Mummy, Please Don’t Leave
By Casey Watson
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A heartbreaking true story of a broken family and the foster carer who wants to keep them together…
The Watsons are no strangers to sibling placements but when Casey takes the call from her supervising social worker one frosty January morning, she can instantly tell from the tone of her colleague’s voice that there’s a complicated case ahead.
And she’s right. A four-day-old baby boy called Tommy – born in prison – plus his four-year-old half-brother, the lively Seth. A month later, the very moment she gets out of prison, the boys’ mother – a 19-year-old called Jenna – also follows.
For Casey, it would it be a difficult scenario on several levels. Caring for a new born in her fifties with a pre-schooler who has spent most of his young life without boundaries tearing around her ankles, while also looking out for his drug-addicted mum who is ill-equipped to parent.
It’s an unusual situation but one that has arisen in a bid to keep the family together. Can Casey find the energy and strength needed to rise to the challenge? Casey believes she can but when baby Tommy and Seth arrive, she falters. Seth is not so much a pocket rocket as a seek and destroy missile with a whole other agenda…
Casey Watson
Casey Watson, who writes under a pseudonym, is a specialist foster carer. She and her husband, Mike, look after children who are particularly troubled or damaged by their past. Before becoming a foster carer Casey was a behaviour manager for her local comprehensive school. It was through working with these ‘difficult’ children – removed from mainstream classes for various reasons – that the idea for her future career was born. Casey is married with two children and three grandchildren.
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Mummy, Please Don’t Leave - Casey Watson
Dedication
I’d like to dedicate this story to all foster carers and social workers, and also to the family support workers and others who dedicate their lives to the service. As far as I’m concerned, these people are some of the forgotten heroes of the terrible pandemic of 2020. Can you imagine having a houseful of troubled children, and then being told you must all be confined to the house 24/7? Teenagers who are used to going out and doing their own thing, toddlers, used to playing with their friends at the park or at nursery, and school-age children who already struggle with learning can no longer go to their place of education. All families have struggled with these problems, but for foster carers it’s been so much harder. Some of us barely knew the children who got ‘locked down’ with us. Some of us had to report our children as missing, even though we knew they just couldn’t take being locked down and had gone to meet with a friend. It’s been a terrible year for everybody, but I know just how difficult it has been for my particular group of colleagues, and I salute each and every one of you. God bless, and I pray that next year is better for all of us.
Acknowledgements
As always, I need to thank my fabulous agent, Andrew Lownie, and the wonderful team at HarperCollins. Our lovely editor, Kelly Ellis, who has, as ever, been so patient with us and such a joy to work with and also Holly Blood and Georgina Atsiaris. And no thanks would be complete without my eternal gratitude to my friend and mentor, Lynne – who also has the patience of a saint!
Chapter 1
I love a challenge. I always have. And I suspect I’m not alone in that. It’s a basic human instinct, after all. Though on this crisp early January day, challenged to find a mermaid for a five-year-old, even I was forced to admit it might be tricky.
Mike and I were on an outing with Annie and Oscar, the twins we’d fostered for a few weeks the previous year. They’d been hard work – how could a pair of lively pre-schoolers ever not be? – but also enormous fun, and uncomplicated too, because they were only in care temporarily while their parents were in hospital, having both suffered serious burns during a house fire. It was our proximity to the major burns unit where they were being treated that had sealed the deal: we were able to take the children in to visit them while they recovered.
We’d kept in touch afterwards. Lovely for us, and also helpful for the family, because it meant Mum and Dad could leave the twins somewhere familiar when they returned to the hospital. Which was something they had to do on multiple occasions, for essential follow-up work. This was one such occasion and, since Mike had managed to wangle a rare midweek day off, we’d taken them to the local Sea Life centre, out on the coast.
Where, apparently, there should definitely be mermaids. Well, according to Annie, who, despite the distractions of dancing jellyfish, bobbing seahorses, anemones, and seals and sharks, was destined to be cruelly disappointed. Not least by her brother, who felt it his duty to keep on remarking that mermaids weren’t actually real. ‘They’re just in stories,’ he pointed out with the kind of no-nonsense assurance that made it all too obvious who was going to be the one to dash another fervently held belief for her next Christmas.
But next Christmas was obviously still a long way away. And in any case, Mike had other ideas. ‘Ah,’ he said, ‘didn’t you hear about the octopus?’
Annie, perched on my hip, better to see into a tank of flatfish, pouted. ‘What octopus?’
‘The famous octopus,’ Mike said. ‘The famous octopus who escaped.’
‘From here?’ Oscar asked.
‘From another place just like this. It was all in the news. Everyone thought he’d escaped all by himself – which he might have because octopuses are known for being very, very clever – but when they investigated further they found he’d had an accomplice.’
Oscar frowned. ‘What’s an accomplice?’
‘A helper. A special, secret helper. Who’d snuck in in the middle of the night – swam right up one of the big drainpipes that bring in all the sea water – and undone the latch on the top of the octopus’s tank, so they could slither back down the drain pipe and escape back to the sea.’
‘But how did they know it was a mermaid?’ Annie asked. ‘It could have just been another octopus, couldn’t it? Or a fish.’
Mike shook his head. ‘Wouldn’t have been able to undo the latch, because fish don’t have fingers. Well, that is, unless they are fish fingers. And they know it was a mermaid because they found a bit of evidence. A beautiful green scale left behind from her tail.’
Annie’s eyes widened. ‘Can we see it?’
Mike shook his head. ‘Sadly not. They have to keep it in a special box, in a special vault in a museum. If they put it in the light and air – pfff! – it will disappear. And that’s why you’ll never be able to see an actual mermaid.’ He tipped his head towards the play area and the strip of sea beyond it. ‘But that doesn’t mean they aren’t out there, because they are. Now then,’ he added with a wink. ‘Who’s for lunch? Don’t know about you three but all this mermaid-hunting has made me hungry.’
‘You’re in your element,’ I teased him, once we were installed in the café and the children were colouring in the pictures in their activity books.
‘What, water?’
‘No. Being here, I mean. Out with the little ones. Having fun.’ I nodded towards the children, heads close, deep in creative endeavour. ‘You know, I miss this.’
Mike looked confused. ‘Miss what?’
‘Miss doing more of this kind of thing. Miss the children. Miss the grandchildren.’
‘Miss them? Case, we’re not exactly short of children and grandchildren.’
‘I know, but do you ever get that sense that it’s all gone too fast? That we’re spending increasingly more and more time rattling round on our own?’
‘Erm, as far as I can see, that day’s going to be a bit of a while coming. Carter’s not even three months old yet!’
Carter, Kieron and Lauren’s second child, and our newest grandson, had been born the previous October. ‘Nearer four months,’ I felt obliged to point out. ‘And yes, I do know that. I was just thinking how everything’s changing so quickly. Dee Dee in school now. The others growing up so quickly … Can you believe Levi’s going to be fourteen this year?’
He slapped a hand down on the table. ‘Ah, now I get it. You’re just feeling sorry for yourself because you aren’t in Lanzarote.’
Which was, I had to concede, partly true. Riley and David and our three eldest grandkids had jetted off for a bit of winter sun just after Christmas – a trip I’d have dearly loved to join them on, except I couldn’t countenance leaving my own mum and dad when they were both getting so frail, not in the depths of winter, anyway.
And my decision had been the right one, because they’d both gone down with nasty colds over Christmas, which could easily have turned into something worse. But for all that I was busy burnishing my dutiful daughter halo, at the same time, Mike was right – naked jealousy about all that sunshine Riley and co. were enjoying couldn’t help, from time to time, but raise its ugly head. I just had to whack it down again, like stuffing a mole back in a hole. We’d promised ourselves we’d get a few days away, late spring. There was just the interminable business of winter to get through first.
Riley was due back in a couple of days, in time for the new school term, and I couldn’t wait to have a catch-up, but actually, though Mike was correct about me being envious of the temperatures they’d be currently basking in, it definitely wasn’t the whole picture. It was more that I increasingly had ants in my pants; too much time on my hands and not enough family to fill it. And much as I doted on our newest family member, I couldn’t monopolise him, because he had other doting grandparents too. One of which – his other gran – was currently looking after him, as she would be doing two days a week now, while Lauren was at work. Which was lovely – they’d moved up here to be closer to them, precisely so she could do so. Which I couldn’t resent, and absolutely didn’t, but even so …
‘Well, yes and no,’ I admitted, ‘but I think we’ve been on a break long enough, don’t you? I mean, I know we needed it –’
‘And how,’ Mike interrupted, with evident feeling. And not without good reason. Our last placement had been a suicidal teenager, and though it had all worked out okay in the end, the stress of it all had taken quite a toll on us both. My nerves still jangled sometimes, recalling some of the things that had happened. The whole family’s did, truth be told. Looking after her had been a particularly distressing and sobering experience, and our need for a long break from fostering had felt very real.
‘And I know we said we were in no rush to take on another child just yet,’ I conceded, ‘but I’m beginning to feel antsy – like I need something to do again. It’s probably just empty nest syndrome, I know, but –’
‘Empty nest?’ Mike spluttered. ‘Our house is always bloody full! And – point of order – Tyler’s still there. Least he was as of this morning.’
‘Yes, and going away for a week in two days, remember.’
‘Yes, on a training course with work. It’s not like he’s off backpacking round the world, love.’
‘Yes, I know that,’ I said, adding in my head, if not my words, that the time might soon come when he’d want to do exactly that. ‘But he’s an adult now. He’s got his own life to live. And with the grandkids getting older –’
‘And us getting older.’ Mike narrowed his eyes. ‘Ah! Is that what this is about?’
‘Yes and no,’ I said again. ‘I mean, I absolutely don’t want to plunge into another full-on placement like the last one – at least, not right now. But –’
‘Not ever was what I seem to remember you saying at the time,’ Mike pointed out.
‘I know. But that was then. And I can’t just do nothing. It’s okay for you – you’ve got your work to keep you busy. And look how much fun we’re having today with these two little ones … Admit it, we are, aren’t we?’
‘A lot more fun than all those sleepless nights worrying about what Harley was getting up to, that’s for sure,’ he conceded. He leaned over then, and fondly mussed the wayward curls on Oscar’s head.
Which I noted. To use to my advantage. ‘Exactly,’ I said. ‘So I was thinking I should call Christine. Let her know I’m up for doing respite again or something. Nothing too stressful. I’ll be clear about that.’
‘So, do it,’ Mike suggested. ‘Can’t have you moping your way through January. Anyway, you’re too young to retire. And I can’t see you taking up knitting. Ah, and that’s our food order,’ he added, as a number was bellowed from the kitchen. ‘Clear the decks, kids. Grub’s up!’ He grabbed the chit and stood up.
And that was my principal thought as I watched him walk away across the café, as tall and fit and strong as ever. That we were too young to retire. That I was too young to retire. That I was young, full stop. Well, not exactly young. I wasn’t in that much denial. But not old. Not decrepit yet. Not ready for – that dreaded term – ‘slowing down’. And that taking on a little one – maybe a brace of little ones, just like dear little Annie and Oscar – was exactly what I ought to be doing. What I was made for. What I was good at.
Which was probably the reason I reacted as I did when I spoke to Christine Bolton three hours later. Either that, or I’d gone stark staring bonkers.
Chapter 2
Christine Bolton was our supervising social worker. Her job was to oversee the work of all the foster carers on her books, to make sure we were reviewed regularly, kept up to date with any new policies and training courses, and to ensure we were all okay in our day-to-day duties. If we needed anything, or even just wanted someone to rant at, Christine was our port of call. We had worked together for a couple of years now, so she knew us quite well and would always try to match the right children with us. That, at least, was how things were supposed to work. In reality, because of the often urgent need of children placed with the local authority, this kind of matching wasn’t always possible. It was more often a case of saying yes first and then learning more about the child as you went along, especially with such a chronic shortage of carers. This then – this scenario of me actually asking her for a placement – was a rare one.
‘So, you’re bored of the leisurely life already, Casey?’ she asked, laughing, when I told her. ‘I wondered how long it would be. And is Mike itching to get stuck back in too?’
It was early evening, tea done, Annie and Oscar reunited with their parents, and Christine, as ever, was working late at the office. Though her soft Liverpudlian accent held no hint of the pressure I knew she’d undoubtedly be under right now. Christmas and New Year were inevitably busy times, not all Christmases being as magical and glitter-strewn as Christmas cards tended to suggest. And as the last time we’d spoken, we’d agreed to touch base at the end of January, she would, I knew, be glad to hear from me sooner.
‘He is,’ I assured her, even though that wasn’t strictly true. ‘Mostly because he knows I’m kicking my heels,’ I admitted. ‘Riley and David are in the Canaries, Kieron and Lauren are back at work, and now Tyler’s working full-time, he’s hardly ever here. And I’m bored stiff,’ I finished. ‘In need of a New Year challenge. And before you ask, I’m definitely not taking up yoga.’
Christine laughed again. ‘Oh, Casey, you do crease me up,’ she said. ‘Oh, and namaste, by the way.’
‘Namas-what?’
‘Namaste. It’s a traditional Hindu greeting. And the reason I know it is because I have taken up yoga. You should try it. It’s done wonders for my back – and more importantly, my mental health. Which has been a godsend, believe me. It’s not been the easiest of Christmases this year.’
I’d expected that. The last time we’d chatted had been just before the festivities – in her case overshadowed by her father-in-law’s significant deterioration. He had dementia, and she and her husband were facing some tough decisions about his care.
‘I’m sorry to hear that,’ I said. ‘Must be hard on you all.’
She surprised me then by chuckling. ‘Don’t judge me,’ she said, ‘but let’s just say there’s a lot to be said for working late at the office right now. No, seriously. We’re doing okay. It just is what it is, isn’t it? Millions of others in the same boat. Anyway, enough about me,’ she hurried on. ‘I’m more interested in you. And it’s great to hear you’re back in the game. I’ll obviously put you into the mix. Get word out. See if there’s anything –’
‘You mean you don’t have anything right now?’ I asked, surprised. ‘I thought you’d be biting my hand off.’
‘Oh, I’m sure I will be. This isn’t a state of affairs I expect to last, trust me. You know what it’s like at this time of year – just the eye of the storm.’
‘Oh,’ I said, deflated now. ‘Well, at least you have a bit of a breathing space.’
‘I wish,’ she said. ‘I’m actually tearing my hair out as we speak. A placement that’s proving – hmm – what’s the word? Vexatious. That’s the one. Extremely vexatious.’
‘So, can we help?’
‘I wish,’ she said again, more vehemently this time. ‘But it isn’t one for you and Mike. Trust me, if it was, you’d have been the first couple I would have thought of – even if you were on a break.’
Isn’t one for you and Mike. Like a red rag to a bull, that. ‘Why?’ I asked, since I couldn’t imagine why any kind of placement wouldn’t be. We were supposed to be ‘last-chance saloon’ specialists, after all. No, not ‘supposed to be’. Were. ‘What’s the issue?’ I asked her, assuming, in that moment, that the reason she hadn’t even thought of us must mean it was something straightforward. Something cultural or geographical. Something practical. Then she floored me. ‘It just needs a younger couple, that’s all. Which is not to say you’re old,’ she added, as if she’d climbed inside my brain while I wasn’t looking. ‘But it’s a toughie, this one. Demanding.’
‘In what way demanding?’
‘In every way,’ she said. ‘At least, that’s what I anticipate. And even with the best will in the world –’
‘How? How is it going to be demanding? Come on, spill.’
‘Genuinely, Casey. I don’t think this one’s for you.’
‘So tell me why,’ I said, intrigued, and not a little piqued now. ‘Give me all the ins and outs. You’ve got me going now!’
‘I’m not so sure you’ll be feeling quite so excited when you hear what it entails,’ she said. ‘It’s one of the most unusual requests I’ve ever had to put to a carer, to be honest. To several, actually. I’m fast approaching the end of my list.’
‘And your tether, I imagine,’ I said. ‘So go on, try me. At least tell me.’
So she did.
And she was right. The long and the short of it was that a nineteen-year-old mother, Jenna, had been sentenced to four months in jail, for drugs-related offences. As a consequence, her four-year-old son, Seth, had gone to live with his maternal grandparents until the release date, and they were apparently struggling to cope. Jenna was expected to serve half of her sentence – eight weeks in total – but with the added complication that she had been heavily pregnant when incarcerated, and had now given birth to another baby boy. ‘This one’s called Tommy,’ Christine explained. ‘Born just under a week back. And Jenna still has four weeks of her sentence left to serve.’
So far, I thought, so straightforward. With not long to go, Mother and Baby would presumably spend the remaining time on the prison maternity wing. Not an ideal start in life, but definitely not as bad a start as some I’d encountered. At least Mum and Baby would be clean, fed and cared for. So what was the deal here? To look after the four-year-old till she was released?
My thoughts went immediately to the little ones we’d said goodbye to only hours earlier. ‘So I’m guessing you need someone to foster the four-year-old until she gets out?’
‘Not exactly,’ Christine said. ‘I mean, yes, we obviously do need someone to take Seth. But they also need to take the baby. As in the five-day-old baby. Which is why –’
‘Oh no,’ I said, my heart sinking. ‘You mean she doesn’t want to keep him?’
‘No. She does. Desperately so. That’s why it’s all so complex.’
‘How so? Surely she can stay with him in prison?’
‘Not in this case. And when she’s out, we need her taken on – well, in – as well. Which effectively means that, come her release, it’ll change from a placement to a mother and baby assessment.’
‘Assessment? Are social services planning to permanently remove the children from her then?’
‘Again, it’s complicated,’ Christine said.
And she was right on that, too. There had apparently been lots of activity around the case, the grandparents’ inability to care for the four-year-old being the least of it. Yes, that much was true, because they both had long-term and apparently debilitating health issues. But the original plan – to obtain a permanent care order for both the four-year-old and newborn, who were both deemed at risk with their ‘off the rails’ mother – was sent off track by the determination of the young mum herself. Despite a background that flagged her as highly unlikely to be able to care for them she had insisted she wanted the opportunity to prove otherwise, and had a solicitor speak for her, to plead her case to the presiding judge.
‘Unusually – no one expected it, of course – something must have chimed with the judge,’ Christine continued, ‘because she insisted if there was a way to help then we should give her that chance. Hence a mother and baby placement upon her release. As for the newborn, well, you’re right, Jenna really could have kept him with her, but she’s been withdrawing from some quite powerful antidepressants, and despite her best efforts, according to the medical team at the prison, she’s really struggling. Weepy, not sleeping, tired and drained through the day. Not the best combination for looking after a new baby. She also maintains that she wants the best possible start for him, and I think the feeling is that her self-sacrifice in entrusting him to whoever cares for her older son till her release counts in her favour.’
‘Wow,’ I said, trying to let all the information sink in. ‘That poor girl! She must feel like she’s got the weight of the world on her shoulders. I’m guessing there isn’t a father in the picture?’
‘No,’ Christine said. ‘She’s no longer with the older boy’s father – surprise, surprise, he’s in prison, drugs again – and she’s admitted that she’s not sure in the case of the baby, and has no interest in, ahem, the candidates, either. But listen, Casey, seriously. This is a lot to take on. Just the newborn, on his own, is a lot to take on. And a newborn and a four-year-old is a huge amount to take on. And from what I’ve heard the four-year-old is going to be challenging on his own. Then there’s Mum, and the fact that the role is going to change. Honestly, this is going to be a twenty-four-seven placement. Which is why I didn’t even think of you, let alone run it by you in case you fancied coming back sooner. And it’s fine. If we need to, we’re going to open it out to other agencies. In fact, I was about to do just that when you called.’
‘But if I want to? If we want to?’
‘Casey, seriously now. Really? I mean, think. Really think. Something like this … well, it’ll take over your life. Is that really what you want? At your time of life?’
She didn’t mean anything. I knew that. She was just being sensible. But I did