We, Jane
By Aimee Wall
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Shortlisted for the 2022 Amazon Canada First Novel Award
Longlisted for the 2021 Scotiabank Giller Prize
Shortlisted for the 2021 BMO Winterset Award
Shortlisted for the 2021 Paragraphe Hugh MacLennan Prize for Fiction
Shortlisted for the 2021 Concordia University First Book Prize
Shortlisted for the 2022 ReLit Award for Fiction
A remarkable debut about intergenerational female relationships and resistance found in the unlikeliest of places, We, Jane explores the precarity of rural existence and the essential nature of abortion.
Searching for meaning in her Montreal life, Marthe begins an intense friendship with an older woman, also from Newfoundland, who tells her a story about purpose, about a duty to fulfill. It's back home, and it goes by the name of Jane.
Marthe travels back to a small community on the island with the older woman to continue the work of an underground movement in 60s Chicago: abortion services performed by women, always referred to as Jane. She commits to learning how to continue this legacy and protect such essential knowledge. But the nobility of her task and the reality of small-town life compete, and personal fractures within their group begin to grow.
We, Jane probes the importance of care work by women for women, underscores the complexity of relationships in close circles, and beautifully captures the inevitable heartache of understanding home.
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Title: We, Jane / Aimee Wall.
Names: Wall, Aimee, author.
Identifiers: Canadiana (print) 20210150092 | Canadiana (ebook) 20210150122 | ISBN 9781771666701 (softcover) | ISBN 9781771666718 (EPUB) | ISBN 9781771666725 (PDF)
Classification: LCC PS8645.A46642 W4 2021 | DDC C813/.6—dc23
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jane was driving east.
Jane was driving east with a big, vague plan. They were drinking gas station coffee, eating pistachio nuts. They were talking grandiose.
We, Jane, they thought. We, Jane, they started a sentence. We, Jane, they spoke manifesto. They, Jane, were still aspiring to the name, one that slips and slides, one from which, the idea was, they would do the work.
But the thing was that, even then, even by the time they had made it onto the road, Marthe was still thinking of her companion as Jane and herself as just herself, always still scrabbling her way into that We, into that Jane, believing that to be distinct from the part of her that just wanted to crawl inside the other woman, into she, Jane. But Jane was not just her, Jane was to be them. Jane a great, shifting, multitudinous thing.
Jane’s mantra: We, Jane, are only just getting started. We, Jane, are just a matter of time.This is how they imagined it would go:
Is Jane there, can I speak to Jane?
And Jane’s back. Jane’s a baygirl who’s been up in the big world and come home out of it, Jane’s got less to lose than ever, Jane had wanted to be a cyborg, she’d wanted to be above the body, but here we are.
So. Is Jane there, can I speak to Jane?
Jane burning into the parking lot. Jane with a pickup truck and the knowledge and the tools. Jane’s number scrawled on the walls of every virtual bathroom stall.
The first Jane had packed up shop. Jane’s work, it was thought, was done. But really, Jane was always still just lying in wait. Coiled, ready. Like a fist you don’t realize you’ve made.
Jane had told Marthe all her other ideas were no good. Too didactic. Marthe had been thinking herself an artist and this so much raw material. Jane told her she was never going to make anything good if she was trying to convince people of something. Marthe thought of all the ideas she’d been happily convinced of. How upfront were those agendas? She of course misremembered, she wasn’t really sure.
But what if it’s funny, Marthe asked. Then maybe, Jane said. But is that really your strong suit?
It was only when Marthe decided to write the Great Canadian Abortion Novel that she’d started having bad dreams. She had been imagining herself diligently researching, spending long days in the library surrounded by stacks of books. She had been imagining the novel as a great moment, a breakthrough, even as she wasn’t entirely sure of the revolutionary nature of anything she’d have to say on the matter. She was focused on the saying part. But she got bogged down in the research phase.
Then she thought about comedy. She could do stand-up! This was the greatest untapped source of jokes she’d ever encountered. Why would nobody joke about it with her. They all shifted uncomfortably as they made laughing sounds. Marthe just wanted to joke about it. Take the piss out of the whole thing. She did, she really did, she had examined her own urges the way a woman who’s been to a handful of therapy sessions would, just to make sure, but it really did all mostly strike her as absurd and strange. And funny! She probably couldn’t get away with actual stand-up, but maybe it could be, like, performance art stand-up, Marthe thought. Funny in an awkward, painful way.
Google search: art projects about abortion
Google search: aborted pregnancy art
Google search: abortion art
Don’t look at the image results.
A woman named Angie who live-Tweeted her abortion.
A woman named Emily who filmed hers.
A YouTube clip in which Tracey Emin sucks and gnaws on lychee berries and says about learning more about creativity from her first abortion than anything at art school.
A woman named Aliza who told Yale University that she had potentially deliberately miscarried in a serial fashion. The shit had hit the fan. How dare she bleed out of her own womb, her own pussy, what may or may not have been cells that could have become a baby. The piece was the story of the piece. Her senior project. Are you sorry for what you did to Yale? they asked.
And then, Jane.
She wasn’t Jane yet but Marthe’s backward gaze was Jane-tinted now. Jane, the sharpest eye in the room. Jane, a thatch of eyebrows meeting in the middle. She was itching and anxious till Jane.
Jane catching her eye. Jane really seeing. Jane inviting her along. Jane’s long vowels sounding like home.
A sudden wave of vague, familiar longing. Knife-sharp and then duller, aching. This is how they’d do it then. This is how they’d do something, this is how they’d go home.
Part I
1.
when jane came into her life, marthe had been living in Montreal for three years. The move had initially been an impulse, an escape from an increasingly claustrophobic St. John’s. She’d arrived with enough savings from her last restaurant job to float her for a few months, taken French classes, found waitressing jobs and people to drink in the parks with. Then she had decided to go to grad school. She never quite found her footing in that world, but she did meet a tall Danish boy in the library. Within three months, she had gotten pregnant, he had accompanied her to the Morgentaler Clinic, and they had fallen in love. Within six months, they’d moved in together, a Parc-Extension three-and-a-half they could barely fill with the suitcase each of belongings they’d both moved to the city with. Within another year and a half, Marthe had dropped out of her program and Karl had packed back up his single suitcase and moved home on a few days’ notice. Her little Montreal life was stripped bare again.
Marthe was then working in a café that served lattes with hearts drawn in the milk, and expensive eggs, the kind of place where people endlessly had their phones out, documenting their breakfast, taking selfies in the bathroom by the light of the bare bulbs hanging from the ceiling. The same couples ordered the same fourteen-dollar cocktails to start off every Sunday brunch; super-fashionable young women stole bits and pieces of the decor, walking off with a last cappuccino to go and the beautiful antique mirrors from the bathroom tucked into their supple leather totes.
She could get in the groove of it sometimes, weaving around the tables and the toddlers—so many strollers, suddenly, children everywhere—spending the morning wondering if person after person would like something to drink? Un petit jus, un café? Very occasionally she could even summon up something like charm and feel she was pulling off her part, the little Montréalaise waitress in the hip café, but her shifts were so early and mostly she felt old, exhausted by the idea of a cute outfit, a new cocktail.
She had asked for more shifts when she was dropping out of school, just months before Karl had left, and she’d gotten them, and the money wasn’t great, but it would do. This was a period of transition, she reasoned, and she was trying to relax into it, to take this time. Swan around with lattes and flirt with the customers. But she was bored, and restless, and she was crooked at work instead and she knew it showed.
A trio of girls would often come in late in the day, clearly after jamming together in some nearby loft space, and Marthe would feel a sharp longing for their little gang, their bathroom-sink bleach jobs and matching stick-and-pokes and white bobby socks with beat-up black oxfords, their bikes and their ratty guitar cases and their carefully sourced nineties windbreakers. Their shared aesthetic. Marthe had lately been envying any women she saw who seemed to be part of a clan. The old Greek ladies in sagging knee-highs shuffling out of church together at the crack of dawn; the three generations of women next door in bright salwar kameez, sitting out on their scrap of grass in plastic lawn chairs, passing a baby around; the bright-eyed recent grads she ran into here and there who were always in the midst of starting some collective or other, to make films or performances or to start an organic farm. Marthe had friends in the city, but she didn’t know how to convene a clan, so she told herself stories instead about how she was really more the lone-wolf type, anyway.
2.
One night in the early fall days after Karl’s departure, after their break-up really, though he had somehow managed to skip the part where he actually had to break up with her by simply informing her that he had bought a one-way ticket home to his country and would not be returning, Marthe had gone to an outdoor film screening in Cabot Square. She’d gone alone, joining a crowd of mostly women sitting on blankets and little folding chairs at one end of the park, its usual occupants crowded out down into the other end.
The film was a documentary about a Dutch doctor who travelled by boat to countries where abortion was illegal, picking up women and administering the abortion pill to them on board, back out in international waters. They went to Ecuador and unfurled a banner off the Virgin of El Panecillo with a number to a hotline that would give instructions on inducing a miscarriage. It was all more spectacle than practical, really; it was media attention, the ship a galvanizing force for frenzied activists on both sides. But they were doing something. Marthe had heard about the ship before but hadn’t known they were using the pill. She had been imagining a kind of miniature surgical theatre on board something that turned out to be the size of a crab boat. Really, the doctor was just there to monitor women who took a pill, illegal in their countries, that made them bleed. Adjust the blanket around their shoulders. All that fuss for that.
Partway through the film, Marthe noticed a man standing just to the side of the screen, facing the wrong way. He had dark circles under his eyes, an otherwise pasty white face, a shaved head. Camo pants and a scruffy black backpack. One hand on the handlebars of a beater bicycle. He was surveying the crowd. Marthe drew her knees tighter to her chest. The pigeons flustered around his feet and he was motionless, scowling. She tried to return her attention to the screen, where a mob of similarly twisted white male faces were spitting mad screaming at the little crab boat as it tried to dock in Poland. But the man remained at his station, just to the left of her peripheral vision. At a crescendo in the film, as the women on board tried to dock the boat, tried to find some way through the angry mass on shore, the man suddenly wrenched the backpack off his back and threw it to the ground and Marthe flinched, ducked her head. But nothing happened. He put one foot on the bag and kept scowling theatrically and the woman next to Marthe thrust her chin in the man’s direction and then shook her head, and Marthe relaxed slightly, smiled at her. Shook her own head at herself. They were in Montreal. It was not likely.
When the film ended, a woman got up with a microphone to introduce someone connected with the boat doctor, and the crowd thinned quickly. Those remaining, Marthe among them, slid a little closer.
There was a dampening Q and A, a lot of fired-up audience members wondering how they could join up, as if it were a navy fleet, and the guest speaker smilingly shrugging that there was no real way to join up or work with this particular group, apart from giving them money and attention. It wasn’t a fleet. Marthe wished they at least had ambitions of a fleet. Something. The crowd stirred and mumbled. It was starting to turn. Marthe was itching again. The women felt like she did, maybe. It had been two years, but Marthe was still angry at the indignity of it all, at the insistence of the physical body. She wanted there to be a fight about it. She wanted to join up but there was nothing to join.
3.
Marthe wanted there to be a fight about it but really, she’d gotten off relatively easy. Marthe had been pregnant for seven weeks but only knew about it for the final thirteen days. Thirteen days in which she had become obsessed with the now-glaring fact of her mammality—was that even a word—it was all she wanted to talk about, it had really only just occurred to her then, her mammality and her heavy little breasts and her bloated little belly, she had felt heavy, milky, full already. During those same days she had begun to receive messages online from a tall, lanky boy who had been, briefly, back home, a lover, years before, except she never would have used that word then, so European, he was a Christmas boyfriend, home in Newfoundland for a few weeks and then gone again.
The messages related the information that he had recently discovered that his dick could reach his mouth, or, Marthe extrapolated,