Many Roads to Home: New York to California
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Many Roads to Home: New York to California reveals Virginia Wink Hilton’s inner and outer journey from the 1950s to the 1980s as she rears her three children and embraces an exciting, fulfilling vocation. The story follows the arc of one woman’s awakening, paralleling a country’s awakening to women forging their own paths and manifesting their own dreams. In pursuing her desire to become a psychotherapist, Hilton discovered her true self and her rightful home, the life she wanted to live as opposed to the life that was predetermined for her at a very early age.
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Many Roads to Home - Virginia Wink Hilton
CULTURE SHOCK, 1956
It was 5 p.m.: The train arrived on time, the doors jolted open, and dozens of serious-faced people poured out ahead of us onto the dark platform. And suddenly they were gone. Walter and I looked at each other—we’d better get out of here before this door closes!
I leaned against the door to make sure it stayed open while we tugged at our luggage and boxes and pushed them onto the platform. We looked around us, and then again at each other. No conductor? No red caps? No. No one. We were absolutely alone.
We had arrived at Pennsylvania Station in New York City, our final destination. At the end of the platform we saw a wide staircase with so many steps we couldn’t see the top. We hauled our stuff to the bottom of the staircase, but how were we going to get our belongings up those endless stairs? Walter picked up two suitcases and began trudging upward. I stayed behind with two more suitcases and two boxes, nervously looking around at the dark, cavernous surroundings and mumbling to myself, My parents would have been happy to buy us airplane tickets!
But Walter had insisted we go by train from Houston to New York City—coach class—to save money. We had packed up our wedding presents in barrels and left them in Dallas, bringing with us clothing and minimal supplies to furnish our student rooms at Union Seminary, where Walter would begin his Bachelor of Divinity studies. I would go across the street to Barnard College for my senior year.
Leaving the suitcases on the edge of the landing, Walter raced back down the stairs where I was anxiously waiting. We then grabbed all that was left, and I pulled and tugged two heavy suitcases up one stair at a time, gasping for breath, resting in between. Finally, we reached the top with all our belongings safely intact, relieved, and not quite fully aware of all the risks that surrounded us.
We made it!
Walter shouted with glee.
I can’t believe what we just did,
I responded glumly.
We continued across the wide hallway of the terminal, making our way past small shops and food stands, slowly pulling, sometimes pushing a suitcase or kicking a box until, after what seemed an interminable amount of time, we managed to get through the revolving doors and out into the late afternoon light of New York City.
We looked around us, awestruck. The buildings, taller than any we had ever seen, the noise of traffic, the unique smells of the city—unbelievable! This was our new home. I clutched Walter’s arm and tried to take it in. There we were, two fresh-faced, naïve kids from Texas, weary from travel, speechless, and excited by the first few minutes in this place that would change each of us forever.
We’d better locate a taxi,
Walter said, finding his voice. A gaunt man, leaning against his vehicle nearby, eyed us and our multiple carry-ons and sauntered over.
Where to?
he asked, expressionless.
Broadway and 122nd Street,
Walter replied, his anxious voice clearly signaling that we had no idea where we were or where we were going. The man said nothing and began loading the bags and boxes into the trunk of his cab. We got into the back seat. How many cabs had we ridden in our lifetime? This might have been the first.
The taxi began its journey in a direction we thought might be north. We ambled through rush hour traffic, and after some time we began to see theatre marquees, with names of shows we would attend soon after. After the theatre district, the cab turned west and entered the West Side Highway, driving alongside the Hudson River until the George Washington Bridge was in sight, then back down through busy neighborhoods. Finally, the taxi pulled to a stop, and the street signs indicated we had arrived at our destination.
The cab driver turned to us and said, That will be $34.
Walter looked at me, panic-stricken. We didn’t have that much money left! I sat frozen. What would we do? Then, with miraculous timing, out of the dormitory door emerged a familiar face. It was Walter’s cousin, Dave, who was a third-year student! He recognized us and saw our distress. Walter shook hands with this relative whom he had seen only a couple of times, and had written to about our impending arrival at the seminary. Dave, a very quiet, studious sort of guy, paid the cab driver, giving him a stern look but saying nothing. As the cab drove away Dave informed us dryly that the fare should have been no more than $18—our first experience of being taken
for a very long ride.
We entered the dormitory and dropped our belongings inside two small rooms on the first floor, where we would share the kitchen and bathrooms with other married couples. We were hungry and exhausted, and our cab ride had left us in a state of shock. But we were in for yet another.
In the evening, Dave took us to a little restaurant two blocks away on Morningside Drive. We ordered the cheapest thing on the menu—a hamburger for ninety cents. In our famished state we imagined the burgers would be like the ones we loved from the little stand near the SMU campus: juicy meat, curly lettuce, large tomato slices, pickles and onions on a bun dripping with mayonnaise, with tasty French fries—all for twenty-five cents! What arrived in front of us was a dry bun with a small, hard-as-rock meat patty. Period. The waitress plopped down bottles of catsup and mustard and walked away. We looked at each other in disbelief.
This is it? This is what we get in New York City? Help! We’ve died and gone to hell!
So how did we get from Texas to New York City? The story begins at Southern Methodist University in Dallas, Texas.
SMU
In the fall of 1953, I entered SMU, a different world for me. The girls in my dorm arrived in their cars from different towns across Texas and the nearby states of Oklahoma, Louisiana, and Alabama. They wore their stylish dresses, circular felt skirts, and saddle shoes. And many of them brought their mink stoles for winter.
Most were immediately engaged in sorority rush. Getting into the right
fraternity or sorority was a priority for the majority of SMU students. Not me. Months before I had seen the movie, Take Care of My Little Girl (starring the popular actress, Jeanne Crain), which focused on the snobbishness of sororities, and the pain of exclusion. I found this un-Christian,
and I vowed not to join one. So, I attempted to find friends and a roommate among like-minded students. My mother, realizing immediately the significance of the Greek organizations on the SMU campus, said to me, Why don’t you go ahead and join a sorority, and then you can change their attitudes?
(She actually said that!)
No, thank you,
I replied. But, during the first semester, I slowly began to change my mind. The campus-wide focus on and commitment to these organizations rather quickly overcame my objections. At midterm, during the second round of sorority rush, I was a candidate. Pledging a sorority meant finding your social status. And that status was based upon a number of things: your family’s financial level often played a big role, as well as popularity in high school and physical appearance. Judgments were made on both sides—by the sorority and the potential pledge. For me, the Pi Beta Phis were too rich, the Kappa Kappa Gammas were all blond (or so it seemed). The Kappa Alpha Thetas seemed just right. One of their leaders was a Methodist minister’s daughter, and I thought that was a good sign. I chose Theta, and Theta chose me.
Betsy Singleton, a Dallas girl, Mina Fields, a like-minded freshman from Abilene, and Georgene Wollgast, from Denver, became my closest sorority friends. And friends we’d remain!
There was another organization that soon had my full loyalty: MSM, the Methodist Student Movement. Since SMU was a Methodist school, it drew other students who had a strong background in the denomination, and a commitment to its central characteristics: religious but not fundamentalist, a liberal perspective on social issues, and commitment to social action. A man named Bill was hired by MSM as leader and councilor of the organization, and he felt like a safe parent figure in the midst of the major life-change. And through MSM I made many friends, some of whom I would remain in contact with for life: Marty King (Brockway), Betty Crump (Hanson), Rebecca Sloan (Bowers), Helen Benton (Williams).
Sorority Sisters—40 years later
And then there were the boys. George Durson, Charles Scott, Pat Green. And Walter Wink. He was a year ahead of me, and he was a leader in MSM. We got acquainted through the meetings there, and we went out several times. But, to my disappointment, Walter began dating the beautiful Rebecca Sloan. That relationship ended when she switched her attention to a senior—the handsome football player and premed student, Malcolm Bowers, who eventually became her husband.
Through MSM a few of us formed a prayer group that met for a half-hour or so at lunchtime during the weekdays. Needless to say, we were good
students—no smoking or drinking or bad
behavior.
Because I believed my calling
was to be a minister’s wife, I was drawn to date pretheology students. Occasionally I accepted other dates. One night I went out with a member of SAE (known to be a partying fraternity). At the end of the evening, while parked in front of the dormitory, he attempted to kiss me. I demurred, since I didn’t kiss on a first date. His closing comment to me was, You’re the kind of girl I want to marry, but not the kind I want to date.
I was very pleased with myself!
For several months during my freshman year, I dated Pat Green. He was a cute, somewhat short, lively guy, and a pretheologue.
Pat, like Walter, was a member of Phi Gamma Delta fraternity, known as the Fijis.
Toward the end of spring, he invited me to their annual Fiji Island Ball. Dressed up in island attire—I in a sarong and he in a matching man-sarong, leis around our necks—we made our way to an extravagant outdoor luau. Before we joined the crowd, Pat took me behind a tree, pulled me close to him, and planted a big, open-mouth kiss on my lips. My reaction was one I’d never experienced before (even though I had certainly done a good bit of kissing by then). And I felt that powerful feeling through my entire body and down to my toes. But then I panicked. I thought to myself, I’ll never make it through college [as a virgin]! As I was standing next to Pat in the darkness, suddenly an image of Walter ran through my head and I thought, Walter will save me!—meaning, he would save my virginity.
That’s what I thought. That’s what he projected. He was disciplined, scrupled, a committed Christian. I could count on him to do the right thing. To save me.
The school year was almost over, and one evening after an MSM meeting, Walter told me that he was going to go to Oregon for the summer to work in a lumber mill. I mentioned to him that there was a CFO—Camp Farthest Out—meeting in Oregon and that maybe he should consider going. Camp Farthest Out was a religious retreat founded by Glenn Clark, a well-known author of spiritual books, and was held in different locations across the country. I had told him about my mother’s initial life-changing experience at CFO, and my family’s frequent attendance at the camps since. He was interested. He said we would keep in touch during the summer so he could get specific information.
We did stay in contact. And he went to CFO for a week, which turned out to be one of the most impactful of Walter’s life.
When I returned to school after the summer break, I moved into Peyton Hall with my Theta friend, Betsy Singleton. We made good roommates, and she saw to it that things were kept neat and tidy. Betty Crump and Rebecca Sloan roomed across the hall from us.
Walter got in touch with me immediately, saying he wanted to tell me all about his experiences at Camp Farthest Out. We spent that first evening sitting in lawn chairs in his backyard. It was cool enough on that September evening, and the almost full moon added to the romantic energy in the air.
As we sat, inching the chairs closer and closer together as the night wore on, Walter described what had taken place during his week at CFO. He was inspired by the talks, the singing, the devotions in motion
(soft exercises to music at the beginning of each day). The spiritual quality to the gathering was something quite new to him, and inspiring. One aspect was new to me; also attending this particular Camp was an unusual group of people who practiced glossolalia, speaking in tongues.
Walter was initially quite taken by this, and I was a little freaked out. But I listened intently and was thrilled that we now shared what had been quite significant in my life: Camp Farthest Out.
We looked up at the moon, held each other, and knew that a life together had begun.
I liked the courses I took my freshman year: social studies, Earth science, Spanish (as in the public schools of Texas, so poorly taught)—but it was my English course that confirmed my love of literature and locked me into my major for the next four years. In my junior year I was particularly fond of a philosophy teacher—an extremely smart, loveable old Texas guy (who pronounced Kant as can’t). Another favorite was a course entitled the history of American ideas. (I have always regretted not learning more about European history, and not taking French.)
I got well acquainted with the professors in the English department, because during my sophomore year I became one of their secretaries. College