The Stone Necklace: A Novel
By Carla Damron and Patti Callahan Henry
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About this ebook
Winner of the 2017 STAR AWARD from the Women’s Fiction Writers Association
The Stone Necklace braids together the stories of a grieving widow, a struggling nurse, a young mother, and a troubled homeless man, reminding us of the empowering and surprising ways our lives touch one another.
Lena Hastings survived breast cancer and marital infidelity but now faces an uncertain future without the support of the one person she has always counted on. Intensive care nurse Sandy Albright, newly released from drug rehab, confronts temptations from her past and false accusations that threaten her career. Tonya Ladson, a mother whose child is injured in a car wreck, must decide if a lawsuit will solve her problems. Joe Booker, a homeless man, loses his gentle benefactor and must either succumb to the evils of his world or find the courage to care for himself.
Weighted down by their respective pasts, the characters must make life-altering choices that reverberate into the fates of the others, ultimately bringing them together in unexpected but healing acts of compassion, forgiveness, and redemption.
Foreword by New York Times bestselling novelist Patti Callahan Henry.
Carla Damron
Carla Damron is a social worker, advocate, and author whose last novel, The Stone Necklace (about grief and addiction), won the 2017 Women's Fiction Writers Association Star Award for Best Novel and was selected as the One Community Read for Columbia, South Carolina. Damron is also the author of the Caleb Knowles mystery novels and has published numerous short stories, essays, and op-eds.Damron holds an MSW and an MFA. Her careers as a social worker and writer are intricately intertwined; all of her novels explore social issues like addiction, homelessness, mental illness, and human trafficking. Damron volunteers with the League of Women Voters, Sisters in Crime, Palmetto Chapter (president), and Mutual Aid Midlands. She lives with her husband, Jim Hussey, and their large family of spoiled rescue animals.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Good book. Recognizable characters. Engaging story cleverly constructed. But no clear message except perhaps that things work out in the end.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5"She wore her sins like a stone necklace." This one of the first descriptions of Lena Hastings as the novel starts. Lena has just survived breast cancer and reconciled with her husband as the story opens. She has had the bad luck in her life and she feels that now is the time for life to be good. However, that day, her husband is in a horrific car crash that takes his life. This is the story of how the family and other interconnected characters deal with life without Mitch to hold it together for them. There are a lot of characters but they are all touched by Mitch's death -- there is his widow, Lena who is an artist unable to paint since her cancer scare, her sons Sims and Elliot, her daughter Becca who is trying to control her life by self-harming and then three other main characters who play a large role in the novel but are not part of the family - Sandy, the nurse in ICU who is on probation for using drugs and Joe, the homeless man who lives in the cemetery and has been helped out by Mitch over the years and Tonya who was injured in the car crash with Mitch along with her small son. It sounds like a lot of characters but there is no confusion and they are all part of the central theme of the novel - that no matter what happens in our past, there is hope for the future by showing compassion to others - both within our families and to the other people whose lives are intertwined with our own.I enjoyed this book and getting to know these characters. I loved the way that the author managed to interweave their lives and make it all so believable. The author has a background in social work and it's very apparent that she has a great understanding of life for homeless people based on her story line about Joe, the homeless man whose story line is so important to the novel.One more comment -- I usually don't pay a lot of attention to who publishes a book but I have read three books this year published by Story River Books, a publisher of fiction based at the University of South Carolina, and all of them have been excellent. I plan to look for the books that they publish in the future because they publish books that I enjoy and that need to be read!I definitely enjoyed this book and highly recommend it to all of my reader friends.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Stone Necklace by Carla Damron The necklace brings together many from different tragedies.Starts out with Leena: cancer, surgery, chemo. Mitch, the husband tries to keep it all together.Joe the homeless man who does chores for them. He had left a stone and it appears in Mitchs briefcase every morning.Follows Tonya in a car that gets in an accident-her son Bryon is ok, she blames herself for texting..... Mitch had run a red light and crashed into her car due to his medical emergency.Story also follows Becca, Sims and older brother who all gather at the hospital for their father. Also Sandy who's a recovering addict hat is a nurse in the hospital.Confusing at times as everybody has so much going on.Like this book because it is about a lot of different people, different ages, different careers and they have one thing in common...I received this book from National Library Service for my BARD (Braille Audio Reading Device).
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The Stone Necklace - Carla Damron
CHAPTER 1
Lena Hastings cupped her husband’s cheek to examine a ragged piece of tissue attached to his chin, the perfect blossom of garnet—no, crimson—against the white. Doing battle with the razor I see.
She lifted the coffee carafe to pour him a cup, but Mitch went straight for the milk in the fridge, a sign that his heartburn had flared up again. She opened the plastic jar of Tums they kept by the sink and rattled two pastel wafers into his hand. He flipped them like coins.
Sleeping Beauty up yet?
he asked.
Hope so.
She glanced at the ceiling, listening for signs of life from Becca. She’d wait ten more minutes before calling out, hopeful that this morning would go smoother than the others.
Mitch pulled his cell phone from his robe and set it by his place at the table. I’ve left a million messages for Phillip. Be nice if he called me back.
Mitch often complained about his work. Maybe if he wasn’t such a perfectionist. Maybe if he didn’t work himself into an anxious knot over every little thing.
Out the window the maple and ginkgo trees, ablaze in reds and golds, shimmied in the autumn breeze. Lena should paint this tantrum of color soon, before the grass dulled completely to cardboard brown. She imagined the feel of the paintbrush, the swirl of shades coming together before she even touched the canvas. It had been eighteen months since she’d allowed herself that luxury, the last piece of normal life she had yet to reclaim.
She returned to the table, a heavy colonial monolith from Mitch’s grandmother, surrounded by five sturdy chairs. Once, she had removed two seats and the center leaf, shrinking it from oval to round and freeing space. The change lasted a week. It doesn’t feel right,
Mitch had said, and they extended the table again, and replaced the ladder-backs, as though their sons had never grown up and left home, and would bound through the kitchen door any minute to tussle over the last Toaster Strudel.
Mitch tossed back a glassful of milk like it was a shot of tequila, wincing when he lowered it to the counter.
Honey, if you feel that bad, let Phillip manage things at the office,
she said.
I would if he was in town.
Where is he this time?
she asked.
Bermuda.
This was a fight best averted. Mitch’s business partner had taken three vacations this year. And Mitch? Just the July beach trip and even then, she’d caught him huddled over work files and answering a dozen calls. She’d removed his wrist watch on day three. On day four, when she seduced him into three rounds of miniature golf, the man finally uncoiled.
He thumped a fist against his chest, his face and bald head flushing pink as the inside of a conch shell. Maybe he really was sick this time, but it was hard to be sure. With Mitch, the sky was often falling.
You need to eat something. Let me fix you some toast.
She spread low-fat margarine on two slices of whole grain bread because it was the one thing Mitch could eat with a turbulent stomach. For their daughter Becca, it was plain yogurt. And for Lena: chicken broth. How many gallons had she consumed last year? Too many, but she had survived both monsters: the cancer that didn’t kill her and the chemo that almost did.
Lena heard movement from upstairs and glanced at the clock. Ten until eight. She’d give Becca a few more minutes. Things went smoother if Becca arrived without sounding the alarm.
The vibration of Mitch’s cell phone disturbed the cutlery. When he answered, she could tell the caller wasn’t Phillip because Mitch didn’t say About damn time
or Where the hell have you been
in a tone that would be half-playful, half-not. Instead, he spoke in his realtor voice. I understand. I’m concerned, too. It would help if you’d tell me—
He carried the phone out of the kitchen.
Just as Lena rose to summon her, Becca appeared in the doorway, her jeans hanging from her too-narrow hips. Her long brown hair, still wet from the shower, dripped down her baggy tan sweater. She looked vacantly around the kitchen as if she hadn’t entered it a thousand times.
Morning, sunshine. Want some cereal?
Lena asked like she did every morning.
I’ll get it.
Becca hurried to the pantry for the Special K and to the cabinet for a measuring cup. Exactly one-half of a cup made it into her bowl. Lena crossed to the counter for a banana and handed it to Becca, who broke off a third to slice into her cereal.
Lena glanced out the window again. The dappled light through the trees made lace patterns on the patio. Beyond, that one stubborn foxglove, its flowers like droopy lavender bells, stood in defiance of fall. This was what she should paint. The sun would be at the right angle in another hour, so once she got Becca and Mitch out the door, she could unearth her easel from the garage. She would set up beside the crape myrtle. Maybe today she could do it.
Becca poured skim milk into her bowl. No sugar. She took a bite, crunching with her mouth partly open, a drop of milk slithering down her chin, but Lena didn’t comment. Want me to fix you a sandwich for lunch?
Lena asked. I made chicken salad.
I’ll eat in the cafeteria.
Lena wanted to say, Make sure to eat your vegetables and finish the milk,
but that would prompt a Becca tirade about the suck-factor
of cafeteria food, and thwart Lena’s hope for a drama-free breakfast table.
A few minutes later, Mitch reappeared, the cell phone gripped in his hand. He glanced down at the toast on his plate but didn’t touch it.
Who called?
Lena asked.
One of Phillip’s clients. Annoying bastard’s pestered me for two days,
Mitch said.
Try the toast,
she said. Maybe Lena would have time to go by the school and get the supplies she’d left in the art studio. Had they kept them after all this time?
What are your plans for today?
Mitch asked.
She took a deep breath, unsure why she needed courage to say it. I think . . . I think I may paint.
Really?
Mitch gave her his most dazzling and private smile.
Are you going back to school?
Becca’s quiet voice contradicted the glare she sent Lena. Maybe the hostility was deserved, but Lena needed no reminders. She wore her sins like a stone necklace. If only Becca had inherited her father’s gift for forgiveness, but she was more like Lena—neither would erase the damage done.
I’m not going back to school,
Lena answered. Not even for what she’d left behind.
Well I think it’s great that you’re painting again.
Mitch squeezed her hand. About time.
Yes, it was. Had she kept the cadmium blue? The fine-bristled brush?
Is that all you’re having for breakfast?
Mitch asked their daughter. Want my toast?
I’m fine. I’m full. Leave me alone,
Becca growled. Fighting over what the child put in her mouth never accomplished anything. They had survived her other phases. This, too, would pass.
At least finish the banana,
he said.
She can take it to school,
Lena said. Once Mitch finished dressing and Becca’s ride came, she’d scoot them from the house. A blank canvas awaited her.
MITCH FOUGHT FOR BREATH as he climbed the stairs to dress. It felt like something hot and furry had climbed inside his chest. Lena didn’t take his health problems seriously. Of course, her battle with breast cancer last year had raised the bar on what it meant to be sick. He might feel like a semi ran over him, but how did that stack up against a mastectomy, radiation, and gut-wrenching chemo? Her cancer trivialized everything else. Sometimes, it even trivialized him.
He found more Tums on his dresser and tossed another into his mouth. Spats, Becca’s cat, hopped up on the chest and nudged his hand for a stroke. How was it that Spats became his cat? He’d been a gift for his daughter’s twelfth birthday, a little black and white blur who chased shadows and slept curled up beside Becca’s head. A year later, as Becca busied herself with other interests, Spats had turned his devotion to him, and he’d never liked cats. But Spats was a comfort now. And had been during Lena’s illness, those countless days when she was so sick, when there had been nothing he could do to help. Spats would stretch himself across his lap every evening, and Mitch would fold himself into the cat’s warmth and purr, as calming as the trickle of a brook. Give Spats a stroke and all was right with the world. Spats didn’t ask the impossible of him.
Mitch tucked his shirt into the trousers, straightened his tie—Republican red
his younger son had called it—and ran a polishing cloth over his Oxford shoes. A final glance in the mirror: an errant eye brow hair he smoothed with a finger. He checked the phone again before easing it into its holster. Phillip had been confident the strip mall deal would go through, that their profits would cover all the recent losses, but the client’s escalating calls worried Mitch. They’d sunk too much into this. Of course, it was partly Mitch’s fault; he’d been absent from the business during Lena’s illness, leaving Phillip without adult supervision. That their future depended on this sketchy deal did not help Mitch’s indigestion.
When he went back downstairs, he found Lena and Becca continuing their mother-daughter stalemate expressed by spoons slapped in cereal bowls and itchy silence. At times like this they mirrored each other: the same angular cheekbones, the thin lips pressed tight. Becca had grown into a moody child, but Lena said all teenage girls were like that. Thank God the two boys had been easier: Scouts, then sports, then college. Sims: married, a successful banker, with a kid of his own. Elliott: a jazz guitarist in New York. Good boys. Boys to be proud of.
Lena moved to the window and stared out. Joe’s here.
At first Mitch didn’t see him. As big as Joe Booker was, he could almost be invisible standing beside the magnolia tree in the garden, broad shoulders hunched, head down. Mitch had met the homeless man three years before in the graveyard of his church. Joe proved handy with a rake and kept the small cemetery immaculate, so Mitch hired him for yard work. He waved through the window and Joe met him at the back steps.
Thanks for stopping by. Leaves are getting deep.
Mitch didn’t get too close—Joe didn’t like that—and waited for the sequoia of a man to look up.
The slow lifting of his head made his dreadlocks curtain much of his midnight-dark face. Gotta get to the breakfast line now. Be back this afternoon.
This could be a problem. Becca returned from school at three, and had an irrational fear of Joe—something he’d told Lena they needed to work on. Add it to the list,
Lena had answered.
I’ll be done before your girl gets home,
Joe added.
Relieved, Mitch reached for his wallet and pulled out a twenty.
Joe shook his head. Too much.
You always say that.
He was lucky to have Joe and not rely on some landscaping crew he could no longer afford. Mitch tucked the bill in the pocket of Joe’s pea coat. Joe stiffened at the contact.
I’ll get them weeds around the birdbath, too,
Joe said.
Thanks.
He watched Joe shuffle away, noting how his foot bulged over the side of his right shoe. Maybe he’d stop by Goodwill to get him a new pair.
Back inside, he opened his briefcase and removed the small, speckly stone Joe had left for him on a tombstone a few months before. Since then, the strange gift had found its way into Mitch’s pocket every morning. Not a good luck talisman—his luck had been atrocious lately—more like a worry stone.
He snapped shut the case and said, I’m off.
Lena tilted her head up and he bent to kiss her, noticing how her gaze moved from him to the door. Next came Becca, who gave him her most polished adolescent eye roll. He pressed his lips to the top of her head. See you later, kitten.
What time will you be home?
Lena held the door open for him.
I’ll call you later.
Before climbing in the Lexus, he draped his jacket over the headrest and loosened his tie. He felt hot, like something was searing him from the inside. As he slid behind the wheel he noticed his hands tingling; pressure swelled like bellows in his chest. The inside of the car was starved for oxygen. This felt like more than indigestion. Should he call Dr. Burnside? He was often too quick to make that call.
He opened the window to let in some air. After a few deep breaths, the pain ebbed into a dull ache below his sternum. This was probably just the reflux. He backed out of the garage, careful to miss the leaf bags awaiting pick-up beside the driveway, and eased onto Lakeshore Drive. A few blocks later, he turned onto Forest heading downtown.
And then. God!
Something hit him in the solar plexus, hit him with the force of a hundred mule kicks. He gasped, releasing the wheel to claw at his shirt like he could claw out the pain. Grayness fogged his eyes. He couldn’t breathe; air rejected his lungs. He should brake but his foot slipped.
He could see a dim outline of streets ahead and a smear of red from the traffic light. A silver van coming.
The impact sounded like a bomb. His car door screamed as it crumpled, and the van pushed him sideways across the intersection. Through the empty socket of his window he saw the other driver, a young woman, eyes wide in terror. His mind flashed to a memory of Lena giving birth to Sims, that last horrific moment when she cried that she couldn’t push anymore and please, please, God.
Off the pavement now. The rush of leaves covered the hood of his car before it crashed into the tree. The airbag knocked him backward, and he closed his eyes against its powdery assault. Pain exploded in his hand where it clutched his chest. He felt remote. Blurred. Why couldn’t he breathe? He thought he said Lena’s name, to ask her a question. Where was he?
CHAPTER 2
Tonya Ladson tasted blood. Plump red drops fell from her throbbing nose to something white and dusty in her lap. What happened? She could see a cloud, or was it smoke, outside the webby cracks in her windshield. Metal pressed against her side from where the door was bowed in. A car horn blared. She desperately wanted to silence the noise. That’s when she noticed her hand on the horn.
Byron!
Tonya snatched back her hand and spun around to see her two-year-old’s car seat tilted sideways from the collision. Byron had almost escaped the contraption just moments before. Byron?
She tore at the release for her seatbelt. His corduroyed legs kicked and squirmed; his fingers clutched the strap that held him suspended over the seat. Alive. Her baby was alive.
The skin around her nose burned. Getting to her child took some maneuvering, but she twisted between seatbacks and wrestled Byron’s car seat until she had it righted. He whimpered, his tear-streaked face looking up at her like she knew something he didn’t. She skimmed a hand over his head to feel for lumps or cuts, wincing as tiny crystals of safety glass sprinkled down from his hair. Oh baby.
Smoke puffed from the crumpled heap that had been the other car, the Lexus that had run the red light—she was sure her light had been green. She had slammed the brakes but it was too late and she couldn’t veer out of the way and it kept coming and oh God.
Mommy out.
Byron reached for her but she hesitated, worried she shouldn’t move him. She searched his tiny body for signs of bleeding.
Shhh,
she said, her voice trembling. A buzzing sound erupted. Where? Her cell phone vibrated on the seat beside the driver’s.
Out!
Byron bellowed, feet flailing, a sneaker smacking her in the breast.
Stop that!
She grabbed his legs but a full-out Byron meltdown was imminent, so she unclicked the strap and let him tumble into her arms.
You’re okay, little man.
She begged the words to be true. Byron pressed his face into her shoulder and she held him close, rocking a little, thinking how he almost wasn’t here on this earth for her to hold.
You’re fine. Just fine.
Moisture warmed her skin from where he’d wet his pants.
The cell phone quieted. She had been calling work when the accident happened. She was explaining that she’d be five minutes (really fifteen) late, and her co-worker said her boss was asking for her. Behind her, Byron was yelling about going potty but she knew she couldn’t stop until she got him to daycare and that’s when . . . She shouldn’t have been on her cell. She knew better. What would her husband say? What if this was her fault? No, her light had been green, she was sure of it. She was.
A man tugged at the Lexus’s driver door, others emerging from nearby cars to watch. Tonya breathed in the sickly-sweet odor of gasoline. From her engine? What if it exploded? She scrambled to open the door. An elderly gentleman on the other side reached for her arm and asked if she was injured.
She tried to untwine Byron from her neck but he let out a squeaky cry, like the time he slammed his hand in a drawer and his thumbnail turned blue.
What’s wrong?
Panic boiled up as she scanned his body. Does your arm hurt?
He held it awkwardly, elbow pushed into ribs, hand knotted in a fist. Was it broken? Had she made it worse?
The stranger handed her a tissue so she could dab at the blood dripping from her nose. Did someone call for an ambulance? My little boy needs help.
She carried him to the sidewalk, wanting distance between them and the wreckage.
The man told her that help was on its way. They both turned their attention back to the other car. Someone yelled that the door wouldn’t open. Two others circled the sedan as a great plume of gray smoke belched out from under the hood. They had to get the driver out before his car burst into flames.
Help him!
she yelled.
An onlooker smashed the window with a rock and squeezed his hand through to open the door. As they dragged the driver out, a brown shoe snagged on the door frame and slipped from his foot. Tonya fought a mad impulse to run after it like she did a hundred times a day for Byron. They had the man on the ground now. A guy in a gray sweatshirt started CPR. All stilled, no voices, no breeze, no rumble of traffic; everything held its breath as the man tried to revive the victim’s heart.
Overhead, a neon green gecko peered down from an insurance billboard. A siren howled in the distance. Tonya rested her head against her son’s blond curls as police cars and ambulances halted in front of them. Byron blinked up at the strobing lights. Pretty,
he said.
Yes they are,
she answered. Soon the road teemed with police and EMTs, the quiet replaced with shouts and the clatter of equipment being unloaded. They put the man on a gurney and secured an oxygen mask to his face, which had to mean he was still alive. One EMT made a few muffled comments into a radio as they hoisted him into the back of one of the ambulances.
The EMT who came over to Tonya was mannish, with the uneven cropped hair of someone who’d taken scissors to herself. John would call her a lesbo, but John was not there, thank God.
I understand your little boy was injured?
she said.
Tonya eased Byron to the ground. He whimpered, eyeing the woman with the skepticism of a terrified two year old. His arm,
Tonya said.
Was he in a car seat?
Yes.
But he hadn’t been just a moment before, when he’d twisted out of the straps and she had bribed him with the promise of a cookie to get him secured again. The car seat fell over in the accident.
The woman eyed the inside of the van. That’s probably a good thing.
Good because the Lexus had caved in Byron’s door and his fragile little bones stood no chance against the grill of that metal beast. Good because her son might not be alive right now. Tonya closed her eyes against the what-if’s swarming her mind.
When a police officer approached and asked for her license and registration, she returned to her car. Her purse was on the passenger seat, and the registration was buried in the repair invoices that stuffed her glove box, which John was always telling her she needed to clean out. As she squeezed back into the van, she noticed her cell phone trembling on the vinyl. She grabbed it with her purse and a fistful of crumpled papers from the glove compartment.
The EMT said, Okay, buddy, can I take a peek at your tummy?
She lifted Byron’s sweater to reveal an angry red stripe bisecting his ribs. He screamed when she touched his shoulder.
Shhh,
Tonya soothed, her hand on his head.
Could be a collarbone fracture. Best to take him to the hospital and let the docs take a look at him,
the EMT said.
Hospital. The word echoed.
The officer held out a hand. Tonya pawed through her purse for her license, but lost her grip on the pile of clutter so that everything hit the sidewalk. The cell phone clacked against the concrete. Damn it.
The creased registration landed on top of a Jiffy Lube invoice, so she gave it to the officer. The EMT had a stethoscope pressed against Byron’s chest, which had him distracted. Tonya answered the phone.
Tonya? Where the hell are you? Jamison’s furious,
Marion, her officemate, said.
I’ve been in an accident. The car’s—the car’s a mess. And Byron got hurt and we have to take him to the hospital. And the other driver, I’m not even sure he’s going to make it and—
The words exploded from her mouth.
Oh no,
Marion said softly. Okay, take it easy. Is Byron hurt bad?
His arm—just his arm, we think.
Okay. Want me to meet you at the hospital?
No. I’ll call John.
She would, but not yet.
As she hung up the phone, she heard a tentative Mommy?
A tearful Byron came to her and as she lifted him, he tucked his head under her chin. When he curved into her like this, when his little body nestled into her flesh, it was like he was secure again in her womb, like they were one creature, sharing blood and oxygen and life.
Nothing made her feel this complete. She wanted to stay in this moment, apart from the police and the crash and the waiting ambulance and the call she had to make to John.
Ma’am?
the EMT startled her. Can I take a look at your nose?
She let the woman check her, then answered her questions about the date, the president, and other meaningless stuff. Gentle hands probed her nose and cheekbones, as Byron’s head lolled against her breast.
Okay, Mrs. Ladson, let’s get your boy into the ambulance.
She didn’t remember telling anyone her name. She imagined there might be a lot about this day she wouldn’t remember, but some things she’d never, ever forget.
She groped for the phone in her pocket, took a deep breath, and dialed her husband’s number.
BECCA HASTINGS HESITATED ON the stairs leading to her third floor English class so that her best friend Kayla could catch up. Check out what Amanda Howard has on. Her pants are so tight I can see her butt crack!
Kayla said.
Gross,
Becca answered.
If I ever look like that, do the humane thing and shoot me.
Kayla swiped her lips with petal-pink lip balm.
As if on cue, Amanda Howard pushed past them, her hip-hugging capris riding the waves and valleys of cellulite. Becca slipped her hand down to her own behind, wondering how she might look from this angle.
I mean it, Becca. Shoot me.
You don’t even have a butt.
It annoyed Becca that Kayla wore a size three without trying, that she ate a Snickers bar every single afternoon with her Diet Coke, and her stomach stayed flat as a tabletop.
I need to make a stop,
Becca said.
Be quick, or Mr. Brunson will write you up.
Becca backed in through the door of the women’s room, waving Kayla on to class. She dropped her books on the counter and stood before the mirror, twisting around to take in her own backside view. Still too big, but maybe not as bad as Amanda’s. She frowned at the rest of her reflection. She had dieted for seven months. Did the Hip-Hop workout on DVD and ran three miles every single day, yet still so fat.
She lifted her shirt. Maybe a little progress? The ridges of her ribs made a ladder up her chest. Her pants had to be gathered and pinned. Once she lost ten pounds more, she’d pierce her navel and insert a gold ring, like Kayla had, and Dad would completely flip out. She smiled at the idea, seeing Dad’s face turn red as a stop sign, hearing Mom rant about the danger of infection. Her parents were so pathetic.
She rested a hand on the pitted, cold porcelain sink and caught a faint whiff of vomit, an odor that no longer bothered her. A bell signaled it was time for English where Mr. Brunson, the artist-in-residence, was making them do poetry. He had long hair and his arms and face had dark freckles like pixels in an out-of-focus picture. Mom’s friend Royce had freckles like that but his were reddish orange. Becca had only seen Royce twice but remembered every detail about him: how he was barely taller than Mom. How his two front teeth overlapped like crossed fingers. How his grip squished her knuckles when they met.
He has an artist’s hands,
her mom had said.
Becca hoped she never laid eyes on Royce again.
She collected her things and opened the door right into Dylan Dreher, a collision that sent her purse and backpack crashing to the floor.
Oh, Jeez. I’m sorry.
Dylan dropped to his knees to gather her stuff. Didn’t mean to clobber you like that.
I think I’m the one who did the clobbering.
Becca wondered how the fates would pick this particular boy for her to slam into.
You okay?
Dylan gave her that big dimpled grin she’d seen a thousand times from across the arc of desks in Mr. Brunson’s class.
Yeah,
she muttered as she tried to think of what else to say.
He handed her the purse and toothpaste tube that had rolled across the floor. Great. He’d think she was some teeth-cleaning nerd. I should do that, too,
he said. After two years in braces, I should do better with my teeth.
She remembered the braces. They had been blue, like his eyes.
Looks like we’re both late for Brunson’s poetry fest. Wish I could cut it,
he said.
I do, too.
She leaned against the wall to demonstrate how she was not in a hurry to get to class.
You know, he smokes like a chimney. I caught him outside the cafeteria the other day, doing that chain smoking thing, lighting one cigarette with the burning nub of another.
You can smell it. And what’s with the long hair?
she asked.
Dylan looked away and Becca felt like a complete idiot: Dylan’s hair fell in thick curls to his collar. Horrified, she went on, I mean, long hair is great on guys under thirty, but Brunson’s ancient. Maybe he’s one of those hippie types from the sixties or something.
Dylan seemed to perk up. I bet he smokes weed. Doesn’t he look like the type?
Definitely.
Becca didn’t know anyone who did weed, except maybe a few musician friends of Elliott’s. She’d tried it once and didn’t like it.
There’s a teacher at the high school who deals to the students. My brother heard it from one of the ballplayers.
For real?
Becca couldn’t wait to start high school next year. At five foot-seven, Becca towered over half the guys in her grade, but not Dylan. Dylan had an inch on her. She loved his wide shoulders and narrow waist and hoped he didn’t plan to play football like his brother.
Guess we’d better head to class,
he said. He started to move but hesitated. Hey, wanna eat lunch some time?
What?
Her mouth dropped open. She probably looked like a guppy. He stepped back, his eyes downcast, and started to turn away.
What a moron she was. Her one chance and—No, wait!
she yelled. I’d like to. Sometime.
Okay, we’ll do it sometime.
He still wasn’t looking at her, and she had a feeling sometime might never happen.
Tomorrow’s good for me,
she blurted out, a brave move, a risk, but this might be her only chance. We could meet outside the cafeteria.
He turned, his dimpled smile as warm as sunlight. That would be good.
They caught a break in English class because Mr. Brunson wasn’t there yet. They both scurried to their seats, Kayla staring wide-eyed at Becca when she saw who she was with. How’d that happen?
she whispered.
He wants to have lunch with me tomorrow.
She still couldn’t believe it. What would she wear? The right outfit would be crucial. Nothing too prim or nerdy, but nothing that made her look fat. If she could just get rid of those last ten pounds.
Becca Hastings?
Mr. Brunson stepped in the room. Can I see you for a second?
Damn,
she muttered, standing. She glanced over at Dylan, who shrugged back. Mr. Brunson held the door, beckoning her into the hall where the principal was standing. She was in trouble this time.
Becca,
the principal said softly. I’m afraid I have some bad news. It’s about your father.
My father?
She looked at him, wondering what he was talking about. Her dad was fine. She’d just seen him that morning.
There was an accident. He and your mom are at the hospital right now. Your brother is coming to get you.
An accident?
No, that wasn’t right. It couldn’t be. Becca had just seen him. He had kissed her head and—
. . . accident was bad, I’m afraid,
Dr. Lowery’s lips looked like blubbery worms as he kept talking, but Becca couldn’t make sense of what he was saying.
. . . . brother will tell you about it when he arrives.
Sims is coming?
she interrupted. When?
Mr. Brunson laid a gentle hand on her shoulder, and she pulled away from it. I’m sure your dad will be okay.
My mom was sick,
she said. Last year she had cancer. She’s better now though.
Mr. Brunson and Dr. Lowery exchanged strange looks, like they felt sorry for her. She didn’t want their pity. That’s good, Becca. Maybe your dad will be better, too.
Mr. Brunson sounded false, like he didn’t believe it for a second, and it scared her. She wanted to get away from the two men. Away from the school. Away.
Let’s head to my office. We’ll wait for Sam—
Sims,
she corrected.
We’ll wait for Sims there.
CHAPTER 3
Sandy Albright stood in front of her locker at Mercy General Hospital, relieved to see her name still there; she hadn’t been entirely erased. It was her first day back on the job after a twelve-week suspension, and she was more jittery than when she began her career fourteen years before. She wondered how people would treat her. Who on the nursing staff knew.
She found her scrubs, and though the drawstring had to be loosened, the top still fit despite the six