Daughters of Partition
By Fozia Raja
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16-year-old Taji Kaur is living a blissful life - after a grand and lavish wedding ceremony she has her first baby and is expecting the second in August of 1947. In the backdrop, the British Raj in India is coming to an end and a line of partition is being proposed between India and Pakistan. Taji and her husband, Indian Sikhs, find themselves o
Fozia Raja
Fozia Raja is an author, creative writer, and corporate Human Resources professional working for a multi-national company. She was born and brought up in Manchester, UK, where she has fond memories of pursuing her passion for reading - carrying a heavy backpack to the local library each Saturday to pick out her next seven books for the week ahead. She was brought up in a close family with four siblings and she pursued her fascination with her family's history. This included vivid childhood memories of the stories shared by her grandmother about her surviving the partition of India. For hours, Fozia would listen to these historical narratives in rapt attention - motivating her later in life to pursue a master's degree in Creative Writing. The manuscript Fozia wrote as part of her master's thesis had been gathering dust for more than a decade, while Fozia's career in Human Resources was taking off. That all changed during a recent work trip to India, where Fozia met with her grandmother's siblings for the first time, and she was inspired and motivated to revisit the manuscript and share her incredible family story. Her grandmother's wish that Fozia "write the story of my life" came to its fruition with this publishing. Fozia is an avid reader, foodie and gym-goer; and when she's not travelling, London is home.
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Daughters of Partition - Fozia Raja
Copyright © 2020 Fozia Raja
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ISBN: 978-1-9163384-0-1 (Paperback)
ISBN: 978-1-9163384-1-8 (E-Book)
This is a work of fiction based on the personal accounts of Rasheed Begum and Parwez Raja. Every reasonable attempt has been made to verify the facts against available resources. All names other than Rasheed, Asaff and Parwez are fictional, as are many of the place names.
First Published by Creative Ethnics Publishing: February 2020
www.foziaraja.com
For our angel in heaven,
Sami Jehan Quyoum
AUTHOR’S NOTE
Daughters of Partition is a work of fiction based on the first-hand account of my grandmother, a survivor of the partition of India; and my father Parwez Raja, who both feature as main characters in this novel. What you read is not an authoritative record of the terrible events that took place in 1947. There are many resources that document what occurred in much more detail than can be found here. The sole purpose of this novel is to share the experiences of one woman; although her story will be reflective of many more just like her.
Table of Contents
PART I
Chapter 1: October 1978, London, UK
Chapter 2: June 1945, Lahore, India
Chapter 3: October 1978, Leicester, UK
Chapter 4: January 1975, Kashmir
Chapter 5: October 1978, Leicester, UK
PART II
Chapter 1: September 1945, Mirpur, India
Chapter 2: April 1946, Mirpur, India
Chapter 3: April 1946, Mirpur, India
Chapter 4: January 1947, Mirpur, India
Chapter 5: August 1947, Mirpur, India
Chapter 6: August 1947, Kashmir
PART III
Chapter 1: May 1979, Islamabad, Pakistan
Chapter 2: May 1979, Hasanabdal, Pakistan
Afterword
Picture Gallery
The Author
PART I
Chapter 1
October 1978, London, UK
With his fingers interlocked and knuckles turning white, he sat precariously on the edge of the black plastic chair, rocking back and forth. His eyes fixed on the wooden oak flooring beneath his feet in this small-town community hall. It may have shone once but was now deeply stained from spillages and cigarette burns; and scratched from reckless furniture dragging. The smell of the cigarettes was still alive, leaving a musky odour, mixed with stale beer. Looking out of the narrow rectangular windows, Parwez noticed the sun that was attempting to break through during his coach journey to London had disappeared, and the sky, now ominously dark, promised rain. The orange streetlights began flickering, marking the beginning of the evening. Having been one of the first to arrive, and securing a good view close to the front, he could now hear a hall full of chattering, laughter, drinks orders being placed, and stewards asking guests to take their seats ready for the evening performance to begin.
As the stage lighting dimmed, the tabla player beat faster and faster to a crescendo before reaching a calmer, rhythmic beat. A voice emerged from the darkness,
‘Please welcome on stage, our guest for tonight who has travelled all the way from India, Balminder Singh.’
‘Thank you. Thank you all,’ he began. A spotlight followed him to the foot of the stage, where he stopped, took a gentle bow and graciously touched his heart with his right hand.
A warm welcome was extended which relaxed Balminder. He prepared himself by sitting cross-legged on the large hand-woven rug covering the raised platform; and took a few moments to familiarise himself with his surroundings. The three hundred or so chairs were almost all taken by people with a range of ages, both men and women. Once comfortable, he gently nodded to the sitar and tabla players and they in return acknowledged the signal by allowing their fingers to beat louder notes. Balminder began humming to his first song, Balle Ni Punjab Diye, tuning his vocal cords, and the crowd applauded in recognition. When they quietened, the only sound was that of Balminder’s soulful voice and sweet lyrics. Many of his admirers were mesmerised and swayed their heads from side to side, while others had their eyes closed, listening to the tranquil melodious tunes rippling through the atmosphere. Parwez felt every heartbeat pulse through his body. He locked his gaze onto Balminder’s eyes and willed him to recognise and understand why he was there. Among the many Indians he felt isolated where, ironically, he should have felt most at home. On completing the first two songs, Balminder stopped to take requests.
‘Are you all enjoying yourselves?’ he questioned, engaging with his audience, creating a warm, relaxed environment. There was an instantaneous nodding among the crowd, who were in awe of his flawless and highly emotive voice. ‘Tell me, what would you like to hear next?’
Many requests came at once, making it difficult for him to understand. Parwez stood, quietly watching. Their features were so alike, he thought; that nose definitely gives it away: straight and slim, widening at the nostrils. They were even similar in height, no more than five feet and a few inches. Balminder was a traditional looking man, with his blue turban, matching kurta and trousers. If he was in a crowd, Parwez would never have guessed, but now that he knew, now that he had found out, the resemblance was evident. How had he missed this? In all the pictures he had seen of Balminder, on posters, in newspapers, never had he thought that this could be the man to provide the answers. When Parwez snapped out of his stream of thought, he noticed that the first requested song had almost been completed. He shuffled through the pockets of his khaki trousers and found a scrap of paper.
‘Excuse me, do you have a pen?’ he asked his neighbour.
‘No,’ she replied sternly, unimpressed at being disturbed.
He tapped the elbow of an elderly man sitting to his left.
‘Do you have a pen?’
He nodded and took out a ballpoint pen from his inside coat pocket. Resting the paper on his knee, Parwez scribbled on it, folded it up and then passed the pen back.
‘Any more requests?’ Balminder questioned, after the applause came to a close. He sat with poise: upright, an air of radiance surrounded him, alluring his audience, as he transported many of them back to their homeland with his traditional singing. Parwez waved the paper, trying to get his attention.
‘We have another, over there, three rows back. Continue sending them forward.’
Parwez nervously passed the note to the woman in front and she passed it forward. It reached the hands of the steward standing at the foot of the stage, who then gave it to the tabla player sitting on a mat beside the sitarist. Parwez watched the note, not daring to blink or breathe until it reached the hands of the intended recipient. It may only be a simple note, but it had the power to change so much: the consequence so unknown, it could all turn out well, but also potentially not. At the age of twenty-seven, he had defied the advice of the elders he respected, he demonstrated absolute courage and conviction in standing by his decision. Within him he was aware he’d be responsible for any fallout; a burden he didn’t carry lightly.
‘I’m here for you and honoured to be in London again. I’ll be performing your favourite hits,’ Balminder said, filling the silence as he unfolded the small square paper. Looking down he saw that it was not a request, but a note, scrawled desperately in block capitals. I am Taji Kaur’s son. I would like to meet you.
Balminder stared at the name. He re-read it, again and again, his hands trembled, his heart beating fast. It couldn’t be his Taji, there was just no way. He didn’t want to look up, but he must. He slowly raised his head, his eyes searched for the man who was waving the note; but couldn’t remember the face. Where was he sitting? Three rows away, he recalled. He scrutinised the third row, right to left. Parwez watched him but remained still until they made eye contact. The audience sat silently, wondering why their performer looked so disturbed.
‘What did you write?’ the old man to the left of Parwez asked, but he didn’t receive an answer.
Balminder looked directly at him, their eyes met. Parwez nodded and gave an apprehensive smile in acknowledgment. Yes, he was the writer of the note.
The host appeared onstage to find out what was happening. Balminder slowly walked towards him, faltering, holding the note securely with both hands. He tried to whisper but struggled to get his words out. He tried again, stammering.
‘I, I need to, to take a break, I can’t continue with the show.’
‘Why? What’s happened? Are you unwell?’
‘No, no. I’m fine, I need to meet somebody. It’s important.’
The audience lost patience and the atmosphere became tense.
‘What’s going on here?’ one man towards the front shouted.
‘Balminder, the audience is waiting for you, come on.’ The host tried to pull him back.
‘Give me some time, please!’ Balminder demanded and disappeared behind the curtains.
Parwez jostled through the crowds and walked to the side stage door where two security guards stood. His mouth was dry, as he held his breath and wondered if he’d made a mistake by coming to the concert.
‘Sorry, no entrance without a VIP card,’ one of the security guards said.
‘I don’t have one. I’m here to see Balminder.’ He tried to push past them, but they restrained him by blocking his path.
The backstage door opened and Balminder appeared between the guards. He looked at Parwez stunned, not uttering a word. Parwez held out his hand, Balminder eventually took it and then embraced him with loose arms, leaving a small gap between their bodies.
‘Let him through, he’s family.’
‘Well, you know who I am, how else do I introduce myself?’ Balminder stated, feeling disorientated; his gaze focussed on the wall in front of him, arms folded, refusing to look at Parwez. ‘You’re Taji’s son?’ Parwez was unsure if this was a question or statement; a lump formed in his throat, all he could do was nod in response. But Balminder showed no acknowledgement of it.
Taking a seat on the dusty settee behind him, Balminder’s head slowly swayed from side to side, the internal dialogue evident on his distressed face. Parwez scanned the rather narrow, dark backstage room for some water, but only saw bulky instrument boxes. He also took a seat, each man on opposite ends of the settee, looking away from one another.
‘Where is she?’ Balminder queried, finally breaking the silence and turning in Parwez’s direction. ‘Is she alive?’
Parwez hesitated, not knowing what reaction he would get from Balminder. ‘Yes,’ he confirmed, quietly. He swallowed, noticing the blood drain from Balminder’s face and his body became motionless until it looked as rigid as a statue.
‘It’s so hard to believe, after all this time...’ He recollected memories, the times he played with her, spent summers with her, teased and fought with her, right up until she was married. ‘You know we mourned her death?’ Parwez listened. ‘I was there, the whole family gathered and paid their respects. And now, to be told that for all this time...’ His speech faltered, as he replayed watching Taji’s parents struggling in a sea of agony and grief; totally broken, having said goodbye to their child. His voice trembled and he shook his head in disbelief.
‘Are her parents healthy and well?’ Parwez asked.
‘Yes.’ Balminder confirmed.
‘I know this is difficult, it is for us too. Ammi has lived without knowing the whereabouts of her family for over thirty years; and now that we have made this connection, she’s completely overwhelmed, with conflicting emotions. When she’s excited, she puts pen to paper, recording all that happened in that time, so she’s ready with her stories; and then there are times when she loses hope and tears those notes to tiny pieces, yelling at me, telling me I’m doing the wrong thing by getting in touch with you. I know she is longing to see her parents and siblings, but she equally dreads their reaction. The only way you are going to come to terms with this is if you meet her.’
After contemplating the idea he managed to bring himself to say, ‘Meet Taji?’
‘Yes, meet… Taji.’ Parwez knew this was not the time to tell Balminder that Taji was no longer her name. ‘We live two hours away from here, in Leicester,’ Parwez explained. ‘Maybe you could spend the night with us? If you’d like to of course. We wouldn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable. But it is getting very late now.’
‘Oh, well, the thing is, I fly back to Delhi tomorrow, I don’t think I’ll be able to visit this time.’
‘What time is your flight?’
‘Evening.’
‘Don’t worry, I’ll make sure you’re back in London on time. Come on, please, I know Ammi will still be awake, waiting to see you.’
‘My manager has plans for tonight. We don’t have much time left in London. I’ll be back in England soon, I promise to come directly to Leicester on that trip and even stay with you.’
Parwez’s heart sank. He felt the thudding in his chest; not only pain, but anger raged inside him. He turned away, closed his eyes and tried to calm himself. The awkward silence between them was broken when the door burst open.
‘Balminder, are you coming back on stage or what?’ There was no response. ‘Is everything OK here?’ the manager asked, waiting to be acknowledged.
‘I will not be coming back on stage… I’ve had some news.’ In his mind, Balminder tried to construct a manner in which to tell his manager what was happening. ‘This is my cousin’s son.’
The thudding in his chest eased and Parwez turned around to face Balminder.
‘Parwez, this is my manager, Jeevan.’ They both leaned forward and greeted each other. Jeevan was confused as to how they were related given the obvious religious differences, but he didn’t dwell on it.
‘I didn’t know you had family in England, Balminder?’
‘Neither did I,’ he replied with his lips breaking into a smile, as did Parwez’s. ‘I’ll be accompanying Parwez back to Leicester tonight, but I will be back tomorrow for the flight.’
Parwez sighed in relief. ‘You’re coming back to Leicester?’
Balminder nodded, despite still feeling anxious. Jeevan seemed puzzled, annoyed even, but understood enough to know that there was no point in negotiating a return to the stage.
‘We’ll see you at the airport then?’ Jeevan asked.
‘Yes. And I’m sorry about tonight. I’ll explain.’
‘OK. Be at the airport no later than six.’ The door closed, leaving Balminder and Parwez alone.
‘Come on, what are we waiting for? Do you know how long it’s been since I’ve seen Taji?’
Parwez noticed the smile on Balminder’s face was much more relaxed; there was even a tiny spring in his step as he leaned forward to grab his coat.
*
Balminder and Parwez walked along East Park Road, having alighted from the long journey. Despite the heavy rain pouring from the thunderous clouds, the evening could not have ended any better. The church clock struck midnight, streetlamps were shining on the deserted road, no car in sight. As they approached the corner of Cork Street, Parwez told shivering Balminder that they had reached their destination. Suddenly Balminder asked himself if he had done the right thing, maybe the visit was too soon. Parwez walked ahead as Balminder’s pace slowed, he looked up to the sky as if seeking some guidance. His throat felt dry, he struggled to swallow, there was an ache in his stomach. He wanted to turn back whilst Parwez wasn’t looking, and then the sound of the house keys startled him and brought him back to his senses. Balminder looked at the wooden door, with a rusting letter box and saw the numbers ‘84’ painted in white. He observed the two-up, two-down redbrick terrace houses, standing so desolate and insignificant in this soulless street; no lights burning, or people moving, complete desertion. A world so far removed from her youth, the grand white marble home, which stood tall on the hills overlooking the city, surrounded by lush green gardens and delicate pink and white blossoms, where the two cousins would seek shade and play. From the street paving Balminder and Parwez stepped straight into a dark room, Parwez closed and then bolted the door.
‘Parwez, you’re back?’ A quivering, high-pitched female voice asked from the backroom. It’s Taji, Balminder almost shrieked. He sensed the anticipation, the dread, in his cousin’s voice. He took a deep breath to calm the hammering in his chest and wiped the water from his eyes.
Parwez opened the creaking door separating the two rooms and there stood a slim woman, in dark green shalwar kameez, a thin dubatta covering her head. A tall, handsome man towered over her, a gentle face, bright hazel eyes with flecks of green looked straight at Balminder. Balminder remained in the doorway, grasping the handle, digesting the scene before him; was it really her? The matured features of his favourite cousin. Rasheed examined Balminder, no longer the young man she knew him as. He had a neatly kept beard, just like his own father and her father had. He even tied his turban as they did. One thing which had not changed was his height: although he was never very short, compared to the rest of the six feet plus relatives, he always felt out of place. However, Balminder had a great gift which nobody else in the family had: a passion for music and a divine voice which no other singer could ever match.
‘Taji?’ he asked. A smile spread across Rasheed’s face, her eyes welled up and blurred her vision. Her childhood name stunned her and the tears streamed down her cheeks, like a waterfall in full flow.
‘It’s Rasheed now, not Taji,’ Parwez interrupted. Balminder didn’t respond, but acknowledged the man standing beside her.
‘This is my father, Asaff,’ Parwez said.
They awkwardly shook hands, but Asaff did not let go when Balminder loosened his grip, instead he pulled him forward and hugged him, with a firm grip; his strong arms and army physique still remained even ten years after retiring from army life. This was the first time Asaff had met any of his wife’s family. Rasheed used the end of her scarf to dry her eyes. Balminder stood in front of her, lifted her chin which had fallen so low and looked her in the eye. ‘You’ve found us,’ he said, embracing and holding his sweet cousin, as she relaxed into the warmth of his arms.
‘Come, take a seat,’ Parwez instructed his guest, pulling a chair towards the open lit fire, where the black coal burned.
Asaff sat on the red settee opposite, which was partly covered in blue chintz. The hard concrete floor was concealed by plastic vinyl. The cold draught came through even with shoes on. Balminder stretched his legs, so his feet could rest on the rug covering the middle of the room.
‘You must be hungry. I’ll get something to eat.’ Rasheed said.
‘Don’t go to any effort.’ Balminder pleaded.
Rasheed left the room allowing her husband and son to finally get to know a member of her family. Balminder continued looking around, astounded at what he saw. A makeshift shelf sat on top of the fireplace, which had been drilled into the wall after many failed attempts. He studied the black and white photo on one side of the shelf, but had difficulty making out what it was. He reached out for it, a beautiful photograph of a nervous-looking young bride and confident groom, on their wedding day.
‘Me and my wife,’ Parwez confirmed.
‘You’re married?’
‘Yes,’ he laughed, ‘it’s been five years.’
‘Where is your wife?’
‘She’s with my two girls visiting her family in Manchester.’
Rasheed returned with some plates on a tray and placed it on the plastic table in front of Asaff.
‘Rasheed, you’re a grandmother!’ Balminder smiled.
‘Yes, I’m getting old, nearly fifty now. I’m not the young girl you knew.’
‘Take a seat here, Balminder,’ Asaff offered, vacating his seat.
On the table there was a small bowl of yellow lentils, some