The Grieving Brain: The Surprising Science of How We Learn from Love and Loss
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A renowned grief expert and neuroscientist shares groundbreaking discoveries about what happens in our brain when we grieve, providing a new paradigm for understanding love, loss, and learning.
In The Grieving Brain, neuroscientist and psychologist Mary-Frances O’Connor, PhD, gives us a fascinating new window into one of the hallmark experiences of being human. O’Connor has devoted decades to researching the effects of grief on the brain, and in this book, she makes cutting-edge neuroscience accessible through her contagious enthusiasm, and guides us through how we encode love and grief. With love, our neurons help us form attachments to others; but, with loss, our brain must come to terms with where our loved ones went, or how to imagine a future without them.
The Grieving Brain addresses:
- Why it’s so hard to understand that a loved one has died and is gone forever
- Why grief causes so many emotions—sadness, anger, blame, guilt, and yearning
- Why grieving takes so long
- The distinction between grief and prolonged grief
- Why we ruminate so much after we lose a loved one
- How we go about restoring a meaningful life while grieving
Based on O’Connor’s own trailblazing neuroimaging work, research in the field, and her real-life stories, The Grieving Brain combines storytelling, accessible science, and practical knowledge that will help us better understand what happens when we grieve and how to navigate loss with more ease and grace.
Mary-Frances O'Connor
Mary-Frances O’Connor, PhD, is a professor of psychology at the University of Arizona, where she directs the Grief, Loss and Social Stress (GLASS) Lab, investigating the effects of grief on the brain and the body. Her book The Grieving Brain was included on Oprah’s list of Best Books to Comfort a Grieving Friend. O’Connor holds a PhD in clinical psychology from the University of Arizona and completed a post-doctoral fellowship in psychoneuroimmunology at the UCLA Semel Institute for Neuroscience and Human Behavior. Having grown up in Montana, she now lives in Tucson, Arizona.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Dr. O'Connor is not a therapist but a researcher who uses the full range of tools to explore grief, from CT sans and fMRIs to interviews and surveys. The result is an enlightening exploration of grief and how to process and live with it.
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The Grieving Brain - Mary-Frances O'Connor
Dedication
To Anna,
for teaching me there is more to life than grief
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Introduction
Part One: The Painful Loss of Here, Now, and Close
1. Walking in the Dark
2. Searching for Closeness
3. Believing in Magical Thoughts
4. Adapting Across Time
5. Developing Complications
6. Yearning for Your Loved One
7. Having the Wisdom to Know the Difference
Part Two: The Restoration of Past, Present, and Future
8. Spending Time in the Past
9. Being in the Present
10. Mapping the Future
11. Teaching What You Have Learned
Acknowledgments
Notes
Index
About the Author
Copyright
About the Publisher
Introduction
For as long as there have been human relationships, we have struggled with the overwhelming nature of grief following the death of a loved one. Poets, writers, and artists have given us moving renderings of the almost indescribable nature of loss, an amputation of a part of ourselves, or an absence that weighs on us like a heavy cloak. As human beings, we seem compelled to try to communicate what our grief is like, to describe carrying this burden. In the twentieth century, psychiatrists (Sigmund Freud, Elisabeth Kübler-Ross, and others) began describing from a more objective perspective what people they interviewed felt during grief, and they noted significant patterns and similarities among people. Great descriptions were written into the scientific literature about the what
of grief—what it feels like, what problems it causes, even what the bodily reactions are.
I always wanted to understand the why rather than just the what. Why does grief hurt so much? Why does the death, the permanent absence of this person with whom you are bonded, result in such devastating feelings, and lead to behavior and beliefs that are inexplicable, even to you? I felt certain that part of the answer could be found in the brain, the seat of our thoughts and feelings, motivations, and behaviors. If we could look at it from the perspective of what the brain is doing during grief, perhaps we could find the how, and that would help us understand the why.
People often ask what motivated me to study grief and to become a grief researcher. I think this question usually stems from simple curiosity, but also perhaps from wanting to know if they can trust me. You, too, reading this may want to know if I have walked the walk, through the dark night of death and loss, whether I know of what I speak and study. The grief I have experienced has not been any worse than the grief of others I talk to, who describe their loss and their shattered life in the wake of that loss. But I have known loss. When I was in eighth grade, my mother was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Cancerous cells were in every lymph node the surgeon cut out when he did her mastectomy, so he knew it had traveled already to other parts of her body. Because I was only thirteen, I did not learn until many years later that she was only supposed to survive the year. But I knew that grief came to our house, disrupting our family life, which was already struggling through my parents’ separation and my mother’s depression. That house sat high in the northern Rocky Mountains near the Continental Divide, in a rural town that benefited from the presence of a small college, where my father taught. My mother’s oncologist described her as his first miracle
: she lived another thirteen years—a reprieve from the universe for her two teenage daughters (my older sister and me). But in this world, I was my mother’s emotional tonic, her mood regulator. My departure for college, while developmentally appropriate, only compounded her depression. Thus, my desire to understand grief originated not so much from the experience I faced personally after her death, when I was twenty-six, but from a desire to understand my mother’s grief and pain in retrospect, and to learn what I could have done to help her.
I went to Northwestern University just outside Chicago and was eager to escape rural life, to be going to college in a city where more people worked in one block than lived in my hometown. The first time I ever came across a mention of functional neuroimaging was when I read a few sentences in my Introduction to Neuroscience textbook in the early 1990s. Functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) was brand-new technology, available to only a handful of researchers around the world. I was absolutely intrigued. Although I did not imagine that I would ever have access to such a machine, I was excited about the possibility that scientists could see into the black box of the brain.
Ten years later, in graduate school at the University of Arizona, I completed my dissertation, a study of an intervention for grief. A member of my dissertation committee, a psychiatrist, suggested that I had a great opportunity to see what grief looked like in the brain, and he recommended that I invite the participants from my dissertation study to come back for an fMRI scan. I felt torn. I had already completed the requirements for my PhD in clinical psychology. Neuroimaging was a whole new technology to learn, with quite a steep learning curve. But sometimes all the stars align for a project, and so we began the first fMRI study of grief. The psychiatrist, Richard Lane, had done a sabbatical at University College London, where some of the first methods were developed to analyze images from an fMRI scan. Lane was willing to teach me the analysis, but it still felt like an insurmountable task.
And yet the stars were aligned. It just so happened that a German psychiatrist, Harald Gündel, wanted to come to the United States so Lane could teach him neuroimaging methods, too. Gündel and I first met in March 2000 and felt an immediate connection. We shared a fascination for how the brain maintains the human relationships that help us regulate our emotions, and curiosity about what happens when those relationships are lost. Who would have thought that two researchers, born in two different countries and a decade apart, would overlap so much in their interests? Thus, the pieces of the study were in place. From my dissertation, I knew a group of bereaved people who were willing to undergo a scan. Gündel had the knowledge of brain structure and function. Lane had the imaging skills.
One more obstacle required benevolent intervention from the stars. Gündel was only able to come to the United States for a month; I was heading to UCLA for my clinical internship in July 2001. Alarmingly, the neuroimaging scanner at our university medical center was due to be replaced at the only time when we could all converge in Tucson, Arizona. But all construction projects suffer from the same issue: running behind schedule. So, in May 2001, the scanner schedule was empty, but the older scanner was still available. The first neuroimaging study of grief¹ was done in four weeks, record time for the completion of any research project. This book offers you the results of that study, in addition to many more.
Moving to UCLA offered me the opportunity to add another area of expertise to my scientific toolkit. I completed my clinical internship there, a year of clinical work in the hospital and clinics, where I saw clients with a range of mental health and medical issues. Following my clinical internship, I embarked on a postdoctoral fellowship in psychoneuroimmunology (PNI), which is a fancy term for studying how immunology fits into our understanding of psychology and neuroscience. I remained at UCLA for ten years, transitioning to faculty, but eventually moved back to the University of Arizona. I run the Grief, Loss and Social Stress (GLASS) lab there, a fulfilling role that enables me to teach graduate and undergraduate students and direct the clinical training program. Now my days are quite varied. I spend hours reading research studies and designing new ones that will probe the mechanisms of the ephemeral experience of grief; I teach undergraduates in classes large and small; I work with other clinical psychologists around the country and the world to help shape the direction of the field of grief research; I mentor graduate students, helping them to develop their own scientific models, write manuscripts to disseminate their findings for the field, and give talks in our local community; and perhaps most important of all, I encourage each student’s gift for scientific thinking and urge them to show us their unique view of the world through a scientific lens.
Although my roles as researcher, mentor, professor, and writer mean I no longer see clients in therapy, I have many opportunities to hear about people’s grief through extensive interviews I conduct in my research. I ask all sorts of questions, and I also try to listen closely to the kind and generous people who are willing to share their stories with me. Their motivation for participating, they tell me, is to share their experiences with science so that science might be able to help the next person who goes through the awful aftermath of losing a loved one. I am grateful to each of them and have tried to honor their contributions through this book.
Neuroscience is not necessarily the discipline that springs to mind when thinking of grief, and certainly, when my quest began, that was even less the case. Through my years of study and research, I eventually realized the brain has a problem to solve when a loved one has died. This is not a trivial problem. Losing our one-and-only overwhelms us, because we need our loved ones as much as we need food and water.
Fortunately, the brain is good at solving problems. In fact, the brain exists for precisely this function. After decades of research, I realized that the brain devotes lots of effort to mapping where our loved ones are while they are alive, so that we can find them when we need them. And the brain often prefers habits and predictions over new information. But it struggles to learn new information that cannot be ignored, like the absence of our loved one. Grieving requires the difficult task of throwing out the map we have used to navigate our lives together and transforming our relationship with this person who has died. Grieving, or learning to live a meaningful life without our loved one, is ultimately a type of learning. Because learning is something we do our whole lives, seeing grieving as a type of learning may make it feel more familiar and understandable and give us the patience to allow this remarkable process to unfold.
When I talk to students or clinicians or even people sitting next to me on a plane, I find they have burning questions about grief. They ask: Is grief the same as depression? When people do not show their grief, is it because they are in denial? Is losing a child worse than losing a spouse? Then, very often, they ask me this type of question: I know someone whose mom/brother/best friend/husband died, and after six weeks/four months/eighteen months/ten years, they still feel grief. Is this normal?
After many years, it dawned on me that the assumptions behind people’s questions demonstrate that grief researchers have not been very successful at broadcasting what they have learned. That is what motivated me to write this book. I am steeped in what psychologist and grief researcher George Bonanno termed the new science of bereavement.² The type of grief that I focus on in this book applies to those who have lost a spouse, a child, a best friend, or anyone with whom they are close. I also explore other losses, such as the loss of a job, or the pain we feel when a celebrity whom we admire greatly and have never met dies. I offer thoughts for those of us who are adjacent to someone who is grieving, to help us understand what is happening for them. This is not a book of practical advice, and yet many who have read it tell me they learned things they can apply to their own unique experience of loss.
The brain has always fascinated humanity, but new methods allow us to look inside that black box, and what we can see tantalizes us with possible answers to ancient questions. Having said that, I do not believe that a neuroscientific perspective on grief is any better than a sociological, a religious, or an anthropological one. I say that genuinely, despite devoting an entire career to the neurobiological lens. I believe our understanding of grief through a neurobiological lens can enhance our understanding, create a more holistic view of grief, and help us engage in new ways with the anguish and terror of what grief is like. Neuroscience is part of the conversation of our times. By understanding the myriad aspects of grief, by focusing in greater detail on how brain circuits, neurotransmitters, behaviors, and emotions are engaged during bereavement, we have an opportunity to empathize in a new way with those who are currently suffering. We can allow ourselves to feel grief, allow others to feel grief, and understand the experience of grieving—all with greater compassion and hope.
You may have noticed that I use the terms grief and grieving. Although you hear them used interchangeably, I make an important distinction between them. On the one hand, there is grief—the intense emotion that crashes over you like a wave, completely overwhelming, unable to be ignored. Grief is a moment that recurs over and over. However, these moments are distinct from what I call grieving, the word I use to refer to the process, not the moment of grief. Grieving has a trajectory. Obviously, grief and grieving are related, which is why the two terms have been used interchangeably when describing our experience of loss. But there are key differences. You see, grief never ends, and it is a natural response to loss. You will experience pangs of grief over this specific person forever. You will have discrete moments that overwhelm you, even years after the death when you have restored your life to a meaningful, fulfilling experience. But, whereas you will feel the universally human emotion of grief forever, your grieving, your adaptation, changes the experience over time. The first one hundred times you have a wave of grief, you may think, I will never get through this, I cannot bear this.
The one hundred and first time, you may think, I hate this, I don’t want this—but it is familiar, and I know I will get through this moment.
Even if the feeling of grief is the same, your relationship to the feeling changes. Feeling grief years after your loss may make you doubt whether you have really adapted. If you think of the emotion and the process of adaptation as two different things, however, then it isn’t a problem that you experience grief even when you have been grieving for a long time.
You can think about our journey together through this book as a series of mysteries that we are solving, with part I organized around grief and part II organized around grieving. Each chapter tackles a particular question. Chapter 1 asks, Why is it so hard to understand that the person has died and is gone forever? Cognitive neuroscience helps me to address this question. Chapter 2 asks, Why does grief cause so many emotions—why do we feel such strong sadness, anger, blame, guilt, and yearning? Here I bring in the theory of attachment, including our neural attachment system. Chapter 3 builds on the answers in the first two chapters with a follow-up question: Why does it take so long to understand that our loved one is gone forever? I explain the multiple forms of knowledge that our brain holds simultaneously to think through this puzzle. By chapter 4, we have enough background to dig into a primary question: What happens in the brain during grief? However, to understand the answer to this question we also consider: How has our understanding of grief changed over the history of bereavement science? Chapter 5 looks with more nuance at why some people adapt better than others when they lose a loved one, and asks, What are the complications in complicated grief? Chapter 6 reflects on why it hurts so much when we lose this specific beloved person. This is a chapter about how love works, and how our brain enables the bonding that happens in relationships. Chapter 7 addresses what we can do when we are overwhelmed with grief. I rely on clinical psychology to delve into answers to this question.
In part II we turn to the topic of grieving, and how we might go about restoring a meaningful life. Chapter 8 asks, Why do we ruminate so much after we lose a loved one? Changing what we spend our time thinking about can change our neural connections and increase our chances of learning to live a meaningful life. Turning from focusing on the past, however, leads us to the question in chapter 9, Why would we engage in our life in the present moment, if it is full of grief? The response includes the idea that only in the present moment can we also experience joy and common humanity, and express love to our living loved ones. From the past and present, in chapter 10 we turn to the future and ask, How can our grief ever change, if the person will never return? Our brain is remarkable, enabling us to imagine an infinite number of future possibilities, if we harness this ability. Chapter 11 closes with what cognitive psychology can contribute to our understanding of grieving as a form of learning. Adopting the mindset that grieving is a form of learning, and that we are all always learning, may make the winding path of grieving more familiar and hopeful.
Think of this book as having three characters. The most important character is your brain, marvelous in its ability and enigmatic in its process. It’s the part of you that hears and sees what happens when your loved one dies and that wonders what to do next. Your brain is central to the story, built from centuries of evolution and hundreds of thousands of hours of your own personal experience with love and loss. The second character is bereavement science, a young field full of charismatic scientists and clinicians, as well as the false starts and exciting discoveries of any scientific endeavor. The third and final character is me, a griever and a scientist, because I want you to trust me as your guide. My own experiences of loss are not so unusual, but through my life’s work, I hope you may see through a new lens how your brain enables you to carry your loved one with you through the rest of your life.
Part One
The Painful Loss of Here, Now, and Close
Chapter 1
Walking in the Dark
When I am explaining the neurobiology of grief, I usually start with a metaphor that is based on a familiar experience. However, for the metaphor to make sense, you have to accept a premise. The premise is that someone has stolen your dining room table.
Imagine waking up thirsty in the middle of the night. You get out of bed and head to the kitchen to get a glass of water. Down the hall, you cross the dark dining room toward the kitchen. At the moment that your hip should bump into the hard corner of the dining room table, you feel . . . hmm, what is it you feel? Nothing. You are suddenly aware that you don’t feel anything in that spot at the height of your hip. That is what you are aware of—not feeling something, something specific. The absence of something is what has drawn your attention. Which is weird—we usually think