Stolen
By Tess Stimson
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You thought she was safe. You were wrong…
Alex knows her daughter would never wander off in a strange place. So when her three-year-old vanishes from an idyllic beach wedding, Alex immediately believes the worst.
The hunt for Lottie quickly becomes a world-wide search, but it’s not long before suspicion falls on her mother. Why wasn’t she watching Lottie?
Alex knows she’s not perfect, but she loves her child. And with all eyes on her, Alex fears they’ll never uncover the truth unless she takes matters into her own hands.
Who took Lottie Martini? And will she ever come home?
A totally addictive thriller, with a twist you just won’t see coming. Fans of Lisa Jewell, Louise Candlish and T.M. Logan will be totally gripped from the very first page.
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Tess Stimson
Tess Stimson is the author of eight novels and two non-fiction books, and writes regularly for the Daily Mail as well as for several women’s magazines. Born and brought up in Sussex, she graduated from Oxford before spending a number of years as a news producer with ITN. She now lives in Vermont with her American husband, their daughter and her two sons.
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Stolen - Tess Stimson
the present
The hot sand at the side of the road burns her bare feet. Her lungs are on fire and there’s a really bad pain in her side. Her legs feel like jelly. It’s sheer panic that propels her forward now.
She saw what they did to Mummy; she knows what they’ll do if they catch her.
They didn’t find her because she was hiding behind the bougainvillea planter in the courtyard when they came, like she used to do when she was little. We’re going to play a game. I want you to be as quiet as a mouse. She didn’t make a squeak.
The road ahead of her shimmers and she doesn’t know if it’s because it’s so hot or because she’s exhausted. Sweat trickles into her eyes and she wipes it away. She has no idea where she is. Nothing looks familiar. There are no houses or people anywhere. All she can see is sand and scrubby grassland, stretching for miles in every direction. Nothing she can hide behind if they come after her. No one she can ask for help.
Terror wells up in her. She knows Mummy is dead. She’s nearly six years old, now. She understands what dead means.
Mummy told her to run! don’t look back! and even though she didn’t want to leave her, she did as she was told. But she’s so tired now. Her feet are raw and blistered, and her legs are so wobbly she’s weaving drunkenly back and forth at the side of the road. She doesn’t know why they want her, only that she mustn’t let them find her.
Run!
Don’t look back!
She runs.
two years earlier:
forty-eight hours before the wedding
chapter 01
alex
If I’d terminated my pregnancy, I’d be turning left now as I board the plane.
I’d have room on the small desk at the side of my privacy booth for both my case files and the pad of foolscap paper on which I take notes by hand, the old-fashioned way, because five years of legal practice have taught me it’s the best method to find the loophole everyone else has overlooked. I’d decline a glass of chilled champagne so that I could keep a clear head, and kick off my shoes – cream and camel Grenson brogues, shoes that are businesslike and understated and make clear that I am a woman to be taken seriously.
But I didn’t.
So I’m herded right, not left.
My brogues are from New Look, although you’d really have to know your footwear to detect the difference. I can’t afford highlights and nursery fees, so my medium-length hair is more its natural ginger than the classy auburn I used to favour. At twenty-nine, I’m still on the fast track to partner at human rights law firm Muysken Ritter, but when I get up at 4.30 a.m. these days, it’s not to fit in an hour with my personal trainer before getting to the office by six. I used to love weekends, because it meant I could work straight through without the interruption of meetings and client conferences.
Not any more.
The woman in the row ahead of me twists around as the trolley passes, peering between the seats. She’s smiling, but the expression in her eyes is strained. I don’t blame her: we’re less than half an hour into a nine-hour flight.
‘Could you ask your little girl to stop kicking?’ she says nicely.
‘Lottie, stop kicking the lady’s chair,’ I say, in a tone that gives no hint I might as well be commanding the sun to set in the east.
Lottie stops instantly, her fat little legs suspended mid-swing. The woman smiles again, more honestly this time, and turns away.
She’s fooled by the curls.
My three-year-old daughter is blessed with white-blonde ringlets that reach her waist, the kind of fantasy hair Disney princesses used to have before they got feisty. It misdirects attention from the pugnacious jut of her jaw, the stubborn, bull-headed set of her shoulders. She isn’t conventionally pretty – her features are too quirky for that, and then there’s her weight, of course. But you can tell she’s going to be striking when she’s older: what my grandmother’s generation would call ‘handsome’. She just has to grow into her face, that’s all.
The curls are nature’s sly sleight of hand. They make people think of angels and Christmas, when they would be better off sharpening stakes and searching for silver bullets.
Lottie waits just long enough for the woman to relax.
‘Please, dear, could you stop that?’ the woman says. There’s no smile this time, pained or otherwise.
Kick. Kick.
The woman looks at me, but I’m studiously flicking through the inflight magazine. You have to choose your battles. We still have eight and a half hours to get through.
Kick.
Trying another tack, the woman pushes a bag of Haribo sweets through the gap in the seats. ‘Would you like some gummy bears?’
‘You’re a stranger,’ Lottie says. Kick.
‘Yes, very good, that’s right.’ Another unrequited glance in my direction. ‘Don’t take sweeties from strangers. But we won’t be strangers if we introduce ourselves, will we? I’m Mrs Steadman. What’s your name?’
‘Charlotte Perpetua Martini.’
‘Perpetua? That’s … unusual.’
‘Daddy said I had to have a Catholic name because he’s Italian, so Mummy googled saints and picked the worst one she could find.’
My daughter and I have no secrets.
‘And where is Daddy, Charlotte? Isn’t he going on holiday with you?’
Kick.
‘Daddy’s dead,’ Lottie says, matter-of-factly.
The nuclear option. Golden princess curls and a dead daddy? There’s no coming back from that.
‘Oh, dear. Oh. I’m so sorry, Charlotte.’
‘It’s OK. Mummy says he was a bastard.’
‘Lottie,’ I reprove, but my heart’s not in it. He was.
The woman subsides into her seat, radiating the peculiar combination of tongue-tied embarrassment and ghoulish curiosity with which I’ve become so familiar in the fourteen months since Luca was killed when a bridge collapsed in Genoa. He was visiting his elderly parents, who split their time between their apartment there and his mother’s ancestral family home in Sicily. It’s just luck it was my weekend to have Lottie, and not his, or she’d have been with him.
Taking pity on the woman, I give Lottie my mobile phone. It’s quite safe: at thirty thousand feet she can’t repeat the in-app purchase debacle of last month.
With my daughter distracted, I flip open my case file, trying to keep my paperwork in order in the cramped space.
This trip couldn’t have come at a worse time. The asylum hearing for one of my clients, a Yazidi woman who survived multiple rapes during her captivity by IS, was unexpectedly brought forward last week, meaning I’ve had to hand it over to one of my colleagues, James, the only lawyer at our firm with a free docket. He’s extremely competent, but my client is terrified of men, which will make it difficult for James to confer with her at her hearing.
The case should be open-and-shut, but I worry something will go wrong. If we weren’t going to the wedding of my best friend, Marc, I’d have cancelled the trip.
I’m midway through composing a detailed follow-up email to James when Lottie suddenly spills a full cup of Coke across my table.
‘Goddamn it, Lottie!’
I shake my papers furiously, watching rivulets of Coke streaming from the pages.
Lottie doesn’t apologise. Instead, she crosses her arms and glares at me.
‘Get up,’ I say sharply. ‘Come on,’ I add, as she mulishly remains in her seat. ‘You’ve got Coke all over yourself. It’ll be sticky when it dries.’
‘I want another one,’ Lottie says.
‘You’re not having another anything! Move it, Lottie. I’m not kidding around.’
She refuses to budge. I unbuckle her seatbelt and haul her out of her seat. She yowls as if I’ve really hurt her, attracting attention.
I know exactly what my fellow passengers are thinking. Before Lottie, I used to think it myself every time I saw a child have a meltdown in a supermarket aisle.
I hustle Lottie down the narrow aisle towards the bathroom. She responds by slapping the headrest of every seat as she passes. ‘Fuck you,’ she says cheerfully, with each slap. ‘Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.’
I stopped being embarrassed by my daughter’s bad behaviour long ago, but this is extreme, even for her. I grab her shoulders. ‘Stop that right now,’ I hiss in her ear. ‘I’m warning you.’
Lottie screams as if mortally wounded, and then collapses bonelessly in the aisle.
‘Oh my God,’ a woman sitting near us exclaims. ‘Is she all right?’
‘She’s fine.’ I bend down and shake my daughter. ‘Lottie, get up. You’re making a scene.’
‘She’s not moving,’ someone else cries. ‘I think she’s really hurt.’
The buzz of concern around us intensifies, and a few people half-stand in their seats. A steward hurries down the aisle towards us.
‘This woman hit her kid,’ a man accuses.
‘I did not hit her. She’s just having a tantrum.’
The steward looks from the man to me, and then at Lottie, who still hasn’t moved. ‘Does she need a doctor?’
‘There’s nothing wrong with her,’ I say. ‘Lottie, get up.’
An older woman a few seats away pats the steward’s arm. ‘It’s the terrible twos. They all go through it.’
‘Lottie,’ I say calmly. ‘If you don’t get up right now, there will be no Disney World, no ice-cream, and no television for a week.’
In a battle of wills, my three-year-old daughter is easily my equal. But she’s not just stubborn: she’s smart. She can make a cost/benefit analysis in an instant.
She sits up, and the concerned whispers around me change to exasperated mutters of disapproval.
‘I hate you!’ Lottie says. ‘I wish I’d never been born!’
I pull her to her feet. ‘That makes two of us,’ I say.
chapter 02
alex
A blast of moist, soupy tropical air envelops us when we leave the aircraft, as if someone has opened the door of a tumble dryer mid-cycle. My sunglasses instantly fog and Lottie’s hair fluffs in a platinum nimbus around her shoulders. I can only imagine the effect the humidity is having on mine.
We join the crumpled, weary queue snaking towards passport control. When the US border guard asks me whether my visit is for business or pleasure, I’m tempted to tell her neither.
If you like eating dinner at 5.30 p.m. and wear sandals that fasten with Velcro, Florida is for you. But for those not aged under seven or over seventy, it’s less enchanting.
We’re here because Marc’s bride is the kind of woman who wants Insta-ready wedding photos of cerulean oceans and sugary beaches, regardless of the inconvenience to everyone else.
I can’t be the only person who finds the current craze for destination weddings the apogee of entitled narcissism. If it’s romance you’re after, elope. Otherwise, is it fair to expect a brother with three young children, student loans and a mortgage to fork out for five plane tickets or risk becoming a family pariah? And what about elderly relatives whose own life events – marriage, children – are now behind them, and for whom a grandchild’s wedding is one of the few genuine pleasures left?
For me, flying four thousand miles to enable my daughter to be a bridesmaid at my best friend’s wedding is an expensive nuisance. For the lonely and infirm, unable to travel, such distant celebrations are an exercise in heartbreak.
It’s the reason Luca and I married twice, once in his mother’s ancestral church in Sicily to please his extensive family, and once in West Sussex for my considerably smaller one. Perhaps a third wedding would have actually made it stick.
I reclaim our suitcase from the carousel, and Lottie and I join yet another queue, this time for a taxi. We’re both hot, tired and disagreeable by the time we get in the cab, but fortunately my daughter soon falls asleep, her head pillowed in my lap.
I stroke her hair back from her sweaty face, smiling as she wrinkles her nose and bats my hand away without waking.
Mothering Lottie is the hardest thing I have ever done. It’s the only task, in my accomplished life, at which I’ve struggled to succeed.
There’s no Hallmark coda to that statement, no but nothing has been more fulfilling. I don’t find motherhood satisfying or rewarding. It’s tedious, repetitive, solitary, exhausting. Luca was a much more natural parent. But my love for my daughter is visceral and unquestioning. I’d take a bullet for her.
I check my emails as we sit in bumper-to-bumper traffic on the causeway across Tampa Bay, careful not to disturb Lottie.
It’s as I feared: while I’ve been in the air, my Yazidi client has had her request for asylum denied, principally because she was unwilling to confer with her male legal counsel and participate fully and properly in the interview.
I fire off several quick emails in response, setting in motion the steps necessary to lodge an appeal. I’m not being precious or egotistical when I say my absence from London has real-world consequences, and every minute I’m away from the office counts.
But Marc put his entire life on hold for me when Luca was killed. He knows I don’t particularly like Sian, his bride; failure to attend their wedding, no matter how I might spin it, would test our friendship. And I’ll only be away six days. James can hold down the fort at work till I return. I’ll just have to pull a few all-nighters once I’m home to get things back on track.
I put my phone away and gently reposition my daughter’s head in my lap as we take the exit towards the neon-lit drag of St Pete Beach, with its jostle of hotels, bars, chain restaurants and tourist shops.
We turn off the main strip away from the crowds and into a more residential neighbourhood. A few minutes later, the taxi stops at a gate at the foot of a short bridge, which leads to a tiny barrier island a few hundred feet off the coast. The skyline is dominated by the Sandy Beach Hotel, a primrose-yellow, six-storey crenellated building that rises against the sky like a wedding cake.
Our driver lowers his window to talk to the security guard and, after a moment, the white barrier is lifted and we cross over onto a tiny spit of land jutting out into the Gulf of Mexico.
I shake Lottie awake as the taxi pulls into the courtyard in front of the hotel. A porter whisks away our luggage, and I pick up my drowsy daughter and carry her into the lobby.
A huge wall of glass opens directly onto the white sugary beaches and Lottie instantly buries her face in my shoulder. She’s always been terrified of the sea; I have no idea why.
A number of beachfront rooms have been reserved for the wedding party. I change ours to one overlooking the pool, so Lottie doesn’t have to wake up to a view of the ocean. A vivid orange and red sunset is spreading across the sky, and I’m just about to take my weary child upstairs when Marc and Sian come in from the beach.
Marc pretends to ignore me completely and extends his hand to Lottie. ‘Miss Martini,’ he says gravely. ‘A pleasure to see you again.’
‘It’s Mizz,’ she corrects.
‘Mizz. My mistake.’
Sian slips her hand through Marc’s arm. The gesture is possessive rather than affectionate. ‘We should be getting back to the others,’ she says.
‘Want to join us?’ Marc asks. ‘Paul was just getting in another round.’
‘I would, but Lottie needs to get to bed. She’s shattered.’
‘Why don’t you get her settled, then come back down and find us? We’re at the Parrot Beach Bar, just the other side of the pool. Zealy and Catherine are with us, too.’
Thus speaks the man who has yet to have a child and learn what it is like to spend the rest of your life with your heart walking around outside your body.
‘She’s three, Marc,’ Sian says. ‘Alexa can’t just leave her on her own in a strange hotel.’
Marc takes the handle of my carry-on bag with proprietary authority. ‘At least let me help you upstairs with this.’
‘Everyone’s waiting for us,’ Sian says.
‘You go back out. We’ll be down again in a minute.’
His bride-to-be smiles, but it doesn’t reach her pretty eyes.
There’s never been the slightest chance of a romantic liaison between Marc and me. We met when he started coaching the women’s football team at University College, London, where I studied law; for the first three years we knew each other, he only saw me sweaty and mud-spattered, in unflattering Lycra shorts and sporting a mouthguard.
I’ve liked some of his girlfriends. But he’s let several good ones get away by missing the proposal window: by the time he’s realised they’re perfect for him, they’ve grown tired of waiting and moved on.
Marc’s thirty-six now; a wealthy marketing director with every trapping of success bar a wife and family, and he’s been itching to get married for several years. Sian just happened to be the one holding the parcel when the music stopped.
My phone rings just as I slide the keycard into the hotel room door.
‘I’m sorry,’ I say. ‘I wouldn’t take it, but it’s James—’
‘Go, go,’ Marc says. ‘I’ll get Lottie sorted out. Sian won’t mind if I stay a bit longer.’
I seriously doubt that, but I need to talk to James and find out what’s happening with my client, so I take Marc up on his offer to look after Lottie, and go back along the corridor to take the call somewhere quiet.
By the time I return to our room fifteen minutes later, Lottie is dressed in her pyjamas and tucked into one of the two queen-sized beds. Marc is perched next to her, reading her a story.
‘Ready to go down?’ he asks me, putting the book aside.
I hesitate. I’m wired from my conversation with James and wide awake; a glass of bourbon would put that right. But even though I’m fully aware I’m not a natural mother, I do my best to be a good one.
‘I can’t leave her,’ I say.
Lottie folds her fat arms crossly across her chest. ‘You didn’t read my story properly,’ she tells Marc. ‘You missed a page.’
‘It’s OK,’ I say. ‘I’ve got this, Marc. You go. I’ll see you tomorrow.’
I settle down on the bed, leaning against the padded headboard and pulling Lottie into the crook of my arm. She hands me the book, Owl Babies, turning the well-thumbed cardboard pages for me as I read aloud the story of three baby owls, perched on a branch in the wood, waiting for their owl mummy to return.
And she does, swooping silently through the trees: You knew I’d come back.
Then I add the line that’s not in the book, the line Lottie’s been waiting for, the line that Luca, making up for my shortcomings, always used to add, with more faith than my history warranted: ‘Mummies always come back.’
thirty-six hours before the wedding
chapter 03
alex
Lottie wakes hours before dawn, still on London time. I toss her my phone, buying myself another valuable half-hour, and burrow back under the covers. Of all the many trials of motherhood, sleep deprivation is one of the worst.
I never wanted a child. This doesn’t mean I don’t love the very bones of her now she’s here; Lottie is my oxygen, the reason I breathe. But I can’t be the only woman who didn’t see herself as a mother until it happened, and, if I’m ruthlessly honest, for quite a long time after she arrived.
In fairness, I didn’t much see myself as a wife, either.
Luca and I met nearly five years ago, in March 2015, a few months after he’d moved to the UK from his hometown of Genoa, in northern Italy, to head up the London office of his family’s coffee import business. In those days, I rented a ground-floor flat one street away from Parsons Green Tube station in Fulham with a couple of friends, and we were sick and tired of having our drive blocked by commuters dumping their cars in nearby roads before getting the train into central London.
One evening, unable to drive to my father’s sixtieth birthday party in Sussex until the owner of the car obstructing mine returned, I lay in wait, seething, and then exploded in the driver’s face.
Italian to his marrow, Luca gave as good as he got. As I recall, our first conversation consisted almost entirely of imaginative swearwords in two languages.
Sometime around the point I stormed back into the flat, grabbed a tub of Ben & Jerry’s ice-cream, and smeared it all over his windscreen, I noticed how good-looking he was. Our encounter descended into clichéd rom-com meet-cute: he asked me out to dinner, I accepted, and we ended up in bed.
At the time, I was twenty-four and had just started full-time work at Muysken Ritter. I was putting in eighteen-hour days, six and often seven days a week. I didn’t have time for a relationship.
But Luca was charming, well-travelled, and fun. I enjoyed spending time with him. The sex was excellent, and I found myself refreshed and more productive after a night together. It was easy to fancy myself a little bit in love with him.
Or perhaps I really was; from this distance, it’s hard to be sure.
Some four months after that first, cystitis-inducing night, I discovered that, thanks to a bout of food-poisoning and consequent antibiotics, I was six weeks pregnant. If I didn’t have time for a relationship, I certainly couldn’t cope with a baby. I booked a termination, and told Luca, because I felt it would’ve been dishonest not to, not because I expected him to have a say in the matter.
To my astonishment, he fell on bended knee and asked me to marry him. I rather wounded his pride by laughing.
He was Italian, of course, and Catholic: for him, the idea of abortion was anathema. He begged me to keep the baby, promising he’d do all the childcare, I’d ‘barely know the baby was there’.
He was passionate, and persuasive.
And I was young enough, and arrogant enough, to believe I really could have – and do – it all.
And then there was my sister, Harriet. At the age of nineteen, she’d been diagnosed with cervical cancer, and although the aggressive chemotherapy treatment saved her life, it’d rendered her infertile. It was impossible not to have her tragedy at the forefront of my mind when I made my decision.
The next time Luca proposed, I said yes. Reader, I married him – twice. We moved into a two-bedroom terrace in Balham, turning one of them into a nursery, and set about building our little family. And when it all fell apart, as it inevitably did before we’d even reached Lottie’s second birthday, I took it on the chin and put marriage and children on the list of experiments worth trying once, but never repeating, along with parachute jumpsuits and floral tea dresses.
I’m woken a second time when Lottie flings the phone at my head. It makes brutal contact and I sit bolt upright, rubbing the side of my skull. ‘Fuck!’ I exclaim. ‘What did you do that for!’
‘You’re not listening to me,’ Lottie says.
‘Damn it, Lottie. That really hurt.’
‘I don’t want to be a bridesmaid.’
I fling back the bedcovers. ‘I don’t give a damn what you want. You said you’d do this, and you’re going to.’
‘My blue mummy says I don’t have to.’
I have no idea what she’s talking about. ‘Well, this mummy says you do.’
I need to pee, but when I try to open the bathroom door, it’s jammed shut. I kneel down and prise out the dozens of bits of paper Lottie has shoved beneath it, an irritating habit she started in the traumatic aftermath of her father’s death. She does it with any door that doesn’t fit tightly to the floor, convinced monsters are going to slide between the gaps. She refuses even to go into my parents’ kitchen, because the door down to the cellar has a half-inch gap she can’t block.
‘For heaven’s sake, Lottie. I thought we’d talked about this.’
She hunches her shoulders, juts out her chin and glares at me mulishly.
I use the bathroom and then come back and sit on the edge of her bed. ‘What’s going on, Lottie?’ I say, my tone brisk. ‘You’ve been looking forward to this wedding for months.’
‘I don’t like Marc any more.’
‘Since when?’
Her scowl intensifies. ‘He touched me.’
Nothing, but nothing, in more than ten years of friendship, has ever given me cause to doubt Marc. Not by a glance, insinuation or chance remark has he suggested his tastes run towards children. But when your daughter tells you a man has touched her, you take it seriously.
‘What do you mean?’ I ask sharply. ‘When?’
‘Last night. I didn’t like it.’
My mouth dries. I can’t believe Marc would ever, but then it’s always the ones you least suspect.
Lottie has many faults but I’ve never known her to lie. Her default position is to tell the truth and shame the devil. The thought that anyone may have touched her, hurt her, is enough to ignite a murderous rage in me. I would go to the ends of the earth to protect my daughter.
‘Where did he touch you?’ I ask, as calmly as I’m able.
‘I’m not telling.’
I want to grip her by the shoulders and shake the details out of her, but she’ll simply refuse to talk to me if I pressure her. Her longest retributory silence to date lasted three full days, when she punished me for trying to establish what she wanted for her third birthday. She wasn’t the one who caved to end the standoff.
‘OK,’ I say, getting up again.
‘He was very rude,’ she says.
‘What sort of rude?’
‘He squeezed me!’
‘Squeezed? You mean, like a hug?’
‘No!’ She gathers a fistful of her ample belly in each hand. ‘Here! Like this! He said I was getting chunky!’
I’ll deal with the fat-shaming aspect of this clusterfuck later. Right now, I’m just relieved I don’t have to accuse my best friend of molesting my daughter on his wedding day.
‘He’s only saying that because he’s marrying an ironing board,’ I say.
‘She does look like an ironing board,’ Lottie agrees delightedly.
‘You should feel sorry for him, really.’
‘All right. I’ll be his flower girl.’
‘Good,’ I say mildly.
The wedding rehearsal starts at six tonight, an hour before sunset, the same as the actual ceremony tomorrow. It’s still not yet seven in the morning, which gives me eleven hours to fill without allowing Lottie to eat herself sick, drown, get sunstroke or cut off the hair of any of the other four bridesmaids (quite within the realms of possibility; there was a rather disastrous incident with the paper scissors her first term at nursery school).
I’m not optimistic.
chapter 04
alex
I’ve never really understood Lottie’s fear of the ocean. There was no childhood trauma in the sea that might have triggered it, no near-drowning incident, and water itself isn’t the problem; she loves the pool and has been able to swim without armbands, even well out of her depth, for almost a year.
But this is a beach wedding and Lottie has to get used to the nearness of the sea, so, after lunch, I fortify myself with a stiff gin-and-tonic (full disclosure: not my first of the day) and take her down to the beach.
Fortunately, although her chin goes down and her shoulders hunch forward so that she resembles a bonsai charging bull, she doesn’t detonate as I’d feared. We walk slowly towards a raked section of powdery white sand, where the hotel staff is setting out rows of