A Hundred Suns: A Novel
By Karin Tanabe
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"A transporting historical novel, and a smart thriller."— Washington Post
"A luscious setting combined with a sinister, sizzling plot." -EW
A faraway land.
A family’s dynasty.
A trail of secrets that could shatter their glamorous lifestyle.
On a humid afternoon in 1933, American Jessie Lesage steps off a boat from Paris and onto the shores of Vietnam. Accompanying her French husband Victor, an heir to the Michelin rubber fortune, she’s certain that their new life is full of promise, for while the rest of the world is sinking into economic depression, Indochine is gold for the Michelins. Jessie knows that the vast plantations near Saigon are the key to the family’s prosperity, and though they have recently been marred in scandal, she needs them to succeed for her husband’s sake—and to ensure that the life she left behind in America stays buried in the past.
Jessie dives into the glamorous colonial world, where money is king and morals are brushed aside, and meets Marcelle de Fabry, a spellbinding expat with a wealthy Indochinese lover, the silk tycoon Khoi Nguyen. Descending on Jessie’s world like a hurricane, Marcelle proves to be an exuberant guide to colonial life. But hidden beneath her vivacious exterior is a fierce desire to put the colony back in the hands of its people––starting with the Michelin plantations.
It doesn’t take long for the sun-drenched days and champagne-soaked nights to catch up with Jessie. With an increasingly fractured mind, her affection for Indochine falters. And as a fiery political struggle builds around her, Jessie begins to wonder what’s real in a friendship that she suspects may be nothing but a house of cards.
Motivated by love, driven by ambition, and seeking self-preservation at all costs, Jessie and Marcelle each toe the line between friend and foe, ethics and excess. Cast against the stylish backdrop of 1920s Paris and 1930s Indochine, in a time and place defined by contrasts and convictions, Karin Tanabe's A Hundred Suns is historical fiction at its lush, suspenseful best.
Karin Tanabe
Karin Tanabe is the author of A Woman of Intelligence, The Gilded Years, The Price of Inheritance, A Hundred Suns, The Diplomat’s Daughter, and The List. A former Politico reporter, her writing has also appeared in the Miami Herald, Chicago Tribune, Newsday, and The Washington Post. She has made frequent appearances as a celebrity and politics expert on Entertainment Tonight, CNN, and The CBS Early Show. A graduate of Vassar College, Karin lives in Washington, DC. To learn more visit KarinTanabe.com.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Historical fiction set in French Indochina, present day Vietnam, in the 1930s. Protagonist Jessie Lesage, an American with a troubled childhood, has arrived in Hanoi from Paris with her French husband, Victor Michelin Lesage, and young daughter, Lucie. Victor is the new manager of the Michelin rubber plantations near Saigon, which have recently been a source of scandal. Jessie meets French expat Marcelle de Fabray, a glamorous woman having an affair with an Indochinese silk magnate. The story is told in alternating points of view by Jessie and Marcelle.
The historical fiction portion of this book is very well done. It conveys a sense of place and time. The narrative portrays the lavish life of French expatriates, contrasted against the poverty and grim working conditions of the local residents. It covers the rise of communist, anti-communist, and anti-colonialist sentiments.
The less effective part, for me, is the attempt to turn the story into a thriller. Is someone gaslighting Jessie? Is she losing her mind? Jessie is harboring the secrets of her past. Dramatic tension is attained by gradually revealing these secrets. While it contains elements of a psychological thriller, it is not fast-paced or tense until near the end.
The dialogue is not particularly well-written. It is not the way people speak. Lots of “information dumping” takes place through characters talking to each other. I am sure the author felt a need to provide readers with a history lesson, but there are other ways. I found the epilogue unnecessary, but I am, in general, not a fan of epilogues.
So, the positives and negatives offset. I liked the historical parts and disliked the thriller sections. I think readers who enjoy twists and turns will like this book more than I did. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Hundred Suns by Karin Tanabe caught my interest for it's setting in 1930s Indochine (later, Vietnam) under French colonial rule. Tanabe's protagonist Jesse plotted a life to escape the crushing poverty and abuse of her childhood. She achieved an education and became a teacher, then travels to Paris. When she catches a wealthy relation to the Michelin family, she is set up for life. They are in love and have a daughter.She has kept her past a secret, so when a woman from her previous life shows up in Paris she is desperate to flee and convinces her husband Vincent to request a position overseeing the Michelin Indochine rubber plantations.Tanabe's portrait of Indochine's beauty, tropical climate, and decadent expat society is vivid and beautifully rendered. High society--white and rich only, of course--has a veneer of respectability. The men indulge in sexual freedoms with the local women, the women indulge in leisure and alcohol, and everyone uses cocaine freely. Vincent's success depends on keeping production high and expenditures low. He works to improve the quality of life for the local workers--the 'coolies.' But overseers deal out cruel punishment to any who try to unionize and fight for humane treatment., the leaders tortured or murdered.Jesse is taken under wing by the beautiful French woman Marcelle. Marcelle has an agenda. She is a communist and hates colonization and the Michelin family, who were responsible for killing the Indochine man loved by her best friend. Her Indochine lover Khoi is wealthy and gorgeous; by law, they are not allowed to marry. The couple lure Jesse into compromising situations. Marcelle plots to drive Jesse and Victor back to France.Jesse strives to help her husband in his work, but also experiences strange psychotic episodes and struggles with self-doubt. I enjoyed reading the novel for it's setting and the suspense kept me turning pages. As readers come to understand the characters and their motivations deeper, the delineation between good and evil become blurred. Colonization and unbridled capitalism are shown to be the true evils. The 'coolies' are virtual slaves, contracting to work for three years in brutal conditions. When workers strive to organize for better treatment they suffer dire consequences, while the French are given lenient punishments for crimes. A corrupt system corrupts those in the system. There are scenes of sexual activity and a glimpse into the torture of communist leaders on the plantation, and stories of abuse suffered by Jesse and her siblings. The novel will appeal to a wide range of readers--historical fiction, women's fiction, suspense and thrillers, and those who enjoy exotic settings. It is the perfect beach read.I received a free book from the publisher through Book Club Cook Book. My review is fair and unbiased.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5In the 1930's, Jessie and her husband Victor, travel from Paris to Indochina. Victor, a Michelin, has been sent to oversee their rubber plantations. Jessie meets Marcelle, a woman who instantly befriends Jessie. Behind the scenes, Marcelle is working to oust the Michelin's, and transform the nation to communism.The book was an interesting and intriguing read. Both the setting and the characters were exotic and fascinating. Jessie's back story was unraveled in pieces, providing depth to her character as the book progressed. I highly enjoyed this book, and look forward to reading more from this author.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5More of a thriller, less about the situation in the plantations and treatment of natives.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Fascinating historical fiction with a touch of psychological suspense.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Vietnam, SE Asia, family-dynamics, friendship, historical-research, historical-novel*****The more things change, the more they stay the same. I remembered that maxim countless times as I read this saga. This is the early times of the long French IndoChinese conflicts about colonialism vs communism (think Dr Siri Paiboun) but of the more privileged classes. I had some issues with some of the characters' portrayals but overall I loved it despite the irregular pacing (it reallly dragged in some places).I requested and received a free ebook copy from St. Martin's Press via NetGalley.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5*I received a copy of this book from the publisher.*I don't know why so few authors have written about French Indochina, but this novel makes for a fascinating story of the colony and the people who lived there in the early twentieth century. The central characters in this novel - the American Jessie, her French husband Victor, her frenemy Marcelle, and Marcelle's Vietnamese lover Khoi - live luxurious lives in a French colony in which wealth is created by massive plantations and poorly compensated natives. For all their scheming, Marcelle and Khoi recognize the flaws in the system and are actively involved in communist recruitment. But they also have a very personal interest in Jessie and her husband and hatch a scheme to run the couple out of Indochina. The schemes and twists make this novel fun to read, but I was left unsatisfied by the moral bargains so many characters settled on, even if they were realistic to the era.
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A Hundred Suns - Karin Tanabe
ONE
Jessie
November 20, 1933
The house of a hundred suns. That’s what my tai xe called it. The first time he ferried me to the train station, in a black Delahaye 134 as polished as a gemstone, he slowly circled the building, avoiding the rawboned rickshaw drivers. I craned my neck, watching as the car’s exhaust left a trail behind us like a mollusk’s track, and tried my best to concentrate on his words, not the quick tempo of my heart.
When I was young,
Lanh explained, moving his white-gloved hands to the top of the large metal steering wheel, the government posted hand-painted advertisements all over the city boasting that railroad construction was booming and that one day the country would have one hundred train stations. I promised myself that I would visit every single one in my lifetime. There were several versions of the advertisement, with different stations featured, but all of them had a bright, many-rayed sun painted at the top. I used to trace those suns with my hand when I passed the posters on my way to school, as the government was kind enough to put them in the poorer neighborhoods, too.
He turned the car smoothly, his voice quietly laced with enthusiasm. But as you can see, all roads, even railroads, begin right here. Hanoi. Even if they build a hundred suns in Indochine, this will always be number one. That’s why it gets to be the house, the orb. The rest are simply rays.
How many have you visited so far?
I asked.
Thirteen,
he replied. But I’m still quite young.
He cleared his throat and in his pleasant baritone added, I once told a Frenchman that I called this station the house of a hundred suns, and he laughed in my face. He said, ‘Lanh, don’t be fooled by appearances. Most of those train stops that the government boasts about are in the middle of nowhere and have a train go through every three days at best. The sun shines on them, but they’re also full of malaria and poverty. The rest of Indochine is not like Hanoi.’ He called Hanoi ‘a city kissed by the French.’ He said that the French had brushed their lips against Saigon as well, but that the rest of the country was still waiting to be kissed.
Lanh shifted his grip and said, "I don’t see it that way, madame." He caught my eye in the rearview mirror and smiled. It was unexpected, since as a good chauffeur, he knew to keep his gaze on the road and not on his employer or, worse, his employer’s wife. But Lanh must have sensed that on that particular day I would appreciate the personal connection and wouldn’t mind a breach of etiquette.
Those iron tracks mean freedom. They mean a life away from the one you were born into,
he said softly. "You’ll see. It will grow in importance to you. The house of a hundred suns. Nhà Trăm Thái Dương, as I say in my language."
I had only been in Indochine for thirty-three days, having arrived from Paris on the first Saturday in September 1933, after a month-long endurance test of a trip, including a four-day sandstorm in the Suez Canal and the dark, shark-dotted waters of the vast Indian Ocean. But on that sun-soaked day in Hanoi, alone with Lanh, it was not my arduous journey to the Orient but my new life that was weighing on me.
Since arriving in the bustling colonial city with my husband, Victor, and our little daughter, Lucie, I had barely left the inviting neighborhood where we lived. The streets were wide and welcoming, and all our neighbors were French. But after a month had ticked quickly by, Victor decided that I’d had more than enough time to get used to Indochine—the singsong tones of the language; the rush of the rickshaws, or les pousse-pousse, as the French called them, as they zigzagged along the avenues en masse; the tan faces shaded by conical hats; the sea of black eyes when they peeled their hats off; the places where the French went to avoid all of it—and that I should see the country outside Hanoi.
The city of Haiphong, to the east of Hanoi, on the coast, was a fine place to start. It was where our boat had come to port and wasn’t entirely foreign to me. The train journey took only six hours, and the first-class cars were touted as luxurious, matching the comfort of any in Europe. French Indochine was our home now, Victor reminded me. It could be for some time—three years, perhaps. Or if he did well in his position, overseeing the vast Michelin rubber plantations in the south in Cochinchina—one of the five French colonies and protectorates that made up Indochine—then perhaps even longer. I couldn’t just spend my time in the house, even if it was lovely.
Our house was painted yellow ochre, set off by dark green shutters on every window, and the sun seemed to be drawn to it, turning the walls gold as it sank in the late evenings. Inside, the rooms were painted a vanilla white and the floors were dark gray and white patterned encaustic tiles, each measuring nearly two feet across. The four staircases were marble, with curved iron railings, and there were balconies or terraces on every floor. The imposing architecture was softened by the comforting whispers of servants who seemed to float through the halls like spirits, their black-and-white raw silk and muslin garments billowing slightly as they hurried from room to room.
I had wanted Victor to accompany me on the trip to Haiphong, but in the end, I traveled alone.
You’ll feel the country more that way, anyhow,
Victor had said.
Two hours after sunrise, on that October day, Lanh drove me to the Hanoi train station on the route Mandarine. It was an elegant building, constructed from gleaming white limestone and marble, wide and long like a birthday cake, with an elaborate facade. A central clock watched over it all, ticking soundlessly. To Lanh it may have been the house of a hundred suns, but with its French Second Empire style, it felt like a sliver of Paris to me. That feeling of home—as Paris had been my home for eight years—along with the idea of Lanh’s suns warming me, had helped me slip out of the car and onto the train with a brief surge of confidence.
Earlier that morning, after a breakfast of fried eggs and rice, I had dressed in the outfit chosen for me by my servant Trieu, and the hat she had topped it off with was a flat-brimmed affair in a cheerful geranium red, with only a thin similarly colored ribbon for adornment. It was a shade that a very confident woman would wear, she said. I felt like an impostor in it.
Of course, my husband was right. That train trip had brought me a changed perspective of Indochine and had helped me understand how I could define my role as the wife of a Michelin in the colony. It also introduced me to the vast countryside, the stretches of verdant land that existed between cities. It was the parts of the country that the French neglected to change that were the most charming, I observed. I devoured the landscape from the half-open train window, losing myself in the hypnotic churn of the heavy iron wheels, taking in the local stations, all curved and molded in the French aesthetic, imagining Lanh ticking them off a list he’d penned as a child. In the weeks following the trip, those images had also helped pacify me when I was exposed to the country’s darker elements.
The geranium-colored hat had become a good-luck charm. This November morning, I had placed it on my head again. Victor, Lucie, and I—as a family—were taking the train a bit down the coast to Vinh, a town near Cua Lo Beach. Victor said it was a wide white-sand beach, one of the best in Indochine, and was dotted with large villas built by the French. In two days, we were to meet Victor’s young cousin Roland and his family, who were in from Clermont-Ferrand, the seat of the Michelin factories in central France. They were not Lesages like us. They were Michelins. The family was considering staying in Indochine for a month or two, and we were tasked with showing them the best of the country. In his letter to us, Victor’s uncle Édouard—who was in truth his mother’s cousin, but always called uncle out of respect—had made it clear that Roland and his family were to fall in love with the colony at once, as his nephew had found trouble in France in the form of an expensive, press-seeking mistress. He wanted Roland to disappear overseas for a stretch. He also wanted him to find a much cheaper mistress in the process, preferably one that knew very little French, apart from the dirty words.
Best behavior,
I said to Lucie as her servant, her thi-ba, bathed her.
Lucie tilted her head back for Cam to rinse it and closed her eyes, bracing herself in the long, claw-foot tub. You’re not allowed to speak English to me when we are on best behavior,
she rightly pointed out.
I’m well aware,
I said, rubbing my eyes. I sat on the little pink chaise in the corner and inspected the white dress Cam had pressed for Lucie. When we had first arrived, the servants had consulted me about all of Lucie’s clothes and diversions, but I soon learned that they knew much more about how rich little French girls should dress and act in the colony than I did. Seeing me touching the dress, Cam asked if it was to my liking—a mere formality, we both knew. I smiled and nodded, thinking for a moment about the shapeless, stained clothes I had worn as a girl. They were always too big—dark and practical dresses, pants rolled up at the hem so they would last for years instead of months. I had hated them. I touched Lucie’s traveling dress, fingering the starched cotton skirt and white satin waist bow.
Just an hour later, Lucie was in her dress, trying not to crumple it, as we made our way in the Delahaye to the house of a hundred suns. Her dark hair was brushed and plaited, with white satin ribbons at the end, tied up in stiff bows that stood a chance of surviving the twelve-hour train trip ahead of us.
I told her to stop fussing and she inched closer to me, fanning out her skirt around her. I gazed out the window, pretending to observe the only other car gliding down our street in our quiet neighborhood, but I was mentally going through every ensemble Trieu had packed for me, making sure they were fashionable enough in the face of the Michelin fortune. Victor was a Michelin through his mother, Agathe. We were Michelins, too, he reminded us. But we weren’t those Michelins. We weren’t the ones directly descended from the Michelin et Cie founders, brothers Édouard and André Michelin. The pair had taken over the then fifty-year-old family rubber business in the 1880s and reinvented it. Michelin went from making small rubber items and farm machinery to popularizing the rubber bicycle tire, putting their rubber on the first automobile to run on pneumatic tires, creating the Michelin guides so no one had to eat or sleep badly on their journeys—they even built the first paved runway, and during the Great War helped the government design a plane and assisted in building nearly two thousand Breguet aircrafts in their Clermont-Ferrand plant. But Victor, and I, had been kept at more than arm’s length from these activities for years. Unlike most of the family, we’d never been perched at the seat of company activity in Clermont-Ferrand, where the family and all their employees made the rubber tires spin. We were trying to change that with our efforts in Indochine. Édouard had told Victor that if he succeeded in the colony, then he could succeed anywhere, even in Clermont-Ferrand.
The evening dresses my servant and I had selected could be a problem, I worried. I’d been losing weight the last few months and had been afraid to try them on before packing them, not wanting to know if they were loose in the bust. But now I was angry with myself for such stupidity. The Michelin women were always so beautifully turned out, wearing the latest fashions from Paris, even though Clermont-Ferrand was miles from the capital, and I, with my American sensibility, never seemed to choose the right thing, even with the generous budget Victor provided.
I let my breath out slowly, desperate to calm my nerves, and tried to concentrate on the sensation of little Lucie next to me. She was moving her fingers absentmindedly against my palm, stroking my gold rings, as if she knew I needed to relax.
Lucie had taken to the country upon arrival, having always been too wild for the elegant streets of Paris. A tan thing with ink-black hair, she looked practically native from the back. Like us, she had studied Annamese for six months before leaving, important mostly for Victor, who wanted to have a basic understanding of the language before being surrounded by thousands of native laborers. I had first called the language Indochinese but was swiftly corrected by Victor, who told me that natives of Indochine were referred to as Annamite, their language Annamese. "It comes from the center region of Indochine, which is Annam. Sometimes the residents of Tonkin are called Tonkinese, and the residents of the south Cochinchinese. It’s all terribly confusing but do try to say anything besides ‘Indochinese’ or else you will sound very new." Victor learned the customs and the language quite quickly, but nowhere near as fast as Lucie. In the two and a half months that we had been in Hanoi, Lucie had started speaking full sentences, even conversing at length with the staff, which made her a curiosity among les indigènes and a cause for concern in the French community, whose children were rarely allowed to learn the local language. The rich Annamites sent their children to France to be educated, not the opposite, the French women I had met reminded me, but I was never one to prevent learning. It was fascinating to watch the speed of the process, the wheels of her curious mind twirling like a pinwheel. One day she had been shyly hiding under the fabric of her servant’s ao trying to string the few phrases she knew together, and a few weeks later she was telling the same servant stories in Annamese. Now all the servants, from the cook to the chauffeur, were teaching her to write Chinese characters and the more modern, simpler script, Quoc Ngu. She only wrote out a word or two a day, but I knew they were building up in her mind like a pyramid.
Lucie’s nose on my wrist, smelling my orange-flower perfume, brought me back to the present, and I peeked over the bench at Victor, who was next to Lanh, fussing with a pile of papers full of figures. They covered his knees, resting precariously on his beige linen travel suit.
It was a familiar sight. I listened to the sounds of Hanoi as my heart beat quickly, my body refusing to calm down, as we waited for the station to come into view. It was Lucie who spotted it first. "Regarde, maman, the house of a hundred suns!" she exclaimed cheerfully. Since Lanh had told her about that name, she hadn’t called it anything else.
It’s prettier every time I see it,
I said and patted her exposed leg, thin and muscular like a dancer’s. Victor had wanted Lucie to take ballet lessons, to do a few things in Hanoi that little French girls enjoyed in Paris, but she preferred to run wild—riding her bicycle on the wide streets of our neighborhood, buying penny candy in the open-air markets with the servants—and she was still young enough that her father allowed her to.
Jessie, close the window, please,
Victor said from the front seat, trying to hold his papers still.
I desperately needed the air but rolled it up immediately anyway. I tilted my hat so I could lean against the glass instead. Though it wasn’t quite right for the winter season, the hat still felt like a talisman, something with a hint of magic instead of just a pretty geranium-colored accessory.
Do you like the house of a hundred suns better than the Gare Saint-Lazare?
I asked Lucie quietly, getting in my last few phrases in English to her before we stepped into a public place and French took over again. Our home in Paris had been just a ten-minute stroll from Saint-Lazare.
I’m starting to forget Paris,
she replied in a tiny voice, not wanting to disturb her father.
It has only been a few months, Lucie,
I said, unable to hide my alarm. And no one can forget Paris. It’s the most wonderful place in the world. Spend just one day there and it finds its way inside you, even someone young like you. The memories you make in Paris are thicker than cartilage.
I could tell she was about to ask me what cartilage was, but she paused and laid her head against my arm instead.
I remember that it rained every day,
she whispered, and that Mademoiselle DuPont would tell me not to play in the elevator or I would be trapped inside and have to live there forever. In the elevator. But no one lives in elevators, do they?
It did not rain every day,
I corrected her.
The bread in Paris was tastier. But I like rice, too,
she said loudly, and then pressed her lips together when she realized her volume.
"Enough of that, mes chéries, said Victor, implying our English.
We’re arriving."
Annamite men and women, most in their straight-cut traditional clothes, moved in a wave to make room for our car as we pulled up right under the station clock. Lucie smiled at the rickshaw coolies staring at us, and I turned to greet the porter who had approached the car, opening the door on Victor’s side before Lanh had even turned off the engine. The man, whose eyes were friendly, though cloudy with age and cataracts, greeted us in Annamese and helped Lanh remove our bags from the trunk.
Please be careful with that one. The handle needs to be repaired,
I told him quietly, not wanting Victor to hear me. I knew he wouldn’t be pleased that I had accidentally brought a broken suitcase on the journey. I could have blamed a servant, but it was something I never did, which was why they were so loyal to us.
He doesn’t speak French,
Lucie said, stepping in front of me, translating what I’d said. The porter smiled at her and took the case into his arms instead of holding the crooked handle.
I reached into my purse for a tip but was interrupted by the stationmaster, who barked at the man to keep moving and hurried over to greet us.
Madame Lesage, I saw the car and was hoping you were inside,
he said, executing a quick, polite bow. And your husband, of course,
he added when Victor opened his door and nodded at him. And Lucie,
the stationmaster said, slipping her a piece of hard candy from his pocket. The most intelligent child in Indochine.
He added a phrase in Annamese, and she answered readily, pointing at her father behind her.
Let me help you inside,
the stationmaster said to me, ushering us in and shooing off the line of weathered men hawking food, fortunes, and shoe shines.
As I passed under the archway, I took a slow, deep breath, something that had become a ritual. The air changed a few inches from the train station. It was richer, as if the smells of the rest of the country had been brought up to Hanoi by the steam engines but weren’t strong enough to make it farther into the city and mix with us.
You’re very kind to escort us in,
Victor said politely to the stationmaster as we all walked, a tense half smile on his face. But we will be fine from here,
he said. He stopped and gestured to one of the waiting areas. We wouldn’t want to pull you from your duties.
He handed the man a few coins and nodded at him in a way that implied we didn’t want to be bothered again. The man disappeared as quickly as he had come, managing a subtle wink at Lucie as he backed away. Victor was not a particularly tall or physically imposing man, but there was something in his demeanor that brought him an enormous amount of respect and obedience. Perhaps it was the scent of money.
It’s just part of his job,
I murmured to Victor as we sat on the wooden benches.
Yes, and he’s very good at it,
he said, smiling at me, his black hair slicked neatly with pomade. "But I need to get back to these papers. I don’t have the patience for small talk today—except with you, mon coeur," he said to Lucie, who was hovering in front of him. Victor could have looked Annamite from the back, too, but he carried himself too rigidly—a posture that marked out well-bred Europeans in the colony. And from the front, his glacial-blue eyes gave him away instantly.
Lucie was still standing, shifting her weight from one thin leg to the other as if she were trying to float. When I realized it was because she didn’t want to dirty her dress, I stood with her and kissed the top of her head, warm from just the few steps in the unforgiving sun. You do know there’s a half day’s train journey ahead?
I said. You’ll have to sit sometime.
Those benches over there look a bit cleaner,
she said, pointing and pulling my hand. May we sit there instead?
I nodded yes, and we turned to the east side of the station, Lucie leading the way. We had almost reached the row of more modern benches when she was suddenly struck by a boy who was rushing toward us. She tumbled back, her body forcefully colliding with the wooden bench.
Careful, boy!
my husband shouted after he heard me gasp, leaping up and pushing the child off of Lucie.
The boy, a shoeblack, grinned, not bothering to look at her, and suggested a shine, pointing at Victor’s brogues.
After this!
Victor snorted, pointing at Lucie and shouting out the few insults he knew in Annamese. You’re lucky I don’t have you banned from the station.
He shooed the child away with one of his rolled-up papers, hitting him across the back.
I held Lucie by the shoulders. She was looking down at her dress in horror. On the upper part of her starched white skirt was a black checkmark-shaped swoop of shoe polish.
"Maman! she cried, staring at the stain.
He ruined my dress, she whispered, tears quickly forming in the corner of her eyes.
I can’t go on the train like this," she said, sobbing.
No, Lucie, no, don’t cry,
I said, embracing her, but making sure to avoid the stain. "I’ll take you to wash it. We can scrub it out, don’t worry, chérie." I patted her on the shoulder.
Take her to the washroom,
said Victor, stroking Lucie’s head comfortingly. I’ll wait here.
He gestured to the bench closest to the bathroom.
I nodded and pushed Lucie the few steps to the door.
When we were inside, and luckily alone, Lucie pulled her skirt up and looked at the mark.
Are you sure it will come out?
she asked, dropping the fabric and wiping at her tears.
Of course,
I said brightly, reaching for a hand towel. I wet it and soaped it up before starting to scrub.
We watched as my right hand moved back and forth and I tugged at the garment with my left. But all that did was spread the black stain, so I crouched down on the floor, hoping to get a better angle. It was not going to be easy to remove.
I scrubbed as hard as I could and listened as her sobs quieted. When I looked up and smiled at her, happy that the mark was turning gray, black spots started swimming before my eyes and I had to bend my head quickly down to avoid falling over.
"Maman?" I heard her say, but her voice sounded far away.
I just feel a bit faint,
I said, standing up carefully. Feeling dizzier, I gripped the sink and closed my eyes, letting my head drop heavily forward. With my eyes still closed, I turned on the water. I placed one of my hands under the stream, keeping the other on the sink for balance.
When I felt a little steadier, I bent down and drank from the sink, lapping the cool water in large gulps. I stayed like that for a few moments, feeling as if my thirst would never be quenched.
I’m sorry, Lucie,
I mumbled when I felt I could stand up again without help. I wiped off my mouth, glanced in the mirror briefly, surprised by my pale reflection, then whipped my head to my left.
Lucie was no longer standing next to me.
Lucie?
I exclaimed, turning around to the stalls. They were empty. Lucie!
I called out, running in a circle in the little room. She wasn’t anywhere.
She was gone.
I ran out to the waiting room and checked the bench Victor had pointed to, but she wasn’t there, either. Neither was Victor.
Lucie!
I shouted, rushing between the benches, all packed with travelers, and out to the central space. Victor!
The station was crowded, and I suddenly felt as if I were swimming in a sea of bodies, when I should have been able to spot them so easily.
What could have happened? Lucie wasn’t a child who wandered off, but perhaps she had something pressing to say to her father or wanted our cases back so she could change her dress. Perhaps the shoeblack had convinced Victor to get a shine after all. I stared at the empty bench a few seconds more, then swiveled to look at the row of benches where Lucie had wanted to sit. They weren’t there, either. I looked up at the clock inside the station. There were still ten minutes before the train down the coast was due to arrive.
It was a large station. And they could be anywhere.
Fearing the worst, I walked the length of the building, avoiding the small groups of Indochinese men in three-piece traveling suits, their hair deeply parted and slicked down, leather bags at their sides. I moved through the left and right wings, the center hall twice, then out the back door to the platform with the rows of tracks. They weren’t there, so I hurried out to the front again to see if they were with the vendors. There were no children and no men who resembled Victor.
I looked at all the peasants peddling wares, some shirtless and half asleep in the shade, all too thin, their hands listless, their long yellow fingernails pointing down, their skin deeply darkened by the sun. I stopped and questioned the one nearest to the door.
Did you see a man, a Frenchman, in a beige tropical suit and a little girl here?
I asked him, glancing at his calloused bare feet and his pile of sugarcane. Lucie loved sugarcane and was still taken with the fact that people consumed the sweet substance in raw form in Indochine. How I wished she were here now, chewing the fibrous stalk.
"Sugarcane, madame?" the vendor asked in French.
No,
I said, shaking my head vigorously. But did you happen to see—
He waved his sugarcane again, repeating his request through his smile. It was foolish to think the sugarcane vendor would have understood more than a few words in French. I repeated the phrase in Annamese, to the best of my abilities, but he just shook his head no. Lucie would have translated better than I did. Where was she? And where was Victor! I gave the vendor a few coins and backed away.
I ran back inside, my lungs tight, my breath shallow, and checked the clock above the ticket booth. The train to Vinh was set to arrive in two minutes. I rushed to the rear of the building, exited onto the platform, and inspected the scrum of travelers. One man I recognized from the French Officers’ Club. He gave me a friendly smile, and I returned it but quickly twisted myself to the side to avoid his gaze, a new wave of panic crashing on me. I pulled down my hat and looked at every person standing on the platform except for him. I looked at them twice. I walked across the platform and stared at them from the other side. I even went to the edge and glanced down at the tracks, holding my breath, praying that my husband and child weren’t lying there, unnoticed yet flattened and dismembered, but there was nothing but steel and tufts of grass poking up between the ties.
There were still no bells ringing to indicate the arriving train, so I slipped back inside to see whether Lucie might be in the ladies’ room looking for me. She was not. I again covered every inch of the station, indoors and out. There was no Lucie, no Victor. My head felt heavy, yet I was filled with an almost painful energy that refused to dissipate. I ran back to the waiting area, sat on the wooden bench where we had left Victor, and started to sob. If Victor were with me, he would have been deeply mortified by the state I was in, but he wasn’t. He wasn’t anywhere.
I dried my face with the edge of my sleeve. My eyes were tired, unfocused, but I felt compelled to blink the feeling away and keep searching through the blur.
I stood up and darted off again, this time nearly tripping the stationmaster, who was headed to the main entrance, surely to greet another rich French family in hopes of a big tip. He stopped abruptly when he saw me.
Madame Lesage!
he exclaimed, taking his handkerchief out of his pocket and pressing it into my hand in one elegant movement. What is the matter? Please sit down here,
he said, guiding me to a wooden bench in the waiting area.
No!
I snapped through my sobs. I need to sit there! Right there. They’ll be coming to find me.
I indicated the bench where Victor had been. He nodded, his hand outstretched to guide the way.
Can I assist you in some way, Madame Lesage?
he asked after we sat, handing me yet another starched handkerchief as I continued to cry. I hadn’t used the first one yet.
Yes. I hope you can,
I sputtered, clenching his handkerchiefs in my fist. Something just went terribly wrong.
I’m sure I can help,
he said gently. That’s why I’m here. Please tell me what’s upsetting you.
I looked up at his concerned face and tried to get the words out.
Just a few minutes ago I went to the washroom to clean my daughter Lucie’s dress,
I said. To get out a shoe-polish stain. A boy, a shoeblack soliciting my husband’s business, had pushed up against her with his greasy brush, making a terrible mark on her white dress. But I couldn’t wash it out. Then, I don’t know what happened. I closed my eyes for a few seconds, perhaps a minute at most, and when I opened them, Lucie was gone. I ran out to find her, but she’s not anywhere in the station—and I’ve looked everywhere—and neither is my husband, Victor, who was supposed to wait for us right here.
I slapped the bench we were sitting on. He’s not here sitting where he’s supposed to be waiting for me, and Lucie’s not anywhere, either. I’ve been running all over the station for fifteen minutes now, but I can’t find them. I’m alone, and we are going to miss our train to Vinh. We have to meet Victor’s cousin. It’s a very important trip, and now he and Lucie have disappeared. They’re gone!
The stationmaster nodded and looked at me, not unkindly but blankly, as if he had failed to follow me.
I stared back at him, thinking that perhaps I had mistaken idiocy for kindness.
Why are you looking at me like that?
I blurted out. "Don’t you understand me? Don’t you understand?" I knew I sounded horribly rude, but I needed him to help me.
He shifted slightly but said nothing, and instead of crying again, I dropped my gaze to the gold nameplate on his jacket. Pham Van Dat. After nearly two months in Indochine and many hours waiting for trains, greeted each time by the same stationmaster, I had never bothered to learn his name.
Monsieur Dat, I beg you,
I said quietly. Please help me find them. We have to meet Victor’s cousin tonight. We must have already missed the morning train, but perhaps there is one later today? We must be on that one. Together. Please help me find them.
You say that you are looking for your husband and daughter? Victor and Lucie Lesage?
he said slowly.
Of course!
I bellowed. You just greeted us outside a half hour ago! Who else would I be looking for?
He shook his head and laced his hands together. "But madame, I’m afraid you’re mistaken, he said, meeting my gaze.
I did greet you a half hour ago, as you said, but it was just you in the black car. Just you and your chauffeur. There was no husband and child. You were alone."
Alone.
It couldn’t be. The stationmaster was mistaken.
No, Monsieur Dat. You are mistaken,
I said, shaking my head. "Of course they were with me. We are all journeying to Vinh together, as I said. To see Victor’s Michelin cousin. A young but important one. He and his wife—she’s from the La Trémoille family—they are nhan vat quan trong, I said, using the Annamese words for notable persons.
Victor, Lucie, and I—we are all here in this station somewhere. We came here, together!"
He shook his head again. "Madame, I saw the black car from my perch outside just thirty or so minutes ago, he said.
And even when it was still moving, I saw you and your red hat inside. I knew when I saw the hat that it was you, as I’ve seen you wear it before, on more than one occasion. And Madame Lesage, he finished up, his spine straightening,
do not think me rude, but I am sure it was you getting out of the Delahaye car. Alone. You are a difficult person not to notice. He looked at me with concern and repeated,
I am sure you were alone."
That can’t be,
I insisted. "You are not remembering correctly."
I rested my heavy head in my hands, my vision blurring even more, and closed my eyes. We traveled together to the station,
I repeated, feeling queasy. We came inside together. Victor, Lucie, and I.
I lifted my head with a jerk, propelled by a sudden idea. Lanh will tell you!
I said loudly. "Please call my tai xe now. I insist. Phone our house. Lanh will have returned. And our servants saw us all off this morning. Please phone them, I begged.
Ask for Lanh, or Trieu. One of them should answer straightaway."
Of course,
he said, standing up.
When he had left, I looked at the restroom, holding my breath, waiting for Lucie to skip out of it. Was she still refusing to sit, afraid to wrinkle her now stained dress? Had they really wandered off? Or had something happened to them? Had they been taken away by force? Everyone knew who Victor was. Our wealth wasn’t what some thought we had, but it was still more than nearly everyone else in Indochine.
I rubbed my eyes, but I still had to squint to see the stationmaster returning.
Did you phone, Monsieur Dat? Did you speak to Lanh? Or Trieu?
I asked anxiously when he was close.
Yes, Madame Lesage,
he replied, his voice even. I made the call myself and spoke to Madame Trieu. I’m sorry, but she said that she saw you off this morning, alone. That your husband and daughter are in Trang An for the day. To see the caves.
Caves! What are you talking about?
I cried out. They are here, with me. Victor doesn’t have time to take Lucie to inspect caves. Please help me look again, please.
Of course we can look again, Madame Lesage,
he said kindly. Perhaps they arrived in a separate car. Perhaps I just didn’t see them.
In the center of the station, coming in from the five round archways, I spotted the porter who had helped me with my broken suitcase, the one with the cloudy brown eyes. I wanted to beckon him over. To ask him if he remembered Lucie speaking to him in Annamese. Little Lucie with her dimpled face, overly pressed and powdered by her maid. Lucie, who cared far more for Indochine than France now. But instead I turned away. I knew what he’d say, and I couldn’t hear it from one more person. I clenched my teeth together and tried to set my mind straight. My roiling, heavy mind.
I straightened my back against the hard, polished wood of the bench.
Yes, yes, I could be remembering it wrong,
I said calmly, forcing a smile. But I knew I wasn’t. We were together in the car. Lucie’s hands were fiddling with my gold rings, her thin, tan leg was next to mine, her perfectly formed head against my shoulder. The way she rubbed her foot against my uncovered ankle, sitting so close even though the back seat of the Delahaye was very wide—I could still feel the sensation lingering.
Come, we shall look again,
said the stationmaster, waiting patiently for me to stand.
I rose but felt like screaming out in frustration. Even though I had just asked to, I did not want to search the station again, pecking my way through the crowd like a chicken without a head. What I wanted was my family next to me.
When you helped me enter the station, did I have a suitcase?
I asked.
You did!
he said enthusiastically. It had a broken handle. You handed it to a porter here,
he said, looking around for the man. I explained to him that it was broken and that he should carry it from the base. Cradle it.
You explained that to him?
I asked, feeling my stomach churn.
Yes,
said the stationmaster, his worried look returning. Would you like me to fetch your suitcase for you? Perhaps that would help your mem—
I found the strength to smile, the corners of my mouth quivering, my eyes blurring again, and interrupted him. You’ve been very kind. I’m sorry to have been such a bother, Monsieur Dat. You’re right about everything, I’m sure. I must just be remembering incorrectly. Perhaps I’m unwell.
May I fetch a doctor?
he asked, stepping closer, but I shook my head and backed away from him. I’m unwell,
I repeated. I must be. I’m terribly sorry.
I turned around and ran as fast as I could in my brand-new, barely creased shoes toward the nearest exit.
I hurried to the left wing of the station, to the corner door that Lanh had pointed out to me on our first journey there, and slipped out, past the cars heading to the main entrance, past the line of coolies and the calls from the vendors, into the shadows of voie A. It was a narrow road that ran parallel to the large avenue that the station was on, the route Mandarine. Voie A, like the other narrow roads surrounding it, was full of Annamite workers shading themselves with newspapers or sheltering under tattered store awnings. I paused to catch my breath, my throat dry and aching from thirst, and shut my eyes tight, imagining Lucie’s little voice, her hand on