son was on the line, yielded neither olive oil nor spuds. A glimpse of the fridge—the usual sour blast and blinding pop of light—revealed exactly one half pint of milk, gone off, three or four limp sprigs of broccoli, and a single cracked egg.
Or maybe I’m the cracked egg,
she muttered as she brought the receiver to her ear.
That,
her son said, has never been in question.
Once inside Donnelly’s, Millie tips her faux-fur, leopard-print fedora to one and all. Millie Gogarty knows many souls in Dún Laoghaire and villages beyond—Dalkey, Killiney—and it’s her self-imposed mission to stop and have a chat with anyone whenever, wherever possible—along the windy East Pier, in the shopping center car park, standing in the bank queue (she would have no qualms about taking her coffee, used to be complimentary after all, in the Bank of Ireland’s waiting area), or indeed right in this very shop.
She sidles up to Michael Donnelly Jr., the owner’s teenage, pockmarked son who slouches behind the counter weekdays after school.
Did you know in three days’ time Jessica Walsh and myself will be in New York for the Christmas? My great-great-great-grandnephew
—she has slipped in an extra great or two, as is her wont—used to live in Ohio, but we’re not going there. Sure, there’s nothing there! I visited him once… oh I don’t know when, it’s not important.
She crosses her arms, settles in. Christmas morning and not a soul in the street. Kevin and I—he’d just gone eighteen—we took a walk, mountains of snow everywhere, and there we were standing in the middle of the street calling out, ‘Hello? America? Is anyone there?’
That so, Mrs. Gogarty?
Michael says with a not entirely dismissive smile. He turns to the next customer, Brendan Doyle, whom Millie knows, of course, though Brendan appears to be deeply engrossed in his scuffed loafers.
She beams at them both, trailing away toward the tiny stationery section, a shelf or two of dusty greeting cards whose existence would only be registered by her generation. The young no longer put pen to paper. They text message. Her own grandchildren are forever clicking away at their mobiles with a frenzied quality Millie envies; she can’t remember the last time communication of any kind felt so urgent.
She selects a card embossed with a foil floral bouquet—It’s Your Special Day Daughter!
—and reads the cloying message within. Once in hand, the itch to swipe the thing, the very last thing under the sun that Millie Gogarty, daughterless, needs, gains powerful momentum, until she knows that she must, and will, take it.
She checks the till. Michael is ringing up Brendan’s bars of chocolate. The last time he’d crossed her path was in the chemist’s—he’d been buying a tube of bum cream, the thought of which now makes her giddy. Her pits dampen as she prods open the cracked folds of her handbag, pushes its chaotic contents—obsolete punt coins, balls of hardened tissue, irrelevant scribbles—to the depths so that it gapes open, a mouth begging to be fed. Her stomach whoops and soars. Her heart, whose sole purpose for days upon days has been the usual, boring biological one, now thumps savagely. With a wild, jerky motion she will later attribute to her downfall, she plunges the card into her bag.
Millie breathes. Feigning utter casualness, she plucks another card, this one featuring a plump infant and an elephant. She smothers a laugh. Perhaps Kevin’s right: perhaps I’ve finally gone mad! She steals another glance at Michael, who meets her gaze, nodding imperceptibly, and so she chuckles, as if the words inside particularly strike her fancy. Millie has sensed a calling to the stage all her life and she holds out a secret hope that she might still be discovered. Indeed for a moment, Millie Gogarty marvels at her own audacity, pulse pounding yet looking for all of Dún Laoghaire as calm as you like. Her mind turns to supper—one of the grandchildren could turn up—and so she boldly heads toward a display box of Tayto crisps and nicks a packet of cheese and onion and a Hula Hoops.
Flooded with good cheer and relief, she fairly leaps back into her car, the spoils of the morning safely tucked beside her. She’s situating her left foot on the clutch, right foot poised to gun the engine and soar off back to her home, Margate, when she hears a timid knock on her window.
It’s Junior from the shop, not a smile on him. A panicky shot of darkness seizes her. Millie reluctantly draws down her window.
I hate to do this, Mrs. Gogarty, but I have to ask you to come back in.
Did I leave something behind?
He glances at her bag. You’ve a few things in there I think you haven’t paid for.
There follows a pause, long and telling.
Sorry?
she says, shifting into reverse.
I’m talking about that.
He jabs a fat, filthy finger at her handbag. The boy—barely sixteen, she reckons, the twins’ age, probably in the first year of his Leaving Certificate—yo-yos his eyes from the steering wheel to the bag, back to the wheel.
My dad said I was to phone the guards if it happened again.
Phone the guards!
Millie assembles her most authentic aw-shucks grin, hoping to emit the picture of a hapless, harmless granny. But her body betrays her: her face boils; pricks of perspiration collect at her hairline. This is the sorry tale of all the oldies, the body incongruent with the still sharp mind—tumors sprouting, bones snapping with a mere slip on ice, a heart just giving up one day, like her Peter’s. Millie’s own heart now knocks so violently, for the second time today, that she has the image of it exploding from her chest and flapping, birdlike, away.
Junior’s still staring at her. She puts the back of her hand up to her brow like a fainting lady from an earlier century; she can’t bear to be seen. Then a single, horrid thought filters through: if the police become involved, Kevin will find out.
Kevin cannot find out.
He’s already sniffing around, probably trying to build a case, with a stagey, lethal gentleness that terrifies her, to stick his poor mum into some godforsaken home for withered old vegetables. Millie Gogarty has no plans to move in with a bunch of wrinklies drooling in a corner. Her dear friend Gretel Sheehy was abandoned in Williams House, not five kilometers down the road. Gretel, needless to say, didn’t make it out.
Now a second, equally ghastly thought: what if her grandchildren, the Fitzgeralds a few doors down, or all of south Dublin, gets wind of her thievery? The potential for shame is so sweeping that Millie rejects the idea outright, stuffs it back into her mental lockbox where, wisely or not, she’s crammed plenty of other unpleasantries over the years.
Wildly, she considers feigning an ailment, a stroke perhaps? It, or something like it, has worked in the past, but she can’t, in her muddled thinking, remember when she last trotted out such a deception and vaguely suspects that it was here in Dún Laoghaire.
I’m really sorry,
Michael says. He’s actually not, despite the acne, a bad-looking lad. The thing is, I’ve already phoned the police.
2
Kevin Gogarty gets the call over pints at The Brass Bell, one of the city center’s oldest pubs, known for showcasing promising comedians on its tiny makeshift stage in the upstairs room. Kevin had had his shot at the mic years and years ago, when he’d had the notion of becoming a stand-up comic. He’d bombed it badly with a running gag about blow jobs and priests that he later felt had been ahead of its time. Still, he loves the mahogany carvings and brass beer pulls, the shabby Victoriana of the place, and it’s where he and Mick, his former colleague and best mate, meet on the rare occasion when he can get out on the lash.
Leading up to Christmas week, the pub is mad packed with drinkers—everyone across the land is on the piss. It takes Kevin a full minute, plenty of sorrys and hands landing briefly on strangers’ backs, to nudge through the throngs and arrive at the bar, where he sighs happily: he’s out of the house with Mick, who’s sure to regale him with plenty of suss about the old magazine.
The barmen are on the hustle as ever, pulling pints of ale and stout and cider three, four across, taking orders from customers all down the long bar. It’s miraculous they never fuck it up, adding up your total, making fast change, no till required, mixing up Bacardi and Coke, Southern Comfort and Red, Irish coffee, whatever you like. If barmen ran the country, Kevin thinks, the economy would doubtless not be in the shitter.
Just outside, he can see, despite the cold, tiny huddles of smokers commiserating, blowing out their luxurious cancer plumes. No more smoking indoors anymore, who would ever have thought? He feels like an old fella, but can’t help marveling at how much Ireland has changed. Used to be this place was smoke-fogged and jammed like this at lunchtime any day of the week. No one has the dosh any longer, given the brutal, embarrassing slaying of the so-called Celtic Tiger. In the few months he’s been carpooling children in his whopping minivan, negotiating homework, refereeing sibling rows, cooking up plates of fish and chips and peas, the world seems to have shifted, the air seems to have leaked from the recently buoyant Dublin economy. The days of dossing, of not taking any of it too seriously, are up.
When Kevin’s mobile first rings—unknown caller—he rejects it and then spots and salutes Mick from afar. He hears music competing with the din—ah, Zeppelin. Over the Hills and Far Away.
A Guinness in each hand, Kevin weaves his way expertly, cautiously, back to the bit of table Mick’s eked out for them, not coincidentally, Kevin is certain, beside two very beautiful, very young women, early twenties if that, a glass and minibottle of Chablis before each.
Mind if we squeeze in here?
Kevin says.
The hotter one—wide, clever eyes; breasts that have clearly not been suckled upon, by babies anyway; blinding Yank teeth—regards and dismisses him in the same millisecond. Kevin absorbs her indifference with a wince.
Done with work,
says Mick. For the year anyway.
Ya fucker.
The two men exchange a lengthy handshake and Kevin’s feeling so generous of spirit—the tree is up, the kitchen stocked with food and drink, Grace’ll be about for a few days anyway, maybe he’ll even get laid, a Christmas miracle!—he throws his arms around Mick.
Listen, I might have a lead for you,
says Mick.
Not sure I’m hirable.
Fuck off. You know your man Royston Clive?
You’re joking. Isn’t he meant to be a notorious prick?
Yes, fine, but that notorious prick’s launching something here. He’s looking for someone to run the place. And they’re funded out the arse.
Kevin’s mobile rings a second time: it’s the same unfamiliar number. A worm of worry begins to grind its way through the anxiety-prone soil of his mind. It could be Grace phoning from the road; it could be Mum with some wretched request. Or it could be Sr. Margaret reporting Aideen’s excessive tardiness or that she’s skived off another class. Or it could be Aideen’s run off again or hitchhiked or maybe some sick fucker has his beloved daughter tied up in an abandoned garden shed, a rag wet with chloroform shoved down her gob, ringing him for a ransom…
With his little rebel Aideen, it could be any bloody thing.
Kevin tries to refocus on Mick, who’s onto a deliciously salacious tale of a late-night tryst on the publisher’s desk in the offices of his old haunt. This is of particular interest to Kevin as it concerns his old boss, John Byrne, pompous, know-it-all, shiny-faced gobshite that he is. Kevin desperately wants to enjoy this story, wants to deep dive into this dirty little affair with its sordid little details.
Now you may or may not recall.
Mick lowers his voice. But our esteemed publisher is into role play and I don’t fucking mean Shakespeare.
Mick leers. You’ll not believe his favorite character of all. No joke now: A naughty schoolboy in dire need of a proper arse-spanking.
Mick guffaws, flashing graying fangs.
Kevin makes the appropriate responses, the convincing, shifting facial gestures, but his mind pulls back to the unfamiliar number just as it flashes up a third time.
Give us a sec, Mick,
he says. Then, into the phone: Kevin Gogarty.
Despite being only recently unemployed—Kevin has taken to trotting out, in an exaggerated Texan accent, that he is a temporary stay-at-home dad
—he hasn’t stopped answering the phone as if it may be the printer or the creative director or a sales rep on the line.
Mr. Gogarty? This is Sergeant Brian O’Connor in Dún Laoghaire Police Station.
Kevin stiffens. Yes? Is Aideen okay?
Aideen? Sorry? No, I’m sorry having to bother you, but actually we’ve got your mum here. Could we ask you to come in and collect her? She’s in a bit of a state.
What?
Kevin plugs a thumb into his free ear. Is she alright? What’s happened?
The hot girls, upon hearing the urgent pitch in Kevin’s voice, immediately stop speaking and look over, but they’re only a background blur to him now.
Did she have a fall?
Oh no, she’s fine,
says O’Connor. Didn’t mean to alarm you. No, she’s in grand shape, physically speaking. It’s just—we’ve had a bit of an incident. She was found with stolen goods in her handbag, I’m afraid.
Kevin allows for a long moment of silence to ensue, during which he experiences a familiar emotional arc that begins at anger, crescendos into hot rage, and peters out, finally, into a sad little trickle of self-pity. He thanks the policeman, rings off and stares at Mick, who, blissfully single, needs only to worry about where to order his next pint and which footballer will make the gossip page. Mick has no family, no brood of children. Kevin has four children! He is still, eighteen years later, reeling from the shock of four. Two boys and two girls to lie awake and worry over at three in the morning, to look after and cook for, to mold and shape into good and honorable souls. To say nothing of his pilfering mother who is, again, in need of rescue. He drains his drink, gets up.
Sorry Mick. I’ve got to go.
Nothing serious?
Oh no, strictly your run-of-the-mill shite,
Kevin says bitterly. My mother just got picked up for shoplifting. She’s in with the guards driving them all, no doubt, to the brink of mass suicide. Jim Jones, was it? He had nothing on Millie Gogarty.
3
Three kilometers south of Dún Laoghaire, in the small, pretty seaside village of Dalkey, Aideen Gogarty sits at her father’s laptop tapping the word pine
into the search box on thesaurus.com. She is penning a poem to Clean-Cut, the Irish pop singing sensation who croons mostly remixed mid-’70s and early ’80s soft-rock hits. Clean-Cut, who is, in fact, disheveled and bewhiskered, sports a wild, moppish bleached blond ’do and is as tall as an American basketballer, in stark and amusing contrast to his four tidy and diminutive backup singers. After considering each synonym on offer—ache, agonize, brood, carry a torch, covet, crave, desire, dream, fret, grieve, hanker, languish for, lust after, mope, mourn, sigh, spoil for, thirst for, want, wish, yearn, yen for—Aideen rejects the lot as embarrassing and a bit crap.
She scans the bookshelf and the piles of paper inundating Dad’s desk in search of his thesaurus from university, which was his father’s before him, preferential to Aideen on the grounds that it’s old-school and therefore authentic. Aideen yearns—hankers?—to be authentic.
As she spots the ragged Roget’s cover, she happens upon a photograph of a beaming, freckled schoolgirl in a brown uniform, a scarlet notebook clutched in her arms. It looks to be the cover of some sort of academic brochure. A cringe-worthy photo—what eejit would willingly pose for their school’s poxy PR?—but, curious, Aideen studies the other pictures splayed across the glossy foldout: there’s a gaggle of girls bearing cricket bats on a pristine pitch, arms thrust upward in victory; a Residential Room
featuring fuchsia, try-hard cushions; and, the most commanding image of all, a wrought-iron sign on a grassy knoll that reads MILLBURN SCHOOL FOR GIRLS. The slogan beneath, HONOR, LEADERSHIP & ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE, is not the one Aideen’s heard regarding the place: Noses up, knickers down.
As she folds over the final page, Aideen is surprised to see, stapled in the top right-hand corner of an otherwise blank application form, a photograph of herself, one tiny yet hideous spot quite visible on the bridge of her nose.
Aideen tries to process what is so obvious and yet unbelievable. But all she comes up with is, Huh? She mentally combs through recent family aggro, trying to find a precedent for such a radical and covert move. Yes, she’s acted out
lately—deliberately cracking her sister’s mirror (no regrets there), dipping into Mum’s handbag once too often, getting in a touch of trouble at school. And, then, her marks are a bit shit.
Still. Is the fact that the application form has not been filled out a good sign?
But the photo.
She hears a yell and through the window spies her younger brother, Ciaran, monkeying across the bars on his play set in the back garden. Behind him, dull clouds hover sharply against a dingy Dublin sky. Ugh, and there’s her twin sister, Nuala (codename Nemesis). Nemesis meanders toward the front of the house. She is scanning the horizon, no doubt, for boys, flipping her deep black, overgrown mermaid’s mane first left, then right, then left again, as if her hair is crossing the road, as if she’s a California chick from a Katy Perry video when she’s actually a vacuous phony from boring, provincial Dalkey.
Aideen checks the laptop’s internet history over the last week and, with sinking heart and a sudden desire to take to her bed, she sees quite plainly that Dad’s been visiting the Millburn website as often as three and four times a day.
Fuck.
She begins to hunt round his shelves and drawers, for what, she’s not exactly certain, confirmation, evidence, one way or the other—please, let it be the other—that she isn’t totally and irreversibly doomed. Millburn is a boarding school probably filled with haughty, confident girls who will hate her. She hears the back door slam. Quickly, Aideen slides the brochure beneath its original mess just as Nemesis and one of her newer, nicer tagalongs, Gavin Mooney, appear in the doorway.
Her sister’s beauty is a painful fact of Aideen’s life, or maybe the painful fact, especially poignant because of their twinhood. It feels to Aideen as if the girls are compared, directly or indirectly, nearly every day of their lives, and though no one has ever overtly stated it, Aideen knows she’s the brain, not the beauty. A modeling scout once stopped Nemesis in Stephen’s Green, forked over his business card, and winked at her and said she ought to get her headshots done up, that she was a vision
(of utter bitchery) and he had a studio in town where they could shoot. Nemesis had Scotch-taped the card to her dressing mirror and gushed about it to the point of vomit-inducing boredom (hence, the mirror’s righteous destruction). Boys ring her every day. No male has ever phoned Aideen Gogarty, a fact about which she feels an undue degree of shame and sorrow. She is desperate that no one be privy to this, ever.
And then there’s Mum and Dad, nauseating on the topic of Nemesis: Our Nuala’s so sporty, she’s the top acrobat at school! Our Nuala’s so talented, she got the lead in the school play! Our Nuala’s so kind, she made this painting of our perfect family and it’s all so lovely!
There once was a girl who seemed sweet
An actor, gymnast, athlete
With dark stunning hair
That made all the boys stare
She’s fooled the world, thus I retreat.
I need the computer,
Nuala announces in her entitled way, bouncing impatiently on tiptoes.
Hiya,
Gavin mumbles. He wears a navy tracksuit and white-on-white Puma high-tops.
You could say hello to Gavin.
But Aideen is distracted by the gothic Millburn School lettering displayed blatantly on her father’s computer screen. Determined that her twin, of all people, not know about this—boarding school!—she ignores Nuala and steps backward to block the screen.
Ooh, what’s the big secret?
Nemesis sniffs evilly.
Hi Gavin.
Whatever,
says Nemesis. I need the computer.
I’m using it,
says Aideen.
I need it.
Fuck off.
Nemesis slits her eyes at Aideen, but since a male is present, she merely huffs off, Gavin trotting after her, like all of them. Aideen decides to snoop further, later, when everyone’s asleep. This, in the wee hours, is when she gleans any real information about the goings-on in the Gogarty household. Mum and Dad talk a big game about openness and honesty and all that bollocks, but then they go and hide anything of interest or value. She once found a pregnancy test in her mother’s loo—negative, she eventually understood after studying the box and then the stick. Which probably explained why Mum had seemed so blue in the days that followed. Unbelievable to Aideen that her mum would want more kids when she’s always at work!
Then there was the letter addressed to Dad, which Aideen spied in ripped shards at the top of the bin: We’re sorry to inform you that the position for which you applied…
Aideen heads to the kitchen, warms up the lasagna per her father’s tiresome instructions—he’s an overexplainer and a worrier. She piles more logs onto the dwindling fire, pokes at it, still shell-shocked. It’s true that the Gogarty household has been strained, especially since her mother’s tourism consultancy firm landed some big new client and Dad lost his job in magazines. Nowadays he’s often to be found moping about with huge, needy eyes, inserting himself into every bloody moment. It’s equally true that, though her parents bang on about how clever and observant she is, that she has emotional intelligence
(which means…?), Aideen knows she constantly disappoints them. She makes bad choices,
which is parent-speak for not the choices they would make. Fine, okay, but to ship her off like an outcast to live with a bunch of strangers?
Aideen! Is this the site you were looking for?
Nemesis calls out from the study, singsong mockery in her voice, and, as Aideen enters, a sadistic, shitty little grin on her face. These are precisely the moments Aideen most misses Gerard, her older brother, who left in September to take up a psychology course at University College Cork, and who, unlike her parents, actually listens.
Gavin, head down, eyes averted, begins to retreat backward from the room. Aideen approaches the computer screen and sees that it’s filled with photos of magnified medical blobs. It’s a webpage of spots: crusty lesions, bulbous, bursting whiteheads. Nemesis throws her head back in a witch’s cackle and zooms in on a black-and-white retro advertisement of a distressed, spotty 1950s teen above a dialogue bubble that says, Doctor, will these pimples scar my face?
Nuala is right: Aideen is not attractive enough, she never will be, which is truly tragic because, above all else, she secretly covets being coveted. Clean-Cut is lovely to her at HMV record store signings and backstage VIP fan zones and even when he tweets her directly, which he’s done twice, but that’s more about her being a loyal fan, someone who’s worshipped the singer and his short crew since they were nobodies from Rathfarnham. What boy, what real boy, would ever choose Aideen Gogarty, especially in the shadow of her twin’s radiance? Even her horrible family doesn’t want her. Some ugly island of fury, or maybe injustice, or maybe just everyday sibling envy, loosens in Aideen, rekindling a dormant spark of self-loathing that’s been festering for months.
Which may or may not justify what happens next. She snatches the first weapon at hand, the fire poker she’d unintentionally left stuck between two now blazing logs in the hearth, as it happens. It is a glowing, sizzling neon hot rod; it is a tool to brand cattle with or some grotesque instrument of CIA torture.
It would do perfectly.
Aideen launches at her sister. Both scream. Nemesis gives chase and they race round the first floor, as they used to, happily, in earlier years. Though Nuala is six minutes older, Aideen was the unquestionable leader of their childhood larks. She made most executive decisions: Scrabble over Monopoly, bunk bed rotations (back when they shared a room), who would hide and who would seek. Nuala shadowed Aideen for years until, gradually, inexplicably, she didn’t. Now they slam with violence through the grand, high-ceilinged rooms, Aideen emitting bloodcurdling roars to petrify the horrible troll whose simultaneous yells are much girlier. At some point, Gavin pursues them and yells at them to stop and then gives up.
Of course, Aideen has no intention of actually burning flesh; she’s just trying to terrify the silly bitch. She’ll later try to explain this, though no one will listen. No one ever does. The sisters end up duking it out where it started, fireside, in a silence punctuated by the odd grunt. Hair is yanked, skin slapped, pinches exchanged. When Gavin finally reaches them and ends it, Aideen is straddling her sister, whose wispy, slender arms are pinned down by each of Aideen’s bony knees, the poker towering high, trembling and still trailing a thin whisper of smoke above them.
4
From her perch on a metal chair in a shoddy, windowless chamber that reeks of cigarettes—oh, for a smoke!—Millie spies her handsome son breezing into the Garda station. He doffs his overcoat, revealing a smart gray jumper and a pair of cuffless woolen trousers.