Over the Line
By David Lloyd
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Fifteen-year-old Justin Lyle does not see in himself the qualities he admires in heroes like his paternal grandfather, awarded a medal of honor during World War II, or in the fictional heroes of television and comic books. Growing up in the declining manufacturing town of East Liberty, New York—beset by unemployment, rising crime, and an influx of drugs, and encircled by struggling dairy farms—Justin feels isolated and decidedly unheroic. These feelings are intensified by his parents’ divorce, his longing for an unattainable girl, and the death, eight years previous but still a potent memory, of his infant brother. When Justin steps "over the line" one afternoon, attempting to help the drug-addled girlfriend of an unstable bully, he triggers a series of increasingly perilous encounters. By week’s end, Justin has been drawn into his community’s sinister underworld and compelled to unexpected action and a fresh understanding of the complexities of heroism.
The author of Boys: Stories and a Novella, Lloyd again illustrates his pitch-perfect ear for capturing the detached vernacular and emotional angst of adolescence. Lloyd brings to life the trials of a small, Upstate New York town, creating a story that is as real as it is fictional.
David Lloyd
The late David Lloyd was an enthusiastic local historian who studied at Oxford under W.G. Hoskins. Though born and brought up in Ludlow, across the county boundary, he knew Worcestershire all his life, much of which was spent in that part of south Birmingham which was once part of the historic county. Whilst working as a schoolmaster and a College of Education lecturer, he took classes for many years, for the Department of Continuing Studies of Birmingham University, at Bewdley, Bromsgrove and Chaddersley Corbett; and he was well known as a visiting speaker in several other parts of Worcestershire. He most recently lived in Ludlow, where he was Mayor, a member of the District and County Councils and a Director of Ludlow Festival.
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Over the Line - David Lloyd
1
Sunday
I WAS ON MY WAY to the fridge for a soda when I saw something through the front window that made me stop and stare: a skinny girl walking, and sometimes stumbling, down the middle of our street. That would be strange to see at any time, but especially on a Sunday afternoon, and especially in my neighborhood. She was wearing jeans and a flannel shirt with the tail hanging out. Her greasy black hair, parted in the middle, fell around her hunched shoulders. She stopped, for no reason I could figure out, exactly in front of our house. Walking or standing, she kept her shoulders hunched, like she had to protect her skinny neck. I thought about calling Dad, but could hear him talking upstairs on the phone, so I just kept an eye on her through the window. When she looked around, first away from me but then toward me, I knew who she was: a spooky girl from school named Vera Knight, Del Blake’s girlfriend—a girl who didn’t live anywhere near me.
A Ford Focus slowed to a stop behind Vera and honked once—old Mrs. Abbott, a neighbor from down the street driving to her daughter’s house as she did every Sunday. Vera turned, and lazily stuck out and lifted her middle finger. The car slowly crept in a wide circle around Vera. Mrs. Abbott never did anything fast—walking, talking, or driving—and she obviously wanted to keep her distance. I couldn’t blame her for that. I could see her old-lady head gawking as she drove. After ten or so more halting steps Vera turned, checked around herself, and started back the way she’d just come. Then she really stumbled—like she’d tripped on air, or like someone had cut the invisible strings holding her up—and fell to her hands and knees on the pavement. That had to hurt. I thought she’d just stand back up, brush herself off, and keep staggering. Instead, she stayed down on all fours, like a dog too exhausted to move.
You OK?
I asked.
She jerked her head up then scanned around, as if looking for a place to crawl to, and I saw a wet, yellow-brown stain down the front of her shirt. I breathed in a sour whiff of beer and vomit.
I said, are you OK?
This time she looked directly at me, squinting.
You’re in my school, right? Your name’s Vera. I’ve seen you around.
She dropped her head, then raised it up, which I guess meant yes.
When she finally spoke, the words were slow and slurred. Where . . . am I?
Erie St. You know, in East Liberty.
Where’s . . . the car?
What car?
She stood up awkwardly. Del’s. They . . . dumped me.
Because you got sick?
She did her droopy-head nod. Her shirt sleeve was ripped at the elbow, and a grass stain covered most of one pant leg. Could Del and his friends really have thrown her out of a car because she got sick?
Those guys,
she said. She laughed, loud and sharp, more a cough than a laugh. Those guys. Assholes. They shoot squirrels. They snort and shoot and snort. Makes my nose burn. But squirrels are fast.
She laughed again. Squirrels jump.
Yeah,
I said, not knowing what else to say. They can jump all right.
She lifted her hands, studied one palm then the other, and held out both for me to look at.
Jesus,
I said, you’re bleeding. You skinned your hands.
Then she did a strange thing. She licked her palm from the base to the top of her middle finger and held the hand in front of her mouth as she considered the taste. She winced. She pulled her hands into fists at her sides.
They hurt,
she said.
Yeah, you need to clean them up.
You,
she said.
Suddenly she could focus, and looked me directly in the eyes.
Why? Why you, anyways?
Me?
—I didn’t like how she suddenly got personal. What did I do?
Why do you see me?
she said loudly. What’s to see?
I don’t know what you’re saying.
Tell me why. Why they dumped me.
I wasn’t there. I don’t know.
You know,
she said.
"I don’t know." I felt like I was talking to a four-year-old. A four-year-old with really slurred speech. Why should I know what psychos in a car are thinking? And what was I supposed to do about it?
The road,
she said.
What?
Where’s . . . the road?
You mean Route 8?
She nodded.
Straight ahead, first right, then the next left.
I realized this was too much information for her to absorb.
It’s a five-minute walk. Is that where they dumped you? Route 8? Is that where you walked from?
Yeah, the road. Where’s the road?
That’s when I understood I didn’t have a choice about what to do.
Come in the house,
I said. I took a deep breath. That’s the best thing. My dad’s home. Come in and use the phone. I live there.
I pointed behind me. Your dad could pick you up and take you home.
In fact I’d never seen or heard anything about Vera’s parents, though we lived in a small town. It was as if she didn’t have any. Or brothers or sisters.
Bandages,
she said. For my head.
She laughed. I need them.
Your head? You hurt your head?
She laughed again—a loud cackle-laugh. It’s all busted up in there,
she said. A bazillion pieces. I’m whacked in there.
Then she turned and lurched away, zigzagging down the middle of the street, faster this time. She didn’t look back.
When she’d followed the curve of the road out of my sight, I ran up the steps to my front door, opened it, and stood for a few seconds in the doorway, looking back at the empty street.
It felt good to get away from that creepy girl, her creepy problems, her nauseating smells. I could hear Dad still on the phone in the upstairs hall. I thought about what might happen next. Either Vera would get lost again, and maybe in her confusion end up staggering back to my street, or else she’d find Route 8, and then what? Maybe stagger down the middle of it, flipping off cars, until someone speeding around a blind curve would slam into her—that road had lots of blind curves and no one obeyed the speed limit.
I walked to the kitchen and found a soda in the fridge—the last ginger ale—and sat on a chair. I tried to remember what TV shows would be on after dinner. Then my mind went blank, and I leapt up and took off out the front door, jumping the steps in one leap, running after Vera. Just as I caught sight of Route 8, I stopped to catch my breath. And there she was at the roadside getting into a car—an old Pontiac Grand Prix. She sort of fell into the back seat, an arm yanked the door shut, and the car sped off.
Back in the house Dad was off the phone. I was going to run up to tell him about Vera, but just stood at the bottom of the stairs, thinking.
Dad isn’t the type who can let things go. He likes to hang on. He’d get this concerned furrow in his brow, purse his lips, then come up with lots of questions, so I’d end up telling him everything. He’d press for details. He’d need to find out where she lived and phone her family. He’d ask if I knew who was driving the car. A man or woman? Or was it boys in the car? How old were they? He’d want to drive up and down Route 8 looking for the car to make sure Vera was OK. If she wasn’t OK, he’d need to do something about that. He might even call our town cop Jack Boland to tell him what happened. He’d want to do something because a drunk girl who’d been snorting up, wandering alone on a Sunday afternoon in our neighborhood, just wasn’t right. And Dad needs things to be right.
It didn’t sit right with me either, it’s true, but if I told my dad anything, this wouldn’t end with Vera getting driven away. It would go on . . . and on and on.
2
Sunday
ON SUNDAYS BEFORE DINNER Dad and I always took the same walk: along Route 8 for a mile or so, then back. As usual, Dad was walking fast along the roadside—no sidewalks out there—taking long strides, so I had to work to keep up even though I’m almost as tall as him. He was in full talking mode. Enrollment at the community college was down because young people were leaving East Liberty. They were leaving because farms and businesses were moving south or west, or going bankrupt: the brewery, the sawmill a few weeks after that, the candle factory, the meat packing plant three months later, then the Marietta plant, when Mom left, though Dad didn’t mention Mom. Mom is always around, and never around.
And what’s going up on the corn fields?
Dad said. Walmart, that’s what. And junk housing. Cookie cutter developments or McMansions sprouting like . . .
he couldn’t get the words but finally came out with, . . . like cold sores.
Thanks for putting that image in my mind, Dad.
Well, it’s true. Not pretty, but true. And who are these people, anyway? Who’s moving into those mini-mansions? You never see them in the downtown stores, or what’s left of downtown. Where’d they come from? Are they invisible? Where do they work to make all their money? Why do they want to live next to us? And why do they need to be lords of the manor? You know what Jack Boland calls that kind of house?
What?
A parachute palace.
Why?
Looks like a plane dropped it out of the sky.
The junk developments and parachute palaces I could do without, but I wasn’t sure about Walmart. At least Walmart might have jobs after high school for guys like Rusty Taylor or Fred Gardiner or Donny Schill. It’s a place where bankrupt farmers could buy shingles to patch up their roofs now that Hartnett’s Hardware had closed. Where they could find cheap clothes for their kids. Where old people could get coffee and a slice of pizza. Jesus, Dad, it’s not so easy! I said to myself.
There was a new McMansion in a field on the left—part of the old Osbourne farm. The Osbournes kept their farmhouse, the barn, and three acres, and sold the rest. We’d watched the McMansion get built during our Sunday walks, with Dad commenting on each phase. I heard the owner’s a Syracuse lawyer,
Dad said. He must have paid hundreds of thousands to build that thing. But it’s cheap. Cheap masquerading as expensive, fake pretending to be real. Everyone’s supposed to be fooled.
The beautiful
chimney was an inch of fake stone over concrete blocks, with prefab units trucked in for the insides of the house. It was strange to see it finished, with eight little roofs, a three-car garage, a row of trimmed bushes along the walk to the front door. No real trees; just spick-and-span boulders plunked here and there. Boulders without a speck of moss.
Remember Hartnett’s?
I asked.
Of course,
Dad said. That closed last year, didn’t it?
And remember that old guy who sat in the folding chair outside the front door, drinking from a bottle in a paper bag?
George Andrews.
Dad laughed. George had something of a drinking problem.
So Hartnett let him get drunk outside his store? And the cops ignored it? Isn’t that illegal?
Dad thought about this. George never bothered anyone. He was always polite. He just didn’t have anywhere to go. He sat outside that store ever since I can remember—he’d been friends with Hartnett’s father. He liked watching people come and go while he drank his Mogen David. Nodding hello, nodding goodbye. His major problem was getting himself up out of that chair to have a pee in Hartnett’s toilet, then finding his way down the aisle to the chair without wrecking the place. Remember how packed Hartnett’s shelves used to be?
What happened to him anyway? When the store shut down he just disappeared.
I don’t know,
Dad said. Where does a guy like that go? A guy who can hardly get up out of a chair.
We walked a while without talking. And as we walked, my eyes followed the road edge, where ahead of us, half on the road, half on the grass, lay a dead squirrel, legs splayed as if he was swimming. His grayish fur was weirdly matted, though it hadn’t rained for a week. A trail of blood led from his mouth into the grass, but his ears and paws were small and delicate, like on a stuffed toy. Something had pulled an eye out from the empty red socket. A crow maybe. Or turkey vulture. His tail was missing. That was odd, I thought. What kind of scavenger eats just the tail? Because he was on his side, I could see the white fuzz of his underbelly—and a little black hole, a pellet gun hole.
We reached the stretch of road bordered by one of the really old tumble-down stone walls you see on upstate roads, held together by gravity and luck, since they didn’t use cement. It was late September, but would be warm the whole week, Indian summer before the real cold settles around East Liberty. Already the leaves along Route 8 were turning orange, red, and gold, and farmers had cut their corn down to yellow stalks. The roadsides were crammed with black-eyed Susans and milkweed: Mom taught me those names—along with the name of every bird in our neighborhood—back when she came along on our walks.
Then I blurted out the question on my mind that’s always lurking in some corner, no matter what I’m doing.
Dad, why did Mom leave?
He looked at me, surprised to hear that question on a Sunday walk. We’ve talked about this, Justin. You know why. Gerald. Because of Gerald.
Gerald isn’t so great. I don’t get Gerald.
Dad smiled. The truth is,
he said, your mother thinks I’m not as
—he paused—not as demonstrative as she’d like.
So Gerald is Mr. Demonstrative?
Apparently.
Can I call him that next time I see him?
No, you can’t.
OK,
I said. So go on.
I love your mother. Showing it was the problem. I mean, showing it in ways she noticed. Or that . . . that were possible for me. Your mother needed something different than I could give.
Dad shook his head. And, of course, there was little Mike. That was . . . well, you know that was hard.
Dad wasn’t smiling now. His shoulders slumped, his pace slowed. My brother Michael died in his crib, just two months old. You’d think losing a child might bring a family closer, not break it apart. I didn’t think Dad understood what went wrong in his marriage any more than me. I’m not even sure my mom knew what went wrong. It involved Gerald, but it was bigger than him. Even bigger than losing little Mike. Poor Dad, I thought. Mom still says I love you
to me, but not to him. He must sometimes sit down and wonder, how the hell did that happen?
Up ahead I saw a car turn slowly onto our road at the top of the hill. Dad didn’t notice because he’d retreated deep into his head. It’s familiar territory. As an English professor he spends a lot of time in there.
When Dad started up again about him and Mom, my eyes were on the car, snaking left and right. It never crossed the center line, or veered too near the roadside ditch. But whoever was driving wasn’t driving too well.
I’m better at talking about feelings than I used to be,
Dad said. Better, but not there yet. The other thing is, your mother’s so much younger. And it didn’t help that she was my student when we met. It’s just how things were back then.