H.H. Holmes: The Devil In Me
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H.H. Holmes: The Devil In Me is formerly titled Mulberry Lane. Based on the true events of serial killer H.H. Holmes! From his early childhood, to a student at Michigan Medical University, he developed a taste for murder, and the macabre. Mistreated and tortured in his childhood, Holmes quickly transformed into a cunning and ruthless killer. Drawing on his rage, and disregard for humankind, Holmes move to Chicago. He soon opened a hotel during the World’s Fair to lure unsuspecting victims. After his capture, authorities discovered Holmes’ “Murder Castle,” where it is believed he slaughtered more than two hundred people. H.H. Holmes is one of the most notorious, and vicious serial killers of all time!
Colby Van Wagoner
Colby Van Wagoner is a versatile and descriptive American author. Offering a variety of genres, the vision is to create unique plots and exciting twists in storytelling. His first book release, Massacre Cave, was written as part of a trilogy called "The Crow Mountain Series". The Crow Mountain books evolve around the Navajo shape shifter, commonly referred to as the Skinwalker, blending between combinations of horror and classic authentic late 1800s western authenticity.H.H. Holmes: The Devil In Me, is Colby's fourth full length release and best seller. The book is based on the true events of America's first captured, tried, and sentenced, "termed" and documented serial killer. Chicago's twisted killer H.H. Holmes. The book presents a unique and controversial twist, which delves deep inside the mind and from the serial killer's point of view.A 5th book release, Earth Mongers, combines historical events in an unexpected science fiction twisting finale, which explores a thrilling new approach to natural disasters, and global disasters. On the brink of global catastrophe, populations are forced to look at their choices, leaders of countries are forced to make tough decisions, or face extinction.Dead in Love is Colby Van Wagoner's 6th, and first, release in "The Dead" Zombie double release. In a small town, local residents rumor of the military's basic operations and chemical experiments taking place inside. In their complicit living is the facility's development of two separate and top secret compounds, tested on lab animals and soon local humans mysteriously removed from nearby hospitals and the local surrounding. Baxter a local resident, is soon caught up in a secretive fight to save himself and the love of his life, Laylianna, during the impending outbreak.Volume One is a collection of eight horror novellas that stretch between the paranormal and supernatural. Released in 2013. As a young child, Aurora discovers, "Baby Doll Head" a vessel possessing mysterious mind control powers. Stories include a family of inbreds who terrorize and seek to control families inside the Cult House. A Love Not Lost, explores an aging embalmer who has lost touch with reality after the loss of his wife. Alex in Horrorland takes a young boy on a journey through an imaginary world of horror. A group of travelers board a train and fall victim to a family of rail workers in Blood, Flesh, and Bone. The Shadows of Kayakoy come to life as a group of travelers make a terrible choice to remain overnight in the ghost town. Bleak, the end of all existence? Finally, Aurora's all grown up in Parallel, where her realities unite and realities occur in real time as she mentally deteriorates. She is committed to an asylum, influenced by nightmares and the supernatural, Volume One takes readers on a rollercoaster ride of suspense and horror.Compound is about a group of diverse travelers making their way through a Brazilian quarantine zone. Fleeing from town to town, the travelers attempt to survive and seek refuge from a viral outbreak.Fever is about a Texas Ranger witnessing the murders of his family. Texas Ranger Zeke Slade takes matters into his own hands. Instead of bringing his family's killers to justice, to stand trial, he makes the decision to serve his own justice, avenging the murders of his family on his own terms, breaking his oath as a Texas Ranger. The Adjutant General offers Zeke Slade the choice of facing prison time, or accepting a marshal position in an Alaskan mining town, Fever.The Jack and Jillian Book Series are Colby Van Wagoner's children's books. Jack and Jillian write about learning and creating new things. They write about the sports they are learning, how to play safely, and learning the rules to play fair. Jack and Jillian also learn about art and how to create different forms of art. The series is aimed at encouraging, challenging young minds, and motivating them to remain active, both physically and mentally.Massacre Cave, Crow Mountain, Return to Crow Mountain, H.H. Holmes: The Devil In Me, Earth Mongers, Dead in Love, Volume One, the Jack and Jillian Children's Book Series, Compound, and Fever are available online at Amazon.com, Barnes and Noble.com, and other U.S. and international book retailers. In its first month out Colby Van Wagoner's books have reached the top 50 on the Amazon bestsellers rank!After experiencing a traumatic brain injury in 2014, which required a craniotomy and recovery, Colby Van Wagoner completed a bachelor's and master's degree in psychology. After 4 years of recovery and adjustment to the physical and mental challenges, he was able to complete a new title called, A Time for Heroes: 2017 Las Vegas Shooting. The book was completed in 2018 and covers the tragic Las Vegas mass shooting through first hand witness accounts, local law enforcement's and the FBI's official case files. Working with factual combined evidence, and a thorough historical background on the shooter, the detailed research and work includes a full psychological and behavioral profile assessment of mass shooter, Stephen Paddock. The book also accounts harrowing and gripping stories of survival and honors, in remembrance, those who were lost in the Las Vegas, Nevada public attack.Colby continues to challenge his writing style and plots, improve his craft through learning different writing and editing techniques, through distinct and unique story progression, while combining historical events and exciting fictional exploration and original ideas.
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H.H. Holmes - Colby Van Wagoner
H.H. Holmes: The Devil in Me
By
Colby Van Wagoner
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Colby Van Wagoner
© 2011 by Colby Van Wagoner
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The author’s additional titles:
See Through Myself: A Memoir
A Time for Heroes: 2017 Las Vegas Shooting
The Life of Zeke Slade Trilogy
Ranger
Fever
The Crow Mountain Trilogy
Massacre Cave
Crow Mountain
Return to Crow Mountain
Volume One – The Volumes (Horror novellas)
Compound
Dead in Love
Earth Mongers
The Jack and Jillian Children’s Book Series
In my mind, it is not only the most disturbing parts of what H.H. Holmes did but also in the subtle ways we might recognize the pieces of him that exist inside us.
Chapter 1
‘Home is Not Where the Heart is’
The Fall season had arrived in the picturesque town of Gilmanton, New Hampshire. A tiny town nestled quietly against a rugged New England hillside was the birthplace of Herman Webster Mudgett in the year 1861. There had been no observable mistreatment during the boy’s upbringing who claimed his childhood nurtured care by two loving parents. Herman appeared as another regular country-bred kid. The Mudgett family were a God-fearing folk, contempt to life in a quaint home near the Gilmanton Academy.
Gilmanton’s educational institution founded a hundred years prior, named in honor of self-worthy men. Each founding member had taken their leave of silence in a final resting place at the town’s nearby church cemetery. Most headstones had the inscribed names of the deceased and dates of their deaths, others displayed a single date. Unnamed inscriptions piqued Herman’s curiosity on walks across the property. Herman was well accustomed to avoidance in any youthful deviations from the straight and narrow path. His father’s consequences meant stern reprimands and a mother’s prayers for her son’s guidance. Moreover, a father’s lack of restraint by no means withheld any limitation from wielded hand and rod for lessons learned.
Herman sat in the family room with strict focus in the detailed stages of a recent project. His mind infused imagination while dexterity held a steady hand in forming a precise pencil sketch of the female form. Each hand’s slight of motion penciled across the paper depicting instinctual art form. A natural ability to recognize comparisons to light and shadow detailed within each of the fine lines. The portraited images in the drawing were lifelike depictions through the shapely proportions of his female model.
These retrieved memories from his chance encounter in witness to a fully nude woman. A woman who had been recently widowed and family friend living in a nearby home. Herman found it to be a delightful opportunity to sneak from the home’s back door in the evening dusk, just as the sun had fallen below the horizon. Only by chance and in study of the woman’s regular routine allowed for a quick peek through a first-floor bedroom window.
Most of an artist’s creative influence is through an attentiveness to the physical features of the human body. Page Mudgett’s tall body-type depicted thin and slender features. Her brown hair descended the length of her back, usually attentively braided, developing resemblances in many of Herman’s sketches. She started to display an unusual pattern of neurotic-type obsessions throughout the course of a day. Her behavioral traits developed over the course of changes in Levi Mudgett’s overbearing control, contrast to a supportive and loving husband. In turn, reflected by her worrisome tendencies to ensure all arrangements were in place before the evening hours.
Page, rushed throughout the kitchen, Herman, I must finish dinner preparations before your father returns from work.
The Mudgett family were considered well off
due to his father’s long days of employment. A husband who was also in high expectation of a common routine, which if not met with prompt manner would display an unsatisfactory attitude with his wife and children. Herman being the only sibling left in the home, subject to his father’s exploitations.
There was an annoyance for the persistence each window remain open. As a result the humid air would seep within the home. The occupants slowly sweltering to an overwhelming degree of sultry heat. Herman concluded the woman’s sketch due to smudges from the drops of his perspiration. The recent newspaper just across the table caught his attention. He used a shirt sleeve to wipe the sweat from his forehead. Herman read the paper’s headline: 1876, Alexander Graham Bell granted a patent for his invention called the telephone. This will change the way universal communication occurs.
The paper continued to tell that progressions in technologies would introduce changes used to communicate around the world, Mom, someone invented a device called a telephone!
Herman yelled.
Herman refrain from shouting,
his mother too involved with kitchen toils to show any interest in world events, only a strict focus on pleasing the requirements of his father. Herman begun to despise his father in the way he treated his mother.
Herman quenched his thirst drinking a full glass of water. A relief from the dry torment of scratchiness in his throat. He adjusted the position of his legs to alleviate the numbness and returned the empty glass to the table. The shirt and suit pants stuck against his skin as a result from being in the indoor heat. There was no remedy to the itching the material caused against his legs. The expectation given to him by his father was always dress in proper clothes. His father always kept a clean pressed shirt and a pair of pants to reflect character, and determination. Herman often imitated how his father relied on the image portrayed in the minds of other people in town. Many of the hours away from his chores and work around the house spent lost in daydreams of being in another place and time.
Herman licked his finger to flick the newspaper for the second page and continued to read: England’s Settle Carlisle Railway opened to passenger traffic. Meanwhile, in the United States the Transcontinental Express arrived in San Francisco, California, via the First Transcontinental Railroad line. After having left the New York City station, the train’s first entire journey timed in eighty-three hours and thirty-nine minutes.
The thought of travel outside Gilmanton and away from New Hampshire would cause his mind to wander for the time to come when he would have his freedoms as an adult. The mind raced at the thought of ascending a train’s stairs to enter a passenger car and feel the motion of moving along the steel lined rail tracks.
To discover the different landscapes of the American states and experience the various cultures of people, different cities, and travel farther than any of his family had seen in their life. He wanted to visualize the extreme fascination and endless possibilities. Further, into the paper it read: The United States centennial celebration will occur, and Colorado has become admitted as the 38th American state. In the presidential election of 1876, Rutherford Hayes declared the winner over Samuel Tilden.
Herman always skipped local community reports being minor events. Gilmanton’s local town news failed reflecting any pertinent information that related to his interests. The mind becomes invested in future travel endeavors, fantastical opportunities in future endeavors, Herman ever wished to escape small-town life. News of advancements in technologies, the Transcontinental Express, national events, and developments sparked his interest. Colorado, with its scenic mountains and colorful landscapes and the vast state of Texas. He planned to travel to as many places he read about in the paper and learned their locations in both his encyclopedias and the newspapers: Texas, California, and other American states. Eventually, Canada and the rest of the continent around the world.
Usually the most interesting topics, and special interest stories, were towards the end of the paper. One of the smaller headlines caught his eye. It just so happened, this material would shape Herman Mudgett’s future. It read: Failed grave robbery of the Lincoln Tomb. However, police have no leads and no suspects, as no one witnessed the event. Licking his finger and turning the page, an impressionable image raced through his mind about the idea of a grave robber, such an intriguing and gruesome thought.
With an extensive collection of encyclopedias for reference, and the vast information discovered in the newspapers, learning and knowledge came quickly. This aided him in obtaining clarification and new ideas. Herman was also becoming deeply intrigued by the numerous subjects; he was learning about, in his science and biology classes. The drawing would have to wait. He jumped to his feet, opening one of his encyclopedias, locating a small section on grave robbing.
Reading further, his mother called out from the kitchen, Herman, what did you say about a telephone? What is a telephone?
I will explain later, mom, after dinner.
She did not reply, too focused on her preparations for the evening.
The encyclopedia had some interesting information. He began to read, out loud, Grave robbery or tomb raiding, is the act of uncovering a grave or crypt, to steal artifacts or personal effects. A related act is body snatching, which is someone exhuming a grave for the purpose of stealing a corpse, rather than stealing other objects.
He paused, Body snatching?
Body snatching? Herman Webster Mudgett what are you reading about?
He was startled by his mother, as she walked up behind him, brushing her hand through his hair, Do not read too much about that, son. You know you will be up late at night, again, having nightmares. You should be reading your bible.
All right, all right, mother.
Herman’s mother was always worried about his disturbed sleep patterns.
Too often, he woke in the middle of the night. But, for some odd reason, he found himself reveling in the images his mind would present in his nightmares. There was comfort in the horrific experiences his dreams would present. Fear and uncontrollable feelings, from the drastic emotions, would haunt him when he would wake. There was a sense of exploration in his dreams. The nightmares would allow him to do things; otherwise, unattainable in reality.
Looking at the encyclopedia, Herman returned reading where he left off. This time he would not read aloud, chuckling, because of his mother’s response to the words body snatching
. It causes great difficulty in the study of archaeology, art history, and history. Countless grave sites and tombs have been robbed before scholars are able to examine their contents.
Grave robbers are often lower-income individuals, who sell their goods on the black market, Selling stolen items, on the black market? This is interesting.
New ideas were hatching, which would have to be written in his journal. But first, more reading on grave robbery was called for; though some artifacts may make their way to museums, or to scholars, most end up in private collections instead. Ancient Egyptian tombs are one of the most common examples of tomb, or crypt robbery.
Modern grave robbing, in North America, also involves abandoned or forgotten private grave sites. These sites are often desecrated by grave robbers in search of old and valuable jewelry. Affected sites are typically in rural, forested, areas where once prominent wealthy landowners and their families have been buried.
Now we are getting to the good stuff.
He whispered, under his breath.
Remote and often unmapped locations of defunct private cemeteries make them particularly susceptible to grave robbing. The practice is encouraged upon the discovery of a previously unknown family cemetery by a new landowner. Laws that have been enacted, in the various regions, have been ignored due to extreme poverty. The robbing of graves continues to grow each year.
Pondering over the concept of grave robbery, for jewelry and other valuables, was interesting. However, he was much more interested in the process of body snatching. The strange rush of imagining being in the snatcher’s position and what it would feel like, digging up a grave in the middle of the night, pushed him to read further. The intense feeling of unearthing a body, which had been placed in a casket and buried, intended to rest in peace overcame him.
He continued imagining the conditions of the bodies and the various processes of preparing a body for burial. Further into the encyclopedia, he discovered the section on body snatching and read; Body snatching is the secret exhuming of corpses from graveyards. A common purpose of body snatching is to sell the corpses for dissection, or anatomy lectures in medical schools.
Herman closed the encyclopedia, gaining a better understanding of what it was he wanted to pursue in life, attend medical school and become a doctor. He switched to reading the newspaper discovering another fascinating article. The headline reads, First cremation in the United States took place
. The crematory was built by Francis Julius LeMoyne.
The article went into specific details of the new process. Cremation is a new advancement eliminating the increasing lack of space in grave yards. The process allows families to keep the remains of their loved ones in beautiful vases. Cremation also helps to eliminate the spread of disease, which can spread quickly should a virus, or plague, occur within the general populations.
Cremation reduces dead bodies to basic compounds in the form of gas and bone fragments. This is accomplished through burning the deceased at high temperatures. Cremated remains, which are not a health risk, may be buried in memorial sites or cemeteries. They may be legally retained by relatives, or dispersed in a variety of ways and locations.
Herman’s eyes were wide open, as his mind digested the material he was reading. It was a new, overwhelming feeling and a sense he had never felt before, Doctor Herman Webster Mudgett.
Inside, saying it out loud, he felt a renewed drive to do improve in school. If he were to get better grades in school, as opposed to his prior grade achievements, he would be well on his way.
Herman was determined to continue reading and researching, in order to impress his teachers. However, there was a new agenda forming in his mind. He continued reading; a body, prepared for cremation, must be placed in a container, which can be a simple cardboard box, a wooden casket, or coffin. Most casket manufacturers will provide a line of caskets specially built for cremation.
After the funeral service, the interior box will be removed from the shell, before cremation, permitting the shell to be reused. Funeral homes are beginning to offer traditional caskets, used only for the duration of the services. After which, the body can be transferred to another container for cremation.
Continuing to explore his thoughts, for a few moments, he was becoming more and more fascinated with the idea of the events leading up to someone dying, and death. He closed the newspaper and returned to drawing the human body, in his sketchbook. It was a way for him to escape the growing and never-ending bickering, and tensions, between his mother and father.
The Mudgett’s home was a simple structure, as were many of the other neighborhood houses. Herman’s room was in the confined and musty attic space. His father moved him into the attic, after turning his first room into an office space. There were pictures of his grandparents, additional family members, but very few group photos. The pictures captured a sense of tenseness, and the struggles many families were experiencing.
The house was painted a simple white with brown shutters besides each window. The yard was decorated with colorful annuals, perennials, and green bushes that showed an illusion everything beautiful on the outside, was quite different than what was happened within. To the rear of the house, was a medium sized barn where his father kept his carriage and yard tools.
His father was always returning home late, later than usual, nowadays. And, aside from that, the problems between his mother and father seemed to be escalating every evening. Levi was a slightly overweight man, with a receding hairline and an aged rough looking face. Being able to avoid his father’s rage and anger, directed towards his mother and him, was becoming an unavoidable routine.
Herman stopped drawing, sat back on the couch to recall his mother and father spending their time with the family in the living room, took turns reading scriptures and would pray together. However, all that had changed during the choices Levi had been more determined to frequent the local pub more than usual. The father Herman remembered as a nurturer and one to provide guidance had become a distant memory. In the past, his father was extremely religious, but he had become disconnected.
After arriving home, his father seemed more agitated than usual. He rushed through the front door, up the rickety stairs and into the master bedroom, slamming the bedroom door behind him. He was smoking his usual cigar. The trail of smoke floated from the front door, up the stairs, and into the upstairs bedroom. The scent of his father’s cigar smoke made him nauseated. What could he do though, tell his father what the effects of the cigar smoke had on him?
At the time of his father’s arrival, rarely any attention was paid to what Page and Herman were doing. Levi simply walked through the door and proceeding straight to his room, where he was no doubt pouring himself a tall glass of bourbon. It was the bourbon and whiskey stealing away the man he once felt comfortable calling pops and poppa.
Herman, please put your toys away and go into the kitchen, prepare the table for dinner.
His mother instructed, walking up the stairs and to the bedroom door where her husband had retreated.
Herman put away the drawing paper, pencils, and encyclopedias into their specific places, went into the kitchen and listened through the kitchen’s vent to what his mother would say to his father. His mother was always calling his pencils and drawing paper, toys. At fifteen years old, she still viewed him as her child. First, he heard his mother knock on the bedroom door. Standing just outside the bedroom she hesitated, then softly spoke, Honey, how was the farming today?
No response came from the bedroom.
Due to the silence, it was obvious his mother was waiting, for any replies, before entering the room. Herman quietly snuck up the stairs and peeked around the wall. Page was standing at the door, her knees shaking and quivering. It was like she was standing at the edge of a cliff, waiting for someone to push her over. She had become just as terrified of Levi, as Herman. She would tell stories about the days when they would take long carriage rides and have afternoon picnics in the park.
His mother had told Herman, in confidence; about his father’s detachment and distance ever since Herman’s birth. During the birth, she remembered the look on her husband’s face, as he watched her cradle their new child in her arms. In the hospital, an immediate sense of jealousy became obvious in Levi. Throughout Herman’s life, his father’s jealousy never subsided. But, his mother would only tell Herman those things in confidence and made sure to promise to never tell or reveal any of it to his father.
Dear, do you mind if I come in?
The door creaked, as it opened.
His father responded, as she opened the door, Page, will you please give me a few minutes? I just got home from working all day in the humidity. Do you think I want to hear you drill me about every little thing?
Herman stood quietly, near the top of the stairs, expecting the worst. After a few minutes of silence, there was some rustling then a few loud footsteps across the wood floor and the crash of glass. There was silence, but only for a few moments, broken by a loud crash and finally the bedroom door slamming shut.
Herman crept back down the stairs and rushed back into the kitchen. Next, came his mother’s whimpering from the upstairs hallway. She cried to herself, keeping any fright or terror from overcoming them both. She knew that Herman felt the same fear of his father that she felt.
Footsteps came from the stairs, echoing into the living room, down into the main level of the house. Herman’s mother walked into the kitchen wiping her eyes and sniffling, as she began helping him set the table. She walked to the stove, removing a few of the pans and began to dish the food onto the plates. Herman walked over to the table, pulled out a chair and sat quietly at the table.
His mother knew there was no need to say it, but she reminded him, Honey, please behave tonight. Your father had a bad day.
He knew what it meant.
As it was with every other night of his father’s evening routine, Levi would descend the stairs and enter the kitchen, grumbling and complaining. Mostly, about the food Page had spent hours making. After a few moments, he heard the bedroom door open and footsteps on the staircase. His mother’s body language changed. The tense situation increased, as they waited for Levi to enter the kitchen.
Levi walked into the kitchen indistinctly grumbling, as expected. He had his cigar in his left hand and carried a glass in the other, most likely filled with Bourbon or whiskey. After returning home from work, and coming down from the upstairs bedroom, his father was usually carrying a glass for most of the night.
What are we having tonight, dear, more overcooked meat and lumpy potatoes?
His speech was already becoming slurred, along with an aggressive tone.
Page responded, Well, dear, I do the best that I can. It’s just, cooking on this stove can be tricky. One can never tell when the gas is going to be working right, or if a good amount of gas will be flowing through the units.
I suppose you blame me for that?
He exclaimed, walking over to the table, placing his drink in front of him and moving the knife and fork next to the plate. Well, I’m waiting.
He exclaimed, moving the ashtray closer to his plate.
Herman’s mother walked to the table and began serving the meatloaf and potatoes. She finished scooping the potatoes onto the plates, returning the pot to the stove. She turned and reached for the last plate, Levi grabbed his wife’s arm, violently, just before picking up the plate.
So, what did you two do today? Did you talk about me and what a wonderful husband and father I am?
His mother, concerned, stopped and looked