4 Riverside Close: A Nail Biting Psychological Suspense
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A seemingly innocent social network draws residents of a North London cul-de-sac into a web of manipulation and murder in this psychological thriller.
How well do you know your neighbors? . . .
From the outside, Caroline and Jason Swinton have an idyllic life. But when the cracks start to appear, the residents of Riverside Close are drawn into a dangerous game.
When Jason’s body is discovered in a house on the Close, everyone becomes a suspect. Could his lovely wife be responsible for his murder? Or do the neighbors have a motive for wanting him dead?
As the secret lives of those living on the Close are gradually revealed, it becomes clear that someone is hiding something they will stop at nothing to protect . . .
Perfect for fans of Desperate Housewives or of authors like Clare Mackintosh, Lisa Jewell, and Lesley Kara.
Diana Wilkinson
Diana Wilkinson writes bestselling psychological thrillers. Formerly an international professional tennis player, she hails from Belfast, but now lives in Hertfordshire.
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- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5Another confusing book where you have no idea who is speaking as mulitiple characters talking in first person paragraphs and you get very quickly lost. Poor attempt at writing - don't waste your time
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A gripping psychological thriller set in a cul-de-sac in North London. Some of the residents are secretly members of an online social group called ‘Join Me’ and are playing a dangerous game which, in turn, leads to murder. With neighbours like these who’d need enemies was my first reaction!Another great read via the Pigeonhole app. I really enjoyed it. It’s intricately plotted with plenty of twists and turns. There are some crazy, dysfunctional characters, most of whom I disliked. It took me some time to remember them all and which house they lived in on the Close. It’s well written and has a fantastic air of menace. The tension and unease is built up beautifully. All is definitely not as it seems and neither is anyone as they seem. The ending is quite neatly tied up, but also leaves it open to the reader’s imagination or perhaps a sequel? An absorbing, compelling and intriguing mystery which I can wholeheartedly recommend.
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4 Riverside Close - Diana Wilkinson
House For Sale
Iopen the front door and let him in, smiling all the while to put my guest at ease but making sure to tuck myself tightly behind the door. The neighbours might be watching.
‘Join me.’ I laugh light-heartedly. He flinches at the words but he is too slick, too cool to look unsettled. Such demeanour wouldn’t sit easy on his arrogant shoulders. Bastard. But I remind myself he’s far from perfect. It’s all been an act. I let out a short contemptuous laugh, enjoying my private thoughts. Paying to meet women smacks of desperation.
‘A drink?’ I offer, smiling as I lead the way to the kitchen. Perhaps he thinks I am like the sales agent, a slick purveyor of words and underhand tactics linked to obscene commissions. He stands and stares at me, as if I am mad. Beads of perspiration have settled on my brow and I have to wipe the drips away with my gloved hand. He glances round at the front door but will be remembering that I locked it securely behind us.
I knock back a whisky from a half-drunk bottle and hand my guest a glass before wandering towards the patio doors. ‘Cheers,’ I say while I stand and look out across the bijou virgin square of grass. It’s empty and soulless, like my prey. I turn round to face him, the wait finally over.
‘Sit down. We need to talk.’ I indicate a chair into which he relaxes while watching me lift a bottle of wine from a display rack under the cupboards. Of course he likes fine wines. Maybe he thinks we’re going to share some intimate secrets. Instead of popping the cork, I walk slowly round behind him, raise the bottle high in the air and before he has time to flinch, I smash it down hard on the back of his head. His body jerks weirdly. His right foot twitches and then tries to push up away from the chair and I think of a headless chicken trying to escape. I lift my own foot in response and stamp down violently on top of his and hear the satisfying crunch of decimated bones.
Then I move round to the front of his chair, amazed by how easy it’s been. His head is slumped awkwardly to one side and for a brief second I fear he might already be dead. I delicately run a jagged shard of green glass, taken from the smashed bottle, across his perfect cheeks and poke the end through the skin. As I circle his eyes, jabbing ever more persistently with the tip, he finally opens them. I let out a deep breath, relieved he is still conscious. I deftly tie his legs and arms to the chair, securing them with strong cord to prevent him from slithering to the ground.
‘I’m glad you could come,’ I say, staring into his eyes. My voice is high-pitched, edged with hysteria. His lips are moving as he tries to speak but I can’t hear anything. I mimic his efforts, excited by his fear and by my control. I give mock encouragement. ‘Speak up. What’s that?’ I push my ear close to his mouth.
I wait until he once again slips out of consciousness and I extract the small paring knife from my pocket. I need to complete my task. I put my left hand over his lower face which I pull firmly to the left, the tension exposing the right side of the neck. With the edge of the knife facing forward, I stab the neck slightly behind the ear, before jamming it in to the hilt. Then as I sharply pull the knife back out, I project it forward ripping through the arteries and opening a hole in the neck. As the blood gushes forth, I know my task is done.
A phone buzzes in my pocket, making me jump, disturbing the silence and bringing me back to reality. I need to leave, back out the way I came in through the patio doors. I assess the scene. There is not much to tidy up. There is no hint of my blood; I am certain of my efficiency. Once I’ve showered and changed, I’ll head off and burn my clothes. Epping Forest will inter the evidence. The police won’t come looking as I’ll be last on their suspect list. Once I have washed the whisky glass, scrubbing away rogue traces of DNA, I move towards my exit.
I close the door gently behind me and smile over my shoulder one last time at the sight of the blood-spattered kitchen. The wet red floor is like the River Styx, flowing seamlessly through the gates of hell. My savagery will lie in wait as a warning against immoral filth and as a lesson to the unfaithful.
I am hit by a chilling ghoulish silence outside and cautiously hover for a moment to make sure there is no one about. I hold my breath, waiting, listening. Finally, when I am certain I am alone, I begin to move forward.
There is a small river running along behind the close. It trickles merrily and eventually disappears under a bridge before it enters a shady copse on the edge of the motorway. I tread gently across the grass and squeeze through the unlocked gate at the bottom of the garden, grateful that the river made such back garden portals desirable. No one in the close bothers to keep them locked. The arseholes think it is such a safe neighbourhood.
An owl hoots from somewhere nearby and the noise makes me falter. The full moon is brightly accusing as it stubbornly lights my path which is being muddied by more continual pellets of rain. I pull my collar up and glance heavenwards thanking the gods for the downpour which is already wiping away any hint of my presence.
A rustle behind urges me on with greater speed. It will be a fox, sneaking through the damp grass, scavenging for scraps. Perhaps I should look back. I don’t.
This is my biggest mistake.
1
Caroline
My laptop is open at the Join Me homepage. I brace myself, preparing to scroll through the profiles. It’s the first thing I do every morning when I get out of bed. I sit at the small desk in our bedroom and start to browse. Soon I’m staring at the head and shoulders snapshot of a new member.
‘She doesn’t look too bad.’ I jump backwards as Jason’s hands suddenly alight on my shoulders. The words ‘too bad’ make me wince. I don’t want his opinions.
‘Too pale, and I thought you didn’t like redheads.’
‘Expensive-looking jewellery though.’ He’s good at spotting the luxuries, the wealth. I’ll give him that. The gold chain seems to be pulling her down and the heavy earrings are elongating her freckled lobes.
‘What’s she into?’
‘Usual. Gourmet dining, fine wines and…’ I hesitate. My casual tone tries to stifle the nausea. I don’t really want to say it. ‘London Zoo.’ This is the marker, the red flag. Bored housewives like Susan Harper aren’t into zoos. Jason’s profile sucks them in with his showcased photographs and fanciful desire to visit the lions at Regent’s Park. This is our dangled carrot.
‘Looks like a good choice. What do you think?’
I don’t want to say what I really think. The words ‘tart’ and ‘whore’ perch precariously on the tip of my tongue. I have to remind myself that Join Me is my creation, my master plan. It’s meant to keep Jason close and keep me in control. I can only share him because he belongs to me but it’s tough. Every day it’s getting tougher.
He walks away, perhaps sensing the tightening in my shoulders and clenching of my jaw, and pauses as he reaches the bathroom door. ‘Join Me?’
It’s our interminable joke but I can no longer share the amusement. It’s only recently that I’ve sensed wry sarcasm every time he asks the question. The levity in his tone contrasts starkly with my own misgivings. I don’t reply, furrowing my brow in feigned concentration. He takes my silence as a negative and I soon hear the shower crank up as he slips away from view.
I close my eyes, trying to calm my fears. The anxiety has made my palms sweat. I wipe them on my jeans and remind myself that Jason’s not perfect.
He has a small dark shape, etched deeply above his coccyx, slightly off-centre. The raised ugly red outline, with its ragged serrated edge had at first startled me but soon threw my obsessive insecurities a lifeline; a smattering of crumbs.
‘Ouch!’ I screamed when it had appeared that first time out of nowhere, affronting me with its blackness. I had recoiled, loosening my wet relentless grip from his body. I remember falling back hard against the pillows. ‘Cramp,’ I lied. I winced, rubbing my left calf furiously while keeping my eyes averted.
‘Oh that’s my map of Brazil,’ he announced proudly; a cartographer at home with his work. ‘Look, it’s broad across the top, thinning all the way down to Sao Paulo. It’s a tattoo,’ he lied. I remember how he had run his finger along the coastline. But it isn’t a tattoo. It’s a simmering festering dormant birthmark; grotesque and branding.
My gaze is automatically drawn towards the frosted pane and I torture myself watching the soap suds lather his perfectly tanned silhouette. I try to visualise the South American landmass, willing it to give me some respite from my obsession. Jason. He is my god and I am in his thrall.
I determinedly click the screen back to life and scroll down to payments. There are three more enrolments. Harry 888 says he’s twenty-five but with his black horn-rimmed glasses and balding pate he would be lucky to pass for fifty. The Tower of London and Buckingham Palace are on his wish list. Roly 676 is an accountant, an avid reader with a steady job and a penchant for heady cocktails. He wants to tour the wine bars of London. I guess he’s married. I’m skilled at reading between the lines. Katie 145 is single, plain and mousy. She won’t have any money, school teachers don’t, but she fancies a trip down the Thames. Wild abandoned sex will be her fantasy but Jason has ignored her repeated invitations.
‘Christ. Will you stop sneaking up on me?’ I stiffen. Jason has crept across the carpet, stealthy as a panther. Dangerous. He’s hovering behind me.
‘Sorry, couldn’t resist it.’ He will be grinning, all perfect dazzling teeth. His aftershave makes me cough. He’s been preparing for his date. ‘Don’t forget I’m meeting Jocelyn tonight.’
I swallow an acid retort.
‘How could I forget?’ I grit my teeth, knowing I can’t forget. Until he’s safely back home again, I’ll picture the scene, rewinding and replaying the masochistic images. I’ll see them in my mind’s eye, laughing, drinking and more; so much more. Jos 040 is drowning in lust for my husband. Her desperation is lining our pockets.
‘She’s promised to bring me two grand. Remember?’ It slips off his tongue, effortless, unemotional, with a hint of pride ringing through; pride at his unrivalled success. It’s for us, after all.
Jocelyn has fallen for Jason’s lies of lucrative investment opportunities. Her Join Me profile highlights that she’s into champagne haunts and Italian cuisine. She has joked privately with Jason that she has no interest in sightseeing. She’s a trophy wife from Essex; easy pickings.
‘Why are you in jogging clothes? You’ve just showered.’
‘I need some fresh air and I’ll pick up the paper while I’m out. Do you need anything?’ He is standing in front of the long mirror running fingers through his lustrous wavy hair, checking his appearance. Photo-shoot perfection is how he likes it.
‘No, you’re okay. Don’t be long.’
After he closes the door, I listen to him jog lightly down the stairs. A thunderstorm has built up outside and I move to the window and greedily stare down at my husband. He’s pulling the hood of his sweatshirt up before slowly bending down to retie his laces.
The skies open and for a moment I hold my breath, hoping he will turn round and come back indoors. He doesn’t but instead sets off, slowly at first, then building up pace as he heads ever more rapidly down the street. It might be a trick of my imagination but he seems to be running crazily, with intent, away from where he’s come.
He’s trying to put as much distance as he can between us.
2
Susan
The rain splashes against the window, large opaque globules slither down the pane; wet and woeful, like February. Everything is so dull. Outside in the close there isn’t a soul about. Random cars dot the driveways, teasing with hope of post-apocalyptic life. The circular bulb of the cul-de-sac seems like the end of the world, preventing the dullness from escaping.
I stifle a yawn, reaching at last for the teasing glass of Sauvignon. I double-check the time, having promised myself I wouldn’t succumb until five o’clock. One minute past. I close my eyes and let the cold nectar glide down my throat, relishing the almost-instant relief from the boredom. Tucking my legs under the swivel chair, I sit up straighter and pull myself closer in towards the computer. I finger the flyer sitting beside me on the desk and enter the web address. Join Me. The ladies at the gym have been chatting casually about the appeal of the website’s intriguing invitation to have fun around London with strangers but no one has enrolled yet. Or so they say.
The screen finally springs to life.
JOIN ME
Enrol and Enjoy London’s Sights Together
Heritage, Cultural, Dining/Fine Wines, London Fun
Tate Modern, British Museum, Royal Opera House, National Portrait Gallery…
The homepage is bright and sunny, blue and yellow, with an orange rainbow effect running through the text. A sudden clap of thunder outside makes me jump, a violent accompaniment to the images of joy and happiness. The wine is helping to veil the tackiness and is teasing me to browse further.
The profile synopses, however, are what taunt my imagination more than the bright and breezy sightseeing blurb. It’s shared fun that appeals rather than the bricks and mortar of the Tower of London. Unless I sign up I can only romanticise about the characters whose faces peer out from the screen. I jiggle Roger’s Newton’s Cradle in front of me, jangling the balls from side to side, jabbing a forefinger at each end to coax the heavy metal shapes backwards and forwards. Click, click, click.
WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO?
Enrol, create a profile and list your interests
Join a Members’ tour or organise your own
Invite Members along to share culture and fun
A sudden ring at the front door startles me. Carefully secreting the wine glass behind the curtain, I sit tight. Perhaps they’ll go away.
‘Do you want me to get it, Mrs Harper?’ Natalie, our childminder, yells down from upstairs. She’s in the make-believe world of Lego building and Disney movies, under strict instructions not to disturb me until six o’clock.
‘It’s okay, Natalie. I’ve got it.’ This seems preferable to having Tilly and Noah back under my feet too early.
At the front door, I peer through the spyhole and manage to make out the distorted images of two strangers. Praying it’s not Jehovah’s Witnesses, I open the door.
‘Hi. Oh, you must be… em?’ I hesitate. ‘Sorry. I can’t remember your names. Roger did tell me…’ For the life of me, I don’t remember anyone telling me. I feign ecstatic interest in the new arrivals to the close. The woman is petite and pretty but slightly on the mousy side, although her Nike trainers suggest she might be a potential jogging companion.
‘Alexis and Adam. Morley. We’ve moved in across the road and wanted to say hi. Also wanted to apologise for the removal van this morning. The men took ages and I think your husband had a bit of trouble reversing.’
‘Oh don’t worry. I’m Susan, by the way, and that’ll have been Roger in the car. Would you like to come in for a cup of tea or perhaps something stronger?’
We shake hands, very formally and I brace myself against having them in, unenthusiastic about impending small talk. I politely tempt them by opening the front door slightly wider, letting the cold damp air invade the hallway.
‘No thanks. That would be lovely but we really need to get on with the unpacking so we’ll have somewhere to sleep tonight. We wanted to introduce ourselves.’ She turns towards her husband. I wait for Adam to add something. He stands slightly back from his wife, a cold unfriendly set to his lips.
‘It’s been a long day but thanks for the offer,’ he says, withdrawing a limp hand. He’s rather nondescript and aloof. Not like Roger who is tall, striking and very imposing. Adam complements his rather plain companion.
As I close the door behind them, I feel a dreary mood settle over me again. The realisation that they will be unexciting reliable neighbours has accentuated my boredom. We’ll be able to share sugar cubes and teabags.
I wander back into the study, only half an hour of peaceful solitude left before Natalie has to go home. While I kick-start Join Me back to life, I peek out through the window and see the Morleys standing by their front door. She has put a key in the lock and seems to be struggling. He brushes her to one side and takes the key from her, proceeds to open the door before extracting it and holding it up, pointedly in front of her nose with a triumphant smirk, as if to say, ‘See. That wasn’t so difficult now, was it?’
I down the last of the wine, before topping it up from the bottle by my feet, and decide to sign up. Hell, why not? Join Me is just a more sociable version of Facebook. It seems to be about making friends and sharing fun rather than ‘in-your-face’ bragging of what exotic destination you and your family have visited. Unfriending contacts has taken up more of my time recently than requesting them.
I use my personal credit card, the one Roger doesn’t control, and register with my private Yahoo email address. I’ll pick my moment to tell Roger about the site, once it’s a fait accompli. He won’t mind, I’m certain, because he knows I toy with Facebook even though he still manages to tut every time it’s mentioned.
It’s not that I don’t love Roger. It’s rather that high-powered solicitors have little spare time for fun, and fine dining has been replaced with trips to McDonalds or Burger King. Romantic dinners have become a dim and distant memory.
I click the continue button, methodically working through the terms and conditions until I finally come to payment. Then it’s done.
I browse; online shopping springs to mind as I begin clicking on the teasing photographs which are the visible tips of hidden icebergs. The members are all duller than I could have imagined, especially the men. Bob 123, Leonard 785 and Jerry 100 have all lied about their ages. They must have. As I squint at their profile pictures I find it hard to imagine that all forty-something’s are balding, bespectacled and bearded. I smile at Bob 123’s ambition to visit the London Dungeon. Some members haven’t added their ages. Perhaps they think this doesn’t matter when it’s the sights that are on offer. However, I must admit that Percy 901, who looks about ninety, wouldn’t be my first choice of companion. I can see why he’s left his age out.
I then scroll through looking for those who claim to be in their thirties and those who might be into less serious pursuits. The London Fun section draws my eye.
LONDON FUN:
London Zoo, Thames River Boat, City Bus Tour, A Trip to Harrods…
The excitement is starting to pall when I see him. Vince 666. His smile lights up the screen. It’s wide and winning. His white teeth are perfect. His eyes are a chocolate brown, his skin a pure olive tone. Six foot two apparently. He works in finance in the City, in futures trading and lives in London. I decide to add gourmet food to my interests and, for fun, London Zoo. I hate zoos but as this is first on Vince 666’s bucket list, it’s too tempting. Perhaps it’s the wine working but what fun!
I have ten minutes left to perfect my draft profile and decide to change the first picture I chose. I looked quite stunning in my twenties and glancing at the gilt-framed mirror beside me, I fool myself into thinking that I might still pass for twenty-five. I stare for a couple of minutes at Vince’s picture and my stomach does a little flip. Imagine. I could invite him to share an experience.
‘Mrs Harper?’ There’s a gentle rap on the door before it’s tentatively opened and Natalie pushes her head round. ‘I need to get going.’
‘Sorry, Natalie. I lost all track of time. Give me a minute.’
I quickly log off, clear the browser’s history, clicking the X on the top right-hand corner of all recent screens and shut down the computer. Roger would be expecting to find sites advertising city mini-breaks, ski chalets or even dog rescue shelters. He’s toying with Tilly’s incessant request for a puppy, pretending that it’s never going to happen. Roger tries to keep us all happy. I would rather explain face to face how Join Me works than he comes upon it by chance.
As I switch off the light and head out into the hall, Noah runs up and jumps into my arms, screaming ‘Mummy! Mummy!’
I pull him close, kissing his perfect round little crown and realise I’m looking forward to Roger getting home.
3
Caroline
Islouch low in my seat, feigning interest in the gym brochure, head bent in manufactured concentration. I glance up intermittently to get a better look.
Susan Harper stands out from the crowd. It’s her shock of thick unkempt auburn hair; long and loose, straggling round her shoulders. She’s tall and skinny, dressed entirely in black with skin-tight leggings clinging savagely to her bones. The myriad of stubborn freckles that cover her face and arms make me smile. They’ll not appeal to Jason. Airbrushed from her profile picture, they have presented me with an unexpected gift. A thick band of sweat rings her brow, a saintly halo of exertion.
‘Coffees? My turn.’ Her voice is imperious but gratingly high-pitched. ‘Everyone for cappuccinos?’ Susan has pushed her way to the forefront of the gaggle of ladies. A determined army talking fast and furiously, battling to be heard, they nod in unison. Two tables are pushed together, towels and kit bags tucked haphazardly underneath.
I amble towards the bar, timing my arrival. Susan is trying to jiggle three drinks in her skeletal fingers, pushing the receptacles tightly together, trying to steady the swirling contents. Dark sinewy veins snake up the back of her hands.
‘Here. Let me help.’ I lift a couple of coffees, offering to carry them over to the waiting group. A witches’ coven.
‘Thanks,’ Susan says, smiling back at me.
‘A pleasure.’ I set the mugs down and turn to go back to the bar.
‘You’re welcome to join us.’ Her smile is pleasant but cloying. She needs to be liked.
One of the ladies clears a seat beside her and pats it with a firm rap of her hand. ‘Plenty of room,’ she says.
I hesitate, unsure. My plan had been to bump into Susan alone, hanging around the changing rooms or lockers. I look round the café, unwilling to be derailed too easily. I could pretend to be waiting for someone, play for time. Instead, with a slight nod, I agree to join the circle.
‘Thanks. I’ll get my drink.’
I was right to guess that she might belong to the Fitness Forum. Her Join Me profile makes claims of Pilates and Zumba, and the gym’s exorbitant joining fees made it a likely choice. Also it’s the nearest private club to Riverside Close where she lives.
A heavy music beat is pulsating round the room, loud and energetic, confusing my thoughts. I’m reluctant to be noticed. Jason can’t find out I’m following members who catch his eye. He would wonder why and it would be difficult to explain. A date is in the diary for him to meet up with Susan later in the week, so I need to be careful, not do anything rash. The thumping noise pulses round in my head as I reach for my coffee.
‘A bit noisy.’ A man at the table next to the ladies grimaces. He has been watching and tries to engage me in conversation, perhaps surmising that I might prefer his company. I ignore his efforts, smile weakly, and instead move towards the empty chair Susan has slotted in next to hers.
Conversation is in full swing but it’s light and meaningless, staccato words bouncing back and forth. School runs, mid-week tennis lessons and vacuous asides about the weather.
‘I’m Susan, by the way.’
‘Caroline. Carrie to my friends.’
‘Are you a new member?’ she asks.
‘I’m thinking of joining but not sure I can justify the fees.’ I finger the brochure, leafing lightly through the pages. It gives me something