Ruby Falls: A Novel
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On a brilliantly sunny July day, six-year-old Ruby is abandoned by her father in the suffocating dark of a Tennessee cave. Twenty years later, transformed into soap opera star Eleanor Russell, she is fired under dubious circumstances. Fleeing to Europe, she marries a glamorous stranger named Orlando Montague and keeps her past closely hidden.
Together, Eleanor and Orlando start afresh in LA. Setting up house in a storybook cottage in the Hollywood Hills, Eleanor is cast in a dream role—the lead in a remake of Rebecca. As she immerses herself in that eerie gothic tale, Orlando’s personality changes, ghosts of her past re-emerge, and Eleanor fears she is not the only person in her marriage with a secret.
In this thrilling and twisty homage to Daphne du Maurier’s Rebecca, the story ricochets through the streets of Los Angeles, a dangerous marriage to an exotic stranger, and the mind of a young woman whose past may not release her.
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Ruby Falls - Deborah Goodrich Royce
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RUBY FALLS
"Imaginative, unique, spine-tingling, and just the right amount of eerie, Ruby Falls is what a reader wants a psychological thriller to be."
—Sandra Brown, New York Times bestselling author
"Ruby Falls will sweep you headfirst into the life of Eleanor Russell, an actress setting up house in the glamorous Hollywood Hills with her handsome new husband, Orlando. Secrets abound in this bang of a book, a haunting tale sure to give readers chills. A stunner with some serious Gothic vibes."
—Kimberly Belle, internationally bestselling author of Dear Wife and Stranger in the Lake
"A tribute to Daphne du Maurier’s Rebecca, this unnerving story about a Hollywood starlet haunted by her past will captivate you right up until the shocking ending. A must-read for anyone who loves an expertly plotted thriller with multidimensional characters."
—Emily Liebert, USA Today bestselling author of Perfectly Famous
"In 1968, young Ruby Russell loses her father while touring an underground cave. She recalls the moment his hand left hers, and nearly twenty years later, his disappearance remains a mystery. Ruby has reinvented herself as Eleanor Russell, married the man of her dreams, and is acting in a feature film. But as her new life begins to go awry, the mystery surrounding her past and present collide in a well-crafted and head spinning twist that I did not see coming. Ruby Falls is a skillfully plotted page turner!"
—Wendy Walker, national bestselling author of Don’t Look for Me
"What a lovely ride! With fun twists and whip-smart language, clever Deborah Goodrich Royce leads readers down a familiar path—until she doesn’t. Lyrical and filled with page-turning suspense, I gulped every word and enjoyed every bite. I promise Ruby Falls will become your next favorite book!"
—Maureen Joyce Connolly, author of Little Lovely Things
"Ruby Falls is a fantastic combination of a sweeping Hollywood story folded into a twisty thriller. Fans of Rebecca will be enthralled with how the classic story is woven into the masterful plot of Ruby Falls."
—Vanessa Lillie, Amazon bestselling author of Little Voices and For the Best
"Brimming with Hollywood nostalgia, this mesmerizing and thrilling page-turner is impossible to put down. Deborah Goodrich Royce’s second novel, Ruby Falls, has all the elements of an addictive read: fascinating characters, quick pace, and an intriguing story full of suspense. Masterfully plotted, the story of Eleanor Russell, a young impressionable actress, plagued by a childhood trauma, unfolds against the backdrop of a film production remake of Rebecca, in which she stars. A haunting, unforgettable thriller."
—Daniela Petrova, author of Her Daughter’s Mother
"Mix a dark childhood trauma, a fragile young actress, and a hasty, ill-advised marriage. Add old Hollywood glamor, dashes of enchantment, and lashings of noir suspense. Now shake—and prepare to be shaken. Much more than a mystery, Ruby Falls is about stories—the ones we tell ourselves, the ones we tell others, and the dark gaps in between."
—Elka Ray, author of the Toby Wong Vancouver Island mystery series
"Ruby Falls is a psychological tour-de-force that grabs you on page one and doesn’t let you go until the end. A compelling, engrossing, and truly suspenseful thriller that takes place in the mind of one woman struggling to overcome her demons."
—Kris Frieswick, author of The Ghost Manuscript
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Ruby Falls:
A Novel
© 2021 by Deborah Goodrich Royce
All Rights Reserved
ISBN: 978-1-64293-709-1
ISBN (eBook): 978-1-64293-710-7
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Cover typography by Cassandra Tai-Marcellini
Cover concept by Becky Ford
Interior design and composition by Greg Johnson, Textbook Perfect
This book is a work of fiction. People, places, events, and situations are the product of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or historical events, is purely coincidental.
No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author and publisher.
Ruby Baby
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Contents
Prologue: Then
1: Now
2: Flights of Angels
3: Thalia and Melpomene
4: Sweet Dreams
5: As the World Turns
6: A Raven and a Writing Desk
7: L.A. Baby
8: Eternal Sunshine
9: Vertigo
10: Thriller
11: Double Indemnity
12: Dark Shadows
13: The Woman in White
14: Through a Glass Darkly
15: Gaslight
16: The Red Shoes
17: The Day of the Locust
18: Morning Glory
19: The Postman Always Rings Twice
20: The Sublime and the Beautiful
21: Tender Mercies
22: Dial M
23: The Shadow of the Wind
24: Bell, Book and Candle
25: Suspicion
26: The Turn of the Screw
27: Snake Pit
28: The Unexamined Life
29: Christabel
30: The Manchurian Candidate
31: Memento Mori
32: Ars Moriendi
33: The Tell-Tale Heart
34: Fatal Attraction
35: Blue Velvet
36: The Shining
37: The Black Cat
38: Hush…Hush, Sweet Charlotte
39: Scylla and Charybdis
40: The Sleeping City
41: Pandora’s Box
42: And Then There Were None
43: Rope
44: Spellbound
45: Home for the Holidays
46: Flores Para Los Muertos
47: Dona Nobis Pacem
Acknowledgments
About the Author
A Final Word About the Cover Art
To Ana, Lisa, Howard, and Grant—
all gone too soon.
It was an honor to walk with
you for a way when
we were young in Hollywood.
"I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand—
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep—while I weep!
O God! Can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?"
—A Dream within a Dream,
Edgar Allan Poe, 1809–1849
It is the nature of grief to keep its object perpetually in its eye, to present it in its most pleasurable views, to repeat all the circumstances that attend it, even to the last minuteness; to go back to every particular enjoyment, to dwell upon each, and to find a thousand new perfections in all, that were not sufficiently understood before; in grief, the pleasure is still uppermost…
—A Philosophical Enquiry into the Origin of Our Ideas of the Sublime and Beautiful,
Edmund Burke, 1729–1797
Prologue
Then
1968, Lookout Mountain
I was standing with my father in the pitch-black dark—the blackest dark I’d ever seen in the few short years of my young life— and the blackest dark that I’ve seen since, which is a considerably longer span.
The surrounding air was dank with flecks from falling water.
A disembodied voice rose up from the mist, then swooped back down to submerge in it. First amplified then muffled, the sounds changed places, each taking its turn at prominence. The drone of the voice, the roar of the falls, and the clammy damp came at me from all directions—from the sides, from above and below—to seal me in a viscous coating and stick me to my spot. The waterfall could have been anywhere. Next to me? Yards away?
I dared not move a muscle.
The woman’s words transfixed me with a tale of scuba divers. Fearless swimmers who, over the years, had plumbed the depths of a fathomless pool. In wet suits and tanks, in masks and flippers, down they had plunged into icy water, in an effort to find its bottom.
No search had been successful.
The roiling cascade dropped into a lake that continued, it seemed, to the center of the earth. To China. To horrible depths my imagination was fully engaged in conjuring.
Cold drops of perspiration ran down my face, my arms, and the back of my neck. I was concentrating hard—trying to locate the source of her voice, trying to pinpoint the crash of the falls, trying not to move and tumble in, and trying most heartily not to be afraid—when my father let go of my hand.
That was it, really—that was all he did. He loosened his hand from my grip. And he disappeared, never to be seen again, while the tour guide never stopped talking.
July the 12th, 1968. The last day I saw my father.
James Emerson Russell was Sonny to most—from the son in Emerson, I imagine. Or maybe from his position in his family of origin. I don’t really know. He was just Daddy to me, what a little girl calls her father.
He was handsome, that Sonny. It is not just my memory. It is what people still say when they don’t stop themselves from talking about him. And, they say it just like that. He was handsome, that Sonny, I’ll grant him that.
As though his visage were something they grudgingly bestowed on him. Then they change the subject on seeing me.
He was long and lanky—six feet even—impossibly tall to me then. A slight stoop to his walk, crinkly blue eyes, and a halfway receding hairline.
His taste in attire ran to western and that was how he was dressed that last day. Jeans and a checkered shirt. Madras, my mother had called it. Snaps down the front and a turned-up collar. Cuffed sleeves rolled up to reveal strong forearms, all covered in downy blond fuzz. He wore cowboy boots and he carried a hat. In a nod to convention, he would not have worn it indoors. Men did not do that then. Then again, men did not tend to walk out on their children in the middle of tourist attractions, either, but that hadn’t served to stop him. I guess my daddy picked his proprieties from a smorgasbord of options.
He wore a watch and his wedding ring, too, and a belt with a silver buckle. He had surprisingly soft hands for a man. I had held his hand for the longest time, twirling his ring, until the darkness commandeered my attention when the lights were abruptly switched off. Then I just stood still, clutching that hand and willing him to protect me. Those large, soft hands that belonged to a man who would use them to wrest himself free of his daughter.
But how, you might ask, could a full-grown man vanish from the middle of a clump of tourists visiting Ruby Falls in Lookout Mountain, Tennessee, on a sweltering summer day? More precisely, how could a man disappear from a cave under Lookout Mountain—when that very act would require accessing the elevator (through the lightless cave), traversing the entrance lobby, crossing the parking lot, starting his car, and driving away—leaving his own flesh and blood child standing frozen under the earth beneath him?
In the end, nobody remembered seeing him do any of those things. And his car, a 1962 Cadillac de Ville, in a vibrant shade of turquoise, remained where he—we—had left it in the parking lot.
It is an unsolved mystery. And it turns out that people who experience an unsolved mystery in their lives become inordinately keen on unsolved mysteries as a topic in general. I am one of those people. My father disappeared from Ruby Falls in the summer of 1968, when I was six and a half years old. He left me alone and mute, unable to move, even once they put the lights back on and herded the crowd past the stalactites and stalagmites and the God-forsaken falls toward the elevators, en route to the streaming sun above.
The tour guides had to pick me up, when it became evident that I was not ambulatory. They groused the whole way up to the surface that I was stiff as a corpse, which, as they made clear to each other and to me, added to the overall creepiness of my father’s de-materialization. Had they been superstitious people (and who, really, isn’t?) they might have thought some sort of black magic was being performed by us.
Lest I forget to mention—my name is Ruby. Not believable, you say? Well, it is true. My name is Ruby (not Falls, if my name were Ruby Falls, that would be unbelievable). My name is Ruby—Eleanor Ruby Russell—but called Ruby from birth, in the way that Southerners do, being extremely fond of middle names.
Thus, I became famous for a while at the age of six and the press had a field day with my name.
Little Ruby Left in Ruby Falls!
Did Ruby’s Father Fall in Ruby Falls?
Ruby Took the Fall in Ruby Falls!
You can imagine, I am sure, the extent to which the headline writers amused themselves. I might have been entertained, too, except for obvious reasons. Namely, my age at the time of the incident. But, trailing a close second to that was the fact that my mother shielded me from the newspaper clippings that she studiously pasted into a scrapbook. I was a teenager when I discovered that macabre memento.
Strangely—though what about this case wasn’t strange?—my father had chosen my name. My mother hated it—Northerner that she was, she considered it a countrified name—but my father had won the day. That did not look good for him, in the end. Or what everyone has questioned, from that day to this, as being the end or not. Kind of suspect to insist on calling your daughter Ruby, then abandon her and vanish into thin air in the middle of Ruby Falls—bad form no matter how you slice it. It could be taken as intent.
But intent to do what?
My mother had not been with us on our outing that day and the staff had had a hard time figuring out what to do with the rigid child on their hands. Understandably, they had no idea that my father had been the one to leave me alone in the cave. They figured I hadn’t come to Ruby Falls on my own—considering that I was only six years old—but no one had taken much notice of me, or whoever might have been along with me, for the first half of my descent into the cavern. When questioned, some thought they had seen me with a man. But there was no longer a man to be seen with me.
There were no security cameras to review, no credit card records to comb. There really was no way of verifying when and with whom I had entered the cave. Or who might have exited without me.
And I wasn’t saying much.
The police were called. They drove out to the mouth of the cave to have a look at the little girl who was found on her own at the bottom of it. It came to be closing time and no one knew what to do with me, so the policemen stuffed me into the back of a squad car and took me back to the station.
It was around ten o’clock that night, I later learned, after numerous hands of pinochle, when my mother understood that my father and I were not just dawdling over dinner and telephoned the precinct. Margaret Russell—her husband’s social superior in every way: birth, breeding, and means—identified herself, as if the Tennessee cop might know her. Officer Brady gave his name in reply.
And then they got down to business. Officer Brady matched up the child my mother described with the small, silent, staring creature he saw on the bench before him. Pink and green flowered shorts?—check. White eyelet short-sleeved blouse?—check. White socks, red Keds, blond pageboy haircut, and big brown eyes?—check, check, and check.
Aunt Hazel, at whose house we had been staying on our annual Southern trek to see my father’s people, drove my mother to the station to fetch me. The women floated in on drafts of Jungle Gardenia and bourbon (in fairness to them, it was after eleven p.m. by that point). All scarves and heels and shirtwaists, their pumps clattered their arrival just seconds after their scent had pre-announced them.
My mother confronted the officer. Just what did he mean by this? In the face of Peggy’s perfection—her beauty, her cat-eye glasses, her touch of eyeliner and frosted lips—he shouldered the responsibility. He was sorry, he said, for her troubles. He could not say what had happened to my father. He looked to me to save him.
And I was not talking.
Reminded of her duties by Officer Brady’s glance in my direction, my mother swished over to peer at me. I must not have looked good for, big as I was, she reached down to pick me up. For the first time in hours, my body began to uncoil. Her smell, her warmth, her vitality—her utter familiarity in a world that had become a funhouse—seeped into my cold, hard bones and, on the spot, sedated me.
I fell fast asleep in her arms.
Sometime later, my mother laid me on the back seat of Aunt Hazel’s Comet station wagon. The women took me back to my aunt’s and put me in my pjs. They ladled some broth down my throat, offered me Jell-O, which was thought to be curative, and put me to bed, where I remained for the better part of the summer.
My condition, and my father’s absence, grounded my mother and me in Chattanooga.
She, answering questions and chain-smoking.
I, face to the wall.
1
Now
1987, Roman Holiday
E llie?
Ellie?
Mrs. Eleanor Russell Montague, darling wife of mine, are you breathing?
I am standing in the catacombs in Rome, scarcely a few feet into the entryway and I find myself immobilized. I cannot step forward and I cannot step back and our tour group is moving away from us. Sweat pops out on my upper lip and trickles down my spine. And as to the particular subject of my breathing, my husband is correct. I don’t seem to be able to do it.
I…I…
I don’t want to go into details—not now, not here—with him. This happens to be our honeymoon and it isn’t the time to spoil things. I think I’m feeling queasy. Maybe it’s something I ate?
This newly minted husband of mine stands before me, looking straight at what I’m sure must be my blanched and clammy face. My beautiful new husband, Orlando. He is English, of course. Consider the elegance of the name.
When I attempt to open my mouth again, my tongue sticks to the roof of it and makes a very unattractive smacking sound before I am able to form any words.
I think I’m getting sick,
I fudge and look around for a guide. Posso uscire? Non posso scendere. Uscita, per favore? Aiuta!
The Italians are so lovely when you try to speak their language. They let you butcher it and come to your aid most graciously. I call out with a bit more volume. I try not to appear wild-eyed as I rapidly scan the room. Who the hell knows if I’m saying it right, but I really must get out of here!
A kind woman in uniform approaches me.
Si, si, signorina.
That much I understand and quickly correct her.
Signora,
I say, offering my left hand as proof. My wedding ring is so exquisitely lovely—so delicate, so tasteful, so clearly an heirloom from my husband’s family—that I proffer it to warm the heart of the guide and get her to help me out of this place as fast as she possibly can.
She appears to be nonplussed.
Nevertheless, she says, "Seguemi, Signora," and I am grateful. At least she makes me feel that I am totally normal to panic this way underground. I guess she’s seen it all. She walks briskly through a cordoned-off area to lead me away from the land of the dead and back to the realm of the living. I feel like Persephone, ending winter and initiating spring.
Are you coming?
I look back and smile sheepishly at my husband—rumpled in his tan linen suit and Borsalino fedora—and laugh a little at what I hope he’ll chalk up to my utterly charming kookiness.
Of course, darling.
Orlando is perfect. I’ve already seen the catacombs.
Orlando is perfect. He accompanies me into the sunlight. He takes me to a little café and orders wine for the two of us.
Due bicchieri da vino rosso, per favore.
Orlando’s accent is better than mine.
Certo, signore,
the waiter says.
Orlando touches my forehead. Do you think you’re coming down with something?
I know. This would be my opportunity. The perfect moment to tell my new husband about my circus sideshow of a childhood. We’ve just been in a cave. He’s seen me freak out. Now would be the time to tie it all together in a nice neat bow. One cave with the other. Cave of now with cave of yore. It is exactly the time to trot out that old tale. We could laugh about it, even. Darling, he might say, let me take care of you. Step into the void that your dear old dad has left. Dear old deadbeat dad, he might add. No, he wouldn’t do that. He is too kind to say that. It would be indelicate and might further injure what he must just be beginning to suspect is his already-injured wife.
The waiter plunks down a carafe of red and a little dish of olives.
Grazie,
I say as I readjust the olive bowl.
Prego.
He walks away.
I turn back to Orlando. I was feeling a little off this morning. Maybe it’s just a cold.
I know! I’ve blown it—have already let the moment pass. I should tell him, but I can’t. I will. I mean, of course I will. It isn’t like it’s a secret or anything. It’s just too much to go into right now. The old story. The old name, Ruby. The scene of the crime, Ruby Falls. I will tell him all of it. It’s just too ridiculous to explain right now. I will tell him when the time is right. We have a lifetime together, after all, to dig up these old skeletons.
I’m feeling better already,
I say and take as big a swig of wine as decorum permits at three o’clock in the afternoon.
I’m so happy, my love,
he says and takes a more delicate sip.
We linger there for hours, allowing the light to lapse. To intensify first in an ochre glow that centers between two buildings and catches us in the face. The sun and the wine both flush us, enhancing our honeymoon heat. We drink, we chatter, our hands find each other on the table, our knees find each other below.
When the light is gone and the wine is still flowing, we order carbonara. The Roman food of the gods. Eggs and cheese and bacon and pepper. Pasta cooked al dente. It nourishes us and comforts us and maybe it arouses us. Carbonara: soother of babies, calmer of tempers, aphrodisiac to lovers?
This is sublime, this pasta.
I have really never tasted anything quite like it and I struggle to find the words. "And it’s also subliminal. It rises from subliminal to sublime, like something imaginary becoming tangible. Right there, on your