The Annotated Church of the Old Mermaids
By Kim Antieau
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Myla Alvarez, novice, walks into the Sonoran Desert and begins telling stories about the Old Mermaids who washed ashore onto the New Desert when the Old Sea dried up. In this mystical new world, they lived, created, and walked in beauty. Myla finds sustenance and meaning in their lives and stories. But she worries that Homeland Security may discover the undocumented migrants she harbors at the Old Mermaids Sanctuary. When an old friend reenters her life, Myla begins to doubt herself and the wisdom of preserving the Old Mermaids Sanctuary. Will the Old Mermaids come to her aid?
Church of the Old Mermaids celebrates its fifteenth birthday with a brand new edition of this beloved novel. A glorious celebration of life, love, friendship, and the power to change, Church of the Old Mermaids challenges us to find the good in others and ourselves. This edition is fully annotated by Kim Antieau and Mario Milosevic, illuminating the sources of the Old Mermaids and bringing new understanding and depth to this classic novel of souls adrift seeking a secure shore in a world of peril and uncertainty.
Full of magic yet rooted in the cruel and beautiful realities of the border and those who live near it, this new presentation of Church of the Old Mermaids is sure to please both new and old readers of this unique and still timely novel.
A special book deserves a special cover and we are fortunate to have an exclusive and stunning image by the extraordinary artist Charles Vess for this edition of Church of the Old Mermaids.
Kim Antieau
Kim Antieau is the author of Mercy, Unbound. She lives with her husband in the Pacific Northwest.
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The Annotated Church of the Old Mermaids - Kim Antieau
The Annotated Church of the Old Mermaids
Annotations by Kim Antieau and Mario Milosevic
Kim Antieau
Green Snake PublishingContents
Also by Kim Antieau
Introduction
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Thirteen
Enchanted Ones
Mugwort and Mermaids
Sea Women
About the Author
About the Cover Artist
Also by Kim Antieau
Old Mermaids Books
The Blue Tail
Church of the Old Mermaids
The First Book of Old Mermaids Tales
The Fish Wife
An Old Mermaid Journal
The Old Mermaids Book of Days and Nights
The Old Mermaids Book of Days and Nights: A Year and a Day Journal
The Old Mermaids Mystery School
The Old Mermaids Oracle
The Old Mermaids Wisdom Cards
The Old Mermaids Wisdom Cards: Black and White Guide
The Old Mermaids Wisdom Cards: Color Guide
The Old Mermaids Wisdom Cards: Compact Guide
Novels
Broken Moon • Butch • Coyote Cowgirl • Deathmark
The Desert Siren • The Gaia Websters • Her Frozen Wild
Jewelweed Station • The Jigsaw Woman • Killing Beauty
Mercy, Unbound • The Monster’s Daughter
Queendom: Feast of the Saints • The Rift
Ruby’s Imagine • Swans in Winter
Whackadoodle Times Series
Whackadoodle Times
Whackadoodle Times Two
Whackadoodle Times Three
Whackadoodle Times Galore (all the Whackadoodle Times Books)
Nonfiction
Answering the Creative Call
Certified: Learning to Repair Myself and the World in the Emerald City
Counting on Wildflowers: An Entanglement
MommaEarth Goddess Runes
The Salmon Mysteries: a Reimagining of the Eleusinian Mysteries
Under the Tucson Moon
The Annotated Church of the Old Mermaids
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Cover by Charles Vess
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For all of you
who reach out
in compassion
every day
Introduction
How do mermaids appear in the desert?
Very simple, really.
Start with a couple of writers—Kim and I—living in cold and wet Washington state, looking for a refuge in the winter. Somewhere relatively warm and dry and bright.
Then one year Terri Windling told us about an artist retreat she, Delia Sherman, and Ellen Kushner had created in the Sonoran Desert outside of Tucson. It sounded like just the thing. That winter, we drove to Endicott West, as it was then called. We loved the place immediately. It kindled the creative spirit in both of us. We spent our mornings writing our books in the Quail House, a charming small studio on the property set amidst the cactus, palo verde, and mesquite trees just on the other side of the wash. In the afternoons, we hiked the desert.
And then something extraordinary happened. The Old Mermaids came out of the desert and presented themselves to Kim. Kim, not being one to refuse the gifts of the muses, wrote down their stories and created Church of the Old Mermaids, this amazing novel that combines fantasy, drama, truth, and, well, just about anything anyone would ever want from a novel. It has life, love, humor, drama, danger, tears, and joy. It examines the issues at the border through the lens of the people who live on the border, those who protect it, those who ignore it, and those who harm it.
The Old Mermaids live in the here and now. They thrived in the Old Sea, but the Old Sea dried up and they found themselves cast on the New Desert where they had to make a new life for themselves.
They were border crossers and tough survivors. They brought their mermaid sensibilities with them and found a way to thrive in their new home just as they did in their old: with love, smarts, and integrity.
As Kim wrote the book and read me each chapter as she finished them, I knew this book was something special. The Old Mermaids embody the wisdom and strength of nature. They know how to live well in isolation and in community. They are beautiful strong beings, meant to live and thrive in any environment. I felt all people could learn and find joy in their stories and their lives.
It also took place on land very much like the land we were visiting. There were the buildings, the flora and fauna, the corrals, and the wash. The only things missing from the real life Endicott West were Myla, her circle of friends and acquaintances, and the Old Mermaids.
The book is magical realism writ large. It tells the story of everyone who has been cast onto a foreign land or a strange country or an unknown world. Most of us have been such beings; some of us have met that challenge many times.
Church of the Old Mermaids has proven to be one of Kim’s most popular novels. We launched our publishing company to send into the world books exactly like this one: true to life, yet partaking of a fantastic sensibility, not merely for escape, but as a way of illuminating a world.
Kim has written other Old Mermaids books. You can find their titles at the beginning of this book. Seek them out; they are all lushly beautiful stories full of wisdom and a love of the natural world. We have even produced a deck of cards, The Old Mermaids Wisdom Cards, as a tool for helping folks live in the here and now in the Old Mermaids Way. The Old Mermaids are for everyone because everyone knows what it is to be cast onto a world not of our making.
The Old Mermaids came to be an important part of our lives. When a problem or challenge arises in our lives, we ask each other WWTOMD: What would the Old Mermaids do? We don’t necessarily always know the answers, but thinking about the question often helps us resolve issues and problems.
And then an even more extraordinary thing happened. About a dozen years after writing the novel, we had a chance to buy Endicott West. We were grateful for the opportunity and cast all doubts aside and jumped at the chance to own this beautiful and remarkable place. We renamed it The Old Mermaids Sanctuary, life imitating art to a certain extent. And isn’t that what we want from art: the power to change the world.
For this fifteenth anniversary edition of COTOM, we have decided to add our annotations to the novel, illuminating places where the events of the novel intersect with our own lives and helping readers to understand how the many stakeholders at the U.S./Mexico border affect the lives of residents on both sides. And how they affect the Old Mermaids.
We are pleased to have Charles Vess’s amazing art for our cover. We couldn’t ask for a better face to the world.
We indicate annotated items in this ebook edition with a superscript number like this: ¹. Different ebook readers will handle this superscript in different ways, but for most devices you should be able to tap on the number and have it take you to the annotation. Then there should be a button to tap to take you back to the main text. Kim’s annotations are indicated with her initials ka and mine with my initials mm. Although the annotations are a collaboration between the two of us, the novel itself is all Kim’s.
We have also included three essays by Kim about mermaid folklore. They were written when we lived in the Pacific Northwest.
Whether you are a new reader of COTOM or an old friend back for a visit, we welcome you and hope you find pleasure and strength in this very first tale of Myla and the Old Mermaids.
—Mario Milosevic
One
Get the starfish outta your eyes, sister.
Sister Sheila Na Giggles Mermaid
Myla walked the wash ¹ looking for trash in the dirt. She looked for treasure too. One man’s trash was another woman’s treasure. And vice versa, she always said. She carried two bags over her right shoulder. Into the plastic bag, she dropped garbage; into the ruby-colored cloth bag, she put those bits of refuse she believed she could sell on Fourth Avenue, at the Church of the Old Mermaids. ² It was not a real church. At least not how most people defined that word. It was the space where she put her table, chair, and wares on Saturdays, shine or shine. She called it the Church of Old Mermaids because her mother told her when she was a child that the desert had once been a vast sea. She liked imagining that the mermaids had not dried up when the sea did; ³ they merely changed their attitudes. And maybe their skin and fin-ware.
Myla’s feet slip-slided over the sand as she went around a palo verde tree whose bare branches stretched out over the wash. Dry rust-colored bean pods dangled from the green twigs, like offerings from the skeletal fingers of a Catrina doll ⁴ enticing her to snatch up a couple. So she did. She dropped them into the ruby bag.
Thank you,
she murmured. Wasn’t about to say she wouldn’t be able to get a nickel for them. Unless she came up with a particularly good story. Like how these pods came from the wash that used to be a river where the Old Mermaids were stranded when the Old Sea began to disappear; or these pods came from a tree hanging over the wash where the Old Mermaids were first stranded, where they finally came to shore, and the first thing they did, these Old Mermaids, was to plant themselves a palo verde, ⁵ all green, just like Mother Star Stupendous Mermaid’s tail had been, you know, before she had to leave the sea, the river, the wash.
Normally Myla did not take anything organic from the wash to sell. She removed only that which humans made, except for an occasional feather. She knew she could sell the latticed skeletons left by cacti—especially the cholla bones that grayed into exotic desert art—but she did not feel she had the right, not yet. Perhaps after she had lived on the land a bit longer. After all, ten years was only a drop in the proverbial time bucket. Sometimes she asked permission to snag an animal bone or cholla joint which she then stored in a room next to her studio apartment in the modular barn near the Crow house. She was not certain what she was going to do with these bits and pieces of the desert, but she felt as though she was retrieving pieces of long ago dismembered desert creatures. Or sea creatures. One day she would reassemble them.
But now, today, she needed to finish her walk and check on the houses in the Old Mermaid Sanctuary. Gail would be at the Crow house soon to pick her up. Myla was caretaker for the houses and land of five families while the owners were away, which was most of the year. ⁶ The Wentworths usually came for the week between Christmas and New Year; the Castillos visited every spring for a couple of months; the Martins and Fords stayed most of the fall, and the Crows usually took up residence in October and again in March. Now in late January none of them were home.
All of the families wanted the houses to look as though they were lived in while they were away, and Myla did what she could to accommodate their wishes. The Crows encouraged her to use any part of their house since she lived on their property. They told her to watch television, swim in the pool, sit in the spa, use the library, or cook in their deluxe kitchen, but she rarely went into the house. Once or twice she had used the kitchen when she needed an extra oven.
She did like sitting by the Crow’s peanut-shaped pool. It was a deep dark indigo blue with patches of lighter blue here and there, creating the impression that one had stumbled upon a curvature in the bedrock where a natural spring pooled. The palm tree growing next it, along with other desert flora, helped further this nature fiction. Or maybe it wasn’t a fiction. The house was surrounded by the Sonoran desert. ⁷ At midday sometimes, Myla sat on one of the lounge chairs and listened to the quiet and watched the cactus wrens hurry along the chest-high earth-colored wall that enclosed the pool area. Or at dusk, she stood at the edge of the pool and listened to the great-horned owl ⁸ in the palm tree awaken and try to solve its daily identity crisis, Who? Who?
She especially liked seeing the mermaid at the bottom of the pool. David Thomas Crow had painted it when his parents drained the pool soon after Myla arrived. The mermaid was beautiful, with black eyes, a peach-colored tail, and tiny multicolored starfish in her wild black hair. She was quite voluptuous and had an uncanny resemblance to Myla, a fact everyone was too polite to mention. Everyone in the Crow family, that is. As soon as the family left that year, Myla showed the mermaid to Theresa, Gail, and George. Theresa and Gail asked her when she had posed for David Crow, a man nearly young enough to be her son. George said, He got the chimmychangas wrong. Yours are more lifelike.
Myla couldn’t really argue with him. He was right. Hers were more lifelike.
Myla had started working at the Old Mermaid Sanctuary ten years earlier after she left her husband—or he left her. After she answered an ad in the Tucson Weekly. The owners came to town and interviewed Myla collectively. They talked with her for fifteen minutes, give or take, and then they offered her the job—pending a reference check. She had to get bonded too. They promised her a monthly stipend, studio apartment, and use of a car; she promised to care for their land and houses.
She moved in almost immediately. Soon she was walking the wash every day, many times a day. In the beginning she felt a bit like La Llorona, weeping and wailing for her lost children. Only she did not have children. ⁹ So she wailed for her lost life. Not that she thought about her life. She did not think about much of anything then: She felt. She felt sad, angry, lost, lousy. She felt the sand beneath her shoes and tried to keep her balance so she would not fall left into a prickly pear stand or right into a cholla tree, or the other way around. Sometimes she let David Thomas Crow walk with her. When she cried, he did not tell her everything would soon be all right; he did not tell her to look on the bright side or say time heals all. He never seemed uncomfortable with her sorrow—or anything else about her. ¹⁰ Every once in a while he would put his hand on her back, lightly; this gesture steadied and relieved her, either by drying up the tears or causing them to flow more profusely.
She drank too much then. She hadn’t been a drinker before, and she wasn’t one afterward. But for a month or more, she used alcohol as her medicine, like someone with a cough taking cough syrup. That was how she thought about it. Just to stop the hacking ache.
Then one night the Old Mermaids came to her in a dream. ¹¹ They swam the wash, which was filled with sea water, and motioned to her to join them. One of them reached down to the sandy bottom and pulled up an old glass bottle and held it out to her. When she awakened the next morning, she stumbled into the wash and found the same glass bottle—or one that looked like it. Her life changed in that instant. She felt as though she had heard the call of the wild—or the call of the Old Mermaids. The Church of the Old Mermaids was born that morning. She stopped drinking, and David painted the mermaid at the bottom of pool.
David left soon after she stopped drinking, and Myla hadn’t seen him since. His mother, Sarah, gave her updates on him now and then, but Myla did not ask a lot of questions about his life. She remembered that month only vaguely, and she was afraid she might find out she had done something embarrassing to drive him away. Besides, he was out of her life, and she did not like to dwell on the past. That was long gone.
Myla leaned over and picked up a piece of gray metal from the sand. ¹² It looked like the top half of a shepherd’s staff. She dropped it into the ruby bag and kept walking. She passed several pieces of concrete in the sand. She had not yet figured out how so many blocks of concrete ended up in the wash. Even when the arroyo became a river again—temporarily during the monsoons—concrete could not float. Could it? She supposed the force of water could move just about anything.
She stepped over a mesquite log with an orange plastic rope wrapped around it. She did not feel like unraveling it now. Maybe one day. She had been considering that orange rope for many days now—maybe even years. She shrugged. It must be that no one needed it yet.
The wash split, and she followed the left branch. She had not been here for a while. No horses and few other creatures had traveled this way either, judging from the lack of tracks. She stopped in the shade of an old mesquite. She always overdressed on these chilly mornings. Now the cool blackness of the mesquite felt good. Several prickly pear pads had draped themselves over the mesquite trunk that bent toward the ground a bit before curving up. The prickly pear pads looked wrung out, as though they had been traveling a long distance and had finally succumbed to exhaustion and thirst. The cactus had found a good companion in the mesquite. Very grounded. Rooted. Mesquite had the deepest root system of any tree, she knew. ¹³ Someone had once found a live mesquite root 160 feet beneath the surface, in a copper mine. Myla put her hand on the mesquite trunk. Mesquite trees knew how to hold their ground. Old souls, she thought when she saw one like this, crouched toward the desert floor yet still reaching out to the world around it. Its yellow leaflets appeared almost fluorescent next to its dark branches and trunk.
In the sand near the base of the tree and the prickly pear was a piece of rusty metal; about a foot long and six inches across, it looked vaguely like a skeleton of the push part of a miniature lawn mower. Not that she had seen a mower in a long while. The Wentworths had a square of grassy lawn in the front of their house when Myla first moved into the Old Mermaid Sanctuary. They gave her detailed instructions on how to keep it living and thriving while they were away. She read the instructions and watched each day as the lawn shriveled and then died. ¹⁴ She had George pull out the sod and let the desert floor be again. Eventually she talked George into helping her plant some prickly pears, chollas, and a young palo verde. By the time the Wentworths returned, the land looked like desert again. Mr. Wentworth asked her what had happened. She told him, Putting sod like that on the desert is like putting a bad toupee on a bald man.
He frowned, not understanding. It covers up his beautiful bald head which was what was attractive about him in the first place,
Myla said. Mr. Wentworth smoothed his hand over his shiny head and nodded. They never mentioned the lawn again.
Myla picked up the piece of metal and slipped it into the ruby bag. Thank you, Mesquite,
she said.
She walked out of the shade and went to the main artery of the wash. A crow called out. She looked up as it flew over her, its wings whooshing-whooshing against the dry desert air.
Good morning, crow,
she said. Sometimes she wished she was a crow. At least when she was walking the wash. Crows could spot treasure in the dirt even if they were looking down from the moon.
She looked away from the flying crow and at the ground and saw the metal loop to an earring sticking out of a dent in the sand made by a horse’s hoof. She reached for it with her cotton-gloved fingers and pulled it out of the dirt. Hanging from the bent metal was a tiny red dreamcatcher with a metal feather at its center. She could get a good price for this with the right story, but maybe she would keep it for a bit, to see if anyone had lost it. She slipped it into the left pocket of her slacks.
Myla glanced up again. Thanks, Crow. I owe you.
The wash continued across the road, but Myla did not follow it. The road marked the end of the Old Mermaid Sanctuary. She turned around, walked a few yards, then started up a path to the Wentworth house. She had memorized the paths to each house, but she never traveled the desert thoughtlessly. It was too prickly for that. Besides, the desert moved. Like a glacier. She was convinced. Well, she shrugged, maybe not exactly like a glacier. ¹⁵ Maybe like a slow dance troupe. When the moon came up, the mesquite, palo verde, saguaro, and prickly pear did the two-step. Or maybe yoga. She shook her head. She was getting a bit too fanciful; Gail would say she was spending too much time alone.
Not too much, really.
Myla walked around the outside of the Wentworth house to see if anything was out of place. Her feet crunched over the pebbly dirt. This house looked similar to other houses in the sanctuary, made from adobe or fake-adobe, this one with a tiled roof. A small covey of quail scurried across the dirt drive, whimpering and cooing, reminding Myla—as quail often did—of a group of nuns bustling from sight, worried they might become tainted if they did not hurry, hurry, hurry away.
Myla pulled a ring of keys out of her pocket, searched for the Wentworth key, put it in the lock and turned it. She stepped inside the dark, quiet house and closed the door behind her. She paused in the foyer for a moment and wiped her feet on the mat. She looked down to make certain she was not bringing in any dirt or cactus thorns. Then she walked to the living room and called, "Buenos dÌas! Es Myla."
A moment later, a five year old girl came running around the corner from the hallway, her arms outstretched, her long black ponytails bouncing on her back. Myla bent over and enveloped the girl in her arms.
Oh, Lily my Lily,
Myla said in Spanish. You are the most beautiful flower in this desert. I’ll have to take you home with me and never let you go.
Lily kissed her daintily on the cheek.
Ahhh, stingy with the water are we,
Myla said.
Lily turned her cheek to Myla, and Myla gave her a wet kiss. Lily laughed and wiped it away.
Oh! You don’t want my kisses? Okay. The kiss is on your hand now, so if you want it back, you can touch your cheek any time.
Lily put both hands up to her cheek and smiled. Her mother walked into the room.
"Hola, Maria, Myla said.
CÛmo est·s?" She embraced the thin young woman.
I am well,
Maria said, running her hands through her short black hair. Lily had another nightmare.
I was in the water,
Lily said. I couldn’t breathe.
We had to cross a river coming here,
¹⁶ Maria explained. It was higher than we expected. Below her knees, but the current was too strong for her. She started screaming. It was nearly dark. Everyone started running, afraid they’d be caught. She fell and the water grabbed her.
Maria squinted, remembering. But I got her right away. Didn’t I, Lily?
She looked down at her daughter. I would never do anything to put her in danger.
She looked at Myla again. Both women knew she had risked her daughter’s life by crossing la frontera ¹⁷ and bringing her into the desert. I couldn’t leave her behind,
Maria whispered.
Did you eat?
Myla asked.
Lily slipped her hand into Myla’s as they walked into the darkened kitchen.
We made the oatmeal like you showed us,
Maria said.
Microwaved. Less chance of them catching anything on fire.
Then I washed the dishes and put everything away,
Maria said. It is very kind of these people to let me use their house.
Yes, well,
Myla said, tonight we will have dinner at my place, when I get back from the Church of the Old Mermaids. Will you be all right until then? If anything happens, remember you can walk out onto the road and the second house on the right is where I live. There’s a phone in my apartment in the barn. I will leave my door unlocked.
I remember,
Maria said. You showed us.
By the way, you can leave these kitchen curtains open if you like,
Myla said. No one could see you from here.
Any news on my husband?
Myla shook her head. She had discovered Lily and Maria in the desert a few miles from the border several days earlier, after their guia ¹⁸ had deserted them. Myla had been searching for items for the Church of the Old Mermaids in a wash that ran through a stand of cottonwoods when she heard a child crying. She followed the sound until she discovered Lily, alone. A few moments later, Maria seemed to appear out of nowhere. She took Lily into her arms and explained to Myla that she was looking for her husband Juan who had come to the United States three months earlier. She had not heard from him since. Could Myla help her, Maria wanted to know. Finding Maria’s husband would be like finding a particular thorn in the desert, Myla thought at the time—and she still thought so—but she did not say that to Maria then or now. Besides, maybe Theresa would find him.
Myla looked from the mother to the child now.
I need to get going,
Myla said. I’ll see you both later.
Thank you, Myla,
Maria said.
Don’t go,
Lily said.
Myla crouched down. I’ll be back. I’ll tell you another story tonight.
Lily turned her cheek to her. Myla bent over to give her another wet kiss. Lily laughed as though tickled.
Myla left the house. She stood outside for a moment until she heard the door lock behind her. Then she walked down the dirt street to the Martin house. She went around the outside of the building, then inside. All appeared to be as it should, although she needed to take down