Close To Home
By Nolon King
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From the best-selling author of Pretty Killer, No Justice, and 12 comes Close To Home, a gripping new stand-alone thriller.
SICK MINDS THINK ALIKE
Profiler Selena Nash is America's #1 expert on serial killers: her latest book just hit the bestseller charts and she's landed a lucrative deal for a new TV show, The Heartbeat of Murder. No one suspects it's all based on a mistake she's afraid to admit.
Not just because it will ruin her career — Selena's dark secret will also destroy her family.
She's barely keeping them together as it is. Her husband's so jealous of her success that he seems determined to sabotage it, and her sons — once-inseparable twins — won't stop fighting.
When a serial killer strikes in her newly-prosperous hometown, Almond Park, each death strikes closer to home, all of them sending a message intended for her.
Will Selena decode the killer's taunts in time to save her family?
A fast-paced, suspenseful thriller, Close to Home is perfect for fans of Darcey Bell and Harlan Coban, or TV shows like Ozark and Dead to Me.
Pick up your copy of this intense psychological thriller today!
Warning: This book contains dark humor, swearing, explicit sex, and graphic violence.
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Close To Home - Nolon King
Chapter One
"I believe in knowing who you are, without ever limiting yourself to an idea of who you have to be."
Adam felt the corners of his mouth twitch. She had that power, the ability to speak to a part of him that he had no control over. Selena called, and it answered, every time.
Same for the reporter, Isla Porter. Her mouth twitched, too. Then she leaned forward, barely an inch, and said, "You use the word believe. Do you think that critics of your work have a point when they say your theories have no weight because you haven’t been willing to make your research public?"
Another smile, wider this time. You’re fast. We’re not even four questions in.
Selena laughed — we’re all friends here — then let the laughter settle before she continued.
Most people never discover who they were meant to be.
Why is that?
You’ve heard the story about the man who loses his keys but only looks for them under the streetlight, because that’s where it’s easiest to look?
Are you saying we’re all looking in the wrong place?
It isn’t your fault. You’re trying so hard to mold yourself into an impossible image that someone else gave you. One that has nothing to do with you, and never will. We have to be brave enough to cast that false image aside and peek into the darkest part of ourselves. Believe that we have the grit to face the demons we fear might be lurking down there.
Selena leaned back in her seat, satisfied.
But Isla Porter wouldn’t be. She gave Selena another smile, this one patient and ever so slightly patronizing. You didn’t answer the question.
She’d swallowed the hook that Selena had baited. Exactly like her agent Sam had coached her to do. The two of them spent weeks in practice interviews, honing sideways answers to every hard question Isla might ask.
Charm the masses and sell your books. The charts sell your show.
And if Selena’s new show took off, she could do whatever she wanted, both with her career and her life.
The pilot was in post-production, and even without seeing a final edit, everyone from producers to executives agreed that the show was going to be huge. Selena had been successful as a clinical psychologist with a full roster of patients, then even more so as a first-time author, where she’d explored some original ideas about the nature of murder and the type of mind capable of ice-cold execution. But her fourth book, How to Murder the Killer Inside You, was the worldwide phenomenon that made Selena a pseudo-celebrity. Less than an hour or so after Killer cracked the NY Times Top 100, she’d been on the phone with Sam, discussing the offers pouring in. CBS won the bidding war on their pitch for a pop psychology show, The Heartbeat of Murder, two days before the book hit number one.
Selena was standing on the bow of her life’s ship, eyes fixed on a well-earned horizon. Even Isla Porter couldn’t hope to throw her.
Adam couldn’t have been prouder.
It’s key to start with the common denominators. The serial killer cycle has six distinct phases: Aura, Trolling, Wooing, Capture, Murder Totem, and Depression. In the Aura Phase, the lines of reality blur for the killer. This leads to his search for a victim. Wooing follows, the killer inviting his victim to come closer. Then Capture, where the victim is ensnared. The Murder Phase is, obviously, where the killer achieves his emotional climax. The Totem phase precedes Depression. As the thrill of the kill dissipates, the murderer will claim a souvenir, to remind himself of the moment when his fantasy felt most real. Then Depression either leads to the killer killing themselves, or it starts the cycle over.
Selena looked great. Maybe better than ever. Attention made her glow, and her glimmer aroused him. Adam glanced away from the Selena onscreen to the one sitting beside him on their bedroom couch.
Against the room’s starkness — white walls, white furniture, white carpet — her dark pink lips were irresistible. Dirty blonde hair teased the tops of her naked shoulders, her snowy silk robe having slid further down her arms to reveal soft, salon-bronzed skin. The room’s only rival for his attention was the oil painting over the bed — a blood-red rose, fully bloomed with too many petals to count.
Selena’s smile wasn’t as wide in person, but Adam found it even more arresting. On the television, sitting across from Isla, Selena wore a smart blouse, professional but scooped low in front. It was her natural style and Sam encouraged her to play it up, that people would love it.
They did, and Adam could certainly appreciate what they saw. He loved it, too. But he always preferred the version of Selena that was sitting next to him now. Simple and understated, putting on a show for no one. Her smile could still melt him, but there was something so beautifully honest in her right now that wasn’t present in high-definition.
She said nothing, her eyes glued to the screen. Isla had finally arrived at the question that Selena had been waiting for her to ask.
Will we ever learn the identity of your Patient X?
Selena’s laugh was born in Texas and could fill the state. It echoed through their room.
"There is no Patient X. Yes, I’ve based much of the last book on an individual, but that doesn’t mean that this person is unique. There are others like him. And even if my patient was comfortable with divulging his identity, my responsibility here is more than the usual doctor-patient privilege. I won’t endanger his progress for the sake of the public’s curiosity."
What about the public’s safety?
I understand the desire to know more, so that we may stop future atrocities before they happen, but I strongly feel that the greater danger lies in our throttling the truth.
Really, Ms. Nash, don’t you think that—
Selena muted the TV.
Adam said, That’s the part that I wanted to hear.
You already know what I’m going to say.
He did. But— I needed to hear it.
You can just watch it later.
I wanted us to watch it together.
Selena looked from the TV to Adam, then back to the screen with a thin-lipped smile she would have never dared to flash on a national broadcast.
But the interview was over. The camera was panning across a long line of crazed fans waiting for Bookmarks the Spot to open, then to footage of a recent signing.
Sorry. I’ll rewind.
It’s fine,
Adam said. I’ll just see it later. Do you wanna watch something else?
You know how much work I have to do.
"I’m not asking you to watch The Godfather."
Another smile, but this one looked like she meant it. She aimed the remote and turned on The Thick Red Line, a grisly true crime documentary they’d seen a few times before. It explored the case of Lily Templeton, a twenty-three-year-old barista who disappeared in 2009 without a trace, then turned up two years later in the bloodiest scene that anyone in the small South Dakota county that found her had ever seen. Lily’s father is all over the documentary, and a less-than-reliable-narrator. The film actually showed some of the crime photos. It was the bloodiest real-life setting that Adam had ever seen, at least on TV.
The documentary had started in the middle of the worst of the crime scene, probably from where Adam stopped the last time. He didn’t remember.
Selena nodded at the screen. There’s no way he did it. They just want us to think he did, because the producers know that makes good TV, and he’s obviously an eccentric.
Now it was Adam’s turn to smile. He’d heard her theories, not just on this true crime documentary, but on every one they’d watched together in nearly twenty years of marriage. But her passionate explanations were always an aphrodisiac.
So who do you think did it?
Adam asked, even though he knew. Goosebumps of anticipation made every hair on his body rise up. He loved their games, especially this one.
It was the guy who delivered milk to the Hill of Beans. They were flirty with each other, and when she stopped flirting back, the relationship changed. He’s charming and fun and far from the top of the suspect list, even though he shouldn’t be.
But he’s married,
Adam prodded, so that Selena would get to the next part.
She shot him a coy sideways look. And I think his wife helped.
Why? Why would she help him do something like that?
Like she always did, Selena fixed her husband with a knowing stare.
But then she said nothing.
He wasn't quite sure if he was excited by Selena taking the game in a new direction, or unsettled that his wife wasn’t playing.
Did that mean she was mad at him, or perhaps tired of the game?
Adam met her eyes, then returned his to the screen, settling into the silence between them to study the crime scene.
It was brutal enough to be beautiful, and so far beyond him.
That she could dip in and out of the mind of the monster who created such carnage — maybe even go deep enough to catch them, or save them — amazed him.
Then she ruined the moment.
"I wonder how many episodes of Heartbeat we’ll have to shoot before I can dig into the Templeton case. They’ll probably want to wait for sweeps. Still, can you—"
Yes, I can imagine.
They’d talked enough about Selena’s new show and the career possibilities it would open up to last Adam for the rest of the year, if not the decade. She used to talk about him with that same enthusiasm. Not anymore. You mind if we watch something else?
The request was barely out of his mouth as Selena stood, clicked the TV off, set the remote on her nightstand, and walked toward their bathroom. At the threshold, she turned back and said, You don’t have to do that.
I’m not doing anything.
You’re getting pissy every time I talk about the show.
Occasionally I want to enjoy our time together without you thinking about how it fits into your version of world domination.
She laughed and came back over. Picked his hands up and squeezed them in hers.
I’m sorry and I love you.
A kiss on the cheek. No one is more important. But please, it isn’t fair to forget why all of this started. It wasn’t my idea.
One more kiss, then Selena returned to the bathroom.
Adam stood there thinking, the same seed of a thought he’d been keeping buried for a while, finally cracking its shell and reaching through the soil for light.
No, it wasn’t her idea. But she certainly didn’t need to remind him yet again. Things were only going to get worse.
Once the show was live, there’d be more interviews. More appearances. More book signings.
Less time for him.
He never thought he’d see the day when she’d be bored with him. When she’d forget how much of her success was due to him.
He wondered what she’d think if he told her about the woman with the blood-red lipstick.
Chapter Two
Levi passed the ball to Pussabo, but the asshole was using all four of his eyes to stare into space instead of waiting for the pass.
Look alive, Pussy!
Sorry,
Pussabo said.
He ran after the ball and started awkwardly dribbling on his way back to the basket. But even right underneath it, without anyone to block him, Pussabo missed.
Wow …
Elliot nodded in adoration, as if he genuinely meant it. If you were trying to float like a butterfly or sting like a bee or whatever, you totally nailed it.
Fuck you, Elliot,
Pussabo said.
Levi ran after the ball, grabbed it, and started dribbling toward the basket.
Swish.
The game wasn’t fun with only three people.
Five was perfect. Two-on-two with a ref. Levi and Dane were perfectly matched. Each claimed one of the feebs — Pussabo, who couldn’t sink a basket if he had a century to aim, and Elliot, who preferred standing around with hands in his pockets and mouth flapping — then Levi’s brother Corban reffed the foursome.
But Corban had been in a mood for a month or so, and Dane was apparently buried in homework.
Float like a butterfly?
Levi looked at Elliot. That’s boxing, not basketball. Idiot.
Elliot shrugged. I figured since Pussy is already dickless, I should keep all sports with balls out of my insults.
How about I keep my balls out of your mother?
Pussabo asked.
Gross, dude.
Elliot scrunched his nose. "You put your balls up in my mother? I mean, good for you, getting those little Armenian raisins up in there and everything. I’m not really sure what that does for you, though. Your mom likes it from behind, but she doesn’t have a thing for my balls, and they’re too big to get all up there even if she did."
Levi laughed.
Fuck you, Elliot!
Pussabo repeated. Then he added, And I’m not Armenian!
Behind Pussabo, Dane nodded at Levi as he walked up the drive.
What took you so long?
Levi asked.
The usual. But worse, because physics. What did I miss? Did Pussabo make a basket?
Dane turned around and looked at Pussabo, holding the ball. Yo, Pussy, you know I love you.
I made four.
Out of like four hundred,
Elliot added.
Like twenty, asshole.
Whatever, mystery meat.
Fuck you, Elliot.
Pussabo aimed and the ball and—
Swish.
Congratulations.
Dane turned back to Levi. "Mr. Spencer assigned us a packet the size of your ego, and my dad said I couldn’t come over until it was finished, even though it was like five nights’ worth of work. But I was all Yes, sir! Anything you say, sir!"
Levi stood at attention and made the sign: Heil Hitler!
Totally. But whatever. I mean, he’s a dick about it, but he means well. And if he gets his way, then I get mine, too. Stanford is still close enough for us to hang out whenever, but far enough that my dad doesn’t have to know when I’m here.
Living the dream.
Levi walked back to the game with Dane right beside him.
Elliot said, I’m not sure if I want the guy who thinks he’s God’s gift, or the guy who can’t bother to show up before it’s time to go home. One of you can choose. Just don’t ask Pussabo.
I don’t care who I play with,
Pussabo said. They’ll be lucky. I’m totally feeling my game right now.
Elliot held out his hands for the ball. Pussabo threw it to him instead of taking another shot. Elliot hurled it at the basket without aim or intention.
Then he said, Hey Dane, do you think that you’re still going to be nerdy when you’re in college, or will you finally be cool and learn to chill the fuck out? It’ll make your dick bigger. And then chicks will want to get on it.
Maybe chicks will want to get on it because I’m driving them to my mansion, and they want to give me head along the way, seeing as how they’re so grateful for all the stuff I just bought them.
Dude, you don’t need Stanford for that,
Elliot said.
Yup,
Levi agreed.
Pussabo shot and scored. It doesn’t hurt. And besides, Dane has a reason for wanting to go. You know he’s not doing it just because.
Levi looked at Elliot, hoping he wouldn’t go there, with something like, Yeah, because his mommy went there.
But instead he said, Let’s play!
They did, the four of them easily falling into a game that was both fun and familiar.
Not just the rhythm of the ball in play, their words were dribbled and shot as well, rebounded and bounced all around. Insults and banter, born of boys being boys rather than animus.
Levi was the leader on the court, just like he was everywhere else.
Elliot had the most punchlines, but Levi’s were usually sharper.
Pussabo was an optimist, but Levi lived on the sunny side anyway, since circumstances always seemed to smile his way.
Dane was smart and good-looking. People agreed that he was an excellent listener.
And Corban … well, Corban was a pain in the ass.
Swish.
Nice shot,
Elliot said to Levi as he jogged toward the ball. Think Corban is going to be pouting about whatever the hell he’s been all pissy about for much longer?
I dunno,
Levi said, caring more about guarding Pussabo than anything Corban might or might not be doing.
I’m just saying that maybe that’s for the best,
Elliot said. He’s a shitty ref, because he feels sorry for Pussabo all the time. Calls fouls when the problem is really just Pussy sucking. But since you assholes always split us up, that’s a good thing for my game.
You know what would be good for my game?
Dane said. If you—
A siren screamed in the distance.
Then another, and another, and another.
It sounded like a freight train getting torn from its track.
Dane stopped dribbling. What the hell?
Maybe someone found Pussabo’s giant porn stash, and since no one had seen that much eighties bush since the eighties, and maybe not even then, someone figured that there was a pervert among us and so they called the police. Then the police got there and saw all the semen. They called for backup—
Okay, Elliot,
Dane tried.
No, he’s right,
Levi said. Pussabo loves eighties bush.
I do not like eighties bush. I told you guys, I like Miley Siren.
Elliot made a face. Gross. Miley Siren has been used like a car.
All pornstars are used like cars!
Yeah,
Elliot argued, but Miley Siren has been used in every state.
Yo!
A voice from the porch.
Levi looked over along with everyone else.
You guys hear the sirens?
Corban asked.
Dane said, You mean the ones that were just screaming? Yeah, we heard those.
Then Elliot: Did anyone just see an echo?
Levi said, "Did anyone just hear one? That joke probably wants us to get the hell off its lawn."
Fuck you.
Elliot punched him on the shoulder.
Levi grinned. Couldn’t help pushing it despite the warning. "The rule of comedy is that jokes get less funny each time you tell them."
"Guys," Corban said, stepping down onto the porch.
Levi turned to his twin. What?
But Corban didn’t need to answer, because all of them had the Almond Alert installed on their phones, and the symphony of ringing and buzzing and the beats of some Drake bullshit from Pussabo’s phone all screamed in unison.
That something was very wrong.
Chapter Three
Corban pedaled faster.
To hell with Levi and his friends.
They used to be my friends, too.
Until things finally blew up. If Levi had given a shit, then maybe everything wouldn’t be so upside down now.
At least he had Kari.
She was on her way to Costa Bella right now, and Corban was hoping to beat her there. Her dad, Ollie — nice guy, but weird — got a lot of work on those tract homes.
Corban rounded another corner and eased off on his pedaling. The wind could do most of the work as he coasted downhill, eyeing the sprawling properties on either side.
His community, The Village, was at the top of the hills, so riding down was always a blast, and coming back up, a bitch and a half.
Corban slowed when he got to the Costa Bella bridge, where the gate would have been if crime was a problem in Almond Park, then followed the billowing column of black smoke down three curvy roads to the end of a cul-de-sac lined with McMansions, to where Kari was already waiting with the crowd.
The flames were out and a trio of fire engines idled. Corban could smell the sweat and the fear. Like barbecue and burning cake.
What happened?
Kari turned to him and his heart gave a hiccup in surprise. Her eyes were wide and wet, makeup smeared beneath them. Corban still wasn’t used to these feelings. He hadn’t been able to stop thinking about Kari for a couple of weeks now. The emotion ballooned in his chest and filled him up until he was ready to pop. He was all nerves at least half the time. Looking at her quiet tears, he wanted to reach out and wipe them away.
Or pull her toward him.
But Kari wiped them herself. Then she said, "Other than fire, I have no idea."
Corban nodded at the house. A large wreath nearly swallowed the top half of a door that was barely attached to a house. Everything around the door had become a charred husk. Unbelievable, considering the house had been so new, the paint probably only half-dry.
It’s one of the finished ones, huh?
Kari nodded, then turned back to the house, staring.
Corban wondered if he should say something. Anything. Kari liked to think, and ever since he’d been spending more time with her than his brother, Corban had learned to listen. When she got going, she really got going. But sometimes she needed a prompt. Appreciated it, even. Death was sort of a thing for her, so surely she’d want to talk.
Or maybe he should grab her hand …
Corban stared at the house, blinking into the sooty air. Waiting.
Good stuff is supposed to come from tragedy, right?
she finally asked.
Corban nodded.
"What good can possibly come of this? These houses are all brand new. That was someone’s dream, Corban. Now it’s gone. Just like that. Doesn’t that make everything feel temporary to you?"
Yeah. Totally.
I bet that family wasn’t all that different from mine. They moved to Almond Park because they could finally afford the house they wanted. And now their dream is dead!
Maybe their insurance is amazing, and now they’ll get to live in a place that’s even swankier.
Kari turned back to the house.
Corban wished she would say something.
He needed to hear her voice. Something about it loosened the constant squeeze of life’s grip as it tried to force him through a round hole that his edges kept catching on. High school’s typical hierarchy should have made their friendship impossible.
But when just-moved-to-Almond-Park Kari had shown up friendless on orientation day, she’d spent the morning giving Corban an earache, slowly drawing him out of his shell. For the past three years he’d thought of her as the extrovert to his introvert. Now he thought of her as the yin to his yang. Or at least that’s what he wanted her to be.
Think we’ll see your dad?
Kari shrugged.
Corban hoped so. She always lit up around her father. And right now she seemed as dead as the ashes of the burnt-out house.
Ollie was an odd guy. He had an intense stare, even though all of his words sounded like they were smiling. He wore his hair swept back with a part that would have looked at home on a Ken doll. He did and said the most random things (I was born as a baby; sometimes I feel like sleeping in my sleep; my hair hurts). But Corban couldn’t help