Tilted
By Nancy Hall
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When Meshac Brownlow murders her mother’s boyfriend and leaves home, she learns the price you pay when violence is answered with violence. Will she be found out? Will she be safe?
She is glad she saved her sister, and Meshac is glad the evil is wrapped in a tarp and sunk in a swamp. But what does this mean for her soul?
Nancy Hall
"Writing and yoga are a natural link between the physical ordinary world and the inner work needed to explore and understand ourselves. Stories must be told to help us sift through life and to endure. Practicing yoga and paying attention remain the two vital parts of my writing life. I don't know where I would be without them." Nancy and her husband renovated a grain bin known as the Diva Den, where she writes, teaches yoga, and watches sunsets. This is Nancy's second Southern mystery novel in the Tilted Series. "Tilted," her debut novel, received five-star reviews.
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Tilted - Nancy Hall
Copyright 2019 Nancy Hall
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or utilized in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopy, recording, or by an information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the publisher.
This book is a work of fiction. The names, characters, brands, and incidents are either a product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
ISBN: 978-1-7333626-0-3
ISBN: 978-0-6153383-3-0 (e-book)
Printed and bound in the United States of America by Ingram Lightning Source
First edition
Cover design: Wanda Stanfill
Editing, layout, and design: Jacque Hillman and Katie Gould
The HillHelen Group LLC
127 Fairmont Ave.
Jackson, TN 38301
For Dr. Stephen Mooney—
"Write something to change
their hearts, nothing less."
Acknowledgments
With a grateful heart, I wish to thank everyone for their support and especially:
My family, Jimmy, Greg, and Doug.
My parents, Bill and Johnye Fortner.
My friends, who encouraged me in ways you may never know.
My book club.
Jeannine Ouellette, my writing guru.
The inspiring experience and the women at the 2014 Elephant Rock Writing Retreat.
Victoria Matsui, Berlynne Holman, Donna Grear Parker, and Evelyn Lowery.
Wanda Stanfill, for the beautiful cover.
Jacque and Jesse Hillman and the staff at The HillHelen Group. This book would not have happened without you.
Most of all to my college teacher and dear friend Mooney, who taught me how to NOT write good girl prose. I wish you were here to see the results.
Contents
I: SPRING EQUINOX
1: The Reason
2: The Way Out
3: No Turning Back
4: Paradise Found
II: SUMMER SOLSTICE
1: Two Peas in a Pod
2: Midsummer’s Eve
3: Homegoing
4: Resolution, Revolution, and Beyond
III: AUTUMN EQUINOX
1: What’s Fair Is Fair
2: Tears and Kisses
3: What’s Love Got to Do with It?
IV: WINTER SOLSTICE
1: The Rescue
2: A Balm in Gilead
3: Should I Stay or Should I Go?
4: The Escape
5: Gandhi at the Lunch Counter
V: FULL CIRCLE
1: Putting the Pieces Together
2: A Dose of Fear
3: A Dose of Courage
4: Epilogue
PART I
SPRING EQUINOX
MARCH 20, 1960
The Reason
When I decided to murder George, it was near the spring equinox, which was perfect; equinox means equal. It was time to set things right.
I looked at the farmers’ almanac calendar hanging on my bedroom wall every morning. Each day stated the exact time of the sunrise, sunset, and moonrise. The position of the moon and the sign for the day were pictured there. I circled the official arrival of each season in red. Like a prisoner counting the days, I X’d off the seasons of my puny life.
The full moon had occurred on March 13 and was waning until March 21. I knew the waning moon was the time to correct mistakes, settle disputes, and make amends. The signs were right to act.
I had planned this for a very long time, and my gut told me to go ahead. Plus, I didn’t like the way George was acting around Irene. I could not allow that. My kid sister with her blond hair and soft voice was not like me. She seemed to exist in another world. She was not as practical as me. She was content with old, faded dresses and shoes that were too big. We stuffed the toes of her hand-me-down shoes with newspaper. The kids at school teased her, but she hung her head and went on. Mother slapped her once at the supper table when she wouldn’t eat. I can still see the shock in Irene’s eyes and the red fingerprints on her cheek. She laid her head on the table, and the flies walked over her and into the cold food. I sneaked in later and threw the food out the back door and put her to bed.
Even though Irene was fourteen, she looked like she was ten. I hoped she had a bit of me in her, too, so she could make it. But I knew I couldn’t leave her alone with George. I just couldn’t. Besides, all of this was really his fault. He shouldn’t have done what he did to me.
I planned to lure George out to the big gully on the back side of Mr. Perrigin’s hog farm. The gully formed a natural barrier to insulate the shots, and it was about a quarter of a mile from Hale’s Swamp. Nobody would be within hearing distance, especially this time of year. The red clay of the gullies used to be a perfect place to make hideouts when we were kids playing cowboys and Indians. It seemed like a good place for a shootout. Of course, only one of us would be doing the shooting. I had been preparing for this for about three years, but now I was scared and sick to my stomach. Something in my head just kept saying, Do it, Meshac.
George was my mother’s boyfriend. She brought him home after one of her nights of drinking when I was ten, and he stayed. That was seven years ago. He was a wiry little man about my height now and not much meat on his bones—just meanness. His knuckles were always skinned like he had been hitting something, and he smelled like coal oil. George went to town every Saturday afternoon to play cards at The Lounge and start his weekend drinking.
I was off work this Saturday and asked George if I could ride to town. I hadn’t asked to be alone with him in that car ever. He looked at me kind of funny-like. I told him Katy was supposed to pick me up, but her daddy wouldn’t let her have the car. Fine,
he said.
I already had my bag packed and told Mama I was staying over at Katy’s for a couple of nights since I had to work at the cafe on Sunday before I went in at the sawmill on Monday. She never looked up at me. That’s how I remember her, with her head down staring at the sunlight on the floor. Irene was already in town with our cousin, so that left my little brother Roy. I patted him on the head and squeezed his shoulder. He looked at me, and that was the last time I saw those brown eyes.
If things worked out, I would send money to Aunt Flora to help the kids. My backpack had a wad of money, about $500, and three of everything—underwear, pairs of socks, shirts, and jeans. I tucked in my favorite books—O Pioneers! and Celestial Guide for Living by the Signs. My black transistor radio and an old picture of Daddy and Mama and us kids lay on top. I only had one pair of shoes, and they were on my feet. I had already hidden my bedroll, canteen, flashlight, and the gun at the gully.
I got into the car with George. I could smell him, and I rolled down the window quickly. His hand reached up to shift gears, and for a moment I remembered his dirty, greasy hand closing around my neck. I didn’t turn around and look at the house with its bare yard, stack of rotting wood, and Roy’s wheel-less wagon. I held onto the door handle with my sweaty hands and tried to appear calm. George looked like he might be suspicious of something, but he didn’t know just what. I tried to think of something to say but decided instead to say nothing.
Before we got to the turn in the road where the gullies started, I said casual-like, I used to play down in those gullies when the kids and me were little.
George grunted.
We used to think there was buried treasure down there.
I looked straight ahead. I wonder if those paw-paw bushes are still there. Do you like paw-paws, George?
He waited a minute, then said, Yeah, I used to eat ’em when I was a kid. My mama made some kind of jelly, I think.
I want to see if they’re still there.
George rolled his eyes. It’s too early.
I know, but I want to see if the bushes are still there. You can stay here. I’ll run down there.
His foot never let up, and I thought I had missed this chance.
What the hell—okay,
and he pulled over.
It won’t take me five minutes, I promise.
He turned into the field road that led into the pasture on the front of the property.
How far is it?
About a hundred yards or so over that a way.
I eased open the door, and as I got out, I said, Be back in a jiffy.
I started down the field road in a trot. I needed to get a little lead on him. I started counting to myself—one Mississippi, two Mississippi. As soon as I went over the little rise, I took off running. I sprinted around the side of the field to the little copse of woods that hung on the edge of the gullies. The big gully backed up to one side like an amphitheater. My heart was pounding so hard my head hurt, and I couldn’t catch my breath. I stopped when I was in the trees and looked back. No sign of him.
I climbed down the little hill to the hollow tree stump and dug out the tow sack. My hands shook so hard I couldn’t unknot the drawstring. I felt the wet ground soaking my knees as I finally got the sack opened and pulled out the flannel-wrapped gun. I opened the chamber to be sure it was still loaded. Then I snapped it back together and held it with both hands as I stood up and kicked the sack behind the stump. I walked criss-cross back up the hill so I would emerge at the edge of the woods where the undergrowth was cleared out. All you could see was the red clay wall rising over the gully that plunged thirty feet down. There was a cedar tree there, and it tickled my neck as I leaned into it, waiting and hoping that George would come after me soon.
You nasty old bastard, come on,
I grumbled. Don’t let me lose my nerve.
About then I heard him holler. I waited for him to holler again, and then I shouted back, Just a second.
I saw him as he came up the rise. He looked mad, which made it even easier.
Meshac, come on now, I gotta get to town.
I didn’t say a word. Come a little closer, you son of a bitch.
It helped to whisper the words so I could hear them. Holding the gun with one hand, I wiped my sweaty hands, one at a time as fast as I could, on the back of my britches. He stopped and looked around. I sighted him down the barrel. I needed him to come a few yards closer. He looked around like a dang fox when the henhouse is empty.
Meshac!
he bellowed.
I crouched back farther into the cedar tree and counted to five. Over here,
I shouted back.
He started walking toward me like a man on a mission. He must’ve seen some movement or the glint of the gun barrel. I tried to make myself wait one, two, three more steps, and then he looked right at me. It was still too far away. My legs were shaking, but I stepped out from the tree with the gun held straight in front of me.
What are you doing?
Nastiness dripped out of his mouth.
I’m fixing to kill you, George.
I took two steps forward.
What the hell you got?
I’ve got my daddy’s gun, and I’m going to kill your ass dead.
He started to smile but then got this scared look like a mewling puppy.
Give me that gun. You ain’t gonna shoot nobody, you little whore.
As soon as he said that word, I felt my chest turn hot like a poker stabbing the middle of my heart. I didn’t even take a deep breath. I walked a few steps closer; I didn’t want to miss the son of a bitch. He picked up a big stick lying on the ground and started after me. You ain’t nothing but a little whore, and so’s your sister.
He raised the stick over his head and took two more steps. I pulled the trigger two or three times. He looked shocked. I stood there and hoped he was going to die. He doubled over and stumbled a step or two and then fell face down on the ground. I’d like to say I felt bad afterward or I threw up or something, but I didn’t. I broke out in a cold sweat, and my head got dizzy, but I rested my hands on my knees and hung my head until the dizziness went away. I could feel my eyes tear up, but I never stopped to wipe my face.
I don’t know how long I stood to make sure he wasn’t going to move. When I walked over to him, I didn’t think I could see him breathing, but I wanted to be certain. I poked him with the toe of my muddy shoe. He didn’t make a sound. I poked him again higher on his shoulder, and he lay there. I knew in that moment my life had changed forever. Even though I was only seventeen years old, I had enough sense to know that nothing would ever be the same. But I had no regret in my heart—none at all.
He had started it one night when Mama was passed out. I slept in a double bed at the back of the house with Irene. She slept next to the wall. Something woke me up, and I could feel him there in the room. He touched my shoulder. I squinted my eyes tighter, trying to act like I was asleep. I could smell his breath before his words reached me.
Meshac, get up. Now.
He grabbed my arm and lifted me out of the bed onto my bare feet. I felt like I was going to wet myself right then.
What is it, George?
Come out to the car. I got something to show you.
I don’t want to, George. Let me go back to sleep.
He didn’t say anything—just squeezed my arm tighter and kind of lifted me off the floor and walked me to the door.
Let me get a blanket,
I whined. Goosebumps ran up my naked arms. Are we going somewhere?
No, get in the car.
He walked me down the back steps. I started around to the passenger side of the front seat, my bare feet wet from the grass and my nightgown no warmth at all. He picked me up as he opened the car’s back door. I felt empty and light like there was nothing to me at all. I started crying.
Please, George, I want to go back in the house.
Shut your damn mouth. I swear I will kill you and all you snotty little kids if you don’t shut up.
His voice was low. The words hissed like a snake in my ear. I knew he could do whatever he wanted to.
He raped me in the back seat of that Dodge DeSoto. The cloth seats smelled like wood smoke, and the upholstery scratched my face. I kicked my legs and threw punches, but it didn’t make any difference. He pinned me down and held both my skinny arms above my head. His weight crushed me on the outside and inside, too. I twisted my head to the side trying to get a breath of air. I stopped crying and held my breath. I prayed that I would suffocate and die right there. I knew this was wrong, and I knew that nobody would save me. Up until that night, I thought things would get better eventually. I didn’t know a lot about the world and grownup stuff, but I always pictured things being better later. After that I just thought about today. If I can make it through the day, then maybe I can make it through the night.
I stared at my bedroom window each night after that, trying to will a little crack of moonlight around the edges. No darkness, just light. That was my protection wish that never worked. I repeated it over and over as I tried to fall asleep at night. Then, Please, God, don’t let George come tonight.
But he did.
Now came the hard part. Getting rid of old dead George. That was how I was going to think about him from now on—old dead George. It had a nice ring to it. Kind of made me smile when I said it nice and slow—old dead George.
First of all, he hadn’t come down into the gully like I wanted him to so I could roll him over onto the tarp. I had hidden part of a canvas tarp there in the gully, and my plan was to roll him onto that, cinch up the sides real tight, and get him into the car trunk. Sad to say, I hadn’t planned that as well as the shooting. I drove the car down the road and across the fields as close to the body as I could. I was a little anxious about getting old dead George out of the open field now. I spread the tarp out and tried rolling him onto it. I nearly panicked then. Boy, was he heavy. Dead weight, I thought, and then got the giggles. My heart was pounding, but I knew I had to get him into the trunk. I finally got him wrapped up and had him sitting against the trunk.
I could not figure out what to do next. There was some blood on the ground, and the grass was trampled down where I had rolled and pushed him. I thought I might have to roll him back down to the bottom of the gully and leave him there. Then I saw a piece of metal hanging from the inside of the trunk where the lining was torn. I reached up and ripped