Losing Cadence
By Laura Lovett
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When Cadence Weaverly graduates from high school, she thinks it’s for the best that she and her boyfriend, Richard White, take separate paths: she to Julliard and he back to Harvard. Ten years later, she has an ideal job and a wonderful fiancé, Christian. She is building the life of her dreams—until the day Richard resurfaces
Laura Lovett
Laura Lovett is a Doctor of Psychology and serial entrepreneur. An accomplished author in the academic and business world, she pursued her love of creative writing to pen her first novel, Losing Cadence, which became a Calgary Herald Best Seller. This much-anticipated sequel, Finding Sophie, is Laura's second novel. Laura lives in Calgary, Alberta, with her husband, three children, and miniature American Eskimo dog, Ghost. Her businesses include Canada Career Counselling, Work EvOHlution and the Leadership Success Group. In her free time, she enjoys wine, squash, golf, walks, hot tubbing, the Rocky Mountains and travel.
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Losing Cadence - Laura Lovett
Chapter One
We’re home, my love.
The husky voice seemed distant, yet vaguely familiar. I heard only faint sounds amidst the dark fog that swirled around in my mind. I didn’t know where I was, as my eyes remained clamped shut. My body felt limp and desperately weak. I tried to pull my heavy eyelids apart, but to no avail. I willed my mouth to open, to utter a sound. Nothing. My tongue was heavy in my mouth. Everything was black. I’m going to be sick, I thought.
My love, the love of my life, my Cadence,
uttered a deep male voice in my ear. I’m going to carry you, my love.
I felt warm arms around me, lifting me out into the rain. I shivered fiercely from the bitter cold. Was it night? There was no light through my closed eyelids. I tried again to open my mouth, to ask where I was, but the words would not form. Who was he?
My nausea materialized into violent vomiting. I could feel the man’s strong arms holding me up, bracing me. My body heaved and convulsed, and I felt as though I was breaking into pieces. It’s okay, darling, you’ll feel better soon,
said the deep voice over and over as I heaved for what felt like an eternity. Then everything went black again.
* * * * *
I woke up slowly, sensing that I was tucked into a soft bed. This time my eyes were able to open a fraction. Shapes swam before my eyes, the images vague and blurry. I could see white all around me: white bed, white walls, white door. I tried to move, but my body refused to cooperate. I knew, somewhere in the back of my mind, that I was heavily drugged.
The white around me gave the sensation of being outside in a snow storm. A memory flashed back to me from childhood, of making snow angels in the deep, pillowy layers of freshly fallen snow. My eyes slowly scanned the blurry room and narrowed in on something that was not white, it was black. A camera mounted in the corner of the room, high up near the ceiling, its lens focusing down on me, on my every movement. A watchful eye staring into a room of white, focusing on a drugged woman who couldn’t move. Where on earth was I? Then the door slowly opened.
Hello, Miss Weaverly,
whispered a woman’s voice with a slight accent that sounded Spanish. Welcome home. I saw that you were waking up, so I came to check on you. How are you feeling?
I couldn’t make out her features, but could see that she was wearing white and her hair was dark.
H…h…he…
I tried to make out a word, hello or help, which turned out to be of little consequence as I couldn’t speak.
Don’t try to speak. Just get some sleep and you’ll feel much better tomorrow.
She came beside my bed and I felt a glass touch my lips. The stream of smooth, cool water cascaded down my parched throat. The mere act of drinking water exhausted me, so I fell back asleep. I dreamed about playing my flute on a hilltop and standing on the deck of my childhood home, making beautiful songs through my instrument as the birds sang along with me.
The next dream that floated into my mind was about my family. I dreamed about my mom, dad, sister and brother, all around the dinner table. Outside it was snowing heavily, a blizzard of white. I ran out onto the deck and looked up into the white abyss of the sky. I felt the snow falling on my face, caressing me gently with thick flakes of cool white cotton. This dream continued until I crossed the border between sleep and wakefulness, and opened my eyes to see two green ones starting back at me intensely. My body began to shake with fear.
Cadence, my love, we’re finally together. This is the happiest day of my life,
he said quietly, only inches away from my ear. He was so close that I could smell the warm scent of mint on his breath. "You look so beautiful, Cadence, so peaceful, and now you’re finally home."
The recognition came slowly, but once it fully hit, I froze in terror. This must be a dream. I opened my mouth to scream, but only a fearful whisper came out. R…R…Rich…ard?
Yes, my love?
Wh…Wh…Why?
I tried to ask my question. Why on earth was I here? Was this a dream? This couldn’t be real. I had dated Richard in high school for a few months. This didn’t make any sense. It had been ten years since I had seen or heard of him!
"Shhh, my love, we’ll have plenty of time to talk later. I want you to get some more rest now. You had a long night and were very ill. I’m just going to sit here and watch over you while you sleep. Oh, how I love you, more than anything in the world. I’ve waited so long for this moment!" He heaved a long, fulfilled sigh as his large, warm hand stroked my hair, my face. He traced the line of my lips. I wanted to bite, to scream, but my body fell back into the comfort of sleep, dreams and denial.
Chapter Two
What is your most important future goal?
This was a difficult question to ask a group of seventeen- and eighteen-year-olds. We all sat with pens in hand, staring at the question we were completing for the yearbook committee. I couldn’t think of an answer off the top of my head. Graduation was coming and, like most grade twelve girls, my main focus was on prom night. Although I had started planning my career, the distant future was the last thing on my mind as I anticipated prom night and dreamed about what it would be like to go away to college.
Cadence, isn’t this ridiculous?
whispered my best friend, Danielle. Why does the yearbook committee ask these questions? The answers are going to be beside our pictures forever! What if we don’t know what our goals are? Once we start college we can worry about all that. Now’s the time to let loose, have fun and enjoy the last time in our lives without major responsibilities.
Danielle didn’t like talking about her future career, because she didn’t have a clue what it might be. For her, it was an anxiety-provoking topic of conversation. Danielle’s parents were frustrated by her lack of a career decision, with any conversation on the topic ending in a screaming match and tears. Danielle’s main focus was on having fun, and doing well enough academically so that she could attend a decent college and get away from her parents.
Yep,
I said. But it’ll be funny to see these in the future, you know, see what happened to all of our friends and to actually find out if any of us meet our goals or if we end up doing something totally different,
I whispered back, with a smile.
We were from a mid-size high school in Mountain View, Montana. Mountain View was a small, quiet city nestled among rolling hills and framed by the nearby mountains. Those of us going out of state to college were excited about leaving Montana, at least for a while, and experiencing a new state. I was thrilled to be going to The Julliard School to pursue my flute playing. New York would be an amazing place to live for a few years and so different from my sleepy hometown. I had played the flute for as long as I could remember, since age seven to be exact. I was truly passionate about my instrument and had excelled at it, winning many state music competitions. I practiced for hours every day, but never thought I would achieve this level of success. I won a scholarship to attend The Julliard School, and was bursting with excitement ever since I found out. Getting away from my parents, who were annoying these days, would be wonderful but scary. I loved them, but they always questioned where I was going and who I was with. It would be good to get away and be free.
I started writing. The limit was two sentences given the space constraints of the typical high school yearbook. I wrote that my goal was to: Record at least five CDs, be a well-known soloist and live on an acreage in Montana. I also want to have a happy family, with at least three children. I smiled to myself, envisioning a house in the countryside with large windows overlooking the mountains, and beautiful rolling hills with deer wandering around my property. I imagined my kids playing in a lush green yard and a husband, although not my current boyfriend.
Richard and I had been dating for a couple of months, and would definitely be going our separate ways before he went back to Harvard and I went to Julliard. It was all for the best, I kept telling myself. We got along well enough, and had some good times, but I could not see him as a long-term boyfriend. His intensity and peculiarity, which had originally intrigued me, were now becoming unnerving. He was so serious and focused, and always seemed to be thinking and analyzing. And when he stared at me, it was as if he was trying to read my every thought, which unsettled me. He had no idea that I felt this way, and was intent on us having a long-distance relationship.
Richard was three years older than me. He was the only child of an extremely wealthy family, having moved to Mountain View from Boston five years ago. He described his parents, Alexander and Constance White, as different and reclusive. They only had acquaintances and were extremely private people, which explained why Richard had no close friends. When I asked Richard about his home life as a kid, he would shake his head and say, Don’t go there, Cadence.
Being naturally curious, I tried to ask him in different ways about what his parents were like, and about his friends, but he always cut me off and changed the subject. I felt like I didn’t know much about Richard at all. In contrast, I was very open about my childhood and answered all his questions about my life. He was keenly interested in everything about me, but it felt awkward as it was so one-sided.
When Richard was sixteen, his father died suddenly from a brain aneurism. His mother, reeling from the loss, returned to her hometown of Mountain View to grieve, bringing her reluctant son with her. Heartbreakingly, just after Richard graduated from high school, his mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and prescribed a course of chemotherapy. He postponed going to college to look after her. The following year his mother seemed to be on the mend, so he made the decision to enter the Harvard School of Business, following in his father’s footsteps. But misfortune struck again, and midway through the year he found out that the cancer had spread to his mother’s brain, and that her prognosis was grim. He finished out the semester and rushed back to be with her.
Although he wouldn’t talk about his relationship with his mother, it was clear that Richard was fiercely loyal and compelled to be with her when she needed him the most. During these months she became progressively worse and began losing her memory. She opted to have live-in home care, and although Richard considered returning to Harvard, he dismissed the idea and chose to stay home and support his mother.
What had drawn me to this quiet, intense guy was the compassion he demonstrated. I found his kindness and dedication to his mother overwhelming, and was intrigued by the idea of getting to know him. Richard was passionate and unique. Maybe it was his drive, or his intense focus on everything he did. It was difficult to pinpoint, but the energy was strong when he was around.
Richard was a very good-looking guy. He was six foot two, and had been quite athletic growing up. He never played team sports, preferring solitary pursuits like long-distance running and swimming. He was competitive and won many races. Since the age of sixteen he was dedicated to waking up at 5:00 a.m. so he could work out for two hours before school, a habit which he stuck to even now. He had also attained a black belt in karate, which he had practiced religiously in the evenings when he was in high school. Richard had impeccable posture and emanated a very high level of energy, which added to the intensity of his personality. He was very careful about what he ate, being unusually regimented about his health for a guy his age. He never ate junk food, saying that he needed to feed his brain and body in a way that would allow him to attain all of his goals. I found this very anal and extreme.
In addition to his very fit body, Richard had thick, blond hair and gorgeous deep green eyes, and was not without his share of admiring glances from other women when we went on dates. Richard was also incredibly smart, an A
student, excelling in his first year at the Harvard School of Business. I remembered reading his high school yearbook goal from three years earlier, which was to: Achieve billionaire status by the time I’m thirty-five.
In addition to being handsome, Richard was definitely the most driven person I knew, and at twenty-one already had his life mapped out. On one of our earlier dates he explained how he wanted a family. Cadence, they will be raised in an incredible house, even bigger than where I grew up. I want to give them all that their heart’s desire. And whoever I marry will be the happiest woman alive,
he said, as he stared intensely into my eyes. My love and passion will never taper off in my marriage, like what seems to happen in most. I will be with my wife forever,
he stated. The tone of his voice made me uneasy, so I changed the subject to something lighter. My mindset was definitely not that far ahead into the future, and he acted like he was much older than he really was.
In fact, these types of awkward conversations continued to happen, almost to the point where Richard was becoming obsessive about planning his future. I recalled my older sister, Sandra, telling me about a new man in her life who had begun texting her every few minutes, up to a hundred times a day. He’s outta here,
she confided in me, hazel eyes flashing, just before breaking it off with him via text. "I’m so not into obsessive behavior." I was beginning to feel Richard was obsessive in his own ways too.
Did I think Richard would be as successful as he dreamed of? Yes. But I couldn’t see myself as part of his perfectly executed world. It was not that he didn’t treat me well, he treated me wonderfully. He was the utmost gentleman with impeccable manners, to the point of seeming old-fashioned. But while these things unsettled me, I liked that he was very romantic, doing the types of things you’d only read about in books: surprise dates, romantic sunset picnics, fresh flowers and chocolates, the list went on.
We met in the strangest of circumstances. I was practicing for my Julliard audition, feeling the stress and pressure I’d placed on myself to get accepted. I practiced my heart out every spare minute I had. Some days, when the spring weather warranted, I’d walk into the hills near my family’s acreage and practice outside. One day I walked particularly far, about twenty minutes into the surrounding hills. I had my pieces memorized and began to play. I closed my eyes, felt the breeze lifting my long, auburn hair, and lost myself in the world of tones, intervals and phrases.
When I opened my eyes, several minutes later, I saw a man sitting in the distance on the slope of a nearby hill. I was startled. Our eyes met and he stared intently at me for what felt like forever. I stopped playing and stood there awkwardly, wondering who he was. That was beautiful!
he shouted. I was embarrassed about being watched in an area where there was seldom another soul, but at the same time I was flattered and intrigued.
Thanks,
I shouted back, and immediately began to disassemble my flute. As I carefully pulled out the head joint, I noticed him stand up and ease into a walk, which turned into a quicker stride as he saw that I was packing up. Within a minute he reached me. I’d hastily cleaned and put away my flute by that time.
That was exceptional! I’m Richard, Richard White,
he smiled as he reached for my hand. His handshake was firm and confident, and I couldn’t help but notice how soft, yet large and strong, his hand was. He stood at least eight inches taller than me.
My name’s Cadence,
I said awkwardly. Although I had a couple of boyfriends in high school, I still succumbed to shyness around guys I didn’t know.
That name suits you. You have a finality about you, like a cadence at the end of a song. I used to play piano and remember the sheer force of a cadence denoting the final bar. The end.
I stared back, a little confused at this odd, first-time comparison of me to finality. What do you mean?
I asked, noticing how perfect his teeth were; they were gleaming white, framed by full lips. He was hot and possessed all of the characteristics that made the top ten list
used by high school girls everywhere when assessing a guy for dating potential. I fleetingly wondered what it would be like to kiss him.
"Well, it just feels like I’ve been walking aimlessly all morning and when I heard your first note, I knew that I’d found what I was looking for, he calmly stated. Seeing my apprehension at this strange explanation, he continued with,
I was searching for some peace and quiet after a challenging night. My mother has cancer and it has spread to her brain. I cannot imagine losing her, yet the situation continues to worsen," his voice trailed off. His green eyes were glassy and I could tell that he was nervous about divulging his sad, personal situation to me so quickly.
"I’m so sorry to hear that. Your poor mother and poor you. Your family must be going through so much." I spoke awkwardly, trying to find the proper amount of empathy and compassion to convey my sympathy in a genuine way to a virtual stranger.
Well, I don’t really have any other family. I’m an only child. We have relatives scattered in a few different states, but have not been in contact with them for years. My parents have always been very private people who didn’t want family involved in their affairs. I was close to my grandparents though, but they’ve all passed away.
He looked up at the sky, then back down at me. He talks like a robot, I thought, so formal compared to other guys I knew. His eyes, though, were the deepest color of green I’d ever seen, and drew me away from my mental criticisms. They were the same dark hunter green as the trees around us. They looked sharply down at me. I was suddenly conscious of how I was dressed. I was wearing faded jeans and a simple light blue, V-neck T-shirt. My long auburn hair was gathered at the top with a clip. I didn’t have any makeup on at the time, but luckily I was blessed with dark eyelashes, so mascara wasn’t a must.
It must be really tough… I can’t imagine what you must be going through,
I murmured.
I already lost my father. Almost four years ago now, which was why we moved back here,
Richard explained. "My mother grew up here and wanted to move back, even though she no longer has family here. She’s a private person who likes the familiar solitude of being near the mountains. I was not happy about moving here, though. I didn’t want to leave my high school in Boston, not that I really cared about any of the other students as they weren’t very bright. I guess I just prefer a big city, which is more stimulating than being out here. Not that I have anything against Montana, it is beautiful here. I just had no interest in making friends with these people, so pretty much kept to myself my last year of high school. He looked down at me, head cocked, with fresh interest.
Everything happens for a reason, or so they say," he mused.
I was shocked that he so casually and confidently spoke about not making a single friend. And he seemed judgmental and somewhat arrogant, yet was also intriguing. My curiosity was definitely piqued.
So you went to Mountain View High?
I’d never seen or heard of him. I was definitely going to check Sandra’s yearbook when I got home and see if I could find his photo.
Yes, but I’d rather not think of it, though. It was a necessary step, but I was an intentional loner. Everyone had already established their networks of friends and I had no interest in becoming a part of that crowd, so I kept to myself. Everyone here seems to have grown up together, practically since conception. How can I compete with friendship since infancy?
he asked, a playful sarcasm etching his deep voice.
At least you only had one year left. It’s actually a fun school, but I can see what you mean about everyone growing up together.
I found it odd that he hadn’t made any friends, though. People were generally welcoming to newcomers if they made any type of effort. Clearly Richard had no interest in having a social life, which I couldn’t relate to. I was still drawn to him out of interest and curiosity, though, and also because he was hot. The butterflies felt the same as other crushes I’d had in the past. He was very attractive; his amazing looks definitely making up for his odd behavior.
He changed the topic. How long have you been playing?
Almost eleven years,
I answered. I was humble about my musical ability, not wanting to mention the many competitions I had won and where I was going to college. Besides, too much information too soon was not my strategy to catch a guy’s interest. Playing hard to get was the way to go in my books, wisdom passed on from my mom, I knew, but just the same, she sometimes had a valid point.
Wow. You’re remarkable, Cadence. I can sense that this is not just a hobby, but a true passion. I bet you're going to make a career of it. A successful one,
he stated with conviction. I sensed that he spoke honestly. He didn’t seem to be trying to butter me up, but truly understood my passion.
Thanks. Yes, I want to become a professional; a soloist or maybe play in an orchestra, or both.
"Fantastic. I know you will succeed, Cadence, he smiled.
Can I walk you home?"
Sure,
I said, glad for his offer.
As we walked, we found a lot to talk about during the twenty minutes it took to reach my house. The walk culminated in him asking me on a date for the coming weekend. Part of me thought he was too strange, but the other part was excited as he was very attractive. My girlfriends would be so jealous and fascinated to hear about this guy who was so out of the ordinary and so extremely handsome. An image of going to prom with such a hot guy entered my mind, making my heart race with excitement. After saying good-bye, I hurried into my house, wondering where my sister kept her old yearbooks.
Chapter Three
The feeling of being touched awakened me. This time my eyes were easier to open, and I felt less drugged. It was the woman again, her black hair pulled back into a long, shiny ponytail. She wore a white, short-sleeved blouse and a long, dark-blue skirt, with a white apron. She was fairly attractive, and looked very clean. I could smell a soapy fragrance around her. She had placed a tray beside the bed on a stand of some sort, and was carefully laying a napkin across my lap.
Good morning, Miss Weaverly,
she said, in a Spanish accent. She reminded me of the friendly chambermaid, who cleaned our hotel room daily, when Christian and I were in Mexico on vacation last year. I felt tears sting my eyes as I thought of Christian. Did you sleep well?
She had dark eyes and a friendly, although somewhat sad, face.
Yes. Where am I and who are you?
Now that words could form, my questions came out quick and bold. She looked nervous.
My name is Maria and I work here, for you and Mr. White. I serve and clean, and do whatever is needed,
she carefully explained.
Help me!
I said with fervor. "I’ve been kidnapped. I did not come here freely. I was drugged and taken from my apartment in San Francisco. Where am I?" I felt tears well up in my eyes. The urgency of my voice made Maria step back, a worried look marring her pretty, dark features.
You seem confused. I’ll go get Mr. White,
she said, as she began to step around the bed towards the door. I flung myself out of the bed, not realizing that my legs were still wobbly, stumbled and landed heavily on the floor. She rushed back towards me and knelt down. Are you hurt? Please don’t do that. Mr. White said you might try to run, but that you don’t mean to. I know you’re not well. Please…don’t be upset.
She was quivering, nervous about my reaction. My leg throbbed from the fall, but I was more concerned about my life. This could only be a nightmare. I couldn’t be in Richard White’s house. Nothing made sense. I was only a kid when we’d dated!
"Please, Maria. I’m okay, I’m not crazy! Why am I here?" I asked as I grabbed her arm, more forcefully than intended. She pulled away and stood up quickly, then ran towards the door.
"He will be here very soon," she promised, as she closed the door solidly behind her. The tears were running freely down my cheeks as I crawled towards the door and slowly stood