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"30 Must-Read Queer Fairytale Retellings For Pride" —Book Riot
"Best LGBTQA+ Books of 2021" —She Reads
"Eight Queer Young Adult Books Coming This Fall" —Lambda Literary
What happens when Tinker Bell is in love with both Peter Pan and Wendy? In this sparkling re-imagining of Peter Pan, Peter and Wendy’s granddaughter Hope Darling finds the reclusive Tinker Bell squatting at the Darling mansion in order to care for the graves of her two lost friends after a love triangle gone awry. As Hope wins the fairy’s trust, Tink tells her the truth about Wendy and Peter—and her own role in their ultimate fate. Told in three alternating perspectives—past, present, and excerpts from a book called Neverland: A History written by Tink’s own fairy godmother—this queer adaptation is for anyone who has ever wondered if there might have been more to the story of Tinker Bell and the rest of the Peter Pan legend."30 Must-Read Queer Fairytale Retellings For Pride" —Book Riot
Best LGBTQA+ Books of 2021 —She Reads
“Eight Queer Young Adult Books Coming this Fall” —Lambda Literary
What happens when Tinker Bell is in love with both Peter Pan and Wendy? In this sparkling re-imagining of Peter Pan, Peter and Wendy’s granddaughter Hope Darling finds the reclusive Tinker Bell squatting at the Darling mansion in order to care for the graves of her two lost friends after a love triangle gone awry. As Hope wins the fairy’s trust, Tink tells her the truth about Wendy and Peter—and her own role in their ultimate fate. Told in three alternating perspectives—past, present, and excerpts from a book called Neverland: A History written by Tink’s own fairy godmother—this queer adaptation is for anyone who has ever wondered if there might have been more to the story of Tinker Bell and the rest of the Peter Pan legend.
Kelly Ann Jacobson
Kelly Ann Jacobson is a fiction writer, poet, and lyricist who lives in Falls Church, Virginia. She recently received her MA in Fiction at Johns Hopkins University, and she now teaches as an Adjunct Professor of Literature. Kelly is the author of several published books, including the novel Cairo in White, and has several novels and a book of poetry coming out in 2015. Her other published poetry, short stories, anthologies, and nonfiction can be found at www.kellyannjacobson.com.
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Tink and Wendy - Kelly Ann Jacobson
PART ONE
CHAPTER ONE
Introduction
Excerpt from Neverland: A History
NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW THIS, BUT the fairies were the ones who created Neverland in the first place. Before they planted the seed of the first Never tree in Neverland’s fertile ground, that starfish-shaped rock had been just that: a rock where pirates on their way to better lands docked for a few days to stretch their legs, or to bury their treasures in the lagoon where many years later mermaids would find the gold coins and use them as decorations for their hair. This was a hundred years before anyone had heard of Peter Pan, or the Lost Boys, or Wendy, or even Tinker Bell.
That last name, I must pause to acknowledge, is the reason I have been tasked with the honor of writing this volume, the first-ever history of what has become quite a legendary land. I was Tink’s superior officer at the time of her assignment to watch over Peter Pan, and in fact it was I who selected her from the dozens of new recruits who needed posts.
Why, you might ask, did I choose such a strong-willed, anti-authoritarian, at times even ill-mannered fairy for such an important task?
Obviously, you never met Peter.
— • —
CHAPTER TWO
Now
TINK WAKES EARLY, AT THE TIME when the sun blinks through the trunks of the elms around her cottage and through the missing pane of her front window, and then turns her back on the new day. The sun, like a dog, chases her over the wool blanket, against the wall, into the bed, until she has no choice but to push off her covers and meet the morning.
The wood floor is cold against her bare feet. The water in her basin is cold, though she splashes her face anyway and wipes herself on a grimy hand towel on the table. The fabric of her army jacket is cold until the heat of her body warms it.
Everything is cold in upstate New York.
There might be more snow later, though Tink doesn’t have that special itch in her nose that precipitates a storm. Her breath hangs in front of her as a brief specter, then disappears, leaving her gaunt face in the mirror. She looks hungover. She is hungover. The bottle of wine she stole from the bar in town lies empty on its side, a dribble of red liquid now stained on the wooden table. They know her by name; they have her picture hung up next to the cash register. UNDERAGE: DO NOT SERVE.
Tink smears her short blonde hair back and it stays that way, slick with grease. She zippers up the jacket. Her eyes are bloodshot and fearless, like a rabid animal’s. Her skin is dull. Once, a long time ago, she was beautiful, but those days are long gone—or, rather, she has banished them. Beauty has never brought her anything, and she’s tired of expecting otherwise.
After she turns away from the mirror, she slides on her boots and takes up her bucket filled with tools: soft bristle brush, wood scraper, sponge, and a piece of flannel ripped from an old shirt. She rips a chunk from a loaf of stale bread, finds the butter in the fridge, and slides the rough edge of the bread over the butter slab. When she bites into it, crumbs scatter on the floor. Her thermos is waiting on the counter, and she fills it with the coffee from her automatic machine and screws on the lid. Later, the heat from the liquid will bring her some comfort.
When she steps outside, snow slides off of the roof onto her head. She shakes off the flakes, though a few have already melted onto her head, and then slips her jacket’s hood up. Her boots crunch footprints into the snow where she walked the night before, the steps going in the opposite direction longer and heavier and more prone to spills on the slippery stones beneath. She doesn’t remember walking back from the bar, but the steps are inarguably hers—no one else in town has such small feet.
If she thinks very hard, she can remember the perfect eighty-degree days of Neverland. The slight mist in the air from the lagoon. In the distance, the sound of boys calling out, mostly for Peter. The breeze would tickle her wings and send a chill of anticipation down her spine, for whenever there was a breeze, Peter would come knocking at her door. Tink, it’s flying weather, he would say, and she would drop whatever she was doing to pass the time between his visits and dive out to meet him. It’s flying weather, but also cross-the-ocean weather, into-the-window-of-an-unsuspecting-child weather, meeting-Wendy weather. Weather that seemed temperate at the time, though when Tink looks back, there were storms on the horizon.
But to fly . . . to have the wind lift you up by your wings and carry you, to have everything you know grow small, the way a day grows small to someone as stuck in time as she and Peter. What was a single day among so many wonderful days?
It’s flying weather.
Tink crosses her yard to the wrought iron fence and opens the gate with her elbow. Still, the cold metal finds its way through the fabric of her jacket, and she shivers. The tools in her basket chatter like teeth. Once she rushes through, the gate creaks closed behind her, like the closing of a book, like the end of a life—not that an immortal fairy like Tink would know about that.
The path that leads from Tink’s cottage to the main road is perilous—not just slippery, but also steep and sewn with knotted roots. She trips a few times on the way up, and has to grab a branch here and there with her free hand to remain upright. A rabbit, gray the way the snow will turn after she has walked this path a few times, hops from the bramble and then back in again. This will likely be the only life Tink sees all day.
When she gets to the main road, which is really an unused dirt road that she shares with the few other inhabitants of these woods, she hurries on her way so she won’t risk running into one of her well-meaning neighbors. A hundred feet away she turns sharply left again and through another iron gate, this one adorned by a pattern of roses. Three markers forward, two to the left, another three, and there they are, two headstones between the evergreens on the border of the cemetery, only inches apart and marked with identical swans. What’s all the fuss about? Tink thought when she first saw them—after all, when you have your own wings, there isn’t anything special about a clumsy white bird swimming around a lake half the time—but Peter had always admired them. Do you know they mate for life? he’d said, and Tink had turned her nose up at the prospect. They were, after all, back in Neverland, where the closest anyone came to mating for life
was a Lost Boy writing a love letter to one of the mermaids. Wanna go to the bonfire with me tonight? Circle yes/no.
She had turned her nose up, and yet far below the surface something had stirred in her, like a fish so far down in the lagoon that it was a mere shadow just barely visible from Marooners’ Rock. Something . . . older. This was no child’s crush, and yet they were children, she and Peter, or at least that’s how they appeared and how they acted and what they told themselves they were. Never growing up.
And yet . . .
She began to notice things about Peter. His long, gangly legs. The strong hands used to slick the fairy dust from her skin. The way he looked when he was thinking happy thoughts, like ice cream and puppies and rainbows filling the sky. She wanted him to look that way at her, but he only ever teased her, his silly fairy girl.
It’s flying weather, he said, and she had said Oh, how I love to fly! but what she’d meant was, Oh, I love you Peter. A man would have understood, but Peter was no man—not then.
Tink ends her journey at the twin headstones. There are no years listed on one; the other, inscribed Wendy Darling, marks her as the youngest of all those buried in the cemetery. Tink kneels and cleans out some moss growing in the number eight, then wipes the snow and dirt from the top of the stone with the soft flannel shirt piece until it shines. Wendy would have done a better job, Tink thinks, and then she wipes the stone a second time for good measure. Once Wendy’s stone looks presentable, Tink moves to the second stone, but like always, she cannot bring herself to touch even the top of it with her swatch.
Damn you,
she mutters.
In the trees, birds wake at the sound of her voice and throw themselves into the wind. They’ll be back to roost, Tink knows, the way that she and Peter always went back to Neverland, until the night they didn’t.
Damn you,
she says again. Why couldn’t you just go home, the way you always did?
But she’s talking to empty air. The birds aren’t there, and Peter certainly isn’t there.
And why isn’t he here, Tink?
She drops the flannel piece in the snow and doesn’t pick it up again.
Because Peter is dead.
CHAPTER THREE
Then
TINKER BELL AND PETER HAD SEVERAL favorite haunts, one of them being Big Ben, which they visited first that fateful night, and another right across the ocean at Niagara Falls. It was actually Tinker Bell who chose their destination—she loved the way the green water, tinted by the tiny rocks ground from the bed of the Niagara River, forced itself forward like a horse that was its own master.
Watch this!
Peter called from behind the falls. Tink could barely make him out, illuminated though he was in the glow of her fairy dust, until with a surge of force he pounded through the largest portion of water, Horseshoe Falls, and did a series of front flips to where she hovered. Tink put out her arms, always ready to catch him should he lose control, but Peter stopped inches from her face and gave her a beaming smile.
Silly Peter,
Tink said, but she couldn’t help smiling back.
I am silly,
he admitted. He ran a hand through his short red hair and then replaced his green cap. But that’s what you like about me, isn’t it?
Of course it is.
Good. Because I have a surprise for you,
Peter said. Then he wrung his wet cap over her head.
Tink tried to swat the hat away, but Peter was too quick for her. She chased him into the water, out of the water, the force of the falls like a giant hand trying to squash her every time she moved through it, until they were both tired and panting and sweating, though you couldn’t tell because they were so wet.
Let’s take a break,
said Peter, and he flew back through the falls to their secret cave.
Tink followed, landing on a rock that served as their only chair like a butterfly alighting on the petal of a flower. Peter shook his head like a dog, and Tink spun so that droplets flung from her skirt onto the walls of the cave. After they were as dry as they could be sitting in a damp cave, the two friends sat down on the rock and shared a bar of chocolate Peter had kept safe in a plastic bag in his pocket. All residents of Neverland loved chocolate, but none more than Peter, and whenever he and Tink left home, they always raided a different candy store in order to replenish their stash.
Better than sleeping in all day,
Peter said as he chowed down on a second chunk.
Better than swimming in the lagoon on a warm afternoon,
Tink said. She closed her eyes and let her piece melt on her tongue.
Better than Christmas morning,
Peter said.
Better than a mother’s kiss,
Tink said.
No one said anything for a long time after that. Neither Peter nor Tink had a mother—or rather, Tink didn’t have a mother, and Peter had never known his—and yet they both yearned for the feeling of a mother’s arms the way someone who has never seen the ocean yearns to put their feet in the lapping waves.
We should get going,
Peter said, and Tink agreed, though there was no schedule to their wanderings. They came and went as they pleased, staying in one place only long enough for Tink to replenish her dust or Peter to direct the Lost Boys on a project they should finish before he returned. This time, they were hard at work making arrows Peter could lace with a sleeping potion, should Captain Hook and his dreaded crew sail back to Neverland.
Now, when Tink thinks back to the moment when she pushed back through the falls into the cool fall air, she wonders how different things would have been if she had just aimed a little more to the left, or to the right, or up, or anywhere but directly ahead, where, unbeknownst to the two beings eating chocolate in the cave, a helicopter had stopped to shine a light on the water below. A man had thrown himself into the falls, as she would find out much later, and the helicopter had been tasked with trying to find him.
But directly ahead she went, right into one of the propellers.
Since she was a fairy, and fairies are immortal, the helicopter didn’t do much damage. It did, however, manage to fling Tink far into the distance, over the top of the falls and Grand Island and Buffalo and all the way to the woods of middle-of-nowhere New York, until she crashed through a layer of trees and down, down, down to the ferns that caught her in their fronds.
For a while, she lay there in the dark, listening to animals scurry over branches and watching the bugs flitter across the face of the moon. After some time she heard a voice calling out, but instead of her name, the voice was insistently repeating Michael? Michael, come out, come out, wherever you are. Michael? This isn’t funny, Michael.
Hello?
Tink said during a pause between Michaels.
Hello?
the voice said back.
A light emerged in the trees and drew closer. There were two heads, one belonging to a boy of about fifteen and one to a girl a few years older than that. The girl had the flashlight, which she shone into Tink’s eyes until Tink asked whether she could turn the damn thing off or at least stop blinding Tink with it.
Language,
the girl scolded.
If Tink was feeling up to it, she would have given the girl a certain finger, but she could only weakly blink.
Why do you look so strange?
the boy asked Tink.
For a moment she wondered about her wings, but luckily they were only visible to other fairies or those under the influence of their dust. He must have been referring to her outfit, she realized, a green dress the color of a new leaf and little yellow slippers with flowers blooming on the toes. Tink hated her costume,
as she called it when complaining to Peter, but she never knew when her Godmother—the fairy in charge of making sure her girls were properly dressed and always behaving in a manner