Desperately Seeking Sex
By Nabila Geron
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Lonely and need an outlet to channel her sexual energy. With high strength and determination, as an adult, she wanted to take a walk on the wild side and explore the mysterious world of sexual encounters. She found men who allowed her dreams to be turned into a reality as her inner curiosity was satisfied. The sexual experience is one that threa
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Desperately Seeking Sex - Nabila Geron
NABILA GERON
DESPERATELY
SEEKING
SEX
N
G
Bookalicious Group Inc.
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Copyright © 2020 by Nabila Geron
This is a work of non-fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are real. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is non-coincidental. Unauthorized distribution is prohibited.
ISBN # 978-1-0879-1242-4
AUTHOR’S NOTE
Please Be Advised: The following book is intended for mature and insensitive audiences and contains Adult Content, Strong Sexual Content, and Offensive Language. Like, I’ll leave it up to you… But… You gotta know about this stuff before getting into this whole thing you know?
To the reader:
WARNING
If you dare to read this story, you become a percipient.
A person who has a good understanding of things; perceptive. Thank you
DORITO JAY
(timeframe: 1984 – 1993)
Dear Isa,
I was born with Treacher Collins Syndrome in December of 1970. Microtia ears made me deaf, which was why I had to wear bone-conduction hearing aids. They didn't make them anymore. I was a light-skinned black female, with thick, shoulder-length hair. I also had an elongated, protruding jaw, which was why some black children called me a monkey. My eyelids drooped. I weighed a hundred-pound and was five feet tall, with an average-looking body. I grew up in Memphis, Tennessee.
***
Marriage was never on my mind because I was around my mom and sister, who were not married. I didn't know how to live with a man. My father wasn't around. My mom brought men into the house. I could remember their names: Otis, Claiborne, and then Joe. My mom and my dad were divorced. When I was growing up, it seemed like every night she and a man were sitting on the couch, watching TV.
My sister was the same. I remembered her ex-boyfriends’ names: Vincent, Patrick, and Vernon. I would walk into the living room, which had a dark orange, leather sofa to find my older sister, Phyllis, kissing a young man. But I never had a boyfriend and still don't. I didn’t know how to French kiss.
My mother was a light-skinned Black, and my sister and I were, too. My mom was around forty-five years old. She always had short, thin hair and wore makeup. My sister was around twenty-one. She used to wear makeup and kept her hair short; her hair was thicker than my mom’s. But my hair was thicker than my sister's. She was pretty and thin, with perky breasts. My mom had a nice face with some moles and a pudgy body.
I was around fifteen years old. I was never envious of them, with their love life and normal faces. I just thought it was normal for me.
I had many men later in my life. I never settled down. It seemed like every few years I have been with a man. I had never been in a love relationship. I have just had friends with benefits that were short-term. I never looked for a new man, men approached me.
I didn't know why some people think it was strange that I didn't have a boyfriend. They didn't understand my situation. No boy ever asked me out on a date. I was too ugly, I accepted that, no hard feelings. I didn't notice that I was different. Some people thought my life is just like theirs. But it’s not.
***
In 1986, the yellow special Type B, twenty-four seats, 1980s bus came from the north and down the street, then parked in front of the driveway, waiting for me. I lived in the orange-reddish house with black bars on the windows and front door on Don Street. It was a middle-class neighborhood, with a mostly Black population in the Westwood area. We had a nice, beautiful, green lawn. It was fall, of course.
Rushing out the house, I hopped onto the bus, sitting nearly in the back. Resting my knees up against the back of the seat, sitting in the fetus position, I decided to sit on the right side this time.
I felt like going to school was endless. But it was the first day of school. I was in seventh grade. The bus driver took a left on Parkrose, passing by Mount Vernon church, then right onto Ford Road. It seemed like the same route we took last year, going to Richland Elementary. After picking up Samuel and Danny, the bus driver took a different route from what we had ever taken. I wondered who the bus driver was picking up. We entered the Westhaven area, on Shelby Drive, turning left on Neely Road, and then another left I believe. I don't remember the street well. But I always drove to his house by memory. I can read and write. But I just don't remember the name of the street he lived on.
The boy, Jay, was sitting on the left side of the bus, always smiled after he looked back at me. He was in the third row. I was in the fifth row. He seemed cute, with curly, short black hair and light-skinned black. I just ignored him.
I never spoke to Jay. He looked back to glance and smile at me every ten minutes. I didn’t know why.
I enjoyed the bus ride from Don Street to Mason, twenty-six miles. But the bus picked up twenty students, one by one. It took two hours to get to school. I didn't mind, because I had a cute boy, Jay who I could look at every weekday.
The bus dropped some of us, including me, off first at White Station Middle School. Jay and the other kids were dropped off somewhere else because he was much younger than me, around twelve years old. White Station Middle School was on 5465 Mason Road in Memphis and was about ninety percent of white students when I went there.
***
The room for the hearing impaired was in a trailer, separated from the normal children. The hearing-impaired children are separated from normal children. I felt segregated as if I was in the 1960s. The only time I got to blend in with the normal children was when I went to mainstream classes, which meant there would be three or four of us hearing impaired in a class full of normal classmates with a sign language interpreter, sitting up front, on the far side. The interpreter was never in the middle section or the back of the class.
I was so happy to finally leave Richland Elementary on 5440 Rich Road in Memphis. I knew I should have been in high school at the age of fifteen, but I was kept in Richland Elementary for what felt like forever. The teachers kept saying that I wasn't ready. They were being so ignorant. My facial appearance doesn’t affect my brain. I told them that if they didn't let me leave Richland Elementary, I wouldn't study anymore. I was done. So, they finally let me go to White Station Middle School.
Our trailers there were parked between Richland Elementary and White Station Middle School at J J Brennan Park.
I was with a nice brunette, Mrs. Regan. She looked more like Rachael Ray from the Food Network. It was nice to be in a new environment, meeting new people.
***
When I got to White Station Middle School, I had an English class with Mrs. Mosby. I met hearing impaired classmates Michelle and Robbie, and the ASL interpreter, Nancy. And the rest of my twenty classmates were hearing.
English was tough for me. I couldn't really read. I was thinking that as long as I know where to put the s
, ed
, was, am, and stuff like that, but I didn't know the rest of the English-language structure. I couldn't understand the sentence at all. It seemed like I went from third-grade English level to seventh-grade English level.
The ASL interpreter, Nancy, had this long, brunette hair, about thirteen inches, covering up her breasts. She was white, nearly heavy set. She helped me.
She proofread my papers and gave them back to me. Wrong, correct it again.
I stared at the sentence for five minutes, trying to find out what error I missed. I read the sentence but never knew what the sentence meant. I looked for whether I needed to put an s
or ed
or not. I was very thankful for Nancy who was also a special ed teacher.
***
I did make friends with the normal students, the twins, Nina and Tina, and Stephanie. Michelle and I always sat with them at the table in the cafeteria.
***
Then there was Joe. Joe married my mother in April of 1985. There was also my stepsister Shauna. They both were dark-skinned black, with a brownish color skin tone.
I was older than Shauna. Shauna was an average body type, but she was taller than me. Joe had a robust beer belly, and always having a goatee.
The orange couch was gone, replaced with a beige floral sofa bed. My sister Phyllis joined the Navy. I had a new sister, Shauna, to tolerate. My life was changing dramatically like I had started another life.
I never thought Joe was going to be my stepfather. I thought he was going to go away, like Otis and Claiborne.
Otis had afro hairstyle; Phyllis called him a football head. He was light-skinned, too, caramel-like me. And Claiborne, who was overweight, had a brown skin tone. What I liked most about him is his album collection. I only liked listening to Michael Jackson's "Off the wall" album. I didn't remember ever hearing those songs on the radio in the car.
I was so thankful for Joe. I really was. I didn't realize he was a true friend and wanted to be family to me. He really accepted me for who I was. Sadly, I gave him a hard time. Phyllis and Shauna acted like they didn't really appreciate me. I felt like Cinderella.
***
From 1987 to 1989, I had to go to White Station High School, which was on 514 South Perkins Road in Memphis. I didn’t understand why they had White Station High School and White Station Middle School, they might as well have a White Station Elementary School.
I had ridden the yellow bus, which drove up to someone's house and picked up a hearing-impaired student. The bus was no longer going to Jay’s house. Instead, we went straight to Oakshire Elementary School to pick up Michelle, who was from Hernando, Mississippi. Her mother drove from Hernando to Memphis and parked in Oakshire's parking lot. The bus driver picked up Michelle and then went on to the school. No JAY. Jay wasn’t on the bus anymore. I was so sad.
Michelle and I became close friends. Her skin was so pale, and she had wavy, medium-length, blondish brown hair. I also didn't see Robbie. He had braces and was an average-looking white teenager. I figured he had probably gone to the Tennessee School for the Deaf.
***
Every time the yellow bus parked in front of Berenda’s house, we had to wait over thirty minutes for her to get ready. Her older brother would have to wake her up and they would be in a fight. The bus driver kept honking the horn every five minutes. The bus driver was a slightly overweight, dark-skinned black woman with jerry curls.
She was short-tempered. I'mma leave, seems like every day with this girl.
If I were the bus driver, I would have left her. The bus driver shouldn’t have to wait for Berenda for more than five minutes. Every day, we waited around thirty minutes for Berenda to wake up, put on clothes, and hurry up to get on the bus.
Berenda finally climbed into the bus, crying, and sometimes sitting next to me.
Scoot over, scoot over, god damnit, I hate school!!
she whined.
Her mom named her Berenda instead of Brenda. She was six feet tall, with wide hips. She needed the whole seat for herself. But the yellow bus was nearly packed.
***
I met some people I had seen at Richland Elementary and new hearing-impaired people, but no Jay. There was Emil, who was my favorite, with nearly light skin in a brownish copper skin tone. He always told funny stories and made people laugh. He seemed like a natural comedian, and it seemed like he could work on a comedy show. I didn't know how much he could hear, but he could talk and had a football player-type body.
I also saw a few other people, like Poorna, Neisha, Alex, and Gary who had gone to Richland Elementary. They were a little older than I was, so I thought I would never see them again. The Elementary school special ed. teachers really held me back. I was around seventeen and in ninth grade. I should have been in eleventh or twelfth grade with them.
I also met Chris, he was a light brown skin tone handsome guy. Alex used to live on Bonwood, the cross street of Don Street. He was handsome, but he had a cross-eyed. And then there was Deidre, a dark-skinned, pretty Black girl. But still no Jay. Gary was a dark-skinned Black male who always seemed so girlish. Neisha was a pretty White girl with blonde hair with blue eyes. She was pregnant in high school, like eight months pregnant. So, I figure she wouldn't be going to college. Poorna, who was from India, and I never could understand why her hair was so jet black, but it was long and looked like a white girl’s hair. I put a whole jar of grease on my nappy hair to make it like that, but it didn't work.
Then I saw Darryl, a light-skinned, handsome, young, Black man.
***
White Station High School was also ninety percent white students, and it was eight minutes away from White Station Middle School. I spent most of my high school learning English and math, or at least it felt like it. I was so tired of school. By then I was nearly eighteen years old. I didn't know many eighteen-year-old students, most were graduated at that age. It seemed like I had been to school forever.
My grades were bad, and my home life was boring as well. I had a few mainstream classes with ASL interpreters and a few classes with the special ed teachers. It seemed like the special ed classes were easier than the mainstream classes. I laughed at the hearing impaired in the special ed classes, showing off how smart I was. But in the mainstream classes, I had to compete with the hearing kids. The hearing, the classmates who could hear normally and had no problem with their ears, were way ahead of me, especially in English classes. I didn't understand why I couldn't be in a special education English classes. My grammar was so terrible. I didn't know why they kept assigning me to mainstream English classes, especially with Mrs. Young who was my ASL interpreter, I felt she really didn't like me at all.
***
In the fall of 1988, when I was in the tenth grade, and guess who was in high school? Jay. I still ignored him. I didn't think I would ever see him again. I was nearly eighteen years old, and I was ready to leave school. It was so boring.
***
In November, I ran away from home and went to Los Angeles by Greyhound bus with my two parakeets, using my mom’s credit card. I came back to Memphis by plane because my mom and Uncle Warren told me I have to go back. When I walked into the house, there were so many people there to console my mom, because Joe had passed away.
***
At White Station High School, my special ed counselor, Mrs. Gross, sat me down in her office. Mrs. Gross was in her forties, a white woman with average body shape, and wore her brunette hair in a short style.
How do you think you're going to live in California with no money?
I don't know, I didn't think about it,
I said.
At the age of seventeen, I was naive. I learned something. I think that running away from home to go to California wasn't a bad idea; it was good to have some experience about what California was like, instead of daydreaming about how life was in California. With what I learned about California—the appearance of Los Angeles scenery, trash, the number of homeless people, the housing expense—my hopes and dreams about moving there diminished. I saw reality. If I didn't go sooner, I would've done something stupid such as dropping out of school. I saw that I needed money. I needed a job. So, I decided to stay in school to work on that goal.
But then there was Jay. He playfully grabbed me in the hallway. That really took my mind off of California. Jay wasn't little anymore. Not as cute as he was. But in his charming way, it made him more attractive. He was taller than me with a high-top hairstyle which was a trend. Jay was really a laidback, down-to-earth guy. I really liked him. I guess I got his attention by running away. Attention from Jay was the only benefit I got from running away. I never had a crush before. But I wouldn't keep my hopes up. So, I continued to ignore him.