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Braided - Robert Speigel
Copyright © 2018, Robert Speigel
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without permission in writing from the publisher, except by reviewers, who may quote brief passages in a review.
ISBN Paperback: 978-0-937977-08-8
Ebook: 978-0-937977-09-5
Library of Congress Control Number 2021904689
Cover design by: Junriel Boquecosa
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Special thanks to Jarret Middleton (Darkansas), my developmental editor, Mary Anne Balch Speigel, my wife, lifemate, and fellow writer, my daughters, Jessica and Liz, and all my friends, teachers, and colleagues at Hugo House in Seattle WA for their patience and support while I fretted over Braided.
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Braided
A Not Not True Story
Robert Speigel
Speigel and Associates Inc
Overwhelmed by the discovery of her mother’s deception and the secrets of her ancestor’s origins, a young Seattleite slips deeper into prescription opioid addiction. Braided tells the story of how she discovers her true purpose during a deadly fentanyl overdose.
Mira’s body lies lifeless in her designer recliner, an empty pill bottle on the floor beside her. Her frozen eyes are no longer able to see the Seattle city lights sparkling below, and her lungs no longer able to breathe the fresh Puget Sound air. Joined by the spirit of Jakob, who departed his body lying dead on the bloody battlefield of Lexington, Massachusetts on April 19, 1775, their spirits hover together near the ceiling of her downtown high-rise.
Braided is a journey worth taking. It is an eloquently woven story about a modern woman whose view of herself and the world around her evolves in many unforeseen ways. Mr. Speigel creates compelling characters with unique voices and perspectives. The psychological twists and turns will have the reader embracing the not, not true nature of her travels.
Christina Cahill, Managing Director, HUMANITAS Prize
My first impression was….Wow, what a terrific beach read! I’m enjoying the sun and salty breeze as I read a hugely entertaining and accessible book. Then you had me. The story turned deeper and deeper, more complex and shaded. Ultimately Braided is a story and study of human foibles, family systems and dysfunction, religious thought, Holocaust, theology, and mysticism.
Rabbi Samuel K. Joseph, PhD
Professor Emeritus of Jewish Education, Hebrew Union College
For My Daughters,
Jessica and Elizabeth,
who helped teach me what is not not true.
Prologue
The lead projectile pierced his eyebrow, spun him around, and brought the two of them face to face. His eyes stretched wide and lifeless, as blood spilled from the gaping hole just under his hairline. The fluid braided into crimson rivulets that weaved down both sides of his nose, over his chin, then disappeared into the brick-red fabric of his colonial military coat. While his comrade collapsed onto the lush grass of the Lexington Town Green, Jakob broke into a full sprint, disappearing into the trees before his friend’s face hit the ground.
Moments earlier, they’d marched together into the field of battle to the rhythm and tones of the drum and fife corps. Jakob’s position had been second from the left in the third line of infantry, just a few steps from the tree line. The lieutenant told them the enemy would advance into range and engage them as they stood waiting, perhaps 125 to 150 yards away. They were not to shoot until the enemy fired their first volley. The lieutenant demanded the front line drop to one knee and raise their muskets into the ready position as the line behind raised their muskets in unison. Both lines of colonials would fire a fusillade after the enemy fired. Heavy casualties always accompanied this timeworn and formal method of warfare.
Jakob had been scanning the horizon for a sign of the enemy’s presence when his comrade had spun and faced him. He’d heard no shot ring out; only the sound of the fife and drum prevailed. A force unknown to him over which he had no control demanded he retreat and run for his life. His military training had not prepared him for this. Only a few years earlier, he’d been playing with friends on hot summer days. They would swing from a rope they’d hung in the branches overhanging the lake to drop into the cool water below. Nothing could have prepared him for this.
The sound of branches snapping underfoot signaled he was not alone.
Danke Gott, Jakob thought to himself in his native Hessian tongue. Perhaps others had run with him.
Find the coward; don’t let him get away!
an officer shouted.
Jakob dropped his musket to the ground, wriggled out of his rucksack, and fled. The sound of boots pounding ground only a few yards behind filled his ears. Knowing he could not outrun them, Jakob dove into a heavy thicket of winterberry bushes and sank to the ground, disappearing—or so he thought.
Silence surrounded him. He buried his face in his sleeve to quiet his quick and shallow breath. Sweat ran over his scalp, down his forehead, and off the end of his nose. He lay motionless in the bushes, his mind filled with the image of crimson blood flowing down his friend’s face. He’d seen other faces contorted with shock and pain as their bodies fell, first to their knees, then face down into the sweet grass below. The dense weave of foliage surrounding him refused to muffle the continuing cacophony of musket blasts—lead balls finding home, unforgiving. The stench of gunpowder and death filled his nostrils. He burrowed deeper into the tangle of winterberry.
Without warning, vise-like hands seized Jakob’s ankles and dragged him from his lair. He looked away from his comrades’ faces.
Coward, deserter, you sorry excuse for a man,
they shouted at him. You’re worthless and a failure. You are nothing.
Without warning, searing pain pierced Jakob’s chest. A spike of war impaled him, exiting through his back—the bayonet of his own superior officer. Exquisite agony burned a path through his shoulder blade. Jakob turned away from his executioner, unable to look into his eyes.
Mortal shame dripped from his being. Black shrouds of worthlessness transformed him into a paltry being of no value. He reeked of inferiority, destined to die a failure. The officer’s thrust dispatched Jakob to hell, forever immersing him in shame and dishonor. He believed no one would remember him; they would forget him for all time. As his lifeblood spilled into the soil beneath him and his breathing slowed to nothingness, a single question passed through his dying mind: Was this my only purpose in life?
His eyes opened for one last look of life. His executioner stood over him, gripping his stiletto spear in place as his rage-filled eyes spilled over with disgust. Jakob stared into the brick-red of his lieutenant’s field jacket. His disgust became Jakob’s disgust. Jakob branded himself a coward and a traitor with no human worth, destined to travel for eternity without redemption.
As Jakob’s eyes shuddered and closed for the last time, his gaze fell upon the officer’s right shoulder, bringing into focus a single silken aiguillette adorning the sleeve of his field coat. The braided scarlet rope filled his eyes as he sank into darkness.
Cold swaddled him.
Oblivion enveloped him.
A final shallow breath entered Jakob’s lungs, only to remain unbreathed.
All was still . . . all was still.
All but for the sound of a distant, imperceptible voice.
1
The two women talking at the table behind the window at the Starbucks distracted Mira from her mission as she walked by. Both ladies sported graying ginger hair, one with it double braided to each side of her head and the other with a long single thick braid hanging down from the center. They wore dresses of a forgotten era, flowered, old European.
The two paused their conversation and looked at her in unison. Did they know her? Their expressions invited her to join them—to take a break from her hurried chaos, to have a cup of tea, and sit and talk with them for just a moment.
Mira’s face flushed red, and panic rushed through her body. She turned her head to the street, where she imagined everyone in the passing cars was looking directly at her. Her heart pounded in her chest, and her breathing stopped. She turned back to the table a second later but found it empty. Her eyes dropped to the sidewalk as she reached out to the wall of the building to steady herself.
She hated these moments when reality merged with unreality. They were nightmarish and frightened her and becoming more frequent in the last few months. Becoming used to them scared her the most. She leaned up against the building for a moment to catch her breath. A passerby stopped to ask her if she was alright. She answered she was fine. Perhaps the stress of work was getting to her, and she hadn’t been sleeping well. Finally, she pulled herself together, refocused on her goal, and brought her eyes forward. The doorway to the Walgreens was just a few steps away, and she soon found herself in line at the pharmacy counter after stopping to pick up her needed props.
As she stood waiting for her turn at the counter, Mira felt beads of sweat break from her armpits. She cycled between Instagram and Twitter on her iPhone while moving up to the next position in line. The moistness in her palms and the subtle twitch of her right hand betrayed her calm facade.
Why is that bitch taking so long to check out? she thought. What could they be talking about?
Off to her left, a clean-cut guy at the cold and flu shelf caught her attention, interrupting her mind rant. Was he a store dick? Mira had scanned the aisles looking for any plainclothes security people on her way to the prescription department, but she hadn’t noticed him until now. Her heartbeat quickened, and a metallic taste entered her mouth. A quick right turn would get her the fuck out of there, but she’d taken her last oxy this morning, and she needed more now.
The red and black Sudafed boxes lined up on the shelf next to the suspicious guy caught her attention. Mira’s heart raced, and her vision fuzzed. She felt lightheaded, and her knees weakened. Fuck . . . Fuck!
She muttered to herself. Pull it together,
but the delusion had already taken over. The red background printed on the sides of the Sudafed boxes started to bleed out and weave into the ginger braids of the women she'd seen sitting back at the Starbucks. Finally, her vision completely washed over in red and transported her out of the Walgreens.
Now, she walked on her way home from middle school on a brisk November day. She stopped for a bag of chips and a soft drink at her neighborhood drugstore. As she walked to the checkout counter, she looked around to make sure no one watched and placed herself behind a column away from the store video camera. Then, she reached out to scoop a box of Sudafed off the shelf and drop it unnoticed into her schoolbag.
She’d started abusing Sudafed in seventh grade after a pediatrician prescribed it for an acute sinus infection. Besides relieving her congestion, she’d discovered it provided the kick she needed to wake up at 7:00 a.m. every day to get to school and stay awake. So she took it almost every day, honing her technique for shoplifting it from drugstores around town. Her mother never knew, or at least never noticed.
Fuck,
said Mira, reaching out into space next to her, seeking any solid object available to steady herself as her mind returned to the present.
Are you OK?
asked a woman behind her.
I’m OK,
Mira mumbled back.
Mira looked up to see that the pharmacy counter had cleared, so she refocused her attention on the task at hand. She stepped forward and slowed her breathing to regain her composure. She looked at the floor and formed the hint of a seductive smile at the corner of her mouth as she walked. At the counter, Mira placed her carefully selected props onto the counter beside the cash register and looked up at the pharmacist. She fumbled through her purse before pulling a crisp slip of paper out, along with her health insurance card.
Hidden beneath her blood-red silken blouse and slate-grey corporate suit jacket, a sleeve of colorful tattoos crept from her wrist to her shoulder. Spikes of hair dyed black to cover her naturally curly ginger locks and trimmed short framed her forehead and ears. She concealed her waxed ginger eyebrows with a similar camouflage of onyx dye. A single slender crimson braid crept down her nape and disappeared behind the fabric of her jacket. Soft curves of subtle cleavage peeked out from the carefully positioned lapels of her blouse, framing her diminutive chest. And yet, her precisely constructed persona encrusted a fragile and deeply fissured spirit.
She raised her head, locked eyes with the man wearing the starched-white smock, and held out the slip. His eyes, fiftyish and tired, darted to the deep-blue box of Trojan Extra Ribbed condoms she’d deposited on the counter. She noticed his breath quicken a little. Was she too obvious?
The pharmacist looked up at her for a moment before his eyes fell back to the prescription slip he held between his thumb and forefinger. It was a perfect replica of the real thing, right down to the logo she’d lifted from the Polyclinic website and the unreadable signature of the imaginary doctor who’d penned it. It had taken her all of fifteen minutes to mock it up in Adobe Illustrator. While he read it, her gaze darted back and scanned for the guy at the cold-and-flu counter. Where was he? She located him over by first aid. Did he see her looking? She could still walk away, but the pharmacist already held the evidence of her crime in his hand with her name all over it. His eyes moved back to hers once more. When their eyes met again, she tilted her head a bit to the right and reminded herself to breathe.
The pharmacist snuck a glance at her subtle exposure, then went back to the condoms before picking up the prescription slip. She wondered for an instant if he believed the slip was legit, then noticed he rerouted his attention back to the curve of her cleavage and the package of Trojan condoms.
He cleared his throat. Give me a few minutes; I’ll have this right up for you.
While she waited at the counter, a small voice inside her wondered if she had tried this once too often. She imagined Seattle police officers emerging from behind the counter, cuffing her, throwing her in the back seat of a cruiser, and carting her off to fake-prescription jail. She escaped that thought by fuming about the previous eight hours she’d spent at Amazon dealing with her boss.
Growing at an insane pace, Amazon had little regard for humanistic screening or training for their personnel. As a result, their ill-prepared and inexperienced employees struggled to perform complex tasks when promoted.
Amazon had recruited Mira eight months earlier. They’d stolen her away from her position at Microsoft, her first job after completing her undergraduate training. She’d worked at Microsoft for eight years as a project manager, made good money, and had her stock options vested. But boredom plagued her, and she needed a change. Her friends played musical chairs with the voracious Seattle tech companies and convinced her to join them after Amazon gobbled them up.
Alcohol, weed, and parties had been her primary majors in college. She’d completed her bachelor of arts in business, thinking everyone needed to know about business, didn’t they? Unfortunately, she’d created no clear visions of her personal or professional goals, and now she made way too much money as a Bus Dev
manager at Amazon to alter her course. Some part of her knew that she’d traded one rut for another when she left Microsoft. Hell, she hardly knew what business development meant and wondered if her boss knew. Everyone at Amazon seemed more concerned about maintaining headcount
than job performance.
During her sophomore year of college, she took Introduction to Psychology to round out her schedule and became intrigued by much of the content. Although she couldn’t explain it, something in it resonated with her in a way she’d never experienced before. Then, one day during class, she read a quote from Carl Jung and burst into tears. He said, One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.
As she read his words, tears filled her eyes. Then, through a thick veil of grief, a dark and terrifying image emerged for an instant: a python directly in front of her face with eyes glowing orange-red. The viper disappeared as quickly as it had come. A teaching assistant noticed and approached her after class, asking if she was all right. She said she was fine, turned around, and walked out of class. She disappeared before the assistant had time to tell her about the free counseling center available to her on campus.
Mira was the only home-grown Seattleite in her multicultural division at Amazon. Her natural scholastic aptitude, paired with her second-place academic standing in her high school graduating class and her multiethnic look, earned her a full-ride scholarship through Stanford’s School of Business. After she earned her undergraduate degree, they enticed her to remain in California to complete her MBA, with the offer of an assistantship that included living expenses. Microsoft recruiters were all over the Stanford campus,