All Ways
By Kelly Coons
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"We've always been told that we're the ones who aren't communicating. That we need to use our words...or look at people's eyes. We've always been told that we're the ones who are wro
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All Ways - Kelly Coons
CHAPTER 1
A boy hunches over a grave of papers. The posters of The Killers and the soccer jerseys join him in mourning.
The city of Los Angeles is destroyed. This in and of itself is not unusual. The city of Los Angeles has been destroyed many times. He knows that from the movies. In 1953, Los Angeles was destroyed in a war of the worlds. In 1974, Los Angeles was destroyed in an earthquake. In 1984, Los Angeles was destroyed by a comet at night and the Terminator. The terminators came back in 1991 with a nuclear bomb. In 1996 came our Independence Day. 1991 was the year that the Soviet Union was destroyed. He knows it was destroyed because the new maps just call it Russia. Los Angeles is resilient. It comes back on the maps, year after year.
In all the movies Andreas has watched, though, he has never seen it get crushed. That usually happens to Tokyo.
Still, he mourns. The map used to be so big, but now, it is smushed, and all of the people—there used to be so many—are now smushed too. According to the 2010 census, Los Angeles has almost 4 million people—3,792,621 people, to be exact. He likes the census. Its website has a map. According to that website, Ridgecrest, California (although it is almost not California, considering how close it is to the Nevada border) only has 28,973 people. He is excited for the next census, although he wonders how many people will be born in 2020. In 2010, 97,257 (3,792,621 minus 3,695,364) people were born in Los Angeles. In 2010, 2,703 people were born in Ridgecrest. But he doesn’t like the map on the census website. It has big, ugly dots in greens and blues all smushed on top of each other. That map is not smushed.
His map is, though. Smushed. Just like the city of Los Angeles. He wails.
"Andreas, stop it! Get out of your brother’s room! We need to pick him up after his game today, and his room needs to be clean!" His mother grabs him, and he screams. He is still sad, but he’s also screaming because she’s grabbing him, her chipped fingernails like claws, squeezing his arm, making the skin squish, like the maps were squished, like the people on the maps were squished. He’s hitting the floor in the hallway, the wood rock-hard, as unswayed as a fault line, without a carpet to cushion the blow, and he smushes his butt. It hurts now.
His ears hurt too. She is vacuuming. He holds his head and curls up in the hallway. He rocks and moans, the overhead fluorescent light in the hallway burning his eyes from behind the sockets, and the ceiling fan whirring like a drill whittling away at stone, but the light and the fan and vacuuming go on and on: a never-ending mining expedition to his ever-quickening racing heart.
At some point, the vacuuming, at least, stops. He peers back into his brother’s room through the hallway door. His mother slams it open. She is standing in the doorway. She makes him look at her. There is an eyelash in her right eye. She blinks rapidly to make it go away, but it stays like the dots on the census map.
Say ‘sorry,’ Andreas,
his mother orders him. Repeat after me: ‘Sorry.’ ‘Sorry.’
He doesn’t know what he’s supposed to be apologizing for, and something on his face says that. The teachers tell him that his face can say a lot of things and so can other people’s. He knows that. He can listen to other people’s faces well enough. He just can’t see his own face, so he can’t listen to it.
His mother asks him to apologize again. Because he hit her. Andreas does not remember hitting her, but he is sorry. He knows hitting is bad, and he hates when he can’t remember that he did something bad. The teachers say that knowing when you have made a mistake is half the battle. He knows he is losing that battle.
Andreas holds up his tablet so he can say sorry to her, but she gives him a withering glare. "You need to say sorry, Andreas. No typing!"
She makes to take his tablet away, and the boy hugs it against his chest, where his heart feels like it is going to burst like an earthquake, but she looks at the time and mutters something under her breath. This conversation isn’t over,
she warns him.
His mother leaves the room, dragging the vacuum behind her. Andreas glares at it as it makes its escape. It is big and metal and gray, like a spaceship, retreating after the attack on Los Angeles in 1953. This spaceship sneaks under the radar because it, unlike the other spaceships, isn’t green. Andreas winces with every thump it makes against the steps.
Andreas hates the vacuum even more than he hates the census website.
He retreats into his brother’s room, but it’s too late. His maps, painstakingly arranged on the floor, city maps on top of state maps, and state maps on top of the map of the nation, are gone without a trace.
He was going to show them to his brother.
The shadow of his mother stretches over him. Stop crying about the maps! I’ve taken them away, so you don’t need to worry about them anymore! It’s time to go pick up your brother now. You need to look presentable. Come to the mirror with me! Can you say ‘mirror’? ‘Mir-ror…’
Not just the city of Los Angeles is destroyed now. He has maps of California, maps of the Pacific Time Zone, maps of the United States, maps of North America, and maps of the world. Now that those maps are destroyed, their places are doomed too. Andreas scrambles to the window and waits for the sun to be blotted out by his mother’s sneakers. The maps were stepped on. The world is underneath her feet.
CHAPTER 2
Andreas gasps as a snaggy knot causes his whole head to lurch. The woman rakes a hairbrush through the short, blond hair. As she tears at a final tangle, she puts her hands on her hips triumphantly. There, that’s better. Now you’re presentable.
Andreas watches the brows furrow. He knows what mirrors are. But the person looking back at him isn’t him. The person looking back at him is tall. They say five feet and three inches is tall for a twelve-year-old boy. But Andreas isn’t tall. The way people look at him, he knows he must be small. They make him sit down and look them in the eye and hold it, like clenching your stomach to hold in the pee, and so all he ever wants to do is run to the bathroom to look at nothing. He likes to watch that false image swirl down the toilet.
The person looking back at him has short blond hair. He knows, from the movies, that blond hair is attractive. There is a lot of blond hair in California. The boys with the blond hair get the fuzzy lighting and the swelling music and the kisses. No one has ever kissed Andreas. He knows the blond boys in the movies get girls kissing them, but he will take anyone. His brother and mother don’t count. When mothers kiss their kids, there isn’t any fuzzy lighting or swelling music. Andreas isn’t attractive. The person looking back at him in the mirror is wearing a zipper. Andreas doesn’t wear zippers. Zippers pinch his skin, and the metal is cold, and sometimes, the sun hits the metal, and it goes into his eyes.
The person in the mirror is who his mother wants him to be. It isn’t difficult to figure out. Not when his mother says so. Oh, how sweet! You look so handsome!
So his mother thinks this imposter is handsome. Andreas looks at the mirror. The woman behind him has long, brown hair, burnt into curls. She has tan skin puckered with dark blotches: the lingering effects of sunburn. She has caked on so much dark makeup that it makes her swamp-colored eyes look like they’re bulging hungrily. Andreas wonders what she sees when she looks at herself.
How can she be this excited for an image she constructed herself?
Andreas is not tall. Andreas is not attractive. Andreas does not wear zippers. Andreas is not like everyone else.
There is one thing that Andreas and the person in the mirror have in common. There is a scar across both of their right cheeks. He remembers this story. He dug his fingernails in, trying to dig out the pressure in his jaw from the clenching, from the screaming. Yes, he remembers. The reason why he was clenching was because Atlas, his cat, was hit by a car. He smiles at the memory of his cat.
He will always be sad that Atlas died. He will always be sad that Atlas was murdered, and no one went to jail, although it is the law that murderers go to jail, but the scar reminds him of Atlas before he died. Atlas would wake him up every morning by licking his right cheek. Atlas did that because he was hungry. If Andreas wouldn’t wake up quickly enough, Atlas would eat him! Atlas can’t wake him up anymore, but he is still with him—always. His cheek can’t get hit by a car.
He watches the person in the mirror smile back at him. He sticks his tongue out, a little to the left. He exhales the syllable: heeeee.
It’s Andreas’s smile.
His mother looks back in confusion, and the smile falls off her face. I can’t believe I almost forgot!
She digs into her purse and smears the scar remover cream all over his cheek. The scar remover cream doesn’t work, but the person in the mirror is unrecognizable regardless. Andreas would never hide the memento from Atlas.
* * *
They wait in the sun like cats, ready to capture something, in Ridgecrest High’s parking lot. Andreas recognizes the others from their cars. Junior Jalen’s guardians, Dominique and Riah, are in their white sedan. The whole Ortiz clan is coming to support their freshman, Gabriel, in their gray mini-van.
The other freshman on the team only has his father coming to support him, but Sadiq Senior is making up for it by transforming his plain, black car into a poster for school spirit on four wheels. Dion’s parents’ car trundles in despite the smushed front. The senior Eddie’s red convertible will be missed next year—even though it’s actually his older sister’s car.
Ivory and his twin sister, Ebony, share their gray Mini-Cooper; sometimes, when she has one of her basketball games, he needs to catch a ride with one of his teammates. He most often rides with Marquis, who has a mini-van come pick him up, although only one person ever comes to the parking lot.
By contrast, the tiny car that comes to pick up Marcus is always stuffed to the brim with people. Bob and Tom’s families have the exact same make and model of car; to differentiate them, they agreed to put their Ridgecrest High Soccer bumper stickers on opposite sides of their bumpers.
And then there’s player number eleven. He is the first one out of the bus. He’s talking excitedly to Coach Diego, confident, despite how the coach is dwarfing his 5’5" height and slim build. Andreas can tell that his brother is happy because his hands are flapping, causing his long, brown hair to bounce. He’s not trying to work out the snaggles with his fingers, and Coach Diego isn’t making those green eyes look at him. Andreas watches his brother’s hands. He sees the story his brother is telling: In the last thirty seconds of their game, York just barely blocked a final gambit from the opposing team. York says these things too, of course, but it’s so much better with the hands making the ball out of the air. Coach Diego understands that.
Their mother doesn’t. She runs up to the bus, making a bigger fuss than York ever did with her cries of Calm hands! Calm hands!
Andreas wonders how they are ever supposed to be normal, like she wants them to be, when she makes everything they do into a scene.
Mom, Mom!
York exclaims, hands continuing to punctuate his joy. Coach has been helping me, and we’ve been looking at the offer—
"What offer?" she roars, although York has told her before, but she spent the entire time forcing him to look her in the eyes.
All ten sets of eyes from the other soccer players at Ridgecrest High are staring at them. They were ignoring York before. Their expressions are the same, but now York has to look at them. Andreas’s cheeks burn for him.
Heh, sorry,