Grieving to Believing: Discovering the Afterlife
By Deb Sheppard and James Van Praagh
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What is normalin the array of emotions and reactions when death occurs?
As a medium, Deb Sheppard understands grief, death, and healing as she helps others through their process. It didn’t come as easily when the loss was her own. Her ability to connect with the afterlife d
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Grieving to Believing - Deb Sheppard
At 48, I didn’t expect to become a widow and a single parent.
How does a normal family regain what is a new normal after a tragedy?
Most families would like to go back to the way it was without a hiccup. My family couldn’t. But, we found our path and created the joy once again. And, so can you.
It’s common for individuals to feel guilty about having any joy and moving forward with their lives. Instead they become suspended in a warp of time … frozen in making decisions; removing themselves from things that had delivered joy and happiness; and feeling they are undeserving of life’s pleasures. Stop … I promise you, without any hesitation, that loved ones who leave you behind and have crossed only desire you to be happy once again.
You may also be surprised to learn that if you want to feel your loved one, becoming happy once again will help with that process as I reveal throughout Grieving to Believing.
Every journey is different. My experience was mine and I cannot proclaim to know exactly what you are experiencing. For my family, this is where we were in 2008. Shocked. Grief stricken. Paralyzed. Not believing that a loved one had taken his life. You see, I am one of you.
Both of my children went through their grieving to believing paths very differently, and have found their own way. If their father would have stayed with us, their lives would have been very different, no doubt. His parenting and mine were at opposites, which isn’t good or bad, we just had different styles. He was a strict disciplinarian; I wasn’t. The children received Social Security after his death until graduation from high school, which provided financial opportunities for them.
You see, I am one of you.
My daughter, Sophia, graduated from high school early and entered college immediately. She put her heart, mind, and body into it while working almost full time. Within two years, she graduated and walked magna cum laude. Sophia earned her bachelor’s degree in graphic design and entrepreneurship. She received many awards for her work, including one for her inter-nship. Surprising her family, she decided to go to Calcutta, India, to help women escape sex trafficking, teaching them to heal through art.
Her two-and-a-half months in India was life changing, as well as terrifying. After her father died, Sophia revealed that he had raped her. At first, I was so shocked, I did the normal
and wanted to deny it. I couldn’t. I knew she would never say this unless it was true. My heart went out to her. The guilt I had for not protecting her was heart wrenching. How could I have allowed this to happen? No wonder Sophia wanted to escape—Calcutta wasn’t far enough for what she had gone through.
As she opened up, she shared that she believed her dad thought what he was doing to her, he was doing to me. She was aware that he was struggling and that he wasn’t in his right mind. Her actions began making sense—how she behaved around her father, Brad, and her choices in life. After telling me, I made sure I was available to her—we discussed it when she wanted to, but I also knew she kept very busy to keep distracted about her father. My Sophia is a very strong person. She has done so much work to heal and live a great life that she continues to create.
After she returned from India she said, I need to do something fun.
She had a plan. Sophia and her 16-year-old brother, Jake, decided to travel to Europe and do a walk-about. They were able to learn about each other, make new memories, and do more healing.
Their grandparents, Brad, and his brother Greg, all lived in Italy while their father Brad served in the Air Force. Sophia and Jake took some of his ashes and found the house they lived in to release some in this place he loved. Brad’s mother Norma had passed when they had just arrived in Europe. I was able to send some of her ashes to them. My heart told me that it was the right thing to do—releasing Brad and Norma’s ashes at the home they loved and had fond memories of.
Jake was able to use the travel as school credits, so when he returned he was able to continue his high school education and graduate on time.
Jake and his father were extremely close. When Brad died, he was only 11. Jake’s path to and through grieving was in his personal way. As we all grieve differently, his process became his very own.
Attending school was difficult. With the unexpected death of his father, I imagine that it was too difficult to concentrate on subjects that were not important to him. It was difficult for me to carry on daily responsibilities, so I’m sure it was painful for him as a young boy. I never got upset with him. I tried to figure out how to best guide him and see his happy face once again. Even as I write this, my heart hurts for the pain he endured as a child when this should have been a wonderful time in his life.
The counselors and most of his teachers were very supportive. I even had a tutor work with Jake at school to keep him organized and focused. I needed, he needed, all the help we could get. Suddenly, I was a single parent, juggling everything that now was all on my plate. The three of us were lost. And somehow, Sophia, Jake, and I needed to heal.
School wasn’t working for him. Thankfully, a good friend was a counselor at an alternative school, which had small classrooms along with support that was adapted to each student. Jake was resistant in the beginning; he didn’t want to change schools. He joined the basketball team and by his senior year became its captain. His coach really looked after him, and Jake tried hard to please his teachers and classmates. Jake rocked at the new school. It was just what he had needed.
He also had counseling. Not in private sessions, but an environment that kids could go and be with other kids who were grieving from all types of losses. For two summers, he attended Camp Comfort. It is a program for three days and two nights where attendees camp with a buddy
… adult volunteers who are trained to help young people grieve while still being a kid.
I loved this program and donated to it and its cause. The last day of the program, a ceremony is held where ribbons are tied around an evergreen tree by the kids. In the background, music is played and the leaders speak as well as a few of the kids. They asked Jake to share his experiences with everyone in attendance—about 150 kids, families, and the buddies. With a mic in hand, Jake was a real trooper. He spoke; he shared; he glowed. I was so proud of how he handled himself and talked from his heart. I knew his father would have been proud as well.
As we left, Jake jumped in the car and we briefly talked about his speech. He then asked if he could announce me at my events like his father had done previously. Of course,
I told him, and he did this for many years. You can even see videos of him on YouTube when he was 12 to 13 years old. Now, towering over six feet, he has come a long way from being that small guy with a squeaky voice.
After graduation, Jake didn’t want to go to college. He wasn’t sure what he wanted next. Since Europe, he had the travel bug and wanted to embrace some of the U.S.
Starting in Colorado, his next journey took him through Arizona, California, Oregon, Washington, Victoria (Canada), Idaho, Montana, Wyoming, then returning to Colorado. He lived in his car, a tent, and stayed with friends. Arriving home, he displayed beautiful long red hair and I’m sure a few more inches of height. As his mother, I loved that his energy and confidence were good. Once again, I was proud of his courage. Jake was back.
We continued celebrating holidays and in some cases kept some traditions the same as we had enjoyed as a family of four, while changing others. In the beginning, it seemed that we would put a lot of energy and thought into the marked days of Brad’s birthday, Father’s Day, and the anniversary of his passing. But, over the last couple of years we have honored him differently. It’s not out of disrespect or that we don’t love him anymore. It’s just that we are different and do it differently.
We talk about him often and feel his presence throughout the year. Our lives continue to change and over time it has become more of an acceptance that he’s gone. All of us—Sophia, Jake and myself—have allowed our healing to flow and change as needed for where we are in life.
You may also notice that others don’t reach out as in the beginning of your experience with death and healing. It’s not that people don’t care; this is just how life unfolds.
For me, I continued to work hard—almost too much—and still had a strong business. For four days, I fought for my life in ICU after almost dying from pneumonia after a surgery. A few years later, I was diagnosed with partial complex seizures. My body was speaking to me: it was time to change things. I was exhausted and felt that I hadn’t really grieved or been able to figure out what I wanted. As Mom, I was focused on my kids; I forgot about me.
I discovered the light that was waiting for me at the end of my tunnel.
I decided to cut the mentoring programs, and a few other programs I was teaching, because I just couldn’t and didn’t want to try and keep up with everything anymore. Many were upset with me. Judgment flowed and I lost several friendships, something that is not uncommon when things happen and lives change.
I don’t feel my personal judgment was as centered as it should have been and felt I was struggling with many aspects in life. Some wanted to help me, but I rejected them. I didn’t feel I was ready to accept help. For me, I just wanted to be left alone and shut down for a while. As I look back, I know many were hurt by my I want to be alone
attitude. For those close to me, what they saw then was me trying to manage my healing, and I needed to.
At 48, I didn’t expect to become a widow. And, I didn’t expect to become a single parent, but with my belief about the afterlife and understanding that Brad was very ill, I was able to put one foot in front of the other. Sometimes stumbling; sometimes feeling I was going in circles. But I knew that I wanted to teach my children about death and how to still live. I wanted them to have the very best life they could under all types of circumstances.
And for what you are going through, I know that there is light at the end of your tunnel as well. Grieving to Believing will show