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For readers of A Gentleman in Moscow and Z: A Novel of Zelda Fitzgerald, an ambitious, spellbinding historical novel about sensuality, censorship, and the novel that set off the sexual revolution.
On the glittering shores of the Mediterranean in 1928, a dying author in exile races to complete his final novel. Lady Chatterley's Lover is a sexually bold love story, a searing indictment of class distinctions, and a study in sensuality. But the author, D.H. Lawrence, knows it will be censored. He publishes it privately, loses his copies to customs, and dies bereft.
Booker Prize-longlisted author Alison MacLeod brilliantly recreates the novel's origins and boldly imagines its journey to freedom through the story of Jackie Kennedy, who was known to be an admirer. In MacLeod's telling, Jackie-in her last days before becoming first lady-learns that publishers are trying to bring D.H. Lawrence's long-censored novel to American and British readers in its full form. The U.S. government has responded by targeting the postal service for distributing obscene material. Enjoying what anonymity she has left, determined to honor a novel she loves, Jackie attends the hearing incognito. But there she is quickly recognized, and FBI Director J. Edgar Hoover takes note of her interest and her outrage.
Through the story of Lawrence's writing of Lady Chatterley's Lover, the historic obscenity trial that sought to suppress it in the United Kingdom, and the men and women who fought for its worldwide publication, Alison MacLeod captures the epic sweep of the twentieth century from war and censorship to sensuality and freedom. Exquisite, evocative, and grounded in history, Tenderness is a testament to the transformative power of fiction.
Alison MacLeod
Alison MacLeod is the author of three novels – The Changeling, The Wave Theory of Angels and Unexploded, which was longlisted for the Man Booker Prize 2013 – and two story collections. She is the joint winner of the Eccles British Library Writer's Award 2016 and was a finalist for the 2017 Governor General's Award. She was Professor of Contemporary Fiction at the University of Chichester until 2018, when she became Visiting Professor to write full-time. She lives in Brighton.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5If you’ve ever wondered about the author of Lady Chatterley’s Lover and want to know more about DH Lawrence and his life, this fictionalized account is right up your alley. Its not fast-paced, but there’s so much detail about the storm this book caused in England. Author, Alison McLeod, turns to Lawrence’s autobiography for the details about his indecency trial. Well worth reading if you want to know more about this eloquent man and his life.
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Tenderness - Alison MacLeod
TENDERNESS
BY THE SAME AUTHOR
The Changeling
The Wave Theory of Angels Unexploded
All the Beloved Ghosts
For my aunts, Jean MacLeod Kelley (1927–2020)
and Miriam MacLeod (1929–2008),
who gave us ‘the Cape’
Author’s Note
Perhaps every novel begins life as an ineffable spark of a story: an atom of the imagination, a flash in a synapse, an electric ‘hit’ to the heart – the moment one knows a story wants to be written.
The pulse of Tenderness has been with me through six years of research, long periods of literary ‘detective work’, and the midnight labour of writing itself. Through it all, I’ve looked forward to being able to share on these pages discoveries that I believe offer fresh insight, new meanings and perspectives vital to our understanding of the origins of one novel, Lady Chatterley’s Lover, and the spell it cast, far into its own future.
Tenderness is a work of fiction, although clearly some of its characters were inspired by real people who are used in my novel, to varying degrees, fictitiously. Some scenes and circumstances have been changed, invented or imagined for artistic purposes, and to offer a wider window of understanding on particular historical events: to evoke, in other words, the ‘human moments’ that might have occurred between the date-points on the timelines of official history. I have included letters and documents that have been faithfully reproduced; other such items have been invented, condensed, added to or modified for clarity. Readers who are interested in specific correspondence or documents should refer to the appropriate biographies, archives or editions of collected letters.
While Tenderness is a ‘dialogue’ across time with Lady Chatterley, it is not a substitute for it. I hope some readers of my novel might return to D. H. Lawrence’s novel, or go on to discover it for the first time.
Although a work of fiction, Tenderness grew out of extensive research – archival, travel-based and textual. Above all, it is a celebration of Lawrence’s daring and vision, and the courage of the publishers, lawyers and witnesses who put their heads above the parapet to defend one novel. It’s a testament to the power of readers and the human imagination. It’s a story about life itself – life lived against the odds, amid the flux of its failures and everyday beauty.
Ours is the universe of the unfolded rose,
The explicit,
The candid revelation.
D. H. Lawrence
‘If they want to renounce Lawrence, then let them, for pity’s sake, renounce life.’
Gwyn Thomas to Michael Rubinstein, Defence Solicitor for Penguin Books
Contents
These Hidden Things
Fly Little Boat
Epilogue: Tenderness
Afterword
Acknowledgements
Sources
A Note on the Author
These Hidden Things
‘I wondered at his courage and daring to face and write these hidden things that people dare not write or say.’
Frieda Lawrence
The Exile
i
The dead could look after the afterwards, but here, here was the quick of the universe: the town lifted from sleep in a vast net of light, and the Mediterranean, five miles away at Cagnes, flickering like a great opal. He’d woken early and had watched the dark gravity of the night yield to daybreak. Now the streets were a mirage, half-dissolved in the dazzle of morning. Even the town’s ancient walls were erased, while a barking dog in the road below was more bark than dog. On the balcony, among the geraniums, he squinted: the coastline as far as the Cap d’Antibes shook and shimmered. It was impossible to say where sea turned to sky. The smudge of an ocean-liner materialised at what might have been the horizon, while light streamed – the run-off from the warp and weft of the world. Nothing the day touched remained solid, nothing held, nothing except the geraniums and their defiant fists of red.
The previous day, upright in his underwear in the medical bay, the exile had learned that he was, even still, five feet nine inches tall, or that he was when the state of his lungs allowed him to straighten. He would have been cheered by this fact had he not weighed in at forty-five kilos on the French scales, and one hundred pounds on the imperial – or not quite seven stone. He had insisted on both scales, but the two nations were agreed.
It meant at least that he could go, almost literally, where the wind blew him. The almond trees of the town were a pink-and-white froth of blossom. The breeze, slight as it was, had a reviving salt tang. He needed only his hat and shoes. ‘Are we ready?’ he called into the room. Where was the release for the brake on the blasted bath-chair?
Frieda stepped onto the balcony, clicked her cigarette-case open and leaned, with Rubenesque languor, against the rail. She would not be rushed. At her feet, the tiles were littered with cigarette butts and orange peels, some blackened with age, for she was careless, and careless that she was careless. Below the balcony, shutters were opening to the day in good faith. A middle-aged man was washing himself at a barrel in a back garden, his braces trailing from his trousers, and, as if for her, he sang as he flung water at himself – Verdi’s ‘La donna è mobile’. Frieda’s foot tapped along. She loved a vigorous tune.
Chickens, released from their coops, fattened and clucked. She could smell fresh bread from the baker’s across the road; Monsieur Claudel always arrived at his premises before first light. Cats prowled. A woman, her hair still in its net, pegged out sheets on a line, and somewhere, a baby wailed.
Little by little, morning took possession of the medieval streets and the old Roman ways. Fountains bubbled forth again. Shop-owners winched their awnings high against the downpour of light, and the hooves of an approaching dray-horse smote the cobbles. Every few doors, its driver hopped down from the gig to heave a great block of ice to a chute on a shop or café wall.
The morning brimmed, the cafés began to fill, and she watched as holiday-makers tentatively joined the day. ‘English,’ she noted for the benefit of her husband. She had never lost her German inflections. ‘One can tell by the faces. Pasty. Immistakably so.’
‘Unmistakably,’ he said.
She caught a whiff of something pungent – a blocked drain. ‘I prefer immistakable
.’ She turned, tapped ash into the pocket-spittoon on the low table by his chair, and resumed her position, gazing down. ‘Isn’t it curious? English babies are most beautiful. They are fat, rosy peaches. They are the glory of all babies. But something happens as they grow. I do not understand it.’
He bowed his head. ‘May we go?’
‘You love the Med, Lorenzo.’ She drew deeply on her Gauloise. ‘And this really is the most marvellous view. The manager did not lie.’
‘You sound like a Baedeker.’
She’d thought she sounded merely cheerful. In England – though not the other English-speaking nations – one always had to think before one spoke. One had to compose first and speak second. English in England was a trap in which one revealed, without realising, the details of one’s station: one’s rung on the ladder of life, one’s region – acceptable or not – and one’s education, to be envied or pitied. One could unwittingly reveal, too, in a few casual utterances, an apparent lack of feeling or an excess of it; qualities of discernment, gullibility or culpability; as well as one’s grasp of the code of belonging, or one’s failure to do so. An English person might say, ‘How interesting,’ and one had to know that he or she was actually saying, ‘How frightfully dull.’
It was a language for spies, Frieda thought, a means for its natives to find out what others were thinking, or who they truly were. German was matter-of-fact by comparison and, after all these years, she still craved its ease. One said what one meant. After marriages to two Englishmen, and the production of three English children by Husband Number One, she was a fluent speaker of English, natürlich. Yet still, she was deemed blunt or even rude in English where she would have been merely straightforward in German.
If this was a source of personal frustration, at least she side-stepped the traps the English set for each other, Lorenzo included. He had shaken off most of his Nottinghamshire inflections, though not his strong vowels. She had marvelled, years before, when she’d first heard him speak in his native dialect, to please Lady Ottoline at her elegant London dinner party. Afterwards, Frieda had told him that his voice mustn’t be a mere party-trick, that he mustn’t give up his true self, but he had merely shrugged. He wanted, he said, to move through society ‘undetected’.
Indeed, surveillance was so much the habit of the English that they mistook it, she believed, for human nature, presuming all languages to be peepholes for the spy in every person. What a perfect irony that, during the War, they had accused her of that very thing – spying! As if she were capable of keeping any secret! No, she did not miss that little island. No, not at all!
The exile exhaled. Frieda smoked in silence, at last. She blocked his view but there was peace.
They were a thousand feet above sea level. The maritime air should have been fresh, but it was already hot for the early hour. He longed to be out and away. Hadn’t he asked her, repeatedly, to get him released, to break him out? How could he know whether she actually had a plan to free him this morning or was about to cajole him again into a few more days in this place ‘for his health’?
For her ‘most marvellous view’, rather.
‘The English seaside,’ he muttered, ‘would have served us at least as well and at far less expense.’ Money – how it gnawed. Even now, he couldn’t trust it not to surprise him, like the jaw of a tiger. He’d had a good run with Chatterley, £1,400 in its first year, the most he’d earned from a book in his life. He’d felt quite jolly about that until his English agent told him that Arnold Bennett, whose reputation was finally – and belatedly in his view – on the down-turn, still managed to bring in £22,000 a year. Bennett was a pig in clover.
He watched Frieda light another cigarette. How he loathed her smoke. Why was he so often downwind of her?
In his more pragmatic moments, he accepted that she would not be budged from the Continent. She liked her Continental villas. She liked the endless oranges and European insouciance. She relied on French cigarettes and the presence of her Italian lover somewhere on the same land-mass. She’d be happy enough, he knew, never to see England again. England had been ruthless to them both. Even in his absence, it was ruthless – another novel seized (his last, his last!). Yet he missed it, England, pitiably.
Frieda, for her part, felt simply and happily grateful for the peace of her cigarette, for the view from his balcony, and for the prospect of a new villa – however temporary. What was Lorenzo’s rush? As a young girl, on family visits to the Prussian court, she had observed that no person of importance rushed, and it was a lesson she had carried with her through life, no matter how straitened her circumstances.
She shifted on her hip and watched a striking, dark-haired young man, in cream-coloured flannel trousers and a crisp white shirt, pass below. He looked a little like a cavalry officer she’d once had in a Bavarian inn. Why hurry on a hot day? Their cases were in the taxi. She had paid the driver for his patience. A plan was not beyond her. She was German after all, and more than capable.
Now, as she leaned against the rail, she felt the knot of her hair slip loose against her neck. Were the man in the flannel trousers to look up to the balcony, she would smile beguilingly. She would make him glance back. Life’s small pleasures saw one through.
The exile turned his head, cocking an ear, as an orderly entered his room and removed the breakfast he hadn’t wanted. The ‘Ad Astra Sanatorium’ tried in vain to mimic a luxury hotel, and the clattering of trays was known as ‘room service’. The motto of the place was nothing but an abuse of Latin. Per aspera ad astra – ‘Through hardships to the stars’. He’d smirked at that. Through hardships to the sanatorium bar, more like. The resident consumptives played gay holiday-makers, and the odour of desperation in the dining-room each night would kill him, he thought, faster than his own lungs.
Only at his dogged insistence had Frieda found them a villa at last. At least she claimed she had. Sometimes she simply said what she imagined the day required. A full ten days ago, he’d said he wouldn’t spend another night in the Sad Astra. He told her he’d die for lack of sleep; at night, the bouts of coughing from the neighbouring rooms shook the entire place. She told him the coughing that woke him was his own.
Now, she turned and tapped another full inch of ash into his spittoon.
‘I wish you wouldn’t do that,’ he said. A string of muscle tightened across his shoulders.
‘Perhaps we should take a trip to Nice one day,’ she said.
‘Nice isn’t Brighton – and I’m fed up to the back teeth with France.’
Of course Nice is not Brighton, she thought. But who would not choose Nice over Brighton? He was in one of his contrary moods.
She watched the ribbon of her smoke rise into the day. It had been difficult, exceedingly difficult, to secure a place they might call home in Vence. Assorted villa-owners had refused her a lease, fearing contagion. For the last week, she and Barby, her most capable child – and now a young woman of twenty-five – had tried everything they could, from charm and guilt to desperation and bribes, but no one wanted a consumptive to expire on their property, and any journey beyond the radius of a taxi-ride was out of the question. Lorenzo was simply not up to it.
The morning’s heat crept beneath his collar, and its studs burned like blisters against his neck. He suspected she enjoyed the fact he was helpless these days, neutered, an invalid requiring her assistance to survive. They needed only to get to Boulogne and catch the packet to Newhaven or Brighton. ‘I am glad to be going to Sussex – it is so full of sky and wind and weather.’ He longed to see the white glow of the cliffs on the Channel coast. The sea-foam in the twilight. The yellow horned-poppies on the beach. He wanted to hear the noisy slap of the waves. All of it, now verboten.
‘This coast,’ he said, waving a hand, ‘is full of riff-raffy expensive people.’
‘People are simply enjoying the sun after a long winter, Lorenzo. Why shouldn’t they?’
He tugged at his collar. ‘No one’s happiness in an English resort depends on all this endless sunshine.’
Which is just as well, she thought.
And why did he always go on as if she had no English memory of her own?
‘In England, we think nothing of hopping over stones into a frigid sea. Bone marrow freezes on contact. Old hearts pack up. Testicles implode. But people are content. No one needs an eternally marvellous view
.’
She hoisted her bosom and wondered: would the man in the flannel trousers walk back up the road?
‘We want a change of scene, a nice shell or two, a curio from some mouldering shop. We expect the ring-a-ding-ding of the pier, a day or two of fog, and … and outside your lodgings, well’ – he gripped his armrest – ‘only the dustbin-men shouting to wake the dead.’ A cough climbed out of his stomach. ‘Damn it, if only some good old English bin-men would wake me when the time comes. If they failed, they could at least offer quick disposal. Whizz-bang!’
‘Lorenzo, you mustn’t tire yourself like this.’
‘I am not tiring myself, Frieda. Imminent death tends to do that unaided, you see.’
She tilted a wrist. Her cigarette hovered elegantly.
His eyes burned. Was she meeting her lover, Il Capitano, these days? It was no great distance from the Italian Riviera to the French Riviera, and, one thing was certain, that man was stuffed full of spunk and gusto. The relationship had long ceased to be a secret between husband and wife; it was merely a subject they each knew to avoid.
At times such as these, he let himself wonder. What would life have been had he not walked down the hill that evening, through the olive grove, and away from her? Darling R., Frieda to arrive in a week. She pesters from Baden-Baden. What – who – would he have been now if, after those few weeks at San Gervasio with her, he had simply stayed?
Darling R. Together, they would have raised her three little girls. He might have fathered his own. Who could say? He would have written each morning in that ancient olive grove, with the view of the duomo shimmering on the plain below.
Frieda would have had her Angelo – even more than she did currently. There would have been no Chatterley because there would have been no need to write R., to conjure her and draw her close.
Well, so many words, because I can’t touch you. If I could sleep with my arms round you, the ink could stay in the bottle.
He would have raised his head at the end of day to see her coming through the door with figs, cheese and bread from the market. He would have looked across the courtyard at Canovaia to see her red-brown head bent over her needlework or drawings. In bed at night, her body would have stretched to his. There would have been no need to reach for her through the welter of time.
That evening as he descended the hill, he did not turn to look back to her. He let her think him resolute. He sent a few cards, and did not see her again.
On the balcony at the Sad Astra, he tried now to turn his bath-chair from the sun, wresting thoughts of her, and that other far-away, Florentine balcony, from his mind. He resumed his theme: ‘Brighton. Worthing …’ he said to Frieda, fighting with a wheel. ‘Littlehampton was jolly enough. Remember? Or Bognor. I’d be as happy as a trout in some dank Bognorian lodging-house. I’d fuck off there tomorrow if the knives weren’t out for me.’ He looked up. His wife was smiling and waving to a passer-by below, as if from an imperial balcony.
‘No one has any knife out for you.’ She turned and released the brake on his chair. ‘You are a writer, not a fugitive.’
‘I’d take a knife over prison.’
‘You could write in prison. They feed you in prison. Every cloud, Lorenzo.’
He looked up. It was a brutally cloudless day in Vence. What hope was there for him here? Life flattened out into meaningless good cheer when the sun was so indiscriminate. That was the Riviera all over. Predictable. Promiscuous. Popular. It had once been his thrill and his sanctuary, but he hated the place now. People, people everywhere.
She cast her cigarette into the day and clapped her hands. ‘Now then. Our taxi is around the corner. I hear the motor.’
His feet were pale, naked creatures – molluscs out of their shells. They looked absurd, he thought, on the foot-flaps of his bath-chair. ‘Can we?’ he said, staring at them. ‘Can we actually?’
She emptied the ash in the spittoon over the rail, then stretched her arms luxuriously. She did not believe he believed that he was dying. Had he believed it, he would not have been able to speak of it so volubly. As he did not believe it, she would not believe it either. His death had been foretold for years, and they’d learned to dismiss the claims and diagnoses. His friends thought her reckless, irresponsible, even criminal. They despised her for it, and for more. Let them, she thought. He had defied every prognosis through the sheer force of their collective will, which meant she would not brood on the fact that he was now asking her to put on his stockings and shoes for him. For the first time, he said that bending over left him sick to his stomach and breathless.
The clip on his suspender wouldn’t clip. She was bent double over his feet. As he waited, he looked away, studying the horizon, as if in search of some hairline crack in the bowl of the day. All those words, all that writing – now under arrest. What had been the point?
‘I don’t want to die in a taxi,’ he said.
She told him he would have to accept a stocking at half-mast. For a moment, she considered unbuttoning his flies and fellating him, or offering him a weighty breast to calm him. But it was time to go, and his desires were no longer straightforward, if they had ever been. She rose, red-faced, and huffed a lock of blonde-grey hair from her eyes.
‘My hat!’ He gripped both wheels of the bath-chair.
‘It is in the taxi, Lorenzo. If we don’t go now, the driver will sell it and be gone. Please don’t be unbearable.’
He said nothing. He was her dependant now. He needed her to live. Perhaps he always had. Any biddable wife would have tranquillised brain and soul. He’d needed the challenge of her. Perhaps he’d even needed the problem of her.
As husband and wife, they’d struggled from almost the first. She was at ease with her appetites, with the casually, merrily carnal. He thirsted for mystery, for the kindred who was also other; for the uncharted hinterland of the beloved. Illness had reduced him, while her appetite had made her stout. He was not enough for her, and she was too much for him. The force of their mutual frustration was their enduring bond and, in periods of relative harmony, she mothered; he was mothered. It was enough. Now it was. The end of their marriage had long been forecast by friends, yet here they were, familiars in a place they didn’t know, on this narrow perch of life.
His shoes were tied. His tie was straight. Natty summer-grey suit. Laundered shirt with collar. A red handkerchief, so that no spattering of blood would show. Polished brown brogues. ‘He might almost be a gentleman.’ Homburg hat. Coat folded over arm. He shunned the existential class of ‘the invalid’, the pyjama-ed person, the not-valid. Any day, he would open his passport to find a page stamped with it: ‘In-valid’. He preferred ‘Public Enemy’.
Frieda steered his bath-chair from the balcony through the thin curtains into the dreary room and out the door. ‘If anyone asks,’ she said as they waited for the lift, ‘it is a beautiful day. That is reason enough.’
‘Of course it’s a beautiful day! It is always a beautiful day! That means nothing to these people. You might as well say, The water is wet.
’ He felt as weak as a wilting white geranium in a pot.
She hit the call-button. ‘We are taking the air,’ she said calmly. ‘That is all.’
He gripped his kneecaps. They rose like Golgothan hills of bone through his trousers. ‘And if we meet my doctor?’
‘Repeat, Lorenzo: we – are – taking – the – air.’ Her r’s rolled with Teutonic authority.
The lift arrived with a little ring.
Invalid, invalid, squeaked the wheels of his bath-chair.
The service-boy slid the cage, then the door, shut. He nodded good-day to the resident and his wife, and eased the crank to the left. The cab lurched horribly, and down they went.
All the while, using only his elbow, the exile clasped The Life of Columbus to him, a stowaway under his jacket. The library had been the only decent thing in the place.
‘Yes?’ she said to him. ‘We are taking the air.’
He nodded, his jaw set, his knuckles white. The cables of the lift shunted and chirred. The Life of the Life of the Life of—
Then the cage opened, daylight rushed in, the bell of his heart rang out, and how glad he was, how eternally glad, to be on the move again.
ii
The following day, the 2nd of March, 1930, the morning seeped through the shutters in bars of shadow and light. A wardrobe arose from the darkness. A wash-stand turned chalky blue, and stale water shone in a cup.
The day revealed, too, an enamelled chair in which a nurse dozed, her chin against her breast. It raised a dull gleam on her black oxfords and in the lank hair of her sleeping patient. It warmed the bare floorboards, and lingered on the nightstand, pooling in the open pages of The Life of Columbus.
At the end of the bed, a ginger cat flickered. In the jug on the nightstand, wildflowers strained towards the light. Above the narrow bed, a Virgin’s frame flashed gold while, behind her, between the oval frame and the wall, a dry straggle of Palm Sunday leaves yearned in their fibres for green chlorophyll.
Outside, the day fell like the gaze of an old Provençal god, in haphazard benediction of everything and nothing. A breeze blew up, stirred by the heavy lids of that local god as they dipped and rose. It almost carried off the underwear from the line in the garden, but the charwoman ran out, charitably, and pegged it all down – two large ladies’ vests, cambric drawers and men’s knee-length underwear from Angleterre.
Far below the hilltop villa, the sea throbbed. Yet the bright, glittering light of the coast was tempered here in the hills by the earliness of the hour, by the tender hesitation of March, and by spring’s memory of the contest with winter. The land was still dew-cold.
The exile lay on his side. His breath was a slow-burn in his chest. He dreamed, haltingly, of little boats, the prow of each painted with a single wide black eye. The flotilla had found him at last, surfacing from the subterranean walls of the Etruscan tombs he’d once explored in Tuscany. This morning, the boats had moored themselves at the dock of his bed.
He lay becalmed. His eyes were shadow-sockets. His head was reducing to skull, and his red beard was dimmed. The only permanent occupant of the villa, the ginger cat, had smelled illness on the newcomer and given up its aloofness to curl at his feet.
The pillow was a comfort. It had travelled with him, first to the Sad Astra, and thence to this, the Villa Robermond, their latest leased abode. Frieda and Barby had coaxed and cajoled, and on March 1st, after a jolting taxi-ride into the hills west of Vence, they were at last installed.
He surfaced slowly from sleep. Beneath his cheek, his pillow still smelled of the wild thyme and pine resin from the wood behind their old Tuscan farm villa, the Mirenda. A year ago now? Two? It had been square, solid and imposing, with marble floors. He’d paid £25 for the year’s lease for the entire first floor, the piano nobile, and it had been their most serene home ever, on the crest of a steep hill, overlooking 400-year-old fields which fell away in silver (the olive trees) and gold (the wheat), on all sides, as beautifully configured as a Renaissance landscape by an Old Master.
At the front of the villa, clusters of green-black cypresses had stood sentry over his solitude. The rows of broom in the fields, covered in yellow petals, gave off a soft, warm, queer perfume. At the back, his wood awaited him, from eight o’clock each day. The wildflowers were plentiful. The surrounding fields were dotted with the matchstick dwellings of the sharecropper contadini. He had people nearby to nod to, but no one to pester him. No foreigners. Very few visitors who would ever make it up their forbidding hill.
Most days, he’d needed only his novel and its goodwill. There was Frieda too, of course. She had made an appreciative audience for each new chapter at their midday meal. Then came his paintings, each afternoon. Also fine company. At times, Barby, his step-daughter, a grown woman now, came to stay.
It had been bliss, or at least as much happiness as he’d felt entitled to – until he fell ill, or more ill, and had suddenly hated the Mirenda as much as every other residence where illness had got him. In the end, he couldn’t leave the place fast enough.
In his half-sleep, under the watch of the English nurse, he could feel his feet slipping again into his old rope-soled sandals. His linen hat had a wide brim, and used to shade his eyes as he wrote behind the Mirenda. That final autumn in Tuscany, he’d decamped to the wood each morning, where he sat, pillow beneath his arse, spine supported by an umbrella pine, and hand flying fiercely across the pages as he out-ran his prognosis.
A novel into which one poured life became a life. He’d felt the force of his story coursing through its lines as blood courses through veins, as milk rises in a breast, as sap surges in wood.
Lizards ran across his feet, and birds hopped, heedless of him. Only his wrist moved. In the wind, the trunk of the pine flexed at his back, elastic and powerful. Violets spread at his feet in blue shadows. Moss breathed. A spring, banked in wild gladioli, bubbled up, dedicated to a neglected saint. On an overhanging branch, an enamel mug dangled for pilgrims and hot children.
He never saw either but, each morning, a priest in his black cassock nodded as he rushed through the wood on his way to celebrate Mass or bless the sheaves. A dog raced through the underbrush from time to time. Cicadas rattled, and in the neighbouring fields, girls sang as they cut the corn.
Far below, on the Arno’s river-plain, Florence was a beautiful jigsaw of clay-pot roofs, cypresses and bright campaniles, while at the centre of the eternal world, the duomo rose up, benign and reticent.
To Secker, what had he written as his novel fattened?
‘It’s a bit of a revolution,’ he said, ‘a bit of a bomb.’
On their arrival at Robermond, following the escape from the Sad Astra, Frieda started unpacking their things in an uncharacteristic display of industry. As she made up his bed, she pointed to the blood-stains on his old pillow, but he refused to allow her, or their housekeeper, to take it, and Frieda, as happily slovenly here as anywhere, did not press the point, even in the face of the English nurse’s discreet horror. Instead, she kicked off her shoes, stretched out on the cool marble floor, and instructed Barby to see to everything else.
In any other cottage, house or villa, he’d always set to work smack off, scrubbing floors – braces tied to waist – digging their kitchen garden, whitewashing walls, building shelves, running up curtains, making jam. They used to say I had too much of the woman in me— Frieda, by contrast, would never succumb to bourgeois necessity if she might stretch her limbs in the sun or on a cool floor, or sit at the piano and sing. She told him she knew what life was for, and he both loved and despised her for it. He used to quip to friends that, together, they made one great beast of burden; he was the beast, and she, the burden.
It was time. The nurse levered him up from his demi-monde of sleep. She felt for the galloping pulse in his wrist, silenced his complaints with a thermometer under his tongue, and pounded his pillow and bolster into submission. All the while, the strabismus-skew of her eyes studiously, if errantly, avoided his.
Had he been unkind? he wondered. Had he shouted at her? Perhaps. He hardly knew. He felt as weak as a lamb. But it had been a lucky body in spite of everything, a good body, energetic and wiry. A doctor had told Frieda he should have been dead years ago, but bloody-mindedness had preserved him until this, the advanced age of forty-four. He would not go quietly.
The English nurse reached for the shutters’ handles, and her starched breast all but brushed the side of his head. He had a vague instinct to turn, open his mouth and suck. Instead a spasm of coughing overtook him. He and the bed-frame quaked.
‘What’s it all about?’ he mumbled, breathless, breast-less, to the room.
His lungs burned hotter. He gaped like a fish. On the wall, a painting – a copy of a Raphael – of the Virgin gazed down at him in his struggle.
He knew those eyes. He knew them—
The English nurse was passing him a fresh cup of water. ‘Mrs Lawrence and her daughter,’ she ventured, ‘left for the market an hour ago.’
He had no reply. His ribs ached.
She persuaded him to stand, or rather to stoop and cling, to rinse his clammy face at the basin and brush his teeth. In the square mirror, he re-assembled himself slowly: the mud-red hair, the potato nose, the narrow chin covered by its tawny beard, the small yellowing teeth, and the flattened, flushed plains of his cheeks. It was, he told himself, a mongrel face, a plebeian face, distinguished only by the deep-set challenge of his eyes.
He noted, with a curious sort of disinterest, that his pupils were wide – dilated presumably with fever – and he turned to look through the French doors, past the balcony to the olive trees and the indifferent sea. Then he collapsed into bed once more, and his nurse proceeded to trim his beard and hair.
Other women had seen to him in this way: his mother, his sister Ada – Frieda couldn’t be trusted with scissors – and once, only once, R.
Almost a decade ago already – how was it possible?
The nurse finished by combing his hair and smoothing his crown under her palms. It was a beautiful thing, a luxury to be touched, and he wondered too: was it advance preparation for his laying-out? Easier to tidy him with him sitting up. ‘Thank you,’ he said. ‘Thank you.’ Tears stood in his eyes.
Then he blinked and saw mimosa blossom stuffed in the breast-pocket of the blue cotton jacket he wore in bed. Pyjamas were the get-up of the louche, and he’d refused them. Who’d put the blossom there? Frieda? Barby? A gift.
He looked at his nurse’s breast again and studied her upside-down fob-watch. It was fastened to her tabard by an enamel button, and had a retractable chain and a red second-hand which ticked loudly.
‘When?’ he asked vaguely. Morphia ran in his gills.
‘Today is Sunday,’ she said. ‘It is half past ten.’
But that wasn’t what he’d meant at all.
She looked past him, ticking.
Where had they found an English nurse? She was not like the ministering butterflies at the sanatorium, whose pleasing faces were meant to be both a lure and a tonic. She was another sort of creature altogether. Efficient. Inscrutable, with a skew-whiff eye.
His brain was baking in the oven of his head, and she ticked in her chair like a little time-bomb. Had that bastard of a Home Secretary sent her over to do him in? After the brouhaha in Parliament? He wouldn’t put it past him or any of the Grey Elderlies.
A fit of coughing erupted within him. ‘England,’ he said, to the ceiling. ‘Impossible.’
‘Oh, yes. Quite,’ the English nurse said, and her eyes crossed, as if to avoid the blue gas-flame of his.
He turned his face to the wall. She would never understand, he told himself, even had he the breath. England was impossible, not because of the disrepair of his body – the new doctor claimed he had but one working lung to his name. England was impossible because it was consuming him – not the ‘consumption’ or any of his own self-pronounced diagnoses: bronchial congestion, asthma, la grippe, the damned funk, a weak chest, a seedy few months, a ghastly winter, a touch of pneumonia, an Italian cold or his infernal cough.
He was dying of chagrin, of defeat, of a smashed heart. England was killing him. His love for it. His loathing of it. Fuck it, fuck his countrymen with their atrophied imaginations and their withered bollocks. Fuck his own heart for wanting it so.
I am English, and my Englishness is my very vision. More than anything, he wanted to see the larch trees of his boyhood. He, Jessie and sometimes Alan too, her oldest brother, used to set out early from Eastwood and walk to Whatstandwell, arriving three hours later, hungry to the bone. And between them – riches! Enough for a loaf which they’d set upon immediately with their shut-knives, hacking away. After they’d finished, they’d take the last bit of milk in their bottles and shake it hard until a beautiful piece of golden butter appeared at the bottom. It wasn’t enough for more than a crust of bread, but a stranger passing might have thought they’d made gold from lead, so pleased were they with their efforts.
Once their stomachs were satisfied, they disappeared into their thoughts, hardly speaking as they sat on the wall near the village bridge, and watched the bright Derwent rushing by. Near the bridge, the brakes would pull up at the inn, laden with the trappings of some rich man’s shooting-party. He always pitied the pheasants, raised to be shot by fat men after breakfast.
Then they’d cross the river and lose themselves on the green paths of Shining Cliff Woods, shouting ‘Free warren! Free warren!’ wherever they went. It was an ancient wood, and they didn’t care who held its deeds, rich man or god.
At the highest point of the hill, by the thousand-year-old yew tree they knew well, they collapsed on the ground, which in the spring was still blanketed in pine-needles from the previous autumn. Jessie always rose first, going off to forage, for ‘victuals’ as she used to say. Then Alan sat up, knife in hand, and started to whittle, while he himself pulled out his sketchbook and began to draw the larches.
In his far-away sick-bed, the female flowers burst into life again like pink torches. The male flowers rose, pale and creamy. Those trees had been over two hundred years old when they were felled. Ada, his sister, had told him on his last visit to Eastwood – as if it were old, tired news – that they’d been felled long ago, early in the War, same as all the trees in that stretch of countryside along the Derwent and through the Amber Valley – all of it taken, she said, for trench struts and duckboards, for coffins and wooden crosses. Shining Cliff Woods had been denuded, stripped naked like a woman in war, and the happy ghosts of his youth had been felled with it.
There was too much pathos, too much beauty of old things passing away, and no new things coming. England’s heart beat on, but only because it had been cauterised by the agonies of the War. Its people now had more and more – bigger houses, proud water-closets, stuffed furniture, new motor-cars – but they no longer knew how to feel alive in their lives.
The day would come, he knew it would, when they would champ at the bit for another fight, for another war, for a drama, a rush of blood to the head. And sooner rather than later. Another generation would be sacrificed to some new and deadly cock-a-hoop, while the Grey Elderly Ones signed declarations and treaties, and spouted clatfart in their clubs and chambers. Nothing would change. Caps would be doffed, knees bobbed, and everyone would defer for the sake of a crust.
God save the world from the Old Grey Men. He’d never be one of them, and that was something at least. Better to spend your life than to save it up for the obit-writers. His stories had scooped the stuffing out of him and chucked him aside. He could live with that. He could die with that. What he could not bear was the chucking of his stories.
His last novel, his ‘English novel’, his ‘filth’, his shite, his literary effluvia, had already been confiscated across the Channel, as had the manuscript of his new poems. British Customs and the Postmaster General had made it clear he was at the government’s mercy – and there was apparently none to be had.
Almost fifteen years ago, all 1,011 copies of The Rainbow had gone up in smoke. He’d sent it to his literary agent with everything he had had in him: ‘I hope you will like the book: also that it is not very improper … I could weep tears in my heart, when I read these pages.’ He read of the ‘destruction order’ in the Manchester Guardian – the day after the bonfire.
Then, last summer, July ’29, another disaster. His oils and watercolours – his nude paintings – were seized from Dorothy Warren’s gallery in Mayfair. The pubic hair was the outrage. Yet which grown person didn’t have it? What was its crime? Thirteen thousand people had been to see his canvases, if mostly to gawk, before the police arrived—
How hot he was. How wretchedly hot. Where was his nurse? Was it summer already? Had he missed the spring? What was this place? They would go to the Alps. He was decided. It would be cool. The mountain streams were icy even in high summer. The air was pure.
Only last month – was it last month? when were they? – the Home Secretary had stood up and denounced him, the author of the notorious novel, in the House of Commons. Afterwards, his agent had wired to say he was as sure as anyone could be that Chatterley had been blacklisted by Whitehall, too secretively to fight it in the courts. It was a double blow. A secret blacklisting also meant the newspapers couldn’t report it. His novel was to be starved of oxygen, like his own feeble lungs.
Then, even worse news from his agent – how could it be? No one in London would provide assurances that he, the author and distributor, would not be arrested if he returned to England.
‘AND IF I WERE TO ARRIVE BY BOX QUERY,’ he’d cabled.
How hot he was, and no bed linen on him. He was burning up. ‘Nurse!’ he called.
The flowers in the jug were talking: ‘So that’s that! – And when one died, the last words to life would be: So that’s that!’
‘Take them away,’ he said, and the inscrutable English nurse allowed herself a frown.
But no … He remembered. They were Connie’s words. His Constance. His much-maligned Lady Chatterley. ‘So that’s that!’ she said, early in her unhappiness – and late, now, in his. ‘And when one died, the last words to life would be: So that’s that!—’
The Virgin on the wall looked down, her head turned towards him. Her eyes were deep-set, alight with compassion. Could she understand? The nightstand would outlast him, he who loved life so. Blasted nightstand in its dovetail calm. Blasted sturdy chair by the miraculous window. Blasted wardrobe in all its heft and presence. Even the jug of flowers, with its streaky white glaze, was unbearable. The glaze was luminous. He almost wept at the sight.
There were nights at two in the morning when his coughing was so bad he would have shot himself if he’d had a pistol. But this, the piercing loveliness of the everyday, would finish him off. He’d known despair, deep despair, but it seemed nothing to today’s sudden, radiant apprehension of the life which goes on, beautifully, fuckingly heedless.
The English nurse duly removed the jug of flowers. He watched her now as she cast about the room, at a loss, before depositing the jug at the bottom of the wardrobe. Had he cursed aloud? Perhaps. He heard the cry of a door hinge. He watched her fold and hang a pair of his trousers. A hanger knocked uselessly against the rail.
Would she burn his clothes afterwards? Bonfires had blazed daily at the back of the Sad Astra, with dinner jackets, frocks and nightshirts. He should have liked to enter a plea on behalf of his corduroy jacket and hat, but to what end?
The familiar hallucination flickered again. He could see it laid out on the writing table at which he’d never written: his own body like a blank, useless sheet of paper: five foot nine, naked, thin as an El Greco, preternaturally pale, the white flame of him extinguished.
Where was Frieda?
With Angelo, her ‘Il Capitano’?
It was not impossible. The less life he had, the more she seemed to possess. Sir Clifford Chatterley, paralysed in his bath-chair, loomed before him. Yet he was absolutely dependent on her – he needed her every moment... He could wheel himself about in a wheeled chair— But alone he was like a lost thing.
His chest gurgled horribly.
The English nurse heaved open the windows, and the cat between his feet sat up. Outside, swifts screamed in the eaves. They mated for life, he recalled, and they screamed. The thought made him laugh – never good for his ribs.
He struggled for the cup of water. When the cramp eased, he asked his nurse to retrieve the flowers, for the anemones were companionable after all, and he’d feel less alone.
He hadn’t been hungry for weeks but now, he seemed to crave something, everything – the raw purple of the flowers, the lips of a woman, the soft, sweet pulp of a fig, the heady scent of a rose.
‘You’re feverish,’ the nurse said, pressing a cool, damp cloth gently to his face.
And in that instant, he could have lived off the touch of the English nurse alone.
When he next awoke, he was propped and watered. He felt considerably better. His nurse suggested a game of pontoon. But no, he said, The Life of Columbus and his New World awaited. The cat licked his ankles. Above him, the Virgin on the wall was watchful and knowing.
Before turning to Columbus, however, he must work, he told his nurse. He asked for the tea-tray, his lap-desk. Where were the notes he’d made the previous week? Hadn’t he started to compose a review?
No one can believe in their own death.
He resumed: ‘Mr Gill is not a born writer. He is a crude and crass amateur. Still less is he a born thinker, in the reasoning and argumentative sense of the word.’
The English nurse opened the window wide, and her patient dozed again, recalling the landscape below the Mirenda. Each May, the tawny wheat fields had mesmerised him, like the pelt of an animal with the breeze moving through it. The stalks had bent under the weight of their seeds, and the air everywhere had carried their scent. Within the month, the sheaves lay tied on the fields like sleeping bodies, until evening when the girls came with their baskets to carry them home.
That evening, shortly before ten, he awoke to a tearing sensation.
Voices, high and low, crested and fell at the foot of his bed, washing over him, then receding. Beneath him, the sheets were soaked, and the tide was coming in fast on a pebbled shore. His little boat, listing on the beach, would lift soon with the incoming tide – what then? – but his eye was distracted by a stone that gleamed at his feet. He watched himself stoop and rub it dry: an eye-stone, with a smooth hole worn through.
He’d had one of these once … Where had he?
He closed one eye and pressed the stone to the other:
He saw his mother helping him with his Latin: ‘nil desperandum’. Dear Jessie in long-ago Eastwood was declaiming the words of their hero Maggie Tulliver: ‘O Tom, please forgive me—I can’t bear it—I will always be good—always remember things—do love me.’ His sister Ada was instructing him in jam-making: ‘the same quantity of sugar to fruit’. Even little Mary, his pupil at Greatham, was singing as lustily as she’d sung when he’d tutored her fifteen years before.
Yonder come the train, she coming down the line
Blowing every station, Mr. McKinley is a-dying
It’s hard times, it’s hard times
Look-it here, you rascal, you see what you’ve done
You shot my husband with that Iver-Johnson gun
I’m carrying you back, to Washington …
His ears rang with words, more words, his words.
The Sussex Downs: that was her England. In Italy, under his pine tree, his pen had inked those words onto a page – and her with them. My dear Rosalind, I am weary— Now, here in this far-off place he did not know, fleetingly, she seemed to return to him Rosalind, as if she had stepped from the white page of the snowy Sussex slope where he’d first sighted her on a January morning years before, when it had seemed as if the hill itself had dreamed her the open-countenanced, skyward-smiling rose—
Water and blood bubbled in his lungs.
He didn’t hear Frieda cry out.
There had been life, a body, weight, sex, appetite, love, wonder and fear, and now, only the vessel of his little boat remained to him, bobbing like a cork in the tide.
The current took it, and him, quickly. He was without compass, oar or chart.
He took the stone from his pocket and looked through its hole of an eye, but it saw only the obsidian dark.
Slap, slap went the sea.
He was something apart at last, something inalienable, something beyond language. Where were the stars? Had even they left him for dead?
Oblivion came and went.
He felt no hunger.
All longing was snuffed out.
The end was endless, he realised. That was the truth of things. The Truth. He was adrift, and his eye-stone was blind.
He slept, dreamed, drifted, woke.
Then, after a long time or no time – how could he know? – some axis of the world tilted, the currents of dimensions clashed, a wave lifted his boat, and he saw something glimmering dimly at the rim of the night: a shoreline etching itself, patient and slow as scrimshaw; a faint scrawl of light, a last word, a first word, the New Worl—
iii
Two days later, a small black horse drew a light hearse down the wooded hill into Vence. No service was read. The headstone was engraved with the exile’s ‘totem’ creature, the phoenix. Ten mourners dropped sprays of mimosa, violets and primroses onto the coffin.
‘Goodbye, Lorenzo,’ Frieda said simply.
But it wasn’t goodbye, not quite. The obituarists either sneered or damned with faint praise. The novelist E. M. Forster – to whom the exile had been cruel fifteen years before – would not have it. In his tribute to Lawrence, he observed that ‘the low-brows whom he scandalized have united with the high-brows whom he bored to ignore his greatness.’
The exile had had a talent for alienating others, it was true.
In not quite phoenix-like fashion, he would rise up belatedly, five years after his burial, when Frieda had a change of heart. She issued instructions for her husband’s exhumation, cremation and safe delivery to herself, in New Mexico, at the ranch he’d once loved, and her new home. Her longstanding Italian lover and third-husband-to-be, Angelo, was charged with the mission, and in the course of the epic journey, Lawrence travelled by urn rather than by Nina, Pinta or Santa Maria.
In his later years, after a few shots of bourbon, Angelo – who had regretfully but energetically cuckolded Lawrence – would claim he had done his friend and rival, ‘David’, the favour of tipping him out over the glory of the Mediterranean on a beautiful day in 1935. (David, he explained, had loved the Mediterranean.) He then promptly re-filled the urn, he said, with burnt wood-chips from a nearby fire-pit, fearing the great writer’s ashes might be rejected by American Customs. Customs men weren’t partial to the dead, and they had long had reservations ‘about David’.
A fair point.
In this picaresque drama, the urn, whatever its contents, would be accidentally abandoned on a quiet train platform in New Mexico, where Angelo had felt the need to disembark to relieve himself. He then absentmindedly re-boarded the train, and twenty miles later, clapped his hands to his head in dismay. After rifling through the luggage rack – no! no! – he alighted to travel the twenty miles back to the forlorn station, where the exile, or the urn at least, was hastily retrieved.
Onward they travelled together, lover and notional husband.
Not long after Angelo’s delivery of the deceased, Frieda would have the burnt offerings mixed with concrete, and the exile, or his wood-chip simulation, would be laid to rest in a small chapel of her design. Such was her husband’s restlessness in life that only concrete, it seemed, would serve him in death. Moreover, only concrete, Frieda believed, would stop his devoted friends – and her devoted critics – from stealing his ashes and scattering them in the New Mexican desert.
Somewhere, the particles of the exile still flux and drift. A blazing molecule of blue iris. An atom of red beard. A neuron bearing a memory of a larch flower. Restlessness is his essence.
And what remains of each of us is story.
Old yarns spun, then snipped.
Catch an end. Tug it gently.
Ignore the kinks, the interference, the contrapuntal crackle. That is always with us.
Time unravels with his story. See how its stitches fall away from the fabric of the world:
.niaga ecno – 0391, hcraM fo dn2 eht, gnineve ylrae si tI
It is early evening, the 2nd of March, 1930 – once again.
.dnomreboR alliV
Villa Robermond.
,deb worran eht eeS
See the narrow bed,
,dnatsthgin eht
the nightstand,
.guj rewolf dna yart-aet eht
the tea-tray and flower jug.
.tey ton era, doohilekil lla ni, uoY
You, in all likelihood, are not yet.
.si llits elixe ehT
The exile still is.
In three hours’ time, the English nurse will close his eyes, consult the fob-watch ticking at her heart and record the time of death.
Against his stained pillow, his head turns, this way and that. His eyelids flicker. The Virgin on the wall gazes at him in the lamp-light.
He knows those eyes.
Unusual for a Madonna.
Raphael’s Alba Madonna. That was the one. A reasonable copy.
Dark eyes. Deep-set. Wide. Both introspective and alight.
Through one face comes another … Dearest Ros—
There she stands, watching him from her threshold of nearly a decade before: the 10th of September, 1920. Hers is the white house at the end of the terrace, high on the hill overlooking Florence, in the village of Fiesole. Her little villa lies at the end of a steep track that passes his borrowed abode, Villa Canovaia; the track climbs through the olive groves to her.
He arrived back in Italy the previous November, after five years trapped in England for the War. All borders shut with the Declaration, and his and Frieda’s flying visit to London had turned, inadvertently, into a confinement, one they neither wanted nor could afford. When he landed, on his own, back in Italy – freedom, at last! – he had just £21 to his name.
It is the autumn of 1920. The Villa Canovaia is leased in her name Rosalind Rose Ros rose-flame but he has taken up occupancy for a few weeks. She decamped from it when she, her children and Ivy the nurse arrived home, after a mountain holiday that summer, to find its windows blown out. A nearby munitions store had blown sky-high.
The War never ends, it seems, although it is nearly two years since the Armistice. The War was won, but the Peace was lost. The blast damage, however, is his good fortune. Eleven rooms. A hillside garden with a remarkable view of Florence. And Ros, a walk away.
Yes, she said, to his suggestion: of course. Why not? The house was his, if he wanted it. She could not remain there with three young children. Not in the state it was. And there was still the glory of a Tuscan September, cooler than the Sicilian south, the blaring heat of which she knew he and Frieda found so trying.
Frieda was in Germany that September with her family, and their last £3. She would have, he told his hostess, hated Villa Canovaia for its eyeless windows. She had little patience for the broken or defunct. The villa stood on a lane behind a high wall, with its own small courtyard and fountain, a balcony garlanded in vines, and a turret-room which overlooked Firenze.
The place had somehow been waiting for him. He felt he knew already its ochre-washed walls, its sombre green shutters, and its great tangled garden, full of fruit. The pear trees, a passing local man said, were 250 years old. Only olive trees lived longer. The apple trees were still fruiting, wild strawberries and violets ran rampant in the garden beds, and the courtyard was bright with terracotta pots from which lemon and orange trees sprung. He wrote and told Frieda, pointedly, he could breathe again.
On his first night in residence, a bat flew in one window and out the opposite. And away he went! / Fear craven in his tail. Bats were the only creatures which made his scalp creep. At the front of the villa, two resident goats nibbled the foliage. Excellent. He could milk a goat with the best of them. A puppy often waited at the kitchen door, and a motherless family of kittens mewed at the gate. He would mother them all.
In the grieving rooms that were, until the explosion, the servants’ quarters, he found goat droppings and chickens roosting on an old cabinet top – with eggs laid daily in the couch’s split upholstery. The two married elderly servants, who had long looked after the house, had moved up the hill to family in Fiesole once the influenza had seized Florence. Only their menagerie remained.
There he is now, again.
By night, he listens as the hillside breeze takes hold of the villa. A windy emptiness seizes the thirteenth-century house, and doors bang shut, like New Year’s guns going off. By day, his mind is calmed by the mellow light of late afternoon. In the garden, the tortoises mate and shout in their extremis, and shell crashes upon shell.
The air smells of wild jasmine, and the place is slowly being re-claimed by nature.