The Battle Within: What if your inner voice took control?
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THE HIJACKING OF THE MIND IS THE BASIS FOR THIS SPINE-CHILLING THRILLER...
Everything was normal until the intrusive, malevolent voice in his head tore into Andreas' life, pitching him into open warfare. He must win the battle for sanity before he loses it all. With taunting, psychological torture and the hijacking of his mind
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The Battle Within - Romaine Davidson
Prologue
The feeling twisted and pulled in my stomach as the pen formed words from the heart. Sometimes I like to get away from the pace of life in the city. I like this field and this bench where I am now sat; it is where my grandparents used to take me on the weekends, and it brings memories of joy as a child. I love you Grandma and Granddad
I murmur as a gush of wind travels through the follicles of my hair causing a warm sensation in my stomach. The open air of magical colours, sprawling valleys with beautiful flowers and green grass accompany me.
It was a great day at work
I continue to write in my diary. Mr Sam and Miss Kate in particular was the highlight of my day. This is a letter to my future self, a letter of hope and aspiration. I long for a child, one I could love as pure as I do Andreas, his love for me takes away all fear and pain, his security is that of three hundred soldiers.
I take a break from writing to view a magpie chasing the other and in the distance others walk.
I’ve worked at the care home for some time now. Occasionally I meet some interesting people. I chuckle to my giddy self as I remember a time Miss Kate told a story of how she met her soul mate, a true gentle soul,
I concluded.
Old Sam has been asking me if I’m happy. I know I’m happy. Despite all the challenges I always have the strength to carry on, but Andreas completes me. I know he is struggling right now but I will always be there for him. I turn my attention away from the memories and notice an elderly man in a wheel chair is being pushed down the field towards me.
There is a young boy beside him - no more than ten years old. Perhaps a little older. He holds a ball in his hand. When they get close to me they smile and I smile back.
Your Grandpa?
I ask the boy.
Yes,
he says.
I end the brief encounter with a smile that warms me, hugging my body like the comfort of a freshly washed jumper. They walk off into the distance and my mind wonders, thinking of whether they are OK. The sun begins to fade and time is going.
I need to get back.
The street lights are on all over as I gaze out the window of the bus. Perhaps Andreas is not back yet,
I wonder as I press the bell and begin a descend down the stairs. But then his evening plans are rather unpredictable, and he could be hanging out with Rob,
I end by saying.
Hello, Nicole,
Elise greets me as I get closer to the bottom stair.
Hello, Elise,
I respond, rather surprised.
The teenage girl in Number Eight,
she said. Her mother is sick.
Oh no! She lives alone with her mother, doesn’t she?
Yes, she does.
Dear God! Where is she? All alone in the house?
No, I’m looking out for her until her aunt comes to help out.
That’s very kind of you, Elise. I’ll pass by and see how she’s doing.
I walk with Elise to her door and we walk in. The girl is sitting on a sofa, staring vacantly at the TV. She must be sixteen or so. The room is in a mess that matches her current situation. So young, I say to myself. Her name is Claire.
Hello Claire,
I greet as I sit beside her, taking her hand and noticing how particularly soft they are. Your mother will be fine,
I whisper, wishing to take away her pain. I can see that she has been crying, and the signs of grief and the unthinkable cloud her eyes.
She stares at me and nods slowly.
You’ll be fine love,
I repeat, and she hugs me as if she wants to say thank you.
It is past eight PM when I finally leave to go to my apartment. By then Claire is asleep, mercifully.
Andreas is sitting facing the already turned off TV when I walked in, and he turns. His eyes brightens.
For some reason I recall the first day I saw Andreas. My intention was to be a friend – to give him a shoulder to lean on. He seemed like a troubled man. From the moment I saw him I knew he was kind, harmless and a loving soul. Our friendship developed into the most loving relationship.
I picked up the pen again and concluded the chapter in my diary with a simple phrase. My life has changed.
I put my diary on the bed side table and stand staring at Andreas as he sits there. I have a feeling that he is fighting an invisible battle. One he won’t share with me. The best I can do is wait and hope he’ll talk to me. I tried yesterday to get him to open up without success. But whatever it is he is going through seems to have frightened him. He seems like a man facing something beyond his imagination – beyond his worst fear. He seems like a trapped man.
CHAPTER 1
The clock above the fridge read just past midnight.
I’m usually in bed by now, but tonight was unusual, it was only a couple hours since the lights in the flat went out. The whole block was a victim to the darkness and the sound of shuffling and scrambles for candles was evidently clear.
Get the torch in the cupboard by the scissors! HURRY!
was the cry from our neighbour. We chuckled with humour- Nicole and I; this was our first-time experiencing a power blackout - was I scared or anxious? Erm, I don’t think so.
Minutes ticked by, and still there was no light. Nicole was asleep on the couch as I sat beside her, but I couldn’t close my eyes for one reason or another. I was tired from a long day at work listening to the sound of my boss shouting and screaming at the fact that the deadline was close and the presentation was not yet ready. The denial in his tone suggested self-guilt and we all blamed him. Now I lay on the couch trying to catch some sleep, but something or someone kept my eyes from closing.
The power had wiped out our usual distractions, no wifi, no radio, no tel-lie-vision, and the sound of heavy raindrops battering the roofs and cars sounded louder than they normally would. I wanted to believe that it was the rain that kept me awake but its sound was in fact a sweet melody to my ears, though at times it resembled a creepy horror movie.
The clock ticked on, 3a.m. Now my neck was hurting, a result of the constant pressure of supporting my dozing and swaying head. My eyes were losing the battle to stay open, but they opened instantly when I heard the eerie sound of feet on the floor boards of the creaky stairs.
No one ever comes to this block, especially at this time.
My eyes were no longer heavy as I nervously wondered. Strange voices came to my ears from outside the door, and it sounded as if a discussion or argument was in full swing. Were we about to be robbed? What type of weapon did these unwelcome night lurkers carry with them? Gun? Knife? I wondered, with my heart in my mouth, it pounded, raced, and the apprehension could be heard through the whistling of my lips.
Nicole was still fast asleep. My beloved, loving, loyal Nicole. The apple of my eye and my inseparable fiancée. She is as loyal to me as I am to her. I could never imagine the future without her standing by my side. If my mind travelled to a time ten years from now and I was standing in the yard of our suburban house, then she was right there by my side while the cool breeze graced our faces and the unison of birds was our banquet. She was as much a part of my future as she was of my present. I knew it in my heart. If every friend I ever had decided to turn away, Nicole would be the one left standing by my side.
I shone a torch through the keyhole.
The eyes of the intruders peered through the hole in the door, and it startled me to a dramatic jump - as if a spider was near. My heart skipped a beat. The hole was only the size of a key, the eyes had powers in them, the hollow grey pupils was the give away. I was able to observe that much: each time it blinked it eased the melting of my skin; it was fiery, peppery and it scorched. I breathed a sigh of relieve each time it blinked, then it opened again to continue the torment. My breathing increased with every gasp of air I searched for and it sounded like a panic.
I shouted without alarming her: They see my every move, and it frightens me.
I trembled in fear. I could taste their intentions as I whispered for fear of being heard, and so I searched her eyes with the hope that she would offer some kind of support, but she was still dead to the world. My voice deepened as I said in a stern tone: They are bad people, they smell of trouble, trouble I didn’t commit. I’m afraid Nicole, they’re going to get me. Please don’t let them get me Nicole, please
.
Andreas!
the voice shouted. It was patronising and soft, direct and clear. It continued, I knew your parents, I knew their voices, I knew their touch, I felt their kisses on my cheeks.
The voice got deeper and the room instantly chilled.
The sound of rain had disappeared out of range. Strangely, it was as if the droplets had been carried away by the dark clouds, one by one they travelled to another poor soul, the focal point of my ears are now his. I couldn’t see him but I pictured him clean-shaven – so curiously crisp and smooth that it only made him all the more sinister. I began to nudge Nicole to get up but the voice continued, The night of the fire I was there with you, don’t you remember?
he shouted with a vehement tone. I looked at Nicole, wondering if she heard, but she hadn’t. He began to whisper, We spoke of a plan, a plan to keep a little secret, don’t you remember you fool?
his voice escalated, this time with sharp anger on his lips. His voice shot up again as he repeated the question, Oh, what a shame!
he said with disgust. He remained there the whole time as if his lips were chained to the door. I am the one you feared for so long!
he barked. Frightened and shaken, I faded away, sneaked away from the encounter - or did he vanish? I wasn’t sure, but the voice had stopped.
CHAPTER 2
I woke up early that morning drenched from the heat of a typical July, the soaring headache and sore back suggesting little sleep, and the veins in my eyes bloody. Nicole had already left for work. Every morning no later than seven fifty-five she would be out that door, her breakfast prepared and her clothes ironed and spotless. She was quite the organiser, never late. This particular morning, I wondered many times what I would do to keep her around. Telling her what had happened might make her run away. I rolled out of bed and strolled into work that morning, confused at what had happened last night, afraid of the actual answer. Without moving my lips, I mimed, Am I going crazy?
I went through my normal routine. My students took their normal seats in their normal uninterested demeanour, the same normal conversations with fellow teachers took place and the whole day went by without hearing the voice in my head. I was glad, but still confused. Maybe it was a dream, or was that wishful thinking... Despite this feeling, I tried to carry on as normal – at least on the outside.
As the school day came to a close, a moment of relief exited my body, the voice hadn’t shown his face and I was able to continue as normal. I was relaxed and jubilant as I left for the gym that evening.
It was 7.15 p.m. when I arrived. If the voice in my head had a body, it certainly wasn’t visible to my eyes. Or this was just a really long nightmare.
I walked in through the revolving door.
The tang in the air was that of a diabetic foot. The gym was half-full and the smell was unexplainable; I mean, you get used to it after a while, but the initial greeting was never welcoming.
I had decided to meet up with Robin. As I walked in, the clock’s big face and two arms on the wall read seven fifteen. I needed to regain some of my sanity so I called on my good friend Rob. Rob stood a little shorter than I am - he would say he’s taller, but that’s not the case; he has short legs, short torso and sometimes his left leg seems shorter than the right. He would call me fat and I would call him short, that’s just how it was.
Hello Rob,
I would always say, and his typical greeting would always be What’s good?
in a throaty tone that resembled a growl. I think he’s trying to keep hold of his youth, he dresses way younger than a normal thirty-five year old should, his choice of words are parallel to that of a sixteen year old. I looked at him on the exercise bike as his little feet tried to reach the peddles.
Rob!
I shouted over the loud grunts of the weight lifters, I have something really weird to ask you. Now, don’t be alarmed, don’t be extra, I just need an answer,
I had to warn him; he can be a clown when it comes to serious issues - he’s never serious.
Sure, go ahead,
he said with a smirk.
Erm…
I hesitated, then I blurted it out, do you ever hear voices, I mean, the voices that no one else but you can hear, or just a voice in your head?
I continued to explain. Rob took a moment to think about what exactly he was being asked.
No,
he replied, then paused and affirmed again, this time quite gingerly, no, I don’t think so,
with a question mark in his tone.
Before he could get his last, slow words out I jumped in, annoyed at his diagnosis. Well, it happened to me last night. I heard a voice, and in a gravelly tone he said he was there when my parents’ house burnt down.
Rob paused his little legs from peddling, then questioned, The night your parents died?
The voice also said he and I were planning it the whole time, like, what was he talking about? Repeating it shocked me more than the first time. I didn’t understand it then and I don’t understand it now.
My eyes started to water and Rob laid his heavy hand on my shoulder. The session ended uncompleted.
There was a mixture of concern and puzzlement in Rob’s eyes as I walked out of the gym. He would probably have been amused if I hadn’t mentioned my dead parents. He must have realised that I wasn’t in one of my joking moods. I walked purposefully along the pavement, my eyes scanning the passing traffic for a cab, intending to end this day as normal as possible.
The clouds in the sky formed a black hive as the mood was now dull and dry. The moon light shone through the cracks of the hive, exposing a glimmer of hope, abnormal sounds rung my ears that evening and I was afraid of being lonely. I roared out in response, but no sound came out. That day was the first time in a long while that fear hugged me and wouldn’t let go.
The keys in my pocket jingled as I reached the top of the stairs. I opened the front door. Nicole was on the couch, her favourite place after a long day’s work. She was snuggled up with the teddy bear I got her for Valentine’s day. The corridor was scented with the sweet smell of caramel candles, and in the backdrop of the scent was the whiff of cooked carrots or cooked peas, maybe both. The hallway layered with our most precious memories and moments. I glanced at one in particular - the smallest one on a large wall. Ah, that was the evening we went on a lunch date, I recalled; the food was horrible but the drinks saved the date. Nicole insisted that we take photos but I didn’t want to, as usual. Snap, went the camera’s flash, exposing her inability to hear my insecurity even as my face twisted and my eyes were falling out. That was all the camera caught as I tried to turn away, but she got me. I smiled and we both laughed at the crises the whole day had brought. This wall will forever be my sanctuary, a few seconds stop here will always make me happy
I continued in to greet her. It was late, maybe past ten.
Andreas,
a faint voice vocalised.
I scurried through my head for an identity. At first I thought it was Nicole, but the voice was too manly. I replied with confusion in my eyes, but with a deep bearish growl, the voice shouted: You mean to tell me you still don’t know who I am? Come on, Andreas!
The words help me rested as a prisoner behind my teeth; I tried to get it to her ears but their freedom was already taken and I trembled like a cold winter’s night as my body and mind shut down. She looked at me for clarification, but I struggled to find the right rhythm; whatever was leaving my lips wasn’t words, just mere sounds of muddle. I slowed down, drew in as much air as my lungs could hold. Nervous as I was, the words started to make sense as I explained how scared I was, embarrassed and still frightened at the prospect of summoning that thing.
What thing?
she demanded for an answer. I went on. I was able to explain in that very short moment that feeling of loneliness, loss and fear that concealed me. She comforted me with a hug, opening her ears as she heard my cry. It made me feel wholesome that someone wanted me. I wasn’t sure if she understood how I felt, but her embrace was enough. I felt connected once again; I felt safe, my face lit up with delight. She suggested I seek help and she even offered to find it for me, but I declined with embarrassment as the idea of someone finding out that I was going crazy wasn’t an option. I hated the idea; besides, I don’t like people, I reminded her, I wanted to help myself.
What is it about people and society that gets under your skin so much?
she asked.
"Ohm, I don’t know; is it because people are like water with their ability to be shaped by any and everything, or maybe it feels like the world itself is one big scam fuelled by consumption, propaganda messages at every turn? Or the fact that all our heroes are a bunch of liars hiding behind the perfect image, our social media fantasy as a virtual escape? Just a bunch of cowards; no one lives any more, no