The Anxious Language Learner: A Saudi Woman's Story
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An expert in the anxiety that often accompanies learning a foreign language, Dr. Taghreed M. Al-Saraj, takes you on the personal journey that led to the shocking discovery of her own language anxiety. She also unravels mi
Taghreed M. Al-Saraj
Dr. Al-Saraj is an international educational researcher in applied linguistics, a best-selling author, and an entrepreneur. She is the founder and director of EducateRight an educational consultancy and women's leadership coaching company. Dr. Al-Saraj is trilingual and has strong communication skills, a public speaker, a self-motivated leader, and a great multi-cultural team worker. She has vast experience with different educational systems around the world including USA, UK, Saudi Arabia, Turkey, and Japan. Her areas of expertise include research, teacher training, program analysis, and problem-solving for different educational institutions around the world.
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The Anxious Language Learner - Taghreed M. Al-Saraj
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2A Lifestyle of Learning
Once you stop learning, you start dying.
I’ve adopted this beautiful quote from Albert Einstein as one of my mottos in life.
I love learning. I get energized walking through college and university campuses. The idea of individuals being educated and enlightened—and therefore empowered to take charge of their destiny—makes my heart sing. As I write this, I’m living in California to conduct post-doctoral studies at the University of California, Berkeley—and I am the first Saudi Arabian woman to work as a post-doc at this university. When friends come to visit me, my idea of fun is to first give them a tour of the Berkeley campus, and then go to Stanford University. I want them to see what I see: Empowerment! I have the good fortune of being invited to give talks at universities all over the world, and when I do, I’m consumed by joy and happiness. I’ve visited some fine universities, including Waseda University in Japan, Harvard, Georgetown, Oxford, Yale, most of the University of London compasses, Cardiff University, Leeds Metropolitan University, Yıldız Technical University in Turkey, and probably a dozen more.
When it comes to a love for learning, my mother is my greatest role model. Although her marriage to my father was arranged when she was only 13 years old, she ultimately earned her university degree while raising a family of four children and running a busy household. She demonstrated the importance of education to me and my three siblings, and we took it seriously.
In Saudi Arabia in the 1960s and 1970s, it was common to marry very young. My father had joined the Royal Saudi Arabian Navy and was sent to Karachi University in Pakistan to study mechanical engineering. Halfway through his studies, he took a short break and went back to Saudi. While he was there, his brother-in-law—his sister’s husband—suggested that he knew of the perfect bride for my dad. My dad and his brother-in-law went to see my grandfather together, to ask for my mom’s hand in marriage. The day my dad asked for my mom’s hand in marriage was also the day they met! My grandmother advised my mom that the groom, my father, had a bright future and would be a good husband. Upon meeting my dad, who also happened to be quite handsome, my mom agreed to the marriage. The wedding took place a week later, and then my dad went back to Pakistan with his new bride. His friends were shocked that he had gotten married while he was away on a weeklong break.
This scenario might seem shocking to Western readers, and it might even seem unpleasant. However, I believe much of the negativity tied to arranged marriages is due to misconceptions or stereotypes of how arranged marriages work. At least in Saudi, arranged
doesn’t always mean that a girl’s parents choose her future husband. Sometimes a friend or family member makes a suggestion for a future wife or husband. Westerners tend to think that men and women whose marriages are arranged don’t see one other until the wedding. That’s a misconception. Not only do we see each other, but we have a say as to whether or not we want to marry the person.
Just a year after my mom was married, when she was only 14, I was born. She was alone a lot because Dad was in the navy and was often away on assignment for an extended period of time. To fill the gap, she spent time at the homes of Saudi friends who were living and studying in Pakistan. She enrolled in school with them—and fell in love with learning. My mother continued her studies when we went back to Saudi Arabia, and when it was time to study for exams, she sent me to stay with my grandparents in the western part of our country. I was still too young to attend school myself, and my grandmother took me everywhere with her. I particularly loved when we visited with her friends. The group of women sat in a circle, talking—and I sat on the side, listening.
We are each a product of our environment. My siblings and I grew up with learning all around us, so it’s difficult for me to understand those who choose not to pursue their education. My mom is currently a high school principal. She is my inspiration, and has always told me, Your education is your secret weapon.
I remember one time when I was very young, I told my father I didn’t want to go to school because I didn’t feel well.
Are you dying?
he asked.
No,
I replied.
Then you’re going,
he said in his military voice.
The importance of education was not to be questioned. Years later, the tables turned: I needed to have minor sinus surgery when I was a senior in high school. Early in the morning, my father brought me to the hospital and waited for me. When the surgery was over, he told me he was taking me home.
Oh no! I can’t go home … I have an exam in two days,
I pleaded. I need to go to school and get that lesson. I can’t miss it.
You’re allowed to go back home after having surgery,
replied my dad.
No, please, just drop me off at school,
I begged.
And so to school I went. After all, I wasn’t dying. Besides, I intended to get perfect grades because I wanted to go into medicine, so I couldn’t miss my class.
Perhaps by now you’ve realized I’m not the typical Saudi Arabian woman. Or, perhaps you don’t know any other Saudi women but you recognize that I don’t fit with the images portrayed by the media. I guess I’ve known since I was a child that I was a bit different. I realized that I wanted more from life than all my female friends, and that I see life very differently from how other Arab women see theirs. I was the firstborn in a Middle Eastern family, a female, and I had an innate need to prove to my parents that I could do as much as—and even more than—any boy could do. My father never expressed that he wanted a boy; yet, I wanted to prove to him he can count on me in everything. I am fortunate to have a dad who gave me the space and the freedom to be independent.
The typical Arab female is groomed for marriage from an early age. Growing up, I hated that! I was surrounded by friends who dreamed of the day they would marry and have kids. But not me. Those were not my dreams. I used to think to myself, They’ll never know what they’re missing. I won’t put my life on hold waiting for some guy.
And wouldn’t you know it? I was married at age 18. I didn’t know my (then future) husband before he came to see me at my parents’ home with the intent of marrying me. We call this the seeing.
My husband’s father had passed away, so he brought his mother and older brother with him. We all sat down in the same room, and my husband and I saw each other for the first time! Neither of us was obligated to agree to marriage, but I guess each of us liked what we saw. We’re both Western-educated and he has always encouraged my pursuit of education. Throughout our marriage, we’ve shared the value of education as well as pursued our educational goals and other dreams. We have three beautiful boys: our twins, Rayan and Kenan, and, Aban, our youngest.
There’s a saying that we are our own worst enemy, and I am no exception. I’ve always pushed myself, sometimes to the brink, in order to succeed. Another one of my mottos is, If you don't succeed once, try, try again!
If I fail at something, I look at how I can do it differently. There were times when I was ready to call it quits, throw in the towel and not complete my Ph.D. But, I knew I’d never forgive myself if I didn’t pursue my dreams and I wanted to complete that research and earn that degree. I’ve driven myself to tears many times, wondering why I’ve pushed myself so hard. Only recently, I finally learned the answer to that question, when I was a participant in a life coach training program. Drive is linked to one’s purpose, one’s motivation. Helping others is my purpose, my fuel. It’s my reason for getting out of bed every morning. Every once in a while, my husband poses the same question: Why don’t you just stay home, not work, take it easy—and have fun?
My answer to him? "I am having fun! Who says I am not having fun?" My motivation is probably different than most others’, but aren’t we all different (and special) in our own unique way?
Oh, don’t get me wrong. I have girlfriends and I love going out with them. But that’s not the most important thing to me, and my friends know it. Taghreed is the problem solver,
my girlfriends say about me. The role of problem solver is one I’ve played since I was a child, and it’s one that brings me great joy. When I was as young as 13, whenever my mom, my siblings, and I were traveling to meet my dad—wherever he was stationed at the time—I would take it upon myself to take care of seating assignments and boarding passes at the ticket counter so my mother could stay with my younger siblings. I spoke fluent English at the time and was more outspoken than my mother. I had no problem communicating with the airline check-in people, whether in France, Pakistan, or the United States.
A few years later, our family spent two months driving across the United States. (Unlike me, my father loves the great outdoors and camping.) This was before the days of GPS, so each evening we’d plan the following day’s route on a map. The next day, Dad would drive and I’d navigate. If we got lost, I was the one to ask for directions, a task I relished. I think having this sort of responsibility and freedom made me who I am: a fiercely independent woman who can do anything she sets her mind to.
I’m proud to say I’ve achieved success without compromising my Islamic religion and culture. I have never consumed alcohol nor have I smoked. I pray five times a day and fast during Ramadan (the holy month of fasting for Muslims), no matter where I am in the world. I can still be a devoted Muslim and a traditional Saudi female (a good wife and loving mother) while I conquer the world in my own way.
As a naval diplomat, my father was stationed in numerous countries around the world, so we moved frequently. I feel so fortunate to have had this experience, and I can only assume that the variety of experiences I had with my family in these countries helped me grow into the woman I am today. When I was only 7 years old, my family moved to Washington, D.C., in the United States. (I’ll discuss this more in Chapter Three.) We moved back to Saudi Arabia when I was ready to enter secondary school. The differences in the classroom were a complete shock. Teaching—and learning—in Saudi Arabia